CRAZY TOWN WAITING ROOM - TESTS coming up? All Stages Welcome.
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Rainny- what a wonderful miracle today! So glad you shared that bit of family Bildungsroman! Haha 50 cent word of the day.
I just wish I had been sitting at your kitchen table sipping on your homemade soup and chewing some high gluten bread fresh out of your oven when it happened.Maybe someday. For now, thank goodness the tube is still working!
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(((Ducky)))
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Rain...that *is* a great miracle!
I am a real person also, even if I don't show it often.
My day: I walked 2.5 miles this am, came home and started crying for no apparent reason, told hubby I wanted to retire and then worked for three solid hours to finish an almost overdue project. After that, a bit more crying for no apparent reason (other than that I had to work on a Saturday?) , and now I don't have energy for much more than lying on the couch. It wouldn't be the rads, would it? (I know, 'It's not Rads'). The rest of my day will be devoted to rest and contemplation while hubby roasts a chicken....
Oh, and I picked up my Arimidex rx. First pill in the am. Going a bit crazy worrying about my hair will follow.....
xoxox
Octogirl
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Hi Crazies,
I am still here and want to say how much I have appreciated your warm embrace ever since my crazy time started in late October. So glad the thread is surviving!
I've been laying low due to having an abcess near my ab incision which was dealt with yesterday and I finallyfeel human again today -hooray. First time in 10 days..
Tomboy, you should paint that photograph.. The colors are so beautiful
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Notagain- Yay 🎉🎉🎉💃🎈🎈💃💃💃🎉🎈🎈 for feeling better!
I agree the colors in that Central Park photo are gorgeous and would make a great subject for our in house artist!
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slow deep breaths
I do the vicky on feet with socks..
Have been doing it since I was a kid. It work's, really!
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Rainny, you might need to report that one to the newspaper - I'm not sure an event like that has ever happened before!
NotAgain, ouch to the abcess! Glad they're getting you fixed up.
Octo, I've had the crying for no immediate reason, too. I think Simplicity once called it "randomness". The cause is everything - the diagnosis, the treatment, and trying to deal with work and family and getting the bills paid, because the world won't stop while this is going on. Hugs, girl. The is hair coming!
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Still cruising CT in the burbs, no trips downtown or on the subway.
No I am not troll free, spoke with him this morning, the first time in 5 weeks and was told to call a lawyer if I wanted to evict him. This was during his rant, cussing and tears. He finally calmed down and said he has a call back for a training class in another state so 2 more weeks of waiting.
The aches and pains I am having are due to stress or the anastrozole feel like my thumb is broken... But if that is all I have to deal with I can sucks it up.
Took me awhile to catch up. Welcome to all the new crazies. No judgement here, rant on.
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The Official Hugger of CT is back at last!
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Good Morning Crazies,
Can I sleep??? NO!!
I want to thank you all for your PM's and your very kind words of encouragement. You all moved me to tears yesterday. There is no shortage of care and compassion in Crazy Town.
Katy, what can I say?? I know sometimes you think you're crazier than the rest of us, but all I see is a woman that has gone through a hell of a lot in her life, and has come out the other side with wisdom, compassion and a wonderful ability to calm and soothe the troubled soul. Thank you for all that you did for me yesterday - physically and emotionally.
I'm really not very good with words. I think by now you all know how I feel about this thread and all of the residents of Crazy Town. I feel I need to extend an apology to the new residents of this thread who may have felt that they weren't welcome. Please know that isn't the case and the dust up had NOTHING to do with any of you. When Tomboy and I started this thread, it was my intention that no one would ever feel alone while going through this crap and everyone would feel safe, and free to express their fears and struggles with no judgment. I think we also wanted to make sure we weren't the only crazy ones out there.
I guess the verdict is in - there are MANY of us. Such a relief. I need to take responsibility for what has happened here. Tomboy came to me a few days ago with a problem she was having and unfortunately, I should have contacted the mods right away. My hesitation put Tomboy in the position of having to defend herself in a public forum and for that I am truly sorry. I've certainly learned a valuable lesson - the mods are here for a reason.
Tomboy, I feel I need to say this to you. You extended a hand and unfortunately that backfired. Sometimes that can happen. I hope the experience doesn't change the wonderfully, caring person that you are. You're always the first person to reach out to someone that you sense is hurting. Like Ducky said, most people have no idea how generous you are in so many ways. I know sometimes a bad experience can make us leery of others. It can also make you question everything else around you (been there right with you). Please let that sweet nature of yours keep shining.
A special thanks to the mods for helping to get this sorted out. I certainly wouldn't want to have your job. I hope you all get paid handsomely.
I am not leaving Crazy Town. I'm just becoming a quiet crazy for a bit. I'll still be cheering you all on.
So in the spirit of Crazy Town, I'll explain in a rant.
I've got some health issues I've been putting off addressing for a few weeks because quite frankly, I just don't feel like going down that road again. I'm tired, irritated and cranky, and don't want to see another needle, colostomy bag, IV pole, pill, scar, bowel blockage, sepsis or wig again. I'm tired of taking pills, and taking more pills to counteract the side effects of the pills I've already taken. Unfortunately, my DH has made me realize I can't just keep sticking my head in the sand. I've always LOVED sand. I'm convinced it's RA related which is why I hesitate to start this whole cycle all over again. I mean, I just got a shot for that right? Shouldn't I give it time to work?? Back me up here crazies. I keep telling my DH about the three week rule. I guess having my left side go numb and an intermittent stabbing knife pain to the left side of my head is suddenly cause for concern??? What's the deal with my left side anyway? All things wacky happen on my left side!! My poor DH. He really has gotten the short end of the stick. In any case, there is my full on, raving mad, Crazy Town rant. I don't do that very often, but boy did it feel good!! Who's next??? Come on....it's freeing!!
Love you all so much. Thanks for letting me ramble amongst friends. I know we always have each others backs. Ain't it great to be crazy???
One of my favorite songs as a kid.
A horse and a flea and three blind mice
Sat on a curbstone covered in ice
The horse he slipped and fell on the flea
"Whoops," said the flea, "There's a horse on me!"Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be nuts?
Giggly and foolish the whole day through
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?Way down South where bananas grow
A flea stepped on an elephant's toe
The elephant cried, with tears in his eyes
"Why don't you pick on someone your size?"Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be nuts?
Giddy and foolish the whole day through
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?Way up North where there's ice and snow
There lived a penguin and his name was Joe
He got so tired of black and white
He wore pink slacks to the dance last night!Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be nuts?
Giggly and foolish the whole day through
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?Eli, Eli had some socks
A dollar a pair and a nickel a box
The more you wear 'em the better they get
And you put 'em in the water and they don't get wet!Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be nuts?
Giddy and foolish the whole day through
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?Called myself on the telephone
Just to hear that golden tone
Asked myself out for a date
Said be ready 'bout half-past eight!Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be nuts?
Giddy and foolish the whole day through
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?Took myself to the picture show
Sat myself on the very last row
Wrapped my arms around my waist
Got so fresh I slapped my face!Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be nuts?
Giddy and foolish the whole day through
Boom, boom, ain't it great to be crazy?Can we make it the Crazy Town theme song??? Oh please!?!?
P.S. Ducky, I love when you call me girle.Rose, ((((((((((rose)))))))). I think you just needed one of those.
Octo, I was an emotional basket case at the end of rads. Everything made me cry. It gets better. ((((((Octo))))))
Swansgirl, You've convinced me to try the Vick's next time I'm hacking my brains out. You're not just pulling my leg???
Notagain, So good to see you. An abscess sounds yucky. I'm glad you're feeling better.
Ok, I'm done with the book now.
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Slow,
I was sick with back to back colds last Fall and I was so miserable that in desperation I called my mom to see what would help me kick the colds and she told me to try the Vicks on my feet. It really helped!
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M0mmy!! Wow....we've missed you!! Really great to see you post. Hope all is well with you!!
I'm just on my way out....hopefully bedtime for me.
I'll be reading your posts to see how you're doing. 0 -
Everything is good. Going to be starting another class soon, even though its one I dread the most besides Math. Not really comfortable with Public Speaking.
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One more thought.....Lucy, Hi!! Thank you for being such a wonderful friend. Love you!
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The quick check in....I do need to go back through list slowly with pen and paper in hand to take notes. But I've read all the posts, and though lists do change and evolve, hoping this one can come back around to its original purpose. At least somewhat.
Octo: (in raspy grumpy "House" voice) it's never rads. But you knew that.
Rainny: He vacuumed? (faints) How was the soup?
SlowDeep: Yes, that's most definitely our theme song! As for ranting, who but the creator of just such a list would deserve to rail here? Come back when you can. We'll try to keep your list warm for you, but rest assured it's your creation.
Tomboy: hoping you feel comfortable enough to stick around. Your creation too.
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Love you Girlie....................you too Tomboy.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I know, I know, your thinking "here she goes again", but I couldn't not show you all Bobby celebrating his turning 10 months old........oh I love this little boys.
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Can't speak for the others, but I'm thinking "AWWWWW."
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Hope none of my friends here leave here. Would make me very sad!
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Thanks Queen.......he is my love.......and that is the way he always reacts to people and the camera.............or should I say whatever someone uses to take his picture.......LOL......
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Boy the way ladies.........I had the Powerball on 1 ticket......3 white balls on another ticket........and 1 number and th Powerball on another ticket............had a total of 5 of the 6 numbers including the Powerball just too bad it wasn't all on the same line..............what the hell at least I won $16.00......not quite the Billion....LO
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lol Nice job Ducky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Mommy..............you might remember me saying the other day that I was going to the Farmer's Market with my DIL.......on the way she stopped at this place where they sell lottery tickets............I said to her "hold on" and reached for my pocketbook ...............she just opened the car door and got out..........when she came back she handed me a ticket which had 5 plays on it, and said "I hope you win"........it was $10.00 worth which actually gives you 5 chances..........but you guys have the Powerball in your area right!..............would have been nice to have all 5 numbers and the PB on one line....would have been one hell of a "win"......but glad I won something......LOL...........0
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Ducky, you won something! Would anyone care to place a bet on whether that $16 might go to a new toy for a certain 10-month-old? Though you could also buy something nice for yourself, and the box it comes in will keep him busy for hours!
NotAgain, glad the abscess is clearing up. Ugh!
Rose, hugs. Trolls. Bleh. Hope the call back leads to a job in another state. Or on the moon, maybe?
Beppy, I think the entire population of C-Town would be happy to show up on your doorstep to do anything for you. Anything at all! We are in all of your pockets, and you are very much in our hearts.
Queen, the soup was fine. Not perfection: I didn't have quite enough tomato paste. Might have to try it again soon. I have started a batch of the bulgur bread and am ruminating about supper. And doing laundry. (Aquaphor: good for rads healing, not so much for clothes.)
Octo, agree with Cubbie. You've gone through more than enough. Crying is a quite reasonable thing to do and actually an act of sanity. Don't you think?
Tomboy, Gaia, thinking of you....
And a happy, relaxing Sunday to all!
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rainny: still washing that beep Aquaphor out of nightgowns (ditched the bras after last rads treatment) and I finished three months ago. Oobleck for the gooieness.
ducky: Yeah, not quite enough winnings to take us all to Cozumel (or our favorite anti-crazy vacation spot). I'm sure you'll come up with something suitable to spend it on.
Rose: another hope your troll gets something permanent far far away.
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Oh yea, Aquaphor works great, but ugh........sticky and stains.............or should I say "discolors"............I washed the hell out of my night clothes............have way to many to toss out........so since I have no one to impress, I just ignore the small discoloration in the right boob aand shoulder area and I'm good to go.............and it does remind of of how far I have come................
Next month I will be 5 years out..........in fact while I'm wrestling with the "shore house settlement:....boo hoo...........I will also be reminded of where I was 5 years before I had that to do..............time and things move on............and you never really know when your turn the corner in life what is going to be coming the other way and what it will bring to you.....................let's hope it is always something good............
I will be glad when February is gone, but sad because my shore home will be gone too.............is it a good thing.........financially yes.............emotionally no...........since that was the place where I looked forward to after the long harsh Pa winters..........I would start counting the days as the grass began to peek through the lawn, and the days grew longer..........I lived from holiday to holiday looking forward to the New Year, and finally Easter, knowing Memorial Day was just around the corner.............that is what I will miss...............but my son assures me........."Mom you will be in a better spot, less bills, less headaches, less worries about who is going to go down the shore on what weekend"..........
He is right.....I know this........so why is it so hard to come with grips that "this is the right thing to do".............maybe once it is over I will relax and enjoy what time I have left ..............but I will miss my morning coffee by the pool........
I always say things happen for a reason..........and in the morning I always say to myself............God will never give me more then I can handle today..............0 -
I love reading all of your posts...and love the support I get here!
(((((((mommy))))))!!!
((((((SDB))))) Of course it is the official CT anthem! and let us be in YOUR pocket!!!
(((((((rose))))): I have had thumb pain too and I haven't even started the AI! has been coming and going, but when it is bad, it is bad. Amazing how disabling thumb pain can be, isn't it? (well, duh, it is the opposable thumbs that are supposed to make us able to do so much as a species....) In my case, I wondered if it was arthritis made worse by the weird position I had it in during the rads (to fit the mold; or maybe I just was stressed and holding the mold too tightly). But I know, 'its not rads'. (Thanks for the House Voice, QMC).
Ducky, keep those Bobby pics coming. I can really see you in that pic.
((((to all of you!))))
My rant is the same one as yesterday pretty much: woke up: sides of my head look a bit darker. And I can't quite bring myself to take that Arimidex pill. The clock is ticking. should i just swallow my pride and my fear and take it?
xoxoxox
Octogirl
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Octo here are a couple of things I found that might make taking the pill easier.
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Octo..........give yourself every chance...........you can always stop if you can't handle the SE's......and remember there are those who don't get them............you could be one of the lucky ones.............just give yourself the chance............you won't know if you don't try...............and remember (my experience).....if you do get SE's and decide to stop .........the SE's usually go away.........................
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Ok, I need some CRAZY TOWN hugs plesae...
I've beat chemo, had BMX and they got all the ick out of me, I start rads next week, and I'm feeling pretty good about that, actually. I'm waiting until after rads to start Tamoxifen (this scares me terribly, BTW) and I'm finishing my Herceptin in summer.... Why do I keep having these stinking anxiety attacks? Anyone else? I feel like I'm running naked down Main Street Crazy Town with scissors in my hand... I can't sleep, don't have an appetite and just want to curl up in a ball. This isn't me! I'm the fighter, I'm Scathach as my Gram used to call me... (Scathach is a Celtic Warrior Goddess who trained others) I'm the woman who has flying monkeys and knows how to use them, when necessary...
I just can't seem to find my inner warrior lately, and I don't like it...
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