My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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booboo, I am so very sorry to hear of Huey Lewis' passing. What a handsome boy! Know you gave him a great life, but when it's time, it's time. Wrapping my virtual arms around you during this very tough time.
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Dear Friends,
Thank you for your kind words about the loss of our precious Huey Lewis. The house seemed so quiet today. Our little Yorkie Teddi has been roaming around all day looking for him. That’s the worst. Anyway, I’ll get through it like we all have who have had to let go of our beloved pets. But it still sucks.
Mel, Mara, thank you both again. I don’t know what I would ever do without you, or any of the others on this thread who have become my second family.
Mae, I really love your new tats. Beautifully done. I am such a chicken, so I don’t have any. But to be able to express yourself and make those kinds of decisions for yourself must be very freeing. There are so few things we have control over these days, so bravo for doing something that makes you happy.
Love to all,
Laurie
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Bliss, hope you get the snow to douse those fires for sure, hope you are not near them. Very scary indeed. I hope your friends house will be OK.
I would love to have massage therapy but no room in the budget and no real reason for me to have it I guess.
Finished my 6.2 mile or 10 k walk to a further away burger joint and I surprised myself with the endurance that has built in such a short time. i have had 3 very long walks in 4 days since Herceptin on Wednesday. Had I been sitting around, I would have felt flu like and really bad but these walks have helped me so much. Very enjoyable. On the one day I did not walk, did 4 hours of mini elliptical. I don't expect the scale to reflect it but I appreciate not feeling dead by the time I came home. Might be time to expand my walking for further trips. We will see. The weather was nice and cold so I did not come home a sweat bucket though I did sweat through one of the masks I brought with me. Mel's masks are very absorbent as I get superhot and sweaty under there so I always have two to use a fresh one when leaving the restaurant after the meal.
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Thanks, Mara. I'm safe at about 2 hrs. away from this fire, but one never knows when a fire might start. They think this one was started by hunters which makes it that much worse. The state is under Stage 2 fire restrictions for no fires whatsoever, not even charcoal grills allowed, yet like masks, some people just refuse to follow the rules. It makes me so angry that people are so selfish.
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BooBoo~I understand how you’re feeling. I just had my daily cry about my buddy Tag. He went through every chemo when I came home sick. He laid by my bed knowing something wasn’t right with mama. He was loving and affectionate and I miss him every single day. I’m So sorry that you’re having to feel this way also. But please know you’re not alone. I feel it too. I have his ashes on my shelf. But i miss his loving. I’m sending you lov
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Nice fall day here today. Gonna get outside for a drive down to the dispensary, I get to see the trees on the underpass And the. Colors are changing. It's really beautiful....fall colors are the best 🍁🍁🍁🍁
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Fall colours are beautiful. I have appreciated them myself. Enjoy the drive.
It is a nice day here and I am dreadfully bored. I am planning another long distance walk since it is nice out here. Little further today 12km/7.5 miles. I was not sore from the long walk yesterday and not even tired as I came home. Might as well take advantage of being able to do it.
Hugs to all who have lost special family members, human or furry. It doesn't hurt any less for a furry family member.
Edited to add, I did do the 12k/7.5 mile walk. Took me more than 3 hours as I am not superfast. I did stop for a snack at a restaurant. It was more difficult than the one yesterday as a lot was uphill. The uphill parts occurred both on the way there and the way back. I did go up a hill in my old nieghbourhood that used to make stop and rest periodically but I was able to clear it at a steady pace this time. It was tiring on the way home but my pace remained steady. Not sure where else I would need to walk to exceed that distance. Though I am tempted to walk to DB house because he made his chocolate chip cookies which he posted on Facebook.
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Mel,
We are not going to get over this quickly. I used to work with a guy who took a leave of absence after his dog died. He couldn't cope with the loss. When he finally came back, he was on some pretty heavy depression meds. So you and I will have to be good to ourselves and give it time.
In the past, whenever I lost a dog, I would immediately start looking for a new one. I can't do that this time. I don't want to make it any more difficult for my DH when I am gone. He has a great little furry baby with our Teddi, and I am so glad Teddi is his. So I will have to let time heal, if that is possible. And you too, Mel. Cry whenever you need to. It's a great way to heal.
Sending you hugs from FL.
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I still haven’t had a day that I haven’t cried. Sounds pathetic. I just miss my best friend. Dogs are a mans best friend. For sure. They love unconditionally. Deeohgee is doing ok , but Tag was the little love affectionately willing to take whatever affection you could Dish out, I miss the love. Someone who didn’t want something from me, other than to lay at my feet and be there for me on my worst days. No hair? No problem ? Haven’t showered in almost a week. don’t care still loving you! Yes it really sucks. I don’t think I’ll ever get over it. I stare at his ashes unintentionally all day long, where I sit to watch television. I just hope I get to see him again. I honestly wholeheartedly do hope for that.
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Crying for someone you miss, no matter how often it happens is not pathetic. For some of us, we don't cry as much but it still hurts. I feel like crying is a help to process those emotions. I cried for my mom yesterday. It does not happen often but it can just hit me over the head and I just have to let it go. I got tired on my way home and felt like I was going to cry. It can hit you and sometimes, it is good just to give into it. It can be a stress reliever.
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Micmel, totally understandable. When my super special boy died, I counted over 2 1/2 months before I had a day that I didn’t cry.
We all know grief, sometimes it’s completely devastating but we adjust eventually.
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Thank You Ladies. It helps to
Know others understand.
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Well, I am having a quiet day so far. No long distance walks today, maybe a short one to the grocery store nearby but that is it. Filling out surveys and watching tv. Hope everyone else has a decent day today.
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Hi Mara~I went to the fabric store , I stopped at Panera and got three pumpkin cookies. Delicious! It’s raining again. Oh my it’s rained four days in a row. It’s grey and sleep weather. I needed thread, Lynne sent me so much fabrics i have been a sewing queen. Boy the masks go fast, I can’t keep 100 in stock. The lowest I got was 24 left. I had to make more for men colors. Women like certain colors Men won’t wear certain patterns. So it’s tricky I even made 4masks for 6 year old. All pink. I hope they fit. Sizing is the hard part.
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Heading out for my brain MRI today, hopefully Xeloda has been worth it, wish me luck 😬
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Luck, luck, and prayers heading your way, Mae!
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Pocket duty for Mae.
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Mae~ in your pocket! With snacks. And hard seltzer !!
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Pocket duty for you Mae, I understand the SE have been difficult for you. Hoping it is worth it for you as well.
Mel those masks are so pretty. I can understand why you cannot keep them in stock. I must say, yours are the ones I wear the most and get the most complements on. I am confident you probably have the sizing down pat. You are talented.
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Mae, in your pocket and wishing you great luck with fingers crossed.
Mel, I wore my paisley blue mask to the infusion center last week and got many compliments on it.
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Mara ~ thank you. That makes me happy
Bliss~thank you. As welL, I wanted my sisters protected and looking fine during it. Awesome You’re using them. I make several a day most days. Today already I made 6. Am cutting new fabric that’s next. I have trouble keeping men’s masks in stock. I don’t know why this is. I try to even out my fabric. Equally. It’s a mystery
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where Candy been!?? Thinking of you!
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Mae, pocket duty for today if I’m not too late! Big wishes for good results.
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Mel- Thanks for the shout out. I am here. I have been reading along and posted today for Mae's pocket duty.
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hey everyone, took the weekend off the board. I really need to carve out spaces & times which are way from cancer. I've been too stressed and anxious lately. I get my CT results on Wed. It's been cold here and my nose is running and now I sometimes have a tickle in my throat. I think it's the cold weather and dry air inside & no nose hair to catch normal secretions, but my brain is immediately spinning: is it a cold, is it covid, is it new lung mets? Cough was my only stage 4 symptom at the beginning so now I'm super stressed about anytime I cough for any reason.
pocket duty for mae. Hugs for those grieving their companion animals & more hugs for everyone else
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Go Mae! You show your brain who is boss! (or is that like a time travel paradox?)
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Mae we are all there. Pockets in your big sweater.
Moth I hope it's all winter related. My husband coughed and we were both thinking Covid. A man in our community died and a notice was sent out that ALL of his family has Covid and no one ELSE should attend funeral/burial. Sad times.
Tanya
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Thanks for the pocket duty but no sweater for me today, it’s 82 degrees in Houston!
Waiting to be called now, hopefully I’ll have the results tomorrow.
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Mae - a little late to the pocket duty. Hope for quick return of results.
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moth: I popped in to see if you had or when you will get the results. I'll check back Wednesday. I get it about taking breaks from the forums. I do that a lot. Sometimes I just read but don't add a post. There are days when I really really want my life to be more than my DX. Hoping for the best, moth.
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