Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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I just want to thank every single one of you who personally welcomed me on my first visit with an empathetic agreement of suckiness.
I haven't been posting, but read every day and try to send positive vibes and prayers to help with each of you having sucky situations.
Chemosabi that SO sucks! Why do people have to be rude? And yeah...we've been through enough w/o trashing each other. That's just wrong! Somebody needs a life.
Viv hon, bummer and major suckage! Please let us know how it goes on your return to the doc. Keep in mind that odds are on your side, it's more than likely just a cyst. But I'm sure there's no way you could help but worry.
After reading over these many pages for weeks, the thing that sticks in my mind is...someone wished everyone a "semi-suckless Monday". LMAO Yeah...I thought it sounded kinda dirty too! Not only did it sound a bit naughty, but also impossible. Dontcha know that Mondays are required to suck?
Well until then, have a totally unsucky weekend if you can. 0 -
Sue...that sucks! When will they learn to listen to patients and realize that we know our own body? Yeesh
Please come back...teenager stories make everything else seem so mild in comparison. lol
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A big hello to everyone. Another work day, but its Friday and I will be able to read all of your posts and give you all a hearty "that sucks."
Thanks for your responses, I woke up and you made me laugh out loud. Found a great quote for those who are doing parodies.
Catch up with ya all later.
Nicki
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OMG, Nicki, I can really use that one!
OK, here goes: what a totally sucky week everyone has had! This day is yet young, and although I feel pretty good so far, I have no doubt something sucky will happen before it's over.
Yesterday was such a sucky day for me that I didn't even post about it here. I just didn't know where to start. It was all very personal, involving relations with family members (like that's anything new on this thread). Anyway, I spent all my time last night complaining over on some of the other threads...and I ran out of steam. Today I felt well enough to go back and edit some of those posts, lest one of my relatives figure out how to get here.
So, today is Friday, which is a good thing, even when you're retired. (How long does it take before the simple joy of remembering it's Friday disappears into the blur of retirement?)
Here's my preliminary sucky list: 1) I want my mojo back (been to that thread--got some ideas); 2) can't go to family reunion 'cause of chemo SE's and wbc nadir; 3) sis who isn't married is "separating" from her long-term bf 'cause she can't stand his favorite hobby; 4) dad has dementia (AD) and is becoming incontinent; 5) mom is in denial about #2, #3, & #4; ...
That's enough for now. Looks pretty sucky after all.
otter
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Yep, Otter, That
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Hi Everybody,
I don't post here to often ... but I had a pretty sucky visit with the med onco this week. Last time I saw him was 9 months ago. He didn't even remember me. I finished tx exactly a year ago. My surgeon is the one I see every three months, with 6 month mammos. When I saw him 3 months ago, he said I needed to see the rad onc or med onc next time. I guess he wanted me to spread the love ... Well, I passed on the rad onc since he said he had cured me a year ago. Why bother with that guy. The med onc informed me he only deals with sick people. My little 1 cm IDC, LCIS and DCIS didn't count cause I didn't have chemo. I cried through the whole appt. I said to him, "Where's my team?" I need to know recurrence stats cause I'm not taking Tamox or AIs. That shit makes me sick and I've tried them 3 times already this year. He had to leave the office twice to go look up the info. He only treats really sick people, I was reminded again. After he returned the second time, I told him I was through with you three cancer docs. I'm going to stick with my PCP, at least she gives a shit. I'm due for my mammo this month and have nobody to schedule it. I tried to do it myself and they wouldn't call me back. Will see the PCP next month and she can take care of it. So now the med onco says I only have to have a mammo once a year and be seen every six months, the surgeon says something else. I'm 13 months past dx.
And get this ... the med onc is actually a really great doc and usually a nice person. He actually hugged me and kissed me on the cheek when I left. Whoopee. I'd rather have a mammo than a freaking kiss!
Nicki - about those parodies. I've read them and they are sick, sick, sick. I didn't know such ugliness existed in people. Hugs.
When my son got his license I was so freaked out. He didn't need me anymore!!! We had so much fun going to the beach together, surfing and traveling ... and now he was independent. Boo hoo.
Dani - I sure hope you are doing better.
Otter - Denial works best for some. Sucks for those left holding the bag.
Group hug for everyone.
Love,
Bren
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Okay, so I have a b*tch.
Our DHs can be so good at times. Right? Mine was pretty good during treatment.
Last night my dd and her dh were over for dinner. I mentioned going to my primary doc and that I was little concerned that my wbc and netrophils (sp) were elevated at my last visit in Dec. I said that after doing chemo it sort of concerned me (you now, leukemia). My doc said he recheck it. I told the doc that I didn't know how much elevation was too much (make sense?). I rarely complain about ANYTHING to the docs...just wanna get outta there!
Well, my dh said that I was being a hypochondriac..he was very sarcastic! He's nuts! I'm so mad at him. I told my dd and sil that I rarely talk about this stuff to him. Sil said, you need to talk to your daughters about it. Meaning, LEAVE HIM OUT! They were a bit disturbed by his attitude.
I do not sit around here obsessing about bc. Yeah, I think about it everyday. I feel it everyday...one less boob, numbness, LE, etc., etc. Ya know, it hurts when you can't share stuff. But, I have to add, HE WAS DRINKING! I'll probably regret posting this. But he's a FREAKING DRUNK! And, that's bad because he's really a good person. But drinking makes him into a whole different person. And I HATE IT!
Shirley
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Oh so sorry that you are going through this and are upset. I send Hugs, and a thought. You can get past the pain of them all, you know what a strong person you are.
Lately, dh, dsil, dkids, anyone who annoys me or hurts me is subject. For some reason I keep thinking I survived bc to put up with their s@@t!? No way. Walk away for awhile and know you deserve to be treated better.
Hang in - I hope all your tests come out good.
Shirley
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Okay, I just told him! He just got back for his 6 month checkup. I told him how I felt...I told him I didn't share anything with him....yep, I was crying from anger and hurt....I told him he didn't care to learn about this disease...I told him if he had a disease I'd be reading about it..learning about it...and I've done that with stuff he's been through..back problems, etc., and alcoholism. He said he wouldn't call me a hypchondriac anymore. Gee, thanks! Cuz I'm not! If he does it one more time I swear I'm coming after a shovel! But someone will need to dig the hole!
Okay, I feel a bit better now. I shouldn't share all this in a public forum!
Isabella, I feel your pain.
Shirley
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Desny, our posts just crossed. Thank you very much. I'll get over it. I always do! Whe do we WOMEN take so much shit? We deserve better. Thank goodness for Aprazalom (Xanax!).
Shirley
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Shirley: I usually go everywhere and read everyones posts, but I had to stop when I got here. I have been there and done that and its the most awful feeling! I just picked up a rock and threw it at your husbands noggin! Alcohol + men = stupidity! I feel so bad for you right now - we could throw him in DebC's bonfire.
There is a reason we all come here. This group is very special because we are all stages, all types of cancer, some of us are new and going through treatment, some of us are done with treatment, and some of us are on treatment without an end in site. And this all SUCKS!
Sometimes I think our friends and family live more in denial land than we do. They would rather forget than fear. They want it over, and for us, it never is over. It gets better, but its never over. And of course your worried that your white blood cells and neutrophils are elevated. That was the one thing that was shared to me about chemo. There is a small risk that one could develop leukemia! Geesh! Dont shut my mouth when I have a legitimate concern. Hope this passes for you and until it does here is a big "that sucks." Oh and your right about women - I think it would have been a whole different situation in this household if I was the one who left the laptop in a walmart shopping cart. Now is that stupid or what? And he doesnt have chemobrain.
Oh and I cant help it.
Desny/Shirley
: Two Shirleys right in a row - now that could be challenging. You gave such great advice. A while back I was told to remember "this - breast cancer" is about me! We can never forget that. No one can walk in our shoes that hasnt gone through this journey.Bren: Well gosh darn, I think you should come here more often. Now if that isnt a big that sucks I dont know what is. So you didnt need chemo - hey, in my eyes thats great, cause I would have done anything to get out of chemo. Doesnt matter the stage! Its a crap shoot from hell. DCIS to Stage 4! Our wheel of fortune never stops and where she goes we will never know. I use my PCP for everything. Use him as a quarterback. BTW - you and my older sister are very close in diagnosis. Shes not taking any aromatase inhibitors either. OH gosh, Traci will kill me but I cant help it.
Rock: I can smell what the rockthebald is cooking
Otter: It is a good saying isnt it. I laughed out loud when I found it. I think everyone of us here has experienced "all of the above." It sucks - no doubt about it. Next time, if you need to blow steam pm me. I know what you are talking about. Sometimes what sucks the most is what we cant talk about - even here.
Miss Lolli: Hiya! Boy your hit it right on. I couldnt have said it any better than that.
Sue: My goodness you must come back. Going through treatment and raising a teenager? Now that sucks. I think the one thing I learned from this journey more than anything! Be your own advocate and be pushy. Healthcare now a days seems to specialize in preventative and the healthy! What about when we really get sick?
Crazydaisy: Dang on that recall. That Succcccckkkkkks!
Felicia: Im with you about Janis and Stephanie. That sucks big time.
Cristine: Right when I was getting ready to call the "Costra Nostra" the Computer Division of the Attorney Generals office gave me a call. Hmmmm I will share that with you later.
Anne: You made me smile this morning. Just putting things into a different perspective.
Dani: Holy crap! Intestinal drain. What in the world have I missed. That sucks - really really sucks!
DebC: Do we have to limit the bon fire to bras? Although I must admit I have many, they is a whole lot of other stuff I would like to throw in that bon fire. Including all the sun dresses I tried on today!
So my day actually ended up not being so sucky! Imagine that. I didnt even realize it was Friday the 13th until my day at work was almost over. I placed a complaint with the Computer Division of the Attorney Generals office. And guess what, and investigator called me today. Guess that stalking and cyberbullying have become pretty serious crimes. I have given them everything. Names, addresses, and copies of all the parodies and they believe I have a case. The investigation begins and they asked me if I want to prosecute and I said YES! They are also going after the private board that hosts this as they have allowed this to go on despite multiple complaints and examples of where their rules were broken.
This investigator that called said this has become a problem with children - so if you have children, be aware this has become a pretty big issue of concern.
So Im a pretty happy camper tonight because finially Im feeling justice will be served.
Have a great evening.
Nicki
I know Im missing so many of you. I will start from here and try to catch up with ya all.
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Nicki, I haven't seen the parodies yet but anyone who would do something to poke fun at you or anyone else on here is just mean, mean, mean and deserves to eat dog poop!
Otter, my first thought was - at least your mom isn't in denial about #1!
Seriously, all of tht does suck. I sometimes wonder if my dbf has found his way onto this board because I post about him a lot -- oh well, I never say anything terrible, he should be flattered that I think about him so much, right?Anyone with doctor issues - a big "that sucks" to you!
Shirley, I'm sorry your "d"h has been so hurtful to you. I hope that he gets it now and his behavior will change.
Today I need to bitch about something that has nothing to do with bc, for once. A few weeks ago, I received an invitation to a family celebration and naming ceremony for my cousin's recently-adopted dd. I was so excited that the date was between chemo and surgery, at a time when I would most likely feel well enough to attend. The party is tomorrow, in New Jersey, and I am feeling pretty good. My 7-year-old ds and I were supposed to drive to my parents' place in NY this evening and then go with my mom and dad to the party tomorrow. Well, guess what? My son was up puking all last night, and today has a temp of 102.2. Phhooey! I am so disappointed!
DS is finally eating something, a small bowl of spaghetti w/ margarine -- please keep fingers crossed that he can keep it down tonight.
I hope everyone's weekend promises to be better than mine!
Lauren
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A big that sucks to everyone!!!
Shirley,
If you need help with the hole............
You are just too much of a great lady to have to take that stuff.
Hope all have less suckiness over the weekend.
Kerry
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Shirley- I am so sorry for what you are going through. My dad is /was an alcoholic really can't drink now has two drinks a night because he is in such poor health he is 71, but let me tell you he F'd my Mom's life up and she always made excuses for him. This all started when all three of us had left home. well... a little before I suppose he worked in the Pentagon top top security job dealing with the Soviet Union and he never could discuss work. Social worker told us years back a lot of men at his rank in the military have a hard time and turn to really drinking when they retire. NO excuse for what he put Mom and me and my brothers through but especially me cause I had to clean up all the shit and sell their house and get him out of debt and problems with IRS. So even the best guys or gals can get involved in the addiction thing, nothing for us to be ashamed of! There is a song that just speaks my whole ordeal with him, the lyrics say "I tried to help you, now I just need my life back! " It was like it was written for me at the time to let me know I was not they only one going through straighten out someone else's mess and it was ruining my life!!! I had 5 kids to take care of and a husband I love so much who was really getting impatient with the whole mess! Vent all you want to us, love your husband but understand his problems are his not yours and you have every right to want more from him for support!
Cancer.... any kind is worse then addiction in my humble opinion!!! Whine,bitch and be paranoid... hell everyone of us are hypo's!!!
Once you get the big C you spend the rest of your life worrying!!!!
Am I right girls???
Thank all of you for your post to me! I am doing much better, drain is out apparently I healed much faster then they thought. I go to MRI Tues, for adernal gland issues that the dr's want checked out! CRAP CRAP CRAP! It will probably mean another dr for me!!!!
If anyone has had adenoma adrenal cysts let me know! They hope it is that and not something worse...you know like the big C!!!!! WTH!!!
here is hoping for a none sucky weekend for all my BC friends!!
Dani
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Dani, I had a benign adrenal tumor--an adrenocortical adenoma. It was a solid tumor, though--not a cyst--but it was nearly as big as the whole adrenal gland. The adenoma was producing aldosterone, which was making my blood pressure go way up and causing my potassium to go way down.
I finally got a referral to an endocrinologist, who ran a bunch of complicated tests, ordered an MRI and CT, and discovered the adenoma. A few months later I had the whole adrenal gland removed, and now I'm fine. That was 4-1/2 years ago.
I hope your adrenal adventure goes as well as mine did.
otter
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Shirley - So sorry your dh was behaving like an ass! (Can I say that?!) And taking it out on you - NOT O.K. You are always so supportive of us - how dare he? Even with an apology! Does he know you have a bunch of angry women with shovels supporting you?!
Nicki - I just wanted to say...good for you and bad for them!! They're lucky they didn't end up with a horse's head next to them...
Bren - Clueless docs suck.
Lauren - Throwing up and missing a family event - double suckiness!! So sorry...I know how important that stuff is.
Dani - Anything new sucks. I hope it is absolutely nothing.
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Nice place to post. I might be in the wrong department but I read them all and this is one post I need to reply to.
My week sucked! I meet the onc that my surgeon referred me to. I arrived at 8am. The Great Wizard decided to see me at 10:15. He walked in and told me that I needed a mammosite procedure. I disagreed because my surgeon told me I had a choice. When I wouldn't sign the release paper the Great Wizard threw his arms up and said, I quote, "This is the United States. I suppose you have a right to make your own decissions. It's your life on the line."
I guess I insulted him when I wouldn't follow his agenda. Now my husband is pulling me out of that whole hospital and trying to send me someplace else. I don't want to go someplace else. I liked every one else.
All the men in my life have God-like egos. It sucks. I want to make my own decissions.
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Oh girls...that SUCKS!!
Kymberlyn, "it's your life on the line"??? HOW RUDE! Well ya know what? You tell those men to deflate their egos, it IS your life and you must do what YOU feel is right and feel comfortable with.Lauren, I'm so sorry. It's so hard when your kids are sick, worse that the timing just bites.
Nicki, YAY glad on the good news. I hope justice is served. I still never get how people can feel better about themselves by putting ohters down. That's pathetic.
Shirley, I'm glad you got an apology.
Dani YUCK and PHOOEY...not another doctor!
Bin, the medical run around SUCKS!
Otter, you're hauling a whole sh**load of suckiness!
I think I'm in the right place. My "stuff" right now is this....I have a wonderful, adoring, loyal, almost perfect bf who makes me feel loved. He waited and was a good friend for three years while I figured out that I want more. Well..guess what? The man LOVES his beer. *sigh* I was just flabbergasted to see the direction this convo has taken. A sign maybe? Can I deal with someone drinking themselves silly once a week? Will it get better, will it get worse? I just dunno.......
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Thanks to everyone for your support. Its something I have been dealing with for along time and Im glad I was able to do something - and move on. For me it has been pretty darn sucky.
Shirley: I didnt see a post from you so please check in. Im hoping today is a better day and that your husband came to his senses.
Miss Lolli: I think there are alot more people out there who love their beer than they would admit.
Kym: That wasnt a nice thing for that doctor to say to you. You are still in the decision making mode - and need all the information to make the rights choices for you! Can you see another onc? Can you go back to the surgeon and pick his brain a bit more? This whole thing sucks big time.
Cristine: Hahaha horses head next to them. You made me laugh.
Dani: Gald the drain is out and you healed quickly. Seems like you have been through some sucky stuff lately. Hope this helps you!
An adenoma is a collection of growths (-oma) of glandular origin. Adenomas can grow from many organs including the colon, adrenal, pituitary, thyroid, etc. These growths are benign, although over time they may progress to become malignant, at which point they are called adenocarcinomas. Though adenomas are benign, they have the potential to cause serious health complications by compressing other structures (mass effect) and by producing large amounts of hormones in an unregulated, nonfeedback-dependent manner (paraneoplastic syndrome).
OK - gonna go out and try to enjoy the world today. A big that sucks to all that need one.
Nicki
If you want to know your past - look into your present conditions. If you want to know your future - look into your present actions.
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Shirley,
Your dh is acting like an A**HOLE! I know... That is just UNCALLED for! We are NOT hypochondriacs, we had CANCER, and after a dx like that, we are forever changed, and SCARED, yes, ALWAYS FEARFUL about having a recurrence, or another 'complication' from the freakin' tx to get rid of the CANCER!!! Believe me, Leukemia isn't just an se or a 'complication'...My dad was an alcoholic, I think because he was in WWII and it really affected him, seeing his pals die, and shooting at other human beings, because they were the enemy and it was KILL or BE KILLED! I know that he went through HELL, but that doesn't excuse how he treated us, or the HELL that we lived with, growing up in that kind of environment. I would be afraid if I 'acted up', just being a kid, because then he would start drinking, and he'd say it was our fault because we weren't PERFECT....
my dh has been acting up lately, and has just been really mad at me
but, since we talked and I promised to just suck it up and SMILE... he's being better, but still I know that he doesn't understand. You know, after my primary care dr. appt. (I go by myself, cause he wants things to be NORMAL...so do I....GRRR...), he got mad at me because I tried to tell him some of the things I discussed with my dr., and one of them is that I will have to have another trans vaginal u/s, because I have fibroid tumors, and because I am taking Tamoxifen, which can make them grow, and which can cause Uterine cancer, and other nasty ca... Anyway, he didn't want to hear anything, so I stopped telling him. When my drs. office called to tell me that they were scheduling the u/s, I wasn't home, so he answered the phone... when I got home, THAT is when he got mad! He said "I didn't know you have to have some kind of u/s..." I said... YES, but since he didn't want to know about it.... you know, MEN!! Last night I mentioned it again, and he said, "Well, I was just worried about you..." He DIDN'T SOUND worried, he just sounded MAD!
I know, Shirley, because I am sick of all these dr. appts., and tests, and LE therapy, my therapist told me this is as good as it gets, and I have MAN hands, and I just had another tattoo, and my chest hurts, and I wish I had never started this breast reconstruction crap, because it is NEVER finished....
Sorry for all the bitches.... once I got started, I couldn't stop...
Maybe I'll call you later.... If you are going to be home.
Harley
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A big That Sucks to all who need it (sorry, I didn't take notes and can't remember very many posts).
Shirley - Good job on setting your dh straight. Mine has a tendency to say things that hurt me, he apologizes for it because he didn't really mean it and then he turns around and does it again (he does this when he's not drinking). He doesn't drink often, but has no control when he does which I tell him is still being an alcoholic (can't stop once he starts). I don't like him at all when he's drinking, but am thankful he doesn't do it often. Living with a man you love but sometimes just don't like is frustrating. Hope everything turns out OK for you healthwise. BC has turned us all into hypochondriacs for very good reason!
Nicki - Sucks about the lost laptop. You're right, it would've been a totally different story if YOU left the laptop. At least he was trying to do something nice for you, even if he did have a major brain fart.
Harley - Sucks that dh is expecting you to act "normal." What is normal? Mine kind of does the same thing to me. I saw the PS yesterday and he asked me how it went, but when I started telling him the details of the visit I could see his eyes glaze over. . .maybe I should just start saying "fine" but then he would get mad if something came up and was a surprise to him. Thank goodness we can come here and vent to people who understand!
Dani - Glad you got the drain out and are doing somewhat better. Hope the adrenal stuff turns out to be nothing. You've got major suckiness and deserve the award for the week.
Well, here's my suckiness. . .saw the PS yesterday and she debrided the wound and said it would be "at least" another month before it is healed which is exactly what she told me when I saw her 2 weeks ago. She went pretty deep with the debriding and now that I'm getting some sensation back in the breast, it hurts pretty bad. Then I asked her about the goose egg in my upper abdomen and she said that it will probably stay like that because it's where the muscle turned during the ped tram. I asked if my stomach would get any tighter and she said not really. She says it will go down a little more because there's still some swelling but not much more. I was so disappointed. One of the things I expected to be a bright side to all this crap was a flat stomach. Granted, it looks a lot better than it did, but it is by no means flat. Guess I'd better get off my butt and start dieting and exercising. . .yeehaa! The final thing she told me was that she thought I wouldn't need a very big implant to get a match when she does my lift. I'm still trying to figure out how I feel about that one. I liked the idea that everything would be natural with the flap and now she tells me I'll need an implant to achieve the same fullness she created with the flap. Not much I can do about it now since I do want them to match. I'm going to have to start reading up on implants now so at least I can understand that procedure a little better. Wasn't expecting it, so it just sucked.
Thanks for the vent. Hope everyone has a less than sucky weekend.
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Okay, I'm back and I'm fine. I'm going to try to respond to everyone.
Sue, that sucks about wearing the sleeve. I used to never wear mine. But now I do (I'm lying..I don't have it on right now) unless I'm going out of the house. I need a new one. Mine is so picked and looks horrible. Good luck on getting rid of the swelling WHATEVER might be causing it.
Crazydaisy, hope your mammo went well and was painless...Yeah, right! I go for mine Monday. I've canceled several times because something would come up.
ICanDoThis/Sue, cancer didn't make me a saint. It made me meanER!
Why don't "professionals" listen to us? That really sucks. Who wants a hole in their boob? And one that hurts! Please do come back. Oh, how I remember my girls getting their driver's license. The first time they drove alone was to do a small errand...run to the convenient store for bread or something. I was a nervous wreck! We won't talk about wrecks (the real kind).
ICanDo, come back often. We need new members. The more sucky stuff we hear about the better we feel. You know, misery loves company. LOL Just kidding. But sh*t happens and sometimes we just need to get it off our chests
Awww, Otter, how well many of us know about sucky personal stuff. I agree with Rockthebald..all five suck! Hope you feel better.
Bren, not having a team of doctors really sucks. What does your onc mean by only "treating sick people?" WTH? "My little 1 cm IDC, LCIS and DCIS didn't count cause I didn't have chemo." Yes it does count! I don't have a "team" anymore. I just see my onc and my primary. I see the onc every six months. And I get to get squished Monday...mammo. At least it's only one boob! LOL
Bren, it think it's time for us to kick some a$$!
Nicki, thank you so much for your kind words. I love your little graphics. I love the "Stupid Factory" one.
Yeah, if we had left a computer in the basket we'd have hell to pay. I have to admit I did leave something (can't remember what it was
) in the basket before. But it wasn't a computer!
And, like I said before, I'm not obssessing over my WBC. I just want to make sure nothing's going on or if something is going on, what is it. Stupid men! They're brains are in their....well, you know where.
And as for as those "parody people"......in the words of Bush....bring'em on..or was it...bring it on
Kerry, for now I'll not be having a hole dug. If I do it'll be with our darling animals out back. LOL After all, he's just a dog I'm letting hang around. Hmmm..I could get him a dog house. Throw him in there when he's BAD!
Awww, Dani, I'm so sorry you had to put up with this crap. Kids shouldn't have to. We've got three daughters and I would hate to think they'd have to "bail" us out. I've seen it before with my dh's uncle. Their girls had to help them out, and it's not fair. Once our children grow up and have their own family the shouldn't have to worry about Mom and Dad.
My dh had no excuse. He just liked the feeling.
I cannot believe you are facing yet ANOTHER problem. When does it all end? I hated doctor's appointments. I'm sure you are so sick and tired of seeing doctors. Having tests. I'll be thinking and praying for you. Hell, I need a list so I can write down all the girls who need our prayers. Hang in there, sweetie. I'd be eating my Xanax. LOL
Lauren, darn! Good timing, huh? Seems like kids always "pick" the best times to get sick.
Wow, Kimberlynn! How dare a doctor do that. How UNPROFESSIONAL! You DO have the right to decide what treatment you want or don't want. Geez!
Miss Lolli/Lori, yep sort of an apology. But he cooked last night (he didn't DARE ask me what we were having for dinner), and BROUGHT it to me. Does that sound like guilty feelings are what? LOL I'll have to yell at him more often!
Lori, as far as bf drinking...watch him. Not everyone who has a few beers turn out to be an alcoholic. If he's drinking too much once a week...CAUTION! Perhaps I'm paranoid.
Harley, I'm so sorry you are still going through this. I'm very sorry you were raised in one of those homes where the stupid dad was a stupid idiot because of the stupid addiction. There will be light at the end of the tunnel, Harley. It doesn't seem so right now. My dd had a transvaginal US and she said it wasn't painful. Hang in there, sweetie.
Well, I suppose I should do something constructive like cleaning the kitchen. Hope all have a less sucky weekend.
You gals are great!
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Sheila, darn that sucks! You shoulda gotten a flat stomach. Go back and demand she make it flat! LOL
I hope that infection heals before one month. We'll keep our fingers crossed. Take something for pain. That sucks!
Shirley
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Wow, I go away for two days and all hell breaks loose!!!
Otter--family stuff sucks. Sorry you have to be the realistic one.
Dani--your whole medical situation sucks!! You have been through so much, enough is enough!!! Hope the adrenal thing turns out to be nothing. The waiting is so hard.
Sheila--being unhappy with your stomach sucks!! These people (doctors) don't realize how it feels to be us--we never wanted to start on this journey of all these surgeries, it's not like we chose to have a cosmetic procedure, you know? Hope your results improve more than your surgeon thinks they will!!
Shirley--I am so sorry your husband was acting like a dh--and that doesn't mean dear husband!!!! I'm sorry you were hurt and angry and didn't feel supported. I grew up with an alcoholic father, and it really sucks to live with them. Unpredictable, you can't count on them for anything, never know how the day or evening is going to turn out--but it sounds like you held him accountable for what he said and that is great!!! I am proud of you for doing that!!!!
Nicki--mean people suck. You don't deserve that. Go get 'em!!! Do they know you have the support of a group of women with breast symmetry and hair issues??
Well, I have no bitch today except that I am sure I forgot a lot of people's suckiness--for anyone I forgot, a big that sucks to your crap!!!!! I am well-rested, well-fed (I'll have to eat salads for lunch all next week to make up for all I ate this weekend!!) and ready for work again on Monday.
Hope everyone has a great rest of the weekend.
Love,
Sue
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OH BOY a big that SUCKS for all the sucky stuff!
Friday the 13!!! AH! I should have realized! I went for my recall. The mammo tech who was the same girl as just last week was putting up the previous pictures she took and saying that they mark them L and R so as to not mix up which side. I said "well you can't really mix this this up". She didn't clue in yet till I said again......there is only ONE! There is no other side! WTF! She just did this last week!
The US took forever....over and over and then more focusing on a certain area! I was getting jumpy by then. Then she said to expect a call in a few days from my Doc. CRAP!
To top it all I then did the relay for life from 7pm till 7am. Lots of people and all night campers and all was well till 1030pm and then the monsoons and wind, thunder and lighting like crazy let loose!! We ran like h#ll and flung ourselves into my car.......how many people can you fit in a Vibe????......7! We huddled and quivered till we decided to try to make it to the coffee shop across the way to wait it out. From there the rest of the night rained and stormed and drove most campers home! Well we 7 stuck it out in a wet tent and the back of my car! I am exhausted! So much for friday the 13th!
Hope everyone has had a better weekend!
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Hi Everybody,
Back again. Just had my expanders put in and I am in a lot of pain. They feel like hard plastic discs under my muscles.
Otter, I took 4 rounds of Taxotere and gain 25 lbs. which lasted for 5 months. I thought I had LE because my arms were so swollen I could not even bend them. I was really worried and began wearing my LE sleeve all the time. Well the weight finally came off and no LE! I gained weight mostly in my upper torso and arms. None of my shirts fit. It was awful. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks. All that fluid. Lasix did not even help.
Then my taste came back and I stress ate about my expander surgery and put on 5 more lbs. I was looking at my pictures when I was so swollen and I cannot believe I was that big.
Other than the expander pain I am doing ok. Lortab and Valium are a big help as well as peanut M&M's.
Bra's.....I won't even go there. I need to get a new one but I don't want to spend the money if it won't fit in three months. It has been too hot to wear my prostheses anyway, so i just go topless. I wear loose fitting shirts so it is not as noticeable. At least now, my stomach is no longer bigger than my chest.
Debbie
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Ah yes, this would be me and thats my bitch for the day. Left foot finially healed. Took my dog for a walk and fell down again. This time its my right ankle. Dont think its broke, it hurts but not like the last time. Now I have to figure out what is making me fall all the time!Debbie: Ouch! Having new expanders with pain - sucks! I hope that medication keeps working and relieves the discomfort. I had expanders and then implants so I can so relate to what your going through.
Viv: Well your Friday the 13th sounds - ummmm! Sucky. Hope that US comes out ok. I say dont wait for the doctor to call you. I would call tomorrow and try to get a reading. I think it stinks we have to wait when these issues pray on our minds. I went for a bone density test a few months back that was in the breast cancer center at my local hospital. I had a bil. mastectomy so no more mammograms for me. My name was written in and it said what it was for and the receptionist still asked me if I was there for a mammogram. I got so upset, I said to her "for working in a breast cancer center you sure are insensitive to someone who is going through breast cancer treatment." That was one of my "im not gonna take this anymore days."
Sue: Gosh it seems like along time since I have talked to you. Did you ever figure out how to post pictures? You made me laugh out loud. Breast symmetry and hair issues - that cracked me up. This is a mean group of women without compassion. But! Ignorance is bliss - and Im ignoring them all. What I think is funny, is that they stalk and follow me everywhere I go - I just didnt know I was that good!
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Good morning all,
Everyone's suckiness sucks. Monday morning is coming and on one level, that always sucks.
Debbie--sorry you are in pain. Did your ps give you any drugs? If so, you should take them!! If not, you should ask for them!! I think I read somewhere that a small percentage of women have more intense pain with expanders and need to make sure their complaints of pain don't get dismissed by their surgeons.
Nicki--What is making you fall all the time? I hope you figure it out!! I also hope you've been able to pamper yourself this weekend while "resting that ankle"
.....no, I didn't figure out how to post pictures yet. I haven't had time. I will get to it, though.....and yes, you are that good. I read your posts here and on that other thread (yes, I read it every day, just don't post over there) and you are really that good. That stuff is not happening on this site, right? Just a private one? I really hope it's not happening here, although it makes me sick to think of it happening anywhere. There's way too much misery in the world, and plenty to go around, without that kind of hurtful stuff happening around sites where people are trying to support each other through horrible scary times like this. I hope you get satisfaction and justice.Viv, waiting with you and praying everything turns out fine...I am so sorry you are having to go through this.
Now, listen to my crap. My youngest son, Sam, has been out of drug rehab for one year today. He's doing great. About two weeks after he got home, he found a girlfriend, Tielle. She was and is totally different then the kind of girl he used to be attracted to and she has helped him turn his life around. She wants to be an actress. Not Hollywood, but Broadway. She loves the stage, and she is beautiful and talented. She is moving to Pittsburgh to live with her grandmother and because her high school theatre director has theatre connections in Pittsburgh. She is going to community college up there while she tries to get a job in theatre. Sam will follow her in the fall to start school up there in community college as well. None of this is sucky so far. The sucky thing is this--she is leaving this morning, driving by herself from Ft. Worth Texas to Pittsburgh. I will miss her so much, and my son is just heartbroken at the prospect of spending the summer without her. He's 19 and she's 18, and I know I'm setting myself up for potential disappontment when I say this but I would be so happy if they stayed together forever. So for the next couple of days if anyone has prayers to spare, pray for Tielle's safety. She is a fine young woman, and she has had a lot of guidance about how to keep herself safe, but there are crazy people in the world, and she holds my son's heart in her breathing. I guess it's just my weak human nature, but things seem so good between them and I don't want anything bad to happen to her, and I get scared.
Guys, time to wake my dh for church and Father's Day festivities---I'll check in later.
Love,
Sue
P.S. Where is TRACI?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?
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Wow! A big storm blew through our area and knocked me off the computer for awhile. Thats my whine - I had a whole big post written and lost it.
Sue: They read what I say everywhere, and then make fun of me - it wouldnever happen on this site. The moderators make sure this place stays safe and supportive. Sure sucks about your son being separated from his girlfriend.
OK - off to clean up after the storm.
Nicki
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Nicki,
That really sucks. I'm sorry that happened or happens to you--you don't deserve that. All I ever see you do is be supportive--even when you bitch, it's justified and not whining. You can complain about it anytime here, vent away. Those people are probably just jealous because people love you everywhere you go and they don't have that. Not excusing their behavior at all, I just worked in a male-dominated field for thirty years and learned that what helps me with other people's bad behavior was to try to figure out what was motivating it.
Happy cleaning. I'm going to the grocery store and the fabric store, then back home to get ready for work tomorrow.
Love,
Sue
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