Maybe a dumb flat question?
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Here's the latest. Not good.
Well good evening the test came back and it wasn't what we wanted to hear the cancer is all through her spinal cord going up to her brain so they are upping her pain medicine on a drip and going to do their best to keep her comfortable for the little time left that she has
I will keep you posted but that is all I know right now I do appreciate so much you keeping in touch with me and your concern prayers thoughts she is my everything
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Hi TB, so good to see you!!! *hugs*.
I got a wonderful mail today!!! Thank you Bobo!!! You did a wonderful job with them, I'm very impressed
We got more snow today... a couple of inches... supposed to be more tomorrow, but I don't think significant amounts.... another major storm this weekend.. it all seems like that movie Groundhog Day.
I'm fit to be tied.. I discovered over the weekend that some jack@ss had somehow charged "Starbuck card refills" to my Visa. 3 of them on the same day to the tune of $150.00 total. Then I open my bank statement today and sure enough there is another one on the same day on a mastercard account for $50.00. I am so pissed off by this... now I have to pull out old statements and make sure I didn't miss any other ones. I'm exhausted just thinking of having to cancel all my cards and what I have on automatic payments.. etc. etc. I don't know whether to classify it as identity theft or not... but I am going to treat it as such. Pisses me off.
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Oh Z, I am so terribly sorry you had to be the bearer of this awful news about our sweet girl. My heart hurts for her, for Bond and for the Grands, it is such a terrible waste she is such a wonderful human being, so funny so passionate and so selfless, she was always thinking about us and what we were going through, never complaining. I am so grateful to have had her in my life.
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omg. That's not what we wanted to hear.. poor Bond
Thanks Z... I'm kind of hoping that she isn't aware of this....{{{{DP}}}}
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"she is my everything", that just breaks my heart. Any ideas what we can do for this poor guy?
M, that was beautiful. I feel the exact same way.. I think we all do... She brought many smiles to my face.
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hope you don't get a flare M.
That sucks L. A lot of work for sure.
We had 10" and it was -2 this morning. Another 3" in the morning and more negative temps. Afraid there will be black ice. School cancelled again.
I was at Walmart on Sunday before storm hit. There was still milk and bread on the shelves and I didn't have to wait long to check out. Today meat case empty. Didn't look at milk or bread.
Yes PRB I found my name in that website. Under some strange topics too not just bc.
BG crying. Gotta go.
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Damn! Not what I wanted to hear.
Damn Cancer!!!
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Shit ldesim,that's terrible. Such asses to think they can just tap into the credit cards and lives of others. I am sorry you are going to have to go through all the other statements etc and change everything over. M x
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Z, isn't this school vacation week or is that just a Mass. thing?? Sorry you got sh!tty weather... hope you have plenty of things to keep the kids busy.. how's BG feeling?
We have the news on and I swear the poor meteorologist is afraid to even appear on camera.
Feeling sick again.. I really had thought her texting and them doing tests was a good sign.... please let her not be in pain.
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Funny, I'm not really mad about it anymore... things get put into perspective in the blink of an eye I guess.
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Thanks Z, I am trying to change the emotion from sad to something else, not sure how I will maintain it ,because this is the saddest thing I have had to deal with, in a long time. M x
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How about anger?
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Z, I just had a thought, if you are in touch with Bond again, could you ask him to tell her we all love her and are thinking of her. I absolutely believe, she will hear some of what is spoken to her. I'd like her to know we are collectively with her, regardless of the distance. Just a thought, if you get a chance.
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I had high hopes too. Nope we had school this week. Dayton is out for winter break. Must be a Yankee thing:)
Hi Tb!
My stalker story....
I was working and going to college. Had a roommate. If I came home for lunch, would get a phone call talking about my looks. It happened often enough that I recognized the voice but randomly enough that I still answered the phone.
My answer was that you don't want me, I had breast cancer.
As someone says, that's the rest of the story.
Should have gone to Zumba. Think I'll take a bath and crack open that pint DH gave me for valentines day. Feel sorry for myself and gorge myself on everything but the kitchen sink ice cream.
Can't decide if I'm mad or sad. Used to scrub floors on my hands and knees when I got bad news. F! That.
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Oh, Z. I am sorry you get these texts, I am sorry for what's happening in the texts, I am sorry you have to type them into the thread to let us see them. I am hugging you. And snow has cancelled school again? Oh. Only I know how are that is, I feel! Even though it isn't true. {{{hugging you}}}
Idesim, that is terrible about your card. I wish I could say, Ha ha, it was me! I love Starbucks! But it was not me, sadly. Mother F.
Yes, this thread is as locked as it can get. I want privacy for our girl now. I don't mean our friendly 'stalker' TB here, but in general I hate to think of people reading this to see what will happen. But, then again, I am a private person. Thank you, Moderators, for what you have given us.
DP, I got sucked in by you. I came over to the thread because Z asked me to. I don't really like most people, or trust them. But now I can say that I love you. You are so special, so kind and funny, so hard-working. You want to be loved so much, that's one of the reasons you worked so hard. We are here to give you some of that extra love.
I don't know what we could do for Bond. I don't know about his support system. I know that privately DP has told me he could use some support. I don't know if he would feel funny getting support from DP's thread friends. I imagine Z will show us the way on this. Standing by to do whatever is needed. My heart is twisting because I suddenly realized DP will not be with us in NOLA. I had imagined her there already.
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yes M I have been telling him that and yes I believe you can still hear and feel right up to the very end.
Thanks bobo.
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Trying not to project anger, while I am thinking about her, but hell yeah, lots of anger for all the complacency she was shown, by those fucking Dicktors when she was in so much pain and the asshole who didn't action her authority for the cyberknife before the Holidays. Don't get me started on the insurance bullshit.
For now, just love and good thoughts about all the joy she brought us, aimed right at her! M x
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Tearing up reading Bobo's post. I really want to do something for Bond, because I feel it's the only way I can do something for her... does that make sense? I think I need to have a good cry and I hardly ever cry.. never cried once through treatment... cried the day of my emergency biopsy because I just knew it was bad and cried a year later when they called me back in after my first mammogram after treatment.
I came over here because I couldn't keep up with everybody's goings on when you were "posting in the other thread". You don't need to know her very long to fall in love with her.... I even read a bit back in this thread to learn more about her. I want to be thankful for the time I've known her, but I'm not.. I want more and I really really wanted to meet her.
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This is so hard for us; I can't imagine what it's like for Bond. He has been by her side taking care of her every step of the way. I wish there was some way to give him a group hug along with DP. She is just an absolutely beautiful person, inside and out. I hope they're able to keep her comfortable and she feels awake enough to spend some time with Bond and the Grands.
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I know just what you mean about NOLA, Bobo, I was planning to do the trip to Vegas with her and anyone else who could make it, she wanted to do that, before the results came from her next lot of scans, she loves her Casinos.
I believe they did seek some help for Bond, but not sure if it continued.
Z, I talked endlessly to my Mother when she was like this. I know she could hear me, a lot of the time.
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lddesim, I feel like you. I am not one who cries, never have been, but this whole experience has changed that. I can cry for her so easily, for all things she never got to do, for all the love she gave to us. For the thrill of meeting her, that won't happen now.
I went back to the very start, just read what her concerns were, when she first arrived here in August 2013, just 18 months or so, ago and we have written nearly 200 pages, been like girlfriends meeting every day, for coffee and a chat.
I like to think about the morning I saw her on the news, being interviewed about her Spam Philly Dilly Sandwich, about how thrilled she was when she got the go ahead from the Doctor to fly to Hawaii for the prize, she messaged me from there, telling me all about it. I have been having trouble passing the Spam shelf in the supermarket, recently, how will it affect me now? Shit, I know it sounds so stupid, but I don't want to be discovered sobbing in that aisle. I am sure DP would get the humor in that.
Damn, I have missed her posts, this past little while, I can't imagine not reading any new ones from her.
Sorry for rambling....M x
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Wen I feel like you, poor Bond, how will he manage. This is devastating, she is his everything. I know he told her that, she knew how much she meant to him. I am so grateful for that, so many don't actually get to hear that.
I think we should all write to him and tell him how much we appreciate him and what he is to her. Tell him that he got the name of Bond for a reason! M x
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oh damn. Was so hoping for good news since they were running tests. Poor Bond. That message is so sad. He loves her so much. Poor grands.Z: thank you for keeping in touch with Bond. I know this is not easy to get the message and then tell us.
F***
Just F**
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Not the news I wanted to hear. I feel so bad for her, for us, for Bond, for everyone whoever knew her. The card arrived today from Ideism. Should I hold it or send it on? I feel like I should send it on?
Not much more to say. Questioning if I want to stay on these boards. I am sick of cancer.
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I say send it on PRB... and I would miss you a lot if you left the boards.. I understand if you did, but I hope you don't. I took a break last summer because I just wanted to not have it a daily part of my life... unfortunately that doesn't really work.
I never got to the parts of how he came to be Bond. DP would laugh her ass off.. but I thought that really was his name!
M, she totally would pee herself if you lost it in the spam aisle. Perhaps we all need to try the recipe.
Glennie, you've got that right.. F****
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I hope you all realize what you offered her. In a PM she told me that if it were not for all of you, she would have simply sat around crying. You gave her back what she had left of her life. You are the most amazing bunch of women and now I will leave you for the intimacy you have all earned ((((hugs))))
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Aww, so sorry to hear the news, I was afraid of this. I keep looking at that beautiful picture of her, such blue eyes and so pretty!! How she touched all our lives. Remember how she went to bat for her co-worker that was having a baby and she got the crib and blankets ready for her, such a beautiful soul. Yes, I sure believe she could hear Bond if he tells her. This brings back so many terrible memories of lossing my daughter in law to this sickening disease. It is a surreal experience of having one foot in this world and one in the other world: her hearing was just extraordinary even when she was sleeping alot. Sad, angry, depressed are just a few of the raw sentiments we will go through. Oh how the Grands must be feeling, it is hard to see the young ones leave us, I bet they would give their life for hers anyday. I miss her posts too, so glad she just shopped all she wanted on QVC or whatever. Praying for peace and pain free times.
Idesim, oh that sucks, hope you get things sorted out.. damn crooks. Always somebody with their hand in our pockets isnt there.
Hi to all.
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I would miss you too, PRB, but I would understand. Maybe a break would help.L: sorry about the idiot charging on your cards. That happened to me once. It sucks.
I can only imagine how hard it is on the Grands. I just realized that I'm old enough to be DP's mom. It is just not fair to lose her! I send a protest to the universe. She needs more time here. How will I learn about skin care and QVC without her???? F****
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I'm laughing a bit remembering Bobo's wedding and how horrified DP was that she wasn't planning on wearing foundation. I honestly thought for awhile there that she was actually going to drive to FL. I can envision her in her QVC lounge wear barreling down the highway with a trunk full of foundation.
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Yes,, she was determined to get Bobo to wear foundation for her wedding! She was going to drive and wear a diaper like that crazy astronaut woman did.
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