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  • blessings2011
    blessings2011 Posts: 1,801

    After 7 weeks, I FINALLY got back in to see my Acupuncturist this morning. 

    One needle hurt so bad she had to take it out. It was the one connected to the meridian that controls the hand and fingers. I've had more joint pain and stiffness, and a new bout of arthritis in my ring finger that has been aching lately. She said the energy was really blocked. Before she took the needle out, I did feel my hands loosen up, though. 

    Now she's going on vacation for two weeks.... and I can't see her again for three more weeks. I need this every week!

    My head still hurts where that needle was. Bawling

    I had to eat a Reese's Peanut Butter Easter Egg to make it through the day.

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    Oh u peeps are busy, BTW this is peep time anyway. Hope u all will feel good when this week end over with. Everyone sounds like a big Easter weekend so that's good, happy times and Blessing an Easter egg candy is right in order.

  • ziggypop
    ziggypop Posts: 276

    Wow am I behind. I'm just going to try to do a little ketchup here in some random order that I am sure noone will understand. 

    Sassy - synchronicity - at the end of the bed I took pics of, I put in Lily of the Valley ( just before you wrote) and I have some in a couple other places that I put it in last year. Crocuses too are very much favorites of mine - I've put in at least a hundred little bulbs since I moved back here - but I also just ordered some special ones to be shipped here in the Fall - some pink ones that are called snow crocuses that bloom even earlier than the rest, and some really lovely white ones - I will put them in a special Sassypatch. And then you will have to come and see them & then you can visit Claire Truesdale too. And you can see Chevy if she's still living in the doghouse with me - and I know she'll show you some great dance moves. Do you have Christmas tree lights up all year? I LOVE that. I like the little white twinkly ones and the big fat colored ones .. so pretty. Am glad you and spooks and phyllisteaksandwich are having a good time.. no surprise there. 

    Chevszter - Your house is so sweet.. it looks like it came right out of a fairy tale. I bet little kids knock on your door all the time just because. Too bad you're living in the doghouse with me right now, but someday they will let us out. I've been singing "PleeeAse release me, let me go.." in my best Patsy voice for awhile now & it'd probably work better if you joined in instead of messing around with Vinnie and that pole. A 'crick' to my mind is just a little trickle of water that only really gets going if it rains & but the cricks run into creeks that are bigger - maybe a couple feet of running water at least all the time. But mostly I just like the word 'crick'. 

    All of Yall with Jerky husbands who also may be wonderful husbands sometimes - Just know that if it's more than the run of the mill tired of each other's stuff, that there are options. Sometimes it just isn't worth it to try to make things work if all that happens is that you end up hurt. All the stuff - financial & care and all ... it can work out other ways. Hugs if you are going through bad times - it's awfully hard. 

    Cami - What do I do? I kicked around for a long time doing some stuff but getting myself in a lot of trouble. Then I went back to school & really hit it hard and did well. Am working on my PhD (but reconsidering for a number of reasons). I was teaching at the University of Texas in San Antonio. Then my pop got really sick (cancer all over), my mother who is 86 has dementia. So I moved back to Ohio to take care of my dad & then I was diagnosed, then a week after rads ended he died. I don't want to put my mom in assisted living - so I'm living here with her. Right now I don't have a 'job' but I'm thinking that I would like to do something that would allow me to make some cash but still stay with my mom. 

    Nettie - Worrying about mets is rough; from what I can tell from my own experience and what I have seen on these boards, many women have this fear come on strong after chemo/rads etc. end. I think, (putting my psychoanalysis hat on here) that it's that we are actively involved & have a team of people actively involved with doing whatever we need to to stop the disease. Then all the sudden that ends and we're supposed to not think about it anymore other than taking our pills. But then there's time to 'think' and have all the built up scaredness that we pushed aside for a long time surface. From what I can tell it just takes some time & then that fear dissipates. Someone (on these boards) said she had done therapy & what they had her do was imaging the very worst scenario. Just sort of go all the way there. So I tried that & one thing I realized was that if I were in that worst spot, one thing I am quite sure that I would regret would be having spent any of my time worrying about things that might not happen and that I had no control over. That, I think helped me. 

    Long post .. more later

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

     Oh Ziggy u r a good hearted trooper making sure u'r parents have been taken care of-To me that means so much, such love and respect but it's not easy I know but it's nice to hear. Oh no wonder why u understand all these big words, jeez what do u and Chevy talk about--her vocabulary is so limited like mine, in fact I think I just used a big word for me, I am impressed so maybe Chevy throws one in every so often too. OK I get it, U'r teaching her so when she writes here she's going to sound smart, but we all know the truth behind her past, so make sure u tell her  the stilettos tell it all and now we see the high hair so we can really tell.

  • ziggypop
    ziggypop Posts: 276

    Fierce bluebird - Right there in your pocket. There in your pocket with flowers and wonderful wine and mangos and lots of baby animals. Just waiting for you to get better so that we can dance on a ledge and sing really loud (and offkey). 

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    OK explain why--she just got out of the hospital--what is happening??? Anyone know.???

  • ziggypop
    ziggypop Posts: 276

    And how very like you baby blue to be wishing us all well while you are going into surgery. 

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Posts: 15,894

    FBB in your brain and in your pocket -------go girl -----believe and have faith, and keep cancers evil & hatred from you Your spirit and soul can never be affected if you say NO. God love you and may all the saints in heaven be at your side . esapecially St. Michael.  Father Solanus please, intervene in our dear FBB behalf. Amen

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    Amen.

    Sas do u have any thinking about this surgery, I'm so confused.

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Posts: 15,894

    Ziggy, OH MY---memory--forgot we had the talk of Hudson. PLEASE, PLEASE find Claire and give her the biggest hug from her teacher from Paramedic school. She'll tell you exactly who I am. God love her. She is one of his treasures. Hardest working volunteer I have ever known. Then ask her for updates on everyone I would have known. She'll know who they would have been. Tell her I send love in abundance and thanks for knowing her, and having been touched by her life. I was her teacher, but she taught me so much by her character and being. No accolade can begin to describe her and how she brought volunteerism in EMS respect.

  • spookiesmom
    spookiesmom Posts: 8,178

    Hehehehe I'm gonna rat on Sas. Not only does she like Christmas lights, she has a fully decorated tree in her living room!!!! And other decorations scattered around. 

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    Oh I love it--when I lived alone I always had a tree up and lights all over (in fact my kids left my lights around my window) and sometimes I would change it up for the season, like eggs, or flags so keep on going Sas.

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Posts: 15,894

    Ziggy wrote that with every word of truth,  but left it by itself in case you can print it off and  take it to her. I hope Hudson has done something to permanently recognize her contribution to the community. Funny story --I thought it was funny---one of Hudson's volunteers caught me of guard one day and said-he asked for a 50% increase in pay. I said "What?". He said "50% of 0 is still 0" His initials were T.S.  She'll get it. 

    So understand the story of caring for parents. Went through the same thing. Dad was a trial,  but every moment, retrospectively, I would have only been better charged to deal with all the hospital /dialysis errors. Dad lived through the F**king horror of dialysis. 7 months with me, 5 hospital and dialysis errors. 4 --I caught, the last I didn't catch.

    The last, they did thurs dialysis, then a friday dialysis----back to back to dialysis can be done for medical reasons. His was done b/c the hospital didn't do dialysis on the weekend. He went into cardiac arrest on that Friday dialysis. It was done out of convenience for staff. 

    The irony, I spent the entire day with student medics teaching how to run an arrest. His arrest team and surroundings were the most f**KED UP--------1917 BUILDING, NO CRASH CART, NON- ACLS TRAINED NURSE, NO SUCTION, NO OXYGEN.  That took along time to get over.

    But never do I regret them being with us. 

    Mom was different, lived with us for 13 years and my sister for 5. Wish she had been with us for the 18. But it worked well, Twin had retired that last 5, they played allot. Odd the day mom left, I knew she'd never be back. I have premonitions. 

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Posts: 15,894

    Spookie ---yes the whole house is designed around Christmas. YAY. The remants that I can't or won't put away are just that-------can't do---won't do----or their high, ------the tree has a dress----I describe it as a dress b/c at  one look, it looks like a Ballroom dress from the 1800's   It started as a cover, but then evolved. I kept it off, just for Philly's visit----and then you sweetie came. I wish we had put the dress on for you to see ---It's very special. Beautiful. It's perfect in the antique room.

    Alas, hope DS's next house has an antiques room , b/c this house he's closing on this week  couldn't even come close to the hand me downs,

    In the family, I'm the keeper of the history of the historical pieces. Tough job when we all went to so many less children. I have started divesting where I can. But it's hard b/c now states get in the way.

    Spookie so where did you put the jar?

    I talked Phylly into a platter before she left. Meant to check it today for pattern. I know it was Federal glass. What's fun about that is FG produced a pattern for all states . I didn't put an envelope on the glass. Wouldn't it be so cool if I gave her NEBRASKA.

  • dwill
    dwill Posts: 248

    Hi Sas, Reading your last post brought back memories of my dear late mother. I dropped out of grad school and moved back home to take care of my mom who was in the last stages of renal failure. My mother never saw a nursing home.  Although she had 7 kids living, it was only one brother and myself that took full care of her.  The others either could not stand to see my mom in her last stages or didn't have the time to give care to someone who is fully incapacitated.  I loved my mom so much, I would do anything for her and when bathing her and taking care of other needs I would do so to allow her have as much dignity as I could.  My mom stayed home until her last days and then died in the hospital with us kids by her side.  My tribute to my mom now is I live in her house almost 20 years since she passed.  I swing on her wooden swing on the patio--which I get refinished as often as I need; it was her favorite place to be--swinging on the patio.  I plant flowers and bushes and trees in the yard she loved planting in.  My mom lives within me.   Sas--thanks for bringing the memories to the forefront  again.  My mom was and always will be the most important person in my life.

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Posts: 15,894

    Aw Dwilli, such a story, , such happy memories----so happy---God bless you Dwilli-------so, happy in this blessed period of our belief in God that we can carry such happy memories. God be with you L&H&P's sassy

  • Holeinone
    Holeinone Posts: 1,418

    Teka, thanks for letting us know about F. Bluebird, do you have any more details? 

    Bluebird,  keeping you close in thought & hoping this is a small bump in your road to better days...

    Sas & dwill, wonderful memories about your parents, nice to hear. I was not close to my mom, sad, &  I wish it had been different. I had a bond with her older sister, my aunt Maxine...she died of bc at the age of 83...

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Posts: 15,894

    The memory falters------it didn't happen -----or maybe I'm right and haven't found it , but here' a glass link and I;m going to find or seek what I think I remember 

    http://www.antiquesaltshakers2.com/statesshakers.h...

  • Holeinone
    Holeinone Posts: 1,418

    thanks Teka, I do remember now that she needed to get that out to have a MRI....damn, my memory is scary. I have always had a sharp memory, but since PFC....Yikes..

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    Oh Thanks Tek for tellg us I've been thinking all kinds of things. Oh poor FBB surgeries are so hard on u'r body too.

    Dwill I loved u'r story about u and u'r mom==even tho it was a very sad time it was a very loving time--mine is similar and I miss her all the time, sometimes I want to call her and tell her something and I think Oh no after all this time. And with me I miss my dad so much, I was actually closer to my dad cuz he was much more oh whatever than my mom so I'm more like him and I was so lucky to have them so much of my life too. My dad died 8 yrs ago--so I was very lucky that way. And he got to hold Joey and talk with him and kept on saying he's going to be big and tall feel his feet and hands they're so big and he's got to grow into them. So far he's been right.

  • jwoo
    jwoo Posts: 931

    just jangling around in FBB's pocket! Hope everything went well. 

    Such touching stories about parents.  Thanks for sharing. 

    Luvmygoats, glad your eyes are doing well! Sunday may be a washout for us- i will take the rain though!

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    Hi Jwow glad u'r jangling, are U doing all right?

  • jwoo
    jwoo Posts: 931

    I am doing okay Cami. having a little LE flare due to all of the PT stuff i have been doing (for LE)  One more day in my workweek, and am ready for it to be done. I can't wait to retire! only 30 more years to go….

    How are you? and I keep looking at your photo trying to figure out what is happening there.. :)

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

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  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    Jwow that's my GS at Halloween. u can hardly see it--Oh LE is a struggle to have do u wear all the compression crap? or does this help u not to wear it.

  • jwoo
    jwoo Posts: 931

    ahhh- ya- it is such  a tiny photo!  

    wearing it now. i got a few long sleeve athletic compression shirts, and have sleeves and gloves to wear when i work out, but i am not looking forward to wearing them once summer shows up here! with the hot flashes that tamoxifen is giving me + 110 degrees with high humidity, I will be doing good to not pass out. so far mother nature has been kind, but i know these mild temps wont last much longer. I keep trying to convince the BF to move to England, but he isn't game. :/  He's from Illinois, so loves the heat here. I would rather be buried in snow most of the year. 

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    I know they are so warm and them get itchy--(well to me anyway)

  • jwoo
    jwoo Posts: 931

    yep- so itchy! i think it is from it pulling hair. making me bonkers

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Posts: 15,894

    Jwoo=itchies----i was crazy with them---wide spread----someone told me to use ice packs over the areas----it worked to quiet IT for a time. Then we mad sure the packs were on ice and avaiable all the time

  • camillegal
    camillegal Posts: 15,711

    Good Morning Ladies and maybe 1 gentleman and one lady on the pole and one ankled monitored women--OK u all know who u are--nuff said

    Well this is the Holiday week-end and it's a quiet one here anyway. Oh we'll do the ham and all but Joey is staying home and I will too cuz of his foot and he's even awkward on those crutches.

    geeze we never talked about egg coloring, maybe we will I don't know ---he usually goes by my other DD1 and they do them on Friday nite but not this yr. So Leslie might have to do it--I hate that stuff--I never liked doing kid stuff, I did it but I didn't like it as a kid why would I like it as a grown up. I remember having newspaper all over the table and something with vinegar and food coloring when I was a kid and my sister and I complained thru the whole thing--are we done yet? That's about all we said. My mom never helped but I think she liked the look of having different colors in a bowl when company came. Cuz no one really cared?????????????? There is a little girl (Joey's age) that is an atheist here and she not only doesn't believe in God she doesn't believe in Santa or tooth fairy--and tlls everyone Well Joey said he doesn't believe in the easter bunny cuz bunnies just can't do these things but he does believe in the tooth fairy and Santa, and I asked hm why--and he said anyone who doesn't believe in God can't be right about other things too. So so far he really believes in Santa and the tooth fairy, of course I embellish stories about it and we talk about God and Jesus all the time==again I'm a big story explainer.

    Oh I'm talking about nothing again, u know how I am. Just talk say nothing. that's me. But u guys always put up with me. Thank you.

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