Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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drcrisc,
I will bail you out, but FIRST I'll help you bury the bodies.
I wield a mean shovel myself!
Nico Soprano
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Cristine - and you didn't slap her???????? I'm impressed!
Off to the onc today. Hate it! See what he says about eyes etc.
Edited to add: OH and my friggin back has been hurting all week - lower back so I suppose I should share that with the ol oncologist! Pretty sure its connected to my running - yes the same running that mades my head go numb - oh should tell him about that too. Sigh. I soooo hate all this crap. So is it ok if I throw myself on the ground and kick my feet, hold my breath and refuse to go????????? I know it's all "ok" but I'm sick, sick sick of it all. I'm feeling like Caribou is in order. White Chocolate mocho with sugar free raspberry - a BIG one!!! And maybe a muffin too!
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Oh come ON, Cris, Chemo IS a piece of cake! It's a big ol' piece of CHOCO CRAPPY CAKE. Chemo makes me wanna freaking sing: "La la la! I love chemo! I love feeling puky and tired and havin' no hair! Tra la la!" And lets not forget the companion tap dance: tappety tappety tap... though it's a bit difficult to do while wearing Crocs 24/7 to slow my skin from peeling off my feet, not to mention that my balance is off (neuropathy?) and I stagger around like, like, ... like a pole-dancer whose stiletto fell off.
I think your instincts are good. DO let go of the stress and grab on to the RAGE, and the nearest shovel. *Bo-o-o-NG....*
(I am so very sorry. It sounds like a rotten day. Bleah.)
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Christine, I was told by docs and nurses that Taxotere would be a walk in the park compared to A/C. So since I did not have too much trouble with those, I thought it would be great. WRONG!!!!! I had every SE to the max. They even thought they were going to have stop it because I began retaining so much fluid. But I have heard from women on this list who said they had very little SE. So......who knows. I hope you are one of the fortunate who have an easy time with it. If not, all I can say is I got through it.
Felicia, why don't you lay on the ground and use your bike as bench weight and practice lifting it? lol. With all your martial arts, you should use your legs to lift it! With your toughness, I am sure you will learn to handle it. Who knows, if it falls in public, maybe some hunk will come over and help you out!
Yeah, I get to go to work today. Get out of the house! Then I go for a fill tomorrow and work Saturday. Then Sunday, I am making more cobblers and taking one to an blind, elderly gentleman who has been begging me for a blackberry cobbler. He will have to settle for peach and blueberry. He is a really sweet and funny man and I really enjoy his company and his stories.
So for today (knock wood), no IOS. Hope you all have a good day as well.
Debbie
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I had a really rotten day yesterday, I went in to work to drop off a birthday card for someone, and my boss asked me to come back and work the afternoon... UGH! Then, on the way home, my car broke down, and wouldn't you know it, that was the day I forgot my cell phone. But, a man stopped to see if he could help, and he let me use his cell phone, so I called my dh and he came and took me home. Thank God I live very close to where I work, and I broke down 1/2 mile from my house. The fuel pump went up, and they cost about $200!
Well, I better get going. I am going to Wal-Mart with my MIL and then out to lunch. She's picking me up, since my car is broken, and I don't want to drive the truck...
Hope everyone has a suck-free day today!
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I say we try to get legislation passed that every a$$hole or person who feels they MUST comment on stuff be branded with a big ol' "A" on their foreheads. That way it will be easier to pick them out for shoveling. Your idiot co-worker should be first up, I think
. That sooo sucks...Hoping everyone else has a suck-free day!
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I don't I would say any chemo would be a piece of cake! Some are tolerated better than others but each person reacts differently. UGGGHHH!!!! See even others in our shoes don't get it sometimes. I'm with lilth, bet she does have chemo brain and doesn't remember it.
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Cris, Debc, sorry for your suckage.
I don't have any crap today, because today was my LAST CHEMO!!!! I am done!!! I know I still have to go thru the se's, but I FEEL DONE!!!!!!
Sue
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YEAH SUE! Hope this last one is the easiest of SE's for you girl! WTG! All done by now! Whoohooooo!
Christine......Myshovel too, ready and waiting for your command dear!
Felicia, dear girl! Please be careful on that thing and IF it starts to tip over, Climb on to the top most side very quickly or run like hell-0 before it lands! All this of course, said in the most of motherly concern.... I'll worry about you ever time you ride, you know?
Harley! How nice of your mil to take you to lunch! That's sweet! Will she pay to fix the car too?
J/k of course...Big suckerroos about that cost! We were supposed to get a pair of tires with tread for my car this check and now dh's a/c is out in his truck, plus his cooler for his weeks food quit the nigth before last and a weeks food is gone! Hate when things happen in 3's! HAve a safe and Suckless night ladies!
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Well that sucked! My onc recommended a brain MRI and they could get me in today so off I went to stick my head in a cage and listen to the clacking. Now just to find out if I have a brain or not!
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Jill
Good Luck witht he MRI! Please let us know how it goes... DEB C just had one, and Nicki also had a brain scan and they are both fine, so I am thinking you will also be just fine! Keeping you in my prayers.
Wish,
Oh, I paid for my own lunch... My mil will sometimes pay for my dh and me, in fact, she took us out to dinner, about a month or so ago.
It was just a really horrible day yesterday, so I called her today to see if she wanted to go to lunch. She tells me that she misses our lunches. After we moved down here, we used to go grocery shopping every Thursday... so now, if I am not working, sometimes I will call her to see if she wants to go out.
It sucks that I have to drive my dh's truck to work tomorrow. I don't want to go to work tomorrow, but... I don't have a choice. I won't be working much next week at all, since I'm having that endometrial biopsy on Wed., and I have to go sign some legal forms on Monday, so if he messes up, I won't be able to sue him, I guess...
Have a wonderful evening!
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Another quick pop in - and wishing a big that sucks to everyone that needs one. Today has been busy but no IOS here.
Jill: OMG! That is a big that sucks. Just having a brain scan myself I know exactly how you feel. Looking for NEW to call your name.
Rock: You made me laugh. You said it!
Debbie: I had taxotere too. Got lots of leg pain the 2-3 post chemo and fatigued. That was the hardest part for me. Having to get a fill tomorrow sucks!
Harley: What an awful day! Work and car breaking down too deserves a big IOS.
I guess my biggest IOS would be that I just read our DebC is in the hospital.
OK! Dang it all. Dinner is done. LuAnn, Felicia, Sue, and Wish. I had lots I wanted to say to you but my primitive instincts of being hungry are getting the best of my. BTW! My ankle is healing and I dont need surgery!
Everyone else? Hello from A to Z.
Love ya all
Nicki
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ALL I want to say tonight is ....YEAH SUE!!!!! I'm so happy for you...0
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Yay Sue, Yay Sue, Yay Sue!!!
Harley - Sucks to have your car break down. Crap. I hope it got fixed today.
Jill - Hope the MRI goes well and shows nothing distressing.
I'm very sad to hear about DebC - Nicki, do you know anything more? Sending very big {{{{hugs}}}} to her!!
Thanks for all the offers of bailing me out and shovel-wielding. It so helps to know you guys are on my side. My IOS today is that we changed the billing for my insurance and were told today that I have to go in to the office for the next 7 days for my Neupogen shots. Someone will be getting an earful tomorrow!
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Shoot! I missed something about DebC? What's up with that! I've so many threads to read, I'll never get caught up! Dh ended up home last night, out of product to haul, so he was home all day and although it was nice, it sure messes up my schedule! UGH!
My IOS! That so many of you going through messes you shouldn't have to! Prayers and {{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}} for those in the hospital, going or gone for Brain MRI's, broken cars and such...dang it all! Leave us alone Bad luck, we've had enough already!
Sleep well dear friends..
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Sueper13 Blessings and HUGE congratulations for completing your last chemo!
YAY!!
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DebC is in the hospital, we are hoping for mennegitis......how bad is it that we are hoping for something like that......
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Crappy, that's what that is! Dang it all! I havne't gotten far in the post, looking to see where it was, but now that you've explained, I'll just keep her and the dx in my heart and head! Thanks LuAnn! Hope you are doing well today!
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Deb is in the hospital!!!??? Daggone, that girl can't get a break! She'll be in my prayers!
LuAnn, thanks so much for telling us.
Shirley
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Good Morning! Another quick pop in - but TGIF! Im going to enjoy my computer time just catching up with all of you. Wishing a big that sucks to anyone who needs it.
The latest news on DebC is that the spinal fluid test for Mets was inconclusive. So they are hitting her big time treating all possiblities. They are sending slides out for further review. I have seen chemo induced encephalitis or meningitis before. Im praying for no METS in the spinal fluid.
A big hello to everyone and I will catch ya later tonight.
Nicki
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Lighting a candle for DebC--our keyboards to God's ears!
I'm actually allowed out of the house today...a friend is picking me up and we're going to our quilt guild meeting. This will be the first time I've seen most of my friends/acquaintances sans hair --hmmm...what headcovering to wear to attract the least # of IOS's--am I cynical or what? The thought of walking into a room with 150 women who've not seen me post bc is pretty scary. My inclination is to stay here nice and comfy in my hermitage.......
Wishing all a suck free day!
Sherri
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Hi all:
I just found this thread, but have moaned and bitched on others. The other day I went over to play bridge with a group that meets for a couple of hours for a fun game and bit of company at the local senior center. I had not been there since I went bald. One lady RUNS up to me and gives me a hug and says she is sorry I am "sick". I said I am not sick, I have cancer... Another one comes up and says "been there, done that". I almost walked out, but decided I was there to play bridge and not compare life stories. It turned out to be an ok outing but I will give a long thought before I go back.
Maybe I missed it, but what is IOS? I made myself a plastic canvas water bottle cover with CANCER SUCKS and boy does that shut "them" up. It is pink with one inch high black letters.
I have been a widow for over 5 yrs ( I am 62). Last July I sold our house after being there for 36 years - in PIttsburgh. My apartment is in Virginia, close to my one and only son, who was just married on May 24 -- 3 weeks after my dx. He refused to discuss cancer until he was back from his honeymoon. Told me to NOT mention it. But now he is ok with it and has given me rides home from chemo tx and maybe just had to let it sink in. His dad, my husband, died of lung cancer, and that may also be in the back of his mind.
I am not looking for any kind of relationship, but this alone business really sucks. After a good or bad day, no one to tell or talk over with. I go on the chat room and realize as bad as my day was, there are others with worse. The friends I have made since I moved here are so patronizing and only want to go out to eat. I want someone to come over and have a cup of coffee, maybe play cards or watch a movie. is that too much to ask??? Spend some time with me or am I too depressing, boring, ugly? Bring a pizza over and hang out a while?
OH, I used to be the one who always visited ppl and took meals and made sure fridge had food and did laundry when needed, etc. No, I was not a goody 2 shoes, just knew that others needed a lift from time to time. After my husband died, not one single person brought a meal or offered to do something with me. Holidays came and went and I sat home alone. So, for xmas I met my son (who was living in Boston at the time) in Vegas. We had a great time and even came out ahead after playing the slots.
And what the H... - you look good. Bandana or hat and without hair? geeze, did I look that bad with? My hair was thick, naturally curly and I thought my best feature... how about the "friend has cancer, she is not doing good" just the thing one wants to hear??? Or, I never heard of chemo before surgery (which is my plan of attack and it is working - tumor has shrunk 25% so far). Cant you be happy for me that at least something is going good for me?
OK, enuf for now. Thanks for listening and letting me rant and rave. Time to go throw ice cubes at the brick wall. Gentle hugs and blessings. Nancy
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P.S. A really beautiful site to light a candle and put a short message:
www.gratefulness.org
One L, 2 S. The candle burns for 48 hours.
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So I was bad last night but I was sick of my head hurting and i just wanted to sleep so I took ONE of the percacet I had left from my heart surgery. It definately helped but not perfectly. I still have a slight headache and I'd wake up kinda woozy last night BUT I'm glad I took it cuz I know I slept better than I would've otherwise!
Now if I don't hear from my onc today you'll all hear me scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NANCY! Welcome!!! Glad you found this. Sounds like yup you've got IOS (issues of suckiness). Love the waterbottle. That tells it all in two words! Cancer sucks!
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Nancy,
Can't come be with you in person, but can certainly support you online, be your friend, listen to your rants and vents.....Welcome, glad you found us.
Jill,
Sorry for the head acheyness. (Is that a word? CHEMOBRAIN!) If you don't hear from your onc today, call on the superpowers from the April chemothread.....a horde of bald, asymmetrical women weilding shovels will show up in his waiting room demanding he answer you!!
Just woke up the day after my last chemo and got some breakfast in me and antinausea meds so fingers crossed that I will PREVENT the feelings of nausea this time....that's my hardest one to deal with, I HATE feeling nauseated.
No bitch except what's going on with DEBC..Prayers for her for no cancer cellls in the spinal fluid...weird to be praying for meningitis but there it is.
Hope everyone has a great day...the weekend is almost here!!
Love,
Sue
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LOL Sue!!!!! Thanks and keep your shovels ready!
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For the last several months, I have been treating myself, twice a week, to a small or medium-sized loaf of zucchini bread from the local Farmer's Market. I am not a huge fan of zucchini bread, but it is the only bread the bakers made that didn't list soybean oil as one of the ingredients. Except! Except! that yesterday I learned that it does. I had asked the guy what kind of oil was contained in the cinnamon rolls (since they weren't labeled at all) and he said, "I imagine soybean oil since that is all we use." What? Even in the zucchini bread? And he said, yeah. They just hadn't listed it.
I am trying not to think about what this means in terms of my cancer (I am not supposed to have more than a serving or two of soy a day). It would be wrong to hate a small independent baker at a farmer's market, wouldn't it. It would be even more wrong to return to the farmer's market with a fire hose and exact revenge. Please, would someone tell me that this is no big deal, that there isn't that much soybean oil in zucchini bread. That even if I ate a loaf in one sitting (not like I would ever do that by which I mean, I do it all the time) that everything is okay, right?
**** Reality Check *****
AlaskaDeb? Oh to hell with me and my carcinogenic zucchini bread. I'd happily drain a jug of soybean oil if it would make everything go okay with Deb. I think we all would.
Nancy -- rather than throw ice cubes at a brick wall, have you considered throwing them in a glass along with some Scotch?
It would be good to find a card-playing (or mah jhong!) playing partner. And don't rule out just telling people what you need/want. They might not come through, but then again, ya never know. 0 -
Rock, in the zuchini bread I make there is only about 1 cup of canola oil in a batch that maked 3 medium size loaves so that would put approx 1/3 c oil in each loaf.
When my son was younger, he was dx with an extreme food allergy to soy. He couldn't even eat a small serving of french fries without a reaction of blood shot eyes, so I learned to read labels and if they say vegetable oil or vegetable protein it is usually soy. But since then, the FDA has cracked down on being more specific on the type of oil and list food allergy alerts.
Sheila
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Mornin' y'all.
I'm so upset that Deb is in the hospital. That sucks!!!!! Gawd, I hate this disease.
Of course, my eyes started to tear up.....as usual....but, Rock, you made me smile with this: "rather than throw ice cubes at a brick wall, have you considered throwing them in a glass along with some Scotch?
" That was FUNNY!Does anybody know what hospital she's in? I like to send flowers.....
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So sorry deb is in hospital. Give her warm wishes and tell prayers go up for her.
Rock: my onco says NO alcohol, so I am limited to brick wall for now...
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