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patty8-- welcome make sure to hit the "add to your favorites" if you find a sight you want to return to with 64,000 threads that can be daunting. Come back to us if our group meets your needs L&H&P and good results on your new tests Sheila
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Sheila and all,
Never too much info! I think there is a fine line between moving lymph fluid and having the compression be too tight. Theresa, I think it would be a good idea to get your sleeve and gauntlet? worked in before your flight...my understanding is starting one hour in the morning and one at night, then 2/2, 3/3 and so on. Perhaps others can weigh in on this? So my swelling is still thankfully in my hand, and I Am trying to do my PT exercises, but also dealing with scar tissue, tightened muscles under my armpit, but it must be done. This too shall pass?
I'm glad for prayers tonight, as I did get some necessary tears out...I tend to shut down, and it's hard for me to sort out what's happening sometimes besides feeling off and disengaged. When I pray, I don't want to be just saying words, but for them to resonate and have meaning. I was able to get in the space of grace. I admit, I have been struggling a bit with prayer this week (sorry Michelle) but I hope you all understand. Does anyone else struggle with this (feeling disengaged) and this affecting your ability to pray?
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Oh Patty..... I KNOW it was not by chance you got here, on this thread... to read.. the prayer you needed! God is SO good!
This thread is SO amazing... the healing that happens here... the love.... the trust.... the friendship.... God has BLESSED all of us here so much..... and I PRAY, you are blessed as well.
Hang in there sister... We will pray for you now !
Gods Love,
Laura
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PRAYERS......... OMGOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I get home late from work... to see your BEAUTIFUL post on your clear nodes... WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
I am so happy for you..... THINGS ARE LOOKING GOOD SISTER !!!! YES THEY ARE!
Father,
in full thanksgiving.... I bow my head in respect and worship to You. I thank you so much Father for your healing of " prayers".. You are a merciful God, and I love You. Thank you!
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Patty8 ~ a warm welcome to you here, no coincidence at all. I believe you were guided to this thread
I hope you will get good results. I'm not a nurse or doctor, but could that be scarring that's showing up?PrayersareAns ~ so happy to hear about your results. Praise Lord!
Traci ~ I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling disengaged, I know that your spill last week is causing swelling, LE and simply several steps back. I know we will lift you in prayers. I pray that you get your bearing back and stay strong and healthy.
Sheila ~ such great idea for the prayer thread. Thank you! Glad to hear that you are feeling the calm from the prayers.
Theresa ~ good to know that things are calming down for you at work. Praise Lord!
Sorry I missed tonight's prayers, DH and I took sister to airport. I am like a walking zombie this week too. I finished #17 zap today, so technically it's half way done, yay! But it also means that I am not sleeping very well even with Activan. I shouldn't complain because there are other people that get sicker.
I also borrowed a book "Lymphedema" from the library. Will see if there's anything that'll jump out and I will post it here.
Thank you all for the prayers for each other. Thank you Lord Jesus for putting us together here.
Amen!
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Sisters,
Thank you for prayers today...I really appreciate it. 3rd treatment went well and I am halfway through..thanks be to God.
I'm hoping the next week will prove to be a tolerable one, but will have to take it one day at a time. The steroids I'm still on are keeping me awake...but was able to sleep some right when I got back from treatment.
I'm sorry I missed prayers tonight as well...I really am going to try to much better about that. I know there is power in numbers, but know that I pray for you all often and offer your prayers up to God.
Will be checking in when I can...
peace and prayers,
Tori
DE COLORES!
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Welcome Patty8 -- I agree, it's no coincidence. You're facing a reality most of us have ... will the next mammo show something... with the others I join in a prayer of it being benign... or gone! If you'd like, Michelle (mmm3) can add you to our intentions.
Traci -- yes, definitely, when I'm not feeling well, I become disengaged, I think many of us do the same thing. Yesterday I was feeling bone tired... hadn't felt that way in a long time (I realized something stupid that may have caused it), so I just closed my eyes on our commute to work and did not do morning prayer or St. Jude, and since I drove home, no St Jude there either. It wasn't until we came together last night that I realized what was missing. Sometimes we just can't muster the strength to say lengthy prayers, God understands... if we can just keep him in our daily conversations, a few "Have mercy on me, a sinner!" "God be praised!" "Help me Lord Jesus!" along the way, keeps us at least focused on God. Then the disengagement will pass and we'll be back to normal again. God just doesn't want us to cut him off from our day... or our needs.
Sheila and Traci - thank you for the sleeve/gauntlet explanation. I think I will stretch it out between now and the 20th and will keep attention to any tingling so I can let my PT know. Sheila, you never give out too much information. It's all helpful!
Paula and Tori - hurray! you're both halfway done your respective treatments!!!! Celebrate this weekend!
Well, the stupid thing I've been failing to do is take my gummy vitamins!! I realized it last night as I was saying the rosary (thank you Mary). Sometime last week I finished the one bottle and forgot to take out the new bottle. (chemo brain) So, if I don't SEE it, I don't TAKE it. D'oh! Needless to say, the bottle is sitting on the counter with the calcium chocolates and my pill boxes... yes two pill boxes for morning and evening. I have so many vitamins to take, D, magnesium, B12, gummies, plus my meds for HBP, cancer, SEs of cancer drug. But it's all good.
Merciful God, be with all my sisters today and bring them all peace of mind, body and soul. - Amen
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Good morning sweet Ladies
So nice to see all or your posts, so loving, so positive. Theresa, I guarantee, I am in constant chatter with God, and it makes me happy to re-adjust my thinking that this is a form of prayer. My Sister said something once that truly describes me...she said "one foot in this world and one foot in the next..." she was referring to the afterlife...and how I tend to float in between the two in my thoughts. It's just who I am. Or because I am a Pisces (smiling) she teases me about that too, and I am that sensitive water spirit. I take my walks with my little one, and chat with God about the flowers, and trees and His Works. It's like trying to stay in touch with my mission, purpose and life goals
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welcome Patty-
Traci- This is for you................As you know I have has a rough road the last 2 years, me, my son, my Husbands trials with job, I had a year of depression went on Lexapro (never in a million years did I think that would be possible) I hated everything especially how depressed I was I though things were going to be like this forever. I would hide in my room on the weekends and cry and worry about mets I had a new symptom every 2 weeks, I was feeling blah about every thing.
Literally after our Novena to Guadalupe my life has been improving, My foundation is close to being launched (a life long passion that I never thought would come to fruition), My Husband is with a new company that he likes and has good potential, we closed on a house last weekend that I think is perfect for our family, I feel better than i ever have. It has all happened in a month but it has been a year of constant praying and "practicing giving it back to GOD", every time I started to go back down a bad road of worry and angst I laid in bed and gave it back to GOD just really said "I don't need to worry about this now because he is handling the load for me and it will work out in his time and I will feel better in his time". I used to hate when people would say to me just live for today... don't worry about tomorrow... and I would think well today sucks and I don't even enjoy today , but I am enjoying life again and I don't know for how long that will be but I feel so happy and so much gratitude. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and when you have nothing else to do but be upset .....just lay around and be upset and say GOD Just take over for me and meditate on his true spirit.
Today my Son (13 years old) left for Washington DC on a plane by himself, he won the congressional youth leadership award for our district and go's off for a 6 day leadership conference.
YOU KNOW WHAT.... I am BLESSED TODAY, THANK YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Traci: You are *so* Franciscan! ;-) There is a priest and I have a few of his books, I think he's a priest or brother, who has a very good sense of humor and writes about conversational prayer. I'll have to find it and report back.
That's very good advice Michelle and I'm so happy that Our Lady has interceded for you and Our Lord heard your prayers. Congratulations to your son!! I bet you're so proud! Did you pack a coat for him? It's brrrry cold here.
We have to unfortunately walk through the valleys in order to appreciate the mountain peaks. But it's easier to walk through those valleys knowing that the Lord is silently walking beside you.
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I have napped all afternoon
What a luxury, sleep is. I do agree about the valleys. I don't know how anyone would appreciate the peaks without knowing the valleys. That's just me. Do you ever think the Lord gets tired, or our Angels get tired or frustrated? ( I know that may sound "juvenile" or a very simple reduction of the Grace Of God or the wealth and depth of love and understanding.) I get caught in the trap of only understanding these concepts with earthly limitations. I even think that the Lord does not have time to walk next to me when there are people with greater concerns, and more justifiable needs.
I wish I could be the helper not the helpee. But some days I need help so much, and there is no one there. Trying to re-arrange my computer some more today, to avoid any stress on my left arm, but I cannot sit for long periods, so I am laying on my side trying to prop myself up. So I had to move my bed a bit, then move a few chairs, then a rug, then try and vacuum, and there is one wheel gone...and set up the monitor. ...and then AAUUUGGGHHHH! It all sounds so silly, but these are the things I struggle with, my physical limitations. And I try to help myself so I won't keep hurting myself, but I'm pulling with one arm, and then I get upset, and deeply upset. I start to remember those who have left me high and dry, a "friend" who called me a burden when I was injured so badly in the past, and I just gave up. I hate to ask, really really dislike feeling vulnerable, and needing to learn how to trust again. In the past I made bad choices in friends and people, so I struggle. It's easy to find people to affirm your low self esteem, especially if you find them in bars. Sad but true. So I stopped that lifestyle 11 years ago. But my feelings of vulnerability is more the source of my despair than anything else. The struggles. I have to make sure I get to work, not show any weakness, and I always fear losing my job and insurance due to my physical illnesses. It happened to me once. There is no present threat, it's the memories that are threatening.
So I don't want to sound whiny at all. I just want to share, and Paula you got it right (not only Paula, Theresa, and maybe more
You have seen me kind of wipe out, after my real wipe out. I got scared again, I shut down again. I felt too vulnerable, too tired from trying to hide my vulnerabilities. And when I say, I wish there were Angels in physical form that could help me...I know that sounds silly.
So I am going to go put one foot in front of the other, and think about how to ask God to take this part of me. I do have a little four legged that needs me to pull it together, she is my little blessing. I have also been taking closer care of her today, as her tummy is off.
Thanks for listening ladies, and I am going to reflect more on your wonderful posts to me, all of you. Lifting me up. It means more than I can express.
and Michelle, congratulations on your son's fantastic accomplishments. I would imagine this is a moment of great pride, and the rewards of motherhood
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Patty - you will find a lot of fellowship here! Welcome! I think the Holy Spirit guided each one of us right to this thread
Michelle - such good news from you & family! And, I needed that reminder today to turn it over to God. I keep falling down on that one, and it makes me uneasy & start getting all stressed out.
Theresa - I saw on the news last night there were supposed to be snow flurries in the mountains! Have you seen any flakes yet? Also -- on the cyp2d6 test -- if you're having SEs from Tamox., more than likely means you are metabolizing it just fine! Evidently lot of oncs use that as a guide - but many now do the blood test to be sure. So, next time they draw blood you could ask them.
Traci - it's time for a new angel story! I bet part of your gloomy feelings is because you're missing those endorphins from swimming
I get a slow start but after the second round of novena prayers, I feel a transformation and really get into the next repetitions. I wasn't sure if the Our Father, Hail Mary & Glory Be was supposed to be done after of the six St. Jude prayers(2) - or just at the end. So I did it anyway just to be sure:)Laura, Ellie, Hood,Paula, Tori, Sheila, Betty, Pat, Mary, Prayersanswered & EVERYONE - prayers coming your way!
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Traci
I love the line tired from hiding my vulnerabilities, how true it is, now just feel that "tired" just be with it, sit with it and feel the energy of that struggle dissipate.
Meditation tapes, prayer, exercise, try reading "the power of now" such an excellent book for these times we are facing. Traci I am offering up my intentions for you tomorrow at mass, I have needed that before and I like you was looking for GOd to be here in a human to come and just take it all away. I feel your pain and empathize more than you know.
Theresa, I have so many vitamins I get confused and so expensive. Yesterday I went and had a vitamin infusion and I feel GREAT TODAY.
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theresa I didn't mean for you not to where the sleeve or get a sleeve. The s/sto look for as to being to tight is what i was referring to. So as Squid mentioned there are things you can do to make sure its not to tight. Plus thes are questions you can ask your PT. The LE threads may have answers.
Squid, being disconnected at times is normal. You know the s/s of depression. Since maybe you can't depend on someonelse seeing these in you, because your dog will love you any way you are.
Write down the s/s and do a check off, see what side of the line your on. I have to admit, since your fall there are days that I worry about you. Falls are hard enough to recover from without all the BC baggage
Steve just got home ---much news----love Sheila
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Janet,
You are right about the swimming...I'm sure it adds to my funk. I have been walking quite a bit at work since the other Nurse resigned, so I have been getting some exercise, but not up to a full sweat, which I think is important to getting those endorphins moving. I have a little stepper, that I may drag out later...although I am getting sleeeeeppppppyyy again
Most likely I am trying to hibernate. My Spirit Animal is Polar Bear, so maybe this is a touch of Bear Medicine. I also said the Our Father, Hail Mary and Glory Be at the end of every prayer. We always sang the Glory Be in our Church, so I have to sing it now. And you are right, it is time for an Angel Story, I have been thinking that as well.Michelle,
Thank you for all of the advice. I may go and just kick with a kickboard at the new Indoor Pool in DC tomorrow. It's supposed to be fantastic, and if my arm/boob is still an issue, I am sure I can improvise. I don't want to lose the momentum I had, and that's easy to do.I have never had a vitamin infusion, who does those for you? Is it a mix of vitamins? B's and C? Thank you for your prayers in advance, it means a lot.
Theresa,
I was just looking at a Church in Rockville MD (St. Raphaels) they list so many resources that they give money to, or support in some way or another. These are the same places that I work with on a daily basis. I am very interested in the book you mentioned, and I do feel a connection to the Franciscan tenants of life, if that's a way of saying it. In choosing a Church, I would want them to be connected to many of the homeless services so there would be volunteer opportunities. I was looking up Gift of Peace which is run by Nuns from the same order as Mother Theresa. We have sent some of our patients there, and they are pretty special in what they do. I also work with people that have dedicated their lives to caring for homeless, and the poor. It's good for the heart.
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Traci ~ hang in there girl, I feel just as gloomy inside of me too. The weather is not doing any good today either. My sister left late last night, she's not a great listener (explosive personality), but at least my sister visited me, otherwise, I don't have anybody on my side of family nearby. They are all several thousands of miles away, the closest is Toronto! I'm sorry the vulnerablilties hit again, we all have that side that likes to surface now and then. I call that warfare (not sure if it's the correct terminology but I think it is pretty close). I think that whenever I am getting nearer to God, they come and put a damper in my day. Example of that in my home, there's never an easy time, just when things are smooth, one of us gets sick, or the car will go zonk again. My husband has been fixing the darn SUV every few weeks. We are doing to give up soon. We used it 2 weekends ago, and luckily it got us home, then suddenly the antifreeze leaked. So husband had to get parts and fix the leak. Early this afternoon, he ran into the house saying that he swollowed antifreeze, and he ran into the shower. Meanwhile I called poison control. Initially I thought he swollowed a mouthful, but later determined that a couple of drops went into his mouth while the antifreeze splattered onto his hair and dripped into his mouth. He didn't swollow it but it was weird on his tongue. I almost had to bring him to ER !
Then this afternoon I zonked out in bed, feeling fatigued without even doing anything. I guess the rads are accumulating and it is starting to wear me out. Not a good feeling at all.
Michelle ~ congrats on your son, that's such an accomplishment.
Theresa ~ thanks for the cheer, yes it is half way through and I can't wait to get it all behind me. There's this dull, skin really dry sort of burning feeling at the axilla and left breast :-(
I picked up the Lymphdema book from library and will soon start on it.
Tori ~ glad that you are ok
Janet and others ~ thanks for prayers.
Sheila ~ how are you?
To all ~ The Power of Prayers !!! Amen!
xoxo
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That was a good soul purging, Traci. It sounds like you've been diving deeply into your soul. For many of us, it feels dark and scary and vulnerable because so much of what makes up "us" comes from our past experiences. Many of us have a lot of baggage, and we keep pulling that old baggage out of the closet. One of the benefits of the Sacrament of Penance or Reconciliation is that purging of old baggage and the grace to throw it out. Non-Catholics have been known to show up in confessionals, so I'm told! :-) But God and the Angels NEVER tire of us. Ever. That would be putting a human box around them. Whether we like it or not, God is with us, every single one of us... there's no escape... like our shadow. Which is why the Saints always tell us to pray constantly, whether at work or rest. I'm going to post a reading from Scripture that popped out at me and maybe you'd like to meditate on it too. - Oh, I just saw your new posting... yes, finding a church that fits is very important, with volunteer opportunities because you are such a helpful soul and have the need to nurture. And what the others are saying too... it's good you are opening up b/c if it's more than spiritual warfare that you're experiencing, you may need medical attention, such as anti-depressants, vitamins, exercise. It's all a big circle... you can't have balance until the mind, body and soul are at peace... if one is out of whack, it will bring down the others. Have you thought about a weekend retreat??
Psalm 139
O LORD, you have probed me, you know me:
you know when I sit and stand; you understand my thoughts from afar.
My travels and my rest you mark; with all my ways you are familiar.
Even before a word is on my tongue, LORD, you know it all.
Behind and before you encircle me and rest your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is beyond me, far too lofty for me to reach.
Where can I hide from your spirit? From your presence, where can I flee?
If I ascend to the heavens, you are there; if I lie down in Sheol, you are there too.
If I fly with the wings of dawn and alight beyond the sea,
Even there your hand will guide me, your right hand hold me fast.
If I say, "Surely darkness shall hide me, and night shall be my light" --
Darkness is not dark for you, and night shines as the day. Darkness and light are but one.
You formed my inmost being; you knit me in my mother's womb.
I praise you, so wonderfully you made me; wonderful are your works! My very self you knew;
my bones were not hidden from you, When I was being made in secret, fashioned as in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes foresaw my actions; in your book all are written down; my days were shaped, before one came to be.
How precious to me are your designs, O God; how vast the sum of them!
Were I to count, they would outnumber the sands; to finish, I would need eternity.
If only you would destroy the wicked, O God, and the bloodthirsty would depart from me!
Deceitfully they invoke your name; your foes swear faithless oaths.
Do I not hate, LORD, those who hate you? Those who rise against you, do I not loathe?
With fierce hatred I hate them, enemies I count as my own.
Probe me, God, know my heart; try me, know my concerns.
See if my way is crooked, then lead me in the ancient paths.
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HEHE Paula you and I both used the word "warfare" for Ms Traci! Great minds think alike! ;-)
Janet: Thankfully, no snow here but it was chilly and windy. I think they were calling for flurries further west of us. That's one thing I'll miss about living at the Jersey Shore ... we had less snow and ice.
Skip and I watched the grandsons tonight for a few hours. Oldest grandson is going to CCD and learning about his upcoming first penance. Then Holy Communion. He's all excited about the Lord and wanted to go over his lesson with me. We put the youngest one to bed and said our prayers. Maybe I'll get a priest in my family yet!! :-)
My four legged one is pestering, so I better put her out. God bless everyone!
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Psalm 139! My favorite!! Thanks, good night and God bless my beautiful sisters. xo
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Good Morning!
Such wonderful posts, thank you all. I have slept quite a bit in the last 24 hours, so i am grateful. I woke up to Austin City Limits, on our local PBS. I usually watch all of the Brit coms on Saturday night, as this was a family tradition. Sort of like watching with my parents. I used to listen to music all of the time, then stopped when I bowed out of "the party scene." Well, there was this great trio, a young woman Sarah Joanzs or something like that, and two young men playing soulful bluegrass, and what I would describe as Mountain Music, soulful calling. It was really beautiful, and caught me in a quiet place, when you just wake up. This music is very spiritual to me, so it was a lovely way to wake up. Then i started thinking about the life that supported this young women's God given talents...and how this was fostered for her, that she could bring them to fruition. Not all children have this support, and it is up to US and our schools to keep music, arts, and theater alive.
So that brings to mind warfare. and psalm 139 (Thank you Theresa) Since I watch a fair amount of TV, I can say that I feel for today's parents and grandparents, with the amount of negativity and bullying I see on TV shows aimed at children and teens. I love the Fashion show Project Runway, and so many (including myself) are outraged at the bullying that occurred on this season, and the fact that the bully "won" and it was biased judging. What does this have to do with Spirit? To me, these are the pictures of life today.We need to be outraged! Now imagine the teen watching Oxygen's Bad Girls and having this be the model of behavior. Sensationalism, the book Lord of the Flies got it right! I know we were not immune to this growing up, and my age is 43. When I walk home from work at night, there are kids lined up in their respective groups, and yes Gangs run there. Mixed in with the shoppers, children and passers by, we have had gunshots. I was out there once during a shooting. This weighs heavy on the soul, and yet we, the Adults, have to stand firm and rail against the madness. So yes, warfare can be even having the guts to stand tall and not move in the face of bullying. Paula, my Sister too is explosive. I used to be explosive, not in the same way, but we came from a family of anger. Granted, there were other families down the street that had us beat, but the mere fact that i can remember which families had screaming matches on a regular basis should say it all. I think this form of psychological warfare must be so sad for God to see. Such a cycle. So there are parts of my everyday that has to see this stuff, yet I can't turn away from it. I think it would be easier if I was a direct agent against it. But I do try and work with adults to help them with self esteem, getting out of abusive relationships etc...That's another reason why I was so happy to see that Church's listing of programs they support. Several were women's shelters/homes, and I have someone that needs a referral on Monday.
So today's Angel stories will be about our Angels who defend us. stay tuned
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Today's stories will come in a series of installments, as I already hit the wrong button and "poof!"
The first excerpts are from the Book, Embraced by the Light, by Betty J. Eadie, which is the story of her NDE, and we have already visited her story before.
The next part is from the chapter "The Greeting Party," and goes back further than I had originally planned. I figured I needed to re-look at my starting point, since we went "Poof!"
Into the Garden came a group of spiritual beings. Many were wearing soft pastel gowns now, reflecting, perhaps, the spirit of the location, as well as the occasion. They surrounded me, and I felt that they were gathering to celebrate a sort of graduation party for me. I had died (or graduated as their term seemed to indicate), and they were there to greet me. Their faces were beaming with delight as through they were looking at a child who had just enjoyed something delicious for the first time. I realized that I remembered them all from before my earth life, and I ran to them and hugged and kissed each one. My ministering Angels-my dear Monks-were there again, and I kissed them.
as I felt each of their Spirits, I realized they were there to support me. My escorts, who continued to act as my guides, now told me that I had died prematurely and that this wasn't really a graduation party, but a time to show me, what I would receive when I returned at the right time. They were very happy to receive me and support me, but they knew I would have to go back. Then they explained to me about death.
When we "die" my guides said, we experience nothing more than a transition to another state. Our spirits slip from from the body and move to a spiritual realm.
I understood that there are many levels of development, and we will always go to that level where we feel most comfortable. Most spirits choose to remain on earth for a short time and comfort their loved ones; families are subject to a lot more grief than the departed one. Sometimes the spirits will remain longer if the loved ones are in despair. They remain to help the loved ones' spirits heal.
They told me it is important to acquire knowledge of the spirit while we are in the flesh. The more knowledge that we acquire here, the further and faster we will progress there. Because of the lack of knowledge or belief, some spirits are virtual prisoners of this earth. Some who die as atheists, or those who have bonded to the world through greed, bodily appetites, or other earthly commitments find it difficult to move on, and they become earth-bound. They often lack the faith and the power to reach for, or in some cases even to recognize, the energy and light that pulls us toward God. These spirits stay on the earth until they learn to accept the greater power around them and let go of the world.
When I was in the black mass moving towards the light, I felt the presence of such lingering spirits. They reside there as long as they want to in it's love and warmth, accepting it's healing influence, but eventually they learn to move on to accept the greater warmth and security of God.
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Of all knowledge however, there is none more essential than knowing Jesus Christ. I was told he is the door through which we all return. He is the only door through which we can return. Whether we all learn of Jesus Christ here or while in the spirit, we must eventually accept him and surrender to his love.
My friends in the garden were full of love as they stood around me, and they realized I didn't want to go back yet, that I wanted to see more. In their desire to please me, they showed me much more.
Many Worlds
My memory was opened further than before, reaching back beyond the creation of our earth into eternities past. I remembered that God was the creator of many worlds, galaxies and realms beyond our understanding, and I wanted to see them. As the desire came, my thoughts gave me power, and I drifted away from the garden, escorted this time by two beings of light who then became my guides. Our spiritual bodies floated away from my friends and into the blackness of space.
Our speed increased, and I felt the exhilaration of flight. I could do whatever I wanted, go wherever I desired, go fast-incredibly fast-or go slow. I loved the freedom. I entered the vastness of space and learned it is not a void; it is full of love and light-the tangible presence of The Spirit of God. I heard a soft, pleasant sound, a distant but comforting sound that made me happy. It was a tone, similar to a tone of music, but universal but seemed to fill all the space around me. It was followed by another tone, at a different pitch, and soon I noticed something of a melody-a vast, cosmic sound that soothed and comforted me. The tones produced soft vibrations, and as they touched me, I knew that they possessed the power to heal. I knew that anything touched by these tones would receive the effects of their healing; they were like spiritual salve, expressions of love that mended broken spirits. I learned from the escorts traveling with me that not all musical tones are healing-that some can create within us negative emotional responses. I understood now that while I was on earth, that Satan had used these negative tones in music which actually produced illness in my mind and body.
Traci's thoughts
As an aside, I was thinking about this today before I opened up her book to find excerpts. Since I left the bars, etc....I have to be very careful with music. I have a heightened sensitivity to tones, and some music is very agitating to me. Also, the chemo has made my hearing very sensitive, so loud noises, and sounds, even those of truck engines, loud music in cars etc...makes me jump out of my skin. So this paragraph really resonated with me (they all do on a deep level, I just felt more understanding of why some music makes me feel really bad. ) Then I got to awaken to such beautiful music today...so it's about finding the right music to support the soul.
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So she continues...
Some of the details of what followed have been removed from my memory, but many impressions remain. I seemed to be gone for weeks, even months, visiting the many creations of God. As I traveled, I always felt the comforting presence of God's love. I sensed that I was "back" in my native environment and was doing only that which was natural. I traveled to many other worlds-earths like our own but more glorious, and always filled with loving intelligent people. We are all God's children, and he has filled the immensity of space for us. I traveled tremendous distances, knowing that the stars I saw were not visible from earth. I saw galaxies, and traveled to them with ease and almost instantaneous speed, visiting their worlds, and meeting more children of our God, all of them spiritual brothers and sisters. And all of this was a remembering, a reawakening. I knew that I had been to these places before.
stay tuned for more (if you want...the next chapter has the Warring Angels!)
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prayers for all my sisters and welcome Patty8.
While you all were praying last nite, mr. apple and I were enjoying the parish auction for the school, mr. apple drinking water and me drinking white wine and water. We almost bought a dog.
Off to church again.
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Apple,
Hum, do you think there is a dog in your future? guess what, i had a typo and wrote God instead of dog 0 -
Selecting a Body
I return to the Garden, and met my earlier escorts again. I had seen people progressing in the worlds I had visited, working toward to becoming more like our Father, and I was curious about our development on earth. How do we grow? My escorts were pleased with my question and took me to a place where many spirits prepared for life on earth. They were mature spirits, I saw no children spirits during my entire experience. I saw how desirous these spirits were of coming to earth. They looked upon life here as a school where they could learn many things and develop the attributes they lacked. I was told that we had all desired to come here, that we actually chosen many of our weaknesses and difficult situations in our lives so we could grow. I also understood that sometimes we were given weaknesses which would be for our good. The Lord also gives us gifts and talents according to his will. We should never compare our talents or weaknesses to another. We each have what we need; we are unique. Equality of spiritual weaknesses or gifts is not important.
The area immediately in front of and below me scrolled back, as if a window were opening, and I saw the earth. I saw both the physical world and the spiritual world. I saw that some of the righteous spirit children of our Father in Heaven did not choose to come here to this earth. They selected to stay as spirits with God and act as guardian angels for people here. I understood that there are other types of angels, including a type called "Warring Angels." It was shown to me that their purpose is to do battle for us against Satan and his angels. Although we each have protecting, or guardian, spirits to assist us, there are times when Warring Angels are necessary to protect us, and I understood they are available to us through prayer. I saw that they were giant men, very muscularly built, with a wonderful countenance about them. They are magnificent spirits.I understood simply by looking at them to struggle against them would be an act of futility.They were dressed like warriors, in head dress and armor, and I saw that they moved more swiftly than angels. But perhaps what set them apart was their aura of confidence; they were absolutely sure of their abilities. Nothing evil could daunt them, and they knew it. As they suddenly rushed off to some mission (which was not revealed to me), I was moved by their looks of concern; they understood the importance of their mission, and they knew, and I knew, that they would not return until it was accomplished.
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The next passage is one that I decidedly have more issues understanding or believing. I did get a lot out of your info Theresa, you gave me a website that talked about evil in such a way that I understood it better.
she continues...
Satan desires to have us, and sometimes when he marshalls his forces against us, that person will need special protection. All of us are always protected, though, by the fact that Satan cannot read our thoughts. He can however read our countenances which can almost be the same as reading our thoughts. Our auras, or countenances, display the feelings and emotions of our souls. God sees them, angels see them, and Satan sees them. even very sensitive people here can see them. We can protect ourselves by controlling our thoughts, by allowing the light of Christ to enter our lives. As we do this, the light of Christ will shine through us and actually appear in our countenances.
In a previous chapter she talks a lot about our spirits, and how it functions at a level most people are not aware of. She writes that the spirit communicates with God, being the receptor device that receives knowledge and insight from him.
There is also a quote in the chapter on Selecting a Body, that says "If you could see yourself before you were born, you would be amazed at your intelligence and glory. Birth is a sleep and a forgetting." (this is one of my favorite quotes)
and I will now share some stories of our Angel protectors...
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Traci: Such nice NDE/Angel stories. I love hearing them. It goes so nicely with the gospel reading at Mass today:
Luke 20:27,34-38
Some Sadducees - those who say that there is no resurrection - approached him and they put this question to him.
Jesus replied, ‘The children of this world take wives and husbands, but those who are judged worthy of a place in the other world and in the resurrection from the dead do not marry because they can no longer die, for they are the same as the angels, and being children of the resurrection they are sons of God. And Moses himself implies that the dead rise again, in the passage about the bush where he calls the Lord the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob. Now he is God, not of the dead, but of the living; for to him all men are in fact alive.'As humans, we tend to be so petty and just don't have a clue as to God's ways. I am convinced more and more as I go through my journey that I need to let go of earthly, material ways. Warring Angels.. yes indeed, St. Michael is one of them. "Although we each have protecting, or guardian, spirits to assist us, there are times when Warring Angels are necessary to protect us, and I understood they are available to us through prayer." Available to us through prayer... we NEED to ASK and can't assume that they will be here. We need to pray, "Lord, send your angels to help me!!" and the Lord will send those messengers out immediately.
Lots of thoughts to contemplate today. :-)
Apple: I love auctions. They were auctioning a dog?
Sheila: I am copying and pasting the prayers from the beginning, but doing 10 pages at a time. I'll get them posted.... And I'm not *not* going to wear the sleeve.... I've read Laura's LE thread and know the importance of preventive maintenance. I want to break it in, like Traci suggested, so it won't be too tight for the 8 hours I'll have to wear it on the 20th and 26th.
Praying for you all... lifted you all up at Mass today... especially those having troubles and fatigue this past week...
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Theresa,
Perfect message from Mass. I do call Warring Angels when I feel threatened in any way. Thanks for reminding me that Michael is a Warring Angel. I know there are some books about the Hierarchy of Angels, which I want to become more proficient in. My neighbors just had their first son, and they named him Raphael. I said, oh the Arch Angel of Healing! And he smiled, as they both knew this as well. Neat moment.
O.k., here comes the Angel story...
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This story is from Where Angels Walk, by Joan Wester Anderson, and it is titled Silent Circle.
Viola Rockett had always been a responsible person, graduating from her small high school in Charleston, Mississippi, in three years with a 95% average. Falling in love and marrying at 19 was a challenge., but she handled her new responsibilities with he usual maturity and common sense. "I've never been easily scared or suspicious," she explains. " I came to know God when I was thirteen and always had a pretty firm faith after that."
Life with her young husband, A.J. wasn't easy, however. It was tough to find work in their part of Mississippi. Two little daughters were born during those years, straining their budget even more.
When Viola was twenty-five, the couple moved to Mathiston, Mississippi, a small town with just a few stores and a post office. A.J. had been repairing and selling used cares to support his family, so he rented an old repair and body shop with with stripped-down autos, tools, and junk-an easy structure to break into, if there had been anything worth stealing.
A room that had once been the auto-parts store connected to the body shop."Two of the walls were made of ceiling -to-floor glass-like showroom windows-with ceiling-to-floor shades," Viola describes it. "The only light bulb hung in the kitchen area, with a string to pull it on and off." Here, in this room, the family lived.
Viola had never known such isolation. A.J. was gone several nights a week, and buying and selling cars, and she was without a phone, cut off from a support system of family and friends. Viola tried hard to be brave, but at night the room was especially scary. She felt vulnerable with those long windows in front of her, even though the shades were pulled down. It was common knowledge in their town that she was often alone at night. What would she do if anyone tried to break in? How could she protect herself and her daughters?
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