TIME TO CIRCLE THE WAGONS GIRLS
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Good to see you SHEL!!!!
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Hi everyone .. it's me again
Yes Nosurrender .... I lost it all
I set up a new one called www.cherylg.net and the map is now a page on its own.
I had 30 posts to the map
that were lost so.....
CAN EVERYBODY PUT THEIR PINS ON MY NEW MAP PLEASE I am told that having it on its own page will prevent this from happening again.
To bed for me now... night all
CherylG0 -
And a Happy Sunday to everyone. Im laughing so hard right now. Let my dog out and of course he barks to come back in cause its raining. As crazy and goofy as this dog is, he walks in, immediately lays down - so I can wipe his feet! Cant teach the darn dog to roll over, but he learned to get his feet wipe.
So its a quiet, cool, wet morning here at the circle. Just put more logs on the fire. Its warmer than usual here but still feels like Thanksgiving is just around the corner. As much as I like the Holidays, Im also happy when they are over. They are so stressful. The memories are wonderful though. This will be my 56th Thanksgiving, so I have lots of memories - lots of loved ones who care and lots of loved ones who are no longer here. I still get anxious when I have to go out to any gathering. Will probably take a xanax TG morning. Would much rather stay at home cause it feels safe here. I think thats the one thing that is left over from this whole journey. I have forgotten how to party - or enjoy a party! The whole idea of Holdiay shopping - oh Im dreading it. Yesterday I had to go buy some more yarn for the craft Im making. Get to the register, give the cashier my money, and she sneezes twice into her hands and it was juicy. Was supposed to get 60 cents back and said thanks but no thanks. OK - so what do I do? I go to the manager and say you should have cleansing lotion at each cashiers station. Whined about how this is exactly how colds get spread. The manager wanted to give me my 60 cents and I said, use it to buy a bottle of alcohol gel! So everyone be careful out there. I now have a bottle of antiseptic gel in my car and use it as soon as I can.
Vickie: I was wondering where you have been. So curled up in the blues tent are ya. Yes, bc seems to always whisper in our ears. Every little ache or pain. Fear. Its a big one to battle. On another thread, on of our sisters told us about her husband who was just admitted to the hospital with chest pain. She was very worried about him. He is 58 and his father died of a heart attack at age 55. Sort of opened my eyes a little. We can be here today and gone tomorrow. So I have stopped worrying. I just try to enjoy each and everyday. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.
Sherloc: Oh I laughed when you said you look like your mother. Yep - thats me. I remember when I was a young, skinny teenager. Weighed 100 pounds! I would look at my mother with her big belly and think oh she is so fat. Well guess what - I do look just like my mother now.
Sheri: I loved your story and Im so glad you are going to Alabama for TG. It will be a special one - so enjoy.
Shel: So glad to hear from you. Wont post cause your not cheerie? Thats simply not allowed here in the circle. Here is a place for us to be ourselves. Good or bad, silly or sad. And if we dont hear from you Im gonna paint your wagon an illuminated pink!
And speaking of pink, Lini - where are you and how are you doing?
DebC: Oh it sounds cold. I think I hate the cold more than the snow. In fact I do hate it more. What a nice story and nice thing to do for your friends. I think my salvation is being a nurse gives me lots of opportunity to help others and it always makes me feel good.
NS: Spinning? OMG! I could never join a spinning class, I dont have that kind of endurance. I think I will stay with my treadmill, abdoer, and light hand weights. I have an exercise ball that I whined about needed. Well for sale, one slightly used exercise ball.
Cheryl: what a bummer - having your sight crash. I have put myself on the new one and marked it as one of my favorites.
Well Ive just put some bacon on. The aroma is penetrating the circle. Nice aroma to wake up to. Gonna have a good old fashioned breakfast. Eggs, bacon, hashbrowns, and fresh fruit. Time for me to go. Will check in with you all later.
Nicki0 -
Good Morning!! I am so happy a cold front came through down south - I go outside now when I have a hot flash rather than sticking my head in the freezer.
I've been up since 3:30 a.m. (the sleeping problems still happening). I had to call a daughter at 6:00 a.m. this morning to make sure she was awake so she can go to work. I have gone from Mom to personal alarm clock "Wake up my dear". This child is in the Air Force and will get to come home for Thanksgiving!
DebC. Wow, you are awesome! I know the family appreciates your help. It must be hard on the children to have this disruption in their life.
CherylG. I hate insurance companies. I live in the hurricane alley and I just received notice that my homeowner's policy has DOUBLED. There is not a thing any of us can do. I had no damage from Rita or Katrina (none that I claimed) but we still have to pay the increased premium. The good times are not rolling down south!
Nicki, we cooked bacon and eggs for dinner last night. Now I need to decide what to cook today! I also get nervous when I have to go to gatherings, parties, etc. I think it is because everyone will ask "how are you?" and the polite thing to say is "great" or "fine" when all you want to do is say I ache all over, the hot flashes are driving me crazy, I have minor panic attacks, my hair is thinning on the hormone therapy, etc. I know they don't want to hear anything but "great", so I'll pay the game.
Sorry, I have a big function to attend next weekend - so I will smile and say "great". (I know I am whiney, sorry)
Sheri, I am glad you are going to visit your family. I would spend my last penny for my children to be home for the holidays. The only thing I want for Christmas (and I tell my children this) is for them to be happy and settled in whatever career path they decide. When I see their smiles and happiness it is better than opening a box full of diamonds. (but I won't tell my dh in case he wants to give me diamonds -ha ha)
Gotta go for now. I have an onc appointment tomorrow and I have a LONG LONG list of questions I want to type out for him.0 -
Morning Circle Girls...thanks for all your encouragment and helpful words...they mean more than you know. Hoping for a good day today. It's cold, gray, mix of rain and snow showers but taking Nathaniel shopping then to lunch then off to see the Nutcracker at 3. He's so excited...it's only 8am and he's wondering "is it time yet?". You can check out where I will be at stateofithaca.com if anyone is interested. They are doing a Garfield play next that he really wants to see but need to check the bank account first LOL!
Shel...come here regardless of your mood...if we all stopped coming on our "down" days it would become a pretty lonely place and we can't have a lonely circle.
Amy...ok...stop running now...you'll tire yourself out...I'll take over for you as maybe I need a good yelling whooping run. Good for you for firing you oncologist. There was a time in my life where I would have just set back and kept my mouth shut...no more. I am so not up to taking crap...yup...hormone deprived crazy woman here.
Cheryl...put myself back on the map...almost put myself in Florida so I could pretend I was on vacation there with my daughter and son in law LOL.
Have a wonderful day all
looking for Lini, Mena, Jeannette (silvergirl) and many others...come out come out wherever you are.
Love
Vickie0 -
I just posted on the map. Where are all the west coast girls?
DebC, You are the greatest! You are the kind of friend we all want to have.
Vickie, have fun at the Nutcracker. What a great experience for you and Nathaniel.
Shel, glad you are joining us in the blues tent. All fountains are welcome.
Madison, I love your comment about the diamonds! Never discourage gifts of jewelry.
Nicki, bacon sounds wonderful right now. I haven't had breakfast yet.
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Good Morning Girls. Announcement of the day. I SLEPT THRU THE NIGHT!!!!! YEHAW!!!! But....isn't there always a but. I woke up having a hot flash. Had a bitty one last night too. hmmmmmmmm.
Spent the last two days watching season 4 of 24. Shame shame shame on me. But who can resist things blowing up, kidnappings, assasinations, and intrigue? Now I'm good till season 5 comes out on dvd.
DebC, you are a good friend.
CherylG, Yikes...on my way over there.
Shel, visit the "no more blues" tent. It's doing all of us a world of good.
NS, well said. spring green sounds lovely. All here is brown and dead. All insurance companines suck.
Nicki, hahahahahhahh well at least your pooch is tidy.
When I worked in a department store we had anti-bacterial gel and wipes at every register. Should be the norm at any store.
Looking like my mother is not an option.
Madison, I say "so far so good" and change the subject.
Vicki, have a grand time.
Must accomplish something today. See you all later.0 -
Sheri, this west coast girl was snoring away.
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Oops, sorry, forgot about the time difference.
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You girls ROCK!!
I can't believe all the posts to catch up on.
Have to do it later. On my way to church. And I will have to take notes. Amy can I help you kick your doctors butt!
Susan0 -
Well I just finished exercising. There is no way I can do this before I go to work. Im sweating so much, not even a shower is gonna stop this.
Madison: You are so right. I think the thing that bothers me most is everyone looking at you with pity and then asking how you are doing. Of course they want to hear good, so I usually so "Im doing just great." Doesnt matter that almost 2 years of my life have been fighting this stupid bc. But I got a great new outfit, I have hair, and Im gonna enjoy the food on Thanksgiving.
Vickie: Sounds like you are going to have a wonderful day. Enjoy the time with your son and the nutcracker sounds like fun.
Sheri: Your sounding chipper already. The smell of bacon cooking is great isnt it?
Sherloc: Now only if we could get the cashiers to use the alcohol gel. Did 10 wall pushups today. They seem too easy! Although I actually skipped to one of my songs. I think thats what made me sweat so bad.
Susan: Ive been looking for you. Hope you prayed for us all at church today.
Ok, time to go. Gotta work on my project again. I would like to finish it today so I can start something new.
Have a great Sunday. Gonna take a xanax before the cardiac Bears game today. DaBears.
Nicki0 -
Susan
we got a lot of butt kicking to do.I cant wait.Add me to amy's md butt also.
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Good Morning Circle,
Cloudy at this end of the circle, but it is supposed to be a nice day. Trying to catch up with all you girls as I was away with my son to a one day speed skating meet yesterday. He did great, no medals, but improved times on all his distances!
CherylG, I went to the old map site and it is still accessable, but added my name to the new one too. Girls if you want to post really accurately, hit "zoom" twice and move the map, then post. You can really see where you are and everyone comes out as an individual there so you can see who everyone is. It is fun to see where you all are. (if you double zoom and find you are in the wrong place, click on your name, delete, and restart!), had to do that twice cause I couldn't spell this morning!.
Shel, good to see you. Post no matter how you feel, the girls here will drag you to the "no-blues" tent and you'll feel better. Hope things are going okay. Hugs and prayers.
Sheri, glad you get to have Thanksgiving with your family. Dads are great! Enjoy and be loved.
Nicki, yep, look like the mother, not so much me, but enough! But first I sounded like my mother! When you're kids are little and you've said that you won't say what your parents said, etc, and the next thing you know you're saying it! LOL. Then you hear YOUR kids saying the same things! It's funny. The bacon smells great, I am getting hungry.
NS, gentle hugs to you. Hope you get yourself going again. Spring green sounds wonderful, here on the prairies, everything goes yellow/brown, pretty in its own way but not cheery. What is a spinning class? I thought you meant like wool!lol.
Vicki, have a great day with Nate today.
For all I missed, hope your Week goes great. Hugs and prayers to everyone.
Lynn0 -
Good Morning Circle Girls!
Another dreary day here, throwing more logs onto the fire.
Lynn48 .... really?? When I go to the old website it says under construction and I can't get into it. Guess I better try to do a "redirect" so it will go to the new site. Thanks for letting me know!
Still missing quite e few that were on the old site
but noticing a lot of new faces 
I'm going to try and set the site up so that we can save pictures and information from these threads... a little easier than looking through the threads. I have a photo page and am going to add pages similar to the ones in here where we can store stuff for easy reference. If anyone has things they would like added please PM me. Right now you can....
-Add pictures to the photogallery
-Fill in special dates/events on the calendar
-Add links on the link page that you think are good
-Put your pin on our map
This is OUR site ladies so use it as much as you like to stay in touch, get informed or just plain store things for future reference.
Hope everyone is doing well. Enjoy your Sunday, I'm going to have a nice hot coffee now and curl up with a good magazine while DH watches his Packers lose another game
Just kidding ... hope they win and that all your favs win too
Cheers
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Good morning ladies-
I just got up and read the new posts and realized that I sounded like one of those "look at me, I did a good thing" people last night! Arggg I didn't post to draw attention to what I did to help a friend. That is just what friends do..What I was amazed about and wanted to share is how much better I FELT after doing it.
I had a real epiphany I think my problems with depression and anxiety are being made so much worse by my hyper focus on myself and my own problems. I am so scared of this damn cancer coming back because I am looking at myself and every little ache and pain in my life with a magnifying glass..Oh, is that little ache cancer? Is this little bump a new tumor? I think what I learned yesterday in a very REAL way is that if I just drop that magnifying glass, and focus on someone else, I feel so much better. Seems simple doesnt it? So why did it take me this long to get it?
Ill post more later.
Deb C.0 -
DebC, I didn't take it that you were bragging, I know you were happy at how good helping others made you feel. You are absolutely right! It's one of those things I know with my head and have experienced for myself, but don't always get off my "you know what" and do anything about.
Does this sound bad to say that sometimes I want to feel sorry for myself? Does anyone else ever feel that way? Yes, Nicki, I'm a little more chipper. What my dad did was so awesome, I can't help feeling a little better, but I guess I'm also worried that I need to stay down for awhile so I can get things under control. When I'm feeling good I get in way over my head!
This probably sounds like a lot of mind games and you will all want to lock me up. Just keep me with the fountains.0 -
And DebC, I am really glad you are my friend. You are a jewel.
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Deb - not at all!! You are absolutely right - taking the focus off ourselves is the best therapy (although challenging at times!). I did not perceive any bragging at all. I know when I have a project - something for others or for myself - I seem to feel better physically as well as emotionally.
Sheri - no feeling is bad when you have cancer. We all feel sorry for ourselves at some point. When I start to beat myself up for it - or for still crying so much - or for not getting used to treatment - my DH reminds me
"You have cancer - it's a horrible thing to deal with - you are fighting for your life - you will have many different feelings and you need to allow yourself to FEEL them - they won't go away unless you do. So stop beating yourself up and FEEL what comes, CRY when you need to, get ANGRY, get SAD - they will work themselves out in time. You're doing great - so much better than you think you are."
So think of that the next time you think it's bad to feel anything about your bc.
and hugs to all of us...we're all doing very well for what we have...0 -
Here I am! My goodness, the Circle Girls have been busy while I was involved elsewhere. Too much to respond to individually but you all were on my mind and in my heart.
This past Friday was the big fundraiser for the non-profit I work with as a volunteer. It went smashingly although 40 people who made reservations (out of 180) didn't bother to show up. Don't people understand that we order food for them and every penny counts when you're as small as we are? The room looked beautiful, the silent auction was sparkly and did well---the band was great---so we'll just focus on that. The Mayor even came for awhile.
We are all aware that we're kinda sliding into a winter funk, or something. The blues tent is a little crowded some days. Even I am aware of the fact that I'm just not swinging happy like I usually do. I know, in my case, that the eye thing in September that ultimately was dx as B9, scared the crap out of me----especially after both docs told me they thought we were in deep doodoo. Really drove home how tenuous my position is---probably moreso than the original BC diagnosis. I am working hard on reminding myself that if I spend all of my time worrying about a recurrence and it happens, I have wasted my life. And if I spend all of my time worrying about recurrence and it doesn't happen, I have wasted my life. Syracuse is notorious for cloudy weather and maybe I just need the sun to come out for more than 5 minutes every week. Sorry about this---but it's just on my mind more than it should be.
On a happier note----now I can move on to new Grandbaby! Sunshine isn't here yet---next week if he/she is on time but how often does that happen? My daughter, who seems to be taking a Zen approach to childbirth, says she has a "feeling" the baby will be born December 3. All I know is I had better pack my overnight bag and keep the cell charged and the gas tank full. Daughter lives in Ithaca and it takes me 90 minutes to get there.
Vickie---hope you enjoyed the Nutcracker. Half of the event is the State Theater---it's gorgeous! Take Nathaniel to Madeline's for dessert afterwards.
I put myself on the map----tried zooming twice, which didn't work, so I think I may be somewhere in the Atlantic Ocean off the coast with wet feet!
Jeannie0 -
Hello circle friends!!
Haven't check in for quite a while. I have read about 4 pages back and there has been so much happening.
Deb C., I sure didn't think you were bragging; from our struggles comes much compassion for others and I am proud that I have gotten to know you through this circle.
Amy!!! What is up with our oncologist? Glad that you told her you were going to part ways.
I need to come and sit in the "blues tent" myself for awhile. I had my gallbladder removed last Friday and they got to do it laproscopically. Said it was full of "sludge" and oh, yes, that horrible pain is gone. Just haven't popped back as quickly as I thought. Too, last year this time I was in chemo and miserable and the year before that had had extensive female repair surgery. I am just so tired - tired of not being OK.
Remember about a month ago now, my oncologist and the guy that was doing his fellowship that was with him that day, told me all my test (for abdominal pain, ie, ultrasound, CT) was normal and there was nothing physically wrong with me and thought I had underlying issues from breast cancer and needed to see a shrink. Upset me to no end and it was MY D_______ GALLBLADDER!!!!!!! I do not understand docs anymore and why if it isn't in front of their face, it doesn't exist. Too, don't get me started on insurance companies either - Nicki, you are so right. They hired people to "manage" or health care which was supposed to save us money but it has taken more and more people to "manage" their rules!!!!!
I wanted to go to Va. to have THanksgiving with my precious 19 month old granddaughter but I am not comfortable enough to travel 5 hours. I am trying hard to stay positive. Today is one of those days when you look out the window that is overcast with far to many gray clouds, just enough breeze to move the remaining brown leaves on the trees. The squirrels have been frolicking in the yard, chasing each other and the scurrying up the trees. The female robins have been plentiful today also, but all the beauty of nature today just doesn't seem to keep me from feeling sad. I am sure part of it is remembering where I was last year; not being able to go to Va. for Thanksgiving and recovering once again from another surgery and illness. I think we all do that and it is only part of our healing process.
It is good to have a place to come and post and share and know that others understand all these emotions that sometimes are so foreign to us.
Gentle hugs and blessings everyone. Brenda0 -
Ahh Brenda and Jeannie...you've been missed.
I know all about the gray Syracuse days...we are near Ithaca and haven't seen a ray of sunshine in almost two weeks now...depressing!
WENT TO THE NUTCRACKER!!!
OH WOW...OH AMAZING...OH WONDERFUL...MAGICAL...BEAUTIFUL...MAGNIFICENT...WHEW.
MEN IN TIGHTS!!!!LOL
It was simply amazing and no words can describe it. Nathaniel sat throughout it with the biggest eyes I've ever seen, grinning from ear to ear. He's hooked...what's to get ticket for every play that's coming up so we can go to them all...doesn't understand the whole "budget" concept yet!
Snowing like crazy on the way home...so hard you couldn't see the road...traffic at a crawl. I finally got off the main road as I had a tractor trailer behind me that was so close all I could see were his headlights in my back window!!! Scary ride even though the roads were fine...just couldn't see a thing past your hood. All I need is to wreck yet another vehicle...the insurance company would send a hangman for sure.
Deb...I will second the "you are a jewel" statement. No one thought you were bragging.
Cheryl...the new site your setting up sounds great...can't wait. I'd say I would help but would be useless! By the time I get home and get dinner I'm done for the day. I can usually do a couple of posts and then it's off to bed.
Hugs all...thinking of you all...going to see if there is any news on Trenton...pray pray pray.
OH...my daughter is feeling a little better...codeine 3 does wonders...just hoping she keeps her appointment with the oral surgeon or I'll have to fly to Florida and drag her there.0 -
Hi CGs
Chery the map is going great. I can't believe all the names. I really like reading all the notes. Thanks for taking the time to do that.
DebC. that was a great sweet story and I'm glad you shared it. It made me feel good.
Well I think the vote is too keep snowmen_n_thongs, right???
Welcome to the Circle Linda.
LauraGTO are you still out partying???? Have one for me.
Kristin, how are you doing. I think you are still in your good days right now, correct? Of course when you are doing chemo, "good days" is such a relative term.
MB, I missed why you are unclosing on the house for your son. So sorry to hear that. So much work down the drain.
Hey Shirley, sleepin', eh?? Hope that keeps going.
Colleen, a chicks weekend. How fun is that. Eating and shopping! Bet you had fun.
Liz, glad you are backing away and letting the inlaws take over.
Sheri, that's great you get to go to Alabama. Don't be hard on yourself about the money. You were trying to do the right thing. Give yourself credit for dealing with a difficult situation (in many ways).
I hate insurance companies also. It really is confusing. I think they go out of their way sometimes to see how they can not pay us.
Brenda, so glad to hear from you. I've missed you. Rest up and don't worry about how quick it is. You have been through a lot!!! We all get tired of it. Come and whine whenever you want. I love hearing from you. Keep us informed, ok?
Newvickie, I'm so glad you made it home safe and sound. LOL. Riding in a car with you must be an adventure.
I know there are responses that I meant to write but my brain has gone into fuzz mode. Anything else I write will be gibberlgthes. gllc ukbyt
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Hi Girls,
A quick note - I have just spent over half an hour cathcing up - and that was today"s mail!
I join the unanymous vote that Amy's onc should get a huge boot and sent back to medical school for sensitivity training. I just wouldn't let a new med student in who isn't sensitive.
DebC you are a generous woman and yes, it is so good to get outside of ourselves and be able to give. It's hard on us when we need to graciously receive all the time.
Niki, thanks for the reminder - I am putting the magic disinfectant gel in my car and handbag. It really made a difference last year. Also, I am inspitered to go out and look for a treadmill - at least that is my plan for exercising over the cold snowy months ahead. If I can only find one that doesn't break the bank
Robin, hope the neutrophil count goes up, the boils disappear and you can dance like you haven't danced before.
Brenda, thanks for the heads up about the gall bladder surgery. Mine is due to come out Dec. 1. Let's hope thay can do it laprascopically. Hope to be healed before Christmas.
CherylG - I just added myself to the map. Already 73 posts! Wow, we are such an amazing circle.
Shel - off to the blues tent for some rythm and blues. Will send whatever you want to your table - a drink, a stud, a masseuse.
Now are challenge is - how do you live in a wagon train all winter and not get cabin fever?
OK girls, I do have to be upbeat. My hair has been growing back in, now about 3/4" long and salt and pepper. People have been complimenting me on a spiffy hair do (and those are people who don't know about the BC). I actuially look much better than I did before I lost my hair. Go figure. Guess I shall be wearing a buzz cut for a while.
Have been at another sweat lodge. Helped to build a new lodge yesterday and we sweated today, despite some pretty strong winds (difficult to mamge a fire in these gales). Said prayers for all of you.
For a nite cape - some warm herbal tea (need to replenish my fluids).
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Hey Jeannette-
All your stories about the sweat lodge bring back good memories for me.
We have some friends who have a commercial fishing camp they live at all summer. It is on an island in the middle of Cook Inlet. They dont have any electricity there so they have made many cool things one of which is a banya house, a type of sweat bath.
It is a square pine building up on about 4 foot stilts nestled back against a high bluff on the beach. The door opens to a view of the cove the fish camp is settled in and the beautiful mountain range across the inlet. You can always smell the salt water and the tang of the beach.
In the center of the building is a huge old Franklyn wood stove surrounded by big beach stones. There is copper pipe wound around the stove that goes up to a 55 gallon drum on the roof. The barrel is filled with water that is piped down from a little stream. When you start a fire it heats the water in the barrel which is connected to an old shower nozzle. We would sit in around on the benches; the benches closest to the ceiling were where the air is the hottest. We throw buckets of water on the stove and rocks and take little showers to clean up. When we can not stand the heat any longer we run pell-mell down the beach and jump in the water, which is never more than about 45 degrees. We caper around in the waves and act like lunatics until we cool off and then start all over again. It is not really a spiritual event, although it is one of the most beautiful places on the face of the planet, so somehow everything we do there seems blessed. It is a very sensual experience without being the slightest bit sexual I dont know how to explain it, but sitting there in the steam, talking about nothing and everything, sharing the quiet it is one of my favorite things.
I love every part of visiting the island the fact that we take off our watches and dont worry about the time, the fact that we are always there in the summer when it never really gets dark so we can go beach combing at 3 in the morning looking for agates, going fishing for halibut and cooking it over a fire and eating it on the beach, but mostly I love the banya. I would love to come to your sweat lodge some day and would love to have you all visit the banya As hard as I try I dont think I could ever describe what it is like and what it means to me.
Thanks for bringing up all the great memories
Deb C.0 -
Good Morning Everyone: Its going to be a great day today. I can tell, even though it is dark, I can see the stars. So I guess that means we will see the sun today.
Robin: Glad you posted and hope things are going well today. Start doing that wig shopping and pick out the cutest one you can fine.
Lynn: It sounds like you have so much fun going to your son's speed skating events. You are a proud mother and it shows
Cheryl: The map is fun. I actually went there first before I came to the wagon circle. WOW - lots of ladies all over the world.
DebC: I didnt look at your post as though you were bragging. You were sharing a wonderful story with us. I so agree - if we can focus on other things, we forget about the bc - even if its only for one minute, one hour, one day.
Sheri: Geez! I feel sorry for myself all the time. Cant help it, the physical, emotional, and financial issues that we have to deal with in this bc journey. They are with us everyday. Still havent "moved on". Still seeing doctors, still feeling blue sometimes - just wanting my old self back, and still paying huge bills to the hospital. One of the only thing that keeps me sane is coming to the wagon circle. Ahh geez! I guess thats better than denial. Which I am also very good at.
Round: Great advice! We are so busy dealing with treatments and appointments. Sometimes it doesnt sink in until all the treatment is over. Whew - what a roller coaster ride.
Jeannie: So good to hear from you. Sounds like you have been busy. I did see you on the map - so your arnt in the ocean lol. It always bugs me too, when people reserve a spot and then dont show up. They should at least send a donation to cover the cost of food. Grrrrr! It is amazing what you have been through. I remember when they first found the eye thing and the docs were so sure it was "not good." And so relieved when you got the B9.
Brenda: I was so happy to see you post. Im glad the gall bladder is finially gone. Guess your onc was wrong on this one. I mean it, sometimes they are just pompous asses. God forbid you question their judgement!! Even though they removed the GB by laparoscopy, its still surgery so no wonder your feeling in a funk. Sorry you cant get to go to your family for ThanksGiving. See, thats what makes me crazy about the Holidays. They are great, but they also can make you very depressed. Now 3 years in a row of recovering from something - well thats enough!
Vickie: Nothing like men in tights to lift your spirits. Sounds like you both had a great time. I cant believe the weather you are having. First floods and now snow. I have myself have driven when its snowing and you cant see a thing. Its pretty scary. Glad you got home safely.
Susan: yep, I hate insurance companies. And I do believe they go out of their way not to cover things. Its sad. I know that I myself, have had medical issues based on what the insurance recommended. Last year they wouldnt pay for my Lipitor. Had to try Lescol. Well I had a severe reaction to the Lescol. And as a result, for the past year I have not been on any cholesterol medication. Now mind you I was on Lipitor for 8 years without any problems. Oh it makes me so mad.
Jeannette: Your hair sounds so cute. Thats how mine grew back. Salt and pepper. I finially went and had it colored back to my normal black hair. The salt and pepper was cute and I got alot of compliments, but I wanted me back!
Kristin: I see you snuck in a post while I have been editing mine. So glad to hear you are doing well. On chemo and a party at ChuckieCheese? Geez, you are a strong lady. I remember my last A/C and the fear of now starting a new chemo. It was like, well - I know what this does and I dont want to change. Hey, you are half way through! which is so great. I think you will find the taxol or taxotere easier. My biggest problem with it was some bone pain the 3rd day post chemo. And of course - fatigue fatigue fatigue. Hang in there - we are with you all the way.
Well today marks the beginning of a week filled with anxiety. Today is my husbands birthday. His present is in the trunk of my car which is in the garage. Then tomorrow I have to go to a Thankgiving dinner at the nursing home my brother lives at. He is 47 and has very bad paranoid schizophrenia - needs to be in an intermiate care facility. But here I go again. Another event. And then of course there is ThanksGiving. So xanax is gonna be my friend this whole week.
Gotta go, hope you all have a wonderful day.
Nicki0 -
Good morning ladies!
I don't have much time as I am at work and was late (it is SO hard to get up early anymore! Not that it was ever easy). My son is doing much better now. Thank goodness for antibiotics! He was feeling good enough to be able to enjoy his Chuck E Cheese birthday party on Saturday...which is good because rescheduling it would have been a pain. My baby is now 7 years old! Where did the time go? It seems like just yesterday he was a tiny little thing.
Anyway, I am also feeling much better. Kind of like someone plugged me back in. My next AC treatment is not until Tuesday the 28th. Then I will start the 12 weekly Taxol/Herceptin. I have heard the Taxol is easier but I am nervous because it is weekly. If it gives me nasty side effects, I will be down for the count for 3 months! Well, I will just hope for the best!
Cheryl, I put myself on the new map. The site looks great! Thanks for putting it together!
Gotta go...people are starting to come in to the office so I need to look like I am doing real work! LOL
*Hugs*
Kristin0 -
Good Morning All,
Just a quick note to say I hope everyone has a great day!!!
Bye, I am off to work.0 -
Hey Circle Girls!
Whoa there! I was only gone for 2 days, but there's a gazillion posts - just hammers home how important this site is to everyone.
We had a great weekend, lots of laughs, and some sad or bittersweet notes (a friend who is struggling with being the primary breadwinner in the family and seeing enough of her kids, a friend who's dad was just diagnosed with Parkinson's, etc.) but no tears :-)
I have to say, I'm not usually "like this" but I was just so happy to be there, so happy to be alive and well and just there you know? (As background, this is a weekend we have done every year for over 10 years. I wasn't able to go last year as I was doing chemo and just not up to it.) Just really thankful for every moment I guess. Guess I'm getting into the Thanksgiving spirit in advance of the day this year!
OK, well, I need to get right to work, so I don't have time right now to catch up on what's happened since Friday. I hope you all had a good weekend. I hope more and more of us are peeking our heads out of the blues tent with a tentative smile on our faces and feeling more happy, peaceful and relaxed.
Have a great day everyone - I'm thinking of you all.
BTW Do your non-bc gal pals "get" this board and how it helps? Just wondering...0 -
Morning girls. Sorry haven't posted but not just in a great mood these days.. Nothing's wrong especially compared to what had been going on in our circle lately. Maybe just hang in the blue tent for a while until I get out of this mood. I've been trying to sit down with the president of my company for a week and he keeps avoiding me. Not giving up through. That's it for me xoxo
Amy....I am just in shock about the treatment you've received. Do they think we're just mindless idiots that live on their everyword?
Jerk!!!
Deb...you have so impressed me. My nephew is disabled,so thank you for coming to their aid. And in the weather conditions. Hey could you email us pictures of your neighborhood? I can only picture that tv show when it comes to Alaska.
Sheri...have a blast in Alabama!! Family is way more important that yesterday's bills. xoxo
Vickie...take the hospital and getting knocked out for your "lil girl" It's not worth the stress as we all know now. Matthew keeps trying to sneak out of my tent, but when you're handcuffed.....(hehe)
Madison...I did Curves for a while, it's nice to talk and workout when you need it.
Cheryl...dancing the dance with you!! Great news.
Nicki...I'm never watching football again...ok maybe next week. : Keep up the treadmill. I'm going to try to workout tonight if there are no interruptions home.
Ns...what a bunch of idiots...must be men, they can never keep up with anything...
Colleen.... I do girls weekend many times with different girlfriends and love it. Have fun.
Tracy...be careful when you're drunk...you may keep answering yourself!!! I like snowman.xoxo
Well enough and have a better day and I'm thinking of everyone...Mena...still worried about you.xoxo0 -
Morning Everyone,
Coffee is on - fresh roasted from Starbucks. I will take orders for lattes for the truly addicted.
Bagels and muffins - a big platter. Help your self. Red River for the health fans.
Deb - the banya sounds awesome - I would love to have that kind of experience. Doesn't get much better than that does it?
Just checked in on the map - 89 posters so far! Wow.
I'm off to ride the range and enjoy the warm weather, above freezing for a couple of days before we get another freeze. Brr, winter came early to this part of the world.
Jeannette0
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