Single life after a mastectomy

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  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited February 2017

    BB- I finally located that book I mentioned I had for Type 2 diabetes. It is called The Type 2 Diabetes Diet Book and bought it awhile back as my sugar was going up. I am going to pull one of the recipes to make for myself and just found a recipe for low carb lasagna. They have an 8 day cleansing diet too, but think the discussions and recipes may be more helpful to you. They have it on Amazon for $14.

    Hope this is helpful to you!

    Off to get my blood work done for my trip to the endocrinologist next week.

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited February 2017

    Hi, Well yesterday at the metro someone stole my cellphone ya unreal first time ever but it happened very fast and at lease they left the cellphone wallet in my bag, the person was nice enough to leave that and i am piss but not so piss cuz my ids and interact cards were in there so at least they took the phone only. now i am waiting for my provider to send me a replacement which ended up costing $150.00 AHHH i was not prepare to spend that money so be short of cash till next pay. i Honestly hate living like this with no extra $ for nothing. but i had 2 options. 1- pay $70.00 and sign up for another 2 years contract. 2- pay $150 plus tax and get the same phone as a replacement by using my guaranty which i have been paying every month and i thought about it i rather pay for the replacement and not be hook into another contract for another 2 years? so no phone since i am waiting for them to send to me by courier.

    Other than that i am going to school tonight and i am just feeling down maybe the losing my phone with all my contacts and photos etc.

    i also had to wake up by myself usually my phone does that lol Which amazes me how good my brain was at waking up this morning at 5:30am

    i wish you all a great day

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited February 2017

    E- so sorry your phone got stolen. Here in the US, stolen electronics end up on Craig's list. I found my stolen lap top from years ago when that got snatched, and set up a sting with the cops but then the computer was gone. Not sure if you have similar lists like that in Canada, but be watching for it.

    Did you file a police report? Often you can do it on line. Always time and expense with this stuff. Cost me a few hundred to replace my broken window in my car earlier this month after it got broken in to. People suck.

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited February 2017

    Hi ladies- I had a blood draw yesterday and just checked my results on my blood sugar (A1C) and it was 5.7. It dropped from the last labs in late December that were 6.5. My endocrinologist has got things working for me in a much better way. Between the weight loss and better blood work, we should have a good visit next Tuesday!

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited February 2017

    Hi ladies, well i honestly dont care much for the stolen phone what piss me off is the useless post office service i got today.

    so i was tracking the delivery of the replacement phone all day 2 days with no phone i was going mental lol then i see at the end of the day an update saying returned to sender ,,,,, i call the post office and asked what the hell is going on?

    they say it was been returned to sender and that i should contact the sender. I asked if there was a way for me to pick it up they say nop man you must call the sender and verify the address.

    REALLYYYYYY????? AAAAAUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHH i wanted to enter the phone line and eat the lady s head off lol

    so here i called the phone provider and tell them i am frustrated i need a phone. and that the post office was not helping and they sent back the phone that i needed to confirm the address and off course the address was wrong . it appears who ever wrote the shipping lavel included the intersection as the main street so. no way to do anything. i asked if the entire thing could be canceled and that i could walk across the street and get a new phone from the provider they say nop they could no cancel the replacement order that i must sit and wait another 2 to 3 business days . So you guys i am so so so piss now no phone i have to reach home and check emails with my laptop nothing else i can do

    i also had my therapy this morning and my right side hurts and she said 2 more and i am done. my next appointment is next tuesday and wed i ll see my bs . I still did not get any new as per the job i was interviewed for. but i sent my application to another job opening i saw today so there i keep waiting ;(


    good night ladies i ll now do some studying and then bed

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited February 2017

    We had an unexpected death in the family a few days ago on my father's side of the family. She was a bc survivor, although I don't believe it is what took her in the end. A young woman with a young son left behind. Pretty heartbreaking.

    Wishing you all a good weekend

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited February 2017

    Hi ladies so yesterday after work one of the kids co-op student she is a sweet 20 year old Chinese girl invited me to go to movies and dinner.

    i was happy to the movie but a little not so much into the dinner since i never eat dinner and it can mess me up but i went with her.

    She loves me cuz i took on the roll of teaching her and i help her a lot i just felt terrible went i realized she was been treated unfair she was isolated in the office and no one was teaching her anything only taken advantage off long history . But we are now very close i mean we take breaks together and lunches lol

    so we watched a movie called GET OUT! bb you must watch it sooo good.

    then she introduce me to a Japanese restaurant and the soup was amazing i never thought i was going to enjoy that lol but it was so good i ll defiantly go back ;) i will bring my friend the one who has a cosco card lol one day though not soon. i found the link to the restaurant if you guys want to see what it is like. This girl always goes to Japan with her parents and she says this noodles soup is a close as the real Japanese ones are.

    http://www.santouka.co.jp/en


    i will study now, i feel so estrange with no phone ;((

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited February 2017

    bb it came out yesterday and i must say it surprised me lol i hoped you get to watch it :)

    i will start to study waisted time watching videos of a guy called rob proctor on face book lol


  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited February 2017

    BB i also want to go see one called Before i fall , looks good 

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited February 2017

    did you guys read about the berry in Australia been used in trails to cure Cancer?

    i just a news on youtube.

    Incredible Discovery: This Fruit Extract Killed Cancer in 48 Hours!

    i am not able to copy a link i don't know how from the laptop . i miss my phone ;(

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    Hi ladies- I saw my endocrinologist today and she is very pleased with my numbers, blood sugar, glucose readings, AIC, weight, etc. She is making a small adjustment to my BP meds to ensure my kidneys remain protected. I also told her I was coming off the AIS next March per the MO visit earlier this month and that will change a lot too. I don't have to see her again until May and if things continue in the right direction, will go to six month check ups.

    She has helped me so much with some of these latent effects of all I went through. My weight and BG really spiked after I went on the AIs, it threw my system out of balance. But now we are finding our way back. I thanked her for the enormous amount of help she has given me in the six months we have been working together. She got a big smile.

    Will be back again soon, working on some pre-contracting stuff for new work.

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    BB- I am glad you followed up and made sure the lump was not something more of concern. I know unlike me, you can't afford to loose the weight. Hugs friends, sorry you are feeling so stressed by the problems, but understand that too.

    I am very concerned too about loosing what I have in place, and what is coming will not be affordable or work for those of us who need a higher level of care.The new administration says it is far more complicated than they realized. But I work in the industry and anyone who does knows how complicated it is. We as consumers know how complicated it is. I am ready for some Medicare right about now.


  • Simplicity
    Simplicity Member Posts: 723
    edited March 2017

    Morning ladies.

    Lilly, did you rest well? June, how are you?

    I haven't been good at keeping up. Things have been kind of crazy trying to find my balance again with the addition of taking a class.

    Also trying to get stuff done with my house. My bedroom became my sanctuary during treatment and recovery. It is time to get out of there. SO for the first time in my life, I am buying NEW living room furniture!!

    My DD was duck taping the chair back together the other day and I am just done. Nope. Kind of brought me down walking out there and seeing duck tape all the time, ya know?

    Some trees are coming down next week, that will make it easier to do what I want to do in the back yard this summer. Going to have to skip the fence as I didn't budget really for the new furniture. BUt I can't get the fence up until I get the trees down anyway so...

    Went to see my PS yesterday, 4 steroid shots in my right breast. Ouch. I am going ahead with 2 more scar revisions; 1 to the left breast to remove extra skin, and 1 to fix the last divet at my abdominal scar :) Same day, in office procedure. He says I will be fine the next day and he isn't billing me or insurance.

    I hope all of you are doing well.

    HUGS.

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    Simplicity- good to hear from you and glad you are finding your way back into your routines and focusing on some home improvement too. I remember the first year plus, I spent time on making my space feel better, then eventually did more as I came to feel better and stronger. You will notice those tiny shifts as you go along, and just be patient with everything.

    Getting back in to life helps you to move forward from this stuff, even though it is hard and am sure you must be tired. Hope the class is going well and know you love your coursework.

    It is nice to hear from you friend and keep in touch here as you have the time!

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited March 2017

    Hi ladies,

    well ,,, i went to see my BS today. i have not seen her since 2014. Honestly from the entire team this woman is the only one i have like say 60% trust on. you all know i lost trust on all of them but this one is the only one who did agree to do my nipple sparing surgery and so i will always be thanking her for it. I got there and i first saw her assistant or student as usual ;) had to tell him a short history long of what i went through cuz he basically said he was reading my file but he wished i could verbally fill him in lol i din't care cuz i know i have to repeat it to all of the new ones they bring on board. He told me he thinks i should not be worry but that he could update the doctor and she would come to the room shortly. I sat there u know with my open gown and staring at the room thinking what will she say??? anyway she came in and say hi and she asked me how i have been and also how do i feel etc I told her that i have a little concern regarding the internal scars and that i just wanted to have peace of mind if she could feel it and or send me and US or something that could assure me that i should not be worry. I showed her how i now have range of motion with my arm due to the massage therapy which i will finish next week. She then put her hand on my right breast and said hummm i told her " Yaa HUMMMM " that is exactly what i say every time i touch my scars" then she said " i dont think we should be alarmed but i do want an MRI ......" "Just to be sure"

    i looked at her and sais " thank you dr. that makes me happy, i just want to be sure too. Considering c is in the back of my mind the hard feeling of this scars feels the same as my original tumor". She was silent and said lets just have the MRI and then we can easy our minds.

    So there you go i will have an MRI finally after 3 1/2 years of nothing been checked.

    to be honest i am not scared i think it is just very thick scar but at the same time i wish it could be taken out of me i hate to touch it there, a hard thing like a permanent tumor on the inside on my right breast.

    I doubt they will do anything about it but at least now an MRI can say it is only scars and no some weird thing or tumor?

    Next week i finish the therapy with the cupping and i am so glad i mean i ll miss my nurse she is such a lovely lady but i am tired of going there.

    I am now at school. i took the day off for this dr appointment.

    I now will wait for them to call me with a date to get the MRI done. Hopefully it will be soon cuz i glanced at the paper and it had the word URGENT on it and i know they do that to try and get the appointment soon.

    Anyway hope all are having a great Wednesday, i have been feeling down cuz i never hear anything regarding the new job ;( i sent other applications but i was hopping i got the one i was interviewed for 2 weeks ago.

    BB this Friday i ll go watch the movie called . Before i fall , with the same girl from work.

    i agreed to go last week so i will go again ;)

    Simplicity i am so glad your doctors are doing revision on your scars. it is important also keep an eye on internal ones. try to get bio oil too. i think rad is a biatch and we must deal with the se.

    Lili hope you are doing ok.

    Jazz i think once they take you off the drug next month your body will go to normal. i am glad you are at the end of the treatment phase. all these drugs are very hard on our entire bodies.

    oh my friend who is dealing with bc is having a lot of issues with healing. very similar to simplicity

    She will also do chemo soon too. ;(

    I will post later this week

    sending you hugs.


  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    Hi E- glad you are getting an MRI. Outside of office visits and mammos (if you have lumpectomy), I don't think MRIs are a common follow up test because of the cost. Only if they suspect something. You have been seeing your docs for check ups though, right?

    I won't be off the AIs until next March, one more year to go. Important for me to get this weight off before. I am on a mission.

    Keep us posted on the scans friend!

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited March 2017

    good morning ladies.

    Jazz yes I never muss my appointments but they only use to see me 1 a year and didn't do any scan or test. Now since the internal scars bother me I decided to make an appointment with the bs cuz the ps won't help. Remember I went to him in 2015 to ask for his help then he say let's wait another year then in 2016 after the year pass he said oh well rad sucks but I can't take the scar out cuz there risk of infection bla bla bla the thong is that they say I should just deal with the se.

    So now that therapy gave me back the range of motion I decided to ask my bs what her opinion is? And she wants a MRI and I am happy with that cuz the MRI in the past got my bc vs the mammograms which missed it.

    Is all good once the MRI confirm is just scars I can take to another ps at another hospital and keep trying to see if one agrees to do another revision surgery.

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited March 2017

    Ye BB i am happy, which is weird when i left the dr. office i had a smile on me like i was so happy and then i realized people were looking at me as if i was crazy. but they dont know how hard is been for some of us to make a dr listen and order some test. from the start bb you and i had a hard time getting the right Dx and it is always in my mind that i trust the MRI. MRI was the only one which discovered my bc on the left too. so yes if the MRI clears me i can then look into seen another team and another till if i find someone wiling to take it out. if you feel the scar you right away think " what is that? is honestly very hard like solid

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    Good news today. My nephew is finally coming out of the Army. He has been working on it since last fall. Time for a new chapter to begin. I hope to see him this year, been eight years since we have seen one another.

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited March 2017

    OMG that is great Jazz

    so was he in those countries? and he is coming home? or he has been in USA? either way i am glad he is free coming back to his family i cant imagine what is is like to live in that environment. I am happy for you girlfriend

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    BB- he has been back in the states for awhile, but did a tour of duty in Iraq (no injuries, never sure about the PTSD) and also was stationed in Europe for awhile. I know we don't like to get political on these threads, but I am very concerned about escalating conflicts in the future, and very glad he is getting out now. I am not a fan of war.

    I am with you about all the troops coming home as asap

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited March 2017

    well today again I was told another person got the job :(

    They went for someone with my it experience.

    Is so hard to get a job I am so tired.

    I just want to be able to move on but it seems I am stuck

    Hope u are all ok

    There is a lot of sadness on the other treads wishing all a better day tomw Friday is always a happy day for me

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    E- sorry you did not get the job Scared

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited March 2017

    HI ladies. Ya you guys are right I can't give up.

    I felt disappointed but I pick up myself again and keep going.

    Hope u all have an amazing weekend

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    E- perseverance has always had a pay off for me. I think it is good you heard why you did not get the job, so you know what to do for the future. Have you considered getting more IT classes under your belt? I know you are doing the bookkeeping/accounting classes. Are there positions in that area you could have a better shot at? Just some ideas.

    Also wishing everyone a good weekend. Starting to see more spring around here with the fruit trees starting to bloom.....

  • Enerva
    Enerva Member Posts: 2,985
    edited March 2017

    jazz yes there are a few courses I want to take but I am taking baby steps due to $ and time . The accounting courses are over $600 each and I can only take one at the time . Is 2s a week and I feel is not good to do every night school I just burn . But the it courses I want to take will help to some extend due to it take many off the courses to get a certificate and years part time. You see I have no $ to go to university or college full time all I can do is little by little .

    This accounting course ends in April and may the level 2 starts . I hope I can do it and then take the others so I can get the book keeping certificate then continue taking it courses

    Plus 3 more pm courses to write the exam

    Is a long road for me but is better than no doing it.

    I am just tired and waiting for spring I need spring so bad


  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    E- I worked PT through college, to start in graduate school and then was full time at the end. I got my advanced certificate I did in 2011 while in the first few years of my business start up. It is was all a lot of work and little time for fun, so try to smell the roses along the way. Doing the classes part time is the way many need to do it.

    We have some spring peaking out here. Been outdoors working on yard and garden clean up while it's warm and before my business trip that begins next weekend.

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    E is pretty darned amazing and determined! You go girl!

  • juneping
    juneping Member Posts: 634
    edited March 2017

    E - i am sorry that you didn't get the job. hang in there, it will come.

    i finished the deadline yesterday and now i am just mentally exhausted. and just booked a flight so i'll take a vacation next week. and not think about anything but my leisure self.

  • jazzygirl
    jazzygirl Member Posts: 11,974
    edited March 2017

    June- congrats on finishing your deadline. I know that mental fatigue.

    Enjoy your travels and look forward to hearing from you when you are back! Go enjoy life!