Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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Somebody come over here and transcribe for me!!
I HATE my job!!
Great news Deb.
I'm keeping up with the suckiness ... just don't post much.
You're all in my thoughts,
Love,
Bren
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Okay girls I do not have time to get caught up right now. I have not posted because I was very very impatiently waiting for my MRI results. They are in spleen - okay , lungs and heart fluid I guess gone no comments on them and ..... Adrenal tumors are B9 adenoma tumors that they are not recommending surgery for at this time have to monitor. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Man I was having the worst waiting from HELL ever this time around. Still need to have my lab results from intestinel infection but am still on antibiotics until July 6th and seem to be improving. They are still making me follow up with diesease and infectious dr whenever the damn reports shows up!
Thanks for all your support couldn't do it without you lovely ladies.
Daniella
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More good news on the "suck thread" YIPPEEEEEE DANI!
I hope this is the beginning of a trend.
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Ok, my bitchiness today is related to just plain laziness. Hot as heck here today. Have an above ground pool in my yard. Did I go swimming? Noooooo! Too lazy to take the solar cover off!
Dani: Having to wait so long suck. But whoo hoo good news for you! Love hearing it.
Bren: we like to call them pompous ass doctors.
Dejaboo: I just love your name and your avatar.
Sheila: Well I bet it felt good to walk outside, but certainly not worth the discomfort afterwards. I cant walk my dog "Mister" cause of my ankle - and I love my walks with him. Hope you feel better soon.
Harley: In a way you are so right. When I read some of the things happening to others here - it certainly puts things back into perspective. Heck most of my whines cant compare to what some of you are going through. But on that particular day it made me feel crazy! Locking myself out of my car cant compare to getting chemo. Doesnt mean I wasnt frantic and close to crying my eyes out. The only thing that stopped me was I still had to work 1/2 day and if I cried, my eye makeup would make me look like a raccoon.
DebC: Your beautiful dammit!
Sue: Thanks for missing me! I pop in and out so much during the week, and get lost sometimes. OK so I say having the sniffles and no nose hairs might win the suckiest of the day award! I had genetic testing. Its actually interesting when they do a background. I found out lots of things I didnt know before. BTW, just forget that stuff. Its just garbage and the best thing to do is ignore it. The moderators took care of it - I see that thread is gone. Life is too short!
Directions for Sue - To copy and paste!
Left click you mouse and glide down over the words you want to copy. They will become highlighted. Right click over the highlighted area. And click paste. I have always been computer challenged, but once you learn this, it becomes addictive lol.
Felicia: Im waving to you.
Diane: Hope your having a good day.
OK - dinner time. I got my evaluation today. It was a good one. Got a raise, so I guess its ok to be lazy.
Nicki
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"I can't walk my dog "Mister"....
ROFL...I always thought you were talking about your husband when you said you took Mister for a walk LMAO LMAO LMAO...thanks for the laugh Nicki!
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Peggy - so good to see you. You just made me laugh out loud too.
Nicki
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Yay, Dani!!!!!!!!! I was thinking, you had already filled your quota of bad news and were not allowed to get any more!!!!!!!!
(too bad the universe doesn't really care about THAT rule very often, but... maybe just this once!)
Hi to all, hope nothing sucks too bad,
What will NOT suck is if my new breast imaging center manages not to lose the mammo films and MRI/US CDs from my previous imaging center, which I hand-delivered this morning... and really delivers them to the radiologist writing the report on the new mammo... fingers crossed...
(can you tell what was sucky about yesterday and today????)
Love to all,
Ann
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Hi Ladies,
Sorry for all of the sucky things that are happening to everyone.
Traci, Insurance Sucks!!!
Diane, Dolly is a DOORKNOB!!
Lisa, Men, Honestly!!!!
Deb C, That is GREAT news!!! Cannot beat that!!!
Dani, WOW woman!!! You have been through too much.
Nicki, I just love the photo of Mister, what a sweet heart. I love his face.
Hope everyone has less sucky stuff happening.
Kerry
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Deb, I LOVE GOOD NEWS! You SO deserve it. Congratulations! I just bet you and dh had a wonderful time shopping. We need a rocking chair or something on our front porch. We have a swing which one of my DDs love when she comes to town to visit.
Wow, Lisa, what a wimp of a "man." However, the insurance does sound pretty good. LOL Dogs are much better company. And pugs are just the cutest.
Cristine, GOOD that you said that during a meeting! Let'em have it!
Nicki, HAHA! Sounds like something I'd do. If I don't take my keys RIGHT out and put it in my purse I would most likely leave it in the ignition and lock the door. One of my friends has a great idea. She had an extra key made just for the door so that if she gets locked out she can open the door. Of course she doesn't keep the extra key on her key ring. I need to do the same.
Oh, yeah, your dh talking about how life's an adventure with you. TOO FUNNY! Yep, he needs to go on an adventure and look for a new puter for you.
And, Nicki, congratulations on the raise. Are you sure they don't know your an absent minded clutz?
Rock, I loved your poem also. I'm not so artsy.
Sheila, at least you got off your butt. I think that's wonderful. Sorry about the sore abs. Yep, the treadmill would be a smarter thing to do right now. PLEASE ORDER ME TO GET ON MINE! I'm going to show my grandson how he can use the treadmill take his cars and roll them all over the place. I could set up the incline and they could roll right down for him. Great toy!
Sue, sorry you don't have any hairs in your nose. Shot, mine grew back just fine. I'm like a man. I have to cut them. LOL Embarrassing. Are women supposed to have hair hanging out their nose. Or is this an old age thing. I mean, when I go to the dentist I don't want him to see those hairs. However, he's supposed to be looking at my teeth!
Aw, Bren, sorry that your job sucks. At least you come around and let us know you're still "out" there.Dani, wow, what wonderful news! Almost worth the wait? Just sorry you still have to go to ANOTHER doctor. I hate going to doctors!
Hope everyone has a super unsucky rest of the day!
Shirley
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Thanks for the warm welcome back everybody. Shirley, your nose hair comment cracked me up.
Deb, I'm glad you are feeling better. Dani....sorry girl......everybody else, I don't have the freaking energy to write everything down but sorry about your suckage. The good news is good though. I forgot the new girl's name and I can't go back a page...(that sucks!) anyway, welcome to the bitch thread. While good news is always welcome....bitch on sister, we are here to listen and for you to make our crap not so bad!!!
Anybody live with Daddy Long Legs? (Spiders for you urban girls!) I am while I babysit my sister's house that's in the middle of the freaking hills!! Nature is for the birds. Good grief! It SUCKS!!!!
I found out the state of TX has a "we'll insure anybody" hotline. For only $978 monthly, I can get insurance with only a $1,000 deductible. Woo Hoo! WTF??? Can anybody say almost a mortgage payment????? I'll let y'all know what happens.
I hope everybody's night is not to bad!!!!
Hugs everybody,
Traci
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Nicki,
I didn't mean to say that anybody's sucky things are not valid, because they are ALL valid, and deserve a 'THAT SUCKS'!Ann,
I hope they don't lose your films! I hate having to depend on all these incompetent medical professionals, and others who may just be over paid "go-fers" who really don't care that they are transporting VALUABLE MEDICAL INFORMATION...
Say, I noticed that your dx date, 3/9 is almost the same as me... I had my mammo on 3/8, and my gyn dr. called me and told me that my bc was 2.5 cm, and it "LOOKED REALLY BAD!"... well, it still WAS bad, but it was .8 cm, and she really didn't need to scare me like she did. My actual dx date is 3/20, which is when my surgeon gave me the news, but the biopsy was on 3/15... The Ides of March!
Shirley,
You are TOO funny! about the nose hairs!! Ha... I have CHIN hairs, and it really SUCKS!!I think that using the treadmill for toy cars would at least be a much more FUN way to use that instrument of torture!!
So here is my latest news... I got my blood test results from my cholesterol test, and my cholesterol is HIGH! it was 217 total cholesterol, but my HDL is 58, which isn't TOO bad... but STILL! I am not eating much of anything, and now I'm having dangerous borderline cholesterol levels again.
Hope everyone has a very un sucky day tomorrow!
Harley
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And a happy THAT SUCKS to all!
Ann - I hand walked mammo films to a second opinion, and carefully left a preaddressed mailer. When I came back to meet with the rad onc, the receptionist said, oh you're ... and then went to the floor of her coat closet, where she had stuffed my films and forgotten to mail them. Writing that story reminds me, I need to call to make sure that they sent the slides back to the original breast center.
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Great suckiness of the day is that we have to take down the huge willow in the front yard - it's lost 2 branches in the last few bad stgorms, and the rest of it is infested with carpenter ants. It breaks my heart -- it was planted when our house was built back in the 1930s, and the three of us had to hold hands to span the trunk. We have a 12 foot baby willow nearby, and will plant a couple of new trees, but, the willow was part of the reason we bought the house. Sniff... Oh, yeah, and it's costing us $1000 to have the tree taken down. Double sniff.
Well, had colonoscopy today. The prep wasn't that bad, except drinking 64 oz of liquid in two hrs is not good. My poor stomach has filed a complaint. There were a few small polyps, unlikely to be anything. Results available Monday.
I wore a GSleeve, because I had it under a general - see the lymphedema thread for more info. The nurses thought it was a great idea (they use badges), and wrote down the web site info.
Lunch when I got home tasted so good.
I didn't have cholesterol levels taken in the pre-op blood work, but everything else was much better than last pre-op. I'm down 25 lbs since lumpectomy, so evidently eating well and exercise work. Darn, I was hoping for a different outcome, now I have to keep taking care of myself.
So, anticipating a sucky day tomorrow when I go back to work - I have a major step in my big project to finish tomorrow - but, you know, being a professional is starting to appeal to me again.
I may be getting ready to leave cancerville.
Sue
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Sue-ICanDO This,
What was your secret to loosing the 25 lbs. You said that you ate well, What kinds of foods did you eat/not eat. Just want to know what worked for someone else. I know about exercise, Just cannot do it now. Any tips would be helpful. I lost 4 lbs in 4 weeks when I was back at work, but now I am off again and sitting around eating.
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O.K., let me start with the usual to everyone: That Sucks! And for those without suckiness: Woo-hoo!
Now listen to my crap...Shirley, apparently I spoke too soon in my meeting because I DID NOT have chemo today. My platelets were too low (83 for those interested). What is suckier is that I knew they had dropped on Tuesday after my blood work, but nobody in the onc's office even hinted that it was or could be a problem. I mentioned that because the nurse said it's most likely from the Carboplatin and they will decrease the dose by 20% next time to help avoid it again.
So I'm waiting (Dani, I feel your pain!) until next week when we will try again. But I'm going on Wednesday to have blood work done before, so I can have a heads up. I hate that I have to gear up mentally again.
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Well one thing that doesnt suck is that its Friday and the weekend is almost upon us. But having to go in one more day does suck.
Cristine: Nothing worse than having chemo postponed. Hope those platelets get back to normal soon.
Kerry: Im looking to lose 25 pounds too. Still havent found the magic diet that will work. Exercising alone doesnt seem to help. Guess I need to stop raiding the refrigerator at night. BTW when I first started coming to bco I kept posting "for sale, half black lab, half border collie, all monster." Mister sounds like monster and he answers to both! And when he gets happy, watch out - the border collie comes out and he starts running an agility course around my pool! Oh and did I tell you he thinks he is a big cat? Thats another story lol.
Ann: Hmmm makes me wonder how many of us have had our films lost? That sucks big time.
Sue I Can Do: Sucks you had to lose that huge willow tree. Bet is was a beauty.
Harley: Im just glad to see you posting. Wish there was something I could do to help you get through this most difficult sucky time in your life.
Traci: Oh daddy long legs! Hate them cause even thought they are harmless - they freak me out.
Shirley: Haha you always manage to get me to laugh out loud. So heres the problem. You take your keys out, put them in your purse. You step out of the car without your purse to put your lab coat on and while your doing this the door closes behind you. Yep there are those keys in your purse and your looking at them from the outside in! Only I could do something like that.
OK time to hit the showers. Hope the day isnt too sucky and will catch up with ya later.
Nicki
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Traci,
I am so glad to see you posting again! I am angry about the insurance that will insure 'anybody', because that is Highway robbery!! I just think this SUCKS big time!! There should be some thing less expensive, because .... WOW!! I hope it at least covers EVERYTHING, and no huge deductible..
DH and I are going on a cruise in Feb., and it's a 'step up' cruise, a more luxury type cruise, so we need cancellation insurance... now that I've had bc, we need to buy a rather expensive pkg., with "pre-existing conditions" clause... but I guess that is just part of my NEW NORMAL...Icandothis,
I also hand carried my original mammo films to my general surgeon's office, and I'm glad I did. He may have NEVER received them, if I had trusted someone else to do it! I remember on the day of my biopsy, a nurse from his office brought them over to the hospital, and the hospital is just a couple of blocks from his office... DUH!THAT SUCKS about your willow tree! I think willows are beautiful! Glad that your colonoscopy was pretty uneventful. I think that there should be a better way to do that prep though... it SUCKS!
Glad that your healthy diet and exercise worked for you... I know, it SUCKS that we have to keep worrying about every aspect of our health... we can't slack off, even a little bit, or else, we suffer the consequences!! I have a family hx of heart disease, and high cholesterol levels, so I guess if I don't die from bc, then a heart attack or a stroke will get me... I don't want to take one of those drugs, so I'll try the oatmeal, oat muffins, sucky low fat diet... It's stupid really, because I haven't been eating much of anything lately.
I would like to leave cancerville, too, but I think it's like Hotel California, you can check out, but you can't leave...
Cristine, it sucks that you couldn't have chemo, when you were all set to go, I hope it's a go for next week!
Nicki,
I used to always lock my keys (AND my purse) in my house! I would be able to see them through the side panel of the front door, sitting on the floor, but I couldn't get back in the house, nor could I get into my car, even to just sit and wait for my dh to get home. One day, I went to the neighbors house, because she was not working, as she had just had a baby. We chatted for a bit, while she breast fed him, and I waited for my dh to get home from work. It's a good thing that his job allowed him to be home by 12:30!!! I did call his office, and left a message... hi, I'm sitting on the front steps, waiting for dh to get home... I locked myself out of the house...again, so I'll be here when you get home! The guy who took the message told me that he was laughing all day, thinking of me sitting on the front steps, waiting to get back in the house... and I even had an EXTRA key, but guess where I put it... in my wallet, which was also in my purse!! I am so glad that now, we have a key pad to get into our garage, just in case I lock myself out again. My luck, the electricity will be out that day....
Hope everyone has a suck-free day today!!
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Oh {{{Harley}}}, Sue, Shirley, Traci, Kerri, and all the rest of you, lovely and beautiful, sharing and caring, hurting and wanting and forlorned, beaten down and picked back up and fighting this nasty, crazy disease that just never stops taking from our bodies, minds and souls.....THAT SUCKS the BIG TIME! Man, will this NEVER STOP? WIll we always need somewhere to come to spout off, rant and rave without 'putting someone' else on the defensive, or making them 'uncomfortable' or NOT appearing to 'past' this and unto the new 'US' and happy again?
I should be happy and content with knowing 1) I got a great report from the cardio this week....other than my stress was below women my age, he says. WHy do you think that is, he asks? Hm....I say.... perhaps be/c I'd just finished a winter of mast and chemo and am OUT OF FREAKING SHAPE? Oh, perhaps you're right! S&Cky doctors anyway! I'm 50, have lost a breast, an ovary and a gall bladder and been through chemo in the last 2 1/2 years. Yes, I'm out of shape! I only weight 124 at 5'5" when I normally weigh 135 on a great day when my muscles aren't atrophied!
Mind you, I went to him for tachy heart rate for 3 months and palps that were getting worse and his techy said I had 40% pressure in my legs. That's caused a slew of expensive tests all of which were normal and fine! Come to find out she was NEW (there a 1/2 week before I came in) and the test was 'faulty' as he says!??? So, still no reason for the tachy heart rate and I guess that's MY NEW NORMAL! 110 2) I just got a call from the gyno who I went to at the onco suggestion b/c of vaginal pain so bad, sex is almost non-existent and bleeding/spotting while on arimidex even though I had full periods in sept and dec of last year. He says the TVUS shows a 3mm endo stripe which means, no Ut cancer. Great! Nothing else showed up with the ovaries, cysts or anything, so GREAT! No reason to do a bx, GREAT! Then proceeds to say that he hasn't found anymore on the estrogen treatment for the vaginal dryness and if he doesn't call in teh next 10 days, call and remind him???? WHF?????????????CALL AND REMIND HIM???????? OMG!!!!!!!!!THAT's the FREAKING REASON I came to him!!!!!!!!!!
So, HOW do I now explain to dh that SEX is OUT OF THE QUESTION, UNLESS this doc decides to research the info on the internet or whereever and call me back on the info, B/c I AM NOT CALLING A DOC TO PUT A FIRE UNDER HIS @SS TO DO HIS FREAKING JOB!!!!!!!!!
I'm in tears after the call and just decided to rant on here and then go pull some weeds and hopefully not kill a neighbor or stranger who walks by! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate this CANCER SH*T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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WishIwere.... Think as many homicidal thoughts as you want. I'm right there with you. If you pull up your whole damn yard and heave clods at passersby, you certainly have my support. Better yet, if you drag a hand-rake down the side of your gyno's car, I am there with you too.
Bastard.
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wishiwere,
UGH! That really SUCKS, that your dr would tell YOU to CALL HIM, to remind him to do HIS JOB!! Man, that really makes me MAD!!
Where IS that shovel??My onc told me that it would be ok to use topical estrogen, and then NEVER gave me a Rx for it... another thing I have to ask my onc nurse about next month, when I go see her. At least, I usually get answers from her, and USUALLY, she gives me what I ask for. Now I don't know if that is a good thing or not...
Have you tried Replens? I have been using it, well, I WAS using it, and it 'seemed' to help, but I didn't like the yuckiness of it, because I would have this 'discharge' from the stuff, so I would have to wear a mini pad, just for the first day, after I applied it. or Maybe I was doing it wrong, who knows??
I wish you could come to my house, and pull weeds for me!! lol
If it makes you feel any better, I am STILL waiting TWO weeks later, for my dr. office to call me, to tell me that they have gotten all the necessary referrals/authorizations from my insurance company, for my onc appt and an ophthalmologist appt., since now I am having vision issues... today I called and said... this isn't a ROUTINE eye appt., I am having vision problems.... please call me... well, here I sit...
I also left a message at this dental school, so I can try to get a cleaning and x rays, since my dh lost his dental insurance, so now I have to go to schools to get this done... I hope they call me back... why can't I seem to get a live person today??
So now I am going to the grocery store to get some fish, for my new sucky low fat low cholesterol, low taste diet. NOW I bet these idiots will call me, when I am NOT HOME, and then... do you think they will leave me all the necessary info. ? NO, they will probably not even leave a message.
ok, sorry for rambling...again!! hope everyone has a great weekend, and no suckiness allowed!
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Yes Harley, they'll call while you are out. Have you tried to not push buttons when you call so you don't get the recording but a live person? Sometimes it works, sometimes not. At least an operator would be better than NO ONE
Hate recorders! Yes, I've tried astroglide, made it worse I think. Tried replens for a month and it was worse when we tried after that month. I'm not going to even try it again untill I KNOW it won't hurt! To h*ll with SEX! Wont' make dh happy, but dang it! Perhaps I DO NEED to take him WITH ME TO THIS APPTS! He's a big guy, maybe his PRESENCE and the docs knowing he's got PENT up anger, might put that 'fire' under their arses!
As for me, I'm tired of Doctors, tired of waiting for their beck n' call and WILL NOT do it any more! I'm done, with all of them! I'm thinking I'm going to call the PCP nurse and tell her I need a script for estrogen for this and to Heck with it! Why SHOULD I SUFFER? I've not complained about this sh*t CANCER since it started with
why me' or anything. NOW I'm just a B*tch b/c I didn't I suppose! So be it!
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Wishiwere - I am so sorry to hear that after all that waiting, you are the one left holding the bag. I can't tell you how little respect I have for the medical community in general since I started this cancer fiasco. Guess ignorance is bliss. Give those weeds hell!
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Thanks, will do! If I can get my butt out there! Just so frustrated, even hearing the birds chirp happily is making me mad! Poor little things usually make me smile. Not today
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Ick...too many IOS!!! That sucks, y'all!
Nicki,
My mom is the absolute WORST when it comes to locking her keys in the car. I can remember growing up when she would go outside on a winter morning to warm up the car. She'd start it up and back it out of the garaged into the driveway, set the parking brake, get out, lock and close the doors.......WITH THE CAR STILL RUNNING!!! I can't tell you how many times she did it, but I CAN tell you that my brothers and our good neighbors got very good at breaking in with a coat hanger. She now drives a car that has one of those number key-pads to unlock the door. She doesn't EVER remove her keys in that car. It's a bad habit because she is in rentals a lot (visits us kids scattered all aver the country). She's gotten way more than her share of roadside assistance from the good folks at triple-A!
Losing scan films....oh, boy does that SUCK! My scan/mammo facility lost EVERY ONE of my films--mammos, bone scans, MRIs, CTs last summer--NOT cool when you need the freakin' scans to know if you're stable or progressing! We're still in the dark ages here so there were no computer backups or anything. Thank goodness my rads onc takes such good notes and has such a good memory. The stupid thing is I am 90% sure they filed them under my maiden name but they REFUSE to look? GRRRRRR
Dani and Deb, so glad to hear GOOD NEWS!
I had more to say, but my dh just called and I lost my train of thought. I hearty, "THAT SUCKS!" to all..........may your weekend be free from IOS!
(((HUGS)))
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Shirley - You crack me up. Now stop tweezing and get on that treadmill! I had to hide the key for mine because my grandson kept turning it on. Amazes me how techy kids are today, he's only 4. Don't want any major hurts on my watch!
Sue - The runny nose with no control sucks. Walking on the treadmill is doing the trick. It was the hills that got me. It's a lot more boring and I'm watching my dd's Friends collection to take my mind off how bored I am. Hopefully I'll be on the street again soon. . .hmmm, that sounds kind of bad. Of course who ever heard of a street walker with a foob that has a big hole in it, LOL. BTW, my surgery was 4/2 too. I didn't realize we had it on the same day.
Chris - Hope things get better and you move forward with treatment next week.
Traci - We have lots of Daddy Long Legs at our lake house, along with an assortment of other creepy crawlies. At least the DLLs won't hurt you. My grandson thinks I'm cool because I pick them up. Gotta do whatever it takes to shine in his eyes!
I know I'm missing a bunch but I didn't take notes and can't remember. So a big That Sucks to whoever needs it. Hope everyone's weekend is void of IOS's.
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Well, I hate to present neutral information in this thread - but, to lose weight successfully, start with being really fat! I have a bad knee from steroids from asthma, and, as the pain increased, I got less mobile. Last fall, I realized I was quite huge, and that this had to change, so I did research, started on glucosamine, omega 3 oil to lessen joint pain and found some basic exercise programs that at least got me moving (water aerobics and stationery bike). Even started going to a dr - so I had someplace to go when I found the lump like 3 months later.
I couldn't control anything but food, so I joined fitday.com and recorded everything I put in my mouth. We bought a kitchen scale, so I could weigh stuff.
I started eating mindfully - like, if I wanted more, I could come back in 15 mins and have more, if I still wanted it and if I was still hungry.
I read good diet stuff - the introductory chapters of the South Beach Diet, Dr. Willett's Harvard Guide to Healthy Eating.
That helped, but what really works is the moving. I managed to tear the miniscus in my good knee during radiation (which did, in fact, SUCK), so the dr prescribed PT. The therapists taught me how to use weights to strengthen the muscles around my joints without damaging them. I'm graduating from PT with a sheaf of exercises, to a trainer who is also a registered dietician. She's excited to be working with me, and I'm excited to keep learning. So far,she wants me to increase my proteins a bit, as I'm building muscle, and she is going to add upper body exercises.
She is also taking me off all those "healthy" alternatives - I'm back to butter instead of Benecol (phytosterols). I just have to be very careful about how much I eat. No more canola oil - the process that creates canola may actually be creating a trans fat rather than a monounsaturated chain. Olive or walnut oil. No more Kashi (sob!) - the extra protein is all from highly processed soy. I MEAN, WHO KNEW!
Yeah, I'm pissed off about having to do all this, but, on the other hand I get to do all this stuff so that when I retire, we can go all those places I want to go, and do those things I want to do.
So far, I've lost 40 lbs, 25 lbs since surgery. I want to lose at least 60 more. I'm determined to not let this suck - there needs to be something positive in my new normal!!!!!
Sue
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wishiwere - Our sex life sucks too. We have taken advantage of that fact to introduce alternate practices into our love life, so I'm actually getting some.
Traci - Insurace sucks. Last time I was laid off, we had to pay $1300 per month for family coverage, even before cancer.
Oh, and about the willow tree - they are chipping it for me, so I'll have wood chips to use in my gardens.
Sorry to be having a non-sucky day. I'm sure it will change.
Sue
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Hello fellow bitchers (is that a word?...oh well)...
Long time no see...I was going to post on the singing, dreaming, loving thread and decided I'd be better off here.
I don't come here much and post but I do read and keep up as well as I can. Very busy at work and it seems if I post I get grief...aaauuughhh.
Looks like we may need to raise bail money for wishiwere...hope the neighbors are safe.
I see one very sucky thing...we have wayyy to many new girls here. Damn...its time we see no more cancer! Yeah...wishful thinking.
I am moaning and groaning...
Hate my new job...big deal in the big scheme of things but boy does it suck!
A kitten showed up in my yard the night before last...very tiny gray tiger...totally soaked with kerosene and shivering like crazy. I took he/she/who knows in and gave it a bath...still smells like kerosene but not as bad. Some watered down warm milk and it was still shivering so made it a bed in a laundry basket and put it on the register where it has been ever since. WTH is wrong with people...I know there are two more kittens outside, I just haven't caught them yet. I'd like to find the culprits and give them a kerosene bath and leave them outside in the cold...naked!
Word to the wise...you know the hoses that lead into your washing machine in the back. If there are shut off valves there...TURN THEM OFF WHEN YOU AREN'T USING THE WASHER. Mine split and flooded my house...ruined the flooring in the bathroom, laundry room, hallway (which just had new hardwood put down) and Nates room...ankle deep water. Can you say shocked! Not what I was expecting to find when I got up. This happened a couple of weeks ago...when it was very humid and hot...service master came in and put four fans up along with dehumidifiers...all blowing hot air. 118 degrees in my house. Needless to say, Nate and I slept in the camper. Now I'm just waiting for everything to be replaced...thank God I had insurance.
On a good note...lost ten pounds and my dd and her new boyfriend are moving back to NY and its almost Pinkstock time!
Sending hugs to all in need...I'll be back...
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Thank you all! Reading these posts makes me stop feeling so sorry for myself. I hate that I'm here, but not being here is NOT an option anymore. BC will not be wished away. I need to get a grip on myself and quit whining. Even though I don't know anyone here yet, you are all helping me get where I need to get to face what is coming. I am a mess...I cry at unpredictable times, I feel mean and bitchy one minute and the next I am looking for something to make to giggle. I avoid talking to friends and family one minute, then the next I complain that they are not calling me enough. Am I freaking crazy? What do I want??Is it possible to ever get my emotions on a level plane ever again??
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{{CatmcK}} They say it's possible, but I've not met one lady on here anywhere yet, that's been on an even keel longer than it takes to get to that mammo for follow up time!
Sad, but true! Welcome though, and this group does allow a vent area, a celebration area for mile markers met, a place to learn, share and a whole lot of comraderie. All in all, it's where we all come back to, to lean on someone who's been where we are, offer support to others who need it worse than us, or less than us or just as much as us! 
It's what makes our world complete in terms of therapy, healing and just plain day to day suckiness, or happiness, or mundaneness. Is that a word? 
Seriously. It gets better than during tx, but different than before BC.
Ladies.....couldn't afford it, but splurged on a triple pump mocha frappuchina LARGE! It's helping I must say. Just freaking moody today. At least the money you raise in bail can be put to better use than paid to a bondsman!
Thanks for the support!Diane? Hate when someone interrupts my thoughts of how horrible things are! But...hope it turned better for you anyway
SUE! WOW! You're doing great! When dh was first diagnosed with Diab II, the idiot doc threw a 1800 calorie diet at him and said to lose weight! It was filled with brussels sprouts, those little stringy things (minds gone) for salad, grapefruit and so on! He works on the road in a semi with sleeper) for 3-5 nights a week and all days are at least 12-14 hours long. Oh yeah, that works! So I made an appt with a hospital nutritionist and had been breaking down our diet for her for the last month. She went through it, pointed out the changes we should make and explained so much about what to avoid and how many carb he could do for a snack and meals. IT helped so much he was off the pills in no time and lost 40 lbs. Today is another story, he needs a reality check. Since my dx I don't cook as much and he's on the road more and it's just not conducive to a healthy diet at all.
I'm proud for you though! It's hard I know, he fights the weight while attempting to enjoy life too! As for willows....the neighbors lost a major limb on their lines a couple weeks ago and it was sad to see. We lost more of our 2 larger ones, but its expected as they are very mature as you say and the woodpeckers have been enjoying the damage in them from past lightening hits over the years, so it was coming.... We used our limbs to add to the wood pile for summer/fall firepit gatherings.
Vicki! Oh my on the kitties! I caught a couple one winter by using a cage we had used to catch past critters. Put food in it while it was on its side, and a string connected to a paperclip to keep the door open till I pulled it. Waited for someone to come for the food, tripped the string and walah! so far, we've had 2 kitten...Oops! 3 make that. One domestic bunny a stupid montesorri teacher released after school was out, a wild bunny, a set of 3 baby raccoons who mom was MIA and my cockers kept herding to the back door, hmmm....Oh, almost an opposum once! he was too ugly and let him go!
All caught humanely and either relocated or taken in to shelters. The kittens were definitely the ones most ticked at being caught. Took me weeks to calm them enough to be able to take them to the shelter for adoption. Had I not domesticated them, they would have not been able to save them as they were ferral kittens.Hope everyones day is looking up as mine has since getting this triple mocha frappachino!
A S&cky day deserves a triple pump chocolate anything! 0
