Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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Traci, I TOTALLY AGREE!!
I am sorry to say that I read all those posts, and now because I can't remember SHIT... I don't remember who said what...
so ALL I CAN SAY IS .... THAT SUCKS!!! to all!!
Oh, and LINDA, I hope your mast. surgery went smoothly... even though IT REALLY SUCKS, having to do it TWICE!!!
Harley
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Okay ... here's my bitch. I have to go see my surgeon today, yep the very same one I went to see on the wrong day last week. Pretty sure today IS the right day. It's been one year since dx and lumpectomy. I got an all-clear mammon in late Dec. My bitch is that I have found on my path that I had LCIS and DCIS as well as IDC, which was treated.
Why the hell have the surgeon, rad onc and med onc not discussed this finding with me!! For pete's sake, it's not like these guys haven't seen me a million times this past year. Now, I've got to take in all my path reports, surgical reports, mammo reports, etc., and say, WTF ... how do we treat all this? When you find multifocal LCIS in a 10x2x2 cm area isn't it worthy of note!!!!
Okay ... I didn't have a mast a year ago and I don't want one now to treat this.
So, just a few more trips to the bathroom and I should be ready to get my ass to the doc's this afternoon.
love to all those whose crap is so much worse than mine.
Happy b-day yesterday Harley and happy b-9 Anne? (I know somebody got really good news, but it's on the page before this.)
Bren
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Bren, that sucks! I've also had the experience where the onc either didn't tell me something important from the path report or just plain told me wrong. I thought I was PR + for over a year until I got copies of my records and found that I am PR -!! I also JUST noticed last week that I had mixed IDC and DCIS--not that it matters much with the stage IV dx, but they never told me that. They also told my family and friends who were in the waiting room during my mast that they had removed only 2 lymph nodes. It was quite a shock at my post-op appointment to find that they'd removed 27 and 24 of them were positive! AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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Bren and Diane, that sucks...
I had written a whole long post here and then the board seemed to crash and my post didn't get posted! It was mostly catching up on everybody's news, so:
Amanda -- I'm so happy about B9 report, and so sorry that the worry has left you feeling low -- I think that happens a lot, to a lot of us. Stress takes such a toll -- good luck with your tamoxifen holiday.
Happy Birthday, Harley!
Cris, hope your dd is better -- it so sucks when kids are sick. Not to mention itchy breast!
Linda, thinking of you --
Carlin, wishing your sister the best.
DebC, sorry about nosebleeds, anemia...
Traci, thanks for this thread and for being a great moderator of it.
Diane -- $100 more per week to get to work AND paycheck is shrinking? I so relate to that and it sucks bigtime.
If I've overlooked anyone -- I'm sorry!
Wish me luck -- our building is appealing an insane increase in real estate tax assessment (tax BILL is more than our entire year's income in maintenance fees!) -- appeal is tomorrow, and if we win it will TOTALLY ROCK! If not...
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Felicia,
That totally sucks! What an uncaring idiot! I can sense your frustration. In the end I do believe your son will "remember" who was always there for him growing up...you!!! How old is your son?
I agree with you what if you had gone out, or are you expected to sit and wait for the phone to ring everytime he is suppose to see his son???
I have several hammers you may choose from in the garage! Actually there is also a sledge hammer! LOL!!!
Go do something fun for yourself while your son is gone to help keep your mind off your anger!!!!! If possible, I would be so angry! The part about the christmas presents really made me sad for your son!
Have some fun or punch a pillow that you have taped ex's picture to.
Dani
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That is weird? When I logged into this thread Felicia's Moan about ex's and wanting a hammer was the last post?!!! But today is the 22nd and she posted that the 20th, then I got error message and when I got back into the thread everything from 20th to now was posted!!
Help our bc site is haunted!!!!
Oh My gosh I can't even keep up with all the bitches moans and groans! Want to respond to all of you with my most sincere "THAT SUCKS" personally, but even without chemo brain I can't remember it all!! LOL!
Thinking of all of you!
Dani
PS( new foobs are doing well, sooooo much softer! They do seem a little larger than they were when they were boobs! Hubby does not seemed to mind.LOL!)
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(((((((((((((((HUGS!)))))))))))))))))))
TO EVERYONE!
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No bitch for me today. Im home, I have a glass of wine - Im ready to go. Looks like the sight is having problems so I hope I can get this all posted.
Amy: I go to photobucket for my pictures. When someone says something, it triggers a thought like "happy dancing" I type it in and usually find some fun picture. And you deserved a big happy dance today in this sucky world of ours.
Carlin: Well that sucks big time for both you and your sister. It could be other things beside bc, I had fat necrosis that felt like another lump. Its the roller coaster ride from hell.
Diane: With each paragraph I went yes yes yes! Why does all this crap have to happen? Doesnt it seem like we have "wait" as our middle names? A big fat "that sucks"!" And I hope your husband finds a job that appreciates him with more money too.
Felicia: Have you ever tried to tell people the things we talk about here on the boards? Its funny sometimes trying to explain what we are talking about. An example? Christmas presents for your little boy from his dad in April! How absurd is that and whats the matter with that man? Grrrrrr!
Traci: Just call me big foot. I keep putting it in my mouth!
Bren: First of all I hope the appointment went well. And yeah, what the heck! You have to discuss this whole thing over again one year later? And why arnt your doctors talking to each other? Cant wait to hear what the doc said.
Dani: Hugs to the new foobs feeling better. I do recall that very moment when I touched them and they were soft!
nicoletta
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There is something SERIOUSLY wrong with this board. It is doing very wierd things. Dani, I think it IS haunted!
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Error messages have been popping up all over the place since yesterday, so it isn't just you, Dani...
Glad to hear your new girls are soft and settling. Much, much better than that steel bra expander thingys, right? My son, btw, will be 15 in September. I'm still pissed, but I'll be a hell of a whole lot madder (if that's even possible) if my son comes back here with NO Christmas in April gift - as he bought EVERY-stinking-BODY in his dad's new house presents (five in all). If he doesn't come back here with even a lousy new pair of socks, I might have to borrowsome cusswords from Deb C.'s uncle...
Ann, all the best with the appeal. Give 'em hell!
Bren and Badboob, "forgetting" or missing part of a dx sucks! Do they realize people are making important decisions based on these path reports? "Sorry!" just doesn't seem good enough...
Traci, perhaps if we
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OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love the lalalalalalala!!!!! That one is awesome!
lol! I just saw the ghosts message change! Leave it to you girls to cheer me up after a SUCKY CRAPPY day! My bitch today is people should change their voice mails and not say "leave me a message and I'll call you back" if they are NOT going to call back!!!!! ARGH!!!!
I didn't know you could 'find' photo's in photobucket...I thought you had to put them in there!
Bren, that sucks.
Linda, we are thinking 'bout you girl.
Hugs everybody. I'm going to go shove my face with food to get over my day.
Traci
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Okay ... nobody forgot ... the big focus was on getting the tumor out. Great, the little sucker's been gone a year now. So, what I find out is nobody knows where the thing started ... lobes, ducts or outerspace. But, what we do know is I'm at a huge increased risk for .... I'm not going to write or say it out loud. Anyway, cause the chunk they removed had LCIS and DCIS throughout, I have to be watched all the time. I'm going to have my first MRI in the spiffy new MRI machine they're getting in November. Guess we'll talk turkey after that. I don't want to lose my boobs ... that's my second bitch/fear for the day!!!
Frankly girls ... I'm just so f'ing happy I'm alive today.
Bren
PS - He was happy as could be though, cause I'm up to 5 mg a day of Tamoxifen!! Whoopeee! He said I looked great! I guess he didn't see the rolls of fat hanging over my sweatpants. I did put on some mascara for the occasion and wasn't crying ... guess that made all the difference.
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My hair has been going from bad to worse lately.
I have coloured it, highlighted it, curled it, cut the curl out, and generally abused it . It is thinning at the back from Arimidex..... I know its Arimidex, because I have coloured, cut and curled my hair since I was 14, it is ...or was...hair of steel.
It has grown this time to about 4/5" all over, enough to let a decent hairdresser at it. I just suddenly decided today was the day, jumped in my car, dashed into the hairdressers , and said 'please sort this mess'
She did, she cut it all about one and a half inches all over, shorter at the back, and did all sorts of things to it including putting something called 'mud cream' on it at the end of the sitting. I was horrified at the result, looked like a crew cut, but had to go out of the shop with a big grin on my face, because what else could I do ??!!It'll grow, but it cost me dear, and I have to face people now with this totally unsuitable hairdo stuck on my head.
Luckily its gardening weather, so I will be hidden away in my garden for a few weeks now, and just hope no-one pops in to see me!
What did I do on my way home?? Got pulled for speeding, 47 in a 40 zone....and got let off with a warning.... phew! Bet the hairdo scared the cop, so he let me get off out of his way quickly.
Isabella.
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Bin, hate to hear you've got to think of this. When I had my mast it was after chemo. There was another tumor in a different quadrant of the breast. I didn't show up on the MRI done after chemo to see how much my tumor shrunk....SO, instead of a lumpectomy I went for the mast. Sure enough there was this one centimeter tumor left. Plus, after they took off my boob and sent it to pathology it had some insitu.
Sure glad there's spell check on here. My chemo brain couldn't even spell centimeter correctly, but I knew it look WRONG!
My gripe today is I HAVE TO COOK AGAIN! LOL Well, would you believe my dh just came in and asked my favorite question...what are we having to eat tonight? I dunno. I think it'll be Catalina Chicken if we have the stuff to make it. It's easy and Idol comes on tonight..yes, I'm hooked!
Linda, hope your surgery went well!
I hope everbody's "sucks" don't suck as badly today.
My suck isn't nearly as sucky as many of your's.
Shirley
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Traci: Oh boy, I may have created a monster! Yes you can get the cutest pictures from photobucket.
Bren: Rolls of fat? These doctors wont every understand it! BTW, with the new way Im putting on make up, I better not cry - I will be one big mess.
OK! Gotta go. Have a good evening and a big sucks to everyone.
nicoletta
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OH!! That's ME up there sucking up the spaghetti! I am a pastaholic, but when I really NEED pasta, it has to be the string kind. Rigatoni, ziti, shells, tortillini, mostacolli rigati, whatever - none of them do it for me like the strings. It's the twirling and the slurping I have to have. I need pasta rehab.
Oh by the way, now I'm glad I only spent a dollar on a martini glass because what do I see on MSN news but the top things that cause breast cancer. Included in this list were the tailpipes on cars, smokestacks, fast food french fries, hair coloring, water and NO, NO, NO....but yes...sadly but true... the exact same martini that Honeygirl gave us a picture of a few pages ago. That EXACT same martini picture was up on the news. It even had the same olives. I was in denial at first and thought it was probably the olives -- but no, after reading the article, it is indeed the martinis.
Now, I know this is not the drinking girls thread -- but I find it particularly SUCKY that I should spend a whole dollar on an actual martini glass AND buy martini mix stuff (at great personal risk) then on the very next post martini day what pops up on my home page but MSN news alerting me to the fact a martini can cause breast cancer along with all the other aforementioned things I partake of on a regular basis. Major SUCKAGE!! Sewage suckage!!
Where do they get these statistics?
So, apparently everyone should walk everywhere, we should dry up for lack of water, never eat another fast food french fry, have multi-colored grey hairs popping up on our heads, stay away from smokestacks and sniff...martinis. BUT...the goodish news is champagne, wine and margaritas were not mentioned in the MSN news flash!! And I'm not pulling my ostrich head out of the sand for a minute so don't even try to yank it out!
Remember, I have rad tattoos and can wear a T-shirt that says..Ya! These are fake! The other ones tried to kill me so YOU better watch it! Fa!!
Anyway, my infamous martini experience was a walk too far on the wild side for me. Tasted yukky. Got stupid. Headache next day. The best part were the olives but if I had done the onions I read about the whole thing would have been a loser experience. So now, I'm putting olives on the cute little swords and floating them in my brand new one dollar martini glass filled with....Sprite!
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Thank goodness I don't drink martini's. : - )
(((((Nikki)))))
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omg....I look at some of the pictures on that photobucket website and I'm thankful I do not have a teenager. Crazy. Did anybody see the news about that European series called Skin or something? Good grief. That's just what our young people need.
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Hi all,
Don't really have a bitch today, but I probably could find one. Yes, my dd is better and back at school today. Turns out it really was a food thing.
HannaB - if "they" tell us about one more thing that causes breast cancer, I think we should respond with a huge THAT SUCKS!!
Wishing everyone a less sucky day tomorrow...
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O.K., haven't had chemo (yet!), but I already have chemobrain!!
That sucks...can't wait to see what I will be like on chemo...
Forgot to say that I decided to knock myself out last night so even if I had itchy boob, I would be too sleepy to care! It worked!!
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oh girls...there have been days when i wished only for strenght to log on and read the bitches for a laugh...i just have to say - i am fn pissed off and need a vent -p'd at whoever was responsible for placing my arms during suregery becausenthey fd up on left one and i still cant use it almost 2 weeks later, im pissed at the infection i got that is threatening to kill the tissue in my left breast, the fluid build up that i have to go get drained is a PITA, and im really pissed at myself for not going with my gut which aid not to do recon at all - the possibilities were to great something would go wrong. **trust me, i know 99 % of these go well and 99% of people who read this should not let it influence thier decision - i have just ALWAYS fallen into the 1% category in life. if its odd,bizzarre or not supposed to happen to me, it will. so for right now my life is morecomlicated than expected and i just want to bitch slap someone -it's so hard to find volunteers though?!!......ah, thats so mentally refreshing to say
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oh girls...there have been days when i wished only for strenght to log on and read the bitches for a laugh...i just have to say - i am fn pissed off and need a vent -p'd at whoever was responsible for placing my arms during suregery becausenthey fd up on left one and i still cant use it almost 2 weeks later, im pissed at the infection i got that is threatening to kill the tissue in my left breast, the fluid build up that i have to go get drained is a PITA, and im really pissed at myself for not going with my gut which aid not to do recon at all - the possibilities were to great something would go wrong. **trust me, i know 99 % of these go well and 99% of people who read this should not let it influence thier decision - i have just ALWAYS fallen into the 1% category in life. if its odd,bizzarre or not supposed to happen to me, it will. so for right now my life is morecomlicated than expected and i just want to bitch slap someone -it's so hard to find volunteers though?!!......ah, thats so mentally refreshing to say
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Dani!! Congrats on your new foobies!! Now go spend money on tops and lingerie!! When I get mine, money is gonna fly!!
Hair Isabella? My hair is sucking too. My former crown of glory is a crown of gory. I hate that it's only a third of it's former self. It is thin and flat and weird.
Don't you hate when you actually have to PAY money to the salon when you know your hair looks like shit? I know exactly what you mean. You have to paste a fake smile on your face and dole out the dollars. Last time I went, they actually sent me out with a wet head. I got charged the usual amount that's supposed to include a "complimentary blow-dry" but she didn't have time to dry it. I looked liked an escapee from the shampoo chair. Fine. The new clients at the front desk just stared at me then rolled their eyes at each other like - oh we don't want her fongool hairstylist. It felt like being 13 again and totally uncool.
Bren, what's with them? The pathologists? Did you get rads already? Oy. Good job on the tamox. I have no advice except get checked every 3 months and stick your head in the sand. Sing that dumb song to yourself....Don't worry....Be happy! I myself sing that song all the time. My kids notice my mouth moving but nothing coming out. They say oh Mom's having a conversation with herself again. NO. I am singing silently!! Big difference!
What was that guys name who made that song? He did the entire song with his own mouth and body noises...including the instrumentals. Like he thwapped his cheeks, and thumped his head and neck and made about 20 tracks of his own bodily function noises then played them all at the same time and voila, Don't worry, Be Happy!
Shirley you had to make cubed steak or pork chops last night again didn't you? As I have been saying but nobody notices....meals keep coming around and around all the time!! Everytime somebody gets a growl in the stomach - their eyes start shooting darts at you. FEED ME....FEED ME. You know how when you visit the zoo and the monkeys will throw poop at the people staring at them? You see where I'm going with this? I totally understand life from the monkey's point of view. I feel like them a lot of the time. I mentally swing from the top rungs of my cage.
I think everyone who typically posts here must be either doing ok or feel so sucky they don't want to write.
I took my son to school Monday and when I picked him up he was in a fog. Totally out of it he says, Is today Friday? I honestly felt like it should be Friday too so I had to think about it but no, it was still a fongool Monday.
I have to do jury duty. Tomorrow. I've been waiting all my life for this. The first time I got a jury duty summons I was like 18 or something. They didn't pick me and I didn't get my $15. I really want to get on the jury. You have to be x-rayed when you walk in though and I wonder what they'll think about my expander?? And my titanium clips and other assorted crap in my chest? Maybe they'll think I have a gel bomb in my bra. I wonder if I'll set off an alarm and have to lift up my sweater to the sub-zeros that watch you go thru. Be just my luck to go to the trouble to get dressed up for this long awaited moment and get rejected due to a boob bomb theory.
I will keep you all posted about what happens to me tomorrow.
Hanna
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Ahh Geez Hannah ... now I'm stuck with that song in my head. Yep, I did rads, finished last July. I didn't notice the LCIS and DCIS on my path report until this past December. All the focus was on the other cancer.
I may even try 10 whole mgs of Tamox today!! Whoopeee!!
I take my head outa the sand at 3 month intervals for now.
Boob bomb theory!!! ROFLMAO. I hated jury duty. I always wrote back that I couldn't be on jury duty because I had a psychiatric illness and was too crazy. Worked every time.
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ahh....now there's an idea Bren! Could you forge one for me? They said you need a doctor's note to get out of it. I swear, if my boobs set off an alarm or they want to check me out from what they see on the x-ray, I'm gonna leave right on the spot and it won't be pretty. I'll start speaking the Italian I've been learning around here! I'd wear my T-shirt that says it all but the recording says no T-shirts are allowed.
To be continued.....
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Hanna, I don't think that the machines you walk through will pick up the metal in the port but if they wand you it may beep. but then you can use the boobie bomb theory on them. After my biopsy I kept saying that I wanted these 'ticking time boobs off' before I had my bilat surgery. I was on jury duty a couple of years ago, I showed up the first day, they swore us in then put us in the deliberating room while the lawyers talked with the judge. We were in there about 2 hours then they dismissed us saying that our services were no longer needed. I didn't even get to hear a trial.
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So I am most likely going to embarass myself and beep aren't I?
Great. My big moment and my chest is full of metal, assorted gels, plastics and fillers.. Well Sheila, from what you described I guess I won't care if I don't get picked especially if I have to go through all that and not even get to hear a case. Maybe I should just show up in my T-shirt and get rejected before going through the X-ray machine.
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