Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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Sue - Glad to hear you had a relaxing time. I'll keep your son's gf in my prayers and hope you get your wish that they stay together forever. It's so good to see your kids with someone they love. My youngest dd is engaged to a wonderful young man that is obviously head over heals in love with her (she's the same way about him). We're so happy for them. On the other hand, my oldest dd is engaged to a self-centered jerk who happens to be the father of my grandson. I don't think she really loves him, I think she just wants to because of her son. I wish she could find someone who truly makes her happy. . .it's not this guy.
Viv - Waiting sucks. Hope it turns out to be nothing.
Debbie - Sorry to hear you're in pain. That sucks. Take your meds and eat the M&M's. . .a little chocolate always makes me feel better!
Nicki - Falling sucks. Do you feel dizzy or anything before you fall? Gotta get that one figured out so you don't keep hurting yourself. I'm not sure I follow the other people thing, but if they're being mean to you then that just sucks. I love your posts and you help a lot of people.
Don't have too much suckiness going on today. Everyone is gone so I'm spending some nice quiet time to myself. The boob still hurts but seems to have eased up some. I think most of the pain was caused by her digging around in there on Friday. I see the med onc tomorrow for the blood draw, physical exam and "see you again in 6 months" visit. Wish I liked him better.
Take care all
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Shirley,
I hope your dh is acting better, since you put him in his place. What he said was WRONG! You are scared, and worried, so he should just SUPPORT you, and give you HUGS, not call you a hypochondriac! MEN!
Sue,
My Dad was an alcoholic, so I know where you are coming from. I was never close with him, because for no reason, he would just go on a drinking spree, and when he got drunk, he would get violent, verbally abusive, even though he didn't hit me.Viv,
Sorry you had a rainy Friday 13th! That sucks! Hope your u/s turns out ok... It SUCKS waiting for test results!!
Debbie,
Sorry you are in so much pain, those expanders SUCK! I know you'll be so glad when you can get them OUT, and have your exchange surgery, so you have boobs again.
Nicki,
I am so sorry that you fell again! You aren't feeling dizzy at all, are you? My dh says that I am a clutz, 'cause I'm always bumping into walls, tripping on invisible things, or dropping things and breaking them! Nicki, I hope it's not on bc.org that you are experiencing these people making fun of things that you say! That SUCKS! We would NEVER make fun of you!! Feel free to vent away, any time! That is what this thread is all about! Some people can be really mean!
Sue,
I'll be praying for your son and especially for his gf, out on her own, and SO YOUNG! She sounds like a very sweet girl, and I hope that they will be happy together forever!!
DOH! I see there is a WHOLE other page, with comments, and I missed it!! I'll read and try to post more later!!
Hope everyone's day wasn't too sucky!!
Harley0 -
OK, this recovering alcoholic (and 25 yr AlAnon member) is trying not to help anybody who is living with an active alcoholic, because their behavior just SUCKS.
Viv - your story was one of the first I read when I got on this board - I thought my breast center sucked, but yours is worse.
I met with the nurse practitioner for the practice where I'm having a colonoscopy next week. I am so FRIGHTENED that they will accidentally give me sedation, even though I'm having the procedure done under a general. I feel like I should make one of those GSleeves and write NO PreOp Sedation on it. I bought the prep supplies. I am not going to enjoy this.
I am also a little frightened about the results. I haven't been doing well with test results lately - 2 years ago, I was diagnosed with osteoporosis and osteopenia - and I was an athlete as a young women, from a family of college and professional athletes. And 6 months ago, breast cancer. And my brother just being diagnosed with prostate cancer. My cholesterol has not been good on any of my pre-op tests.
I should be grateful for the tests that didn't come back back bad - I don't have diabetes or gall bladder problems, and for a fat blond, that's good. Brown boob's abscess is a little better - I keep smearing the hole with antibiotic cream (per surgeon's orders, I finally called Friday afternoon, as it was oozing pus).
But I had a dream about having chemo last night, and I didn't have it for bc. There I said it out loud (sort of).
I'll be better when this is over, but it SUCKS.
Sue from Michigan
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Hi All,
Just wanted to check in with a quick "That Sucks!" for all the suckiness going on, including inconsiderate men, bad/goofy/inappropriate medical personnel, too many appointments/procedures - it all SUCKS!!
I have very little suckiness today actually. One very small thing - my dh gave me my 6th Neupogen shot this morning at 6 AM before he left for work. Later, I felt a small bump there which hurt a little but didn't look at it. After I took a shower, I looked at myself in the mirror and said "Holy Crap!" because there was a quarter-sized bruise on my stomach. Turns out he hit a small vein (and he's an RN) which bled under the skin. Owie. Good thing it's on my stomach where no one can see it...
I wish this was the most any of us ever had to complain about.
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O.K., I actually did find a slighter bigger suckiness. For the last three nights, I have been waking up in sweat (I'm usually cold) and need to crank up the a/c. Is this the "you'll probably have an early menopause" part? Oddly, I have also been spotting on/off for the past 2 weeks as well - "so, body, can we make up our minds puhlease?!"
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Cristine,
Sorry about the night sweat...it's yuck, isn't it? I am having the whole chemopause thing too, it sucks!!
Sue, I think it's normal to dream about and feel vulnerable to every type of test. Your body has turned on you more than once now, and it's one of those darkness-of-the-night thinking things, you know? Here's wishing no more dark thoughts for you. Long time ago when I was little my Mom used to say those dark thoughts come from the enemy--somehow that still comforts me. Hope today is better.
Off to walk, and then to work. Hope everyone has a great Monday!
Love,
Sue
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A big that sucks to everyone with more tests to go through, lousy SEs, early menopause, crappy dr offices, bad dreams and every other crummy thing that goes along with this blasted disease.
I'm off to the med onc today for the bloodwork, physical exam and "see you in six months" visit. Oh yeah, don't forget the weigh in, my favorite part! Although he's very good, I'm not too crazy about this guy (very little personality), glad I don't have to see him often.
Hope everyone has a less than sucky Monday!
Traci -- Where are you???
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Sue, hoping that your colonoscopy comes out "clean" (no pun intended..hehehe). This is gonna be one of those good tests = nothing found!
Cristine, I was SO hot during chemo. I didn't suffer from hot flashes while going through menopause, but I sure did with chemo! I'd keep the heat really low. Everyone else was freezing..not me.
Those darn shots do not feel good. You did get an OWY!
Sheila, weigh ins....don't even talk about it. I gained FIVE pounds since I saw my primary. I AM going on a diet. However, I did celebrate coming home from my mammo with an ice cream cone...my bad! The tech did a digital one because I was talking about my dense leftover breast and the other mammo not finding my cancer in my right breast...so she did a digital. I was so happy to get out of there!
And, I just got back my bloodwork from my primary. My WBC and neutrophils are back to normal!!! YEA!! But the sucky part is my Vitamin D is down to 35.9. It was 42.9. I need to call my onc because she said anything in the 30s is too low and that she prescribed the prescription D. Not another prescription. Perhaps I'll just up my dose.
Sue, I know you are your ds will miss his gf. That really sucks. Being in love and being separated is very difficult.
Nicki, I think you're just clumsy...LOL. Watch me fall down the stairs (for saying that) and break my butt..nah, to padded and to fat. Take care of your ankle! Perhaps the other ankle isn't strong enough yet.
Viv, my dd got married on a Friday 13. As soon as I got into the church the bottom fell out! There were guests staying at the Holiday Inn at the beach and they couldn't even come to the wedding. There was a tornado warning/watch. They gathered the people up and put them in a "safe" place. However, the were able to come to the reception. Friday was their 10th anniversay. They've been together since they were 16 yo (now 19 years!).
Hope everyone will have a "decent" day. No suckiness is allowed!
Shirley
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Hello Hello and a big "that sucks" to anyone who needs one. What can I say, home late from work, husband is way too talkative. So Im popping in to say hello.
Haha Shirley: I think Im am clumbsy! And just wont admit it.
Nicki
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Nicki-
Before my bc dx, I fell on TWO separate occasions while shopping at PetSmart, and I am not sure if I just was too clumsy, or didn't pick up my feet, or something...but they had pallets of stuff just sitting in the middle of the floor, and when I crossed over where these pallets were sitting there, on pieces of cardboard, or something, I fell... and I HATE the feeling that you are falling, and you know it, but you can't stop... I got up and looked around, hoping no one saw me. I was so embarrassed! But, I STILL wonder if there was anything else going on, besides being clumsy?
Harley
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Shirley,
Glad to hear that your wbc is back to 'normal'!! YEA! Glad that your mammo. was ok... Now you should be good for at least six months on the bloodwork, or a year, on the mammo. right??You really SHOULD treat yourself once in awhile!! That is something to celebrate!!
Oh, I think I am going to have to quit that job... you know, my boss called me yesterday, in a panic, and asked me to work today. I agreed, but said that I can't work ALL DAY, so she asked me to work from 12:00 til 6:00. I got there at 12:00, and she sent me home at 2:30!! It messed up my whole day!! I am looking for another job. Every day, they tell me to do things differently. I don't need this aggravation!!
Traci - where are you? I need your 'bitch slap' video!! My boss and co-workers need to be slapped, I think!!
Hope everyone has a wonderful day tomorrow, with NO SUCKINESS!
Harley
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Harley, your boss sounds like such a loser (or "lew-HEWzer" as my son would say, in an imitation of Jim Carrey) -- I think people who are such poor managers are so bitchy to cover up the fact (especially from themselves) that they are so totally clueless. I hope you can get away from there! That's the kind of boss/business that is bound to fail, and if you stick around for their failures, they'll just keep trying to blame it all on you!
Sorry, that sucks!
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Sheila, sorry you don't like your onc. That sucks.
Nicki, sorry your husband talks too much.
Harley, sorry your boss is so clueless...you could probably manage the store a lot better than her!
It's not a real bitch, I guess but I came home from work and crashed for three hours in the recliner..woke up just in time to make dinner and get my clothes ready for tomorrow, I feel like I didn't even have any time off.
Restfully,
Sue
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Sue,
Sorry you work so hard, and you have to crash... I know, the fatigue from chemo stayed with me for awhile after my last tx. I did ok after the first two, but halfway thru, I just got SO TIRED! I am glad that I wasn't working then. I don't know how you ladies do it! You are amazing!!
Ann, you are SO right! That shop has been there for years, (now I forget how long!!) but with those prices for the clothes, I don't know how they stay in business, because I can't even buy any of those clothes, WITH my 30% employee discount!
I don't mean to be so sensitive... I wouldn't mind her correcting me today, as much, if she had maybe tried to train me from the beginning... I've been there a month, and just NOW they are realizing that I haven't a clue as to HOW THEY REALLY WANT THINGS DONE?? Sorry, but it amazes me... it has not been busy ANY of the days I have been scheduled to work, either. So you would think SOMEONE could give me some tips... but, no, EVERY DAY they tell me to do things differently, so I am very confused now...Hope everyone has a nice, non sucky day tomorrow!
Harley
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Shirley - Glad your counts are normal and your mammo went well. Know you're glad to get that behind you.
Sue - Sorry you feel so tired. Even though you feel like you missed your time off, naps are so wonderful. I had so many years of not being able to take a nap that now they make me feel like I'm doing something really nice for myself.
Harley - Crappy jobs suck. Hope you can find a new one with a less than clueless boss.
Nicki - At least your dh talks to you. Mine mostly just watches tv and gives me "the look" when I interrupt whatever re-run he's watching.
Here's my suckiness for the day. I saw my onc today (sorta). This appt was originally scheduled on 6/2 but they called and told me the onc wouldn't be available that day. They said I could see his nurse practioner that day but not him. I told them since I only see him every 6 months I probably should reschedule for a date when he's available. So that was today. Well, I end up seeing the NP anyway. She comes in and does the questions and physical exam. She was the most timid medical person I've ever dealt with. She barely touched me through the entire exam. I wanted to tell her that I'd have to have lumps the size of a golf ball for her to feel them with no more pressure than she was applying. She made me feel uncomfortable, like she didn't want to touch me. I think she's way too timid to be dealing with cancer patients, because we tend to be anything but timid. Anyway, after she was done he came in and told me how healthy he thought I looked, ask if I was having any problems and said see you in 6 months. I'm going to look for a new onc. I wasn't crazy about this guy from the beginning but thought I could deal with him every 6 months because supposedly he's good. I definitely can't deal with this NP he's hired.
One bright spot in the day. . .I haven't gained any weight since I last saw him. Pretty good since I've been mostly laying around for the past 2 months. Now if I could just work on actually losing some.
Take care all
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Nicki, please watch your step for the next couple of days.
Harley, I forgot to tell you that I am VERY glad you have come back to us. And, yeah, you should look for another job. Who needs that freaking aggravation. Do you have a nice book store there where you could work the registers...like a Barnes & Nobles?
Sue, next time you crash DO NOT FIX DINNER! If no one else will cook, buy a bunch of yucky TV dinners. I KNOW I'm tired if I take a two hour nap. I've done that after grandkids have been here over the weekend. LOL
My little suck...Looks like I need to call my insurance company. A woman tells me one thing, and they send paper work telling me something else...like how much I owe my LE therapist which is way more than the woman on the phone told me. Plus, it appears they have me billed twice in one day for many of the appointments. This insurance sucks and I hate it! I DETEST it! I LOATHE it! I DESPISE it! I DEPLORE it! Is that enough verbs? ARGGHHHH!
Shirley
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Hey girl friend I know it has been a rollor coaster ride for you but I can't really say I know how you feel but after you get past your feelings and you are ready to get on with your life I will say get your beauty needs delt with and pamper yourself . Your still have a lot of options as long as you are alive and trust me like any other women we are all suffering in one way or another I give all of my simpathy but most of all I will give you advise as one woman to a next just pamper your self and enjoy your self as much as possible and trust me you will feel better even if it is for one day get a massage get your hair and eyelashes done and anything else that you could do to make every minute matter .
signed with love from me and all of us at ps baguettes cosmetology inc .
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Um, that one went by awfully fast...
Sam408/Sheila, your bitch reminded me. I've been going to the same GYN doc for about 25 years for my annual exams. He always did a CBE and I thought he was doing it thoroughly. (Come to find out, of course, that he couldn't feel my IDC the first time I pointed it out to him. But that's ancient history by now.)
Sorry, I digress. So, at my request, my primary care doc refers me to the Breast Health Center that's affiliated with the NCI cancer center/university hospital where I was dx'd and am being treated right now. My onco surgeon is a woman. The very first CBE she did on me, I was stunned. She used a pattern that was so thorough, she felt areas of my chest that my GYN had never touched. And I could tell she was concentrating--she had sort of a yoga look in her eyes, looking away as she felt every inch of my chest and armpits with her fingers and hands.
Well, I figured maybe my surgeon was just special. (She is, of course.) Then I met my medical onco--who is another woman. Her CBE was even more thorough than the surgeon's. She used a different pattern, and was feeling areas of my chest wall that I've never thought to check, and it took forever. Oh, and she does a CBE at each appt, even during my regular chemo visits.
Anyway, here's an old, senior GYN doc who established the dozen-person OB/GYN practice he's in; and he does a truly sorry breast exam compared to these two young women docs. I say that not just because my old GYN missed my IDC--he just skips over huge areas that I now know need to be checked, and the pressure is all wrong, and he hurries too fast.
I don't know if there is a message there. In any case, it's not a sucky message. It's kind of enlightening. Makes me feel good about the field of medicine.
otter
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I have always said if you want a great exam, get a surgeon. Gotta trust those hands! Besides, as surgeons, they are LOOKING for something to operate on. LOL
That said, my pcp is a surgeon and gave a BAD exam. the Gyn I went to was worse--and the pelvic was a joke. No way that guy felt anything. Guess he wanted it to jump out and bite his hand. He also missed my bc, but then, so did I.
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My BS does the most thorough CBEs and she's also a women. Maybe a little more concerned for us, who knows. But this NP was a woman who appeared to be very uncomfortable doing this exam. I think she needs to be working in a different environment where she doesn't have to perform this pretty personal exam.
BTW, I think it sucks to have someone use this thread and our suckiness to promote their business. We're all capable of figuring out where to get pampered if that's what we feel we need.
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LOL Dotti - They're looking for something to operate on! Never thought of it that way.
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OK...I have a bitch....
sofiacharm -
Um, not sure what you wanted to say, but I can't get a massage since I have active cancer in my lymph system. I don't HAVE hair or eyelashes.....
And as I "get on with my life" my "beauty needs" take a back seat to staying alive!
Get a clue. Don't spout nonsense to people that didn't ask for your beauty advice.
Sheesh
Deb C
Who gets grumpy on chemo day....
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My gyn gives the best breast exam I've ever had. And gives the best gyn exam also. He also does a hemoccult exam have he rams his arms up........However, I had my mammo in March, saw him right after, and found my lump in Dec. But I was doing SBEs, so perhaps I would have caught it sooner.
Shirley
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Hmmm...Deb, I missed it! Probably a good thing!
My bitch...this site is slow as molasses!
Shirley
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Hmmm...Deb, I missed it! Probably a good thing!
Shirley
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Shirley.......my bitch as well....why does this site get sooooo slow every night........that sucks. OTOH......glad to hear your WBC count is back up!
When I got married it was on the 12th......but in the wee hours of the 13th while all the guests were sleeping, someone set the darn hotel on fire!!!! All my guests were too shaken up to go back to sleep so at 4am most left for their long drive home!
My suck.......waiting now .......deja-vu
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Viv, are you still waiting? When are you supposed to find out? That's ridiculous that you didn't get a call yesterday, aren't you just waiting for a call from the doctor? I am so sorry. CALL THEM!! Do you need the horde of bald, asymmetrical women to go to that doctor's office and make him call you? Cause count me in, it ain't nothing for me to whup a doctor's a$$......
Deb, sorry you're grumpy but looks like it was justified...the comment was gone by the time I got here this a.m...
Otter, my GYN (male) does an excellent breast exam but he's relatively young, maybe that has something to do with it. My bs didn't even examine my breasts, she went right to the lymph nodes. Course at the time I had a quite palpable large lump that I had watched, but dismissed as just another fibrocystic change lump--I've had them since i was 15 and bc really didn't feel that different. My sister has them too and before I had my mast I made sure to let her feel the bc...
Off to walk in the dark, and then off to work.
Have a great day!!
Love,
Sue
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Yep - this is just another pop in. I have read all your posts and all I can say is a big "that sucks." Glad I missed that lady whoever she was or whatever she said.
My breast surgeon does the best exam. He is who I trust the most, but now that Im 3 years out - I dont see him anymore.
Catch up with ya all later.
Limpy - aka Nicki
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SUE, yup, I'm waiting.......but after reading your post I immediately picked up the phone and called the doctors office. A lot of good that did! The receptionist just relayed my info in an inner office e-mail to him so, some more waiting. I may need to call in the bald hoards of asymetrical women if this takes to long.
Hope you all have a not to sucky day!
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Viv, just holler. I'm ready to saddle up.
My dh wants to go north, now that summer has unofficially arrived here in the Deep South. Every day, he asks me when do I think I'll be "OK" to drive the 1200-or-so miles to visit my family, all of whom still live in the upper midwest (the way upper midwest). Not yet, I keep telling him... Not quite yet. (It's still just day 14 of my last cycle of Taxotere/Cytoxan, and I still am dealing with some SE's.)
Anyway, your needs trump my SE's, so just let me know and I'll be there--bald, foobless, and ready for action!
otter
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