Single life after a mastectomy
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Lily - oh i am so sorry to hear you are still not feeling well. may be go to another hospital.
BB - i hope the health care will work out for the best for you and every person who needs it. it's just not fair to be sick and worry about health insurance.
E - skating class..!! that sounds fun.
Jazzy - how's your day hanging out with friend??
i had another exhaust week and just trying to relax at the weekend. i don't want to say too much negative stuff here since it's nothing comparing to other ppl's issues. but recently i started to wonder what's the point of working so hard. what's the meaning of life to work for a successful career. i am just so exhausted about life right now.
i reached out to a friend at work with some textings, who's 10 years younger. and felt much better when i had some sort of human connections. i guess i am feeling a bit lonesome tonight.
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HI June , skating was fun lol
I know exactly what you mean. I sometimes ask myself that question .what is the point of life?
We are like robots these days
I have to admit me too I sometimes feel lonely but at the same time glad I am alone? Hard to explain lol
Hope you all have a good night and a wonderful week ahead
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Good evening ladies- I had a great time hanging out with my friend today. She is one of my BFFs and we can talk about everything. We have both worked a lot the past year on busy consulting jobs and have not seen each other as much. We had some delicious wines and tapas and it was a perfect afternoon. Just having the space to do that feels amazing to to me.
BB- oh all the fasting and the holding and all the rest for the tests. I hate that too. I hope everything goes well tomorrow and that your next apt with the endocrinologist goes well too. Let us know how things are coming along for you as you would like to share.
June- thanks for asking about my day! Well, I just want to do interesting work and get paid well at this point and agree working hard to try to get ahead no longer has the allure it used to. Overworking, those accomplishments that bring recognition, etc. no longer appeal to me. Maybe the same for you? Do you think you need another environment where you can thrive more than work so much? Some of my clients sites are a pressure cooker, so I totally get it. But I get to leave them eventually, different in the FT world.
E- congrats on the skating class! You have a new sport to do in the winter! Winters do go faster when you have winter sports to do.
BB- I wish life were different and more people could be there for others, married or not. A good partner in difficult times can be a lifesaver.
Washington seems to be all over the place right now. ACA, then the wall with Mexico, this weekend immigration. Executive order du jour. I think the reality of replacing ACA is setting in. We may be okay for 2017, but I am also not sure. I tell myself I have insurance through February at this point.
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jazz is so good you went out with your friend.I love hearing about your experiences is like bb once said we close our eyes and can see all you are looking at lol I was tired this afternoon after I dry my afro straight I sat in my bed and I look at the time is was 6pm I said oh hell ya a nap could be good. I turned off the lights and had a nap but over did it woke up at 8pm lol had not cook lunch vegetables for lunch tmw or prepare the dough for baking in the morning so I got up in a rush di both and now I need to do some reading lol so here is what it looks like I ll bake in the morning I find that bread is best when the dough has lots of time to rise
It should double the in zise I ll take another picture in the morning. This is a Philippines bread I really like .I will bring some for my breakfast on the go .
Good night all
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E- ooh yummy! Bring some of that over here!
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I triple the size and so yummy I ll have for breakfast soon.
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Looks delicious E!! Are you cooking those in the regular oven or using one of those little ovens?
BB- Please check in......
Tired. 2 more stitches came out last night! I thought that 'spot' was clear. Evidently not. There was a stitch laying right across the top, and then a knot of stitch came out and left a little indent where it was laying. I have honey on them this morning. Hoping to ease out anything else that may be in the other spot.....
Hope all have a good day. It's going to be a crazy one here
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Good morning girls,
simplicity yes regular shity oven, i am using a little trick which is to place a small round oven dish with water wile to bake. it helps a lot. learned that from youtube lol i will post a picture so u see what i mean. I do want a small conventional oven but i cant afford one ;(( the lowest i have seen it is $279 plus tax here which is 14% so no cant do lol
The oven i want is call Breville smart B0V845BSS
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That was from a sister on another thread. Plenty of mojo around BCO I think!
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lol too funny
OK simplicity here is what I mean
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Ugh just a bit lower Jazz!?!? Tease lol
Enerva, thats cool! Probably helps with moisture? E's daughter bakes a lot of various breads.
Id like to learn thou
So tired. Just did 3 labs and got 100 on each
I need to study more but bleh Brain hurt0 -
lol ya that guy is hot.
I am off now just on my way to the metro now.
The day went fast dye to issues. Also got an invite to a birthday gathering this Friday after work. I will go for at least 1 drink in order to meet a fee people. I hate it but in my job if I don't go and meet people I won't get connections to pull me out.
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wow jazz I just realized that we lost Rose too recently ; (
Something is not right so many people gone lately is just so brutal.
So I still haven't heard from a friend who is going through this now. I'm hoping she get well and that this will pass and I wish we heard some real good news that the cure for this nightmare is over.
Sending you a hug ladies
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OK my single ladies fking valentine 's day is coming again and I found a few great quotes lol
Lol
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Enerva- I like the one of the person with the gun pointing it at cupid. Screwed up is right. I bet we can all attest to that one? I am glad you are going out on Friday, even going for an hour will be a nice diversion. Hope you meet some interesting people to chat with!
And yes, we lost our sister Rosevalley. There are sisters on these threads really having a rough time of it right now, especially the Stage IV sisters.
Simplicity- ha ha, you want more of that fellow! Congrats on passing your quizzes.
I focused on a long overdue thing today to go through a couple boxes from my childhood home from when we cleaned out our mothers house 12 years ago when she moved. I have some of the things from the boxes in the house (dishes, crystal, etc.) but ended up taking far too much stuff and no place to put it. Anyways, after doing some cabinet clean out recently and passing on a few of her things through consignment and donations, I told myself it was time to get in to those boxes and make some final decisions on what to keep or let go of. I could not do that while she was alive and she has been gone five years this March. Now I have the items to donate packed back up (many mismatched sets that won't be good for anything but that), and kept some a few goodies that I want to have from our family home. With that, I made a whole shelf plus another half pf one free for some things I need to store.
Going through old things can bring up a lot of memories and sometimes not easy ones. But nothing about the family memories got to me today. I had some nice thoughts of all the things my mom used to have and do for us to make our house feel like a home. But those moving boxes were also a reminder of a very difficult time when we had to take over her care, then later move her near my sister (and thus, clear out that house and get it sold). That was a very difficult time in my life, and feel relieved I won't be staring at those boxes anymore. Everything feels like a process with letting go........
Seeing the MO tomorrow. Will let you know how things go. I am getting my Prolia shot and plan to keep the following few days quiet as I know I may be achy.
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jazz lol
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Lol
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E- ha ha, bring money instead. And that winning Powerball ticket so I can retire!
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yes , Lotto Max for moi lol
how i was thinking about that last night. When and how will i be able to retire!!
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E- well I am working to pay off my house so I don't have to choose these difficult projects I end up doing. That is my first step towards having a better employment situation the last 10 years of my working life. But then again, I just see myself always doing something, it will just change with time.
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I think i will just enjoy reading about yours Jazz lol i think i will have to work till i am out cold lol
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E- I expect to work until I can't. I don't see a benefit to retirement being single. More connection with people and life being in the work world. I just want to do something different (like teach yoga to cancer patients) eventually.
BB- I was at the store after my breakfast meeting and found those sugar free cookies I was telling you about. Went to a different store in town and found the wafers in four flavors so I bought one of each! The cookies and creme ones taste just like oreos, they are DIVINE! Don't eat too many though because the artificial sweetener can act like a laxative and it can also be too many carbs. I think you will like these!
Looks like they may sell them at Walmart which of course, is everywhere. I got mine at Smith's here in NM, which is part of the Kroger chain.......
https://voortman.com/product/sugar-free-cookies-n-...
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jazz those look good lol
I got another email saying thanks for applying but no can't hire you lol
I am hating the no interview thing
I honestly need to win the lotto I just saw my mortgage and I still owe $214k how will I ever pay that off.
Now I am worry about my taxes cuz I must declare the rent income and such so it is going to be a lot to pay the useless gov which think single people must pay for breathing the air
Anyway just the normal down self at the bogging of the year when I look back and ahead and see no clarity as per what is next?
Must be the approach of my manager giving me more responsibilities today but off course no remuneration or nothing .
How is your back bb?
Hope the test went OK
Oh there is something good this month we have a long weekend yaaayy
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OK I am on my way back .
From school soo tired
I have to go to that therapy tmw n I wish I didn't have to.
My first accounting quiz is Monday I ll ry to study all weekend
Hope u are all OK is so cold here but it's Feb and u am so happy cuz March is almost here lol
I tell myself that every day
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Hi ladies- back from the MO and all is well. We talked today about where I am in the five year process and he says he is not recommending that I do more than 5 years on the AIs. With my particular pathology (early cancer, no node involvement, slow growing), my risk for reoccurrence is low. He said there are new studies out that suggest I would not benefit from 10 years on the drugs. So next March, I will be done with the AIs next January with the Prolia shots too. We do my next bone density test end of the year.
I always thought after five years you stop being followed by these docs. Apparently not so. My MO says even though I won't be doing the bi-yearly imaging or endocrin therapy, he will still want to follow me for at least 10 years. He said all cancer patients have a risk even up to 20 years later for late reoccurrence. Well, at least I won't have all the other stuff to do, just a check in with him. He is one of my favorite providers.
Glad to be done with this check up process now and won't have to think about this again until July.
E- sorry about not getting an interview friend. So hard to find the right work.
Can you sell your condo? Or is the market not good to get what you bought it for? I would have a hard time paying that amount off too.
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HI jazz I am so glad you won't be doing 10 years of those pill's I bet your overall will be wonderful once off next year. Congratulations
As per my condo nah I won't sell it yet market for my condo is not that great. I will leave it for as long as I can.
I am more worry about my no getting away from that department situation for now. But I ll meet some people on Friday hopping to make some progress with conections I will also keep playing the lottery as always we never know if I can get it and take care of that money hole I am in lol
Hoping you can get some sleep and good luck on the movie. Silence let us know how it is
G night
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Thanks E. Wishing you some better work and improved real estate values so make your life a bit easier.
Also from yesterday, my MO referred to my bc as luminal A, a term I had never heard before. I did some research on this and found this page on BCO that talks a bit more about the molecular subtypes of bc. I am familiar with the other clinical classifications like IDC, hormone positive, the staging, etc. but thought this was interesting info with respect to the risk around certain types of cancer. He spoke to this related to my need not to go beyond 5 years on the adjuvent therapy. Thought I would share this with you if it is helpful during your conversations around your own medical recommendations for the drug duration.
http://www.breastcancer.org/symptoms/types/molecul...
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I don´t know what to make of any of it as I had two KI67 results - one was 75% and the other was 25%.............I am not sure I want another 5 years on AI´s as feel totally unfeminine now, like an 80 year old, all dried up and shrunken in places that should be blooming.................
Someone I know died of cáncer yesterday, they were not given the correct treatment at the right time and essentially, in my opinión and that of others with experience of cáncer, were not treated at the right time or adequately thus effectively killing someone still way too young to die (50)......leaves me feeling even more unsettled and unsafe as its same hospital I am under...........................
Am I only one who has this kind pf generalised heaviness every day? I think its worse at momento as not been able to exercise and that keeps me happier but walking is still a challenge right now............
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Lily55, no I don't think you are the only one. I lost 3 lifer friends in 2 months time. Then add dealing with your own stuff, life, everyday things.
imo, my brain is my worst enemy right now. It wants to move move move, but my body says uh uh, which plays into feeling inadequate, depressed, sad that I can't do all that I can 'think of'. And there's so much to do!!!
Definitely have my moments, but they seem to be fewer and fewer. I also find myself using other people to boost my spirits, and I need to get away from that (I am a firm believer that happiness come from inside).
So, trying to set new boundaries while learning my body's new limitations, and trying to push those limitations without pushing too hard...*sigh* It's a hard balance to say the least.
I worry as I see friend after friend having recurrences. Now that I am in this boat, I see them everywhere it seems.
hugs to all of us. Hope you have been feeling a bit better....
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