2013 Survivors!!!
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Ramols so nice to hear from you and about the fun you had at the party! Oh wow I used to love the trampoline then I got older and had to make sure I had a real good harness on when I jumped-I got to thinking that now that would be the least of my problems on a trampoline. lol Yum- the Mr Softey - I could devour that with no problems. Thanks for sharing your happy- it always makes us happy.
Aruba- why is it those chin hairs are so coarse! lol I am so glad you said that. Atleast that makes them easier to get a grip on with the tweezers. Taking these als that zap the estrogen though makes me fear that some day I am going to wake up with either a full beard or a chest full of hair (well I guess on a positive note that would hide my scars!) Regarding Believes beading-it is fantastic.Hope our BC angel's sales soar.
Liefie So glad you had a little getaway and that your tests turned out ok. You are right and I love your reference: "this black dog will be on our tails for the rest of our lives, and we just have to do the best we can " As to the baking, I will eat everything I bake so I try not to bake. I swear I gain weight just reading about everyone elses baking.
Sheri nice to hear from you-glad all is going good
SwgeeWi- Homecoming-how fun! Enjoy!
Shianne29 and Ireland hope you get to feeling better.
Tazzy- Hope you are enjoying your bachelorette weekend.Loral Thank you for the fall graphic. Even though we don't have massive leave changes here, still something about the cooler, crisper air (i can say that now because its morning and only 70degrees but it's supposed to go up to about 90 this afternoon.lol)
Have a great week all-in your pockets!
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Ramols; how fun!!! (ice cream *sigh*)
who's talking about chin hair!!?!? Seriously... RIGHT?!? WTF. Damn meds.. I go to get waxed and she always yells at me to leave them in so she can pull them from the root. (I think I get them from the root.. but what the hey!)
So - I'm down to 162.2. I just went back to exercise today following all my minor procedures. Just did yoga during lunch here at work as I usually do. Boy is it going to be tough. It's amazing how quickly your body gets lazy. I have an appt with my trainer for wednesday after work and I'll go to the class tomorrow and weds here at work at noon. Maybe I'll take Thursday off. I can honestly SEE a major difference in my body now. I am in a few pairs of pants I haven't worn in 3 years - and the other day I pulled on a "bargin" pair of Lucky Brand burgendy velvet pants I bought online - but never fit into (some bargin). They have taunted me from my closet for year... but no more! They slid right up!!! SUCCESS IS MINE!!
So what am I eating?? It's what I'm NOT eating. I can tell you, as the dietician said; I don't need to count calories anymore. If I pay attention to portions, I am not close to going over. I eat every 2-3 hours (always having snacks). So breakfast is either 4 oz. of fat free greek yogurt. Plain, with Vanilla extract and splenda or some other non sugar sweetner. (I can't have haony or agave or anything that is in the sugar family). I addmy own extract because it's less calories then actually buying it flavored. Also - I can add 1/2 c. of fruit. usually blueberries, but after apple picking this weekend, today and yesterday I added homemade, sugar free applesauce! YUM! Another breakfast (on weekend) would be an omlete with tons for veg and low fat cheese (no bread).
snack two hours later - hard boiled egg or some soft cheese (light baby bell perhaps).
lunch - two to three hours later, salad with some type of protein in it. I mix it up. Tuna, chicken, salmon. salad dressing I make is 1/3 c avacado oil, 2/3 c lemon juice, 4 cloves garlic, herbs and pepper. I add a few olives for flavor changes sometimes. Or maybe shredded cheese.
snack - two hours, medium apple and cheese. or maybe mago or pear. Always eat fruit with a protien. Helps to metabolize it. Or hummas and carrots.
Dinner - protein about 4-6 ozs and two types of veggies (no corn-startchy, no peas - they are high in sugar). The only "grain like" thing I CAN have is quinoa. I steam it with raisins and almond slivers. (I keep almonds in my car for when I get too hungry between places). I will make mashed cauliflower, or turnips, or roasted butternut squash to trick my brain into thinking I'm getting the starchy side that I can no longer have.
For dessert I have 2 to 3 Russel Stover sugar free candies. I love the pecan or almond clusters (like turtles) and the mint patties as well. That totally takes care of the cravings.
That's it - a typical day for me. I am no longer craving breads and it's not as tough. I just tell myself that I can have xxxx tomorrow if I still want it; and tomorrow never comes (well it will come on Thanksgiving!).
I'm losing about 1.5 a week I think - but let's see what happens when I add exercise. That is what keeps me motivated. That and the fact that I still have this fucking stomach. Although my thighs have slimmed down considerably, it's that damn belly fat that's trying to make estrogen and kill me so I'll keep doing this until it's fucking gone. Cancer is NOT going to take me down without one hell of a fight on my part and these are the only things I can do to stay healthy. I look and feel better then I ever have in my life. CRAZY how I had to get so fucking sick, to get so fucking healthy!!!!
I celebrate 7 years clean on October 5th. INSANE!! Insane that last year I don't recall my celebration (we get a coin and someone you ask says, hopefully, nice things about you). My last chemo was October 10th and I was just in such a fog last year. Funny the difference a year makes. I have so much more to give back now then before. All that pain and suffering has given me so much more compassion and drive. And I learned that here - from each of you. I love you all.
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Jen - congrats on the weightloss and thanks for letting me know about what you are eating. I am going to try eating at least mostly sugar and carb free. I have cut back already and am seeing a small weight loss already. I have a ton of weight to lose still, but at least I am going in the right direction.
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Hi Folks...just to let you know all is settled at work....for now! Have been promised support going forward so fingers crossed. Thanks for all the advice.xx love you ladies. Well done on all the weight loss, think that will be my next challenge ......loose a stone for xmas!!xx.
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Congrats Jennifer, that is great and thanks for sharing your secret to success. Now I just have to kick myself into gear again. And I am right there with you and those chin hairs. So when we are all old and living in the home together, because someone won the lottery, we can take turns plucking each others chin hairs
Ireland glad things have settled for you at work.
Ramols, sounds like you had a blast.
Today I emailed all the ladies in my office to see if I can get donations to make some gift baskets and restaurant gift cards for a gal in our HR dept who is starting her round two, a 12 week chemo session. I was so happy when I got an overwhelming response back in minutes even from a few who don't even know her.0 -
Ok - down another pound today! So excited. 161.4! Momof3 - I tried cutting down, but the dr told me it had to go... entirely. Then and only then did the weight start to come off. something about sugar levels - carbs make sugar.
Ireland; I missed something. What happened at work??
It's getting COLD already. FUCK! I hate the fucking cold! It's so hard these days to regulate my temperature with low level hot flashes (they have returned in spite of the gabapentin). My hand and toes are FREEZING sometimes. I have to go run my hands under the water in the rest room because I just can't move my fingers! (Be funny if I clumbedup onthe counter and stuck my toes int here too huh!). And at the same time my neck and chest are clammy.
So - I'm HATING my job! It's just so frickin different without my old boss. I have put together my resume, but can't even think about going anywhere until after we hear about the house and obtain the mortgage. The attorney for the seller said we should hear in 30-45 days. That was 3 weeks ago. ...crickets.... *sigh* The landscaping is overgrown now and the leaves are falling everywhere and there is no one there to tend to the place. So it really is getting frustrating. Although my fear of the added financial burden that will come when/if we get the place is making the waiting easier. Right now we live well within our means. This is going to push us to our limit. Some days I feel like, "BRING IT ON", other days I want to run from the responsibility of it. But then I think of Tazzy and her garden... and I really REALLY want that too! (and maybe even a shed to hide behind from time to time).
OK - back to work. ugh!
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Aimee... that is so sweet of you and a heartwarming response from the staff Reinforces a positive feeling for people and I'm sure your co-worker appreciated it.
I posted on the BCO site on FB but reposting here too, my mammogram and US came back all clear today, the spot my MO was concerned about is remaining "real" breast tissue meeting the transplanted tummy tissue with a few microscopic areas of fluid build up. I had the head of radiology come in and tell me right away as well as perform an US himself. He looked very pleased to give me the good news!! Now if I can only get the same immediate results at tomorrows bone scan!!
Jennifer, congrats on the weight loss. its funny how one thing works for some but not others. No way in hell would I be able to give up my carbs, I mean NO WAY!!!!! And honestly if I ate as many times a day as you do I would be gaining weight!!! I have simply cut out snacks, drink my 6-10 cups of water a day and calorie count.... I lost 6 pounds in a week!!!
I'm sitting on my back deck right now enjoying an adult iced tea in the warm sunshine... I'm sure its not going to last so to hell with the housework for today, tomorrow and the next lol0 -
Shianne - I celebrate your good news with you! Haven't been to FB yet today so glad you posted here. Good news tomorrow too!!! Love good pocket trip outings.
Juneau - celebrating your good news too. I'm glad you are both losing weight. I'm stuck but haven't given up - you encourage and inspire me as always.
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Janeau....just normal everyday dramas at work compounded by hormones and tamoxifen!!!. I have taken up yoga to try to learn how to switch off and relax....its bldy hard...if this doesnt work ....next stop docs for some anti anxiety tablets.
Shianne in your pockets tomoro. Love to you all.x0 -
Congrats Luanne, and I agree if I ate all day I'd gain too..Trying to lose 15 lbs and the scale stays the same...
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Juneau, congrats on the weight loss, and on being clean for 7 years. That's a real achievement, and you are a tough cookie! For a very long time I've been struggling to lose some weight. I did not gain, but it was not moving. So a while ago I also began to cut out all forms of sugar, white starches, and starchy veggies. Only carbs I'm getting come from fruit, and I am very careful not to eat too much fruit, and to avoid sugar rich fruits like grapes, which I love soooo much. The weight is moving at last, and I have lost 6 lbs in the last six weeks. So this really works for me too. My new DIEP tummy is flat, and I'm really trying to get my hips and butt to go with that - lol. This is not easy for me. I love to cook, and to bake bread, scones, cake etc. Thanksgiving will be a feast this year, I guess. I do allow myself one small square of dark chocolate per day, and I exercise regularly. My big motivation is my son's wedding on Nov. 30, and the outfit that I want to look good in - LOL.
Shianne, I'm so jealous of your sunshine! We have grey skies, a cold wind, and some rain may be falling soon. Ughh. So happy for your good results, and I'm sure the bone scan will be good too.
Latigger, what a nice thing to do for another bc sister! I'm sure she will appreciate it so much. Can remember in those dark times last year how much it meant to me when people reached out to me like that.
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Shianne - great news re results.
Juneau - I have been losing weight following a similar diet - once the carbs are gone the cravings seems to be gone also, I have lost weight since July as well, nice to finally be going in the right direction. Adding my congrats on being clean for 7 years. You've overcome much, I know you will figure out what is best for you career wise.
Liefie - glad your diet is working for you also, exciting weeks ahead for you
Stride - continuing to think of you, looking forward to another update
Ramols - loved your happy my happy for today was harvesting the wonderful apples we managed to grow this year, they are spectacular; and I got some quality GD time last weekend
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IATigger, what can be done about a sore back? I hurt my back and my foot doing Zumba. Now I got Plantar Fascitis which might have been encouraged by taking Femara.
My implant exchange went well but the left side is still with an upper pole which went away on the cancer side. So now PS is talking about lypo suction on the left side or taking fat out the tummy and putting it on the cancer side.( which is well now so guess I will call it the right side. Will that work? Anybody had that done?.
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Layla, I would say go get a massage, I love them. Nothing works better on a sore back. Not sure you meant to direct that question to me though
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Sorry, I saw someone's husband had thrown out his back, this is my 2nd glass of wine(i think) so dunno what happened. I was thinking of going in a jacuzzi on a vacay. I never got a massage, creeps me out thinking about it. My close friend became a masseuse and was always after me to get one because she needed to log so many to complete her degree but I just could not bring myself to do it. I am weird that way.
nopink, dont worry. My son came home for the summer last yr and showed me all the things my phone could do! Honestly...I am still trying to figure out how to use the Efax at work. Guess they will find out that I dont know and send someone to "sit with me". I feel like I need to be in delayed learning classes when it comes to techno gadgets. I wanna get an Ipod but I just learned how to disconnect my satellite TV and reconnect it so I can move stuff and paint my living room walls. LOL..
Getting nipples in Dec hopefully,any tips to keep them from collapsing?
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If anyone is still up,
ShopHQ channel is having a wig sale tonight at midnight. Its all on value pay starting at $13 to get one home. You can do "easy return" on it if you dont like it. Some gals are looking for wigs so thought I would mention it if you are in the market for one. Happy shopping! But warning do not wanna watch the Korres Beauty show with the skinny blonde,somebody pleeese make her eat something!!!!!0 -
Juneau: You are always welcome to join me behind the shed.
Off now camping to the Hood River area - me and DH thought we'd get in some us time before end of camping season... plus its warmer there.
Jumping in pockets when needed, sending hugs and love to all xxxx
We'll be back Sunday sometime then back to work Monday.
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layla; Nipples... I was SO grateful to have spared them, but I gotta tell you - the fact it is alway "on" is a bit of a nuisiance. Maybe tatoos for you. They aren't all they are cracked up to be.
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Yea, the nipple story . . . waiting for me in January too. Have suggested to DH that it will be so much easier to just remove the one that I still have, and be done with it. Then I will never have to wear a bra again. It was not well received - lol. He is a man after all.
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A note on nipples after reading above - I was able to have a nipple sparing on one side. Mine is not always "on". It changes like it used to (erect/not erect), though not always for apparent reasons (like heat/cold), but I do not have feeling in it. Very strange. But, I am so glad I was able to keep the one! Just wanted people to know that the "on" nipple wasn't always a definite constant for some of us.
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Thought I'd share my hubby's theory on nipples since it seems to be a topic of conversation here right now. I find it funny that as a man - he even has a theory, considering he's never been in the female brain. And the fact that he believes it so fiercely boggles my mind. I'll preface by saying I have opted to ignore the entire nipple question and not get any - but rather just tattoo artwork in general on my new canvas. His theory is that nipples of some sort should be present - be it built or tattooed - because the brain needs to be tricked when looking in the mirror. If the brain quickly sees something that resembles a nipple when looking at yourself nude in the mirror - then it can go on as though things are normal. If it doesn't have a nipple of some sort to visually process - it is a reminder that something is amiss on the body. Now he is very supportive of my decision not to do any kind of nipples but i think is mildly concerned that the result might be some kind of constant mental battle for me when I see myself in the mirror. I however completely disagree. I feel like this. I didn't care for my breasts that much before cancer. I did, however, like my nipples. They were not sensitive areas for me - but I thought they were the best feature of my breasts, visually. And they fed and grew my children. So I was kind of attached to them and pretty darn sad to see them go. In my mind - any attempt at recreating or tattooing them on will actually be the reminder of things amiss for me. I feel like i'll just constantly be reminded that my real ones were stolen from me - and I don't beleive my brain would be tricked into normalcy. All this said - I think nipples are like everything else in the breast cancer world - a very personal and unique decision driven by your own feelings and needs. Wow - felt kinda good to get that out! Thanks for listening. Have a great weekend all. Hugs!
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Well said Ramols, well said.
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Bayoubabe: I'm jealous - you have feeling. That's wonderful. Although, perspective reminds me to be grateful I have mine at all.
Ramols; I know we spoke at this when we met in the city, but when you say it here - in regards to your attachment to them based on their connection to your experience as a mother.... chills. Please let me know when you decide on a tattoo! I'll be cheering you on!
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Juneaubugg - don't be jealous! You misread. I do NOT have feeling, but my nipple changes from erect to not erect. Not sure why - it seems to change with cold and touch, but I do not feel a thing. Wish I did! I miss my nipples most of all; not sure I will ever be done mourning their loss. Breast cancer is a thief.
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OH - sorry. Would prefer to be jealous. Strange how with cancer the old phrase "misery loves company" just doesn't ring true.
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So I wanted to update you all on my knee. I had my MRI yesterday and went to the surgeon today. I tore he meniscus on the inside part of my knee and given the area it will never heal on its own therefore I need to have it surgically repaired. Really!!!!!!! It is very minor compared to everything that I have been through, but another surgery!!! It is scheduled for Novembrr 5th so at least I have time to get ready.
Thanks for letting me rant!!!!!
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Momof3 - oh my. You are getting everything out of the way, all at once. Let's hope this is going to be it for awhile. Is Nov 5th the best they could do? As we know, it will be here before we know it but I hope it's possible to give that knee some rest.
Ramols - your husband sounds like a wise man.
We are finally getting away. Never thought I would be ready to leave my home. Not sure how long we will be away but I won't miss a word. Love my iPhone!
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I find myself here again for support - i took a 3 month break. I have been battling mental demons for a few weeks now - I'm on my depression meds. I think it's bc my 1 yr since dx is coming up and I still live in fear that the treatments didn't work. I have guilt that haven't been exercising and have slipped on my good eating habits. I am back in the office full time and that has been helping.
It's nice to see familiar names/faces. Have a good wknd!
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Believe - enjoy your time away!!!!!! Nov 5 th was the earliest day they had. You are right, it will be here before we know it. DD is also going for another EEG next Friday so hopefully we are done with bad news and it will go well.
I am relaxing and taking it one hour at a time now that the shock has worn off.0
