Single life after a mastectomy
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good morning, well got some sleep not more than 4 hours but at least that.
Going for my walk now and some weight exercise. I started to include some weight to my routine and it's hurting so I feel like I am doing something lol
I just hope I can get the muscles to tone up faster specialy my legs cuz i feel the legs aren't looking tone enough. My arms got much better just by walking nut the legs need way more weight to improve.
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I am going for a walk too E.......
Morning ladies. Going in at 3p for an extra shift.....
Tired of being at home and really not motivated to do the Pre-Fall cleaning I had planned. UGH. Maybe next weekend. I did cut 10 large gowns........I am getting better. Too many dresses are in multiple panels, which makes it hard to accomodate a large or even medium gown. I'll see what my CW says about what I have done so far.
have a great one ladies
xoxoxoxoxoxo
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Hi ladies- back from my networking breakfast and some errands afterwards. I have not been to one of these breakfast events before (only the monthly dinners), and had been told the guy who runs it is not a good speaker and just blabs on and on. That is exactly what happened today. Plus, we were supposed to be there from 7-8:30 a.m. and were told a bit after 7 a.m. there was a conflict with the room and we had to be out by 8 a.m. People had to order at different times, food came at different times. The whole thing was rushed and did not flow.....
I did take the opportunity to pitch the upcoming technical fiesta that will be happening the second week of Sept. I am helping to put together an entreprenuers panel with questions we will do Q&A around for what will be a group of about 100 plus at a Women in Tech luncheon. We just got our info on the web page yesterday, so I am starting to promote it starting today. I might offer to speak at this other group at some point, but right now am focused on my upcoming panel which will be GREAT for professional exposure and work opps. I try to do a few presentations a year, but the past few years, been doing about one a year given all that has gone on. I am very excited about this panel presentation next month!
Onward to getting a few business things taken care of and then going to get to the chore of cleaning the grout in my kitchen.
I hope everyone's walk went well and I hope to do the same later if the rains don't return tonight.
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water is not clear today and very windy looks as if it will rain, did my walk and now just sitting by a bench, brought my crochet with me so I will do some crochet here byvthe lake
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i am sitting on a rock doing my crochet lol
That is my view from here
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Enerva- beautiful time by the lake. I like that you brought your crochetting with you.
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This is a very well thought out article on the passing of Robin Williams.
http://sethadamsmith.com/2014/08/11/robin-williams...
It is so clear to me today how many lives he touched. Someone said it on tv today, the man did not have an enemy in the world.
I pray he is at peace and also that his family can get through the difficult days, weeks and months ahead.
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it is so sad
I am more mad about his wife, how do you get up and leave your home to get what ever and you don't realize your Dh is dead? Wth? Anyway it's just too sad and upsetting
I finished the top for my niece and will send it tmw
Hope we get some rest tonight
Hey my friend asked me out tmw and I said I am not sure I can go lol something is Wierd I am now back in my cave as if I don't want to meet him.or anybody. Do that makes any sense? It's like I can now sense he may be into me and I am not looking forward to it. A few weeks ago I was ready I had butterfly and now I am back to been scare of what ever. Dobyou guys think it's cuz of my breast and surgery coming up? I feel I just need to hide from the world till my surgery is done. I am not sure if it is depression too. Oh well I hope he doesn't insist tmw
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Hey Enerva- I just think you are not in the mood to socialize right now. It may be because of your surgery, but it may be a lot things. You honor that dear and tell your friend you appreciate the invite, but will see him another time. I get in those places too where I just prefer to retreat into my own world. Sometimes our own company is what we need.
Oh and you don't sound depressed to me either. I know with the news of Robin Williams and his suicide, it makes us all check in with ourselves. You are doing your crafts, getting out for walks, etc. and that all sounds very healthy to me.
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lol Jazz thanks, I think it's just plain fear at the possibility of been with someone I can't really figure out lol
😁 yes I ll keep my distance for now. M
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Enerva- I know with all my surgeries, I could not think of anything except being rested and having everything in order so I felt prepared to go and also when I got home. The most important thing you need to do right now. My guess is he is not going anywhere.
I hope BB is doing okay.
I am ready to crash for the night. I hope you all sleep well.
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good night Jazz,
Piper I think you asked me how mom ended up here. I sponsored her to come live with me. I first sponsored one of my nephews. When I was 9 my older sister had her baby boy and a year later her husband die in a car accident, after her hd die she gave the baby to mom. Yes mom raised him as if she didn't have enough with the 10 she had lol. My father past away when I was 8 years old. My father had a heart condition and took a pill under his tongue every day for his blood pressure and heart. Then my older brother was a headache he was always in trouble and drinking with his friends and been a trouble teen. So one day my father just decided to stop taking the pills and mom didn't know. So one day a heart attack came and we lost him. I guess it was kind of a suicide
that's why i got piss at robin Williams cuz i am still mad at my dad. Anyway mom raised the boy and I grew up with the little guy as if he was my youngest brother. So when I had a chance here in Canada I went home and went to court, my sister who never really care for him had no problem signing papers so I became his legal guardian. Ibtook him when he was 13 years old. He is now 27 and married here in Canada but I don't see much of him. He lives far from where I live and his wife is very controlling lol then I decided I wanted to bring my mom cuz she was sick and deteriorating fast. My siblings try their best but they had their lives so she was most times in my sister s. Apt and never went out no where. I took her here I gave her a better life, took her out with me everywhere, but Alz came fast along with other sickness. Then after 3 years caring for mom bc came and then I lost her.
anyway it's all ok now I am ok and I am still here somehow.
I have to tell you a secret. I am not taking the depression pills lol I am sure I can manage without it.
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life here we are
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E - You have a great big heart.
Adopting your nephew. Bringing your mom to live with you.I can understand how it feels to want to spend time alone, especially when you have an upcoming surgery. Does your friend know about the surgery? If so, I would think he'd understand, too. Hopefully this next surgery will be your last, and then you can move on with your life and not think about surgery anymore.
It's been raining here all day. The sound of rain makes me feel so sleepy.
I hope this will be a restful night finally.Jazz, Piper, Milky, BB (wherever you are), E, everyone - Goodnight!
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night
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Awww... they look so cute and so... wide awake. lol
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Goodnight!
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E...that owl in the knitted cap is YOU!!!
TY for sharing you story.
My shift wasn't bad. The only thing about 3-11 is not being able to go to sleep right away......look who is the wide-eyed owl tonight
Sweet slumber to all..when is comes
xoxoxoxoxoxo
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welcome to the owl club piper lol
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ohhhh now that owl is very pretty....
LOL TY E. I only plan on attending the club this week.
But I know I am in great company
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Channing stopped in to wish you.....Sweet dreams ladies
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Good morning lol well I must say I don't like himbin that picture lol looks too young lol but thanks I appreciate you finding him to say good night. I wonder if he got divorced I am sad he is not happy. I took a pill last night and a tea lol so managed to sleep 7 hours hahahhaha finally.
Hope you did too piper.
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Piper- if those jeans were any lower, you could see the family jewels! LOL. Glad you got through the shift and hope you were able to get some rest.
Enerva- those owls are beautiful. And yes, thank you for sharing your story. You have done much for your family and are a good soul.
Life- I hope you are doing okay and getting some better rest too?
I found what I think is a contract job on line up in Santa Fe that is definitely something I have good quals for. It is with one of my partnering firms, an IT tech firm here in the area I sometimes work through. I reached out to my contact there recently to let her know I am looking again and have not heard back from her. I suspect she is on vacation and called her voice mail last night and her mailbox is full, so I send her an e-mail. I have the name of someone else on the posting and if I don't something by noon today from her in case she is away, and will call him. Will let you know what I find out!
Got some things to get here at the house today and going to a concert tonight with a friend.
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If you have ever seen some of the photos of Alex Minsky.........Nothing left to the imagination
Anyhow, Good morning ladies. I did rest a little. Up before 9am. Waiting out a little morning rain to see if I can get a walk in, take an afternoon siesta and back at the factory tonight at 7p
Great news Jazz......
Enjoy the day ladies
XOXOXOXOXO
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Enerva- you know I was thinking today I think after all you have been through with your family and the time you have selflessly given to others, that your time to find the love you deserve with a man who will love you just as you are is coming. I really do believe that for you. So be patient my dear and know that all things come to us in their own right time.
I also wanted to say that I am sorry that perhaps your father decided to leave this world with not taking his medication. I understand those feelings too. My brother who died at age 40 always had serious respiratory problems his whole life, and was told to stop smoking around age 30 by his doctors or he would be dead by age 40. He used to hide it with the family after that but told me, and I told him he was playing around with his life. He abused drugs and alcohol too. Then the rare lung disease that was lurking came up in his 30s and took him by 40. Although genetic disease took him in the end, but things may have played out differently had he not smoked and done the rest. I will never know, but I have always felt those same feelings about my brother that you had with your dad. I pray your father is at peace now as I do for my brother.
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Thanks Jazz, we are very similar, well my friend sent me a msg asking me when he will see me and I said any time as long as we keep it just the way we have for 21 years lol he then said, it's ok he loves me either way. Which it was such a nice thing to say. This guy has no issue telling me how he cares about me and I think about my ex how he could never say he loved me not even a little
I am honestly enjoying the attention my friend is giving to me and hope I get to enjoy it without ruin our friendship. He seams very ground and mature so it's nice to know he is clear I am not ready for anything else right now.
As per my father I don't know if I could ever forgive him, my mother had to race the house alone with bad men teenagers and she did a great job she never remarry and dedicated her life to us she became a nurse and she work day and night shift then my older sisters started working and helping her. I loved my father so much and when he past it just hurt not only me but all of us. I don't believe in spirits anymore but I do hope that if they do exist that he is at peace like you say. I saw my brother beg for his life to god and to my parents spirits and no help came so anyway. There are things I can not understand and I rather not even wonder anymore.
Now what ever happen happens and I will embrace it.
This morning I sent my niece parcel with her new top for her birthday
it turned out really good hope it fits Sending you ladies big hugs
bb, I miss you hope you get your pm fix soon.
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Enerva- forgiveness is a difficult thing to do. Especially when when something hurts you so deep to your core and affects you forever after. One thing I have had to learn about forgiveness is that it is really letting go of the feelings around something, which is not to say what did happen was okay. It took me awhile to separate those two as I grew up with the "turn the other cheek" mentality in my church I grew up in.
When someone does something to me now that is hurtful, I am able to forgive more easily as I just don't want to hang on to the hurt. I realize what they are doing has way more to do with what is going on with them than anything to do with me. But I also don't stick around so much anymore for a second round of hurt.
I am glad you friends makes you feel nice. How sad your ex never could tell you he loved you. Some men are just so emotionally shut down despite so desperately wanting something with someone else. The last guy I was getting into a relationship with was like that. Things did not last long before he disappeared, but I realized quickly he would never be able to be in a relationship with anyone. When I have run into him since, he talks about other women with me like I am supposed to be jealous. But I am not because I know they won't be able to have anything with him either.
Hope everyone is having a decent day. I miss BB too, and hope she comes back soon.
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Jazz that's how I am now, I learner the hard way. I am trying to do what your book said think more like a men ha ha or was it piper who recommended the book? I didn't read the book but I read a few lines on the Internet lol very true and funny. In a way I think I am not Mad mad at dad anymore but when I say I could never forgive him I mean it still hurts me the fact that I can never see him again or talk to him, go fishing stuff we the 3 younger kids were able to do with him. I am mature enough to know that he had his reasons and it must have been very hard for him racing 10 kids and so he had enough and left mom alone. Woman we are the stronger creatures we can endure just about anything life can bring our way. I will try not to see my friend but if he insist I will hang out, at least he knows about my bc and my current situation so I need not to worry much about it. I was thinking maybe that is why he is been xtra nice. Maybe he just wants to be there for me and it's ok I laugh a lot when I am around him and I missed been that happy 😊
Wonder if milky is done with her exams ?
Bb, she has not idea how she is missed around here lol
I need to tell you a history. I will type in my email then comeback here cuz sometimes I lose my post lol
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Enerva- if he knows about your bc and just wants to hang out and if you want to do that, you do it girlfriend.
I am stalking the dermatology group again today as no call back on my message about the skin biopsy results since Monday. I talked to a real person today and she said one of the nurses would call me. I am going to cut out of her in awhile and go swim so I hope they don't call then. Will let you know what I find out.
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i hope it goes ok jazz. I will not say my history it better not happen. It's a silly thing my friend from dever said and kind of got me worry. Never mind. I ll keep an ear for her. She is very stressed these days.
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