Class of 2009 - Sisters in the same time frame
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Jen ~ prayers for your friend and hoping your tests go well too......
Pauldingmom, I am speechless. This is just so unfair. Soft hugs.........
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Hugs Pauldingmom. Cancer is just so unfair.
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Big hugs going your way, PauldingMom.
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Another big hug coming your way, PauldingMom.
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Jen sending out prayers to your friend. And to you Lisa!
{{{{Hugs}}}}
Pam I hope things are going well with you. Juanelle, glad to hear that things in your life are basically uneventful.
To all my sisters... take care
Renee
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OH. MY. GOOD. GOLLY! Dear Friends, it has been way too long! I've read every post. Gotta tell you all that I luh-hove you: Alacia, Jojo, Pam, M360, Renee, Michele, Juanelle, Eph_12, Abby, Pauldingmom, Jen, Marie K, Shelby - and anyone else I missed!
You all look and sound so good, even through the struggles some of you are having.
So we all press onward - seems like we take a few steps forward, some back. I just flat out took a break from cancer. When my sis did her bmx, it seems the full impact of what happened to me hit home. It took seeing my sis suffer to make the reality of my situation hit home. You know, we somehow manage to numb out and get through stuff. Couldn't do that with sis - saw it and lived it in technicolor. Cancer is one mean bastard. Sooo - I started eating like I had no health problems, stopped doing physical therapy. Stopped doing massage for LE.
It was working for me, too, until it all caught up with me.
Did a little self imposed tamoxication for four days. It was loverly. Woke up without muscle ticks and actually able to walk like a sober woman. But I'm back on the stuff again.
Had to stop taking bone builders. After 10 weeks, it was clear that I had to give it up. Muscles were weak, felt like I had the flu for three days every week, and actually fell for the first time. Went right down. While I was on the floor like a bug on its back, I had an epiphany: "No more of this cr*p. Life is too short." I am now considering stopping Tamoxifen - have a list of SEs that I don't want to go into here. See the Onc on the 23rd - will debate all of this with her.
Back surgery is a no-go. Bones are not strong enough to hold hardware. Doing physical therapy, but should be better about it. Got to get back into a routine.
Happy to report that I am doing normal life things - doing some committee work, which provides a good chance to see if the old chemo brain can do the job. Taking care of my nephew when my single-mom sister needs a break. Family is coming in for Thanksgiving, and I'm doing the bird. (For our pals in Canada, I'm stuffing the turkey, and everyone else brings the side dishes.)
Pam, I am so sorry to read your news. You know, I remember your posts about having a hard time shaking off the radiation, and you shared how frustrating it was. It must have been so confusing to try and figure all of this out. The answer you got was so very difficult. Perhaps it will be of some comfort to at least know what you are dealing with. You are in my prayers. Much love to you.
Shelby - keep us posted. Sorry about your upcoming surgery.
OK - let's discuss. Just when we're all going through forced menopause, skinny jeans are in style. Who is responsible for this??!!
XO, Mary
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Mary how nice to see you old friend. Glad to hear that you are getting back on track with your life. Let's don't take life for granted, live each day to the fullest and enjoy friends and family.
Renee
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Mary, so good to hear from you. I love you too. I think we all have our struggles, some more than others. We all have to make those decisions that are right for us and when we do, we need to just keep on going and not look back with regret. How is your sister doing? Keep us informed.
Juannelle
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Mary so nice to hear from you ! Sorry to hear it all hit home for you as you watched your sister start her journey. Big hugs. I hear you on the tamoxifen. I was so close to stopping, I took a 2 week break. (man that felt good) Then went back on my onc said that sometimes helps and for me it did. I have also been dieting and exercising again which makes me feel strong again. So for me I am still swallowing the little white pill. But I can imagine your frustrations. Good luck when you see your oncologist. Hope your sister is doing ok.
Renee love what you said ! So true ~ live each day to the fullest ! I always say tomorrow is guaranteed to NO ONE.
Juanelle love your picture !
Have a good day girls ~
Alicia
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Finally - a new avitar. Taken at the Komen 3 Day Walk last weekend. I didn't walk, but went to support friends who did. Wow, it was a beautiful event.XO, Mary0
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Beautiful picture Mary. I didn't walk the Komen but did walk the diabetes walk with my DIL yesterday. It felt great and we walked 3 miles in 45 min. She is a type 1 and it would be great if they found a cure for that also, it would make so much difference in her life.
Hope everyone had a great weekend. Getting closer and closer to Thanksgiving and Christmas. I can not say that I am ready for either of them. Haven't even bought the first Christmas present yet.
Juannelle
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Mary love your new avatar... You look amazing!!!!!!!!!!!
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Hi ladies,
Thank you so much for the prayers for my friend. She is dealing with it well, I am having lunch with her on Friday, after she will have had the biopsy. Fingers crossed and prayers are being said that it is nothing for her.
Mary! So good to hear from you! Glad to hear you are doing well, and I agree with Renee, you look great in your new avatar!
Alicia-Thank you for the well wishes on my tests. I had my ultra sound on Friday and the lymph node shrunk 1mm, but they still want to monitor me every 6 months. So that means I will have an ultra sound every 3 months between that follow up and my normal diagnostic mammos! Whew!
Pauldingmom- I don't know exactly what you are going thru right now, but just know I am praying for you and sending you gentle healing hugs!
Hope all of you are having a wonderful day!
Jen
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Oh Ladies, First Mary so nice to hear from you and so sorry about your sis! I came on and posted to everyone after Halloween weekend (which I spent in the hospital), actually caught up on all post and wrote to everyone and then for some reason it didn't post and I cried was too sick to do it all over again.
I'm in need of prayers. It's not been even three months since they stopped chemo because of complications, then my whole mouth blew up like an allergic reaction, but the hospital said it wasn't. Had to have CT scans, etc. on throat and mouth. I've been on 4,000mg of penicillin vk, since then along with some type of mouth wash plus Lidocaine for the mouth. It numbs everything, but all lymphs in mouth are still enlarged. Well I thought that the lymph glands in my right underarm were just swelling cause of some autoimmune response. Days of sore swollen lymph glands on right side (mastectomy, auxiliary everything was left side). Onc said they would not start anything til blood count was back up and things turned around, she still wanted me on Arimidex (spelling?), but said not as things stood with so much going on. Five days ago while showering I noticed a lump in my right breast (thought just a swollen lymph gland), but it was hard not palpable. So I waited, it was just there not changing, for the first time fear set in, not again I thought. I cried and cried. Called doctor and will go in on Monday the 22nd for ultrasound for they think it's bc now on the other side. I'm obsessed with checking it three time a day hoping that it suddenly disappears. But the same pain swollen lymph glands and etc exactly as last year. I thought I had bc in the right side as was shocked they said no left. Oct 3, 2009 they told me I had bc and then in biopsies etc and this whole year of chemo etc, complications and I'm tired. I couldn't start the Arimidex because of all the infections and other doctors saying no. Now I wonder which is worse, not walking and pain from a Aromatose Inhibitor or another round of all this again. I'm venting but I don't know where else to go or what to do. I couldn't get in any sooner. I'm not a worrier but I am this time, I wonder if I'm strong enough to keep on fighting. I told the doctors I just want a break! But my instinct is that bc is back. It's what saved me last year, I pushed to get another mammogram and ultrasound and I was right. I just don't know, it's seems like only 1cm but what is really going on so soon?!
Ladies sorry to go on and on, I'm afraid not for me but for my girls, teenagers going through this for over a year and now more and more tests again. I see the fear in their eyes for the first time.
I don't want to sound like a broken record, I can only wait and see til next week. The wait is the worse, forgot about those days of waiting and wondering. I hate cancer!
Love all you ladies and hope things are better for all of you. I hope all of you have clear tests and are free of this merry go round of bc.
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M360-girl, I hurt for you. Please keep us in the loop!
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M360,
Cancer is so cruel. You have done so much, been through so much, you should not be facing this again now. It is so good you are listening to your body though... no one knows like you. Praying for you to hear better news than you fear and strength to face whatever comes as you.
Hugs
Pam
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M360- I got your back! We can and will beat this ugly ba$%@rd and our beautiful children will come out stronger and better people because of it. Prayers from my potty mouth are still sweet. I'll keep you in them.
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Always nice to see a Georgia girl on here! Hi Pauldingmom!
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Jen ~ glad to hear you have a few months break !
M360 ~ ugh.... I am so sorry you are dealing with all of this again. I will keep you in my prayers. Please keep us posted.
Pauldingmom ~ (((HUGS)))
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M360, I don't know what to say about your troubles. You are not catching any breaks. I will keep you in my prayers.
Juannelle
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Extra warm hugs for all who need them today
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Jen - so happy the lymph node is getting smaller. Any updates on your friend?
M360 - you are in my prayers. Please let us know what's happening. It's hard to be unable to do a darned thing but love you online, but be sure you've got that - lots of love. If you're going through hell, I'm glad to meet you there and give you support, love, and a good ear.
Had fun today - Picked up my nephew after school and made brownies. So great. Love to you all!
XO, Mary
PS - Pauldingmom, I'm just catching up on your news, which is entirely crappy. As Holly Golightly says, "Oh GOLLY, GEE, DAMN." Sending love and prayers.
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M-360 - I know you're scared. I had a big scare last week - found a lump in my breast, along with skin indentation. I was sure it had come back. Went and got a mammo, ultrasound and biopsy - turns out to be fat necrosis from the surgery last year. Apparently, it can mimic a tumor.
Fingers crossed that your lump is also benign. We will all be here for you no matter what happens! Life really isn't fair sometimes.
Hey, Mary - wanna share those brownies? I think we could all use a little chocolate!!
Hugs to all,
Shelby
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M360, I am going to start the hug chain again.....we are all going to hold hands and hug you from around the world....(((((((hugs))))))) If prayers and stress could cure cancer we would all be cancer free.
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(((((HUGS))))) M360
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(((Hugs))) M360
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Warm (((HUGS))) from Florida M360
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((((HUGS))))) - keeping positive thoughts for you!
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(((((((HUGS)))))) - and big cyber smooch, too.0
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{{{{{HUGS}}}}}} M360- much love and prayers for you. I am so sorry you are going thru this.
My friend has gone in today for her biopsy and will know by Friday what the deal is.
Love you ladies! We are all so lucky to have eachother! I am thankful for you all~
Jen
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