Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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Lisa,
Thank you. That means a lot.
Cristine--glad the visit went well..are we glad it's over?
My crap--bone pain from Neulasta and my chemodrugs, which I have now discovered is cumulative, and I can accurately describe yesterday and so far this morning as stunning. Lower back, hip and down to my knees. Pain meds are working, and blue emu oil also helps. I can't help thinking though if it hurts like this by tx#3, what's #6 going to be like? Throughout this whole process so far I have tried to avoid buying trouble ahead of time, but that's hard for me not to worry about.
Hope everyone has a good Monday.
ouch,
Sue
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Hey Sue,
Those pains, they really SUCK!! I was told to take Claritin every day for 3 or 4 days, after the Neulasta shot, and it will help with any of the Neulasta se's. It helped me trmendously! After my 1st tx, my onc opted to just wait 10 days and see how low my white blood count would go... well, it went DOWN DOWN DOWN! I really tanked, so they gave me anti biotics and 4 Neupogen shots, which I had to self inflict... Anyway, those Neupogen shots were FAR worse than the Neupogen shots! I wasn't told to take anything to help with the terrible bone pain, and lower back pain.... OUCH! I feel for you, hon. Take REGULAR Claritin, not Claritin D. It helped me so much!!
Good Luck!
Harley
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Thanks, Harley, I'll try that next time.
You are a sweetie.
Love,
Sue
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Sue, glad I could help!! I hope it helps for you. Chemo SUCKS!, but if it helps to kill the bc beast, then it's all for the best.
DUH! I meant to say that those Neupogen shots were WAY worse than the Neulasta shots. Except for the time that the stupid onc nurse gave me the Neulasta shot in my LEFT arm, the one that had lymph nodes removed... A couple of weeks later, my hand swelled up, and it was just awful! Now that hand is always swollen, and the fingers are 'bigger', so I can't even wear my wedding rings.
Hope everyone has a less sucky day tomorrow.
Harley
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Sorry for the suckiness, everyone. Pain, low blood counts, swollen body parts, not sleeping well - it all just sucks...
Now listen to my crap:
For those of you not near the east coast, it has been hot as Hades here for the last few days - close to 100 today. H2B walked in from his long day a few minutes ago. he was welcomed with a hearty smile and a "How was your day?" I was greeted with a "My day was HOT - my classroom was 92 degrees today (he's a teacher)" a grunt and the dreaded "I just don't feel like talking" comment. I'm sure there was steam coming out of my ears I was so pissed.
We do not have central air. The window units we do have are sitting in the shed waiting for him to slide them into the windows. What makes him think he has a "too hot to speak" clause in our relationship agreement? It was 92 degrees in my office today as well, but I still greeting him like I had some sense...
He apologized, but still nevre even asked me how MY day went. Selfish chucklehead...
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I don't have the time or the energy to catch up with everyone's suckiness.
Harley, hopefully the cherries will really help. To others, I heard Dr. Rosenfeld who writes articles in the Parade Mag and also appears every Sunday on Fox that cherries had melatonin..to eat a cup full. He also said dried cherries, but I don't know how much.
Isabella, I'll have to PM you about some of my DH's NO-NOs while drinking! Hmmm...I could write a book!
I'll read the rest of the suckiness later. Yep, I'm tired, but so glad we went to see our granddaughter GRADUATE from DAYCARE! LOL It was good. I cried. She's getting to big...5 1/2 yo.
Shirley
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Shirley,
I 'think' the cherries helped, but maybe they are just a placebo. My dh thinks that is my new favorite word, since I say it alot... lolGlad that you had a blast with your grand daughter's graduation!!
I'm fighting with my primary care dr... the office, there is a woman there who is JUST SO NASTY TO ME!! I am getting sick of being treated that way, too. Oh, and my primary care dr. is no longer practicing medicine, so I had to go to her partner today. She got 'the bends' from scuba diving on vacation, and flying home the next day. I don't scuba dive, but I even knew that you are not supposed to do that.... so that is my gripe for today... I have to get used to her partner, or switch pcps and there really is ONLY one other one in my town that I can see!! Maybe I'll just stop going to the drs., since they only make me angry anway...
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Oh, Shirley - I'm so glad that trip to Charlotte ended up being worth it. A generation ago the whole concept of 'graduating' from daycare, kindergarten, junior high, etc. was unheard of. But how can it ever be bad to spend a special day with a beloved granddaughter?!? I'm sure you are exhausted, but in a good way.
Felicia - it's always about them, isn't it? When do you suppose those window air conditioners will get put in, hmm? It's only nearly the Summer Solstice. In two weeks the days start getting shorter (gulp!).
Harley - sorry you have a nasty at your MD's office. For that matter, sorry you don't have your MD there any longer. Do you like the partner? Can you complain about the bitch at the desk?
Beergirl - the cherries were good, but at 1am I broke down and took the lorazepam. Oh, well.
Sue, are you on TACx6? If so, you are so right, it SUCKS! Even if you aren't, yes - the cumulative effects of chemo SUCKS. If you can butch up and give yourself the Neupogen shots, despite Harley's unfortunate experience with them, you can have it better than with the Neulasta. The Neulasta is all at once. The Neupogen, you can customize. Fill that syringe half-way. Do it every other day. Do a full dose near your nadir, yes. But give yourself a break. I knew that almost like clockwork, 90 min. after I gave myself my injection, my lower back, femurs and pelvis would ache (or worse, depending on how I had prepared). If I were in my clawfoot tub, an Aleve already in my system, with a glass of wine and some Bach on the iPod - I could just about slide through it. I would put just a dab of Emla cream on my belly (and seal it up) before dinner, give myself my shot painlessly, reward myself with a nibble of dark chocolate and have time for my preparations before the pain hit. If I had evening plans, I'd just take 1/2 of a 7.5mg. Lortab (brand, not generic) and still be able to be civilised with my companions. The cumulative fatigue, I never found a solution for - just bed.
My only crap today is that the DDS I temped for last week still has not direct-deposited my money. And when you have only been able to work three days in the last year, it, uhm, matters.
Oh - and the Frontline I have used for years on my Pugs seems to have stopped working. I have just had a flea jump on me. And my sweet boy is all itchy. That sucks, he doesn't deserve that! I take good care of him and groom him regularly. I left a nasty message on the Frontline website because their phone-support keeps EDT hours.
I have such small suckies these days.
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I don't know if I'm bitchy but I sure have been moaning and groaning and feeling sorry for myself. I had big plans for last weekend, I was going to do a couple open houses, visit some potential clients, organize things around here. Friday I was checking out a house that had just come on the market. The owners had painted their worn pine stairs with shiny enamel paint. The stairs were kind of shallow and there was no hand rail for the first 5 steps. I made it down 2 or 3 and then my foot slipped and I did the rest of the stairs at express speed.
After being helped to my feet I made it home and thought I was doing OK. Wrong. Two broken bones in my right foot, pulled muscle right arm, strained ligament left knee, bruised hip and ribs on the left and assorted scrapes and bruises all over. Now I have this big cast on my leg, which I will have the pleasure of for 6 weeks. I really could have done without this.
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mke---SO SORRY!!!! That truly sucks....
Lisa--Yes I am on TAC X6 and I will ask about the Neupogen. If for nothing else than your wonderful description (an aleve in my system, bach on my ipod...), it sounds worth a try. I am amazed at how much this has hurt this time. Today it seems to have finally eased a bit and at least moved down from my pelvis a bit (my ankles hurt). I can deal with anywhere better than my lower back, that has always been my weak spot. If I work all day, my lower back hurts. Under the best of conditions. So it's good to wake up this morning and not have that be the first thing I feel....
Harley, don't you love saying "placebo"?
Hope everyone has a great day.
Love,
Sue
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My air conditioning is fixed...again...so no bitch today. Well, at least until I get the repair bill or the electric bill.
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ladies...just saying I'm sorry for everyones suckiness!!! i hope u all have a suck free day.
bonnie
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Girls,
I have not been on this thread for awhile because I had to have another surgery!!!!
Get ready for the MOTHER of bitches....
It sucks that I have surgeries and always have complications!!
1.Latest intestinal abscess had to do ct and then have procedure done to drain it now have a drain out my belly and they wont scan me again till Monday the 16th to see if they take it out or I get surgery to remove section of intestine.
2.It sucks that I spent 4 days in hospital and come home to my girlfriend cleaning my house , 5 lazy teens no where to be found!!!!
3. It sucks that the kids do not get it! They do not see the mess and granted they are not huge messes, dishes piled up, soda can here shoes there pillows blankets everywhere, socks, papers the list goes on and on and on!!!
4. antibiotics at mega does sucks!!!
5. My air condition went out in the heat wave 97+ degrees, it is supposed to be 103 real temp today, here in Washington DC and I have a fever and pain hot flashes from the surgery that added this lovely accessory to my wardrobe, the drain, and feel like crap!
6. hubby went to Walmart bought a window ac unit for our room and it is dented and broken on the side! I called Walmart manager and spoke like I was possessed and told them we are using it last night and will return for undamaged one later in the week! He agreed!!!! LOL!
7. This morning I get wrapped in saran wrap to take shower hubby had to go to work and I got the damn crap bandages soaked so now I have crap to bandage myself the hospital through shit in my bag and did not give me enough so I guess that is my fault for not double checking the nurse to make sure she gave me what I need. so here I sit sweating like I took a shower and my bandage is falling of the tape won't stick to my sweaty body!!!
8.tried to blow dry my hair for my lovely appt with ps today and did it in my bedroom because it is cooler, with the ac unit, I blew the damn circuit breaker and god forbid had to wake the 20yr old in the basement to fix it!
9.trying to deal with college loans and all the shit they need faxed and do you think that the two college kids would help? NO they say they do not know how or they are working and they will do it later! Later does not work when applying for loans so I send the longest fax from hell to JMU this am with sweat pouring down my body. I mean seriously pouring!!!
10. I hate flushing this damn drain three times a day,I hate taking meds and hate never getting better from my LUCKY news of early breast cancer!!!!!!!!!!!
Okay I do not feel better but at least my girlfriend is driving me to ps and she has ac in her car!!!! Yeah!!!!
Daniella
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Holy crap...still plenty of suckiness to go around. Sorry, ladies! Heat waves, slippery stairs and broken bones, getting stiffed on paychecks, new doctors and clueless old ones....It all sucks!
Now, here's my crap:
This is 95% non-sucky and just 5% suction. Last night was my youngest son's 6th grade "graduation". There were many awards given and my baby received several. One very special award he received was a memorial scholarship ($500) that he will receive once he's in high school and accepted to a college. It was a complete surprise and we are so proud of him! The sucky part is that my middle son had to say, "I know why he got it!"--meaning it was yet another "booby prize" because mom has terminal cancer. CRAP. Even the really good stuff gets tainted.
Have a non-sucky day, people!
(((HUGS)))
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Dani,
Your post came in while I was posting mine. I am SO sorry! You have more suckiness going on right now than anyone should have.
((((HUGS))))
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Dani, you hon, are dealing with some major suckage! Another surgery! An intestinal abcess! You don't deserve any of this!
Why don't they have a home health nurse coming out to help you?!? Yours sounds like a primary case of need - I'd call 'em up and bitch until you got on the schedule for at least twice weekly until you have no drains or dressings to change. That won't help with lazy teenagers or the gawdawful heat index, but it would allow you to lie back and let a professional minister to your owies - and you don't have to blow-dry your hiar or drive there!
Hope things begin to turn around soon.
Lisa
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mke - dang, did they booby-trap that stairway or what?!? Now you get a summertime of limping around.
I can relate - I broke two bones in my foot not long ago. I had just gone for my first physical therapy appointment to get 'back on my feet' when I stopped for my mammogram and the real s#it hit the fan. I know your body is probably more sore today than yesterday, just because it seems to work that way. Is your cast a removable one so you can soak in a nice epsom salt bath? Are those homeowners going to pay for your period of disability? Sue, I'm glad your pain has eased a bit. TAC will put hair on your chest, that's for sure. Well, no not hair, uhm, and our chests usually lose mass during all this, huh? Well, you know what I mean. . .
Diane - I'm sure your little guy earned all of his accolades. You can be a proud mom and not let his award be tainted. I'm sure he will have many more moments such as these to share with you as he goes through school - he sounds like he has just begun to garner scholarships!
Crap update - no, my paycheck still has not shown up in my account.
Lisa
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Oh my gosh! So much going on. You poor gals.
Bonnie, I'm so sorry your port hurts. I hope it's better by now. I don't even remember what date you had it done. Heck, I don't know what date it is...is it the 10th? Yep, just checked my email and it's the 10th.
Heather, you've got many decisions to make. You have time to make those decisions. Don't be rushed. You've been given some good advice and info from the gals here.
Nicki, my crap really doesn't suck. I guess I'm through the worse part. I just stay tired. My normal. However, this sucks more than your fish sucked. LOL
Poor Skip..that's my dh's nickname.Wow, Rockthebald. Not *bleeping* falling asleep til *bleeping* 9:30 in the *bleeping* morning really *bleeping* sucks! I remember when our smoke detector kept going off. We disabled it!
Harley, it really sucks when your doctor can no longer practice medicine. However, maybe it's for the best since she didn't even have the sense not to fly after deep sea diving..that was it, right? Goes to show these docs must not know everything, OR they don't take their own advice! I hope the cherries are working. I'm sure with a glass of wine they'll even work better. Your poor sore neck and shoulders is probably coming from your job...hanging those stupid clothes back on the racks IN THE CORRECT PLACE! Hope you feel better soon.
Grace, I like your idea about chocolate covered cherries!
Awww, Linda, you are dealing with a lot. I don't blame you one bit for wanting to crawl under the bed. But on top would be more comfy. Oh, and sleeping away all the suckiness would be great, but the sad part is when we wake up it's still there. You'll deal with it. And I'm NOT going to tell you how strong you are. But, you'll deal with it and do fine. We'll never get our lives back as we knew it.
Felicia, my aunt could smell things that were not even there. At least no one else could smell them. LOL And, have your sweetie put in the ACs. Don't ask him...TELL HIM!
Kerry, so happy that everything went well. I'm sorry your feeling yucky. But that's to be expected. Get plenty of rest. Surgery is never easy.
Sue, none of us know how we would deal with mets. Diane is one of my "heroes" here on this board. It seems like she always has such a sense of humor (yes DIANE, I'm talking about YOU!). I'm having those little aches and pains, nothing major, but I still wonder......
I'm so glad your son is doing well. One year in recovery is WONDERFUL. And I'm glad you have a cabin to go to..getting "away" will be good for you. I always wanted a cabin. I'm just catching up so I know it's been three days since you wrote about your feelings. Oh, and the bone pain. I didn't have any while on Neulasta. However, I DID on Taxol. And I had lower back pain...sort of felt like I was going to have a period. I just felt LOUSY! Hoping you're feeling better today.
Cristine, I'm SOOOOO glad you had a nice visit with your sister and family. I so hope they can make the trip back later this summer.
Lisa, you are so correct. It's always nice spending time with grandkids. Since my granddaughter is "5 1/2" (I taught her the "1/2" to let her know she's older than 5..lol) she's getting more fun. However, I hate the fact that she's growing up soooo fast. I'm sorry you haven't received your check yet..well, not the last time I looked. Maybe you have by now. Hope so. Poor puppies. My dogs ALWAYS had allergies to flea bites. And that truly sucks!
Mke, darn, that really sucks! Geez! Damn! What can I say!?
Daniella, I think you deserve the suckiest award! Bless your heart!
Diane, you son got that award because he deserved it. And, he's gonna get a bunch more! Wait, you'll see!
I've gotta go. My gypsy children are coming over for dinner tonight. Making Chicken Chow Mein. DD calls when they want to come eat. They're staying at the in-laws house. So, I need to get my butt up and start preparing dinner. And, I'm not doing my hair until tomorrow so, they'll have to look at my droopy hair from all the heat and sweating I've done this weekend. I have to see my primary for my 6 month checkup Thursday, and I'm not about to do my hair today. So, Wednesday will be the day to do the hair from hell! I need a cut and highlighting.
I guess I can't complain too much. Except that I don't want to see the doc. And, next week have to go to Duke for mammo. Have been putting that off due to other things being more important. Hell, they didn't find my cancer on the mammo, so why would I think they'll find another one. I'll probably find it before they do. Makes me mad...already had lymph node involvement when I found it. Okay, I'll shut up!
Hope everyone has a nonsucky day tomorrow! Or, even the rest of this evening.
Shirley
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The cherries did NOTHING for me last night, so Sue, I guess they ARE a placebo! Yes, my favorite new word! I told my dh that when you take a pill, and you THINK it is working, then it is probably a placebo... see, he has been having some tendonitis problems, and he decided to take Glucosamine for it, and he 'thinks' it's working.
Shirley, yes, I think that my legs are sore from standing around all day, waiting on these people, trying to help them find clothes, and whenever I suggest something, they say "No... I don't like that..." There is ALWAYS some reason WHY they don't like it. One lady wanted a "chocolate brown" pair of pants... I showed her several pair of brown pants, but I guess she wanted the "white chocolate" pants. GRRR.... Today, there was a woman who kept finding fault with everything I picked for her. But, she DID at least buy about $300 worth of clothes, even IF she made me write it up on THREE separate sales slips!!
Oh, Shirley, I did not like this pcp dr. anyway. She just didn't really seem to know what she was doing, and she was really flaky, too. Every time I went there, the receptionist was calling patients, to re-schedule all her appts., for some reason or other.
At least, this dr. seems nice enough. He told me that his wife had bc 24 yrs. ago, when she was 32!, and she's 56 now, and doing just fine! He even said to me... and I'm not sure WHY, "you will have a sex life again." He was concerned about my depression, and I think he even would have written up a Rx for an anti depressant, even though he probably didn't know which one to prescribe. He really seemed to care, because he said, "you shouldn't have to go around feeling that way."So it wasn't totally sucky....
Harley
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Harley, I'm so glad this doctor was nice! And, knowing a little about bc because his wife had it is a plus. Not that he knows the "new" stuff, but he surely knows the emotional toll it takes on a woman.
I'm sorry the cherries didn't work. Oh well, at least you tried and now you can save the money. But, they ARE good for you.
"White chocolate" pants? That's too funny! Silly girl.
I'm glad I don't have your job. Trying to please women...well, let's say it's hard!
Talk to ya later!
Shirley
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Oh my gosh ladies....I can not even believe how BAD all this news SUCKS!
We need a change of luck ladies. Maybe we should have a "burn the bad news fire"....I have it started in the back yard. I am a pyromaniac at heart.....burn baby burn!
feel free to burn anything that is making you nuts....
I am tossing in every fricking pair of shoes I own. They ALL hurt my feet. My neuropathy is getting worse and makes me nuts.
I am also throwing in my date book. All it has is medical appointments. I desperately need to plan something fun.
I think I will burn my LE sleeve. The damn thing doesn't fit for crap....
I also think I am going to write down all the well-meaning advice and platitudes people have spouted this week and burn them too.
I have not quite figured out how to burn my side effects, but the headache, sore hands and feet, sinus infection, antibiotic caused diarrhea, exhaustion and bloody noses have got to go too.
Can you tell I had chemo yesterday?? LOL
Deb C
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Deb - I've got some things for the fire. First, let's toss in all my clothes, cuz they just remind me how fat and chemo-puffy I am. Then I will toss in my journal, because I've only written in it a few times, and when I read it back a few days later, I wonder who the h*ll is this crazy person who wrote this. If I could, I would toss in my right hand that goes numb 50 times a day - and that's supposed to be my good side.....WTF?????
Can you tell I'm angry? Gotta have chemo again tomorrow. Two weeks goes by too dang fast. That sucks
Marsha
P.S. Hey, Traci - welcome to Texas!
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Hey all,
So much suckines, so little time.
Sue - Here's another "good" Neuopogen story - had my first shot today at about 11:30 AM. Came home, took 3 ibuprofen (yes, 3!) and the most pain I have had was from the injection site. It's 9:30 PM now. It might be a better option for you. Ask, girl!
mke - That is just no okay - tell them to fix the damn stairs! And I'm with Shirley, are they covering you for their bad stairs?
Dani - I'm just not even sure what to say except that all SUCKS! I do get the frustration of the kids who don't "get it". My oldest dd (although she's only 9) doesn't quite get it, either. I think part of her doesn't want to and partly she really doesn't. If I were there, I would give those teens a tongue-lashing! Get in there and help your mama!!
Diane - Congrats to your son! Period. And somebody on our May 2008 chemo board was looking for someone on Xeloda and I told them to try to find you. I hope I remembered that right...lol.
Lisa - No money Sucks Big Time!
Harley - Ungrateful customers suck, too! About sleeping - before starting tx, I was using (occasionally) something called SleepMD. It worked pretty well, was over the counter and was non-addictive. I don't know if you can find it in NC, but it might be worth a try.
Shirley - Why can't those kids bring over some take out once in a while? Or at least a chocolate cake?!
My crap: I'm 14 days post-tx and my WBCs tanked today. Had to drive down to the hospital where I get my bloodwork done, wait an hour, call the onc's office, they said, "Yeah, it's bad - come get your Neuopogen", drive back up, pick up dh (he's an RN) so they can watch him give me the first one and then home. Whew. I was pooped. No work for me until at least Monday. Which would be o.k., if tomorrow weren't the last day of school. Now what am I gonna do with them? Plus, I've felt just generally crappy all day - headache, eye hurt, low-grade fever and super-tired. More like day 3 or 4 instead of day 14. Before that, I was feeling pretty darn good, too! Thought I might work out this week. HA! There I go, thinking again. Okay, I'm rambling in my post-Neuopogen, headachy, feverish haze...
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Oh ladies,
I haven't posted here in a while because I've been totally lacking in the oomph to accomplish much of anything...
But this is a lot of sucky stuff.
Dani, you should have no more complications from anything, ever -- the limit has been reached! AND 5 teenagers???? OMG, I barely survived one...
mke, I think those clients owe you big time!
Felicia, sorry about the supersmells, and H2B's crankiness...
Shirley, I am so impressed with your energy in addressing everyone's crap! I can keep about 4 thoughts in my head if I expend an ENORMOUS amount of mental energy!
Harley, so sucks to have to deal with cranky, bitchy, flaky people... hope your new pcp works out okay (maybe he'll hire a new receptionist?).
Deb, the bonfire is a great idea -- sorry for everything that sucks and maybe we can burn it away or smoke it out!
Traci -- hope you've had a happy landing!
Everyone else, please forgive me for running out of steam!
What sucks is that I'm afraid I'm developing an infection in 3-week-old fipple -- called PS Sunday, then thought I was overreacting, so didn't go in on Monday cause it seemed okay, then he wasn't in today and won't be in until Friday, then starting at 6 PM tonight my foob felt horribly hot and tight. Took a leftover Levaquin (I suppose that's reckless of me, but I felt like it would really make me sick to go spend half the night in an emergency room, y'know?), so I guess tomorrow I'll see one of the PS's fellows, but they all seem like... um, like...
...like 5 TEENAGERS!
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Good morning ladies!!!!! So much that sucks....
Deb-I have some things for that bonfire too. You are right, chemo sucks.
Harley-I also tried the SleepMD with good results. Sorry about the prima donna shoppers in your area..
Shirley-you have to be taking notes. how do you remember everyone's crap?
Diane-your son got the award because he deserved it! Sounds like you need to jerk a knot in the other one's tail for what he said--I think he's jealous and threatened by his brother's achievement!
Lisa-Here's hoping your money comes soon--waiting for $$ sucks!!
Not much crap for me and sorry if I missed anyone. Feeling pretty well, except found out yesterday I have a mild case of lymphedema--starting therapy for it this morning. So I'll be going to the lake for a couple days with my arm wrapped---oh, well. It's kind of funny, I thought I was being all proactive just scheduling an appt. with an LE therapist, just wanted to make sure everything was okay and learn more about how to protect myself. Then to find out I already have 2.9 cm difference between my upper arms and need to take action, well I was just really glad I had arranged the appt. So I have a lot of learning to do....
Hope everyone has a great day!!
Love,Sue
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That sucks, y'all!
It's much too early in the day for there to be much suckiness happening, but I just have to b*#$ about the freakin' HEAT! OMG! I thought I was going to die waiting in the car line to pick up the kids yesterday. The a/c in the car doesn't seem to work unless you've been driving for an hour or two. YUCK!
Yep, Cristine--XELODA is me! I am having much less trouble with the reduced dose.
Sue, LE truly sucks--especially when it's a sneak attack!
Deb, a bonfire sounds great. Let's see....I'll "donate" all my shirts and blouses with sleeves because even though the LE is under control, BOTH arms have ballooned up and look like freakin' HAMS. Oh, I'll toss in a prosthesis or two; good grief, I didn't know they could get so HOT! I'd also like to throw in about 5,000 prescription bottles. I never thought I'd have so many stinkin pills to take. I rattle when I walk. When we all toss our things into the fire, we'll have to look on Google Earth because I am sure the flames can be seen from space!
By the way, Deb--my dh told me yesterday that he wants to move to Alaska. I told him that would be just fine with me as long as we can move near you! LOL
Today is the last day of school for the kiddoes...that's a big ball of suck/doesn't suck! LOL
(((HUGS))) and wishes for a low-suction day
Diane
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Oh boy...I've just visited the mets board. CRAP...Janis (fitztwins) has been told she has mets. I'm getting tired of greeting new members to the mets club. I hereby forbid anyone else here to join...GOT IT?? It also sucks that a young mother with 5 kids (blessed4) and stage IV is being ignored by her doctors because of lack of insurance. SHE is having to search high and low to get assistance for the drugs she needs. IT SUCKS BEYOND BELIEF. Please, if any of you have any connections in Denver, CO, please post them to Angela's (blessed4) threads in the mets section.
THAT SUCKS
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Sue... I think we have these clientelle at the store, because the clothes cost $300!
Ann- No such luck, on getting a NEW receptionist. But he IS trying to hire a NEW dr., to help with his case load.
Cristine- I think I have seen SleepMD in the stores, but now I have to worry if there are any ingredients that will interfere with Tamoxifen...everything seems to have some kind of 'inhibiting' power.
Alaska deb -- Chemo SUCKS! So sorry you have to endure those tx! sending lots of HUGS and prayers your way!
Shirley- Yes, it is good that this dr. knows about the emotional toll of bc. Some act like you should just suck it up and move on. I wish I COULD... this depression is causing problems with my dh. He is getting tired of me being so depressed all the time... I got a clue for him, it's no picnic for me, either.
About that job, one of the other girls who works there walks around, and if you are helping someone, she comes along at the last minute, and helps this customer to find an article of clothing, and then she RUSHES to the counter, to check them out, so HER name will get on the sales slip!! We are NOT on commission, BTW. But, now it looks like I didn't do anything all day, and SHE helped ALL the customers! I don't know what to do about it, but I talked to another lady who works there, and I knew that she had been having problems with her. I guess it doesn't matter, since I hate it there anyway. But, my dh is SO not understanding about it! He WANTS me to work, in fact, his pushing is part of the reason why I took that stupid job, but he doesn't want to hear about anything negative...badboob - Oh, I can't hear about anyone else joining Club Mets... I just can't bear the thought of another of my breast friends going thru that Hell.
A BIG THAT SUCKS TO ALL YA'LL!!
Harley
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OH MY GOSH! Diane, tell me it ain't true. OH MY GOSH! I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes. I can't believe our Janis has mets. OH MY GOSH! I can't even bitch right now. I'll be back later.
ANOTHER MOM, MOTHER, WIFE, FRIEND, WOMAN recieving the news of having this DAMNED F*c&ing disease and now mets. And, Diane, I am so sorry you have to deal with this too. AIN'T FAIR! And women who have to fight doctors because they don't have insurance! Isn't it enough to have to go through this crap without a fight? And who the hell has the energy TO fight!!
One thing before I leave...my dd is an attorney. She just recently left a large firm. She and one of the other female attorneys decided to open their own office. My dd has a very difficult time charging her hourly rate to people who do not have lots of money. I told her she had to because IT WAS HER JOB! Her livelihood. I told her doctors and dentist and all the other professionals do it. I think I'll now tell her to do what she thinks is best. If a person needs a break then give it as long as she can live without suffering too much. Damn, accumulating "things" in this world really don't mean crap.
And, Diane, forgive me, but I rarely go to the mets board because I just can't. I know it can happen to me anytime, and I'm damned scared. I can't stand losing another woman here. Forgive me for even getting so damned emotional. And, forgive me for using "bad words."
I will gripe about one thing..can you tell I'm not in a happy mood right now? Kids come over. I fix dinner. Dinner was easy to fix. They leave around 10 pm. That was okay cuz I was tired. But'cha know what. If my dd can't come over just to visit me I don't need her to feel guilty and over at dinner time. They are planning THEIR lives again ALL DAY LONG. And I'm beginning to think they are very selfish. Do they know what the hell family means? They are working, according to them, all day long on THEIR LIVES...where they're moving...their next road trip...what kind of vehicle...etc., etc. I feel totally left out. They don't tell us crap. However, she says they have a looonngggg spread sheet with all kinds of places to live or whatever the hell they're doing! Don't get me wrong. She's a great daughter. Geez, I SOUND HORRIBLE! But that's how I feel right now.
I had a little talk with my granddaughter this weekend. It was about death. Her stepgrandmother has been fighting mets for a couple of years. It's a miracle she's still alive. Anyway, somehow my little 5 year old and I got on that subject. She asked if I was going to die one day. I told her yes. She said, NO! You're my grandmother! She's lost two pets, but never a person. And, while talking about this to her I thought of her other grandmother who's fought so hard. And how would she take it even though she knows her "MawMaw" is sick, but she doesn't know HOW sick. But I told her it would be a looongg time before I died. Oh, geez, I'm so morbid this morning!
My suckiness and gripes are NOTHING compared to so many women on this board. I'll be back later. I need to check on Janis.
Shirley
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Shirley- You made me cry! I feel for you sometimes it feels we could move boulders for our children and they can not pick a sock up they left on the floor. One lady told me I should consider it great that my kids have adjusted and are not really depressed with all the family has gone through these last few years! In a way she is right, but damn it sometimes it would be nice for them to seem like they care and ask what they can do for me!
The talk with your granddaughter is so heartwarming, those are the real tough times in life and it sounds like you handled it wonderfully!
You are always here posting for all of us, let us all give you a big super hug, and you are entitled to have a morbid sad day! But remember we all die it is just how we get there! So let it go when you feel to sad and remember we all do have "those days", and plan on dying with a party dress on dancing and in your 90's!!!!
ANNNYC- PS acting like 5 teenagers... you are too funny!
Christine- I feel for you having the Young ones out of school while you are going through this crap. Summer is always hard when we are healthy you want the relaxation of summer and the good times with the kids but then....they are ALWAYS around!!! Yikes!!! I move from one room to the next and cannot escape them!!!
Deb- I would like to throw all my kids crap they have left all over the house in that bonfire!!!!
Badboob67- I can relate to the no AC sucks! they finally fixed my house AC last night! What a difference that makes in our moods!!! We, all 7 of us, were ready to tear each other's heads off!!! Over 100 degrees outside and much hotter inside!!!
I am having a better not too sucky day! My intestine drain tube had blood draining into it last night after I flushed it! Freaked me out called the radio dr and she said it was probably a good sign that the infection has completely drained and she pushed my ct to thursday from monday 16, and if all goes well i could have this drain out tomorrow!!!! YEAH!!!! Would be nice if they warned a person that this could happen!! Blood coming out the drain was not what I had expected!
I can not even comment on the mets that our fellow sisters are going through having watched my bf die at 44 leaving her husband and two children. It is too sad for words!! She died of colon cancer! Man this cancer crap is the worst! Miracle cure, not possible but wouldn't it be nice, everyone would just live their lives with normal problems and fun times and this shit would never interfere!!!
Wishful thinking but from the bottom of my heart I wish for it for all cancer patients and their families!
Bye girls,
Dani
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