Stop Smoking Support Thread
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Pantufas: Gets out mind of cancer and smoking thats for sure. Being drug into a manure pit now that sucks beyond belief. I am sorry but I had to laugh on that one. Mom tried to teach me to milk a cow...now that just isn't natural...I couldn't get it and honestly I never tried...she gave up on me so I got to clean the barn instead...so much more natural than grabbing a cow like that.
I have to go back and read your posting, it kicked me in the funny bone.
Just proves we all have funny stories...bring it on ladies. Lets get our mind going.
Hope everyone has a good and restful evening,
Nadine
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Hey Nadine! I know it's getting late but tomorrow I'll tell you about the time I tried to milk the bull. Glad it's getting your mind off of other things.
Good Night!
Nancy
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Pantufas: Trying to milk a bull? OMG! You are so funny!
We are going target practicing tomorrow and I am going to shoot the bulls eye all the while I will be seeing a pack of smokes in the center of the bulls eye! Now I just thought.. wonder if I could place hubby's smokes there and then maybe he will quit also.
Nadine
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Okay let's shout out how many day's we have been smoke free.Seven day's and counting for me!!
WOW CANNOT BELIEVE I HAVE NOT SMOKED IN SEVEN DAY'S!!!
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Marsha: 7 days...THAT IS AWESOME!!!!
I Have 85 days today
Keep up the good work!
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Um, I won't put up how long I have not smoked, but I will say, I am cut WAY down.
Michelle--good luck to you today, I will be praying for you.
Nice stories ladies. Good laughs. I don't have any motorcycle stories. I did however have a moped in high school (in Wisconsin) and I got caught riding it in a snow storm wearing my school uniform (skirt, bobby socks and penny loafers). THAT was a whole lot of fun.
Have a great hump day!
Ellie
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Flfish: Getting caught in a snow storm on a moped in a school uniform would be terrible.
Congrats on everyone who is smoke free. Those of us who are still fighting it will join you before you know it.
Have a great day ladies.
Nadine
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Hey Ladies, thought I post before my internet stops working. I am soooo sore from moving and yup, smoked right through it. But I do try to cut down and the Chantix keep me from smoking a full cig, sometimes only 2 puffs. I hate this battle!
Cleo, going to miss you on your break, hope you are doing well and breaking because you are busy. Much love to you, you are a part of our family!!
Fifish, hope you had a great birthday. Sending you phantom money, lots of it!! I haven't quit yet but we are still going to do it!!! Hopefully soon.
Nadine, riding bald would be awesome! Sorry to hear about the hot flashes, mine has been getting better. I hope your will too, sleep with a fan on you? You will be one of the few happy people biking during a snow storm, lol. Awesome about Sturgis. Your stories cracked me up. I did the same thing as your sister, got so scared I forgot how to stop and kept circling and screaming help. But your mom is hilarious!
Pantufas, that is so funny about your first ride. The first gear was a crack up and flipping you and Dodie is hilarious, you tell a good story! Can't believe you speared your cow and then got drag off in doodoo, that's priceless. Milking a bull, you have amazing courage. Always knew you were one tough chick.
KK, sorry that Chantix did not work for you! Good luck to you and wishing you happiness!
O2Bhealthy, thanks for my morning laugh. Yeah cleavage! Have your hubby throw grapes for points! That is so funny about daddy being happy. Congrats on 85 days!! Woot!
Welcome Marsha and congrats on 7 days! Wooot!
REKoz, Malleme, MB, AKA, Butterfly, London and I know I forgot some of you but you are in my mind, wishing you all well. Can't wait to hear from you and worried about some of you. Drop a ling when you get a chance.
Hugs,
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Oh my! I have missed so much here since my absence for the wedding activities. For those of you not on FB, it was just wonderful. Truly, every cliche you've ever heard about being the mother of the bride is so true. A most memorable event! The whole weekend for that matter.
Anyway, I hang my head in shame to report that I did smoke at the wedding! Just couldn't (the real word is wouldn't) say no! Then on Monday, I had to go in for a nicotine test for my surgery on Friday. The plastic surgeon is going to s**t! I feel like a bad girl who is going to get scolded by the nuns! I HATE THIS CRAP!! Well, I have been doing the best I can and have to stand my ground when the PS announces the test results. Instead of crying and begging forgiveness, I so hope I can put my big girl panties on and point out the DRASTICALLY reduced numbers from the first test he did. UGH...this is a feeling I have been dealing with all my life (THANKS St. Mary's grammer school!!!) and I STILL have a hard time with it at frigging 53 yrs old! WTF is that all about?
Please pray ladies that I do not get another infection. To catch you up, I need the left expander replaced due to capsular contracture caused by an infection after my bmx WAYYY back in November.
QUESTION: Did any of you ladies who had a mastectomy smoke at that time? I know it raises your risk, but I had the WORST ps at the time. I really don't want another life experience of "I told you so."
Gotta to a few things here at work but I am back on to stay and chat on a regular basis once again I hope! Prayers for an infection free recovery are sooooo requested.
Later Tomaters! xoxox
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Michelle..... I just finished the chemo you are doing.. I had to stop the carbo as I had a bad reaction to it.My last scans looked great. Hoping it was the taxotere that has been working......... Worried about that alot... Peace,
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Janzin, so sorry that you are so sore. Boy, you sure are moving a lot lately, you need to slow down girl! Thanks for the phantom money....I will now pretend to pay my bills....BAHAHAHA!!
O2bhealthy--you will do great today.
Nadine--keep on trying, that is what I try to do.
REKoz, you are not alone. DO NOT hold your head in shame because you have done so well. DO NOT take a scolding from your doctor, remember, YOU ARE PAYING THEM BIG MONEY!! They need to deal with it. I understand the guilt. Those nuns did horrible things to our psyche. I remember Sister Camilla at good old St. Agnes grade school, and Sister Agnes Anne at my high school (St. Joseph Academy for girls)....ugh.........guilt, guilt, guilt....that is what they taught in those days. It is amazing that any of us Catholic girls have children with all the guilt they placed on us about sex!! heehee.......for pro-creation only....NOT to be enjoyed.....BAHAHAHAHA...oh my, just crazy! No wonder we smoke and drink....heehee....
...it makes the guilt go away.I hope everyone is doing well. Lots of laughs from me today...hard to imagine I spent the last hour sobbing over absolutely nothing....damn Tamoxifen!
Much love,
Ellie
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Hi Everyone,
I just finished catching up on you all. WOW!!!!! Things have certinly been busy around this thread!! I have missed everyone a ton!!! Between working, HorseShows and a broken Laptop and maybe just needing to get my head together, is the reason I have not been on. Spent many hours reading your posts though, I am so proud of everyone and am sorry that Nancy has been sick and MB oh my heart goes out to both of you, Nancy I can see is feeling alot better and is now again entertaining us with her stories. LOL!!! Janet I love all your dedication and I can feel all the love that you have!!! Your such a great person!!!! Love all the art designs your amazing. REKoz I wish you the best of luck with your PS on Friday. I am and have been told the same thing as you, they will not touch me for my DIEP if I even have a trace of nicotine in the bloodwork. Good-luck on that frount!!!! I too had a expander removed and now still almost yrs later am waiting to have the other expander removed. I am scared to death of the surgery coming up which by the way is Nov 16th I know along time away but she was booked until then. Which leaves me time to get the nicotine out of my body. Am working on it like all of you. I have lost 30lbs and will have to be remeasured on Oct1st to see if I can still have the surgery. They may have to do Gap. But I really want the other due to I need a hysterectomy and I want it at the same time. So its icecream and hoping to put the usual 15lbs on when we quit. It just stinks cause I am at a perfect weight right now but I am sure after surgery I will be back to it. I think I am the only person that loses weight when being put through menapause its crazy!!!.
Welcome to all the new people I see its great to meet you all!!!! And I promise I will be writing more often cause I missed all you crazy gals so much!!!!!!!
Love Ya,
Bridget Malmsten Spofford ( Facebook Name ) if anyone wants to be my friend!!!!
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Bridget...I friended you on FB. I LOVE having new friends!! I know for the gap surgeries you have to be smoke free for 6 months. There are several reasons I didn't go that route, but that's right up there!
Ellie- thanks so much for the pep talk. I need that and it's so great that you really "get it!"
Leaving work now but will check in later.
xoEllen
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REKOZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Missed you here! I smoked during the whole time but cut is down to 1-2 cigs a day with my Mast. Where is the manners with this Dr. I think they should care but FIfish is right, they are there for you and you are paying the bill. You shouldn't feel guilty but proud as you have done a lot better then most. Remember that they said that quitting is compare to quitting Heroine, it's really really hard and a lot never even try because it is too much for them. You are a true warrior!
FIfish, your laugh still cracks me up. I remembered the name now, Arnold of Happy Days, I think???? I am not moving again, just had to get the rest of my stuff out of storage. Moved from a large house to a small apartment and now have to go through again and throw away stuff. Hate this. I am a slave to cigs and my possessions.
NOBLEANNA!!!!!!!!! Wow, I though you had left and it made me sad. So glad you are here! I remember you telling me about your loss. I am soooo sorry you had to go through all that. BC sucks! Can't believe you have lost weight on menopause, I have been gaining. Will add you as my friend in facebook. Here is my link to add me. http://www.facebook.com/janet.zingano
Peace!!
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Might lose my internet again, thunder and lightening storms! If I don't check in, love you all!
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Janzin--you are right, it WAS Arnold from Happy Days.....BAHAHAHAHA. Too funny.
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Janzin: I sure hope the hot flashes ease up. They wasn't bad before I started the 5 year deal. Told hubby I will deal with them as bad as they are as long as cancer doesn't come back.
Riding bald would be good except a sunburned head and bugs hitting it...OUCH on both counts. Going 65-75 those bugs hurt bad.
We saw a couple on a bike yesterday..granted it was hot as hell outside. But the guy had a shaved head and as red as an apple. Both had shorts, tank tops and thongs on (the cheap slipon's). Now I bet at the end of the day they both was some sorry feeling folks. Oh yes going 65 mph. Nothing like a crash and no protection.
I smoked when I had my mastectomy. I also smoked through chemo.
I went to a Catholic grade school, got my only spanking from a nun...boy could she swing.
For those of smoking we will get through this one day at a time. We will win!!!!!
Hugs to everyone,
Nadine
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Hi Ladies, just for fun I am going to post a picture of me around 1984ish. It might bring back some memories to some of you. I might be one of those you made fun of, lol. This was my Tina Turner do.
Fifish, I guess you pictured it. BAHAHAHAHA!
Nadine, did you look like you had freckles, lol.
Time to play!
Let's laugh for the week!!
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HI ALL! Just a quick note to let you know Chemo went really well, only had two MINOR Side Effects...Mild sinus pressure with Cytoxan and Major case of the Hick-ups about an hour after it was all said and done (lasted about 30 minutes).
I drank over 100 oz of fluids today PLUS chomped down three 44oz glasses of crushed ice. We brought Italian Ices' to snack on and asked the nurse to put in the freezer...they passed out ice cream several times during the day. First time was Breyers Chocolate Crunch Bars (Tasted so yucky...taste buds are a changing)...the second round of tasty treats were Italian Ices', hubby and I cracked up because of course they were the treats we brought! The poor nurse felt sooo bad, I told her no problem, I'll bring more treats to share next time...
GAINED 12 LBS in water weight today...oh please let it be water weight!
So happy to have TX #1 under my belt! only 3 more to go then 8 months of herceptin and 5 years Tamoxifen...
Hugs - Michelle
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Hi O2BHealthy, it's water weight until you keep adding ice cream. Hope to see you tonight on FB. Got some jobs for you.
A little buzzed, feeling good. I know it's an escape but I am working on it!
Kisses,
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Thank-you all for welcoming me back!!!! I so missed everyone!!!! Man that Lupron shot really does a number on you!! I so can relate to you all on the Hot Flashes but I only get them when I am working and its my head that sweats I think its not used to having so much hair!! LOL!!!!! I had them put me on a diffrent antidepressant, which has so helped me!! I was getting in a pretty bad pity me state. It feels so good to laugh and smile again. And basically enjoy life!!! Although through my BF who has BC just found out another classmate has cancer and its very bad news. He is only being given 3-4 weeks to live, WOW!!!!!! One minute your riding a motercycle and the next you are given a month to live!! This F-ING Cancer SUCKS!!!!! We are a small class of 58 and this is including myself the 4th we are all 44 what the heck!!!! Everyone tells me to put it behind me but it just keeps being slapped in my face with each new person that I care about and they are to young! And I know my reality is not if but when mine comes back, which can drive me crazy at times. So here I sit drinking a bottel of wine and pouring my heart out to you all. Knowone gets it like you all do. My family just thinks its over. It will never be over for all of us, know matter what stage we are, its just going to be there like a little black cloud in the back of our heads. We have to deal with the drugs that make us feel like sh*t and knowing how stupid it is to light that cigg. But sometimes I just don't care. And other times I am so pissed at myself for smoking cause its really stupid! I smoked through surgery I smoked through 14 rounds of chemo and 1 yr of Herceptin and I smoked through 28 rounds of Rads. How Dumb is that!!!!! And their is times like when I am at a Big Horse Show and my daughter forgets something in the camper and needs it ASP and I have to run and I can't breath or even do it now, that I have to take a hard look at myself and say enough is a enough. But yet I continue to smoke. WHY????????????????? I so want to get to see my children graduate and get married and to have grandchildren but yet I continue to harm myself. But then I say to myself why tortue myself when it is going to come back anyways. Believe me when I say I do try to stay upbeat and enjoy life but man its hard when you have gone through a war zone to get better and you still have to endure more. I would say "F" the surgery but to be honest I was the girl with " The Body" and now its half missing and I just do not feel complete as vain as that may sound. I want to be me again as best as I can. And living like REKoz and I have its not fun. It stinks that we have gone through all that pain of TE and have this happen to us. And I get so mad when they blame it on smoking. I know my body has just rejected it. I am allergic to those stupid drain bulbs, which got infected. This is such a crazy merry go round.
I am going to stop here cause I have so much pent up frustrations that I could go on and on!!! I
I love you all so much and thanks so much for allowing me to vent!!!!
Love Ya,
Bridget
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hi Nobleanna, glad to be here when you are pouring out your heart! No one knows if it is due to smoking, it is just the top of theories. It's hard to deal with cancer and seeing everyone go through it too. One of my friends has brain cancer and only has a short time to live. I know life isn't fair and to struggle during a hard time is sh_tty! You are not vain, you are mourning a part of yourself and if anyone tells you differently, they are not being real and not being real to your feelings. You are human like the rest of the world even though they try to conform us to be an unrealistic being. I think you are bright, beautiful inside and out! And you have more courage that most would not understand. We are all doing the best we can and no one has the right to judge. Sorry but I had a few drinks and can get sensitive to all this crap. And it pisses me off if someone made you feel bad. I am sending you big hugs!
Much love to you,
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Bridget, don't worry about venting. I agree with you, for us, this will never be over. This is something that even though we now may look normal, act normal, giggle, laugh, play....is always in the back of our minds. That is what cancer does. Just hearing that word takes a little piece of you away, and I don't think you ever get that back.
Michelle....glad things went well. Although gaining 12 pounds of water weight STINKS! Don't fret about it too much, that weight will come off after the chemo. I am glad you have such a supportive hubby to be with you.
REKoz--one more thing about your smoking shame. Let us not forget on this board that even though smoking is bad for us (especially since we have cancer), we need to remember that IT IS LEGAL!!!! People (DOCTORS) act like we are hiding in alleys shooting up heroin. Legal, legal, legal, remember that!! Jerk doctors making you feel ashamed.....pisses me off.....
Janzin.....OMG!!!!! You call the hair Tina Turner, I think you had added a little Flock of Seaguls (and I raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, I ran so far awaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!). And let's discuss the outfit. It sort of looks like a negative image of Stevie Nicks....BAHAHAHAHAHA (cuz it is white, and she is always in black....get it?????
) Oh my. Thanks so much for the giggles. I have to dig some of those out. 1984 huh? I would have been a Junior in high school......I am sure I have some doozies too. Good stuff!0 -
Bridget--I am looking you up on facebook, so if you get a request from Ellen Maloney Fischer, that is me, ok? Thanks.
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Janzin: Me and freckles? I had a bunch but not a whole lot when I was a kid. I have a red headed adult daughter now she has freckles and hates them.
On your pic Janet, did you star in "Dark Shadows" ~~~joking. I could use about half of your hair in that pic right now. Thanks for sharing...share more.
Well lazy morning for me so guess I should get things done around the house. Took day 3 of my Chantix...counting down.
Have a wonderful day ladies.
Hugs to you all,
Nadine
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Hey now, this Irish gal says there is nothing wrong with freckles. I had them when I was a kid and hated them, now I would love to get a few more on my nose. I still have some, not many.
heehee...Nadine, you could make 3 wigs off of all that hair. That is funny stuff.
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Morning all! I was up at least once an hour last night going to the bathroom...lost 9 lbs in water weight!!! Whew! and my legs no longer look like tree trunks. YEA! Feeling pretty good today, took morning meds and now have to get ready to register my son for his freshman HS classes starting next week! The fun never ends!
Have a great day all and STOP THE INSANITY!
Hugs and love - Michelle
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Oh how I hate wigs. I had a red one, and two brunette ones...gave one brunette and the red one to the clinic. Hate to wear the one I kept because its not my own hair. One of my sisters cut her beautiful dolls hair thinking it would grow...she cut it then tried to glue it back on its head. So if I could take Janet's hair and stick on my head with clue would it grow? I will never complain again about having a bad hair day...I just want hair that shows. I must say Janet's do was wild...check out the eyeliner. Remember those days!
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Hi Everyone!
Oh what would I do without you all?? Thanks so much for your support, it means so much more then I could ever tell you. I blamed my first PS for the horrible infection after my bmx. When it was beginning to flare (my chest was literally black!), all he did was take out some expander fluid. The man stuck a needle into a live infection with NO pain meds whatsoever. The only time in my life I really thought I'd die. Then he sent me home with NO antibiotic AND a script for Valium 2.5mg. THEY DON"T MAKE 2.5 VALIUMS! I switched to the other PS in the group (had to stay within). He has an excellent rep and slightly more of a human personality then the first. I just can't shake the thought that they all blame smoking on the infection and that's where I am headed once more. I is very comforting to know that some of you had no infection even though you smoked. Bridget, however is another story! I can't quite remember the sequence of events that lead to you losing the expander..or is it expanders? Thanks to Aromisin, I hardly remember anything!
The bottom line is that we all know in our hearts this is the worst thing we can be doing to ourselves. I think we all want to stop VERY VERY much and will do so when the time is right. It is my sincere hope that I can stay away from them while healing from this surgery. Working on my mind now and telling myself that I can view healing as I did when I was pregnant. The reason to not pick up smoking regularly again will be out in the open for me to see. Like when I was pregnant and gave it up! I do better with the visual! What I think is what I will become so I shall just assume I will heal correctly and keep those butts away.
Question for you ladies that did smoke at surgery time. Did you catch hell from your PS?
Well, back to work for now. Check in later.
PS. JANZIN- that pix is a HOOT! Can't decide if I wudda been friends with you! BBBWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAA as Arnold, oops I mean Ellie might type!!
PPS. MICHELLE- So happy to hear you're feeling well today. Just maybe you will be one of those that gets thru chemo relatively se free! I pray that you will!
PPPS. Hi NADINE, I don't think we've"spoken" yet. Thanks for your input on smoking during your mx and treatments. Did you have recon? So glad you are here!
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Bridget, added you to my facebook. Hope you are feeling better.
Fifish, always cracking me up. Can't wait to see your pictures!
Just wanted to post about Candie, she is going through a real rough time so group prayers or positve vibes is needed to help her out. Amazing that she is going through so much and hasn't had a smoke in 105 days.
Well, waiting on comcast again, I hope they fix my internet this time. Sending all of you much love and hugs as I know a lot of you are going through a rough time too.
Gentle cyber hugs to all.
Love,
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