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otceb, I too, was hoping for better news for you. Of course we all want it all, and it isn't too much to ask for. It is what should be, but life has a habit of throwing us curve balls.
You come here and vent all you want, we are all here to support you.
I agree with everything that Wren says too. Of course it's in your face right now, but with a plan in place it will become manageable.
Bobo, I know this isn't what you want to do, but I told everyone about my surgery. I don't think I really intended to, but I found myself just blurting it out. I was in such a state of fear and disbelief, It was just what I did. It was definitely the right thing for me because I was able to process it all better, and by being open, I actually met quite a number of others who had the same surgery, or a BMX and they really related well. I found that most people were really interested and even shocked, that I could be out and about so soon. I never had a single negative response, and I've had people seek me out just to find out how I am doing.
I have had people check my rack too, I think it is just an automatic response, when they know about it. I have done the same thing, unintentionally, when someone shares their story with me too.
Please don't think I am saying that you should do this, Bobo, I am just giving you an insight to another alternative.
Fiaranch, I wondered where you were, so sorry you have the flu. I hope you're over the worst of it. "The Claw" from throwing up, just isn't fair! Take care and let us know how you're doing.
ndgirl, you are so right about Bobo sitting for that long at the concert. I hadn't thought about the fold up chairs, yuck! They are the worst at the best of times.
I love that you kept them guessing about which side you'd lost! I find my hand seems to just automatically rest on my right side when I talk about it. I don't know why, nor do I care. It is just all part of me now. I have found that a certain amount of humor has gotten me through too. it just is what it is.
Hugs to everyone...gramwe, I miss you! M x
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Hey y'all. Sitting in the pillow palace waiting for both kids to stop crying so I can do JS. Had it this morning and she showed me a new move for my skin.
My skin either itches or hurts. Almost like the BMX all over again. I wonder if I'm going to have to have PT again on the scar. But I'm not blistered and it's not chemo.
OT. Sorry about your diagnosis. I'm not sure if you can push it to the back and enjoy the holidays. Just try to be in the moment. We'll be here to support you emotionally. I promise chemo is doable and they have meds to take care if the worst SEs.
Wren. Are you fostering two now? Freckles aka ??? And his sister?
Idesim. Hope you're feeling better today.
Spookiesmom. Glad you're better and happy anniversary
M. Glad you found itch relief. It's the worst! Happy anniversary.
Granwe. Hope you're doing ok. I guess it's harder to get away to post if you have OG tied up. Maybe one of your relatives that show up for the holidays can straighten out your computer.
Fia. Hopefully the claw is just because you're still recovering from surgery. Take care of yourself.
GrammaB and ND. White Christmas at your house? It's 50 something here today.
Bobo. Hang in there. Please don't be afraid to rant here. That's what we're for. Eat and rest.
What's everyone's plans? Cooking, snacking, staying home, traveling?
I know M is having lobster and cold potato salad.
Anyone have a good breakfast for Christmas morning? We usually have an Irish fry but I haven't gotten the meats yet. They may be sold out.
We're going to my sister's in town on Sat for family gathering. Snacks only. I'm taking deviled eggs and pickles and ice cream. No pregnant women! Kids love eggs and pickles. My sisters were born on Christmas Eve but I'm not up to making cake so I'm bringing ice cream the baby can have. They are making each other's and neither is cake! A brookie and blackberry cobbler.
Staying home on Christmas. I was dragged around when little and refuse to do that to my kids.
Going to finish shopping tomorrow. Sorry Christmas cards will be late. Boy has half a day. Then have to wrap presents and boil eggs. And pay bills. Yuck!
Have an ultrasound on Monday and a CT the following Monday. Need to go get the turkey out of the freezer for Christmas dinner. DH is cooking again:)
Have a good night. Good morning M.
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Lots of great updates today! I've had the longest day from hell, non stop all day and then had to attend the office xmas party which I just was too tired for. I was a bad girl and had my first sip of alcohol in over a year!! I felt like an errant teenager taking sips from my co-workers solo cup
Otceb, sorry your news wasn't all you wanted it to be. I had a similar experience with my pathology.. found out that there were several other areas in the breast that had malignant cells, and another lymph node had a bit and even the nipple had some cells. I was shaking while she told me, but it just made me even more relieved that the breast was removed and all the bad stuff gone. It is quite common for younger women to go through chemo because cancer in younger women tends to be more aggressive. Yes, it does feel like you are defined by cancer, and truthfully it will for some time, I am just now starting to feel like I am separating from it a bit and getting back into my life and back to my old self. Don't feel bad about having the feelings you are.. we all do.. and most of us are still new to this and have the same exact feelings. You are allowed to feel sorry for yourself, you wouldn't be human if you didn't!! I will be the first to admit that I was a total baby about having to lose my hair during chemo, while others like our Zils, are brave enough to walk around bald, I wouldn't even let Joe see me without hair.. ever. I wore a hat around the house and a cap to sleep in until my hair was a couple inches long. After I lost my hair, I almost called in sick to work that first day that I had to wear a wig, I came very close to calling in sick to work and even worse I broke down crying when I got into work and right off the bat the receptionist complimented my "hair".
Fia, I was wondering where you were.. I hope you are feeling better soon
Bobogirl, I agree with some of the others, that is too long so soon after surgery, listen on your phone or as somebody had the great idea, see if you can get a video. I told you before, please stop saying you are a bad mother, because nothing could be further from the truth. I have similar experience with M, I told everybody that I had BC and told them when it was time for a mastectomy.. why hide it.. and I had not one negative reaction, I had nothing but support. I had one person start acting weirdly around me, one of my bosses.. and I told him to cut the shit and stop treating me different.. just like that.. and he was fine afterwards. As far as staring at your rack? I'm sure they did that even before all of this!!! Weren't you like a DDD?
So friggin what if they look? That's a totally normal reaction. Your brother?!??!! DON'T even get me started.. where was that SOB when you wanted to leave the dog for a couple of days.. did he schlep soup to you like you did for him? Don't let people walk all over you M... omg. that's like over 100 degrees here!! M, I have been doing the same thing, reliving the year. I was in the middle of bi-weekly chemo at this time last year... and I've been mentally counting them down.. Friday will be a year from the 2nd of 12. When I am irritated or impatient with something (like today) I also make myself think back to what was going on a year ago and put myself in check.. it doesn't always work
GB, my entryway is a Zulilly explosion lol
Was your snow pretty this morning?? My favorite is early in the morning after it has snowed all night and it's untouched and the yard is a winter wonderland. We've only had like 6 inches so far in two storms, but I am already over it lol.Geez i should post this.
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Hi Zills, I just got back, had to get out of the heat it is about 39c now and climbing. I am watching my lawn go brown and crispy!
You're so busy, rads are all done aren't they? So it is all healing now for you.
I love French toast made with sourdough bread and smoky bacon with Maple syrup for breakfast. It isn't something that we eat often, but I was introduced to it in a little diner in San Francisco in the early 70's, buy a wonderful waitress named Sunny Kindheart! I have never forgotten that lovely lady, or her great service every morning at that diner.
I have ordered the Crayfish, Prawns and Oysters, and I have the Turkey Breast, Ham, Plum Pudding and all the other bits already. The salad in the garden is about ready, so very little to buy or fuss with. It is usually really hot on Christmas day here.
Just heard that my first husband's Mother, Bec's Grandmother just passed this morning after a heart attack last night. I am not sure now if Bec will be here for Christmas, it depends on the funeral arrangements. I have just had a lengthy phone call with my ex, reminiscing about his Mother, who was quite a character right up till today, in her 90th year! Poor Bec, 2 Grandmas have passed in the past 8 weeks.
Chat later...M x
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Zils, how did it feel this morning not to have to go to rads??? Sorry your skin is bothering you.. try putting that radiation cream (red bottle??) in the fridge and putting it on the area while it is cool. My plans are in laws for Xmas eve where we do a yankee swap and then my mother's house with extended family on Xmas day. I took off Thurs and Friday too.. Thursday we will stock up on marked down xmas stuff for next year and then we are going to New Hampshire to visit friends and no plans yet for after that.. probably stay home and relax.
I'm going to try your wedding cookies this weekend.. as far as breakfast.. I love to do a French Toast bake that you make the night before and throw in the oven in the AM.. probably won't work with the allergies in your house. Are your sisters twins? Not sure if I knew that or not lol. I agree with the dragging kids around, we were always dragged around too and if I had had children, my @ss would be staying home. Gosh, please get your shopping finished tomorrow because it will be a TOTAL madhouse in the stores this weekend. Luckily I am finished, just need food shopping for the baking this weekend.
M, I do the same.. my had goes to my right breast when I talk about it! Too funny!
Ndgirl, I had the bad fortune to not only get BC, but to get the damn thing in October... I couldn't even digest the fact that I had cancer, but I kept seeing that pinktober sh!t at every turn on Facebook!!
Wren, I didn't realize you had two fosters.. what is the female's name and are they both black? I probably missed an earlier post about it. How luxurious having breakfast in bed!! I bet he is disappointed.. I have yet to meet a cat who is into veg and grains
I'm surprised they are comfortable enough so fast to sleep in your bed... I would think it would take a couple of days for that. Agreed with everybody, it is human nature to look, nobody does it to be malicious! We're all just naturally nosy!!!
Bobogirl, Ndgirl is right.. once you bite the bullet and put yourself out there to the public.. it is easy afterwards. I also agree with her to have MD to with your brother (BD?) and give the "womanly" advice he so desperately seems to need!!!! Kill two F birds with one F stone!!
Bobogirl, laughing that you are worried about ranting in a thread you created.. where is my punk@ss B1@tch?!?! I want her back!!!! XXX
Spookiesmom, how are you feeling? I hope whatever the stressful thing was, it's better!
M.... "I am looking out my window, it is 8.20pm and the sun is going down. The
water outside is blue, and the sky is red, fading to pink, and blue.
There are Pelicans on the water and a Kookaburra sitting on my fence. It
is so still and quiet, still very warm, and not a breath of wind".Sounds like paradise or the beginning of a movie!
Sorry if I missed anybody!!
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ldesim, You're a cracker! I love your perception of things. I know I'll be smiling when I read something from you.
"Weren't you a "DDD" So Friggin what if they look!" I am peeing my pants laughing at that one. I must say, I see people checking me out, but they know there's a fake one in there. I had one woman at the Opp Shop say "You don't look like you only have one breast!" I said "That's good, it means the fake one's working!" I really have no idea how to respond to that, but it doesn't bother me a bit. I have had a couple of women come up to me and ask if they can ask some questions because they have a call back at Breast Screen. It is just about the circle, I think. I am happy to chat to anyone who's facing the scary stuff.
I don't know what this re living it all is about, I am fine now, but at 8am I was telling Colin "I had just called you to come get me....remember?" I am exhausted just remembering it all. I think I have gotten it out of my system now. I sure hope so, I don't want it to turn into groundhog day! LOL
It is over 100 degrees here!, I have the air con on in the house, so you'd never know when you're inside, but as soon as you step outside it sizzles. Even the water side is super hot, no cool breeze today. M x
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ldesim, I started all my stuff in October too. I got so much pink shit sent to me it was a pink overload, probably why I can gag at the sight of pink now! M x
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Clearly I have confused everyone. We fostered Freckles' sister, Bear, in the summer and she was adopted in Sept. He was fostered by another foster family. We're just keeping him while they go home for Christmas. They return Jan 2 and will take him back. We just discovered that he likes to drink out of running water in the bathtub like Boris did.
Our traditional Christmas breakfast is tamales. We had a Mexican-American friend who got us started. It's traditional in Mexico to make tamales at Christmas. She had a great story about 5-6 friends getting together and trying to figure out how to do it. They had all watched their mothers, but had not done it themselves. I like them because they're filling enough to last until dinner at 4 or 5pm.
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Zills, so what is an Irish fry for breakfast? sorry that your skin is giving trouble, hope that clears soon. would coconut oil help? your snacks sound great! I so agree with not dragging kids all over on Christmas. We are going to our youngest son's this year, last year were with oldest son and family. So much easier for us to jump in car and go to them instead of them loading so much up to come here, and besides I dont have large enough house for all now... 9 grandkids, 4 extra adults and 1 golden retriever dog!!
We will sure have a white Christmas! but we dont have alot of snow but it wont be leaving any time soon! Unlike Ariom, I love the sound of snow crunching while walking!! boy, that is very hot Ariom! bet it is hard on your lettuce crop.
Fiaranch.. hope you are feeling better, the claw from vomitting is just not right! hugs to you, gentle ones that is!
Idesim, yep we all want our Be@tch girl back! she can rant and rave all she wants, as GB says she will be helping someone else reading this somewhere/somehow~
Take care all and talk later, off to bed, had a wonderful Chinese dinner in Canada with a friend from Norway, sounds crazy huh? She is telling me about going back to Norway for a month and going way up north to meet a friend living there, she says most people here go south for the winter and she is going north! Sounds so interesting, nomadic people there are either fisherman on the coast or reindeer herders! I told her to take lots of pictures and videos, the Northern Lights are amazing there, We have beautiful ones here at times but have heard they are just spectacular that far north!
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Zills, so far not sure if Christmas will be white or just dusted white. One never can tell here. It is certainly cold enough and more snow is predicted! I am so happy for you that you are done with rads!! (happy dance here)
ldesim, LOL, I think that is what is going to happen here tomorrow. I have several packages due to arrive according to the shipping tracking!
My DIL is hispanic, her family does the tamale for Christmas thing. They are in CA, here in MT, I am really missing those great fresh made tamales!!
Ariom, I so love how we have all come together, really worlds apart, you are sweltering, we are barely above freezing and yet we embrace what each of us are going through.
It is late, after 3Am, better post before it is lost...I'm off to bed.
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Bed time for me! We had a cool change come through tonight that was downright chilly. It felt great to throw open all the doors and let the wind blow through the house. Hopefully we will sleep better tonight, it was just awful last night, even with the air con on.
I want to see the "beatch" come back too. I am so concerned about how this surgery has turned out for her, so not what was expected, in any way.
Chat later...M x
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Good morning ya'll. It's great to be here with you, kind of like coming home for the holidays. The mods still have no fix for kindle users and my computer has been out for repairs since the middle of November, so again I'm borrowing so I can speak.
Zills I'm smiling from ear to ear, so glad that you are finished with rads.
Hope that the SE will disappear quickly. I bet the boy and poopy pants are getting excited for Christmas, I so miss having little ones in the house during the holidays. Even though my grands are close by I still miss the everyday excitement. If I don't find a way to go shopping it's going to be a sad Christmas for the grands. 4 days to go and I haven't bought anything, for anyone! Maybe tomorrow. The OG came through surgery with flying colors. Post surgery was a different story. The nerve block he has had in the past surgeries lasted 20 hours, not this time. I brought him home,fed him, popped 3 oxycodone in him, and left him in the care of DS1 while I ran to Target for batteries for his TV remote. As soon as I walked into the store, he phoned to tell me the block was gone, not gradually as in the past either. He was in agony. A massive dose of ibupropen (sp) and sanding cutting boards he had made for the therapy staff got his mind off the pain.. Since then we have been careful not to let pain meds get out of his system. We can see his remaining fingers out of the end of the cast and they look amazing. They are so evenly spaced that you can't tell that one is missing. He has much more mobility with those fingers too. The dressing will be changed on Monday, still aren't sure how long the pins will have to stay in, or how long it will have to stay immobilized.
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Morning/Evening All,
Still suffering with this flu but wanted to check in quickly . I now find out that winning the cancer lottery (BC and lymphoma diagnosis at the same time) will make the flu worse for me - YEAH.
Hope everyone is getting better and ready for the holidays.
Bobo and any others that are worried about ranting . I feel like this ............... Sometimes life is a BULLSHIT SANDWICH and everyday we just get up and take another bite !
I use this forum to keep myself somewhat sane and to talk to others that I can relate to and I no longer care how others will perceive me as life is short and some day's that damn sandwich just tastes worse than others !!
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I shopped for three hours. My armpit is on fire with maybe a touch of the claw. Took Rx ibuprofen. Don't know how you did it and worked Idesim.
Have decided if I don't have it, we don't need it. Going to my sister's tomorrow for family Christmas so almost everything has to be done. I'm tempted to take the boiled eggs and let someone else dress them.
So glad to hear from Granwe. Off to nap while boy watches tv. He's officially on Christmas break for two whole weeks! He said we needed to clean house for Santa so he doesn't step on any crunchy stuff!
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Zills, ouch! That doesn't sound pleasant. Is he old enough to run a vacuum cleaner?
We had the perfect snowfall. Woke up this morning to find a light snowfall that coated the grass and left those little blankets on the trees Rain is predicted later in the day which will get rid of all the slick on the streets. It's 34 right now with a high of 45 predicted. Pretty and without the driving hassle.
Freckles has a potential adopter coming to meet him tomorrow. Maybe he'll find his forever home for Christmas!
Flaranch, Hope you've spoken with your doctor. That's a long time to be sick. Maybe they can prescribe something to calm down your stomach.
I feel for Bobo. I don't think many of us had such a difficult surgery. And we weren't allergic to pain meds. (((((Bobo)))))
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I bought a stick vaccum. Even the baby can use it. They fight over it. Just hadn't gotten it out this week. The house has taken a backseat this week.
That sounds pretty. So glad he might find a home!
An Irish fry is rashers, black and white pudding, sausages usually with egg(s), toast, maybe baked beans and a cup of tea. No potatoes. Sometimes mushrooms or tomatoes fried in the grease.
Bobo. Skip ahead. Rashers is thinly sliced pork loin. Sorta like bacon but with very little fat. Black and white pudding are roll sausages made with oatmeal. They are two separate things. One black and one white. Sausages or bangers are link sausages. Very filling and very salty.
I love tamales. Do you make them? I have helped maybe once. Have a kit in the cabinet to try.
Take care Fia. Have you been fitted for a sleeve yet? They come in colors. Mine is tie dye!
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Just up, and it is sweltering here already!
gramwe, so pleased to see you here! I miss you! I am so glad to hear of the OG's surgery, and can't wait to hear how the unveiling goes. It sounds like they have done a great job of making it look like there was never another finger there. I am sorry about the pain levels though.
I can see you going crazy with the shopping for the children, try to take it easy! Hugs to you and yours!
Fiaranch, I am sorry you are suffering from this rotten flu! I hope it is starting to fade now and you're feeling a bit better. I know that sandwich! You're so right, about life being too short to worry about what people think of you.
Zills, I love it..the boy doesn't want Santa to stand on crunchy stuff! So you best whip out the stick vacuum and let them fight it out!
I am sorry to hear about your reaction to the extended shopping time, but just think, it wasn't long ago that you couldn't have done that. I am so impressed with how you've recovered and gotten your energy back! I hope the burning and the "Claw" are gone now!
I love your Irish fry up, it is so like the Scottish one! I love it too, as does Bec, but I get all the Black Pudding, no one else here will eat it. I love it, and don't care what it's made from. It was nice how you saved that description/recipe in case Bobo may be reading! LOL Bec calls me "The Vampire". Woops, maybe TMI!
Wren, I am picturing your landscape with the snow, just like a post card!
I hope you like the potential adopters and they are suitable for Freckles, that would be a lovely Christmas gift for them both!
I agree about Bobo, this surgery and the aftermath are not at all what was expected by any of us. I for one, expected her to be back here just as her old self, cursing and making jokes about it all by now. I knew the recon was going to throw a bit of pain into the mix, but nothing like this. I also think the anesthesia has had an effect too, that may have made all this Family shit so much worse, and harder to deal with. I am hoping that when MD arrives back, today, isn't it? That things will have improved a bit and things run smoother than they did before she went on the cruise.
I think there is more going on than we know about.....poor Bobo!
I am another who is allergic, or sensitive to pain meds, in fact, most meds. If there is a side effect to be had, I will usually manifest it. I just can't deal with what they do to me. It is usually worse than pain. Fortunately, for me, I can survive on far lower dosages than most. If I find a drug, I can take, I usually won't need as much as anyone else. It's been a nightmare over the years, with the Rheumatoid.
Today is our Farmers Market, so I am taking Dex for a walk and will buy Mango Chutney, Chilli Jam and Dukkah from the English couple for Bec. She loves their home made stuff, as do we!
Chat later....M x
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Hi everyone, thank you so much for all your encouraging words. It means a lot to me. You speak from experience and you give me love and reality checks, thank you! Idesim, I did not know you went through chemo too, I'm sorry to hear this and glad you are well now. Zills, you are quite the role model with how you did not care how others saw you! For me, you will always me the super-hero mom with the blanket! And I will try to take your advice and push it to the back for the holidays. It's not 100% sure that I will need chemo, so it does not do me any good to worry about something that may not happen, and if it does, we'll deal with it then. I admire all of you!
bobo - did you end up going to the concert?
gramwe - glad to hear from you. May I ask, what does OG stand for? When I google it, it comes back with Original Gangster?!
Fiaranch - that's just awful and unfair to get the claw from being sick! Talk about double-whamme! Hope you feel better soon.
Zills - that Irish breakfast sounds great, I love black pudding! I'm with you with the son off school for the holidays, I can see a lot of Lego playing in the coming days!
Wren - good luck with the potential adopter! Enjoy Freckles in the meantime!
Interesting the talk about if we have told people about our sx. Initially I told very few people. My DH, on the other hand, was telling all our friends and all his colleagues, it was funny in a way. I was a bit shy about this personal sx, and told most colleagues that I was having surgery, without specifying BC. But now, I feel like telling everyone, I want people to know what I'm going through! Anyway, we'll see, I remain a pretty private person.
Holidays for us are the 24th at DH's family in the Toronto area, then drive to Montreal (yes, I'm French) on the 25th to spend a few days there with my family. My mother says she has already made tourtiere (meat pie) and ragout de boulettes (pork/veal meatball ragout)... we'll forget about calories for a few days!
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Bonjour comment allez-vous otceb!, Oh how I adore the French language, and the food, and the people...I could just go on and on!
When I worked for United Airlines, we used to do the ground handling for Air Canada. I loved it when French speakers were at my counter, or in the Lounge. I could just listen all day, and I love the accent. I had friends who owned a French restaurant. I worked for them when Bec was young. One of their daughters would baby sit Bec while I worked. It was sensational! They only spoke French in the kitchen, so I had to resurrect my school French to be able to order and converse with the Chef.
I just noticed your post as I was signing out. The OG, is the Vieille Chevre (sp) Old Goat, but said with love! We've never known gramwe's husband by any other name!
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OMG. So much to catch up on. First off. OTCEB. Are you 41? I am 43. I too am sorry your path was not just...perfect. I am so sorry about chemo. But we have some really truly real-ass b1tches on this particular thread who know about all things chemo. Plus, if you want, you can join a thread that has your particular chemo, that starts in your particular month, so you can go through the exact same one with your own sisters. And you can peek at the thread a month or two before that one to see ifyou have any questions.
I did not go to the concert. I listened on the phone. Apparently our princess looked like she would have a seizure in the middle of the concert. DLLP recorded part of it on our camera, and I could hear her say it to one of the teachers. So, that was relaxing viewing. Our princess is fine, though. OG is for Old Goat. Granwe's husband is an Old Goat who is slightly crotchety, and who likes a home-cooked breakfast, that is for sure. I am so sorry about his pain block -- f that! I am happy about the fingers and the spacing. Sweet OG -- making himself feel better by sanding presents! I just love him. Otceb, you should know, when OG gets better he is going to be busy making us all bracelet-moires. Not you. You have to get to the very BACK of the line!
This is because you do not even have bracelets. We were having a bracelet gang for a while. This was started by the current zulily maniac, Idesim. With GrammaB running a close second on that one. I don't even know who came first on zulily, the chicken or the egg. But Idesim was def the bracelets. I jumped on that bandwagon. Idesim was (rightly) getting herself one each time she completed a week of rads. I was having test after painful and humiliating test, so, I thought, F that. I will have a bracelet too. Or, as many as I like. And then we got a gang bracelet (seven swords). These are A and A, by the way. Anyway, we are off bracelets now. I had a horrid endometrial biopsy, and bought myself a real bracelet for that one -- A and A bracelets are not even real! They are just a small treat! And so, anyway, we are not currently buying bracelets, but we all still need bracelet-moires. Our A has a nail polish-moire.Fiaranch, FFFF throwing up and the claw! For those of you who are new, 'F' means 'Fuck.' I threw up many times in the hospital -- many. And every time, my... stitches? Whatever is in there -- just pulled and hurt inside like a claw and it was horrible. I know just how you feel. F that. You need nausea meds. Fenergan. It might be spelled with an I.
I have spent the entire day, until just now, trying to get more pain meds. PS said I could have what I needed, then left town. I realized I had only ONE pm per DAY until tuesday! I have been living like that for two days. It has taken an entire day of phone calls. They treated me like drug addict. If I had taken only what the PS had prescribed -- nothing more -- I would have needed 190 tabs. Since the hospital, I have been given a total of 50. Woke up three times last night crying with pain.
ND, you make me pee dressing up, making your ladies guess which side! You are the best. Birdie, I love my Freckles update. If I said I didn't take a peek, it would be a lie. You are just priceless, plus an increasing vegetarian. I love you more and more.
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I reply to myself. I love tamales. We are making the kids a surprise (vegetarian version) breakfast like the one in little women! Isn't that a great idea?
Ariom, I am so sorry to hear about Bec's grandma. It sure was nice of you to reminisce with your ex. Does that really mean you won't see her at Christmas? You must be heartbroken. Is there any way around it? How are your bites?
Just laid down and dllp has called me -- literally -- seven times. She does not have a brain in her head. She has just been screaming at me. When I fell in shower, she screamed her head off at me, as I said. She is not good at all in a crisis. And tomorrow she must do food shopping on busiest shopping day of year. It will be a miracle if she does not wreck the car and/or if she stays on budget.
Idesim, your Christmas sounds fun, especially post-shopping. What's on coffee table? I texted you that I missed you, but you did not text me back. This means I love you more than you love me. As you can see, real-ass b1tch is not really here. New people, read back a little bit for the real me. In an attempt to get her back, I did some punk sephora makeup shopping today. I've got to get ready to be seen in public. For someone who is having ...recon.. I am amazingly flat. And bleeding through the wound. And the whole thing is a terrible mess. My father, today: So, Bobo, do you feel a lot lighter now without the breasts?
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gramwe, so good to hear from you!! Sorry that OG is dealing with so much pain, but it sounds like the surgery was successful.
fiaranch, so sorry you still are not well. A call to the dr might be in order.
Zills, I agree, that sounds like a big Ouch!! Hope you can get some relief. That food sounds pretty darned good, most of it I could eat too!!
Wren that snow is just now arriving here. But the temp is only 27°F here so any rain behind it will be snow too here. I am sitting in my recliner, looking out my office window at a big wall of white weather spilling over the mountains from Idaho right now. A few spits of snow now but from the looks of things a lot more to come. Under Winter Weather Advisory until 11AM Sat. Crossing my fingers for Freckles. How cool would a forever home be for Christmas???
bobo, F that pain med problem!! Did you get more? Is there another dr you can get an rx from for more? I hope you get that resolved. Being in that much pain is not helping your healing. I think you made the right choice re the concert. Oh dear, so glad the Princess is OK. How scary for her to possibly have had a seizure there in public. Thank goodness she didn't!! Is MD there yet? Hope this visit goes better than the last. (((bobo)))
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Poor Bobo. I don't know what to say. I've been yelling a lot this afternoon. I'm about ready to say F Christmas! I'm glad you got the pain meds straight. That's ridiculous!
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What have you been yelling? They did NOT get it straight. After a whole day, my dad picked up the script, took it to the pharmacy, and they wouldn't let him have it until tomorrow at 8 a.m. because of insurance. He asked to buy it -- or some of it -- but they said the insurance said no.
So that's a whole day, from 8:30 a.m., spent doing this. And no pain meds.
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ldesim, a question re zulily. I have now had 2 items canceled. First a hat $7.99, credit given $10. Today a pair of Crocs $29.99, credit given $10.00. WTF!? Have you ever had an item cancel? Did you get $10 also? You are the zulily expert....
When I had the double shipping charge, customer service said they couldn't refund on the credit card until the item shipped and it was charged. That is why I took the store credit. So by that logic, the two items they cancelled hadn't shipped and I haven't been charged so what is the refund for? It seems to be a flat rate, is it just a "sorry we didn't have enough of the item to cover your purchase credit"?? Yet another way to keep one shopping there! Unfortunately, I really wanted those 2 items!!
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You guys.. it never fails.. you can always cheer me up.. I had a horrendous day.. have been non stop at work since 8 AM, did not even have a moment to pee until 4 PM.. it was horrible.. my f'ing head is pounding.
I am laughing over the BS sandwich, and Zils wanting to F Christmas and Bobogirl sounded a little bit more like her old self, the boy not wanting Santa to walk on crunchy things and our M speaking French. And the best thing of all, a Granwe visit with an OG update
The only down side is Bobogirl still in pain (sorry I haven't responded to any texts, but you're not the only one.. I haven't responded to any in over a day... so get the hell over it!!!! haha)Love you ladies, you mean the world to me. I'll be back later tonight or tomorrow for a proper catch up. Pasta on the coffee table and some Ben Affleck movie and then starting tomorrow Xmas kicks into full gear for me.. blah.
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Plugged in my digital camera just now and found a picture of our stray who we named "the kin", since he appears to be related to Harley who was also a feral kitten we got years ago.
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You guys crack me up. I haven't posted in awhile.. still trying to decide if I should do rads or proceed with the mastectomy. I get myself so worked up at times that I literally can barely move. But I love coming here and smiling through your posts.
I know some of you reported having rib pain, and I too have that. In my world of crazy, I keep thinking it's the cancer spreading...but I do want to share my thoughts on this whole rib pain thing. I have a ton of scar tissue and cording (according to my physical therapist). She seriously reefed on my side yesterday and it hurt like HELL. I told her I wasn't coming back anymore (yes, it hurt that bad!). However, my rib pain has decreased today and my lymphedema that is mostly in my hand is almost gone. Soooo...I'm wondering if all this rib pain (and my lymphedema) is related to scar tissue and cording. It makes sense to me that the scar tissue is blocking the lymph nodes and the cording is causing the pain. I guess I'll go a few more times...maybe take some pain meds before I go and see if things keep improving.
I have to say that now that things have improved some, I am leaning towards a mastectomy. All I could think of before was.. geez.. if I have this much trouble from a lumpectomy, think how much scar tissue I'll produce from a mastectomy (insert visions of a very swollen hand/arm and another bout of panic!)
Ya know, I made my family physician give me 30 tabs of Xanax before my surgery ...yet I haven't taken any of them. Why? I have no idea. I will say this though...I had 2 root canals done this week and asked if I could have nitrous oxide. He asked if I wanted it for pain and I said.. "No, I need it for stress... my body needs to relax for a moment!". He laughed and said he wasn't sure he should give it to me for that reason. Anyhow.... it was one hour of bliss, and I was wondering if I could sneak that tank to my car without anyone noticing
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Kin!!!
Idesim, what is your birthday? I need to know right now. You had better text me.
In fact, I need to know everyone's birthday except Z's. But idesim, I need yours right now. I am in pain. I have a project. Do not deny me!!!!
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Ariom, you are saying the OG in French! I love you more than ever. Who here wants to marry Ariom? Raise your hand.
Ariom, your birthday is July. Right?
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