Starting chemo August 2014
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NurseShark, great to hear from you! Enjoy your time with that sweet baby.
Eileen, that's so nice that you were able to help out a newbie. I hate that we're all "experts" now but so good that you could help someone else.
Nottoday, thank you for sharing that our posts are helping you. Chemo feels endless, and then suddenly it really does come to an end. The light at the end of the tunnel is starting to show for me - two weeks from today I'll do my 6th and final chemo infusion. I see you've had surgery already! I've got that still to go. Good luck to you. {{hugs}}
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Congrats Eileen! I also used pickles to "neutralize" my taste buds. One of the Onc Nurses told me about it. There were a few times my "system" rejected the pickles but I kept at it. My GI tract is doing so much better now that I have the prescription Pepcid -- I take two 60 mg tablets a day and will through the end of chemo -- mid-January.
Nurseshark, all the best to you in restarting chemo. I am praying that your SEs are minimal and specifically fatigue so that you can spend as much time as needed with baby Levi. So glad that you have your parents there to help and I know they are enjoying their new grandson.
I had a great MO appt/checkup today. She is still a little concerned about the weight loss, but what is a body do. I am trying :-). With that said my taste is not as bad but still off. I have been told I have chemo Anorexia where I am not getting signals to eat and when I do eat I don't get a signal that i am full so I up chuck if I eat too much. So we have set alarms for me to eat a little bit every 2 hours. It is a shore but a necessity. So glad when this is all done, but I have too say I would not skip any treatments.Other good thing I am going part time -- whoo hoo! The fatigue is just getting to me with Taxol and the MO says it is probably due to not eating right too. So part time and working from home one of the days. So only in th office two days a week. I am so happy -- getting dressed is such a chore
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Eileen: Congrats! Can't wait to join you in 25 days!
Nurseshark: Good to hear from you! I know it has to be hard to think about chemo when you just want to be a mom. You will get through this and Levi won't even ever remember that you had BC.
Lady B: I have been fortunate to be able to eat most of the time during this and w I can't I still wish I could. It must be hard to not even care if you eat and have to force yourself. Hope it gets easier soon.
As for me, I feel good right now...almost normal. I so dread Friday though...my next tx. All the SE's will start over again and with taxatore, they are very difficult for 2 of the 3 weeks. Oh well. Can't ruin the week I feel good by dreading the next.
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nottoday, it does seem like and endless cycle at times, but yours will end too, and I am so glad that we have given you a boost.
Cassie, I think you are next to be done (?) Woohooo! How are you celebrating? We are planning a nice meal out, followed by a backyard bonfire to burn medical flyers about chemo, wristbands, etc.! Hey, when is the Nutcracker?
Nurseshark, ugh, I know it sucks to start again, but Baby Levi is there for you and wants you to be well. You can finish!
Ladyb, i hope you can adjust your bod as to regain weight and eat some. I am back to my start start weight, and need to lose. I only lost a few and they are baaack... Glad your GI is doing better.
Eileen, Go Ravens and how are you today. If it gets real bad, try to remember you are DONE with that chit! I will see ya on the rads board too. Hang in there.
Yesterday we walked to the bank in the lovely weather, and I showed the gals my new hair stubs, which are really sproutin in nicely. I am redoing my work wardrobe so selling and buying on ebay. Today, I am thrifting for blazers and such....how nice to plan and prep for a return to work! I plan to freelance for about a year, due to tx which ends in July. Also, we are going to spend an extended time at the cabin in Maine in September and I want zero time constraints. It is funny--we were headed there this year and two weeks before I was dx--part of me never thought I would make it to see it again. What a gift tx has given me--really it is a second chance, and some never get the option.
Hoping SE free day for all
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bippy - you said it so well, some really do not get the second chance. I will be thinking of this in those gloomy days.
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Hey, everyone. I have been offline for awhile and just now catching up. I don't post much but I think of you all so often.
Eileen, hooray!! You did it!
I am 4.5 weeks post final Taxol. I still tire easily but definitely feeling closer to normal. Eyebrows are gone, lashes have thinned a lot. Hair is starting to fuzz in ever so slightly. I can barely see it among the leftover very thin buzzed hair that I didn't totally lose. I stare at my scalp every day in my magnifying mirror. Pathetic. LOL.
I feel like the emotional part is just waiting to smack me. I wish so much that I could lay in a beach or something for a long time. Maybe for as long as I had to do chemo. Mentally I am running on fumes. In my stronger moments I do feel gratitude and relief. I am trying to rise above the resentful feelings - usually I do OK. I think getting my hair back will help a lot. I didn't mind losing it for a long time, then suddenly I did.
I am rambling! I am so grateful to have a place where others truly understand. My friends and fam are great but they can't be in my head the way you guys can. Thank you.
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Hi Ladies,Had a crazy Thanksgiving holiday. With the extra days of steroids, my appetite was huge. I ate everything. My stomach had a fit. lol I think I'm back to normal now. Spent Thanksgiving day at my sisters and then headed up to Vermont to spend wknd w DH family. Thanksgiving in Vt is pretty awesome!On my second week since last chemo and feeling a little better each day. Going to bed pretty early after a full days work. Friday I have a mamo/ultra sound scheduled. Followed by first appt w RO about rads schedule. Monday follow up with MO. I see lots of Drs appts in my future. Lol I'm that person now....
Happy to read that we are all getting closer to the end of treatments. Dec, Jan not that far away. I am still not drinking, even thru the holiday wknd. I put my body thru so much, just want to get it back. Not quite finished yet, still have rads and hormone pills. I figure by Xmas no holding me back. I think of you all everyday and wish you minimal SEs and the strength to get thru these last few weeks.
I have all these crazy hairs growing on my head with no consistency or pattern. I'm concerned the front will grow in thinner then the rest. We shall see....at least it's showing signs of growth, right.
Kicking cancers butt!!!!!
Cathie
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Hi Tabby, I went thru that emotional part too, right befroe I saw BS and rads doc. Just unsettled, depressed, sad, hopeless........I have come to accept my next phase of BMX and rads. Actually, from a purely physical/science level, it is very easy to know I must continue. I think it is all phases of mourning. We all get it but our emotions lag behind our understanding. So my next phase is to be mourning after bmx. LOL my hairs are freaky lookin things too!
Catie, glad you ate and had a lovely txsg! I am eating like crazy now, mostly fresh food. My body craves it.
I got a post surgical cami on ebay for 9 bucks, never worn! It is one of the pricey ones too, zips up the front. Nearly done with shopping list. My mens button up hawaiin shirts are hideous, my Step in mumus too, ugh. It all goes to goodwill after its over.
Last chemo was 11/21 and I feel like myself, but each afternoon the fatigue overtakes me and I have to go to bed early. That is okay, my body needs rest. Hope all of you wrapping up chemo are hanging in there. I could not have done it without you all and miss our daily chats but we all must move forward...to recovery and a new normal. I feel like a chemo ambassador and will always be around to help newbies that need it on this forum.
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Hi all. I dreamed last night that my hair came back overnight. Even in my dream I knew it was a miracle. So sad to wake up to the same old head. Tabby, I do the same thing, looking for any signs of growth daily. I'm 12 days away from getting my final infusion, and then I recover for surgery, so bippy I'll be watching to see how things go for you and ready for any tips you have. I'm feeling pretty good this week and imagine the next 12 days should be good ones overall. I'm antsy to get finished already!
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Bippy, I think you are exactly right about us all experiencing the usual phases of mourning. Makes total sense and explains so much! I guess our brains acknowledge and deal with the various aspects as we can handle them. I still have not had a really good cry, but I am sure it's coming.
You are sounding strong as you move on to bmx. Sending you tons of positive thoughts.
Catie, I am so glad you had such a good T-day. I did too but also was wiped out the next day. It felt good to veg on Friday. We do need to allow ourselves so much extra rest, don't we? It feels odd sometimes.
I like the idea of being a chemo ambassador. We all know how much it helps to have support from others who have walked this road. No matte how much we may trust our medical teams, it isn't the same at all. Even those who love us can only do so much.
CassieCat - your dream! Bittersweet. My onc said recently that she promises my hair will come back! I keep looking. I did see 3 new eyebrow hairs today!
Isn't it amazing to go back through this thread and see how far we've come, and the incredible challenges so many had, and are still managing? We are some strong women!
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I had my last hard chemo TCHP yesterday, dec 2. I got a certificate and a rock to write on something to be put in the center's healing garden. The volunteer gave me beautiful scarf and sock head. I was the last patient in the infusion center that day, 2 staff stayed over and celebrate with me. I told them it's an early celebration because I will come for Herceptin every 3 weeks after my surgery. They told me I had finished the most difficult step of the journey and it needs a celebration. It was a great day...:-) I will call the surgeon 2 weeks later to set up my surgery. Maybe I have to show some cleavage before they are gone forever. :-)
Bippy, the big D hit me the worst on the round 5. I had to wear the attend for most days, I could feel my hemmorrhoid out. What a real pain in the as*. I asked my MO for Lomotil this round. Omeprazole did wonder for my tummy and upper GI problems. Glad you had your tree up!!
Cassie, I will keep on coming to the forum and I may see you in other forums too.
Jean, for ER+, we have to avoid the estrogenic food. Soy and red beans are worst and there are some more estrogenic food. You can google them. I am pre menopause ER+, even after the removal of my ovaries my fat tissues will still produce some estrogen. I had a long conversation with my MO on that estrogen matter yesterday.
Gatomal how are you? Getting close to the delivery date?
Eileen woohooooo, last chemo on Monday. Hope the side effects are minimal days ahead.
I was called back in to work the night before my chemo day but I will be off for 8 days. Zombie days ahead but will keep on coming to the forum.
Hope everyone is having manageable side effects. I have read all the posts but I may miss to reply some, sorry:-) you are all in my thoughts and prayers.
Stay strong ladies. Hugs to you all:-)
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Way to go Shirley! Last chemo DONE!!! I have to do Herceptin too, but I'm still celebrating when TCHP is all done.
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shirley, yipeeee! In 10 days you will be yourself again! Well done, I know how hard you had it.
Bippy loves cooking and is anyone else on allrecipes.com.? I like to look for new ones and try them out. It has made me a much better cook, and all are submitted by users. But, could not even look at it since first chemo. Tonight, i made yummy cabbage veggie detox soup and a lovely marinated, roast pork loin with roasted taters. What a unbelievable feeling, and my DH is in heaven! To feel so nearly normal....no words. All that time before dx, I took making meals for granted. It really Is the little chit that makes a life!
Cassie, you bet I will share all my surgery details! I am just waitin for a return scheduling call and the date will be set. In about 2 weeks, all my dead cancer is goin away, along with not safe to keep boobs. I am not at all concerned or worried about my surgery, oddly. Think chemo scared me straight, i.e., everyone says bmx no problem it is recon and chemo that is a beotch. That is delayed for me, so no worries.
Tomorrow I have blood check and run errands like a normal human being. What a treat!
Be well all, you are all almost there......so close. You CAN do it!
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Wow. What a whirlwind day for appts. I met with my BS and MO and the plastic surgeon(with whom I didn't have an appointment) to discuss lumpectomy, c-section, chemo and recon plan. I felt like a total VIP who donated millions to UCSF. I saw all of them within 30 min, got an ultrasound, set a c section date (1/5/15) a surgery date if the tumor gets bigger after I stop chemo for a break next week (1/13/15). Wonderful to start getting things nailed down. I need prayers that this rumor doesn't get bigger between 12/17 and 1/5. If it doesn't, I can restart taxol after preg to finish and see if it's working and then they can do lumpectomy w lift/ reduction at same time. I would love to get lots of non cancer breast tissue looked at by path. Then rads after. It feels so good to get some dates set. In the chair now for taxol #3.
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Gatomal=You are in my prayers!!!!!
Bippy= This whole chemo for me has been about not being able to eat. Here I am again. Back to scrambled eggs. There is no way I could cook I would not have been able to. I think my biggest side effect has been my taste buds and then fatigue. Everything taste HORRIBLE Metal Mouth.Chewing on ice did not work for me. Weirdly,everything smells wonderful
I never learned to cook. My mom said it was the biggest waste of time. I grew up on TV dinners. Maybe cancer link? Thank god my BF is the best cook and loves cooking.
I am so happy we are all at the end. What a journey. I do see life different. I'm not worrying about stuff that is beyond my control or really doesn't matter.
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Good to read all your posts and catch up. Prayers for cancer to be still for you, Gatomal, as you welcome your babies.
As I approach my final infusion of THP on Monday,I am getting excited. Still have surgery decisions to make, radiation decisions, herceptin for a year if my heart hangs in there, but finishing chemo is a BIG DEAL. I am reading my Cooking Light mags with intention, adding cookbooks to my Amazon wish list. Cannot wait to have energy to cook and actually taste what I cook. I want to bake for my nurses, but don't want to add any pounds. I hate being weighed all the time! Silly what bothers me.
Best wishes and prayers for all of you. I want to keep reading about your journeys. Many are facing surgery post chemo. Do we start a new thread?
Thank you all, Jeni
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thank you cassiecat! Everybody said the Herceptin will be a breeze compared to the traditional chit chemos we are going through right now....:-)
Thank you Bippy. I browse the allrecipes.com for recipes but don't really sign up. My favorite ones are roasted whole chicken with lemons stuffed and vegetable deer meat soup. You may change the deer meat with beef/chicken. I just like its seasoning and taste great when you simmer it for 3-4 hours.
Thank you Eileen. The metallic taste is the worst since the beginning !! That taste is extended more and more days for each round too. I chew ice on chemo like the beaver chew them wood and it's not working either. Lol. Even the vanilla boost tastes like medicine. I do really like spicy food and this chemo makes me quit it, it's like the end of the world for my taste buds. Lol.
Gatomal , hugs and prayers for you and the babies. Keep us updated!
Jenni , I think there's a forum for the surgery already. Anyway this forum really helps me get through this chemo. Nobody else will understand us than the ones go through the same journey. Even with our own ups and downs, everybody keeps strengthen each other.
Bought some limes and lemons, will make some lemonade for days ahead.
Stay strong ladies. Hugs to you all
Shirley
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jenifer, you bet the end of chemo is a big deal! Congrats on getting it over. Cooking and eating are fun again for you, soon. Nice time of year for it too. Welcome back from Zombieland!
Gatomal, we know you can get thru it all with precious babies!
I have residual body aches each evening, not bad but annoying. Also, I lose my energy at 4pm. It is still getting out of my system but I will take all of it over the other SE. each week at labs I would get nauseau from the smell of the treatment center, and anxiety from that feeling. Today I do labs and feel much stronger but the association is there.
I am continuing to redo my work wardrobe, haha, my DH asked me when exactly was I headed in, what with surgery and rads looming. My unemployment ends in late February, so I will have finished up tx except for recon then.....gettin antsy just hangin around now that the hell of chemo is over and want to be quasi normal again. Plus the money hurts nuthin either! It will be so nice to start slow and do part time for as long as I want to.
When I got dx, my then boss panicked and demanded many new things from me --- that I stay every night until each and every thing was finished (impossible for man reasons and also, never did we work like that), no more leaving early (it was part of my benies since they offered no insurance), and a military precision and ability to predict the future in that he wanted to know EACH AND EVERY MINUTE any tx or SE would prevent me from serving his needs, IN ADVANCE. No, I am not kidding. I had thought he was losing his mind before my dx but absolutely convinced after this pronouncement! Oh, also, instead of giving me my bonus for the year, they DOCKED me for every minute when I left a few days earlier than planned. I was responsible for making them very profitable for over 6 years and that was my send off. Oh, but my job is still open supposedly even though I was replaced, I have the option to return...
Anyway, my point is, I have not forgotten the shabby way I was treated, and all of it even before I or they knew if I was filled with cancer or would even survive. Also, the job itself is horribly stressful and DH blames it for my illness. So......no way am I going back there. It seems so long ago, but I am still in awe of the selfishness by someone I trusted to do better....nice on the surface but empty underneath
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I've been looking at recipes too. I made a new vegetarian chili recipe last night and it occurred to me that I'm feeling pretty good if chili sounds good! It turned out pretty yummy - it had bulgur wheat in it to give it some texture. Two kinds of beans, tomato, onion, garlic...good stuff. I have another new recipe to try that is a baked pasta dish with kale and chard in it. Now, if I could just get sweets to stop being so appealing. I've been counting, and today is day 99 since I had my first chemo. My final chemo is on day 110. So close...
Jeni E, I too hate getting weighed all the time. It really bothers me. I just use one pair of jeans in particular as my barometer. If they still feel OK then my weight's fine. I don't need a scale to tell me that! I'm glad for you that your last big chemo is just days away. I'm one week behind you! I don't know if there's a January surgery thread yet or not, but I know there's a December thread that I've popped in on.
Gatomal, I hope that your tumor stays the same or shrinks (!) while you take a break from the taxol. I'm glad you have some dates now, including the c-section! One month from tomorrow you'll be welcoming your babies into the world.
Eileen, things would smell good to me too, which makes it all the harder when our tastebuds don't cooperate.
Bippy, your ex-boss sounds like a real piece of work! Yuck. So glad you don't have to go back to that. This is a great opportunity to make some good changes.
Tabby, yay for new eyebrows! I keep looking, but there's not much happening yet, and I have to keep reminding myself that I still have to dose myself with one more round of poison.
Justamy, hope you're still feeling pretty good!
Angie, hope you're able to eat a little more. When I lost weight the first round they suggested I try to eat every hour or two, and it did help.
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hi gals, got my surgery date! 12/17/14. I am ready to rock.
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So happy for all of you getting back to normal! So glad you are tasting food again and wanting to cook. Food always tasted good to me but I don't have the desire or energy to cook.
Tomorrow is #7 of 8. I'm not happy about it. This taxatore has been so hard on me. The big D for 2 weeks straight each time...Yuk. I cried for the first time last night. I just don't want to do these last two treatments. I'm sick of being useless and sick of being sick. I have to miss my 6th grade son's band concert and other stuff too. Just bummed. I'll finish...I just don't WANT to. Then it feels like just the beginning with surgery and recon looming. Sorry to be a downer. I'm off to therapy. Maybe I'll feel better after. Thanks to all of you. Hugs
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Finally caught up on all the posts!
Woo hoo & congrats to everyone finishing up!
Bippy, sounds like you are doing great! If you post a pic of your new hair, I'll post one of mine. I'm 7 weeks PFC, and have white fuzz and 5:00 shadow over most of my head. Oh, and those few crazy white hairs sticking straight up that kept growing after the last time I shaved my head. It looks pretty wierd. It took a while to get started (I was starting to worry), but now it seems like it's going to take off! I can see a difference in just the last few days.
I've done 20 of 25 full breast rads, and started on the boost this week to give the skin under my boob a rest. It is very dark, sensitive, and painful/itchy. I can hardly stand to wear a bra, so most of the time, I don't. (Lucky that I work from home!) The rash on my chest is healing & not so itchy now, but still looks kinda bad, like it might peel. The radiation machine broke down a couple times one week, so I'm a little behind, but will still finish before Christmas, even if that means I have to do some 2-a-days.
I don't really have any (or at least not much) fatigue from the radiation, with about 3 weeks to go, and even went skiing on Sunday in Salt Lake. I took it very slow and easy, since my blood pressure has been low most of the time since finishing chemo. I spent the morning on the bunny hill, over and over, until I was sick of it, then went a little higher up w/ the rest of the guys (hubby, brother-in-law, nephew & nephew's buddy) after lunch. It was the best day! I felt good, and nobody could tell I was bald under the helmet! I actually had a normal day, where I didn't have to feel self-conscious or explain to strangers, and had a nice conversation with a lady I rode the lift with twice, never once mentioning the big C.
What made it extra special was that my mother-in-law bought us the plane tix to go for Thanksgiving, and my brother-in-law bought us the lift tix to go skiing. Otherwise, we would not have been able to go at all, since my hubby is STILL out of work. We have such generous and caring friends and family, it's unbelievable! We also came home to a get well card with a good-size check in it from one of my cousins. This year of challenges has really taught us so much. We are truly blessed.0 -
so nice to see so many making the journey back to normal.
Bippy- your old boss sounds awful!
Gatmol- praying your tumor stays the same during your break!
Angie- hope your doing good
I have my 4th and final taxol tomorrow. Well maybe. My MO said if my neuropathy got worse or didn't go away he might cancel my taxol so that means I would be done! I have mixed feelings. On one hand I HBE no desire to do the last treatment but on the other hand I want to finish it just in case. I meet with the nurse practitioner tomorrow, I'll tell her the truth my neuropathy has gotten worse and doesn't go away between treatments and see what she says. If she gives me a choice to so it or not I have no idea what I'll do! Moving on I meet with the RO Monday..
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Bippy= I HATE your BOSS.!! He never learned what goes around,comes around. Or you reap what you sow. YUCK!!!
Strong enough= to feel and be treated as normal. What a concept. Can't wait to get there.
Kellogg= I feel your mixed emotions. Wanting to finish but,maybe not the best approach for your body
I'm 4 days post last chemo. I feel HORRIBLE!! Fatigue,unable to eat,and have and annoying lump in my throat. Went to get tattoos today. Not as bad as I thought. Really nice RO and tech. Super close to my house,5 minute drive. Got a 8:15 am slot. Start Dec 16th.
FYI= RO said no cutting open and using aloe from plant on skin. Too much bacteria. Use only purified aloe on skin.
Good luck to all finishing up. This is the longest journey. This has been worse than my bad marriage!!!
A lady in a store approached me today to say she is 8 years out BC. Went through chemo,surgery,and radiation. Maybe me feel there is HOPE!!!
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Finished #6 of 12 on Wednesday. Feeling OK today, fatigue is kicking my behind with Taxol and also joint/muscle aches. Chemo brain seems to be sitting in pretty nicely too :-). But with all of this I am praying that I am able to get all 12 treatments which will put my last treatment on 1/14 -- which I original thought was the 15th. So far no sign of neuropathy and I hope it stays that way. I do have black finger nails but no lifting of the nails at all as of today and I iced my fingers, wore black polish, etc. but this is an example of how chemo affects us individually. With the fatigue and chemo brain, my MO suggested I go part-time and was wondering how I worked a full 40 hours during AC. She said the fatigue would only get cumulative and suggested I cut back on the hours now. Didn't take me long to agree. With this journey I have learned to let go of the workaholic trait that was so apart of me for so long and take care of myself. Also the lack of appetite she says is not helping. Cassie she also suggested the small meals very two hours and to set an alarm clock. I did have that but didn't keep it going.
With this journey I do not have to have any surgery outside of my ALND. I talked to my MO and BS about this again this week and they both said NO since there was no lump found or evidence of BC in the breast only lump nodes, so I get NO NEW GIRLS or TUMMY TUCK out of this journey...shucks. Also I am not BRCA positive. I at least thought I would push to try and get some perky once out of this...but no luck
JeniferE, so glad
to hear from you and your update and that you are going fo your final chemo!
Woot! Woot and the happy dance for you. <?xml:namespace prefix = "o" ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:office" />Gatomal, busy time ahead for you. So glad you were able to partner with your
medical team and get the plan laid out.
Like that they treated you like a VIP.
Bippy, glad you are on the upswing. Must be fun shopping for a new wardrobe? Glad you have your surgery date. Your ex-boss, BOOOO. Sounds like he swing in the wrong directly in terms of supporting you, was he a control freak? If he worked for me and did that to you I would fire him.
Strongenough, YaY! on the trip and awesome support from friends and family. Glad Rads are moveing along.
Pangtidor, Way to go Shirely! Yay! I too will still come to this thread/forum for a long time.
Kellogg, Happy Dance for you reaching your final chemo. Are you doing rads? I have those mixed emotions too that I am just tired, but when I think about the time in the whole scheme of things I want to push on to get the best benefit I can out of this treatment. I also started alternative treatments along with chemo which is basically focusing on diet, specific green tea, vitamins which have all been approved by my MO. She also recommends massages and acupuncture :-). I want to through everything and the kitchen sink at this and then I at least know I do what I could.
Eileen, I am praying for your SEs especially your GI tract. As I know first hand how band that can be!
Hugs to All as always,
Love my Peeps!
-Angie
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haha strongenough, i will post a pic of the hairs. I look like one of those little cactuses with fine, fuzzy hairs!
Thanks all for validating my old boss issues. It is an example of how people weird out on you, and the ones you would never expect it from. I never had time or luxury during chemo to process my anger about it and it hit me yesterday. It is a blessing though, making me realize I want a different life after tx.....luckily I can work part time!
Good luck today Kellogg!
Eileen, you got hit hard with these SE for your final time. Remember your body will return with your tasters, and all will be well soon. It must suck right now! Glad you are happy with your rad crew. Hang in there!
Angie, you are halfway thru then? Your nails at least are not painful, but it must be hard to see them like that. I hope the remainder goes well and you set your eating timer! I can relate to your strong work drive-I took it too far for years, sacrificed myself alot. My new work life will be much different--still dynamic but much less hours each week. You should absolutely go part time. I feel it is crucial not to spend a ounce of energy on anything but healing. And you may get more tired as your doc says......be kind to yourself lady and take some time. You will bounceback better than you were!
Okay ladies, Bippy has only 12 more sleeps with her original boobs. Going to stock the freeze with homemade soups, get the house in order, and set up my recliner nest area. I have the UGLIEST assortment of post surgery clothing, LOL. Now I am anxious to move on.....
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I want to see some crazy hair pictures!
I have been up since about 3am. You'd think it was a steroid day or something, but no, I just can't sleep.StrongEnough, you sound great! How awesome you were able to go skiing and enjoy so much support from your family.
Kellogg, let us know how it goes today.
Eileen, I hope the bad days pass quickly. No more chemo for you!!! Thanks for sharing about the lady in the store. Gives me hope, too.
Angie, I am hoping to readjust my workaholic tendencies as well once I return. My job kind of feels like when you're on, you're ON, and I need to help people around me adjust to some new ways of doing things. I'm hoping to return by February. My nails are not black or anything, but they do get sensitive each round.
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I just caught up on posts. Unfortunately I must be suffering from chemo brain, because can't figure out who to address first lol
Bipsy - Glad your boss is no longer part of your life anymore. He actually did u a favor by being a total jerk. Now you can appreciate the people who really matter. Cassie, so true, "what you give is what you get". What a selfish control freak.
Cassiecat - You are so close to being finished, hang in there. You are awesome!
Pangtidor - so happy you are finished with chemo. I met a woman on my last 3 treatments just coming in for the herceptin. She was doing great and her hair was coming back in. I am hoping for smooth sailing thru herceptin for you also.
LadyB - it hasn't been an easy journey for you. I love your positive attitude and how you push on. So glad you have the wonderful support at home.
Justamy - wishing you minimal SEs. I know it's been hard on you. You are such a trooper.
Strongenough - love the idea of posting pics of hair growth. I'm not there yet, but will definitely be posting when the time comes. I can feel the stubble starting, but have all these random hais also. May have to even out with buzzer before it takes off. Hopefully soon.
Gatamol - Excited they have dates set for twins. Glad they have other dates set also, you are one strong mama.
Going this morning for mamo/ ultrasound. Then to meet with RO for first time. Will let u know how it goes.
We are kicking cancers butt.....
Cathie
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I always sleep so deeply the second night after my taxol steroids. It must be that the steroids provide pain relief for my back, carpal tunnel preg wrists and fingers, etc. I just got a glimmer this morning of waking up pain free, no big belly, no aching tumor, no pain. It was so weird to feel like I was twenty years younger for a few moments. Then I had to walk to the bathroom!
Thinking of you all on the board, those with awful bosses, those with bad SEs, those saying goodbye to body parts, those getting tattoos and radiation every day, and those struggling to eat and adjust to not working so hard/much. So many changes for all, it's so much in a short period of time isnt it? I'm too tired to scroll back to link the happenings with the screen names, so know I'm reading everything and thinking about your stories and praying for strength, recovery, and health for us all. I check the boards many times during the day, and they have been a tremendous source of knowledge and connection for me. So hugs to all and thank you
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