Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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WhaSux?
Achi--if you have a photobucket acc't you can post easily from there! good luck & dazzle us---not may pix posted here lately!
Nancy--a claen abode is over rated for sure! hugs
Diane-----Gentle hugs---keep in mind that when a chemo does not fail you, but YOU quit it, you still have it as an option! I hope things work better on this tx. Did onc say why he chose this particular one? I thought abraxane was a derivative of taxotere--or am I on a chemo-brain-fart here?
A big that SUX to all who need it--would rather hand out hugs & happy dances, tho....
Be well & stay strong
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LOL Diane...like a whore in church almost made me spit my soda out! I hope your neuropathy is better and I'm so glad you can taste food again! I'm adding in my prayers your mom gets nothing but good news from you...
Pinky? How are you love? Let us know...
A shout out to Rock if you're reading...I haven't checked the May 2008 board in a while so i don't know if you've posted lately...I'll have to check. Hope all is well and you are enjoying your adventure.
I caught up a bit this morning but don't have much recollection of what I read...I selfishly just popped in to say "THAT SUX" and throw a small bitch out there...
I hate the weight gain I can't seem to get rid of. Despite a careful diet, and daily exercise I have only lost 4lbs this MONTH. I hate the curly hair that just keeps getting worse. I hate the depths to which my emotions now swing - fierce rage over utter non-sense to complete despair over things I rationally know are not that bad and/or out of my control. So, knowing this, why does my dp need to be an ass and say how much she hates it too? I really, really don't need to hear how she can't wait for the weight to come off...how she hopes the hair doesn't stay curly because she doesn't like it...how she hopes the mood swings stop. UGH. Some days I just want to kick her in the shin and tell her to SHUT UP, I KNOW...the worst part it is not knowing if I'm just being to sensitive about it...because the dang menopause has made me so friggin sensitive!!!! I could cry just typing about it...and that is so not me. Where did I go? When do I get to feel like me again? Does anyone else feel like they are a whole new person - and not exactly the design they had in mind for a makeover???? I swear...it's like the joke that keeps on giving!
**sniff** **sniff**
Am I going to have to be on anti-depressants now too?
ok...pity party over...I'm going to do what I can here at work and look forward to cracking a bottle of wine tonight...I just need an evening to mellow out!
Love you guys, thanks for listening...I really couldn't whine (haha, I can WINE at home, but I can't WHINE at home) because dp does do an awful, awful lot of good things...sometimes she's just a bit of a klutz on the emotional stuff. And truth be told, I'd be a whole lot worse off without her...
IT's FRIDAY ladies...I hope that means something to you guys too!!
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BadBoob/Diane - so vitamin B6 helps with neuropathy? My mom has had some probably related to both her type 2 diabetes and the chemo she had when she had BC. No one's been able to tell her what to do. Great news about the taste buds! Find some good stuff and ENJOY!
I'll say a prayer that all is good for you and your mom.
Hmmm. Do the mods ever tell you why they deleted a post?
Traci - BIL is a jerk. Can't say more; it's too sad for words.
Still in a pissy mood, for no obvious reason, but at least it's sunny today and I'm off at 2:30.
Hope everyone has a non-SOI weekend
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Want some cheese to go with that whine? LOL! Seriously though, that sucks! The hormone thing is so hard!! I think there used to be only about 37 minutes a month during which my hormones didn't make me crazy. OMG...dp NEEDS a kick in the shins! Next time she says she can't wait for the weight to come off, you need to say, "I bet it'll come off sooner than your snarky attitude!" grrrrrrrrrr!!!!
Yesterday I discovered IV BENEDRYL activates my bitch button. I suppose it just lowered my inhibitions a bit, but I remember being snotty to dh because he seemed so clueless (it's only the second time he's accompanied me to this cancer center for chemo). We actually had a sort of tug of war thing going on because I was raising the recliner so I could eat lunch and he kept trying to push it back! D'oh!
Saint, It's ABRAXANE and TAXOL that are the same agents in different carriers. The TAXOTERE he chose, I guess, because it's still a TAXANE and I seem to have at least some measure of response to them. He also tried to tell me that there's less of a chance with NEUROPATHY on TAXOTERE, but our "experts" here on the boards seem to have mixed results.
THAT SUCKS! to all who need it...
(((HUGS)))
Dianeedited because I'm too lazy to proofread
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PSK07,
The B-6 seems to help a lot of us with NEUROPATHY, but the studies don't seem to agree if it's helpful. It does help me, though.
Has your mom tried LYRICA?
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Diane - She has not. Since she's on a fixed income/Medicare, prescription meds are something she freaks about. She's been very lucky to get some things (e.g.,1 yr supply of effexor XR) free from her doctor, but every month she's telling me about some $150 co-pay on something or other. She has complained of this since chemo and then the diabetes...well, I think she's afraid to really discuss with her doctor for fear they'll cut off her feet!
I'll tell her about the B-6 and see what happens. Thx!
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PSK,
About the B-6: I'd been taking 150mg a day, but I think it was saint that said she takes 300mg/day. NEURONTIN is similar to LYRICA and I think it is even on wal-mart's $4 generic program. The generic name is GABAPENTIN. Sure hope you find something that works for her!
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Diane, you are tooooooooooo funny! I'm sorry about your probs but like Navy..your whore in church made me crack up and then......your "benedryl activated my bitch button"...I'm still laughing. That is too freaking funny! Just last nite I was talking to my 'lil sis and she was telling me how she forgot to take her Zoloft and one of her brats did something and she just went off. For like 30 minutes...screaming her head off. lol...not funny but, I so wish Debbi (sis) would come on this site all the time. She is so funny. I can't wait to tell her about the bitch button. Just can't wait. I hope that the Taxotere is easier on you then it was on me. I hated that crap. I didn't get neuropathy though, so I guess that a plus...just real bad bone pain. Thanks so much for that much needed laugh. I'm still laughing.....
Nancy....what's the new avatar???????? Is that you in fatigues??? (sp?) Or...plaid?? (sp?) I can't see anymore!!
((((((((((((((((Navy))))))))))))))))) Tell you dp your gonna get a remote for your BB (lol!!! Bitch Button!!) if she doesn't shape up! I'm so sorry girl. That is just not right. It's stories like yours that make me o.k. with the fact that I live alone. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you but I don't other than try to communicate your feelings to her again. (((hugs)))
Pam, how's your mood? It got cold here again today. It was 80 yesterday and is going to be in the 30's tonight. Ugh.
Hugs everybody,
Traci
PS my bitch today is (nothing in comparison) I had a moment where my boss forgot the #1 rule of sales....under promise, over deliver. Thank God it ended o.k. I hate it when men get in pissing contests.
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Navy......If it wasn't illigal, one may be tempted to share a steroid or two and possibly some Tamoxifen. Mmmmmmmm.......How does that saying go? Walk in my shoes?
Love the bitch button. My new favorite.
Renee
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Love the bitch button. Too funny
Peg
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Traci, I was playing around to see IF I could put an avatar. It was before I finished chemo and the "sign" is Cancer Sucks. I had on a plaid shirt, was plugged into the iv and attempting to make some more plastic canvas soda/water bottle covers with Cancer Sucks on them. That is also my favorite cap, to hide my bald head, which is no longer bald.
THAT SUCKS, as needed and I hope everyone has a good weekend. HUGS, Nancy
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Woo Hoo on the hair Nancy!! I can't see the sign, but now I see you! ((((((((hugs)))))))))
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Hey all, have a good friend's son's bar mitzvah today, we're home from the service and resting up for the party tonight. I've been crazy busy with my new puppy (an unexpected new puppy, but we love her) and haven't been online at all since moving my work laptop down to the kitchen (so the puppy, and my floors, can be safe!)
Thinking about you all, and a big that sux to all
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cmb - one of the rules is that all new-puppy-posts must be accompanied by pictures of the new addition! Have fun partying tonight - how wise to come home and rest first.
Diane - count me among the legion who got a kick out of your Bitch Button post. I think my BB is activated by the decadron I've been on for nearly four months. That button may be permanently pushed!
Hey, Nancy - do you take orders for the custom "Cancer Sucks" water bottle covers? Or did you restrict that activity to infusion days?
Navygirl - I so hear you on the weight, the chemo curls/frizz, the menopause, the mood swings - all o' dat shit. I can only commiserate, as I know of no quick fixes. The 'cracking a bottle of wine' plan does sound promising, though - did it work?
Traci - it was 80 already in Texas?!? It's mid-70's here right now, and forecast is for more of the same through the weekend. My BFF who was visiting from Idaho went back to Winter kicking and screaming. So, what has Debbi got against joining us? Surely she could at least bitch and moan about her hellions^^^^little angels.
Pam - B-6 didn't work for me and neurotin (gabapetin) just made me dumb and fat (I lost 30 pounds in six weeks beginning the day I quit that shit. Let's hope that holds true for the damned steroids!). I can testify to the benefits of L-glutamine, though. Get it in the cheap powder form - you're supposed to take 30 gr/day. There are good studies backing it up, too.
sorry I can't stay caught up with you all. but I do read everything eventually - and do a lot of muttering under my breath "that SUCKS"
Lisa
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((((((((((((((((LISA))))))))))))))))) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How are you?????????????? You cracked me up with your bff going back to winter kicking and screaming! LOL!! Debbi actually jumped on today and posted to another girl with RSD. Not her thing I guess. She's got the whole family thing going on.....
Missed ya girl!!
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Thanks, Lisa. Will be talking to mom tomorrow & will see what she has to say. I see your avatar, and I look down at my 2 pugs and grin. Damn dogs. Both deaf, both drive me nuts. Members of the family nonetheless. (kind of like my daughters, but that's another story)
Better mood today. I was ready to let loose with a bitch slap or two. Best to stay away from people on days like that.
Did my run this morning and am sore all over for some unknown reason. Going to see Slumdog Millionaire tonight. Hope I'm able to get out of the seat when it's over.
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Bitch button???? I LOVE it. You girls are a riot. Tracy-Triple Neg, for what it's worth, I thnk you are strong, compassionate, funny, articulate and down-to-earth. I've been learning a lot from all of you about living and loving.
Hugs
Bobbie
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Navygirl, your words have been ringing in my head ever since you wrote them the other day.
"I hate the depths to which my emotions now swing - fierce rage over utter non-sense to complete despair over things I rationally know are not that bad and/or out of my control."
This describes me to a tee. I've been finished with treatment for a year and a half. I don't even know if I can still blame it on that. I got mad over some stupid thing at work the other night and I was so furious that I wrote this huge rant about it after work. It sounded utterly ridiculous. It took me hours to calm down. Then some silly mostly inconsequential thing (you know, the crap that plagues us all as we go through daily life) will throw me into a tailspin and I'll be bawling my eyes out.
I don't believe I handle stress very well and my life has been a bit topsy turvy lately. I guess I just wanted to say, I know how you feel and it sucks majorly!
A big that sucks to everyone else... I'm on my way to bed, but please know I'm thinking of you all.
Love,
Miss S
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Ahhhh, aren't dogs wonderful people? Glad you had someone to love you when you needed it most.0 -
Oh Peggle, what you are going through right now must be just plain awful. It's what we all fear. It sucks. I hope your appt. tomorrow (you go for results tomorrow, right?) turns out to be better than you suspect.
I cried so much during chemo etc. that now when I cry my poor dog gets very nervous and distraut. I've come to letting the 100lb brute up on my bed now when it happens. It makes me stop because he gets so upset. Strange how they are so sensitive to our emotions. Gotta go and hug my dog.
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Lisa, pm me and I can figure out a way to send you one if you are in the USA.
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Just dropping in to say my THAT SUX is newwwwmoanyaaaaaaaaaaaa! I radiation and then got sick and fell off the bathroom seat. Why is the bathroom always involved....... anysways and xray later it was confirmed upper right lob pneumonia (in case you cant read the long version). I spent all my time reading the posts and boy mine as wobbly and bi-polar as everyone else, complete with bitch button! And I nodded about "the sweating like a whore in church" cause that was the first symptom. Juring my "out" time I became so offensive smelling they showered me....with absolutely no help from me in my confused state.
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Oh, Peggy - I wish I could wrap my arms around you and share your terror. There aren't words for the anguish you must be going through. God bless furry friends!
((((hugs))))!!
Susan
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Peggie - It's good that your onc was able to pick up on subtle clues that you weren't even really aware of. I'm hoping and praying for a good report.
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Hugs (((((( dream ))))))))))) and (((((((( peggle ))))))))))))))). Prayers being sent up for you both. It was in the 60's on Friday, and 5-8 inches of snow are on the way. Is it March comes in like a lion or something like that? THAT SUCKS as needed.
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I have no idea where my post went...it showed like it went through but alas...it is gone. Not enough brain space to ramble on again so I'll give the readers digest version...
Thanks Miss S and everyone else...it's so good to share with people who KNOW
Peggle...I'm so sorry you are having to go through this again. It's just not right that we battle through once, move on with our lives and then one day it just rears it's ugly head and throws you into a tizzy. I know that feeling you get in your gut when you just know something without know it...so I'll just say I hope your report is as good as it can be and you are not too overwhelmed by whats to come. I'm glad you came back here amongst friends...please let us know what happens this week.
I had a sad bitch...my good friends mom passed away last night. She was 93 and had surgery about 4 weeks ago to remove colon cancer. They didn't think she'd survive that but in true Millie fashion she not only survived...but once she was out of ICU she progressed rapidly and was stunning her physical therapist with her tenacity and abilty to recover. Two days ago her body just gave out, we don't really know what or why...we just know she declined very rapidly and passed in the middle of the night last night. It just seems odd that she is no longer here...4'8 and 85lbs soaking wet, she has always been a force to be reckoned with. She will be very much missed...
I hope the lack of activity means this has been a quiet weekend for everyone...we are expecting a good old fashioned snow storm on the east coast. I hate the cold but if it has to be winter anyway, I'd rather have a foot of snow to play in
-Sorry Nancy, I know you are probably not thrilled about it!good night ladies..sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite!
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HUgs ((((((( bonnie ))))) on the loss of your friends mom. Such a shame she was doing well and is now gone.
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Sorry Bonnie on the loss of your friends mom. You gals really crack me up. today was my bitchy day. My kids are driving me crazy! Not one wants to listen or obey and seeings how I have missed one period and have hot flushes, I think menopause is starting.
Lord have mercy on my family. Bithcy...moaning and groaning describes me to a T!!
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