INSOMNIACS place to talk in the wee hours

Teka, that's awful. What a face!

I like this better.

Left message for Saasy, haven't heard back.

Going out to dinner tonight at our favorite Mexican restaurant with some friends to celebrate our 29th anniversary (which is tomorrow). Maria is making her super sized heart shaped flan for us.

I'm scheduled to have a PET scan Tuesday to get a baseline for faslodex tx. Last scan was April. Then CT in 2 months to see if it's working. If yes then continue indefinitely.

My niece is flying in from NYC this week. She's going to be hopping around to see her cousins and high school buddies but will stay here a few days later this week. Then in 2 weeks my oldest sister and her hubby are coming for a week. I haven't seen my niece or sister in 5 years, so pre-BC. Not sure what they expect. Oh well.

I find these days that I just don't want to think. I don't want to think about my life and whether it has had any meaning. Don't want to think about what I need to do. Don't want to think, or feel, anything. People expect me to be all emotional and teary but I'm not. Nothing has really changed. And yet everything has

Mags- I am sorry to hear about your progression. I remember being with you on the Hermits thread when you were in treatment. You don't need to put your energy into others and what they think you should be feeling or doing.

Enjoy your dinner at your favorite Mexican place, your evening out, and your company this week.

Beautiful kitten Mags. X

Susan, Elena has her daddy's look. She is adorable! Ugh, the anxiety that comes with scans. Hope you get the puppy from your brother. The poor thing needs love.

JunieB, thank you for the info on the Biofrreze. I see methylparabene which is not good for us human. And thank you for responding to my question regarding MacBook. I have decided to exchange the laptop for my daughter to the one with Retina display. She will be doing a lot of reading on the laptop, so I figured the Retina display will help prevent strained eyes. Textbooks might become obsolete soon. I was wondering about your echocardiogram result too. So no enlarged heart or bad ejection fraction huh? Don't you hate it when your body is trying to tell you something is wrong and they can't find what's wrong? I'm glad test is normal though.

Sensi, I am sorry you couldn't join us. I told Ms. S you probably had a lot on your plate. No worries, next time. I can be your back up chauffeur to the infusion center or doc visit. Just holler and don't be shy about it. Mitzy would have love to have a visit with you. She balked at Ms. S for a little bit, but warmed up really quickly to her. I was so happy she felt comfortable enough to fall asleep right next to her.

Here is a picture of her politely greet our guest.

ShepK, I need to write a different post for the movie. Gosh, it will take me a few hours. This is one of the moments when I wish words could flow out easily from my mind.

Susan3: stomp away. It's all weight-bearing exercise--good for bones.

And happy birthday, Sas, wherever you are.

Dear Sassy ~

Ta da!

How is it that you all knew today is Sassy's birthday. If not for your posts, I wouldn't have known. How do I keep up in the future?

Wenchie - Now that some kinda moving guy! How are you feeling?

Jazzygirl - The patio set is so beautiful. So worth the wait. Hope you get to have that party soon.

Loverly - Yea the methylparaben is a concern, but for the relief of the itching from the mosquito's I'm willing to use it. For soreness in general Arnica is a good choice. Smaarty is privileged to have met Ms. Mitzy.

Mags - Hope you enjoy your Anniversary Dinner & company tonight. Yes, life is too short to let others who don't have a clue to put unreasonable expectations on you. Especially considering we are already doing our best each day depending on how our health is doing.

Shep - Playing with Marti & Pris sounds like fun. I'm envious. And yes it was crazy to walk in that heat, but I do need to work on strengthening my leg muscles. I've pretty much stayed inside today doing little chores like cleaning, dusting and repotting a plant. I even posted something for sale on Facebook for the first time. Lets see how that goes.

Susan - Help me to understand your post. Is your cancer aggressive? Progressed significantly? I hope I'm not being too forward. If you don't care to expound, I'll understand. Enjoy your time with Elena tomorrow. (((((HUGS))))) Hope your scans go well. Hopefully show stability.

Queenie - How's it going? We don't get to hear from you too much.

Sensi - I have not had to experience chemo infusion yet, so I don't know how to encourage you, but I will definitely keep you in prayer.

BBL

Jazzy ~ Ohhhhh.....is that a rocker I see? Sooo prettty! Love the blue. Is the table top stone?

Susan ~ Tests stress me, but I really like naps! My bone scans are always scheduled at the end of a long day, after all my CTs and bloodwork, so it is a nice break before going on to meet with the MO after. It's a tough schedule, but I get all my results in one day. I do get soo anxious the days before and worry what the scans and tests might show. You've been through so many chemos......maybe it was so you would be led to this one that works? Prayers for your continued success and well being. You've been blessed with your darlin' grandbaby and maybe a puppy too....The Lord has plans for you - here!

Hey Queenie!

MammaRay ~ Thinking of you and sending prayers for comfort and healing to you ✝

WHEN HELL FREEZES OVER

I was first drawn to this thread by the beautiful spirit of camaraderie and friendship. This was a group of people who truly cared about one another. I lurked for so long, gaining my courage to hopefully become one of the Owlettes. Joining this group has been a tremendously wonderful experience. We are all from different parts of the world, with different life experiences and sometimes different opinions. We are all bound together by this damned disease. We have laughed and cried together. We have learned from each other, shared hopes, dreams and fears. We prayed and fretted over the births of "our" grandbabies and now ooh and awe at every glimpse we get of them. We are ready to support one another in any way possible, whether in person, phone calls, emails or messages here. This is a true sisterhood. What a blessing it is to have this family of the heart.

One of the most special things here was watching the growing friendship between Spookie and Sas. They were the meet and greet team for any of our sisters passing through Florida. Spookie and Sas visited each other, checked up on each other and delighted us all with their humor and wit. They were the cool big sisters we all wished we had growing up.

Spookie, I don't know if your post was a silly response or a pissy one. I am hoping you were joking about something. We lose too many of our sisters for real, forever. None of us knows how long we have on this earth. Life is a precious gift. Friendship is a special gift. Friends we love, who love us...... that is a rare gift to treasure always.

We can disagree about things. That is okay. We are each individuals - how boring life would be if we were all the same. Let us cherish this sisterhood, tolerate our differences and just be good to each other.

you are special sheps:)

Yes, still very much following this thread, among others, but tranquilly receding into non-cancerness. With occasional forays into 'smoke coming out of my ears' frustration resulting from visiting family. (Never make the mistake of confusing correlation with causation. AKA the 'post hoc, ergo propter hoc' fallacy. NOT wearing a seat belt doesn't cause head injury any more than being overweight or alcohol consumption does breast cancer. There's an intermediate step in there. Fume.)

Shep that was a eloquent post written from the heart.

THe wedding is in Regina . it was a beautiful sunny day with a temp of 30C.