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  • Lucy55
    Lucy55 Member Posts: 2,703
    edited December 2016

    Poppy ..Thinking of you ....You're staircase looks great. !

  • gmafoley
    gmafoley Member Posts: 5,978
    edited December 2016

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    Had a visitor this morning.

    Just got a text kids and grandkids are on there way.. It is going to be a real Christmas with family this year - the last 2 years, I had surgery just before Christmas.. Nice to not have stitches this year.

  • PoppyK
    PoppyK Member Posts: 1,275
    edited December 2016

    Iris, You shouldn't be having to deal with this.. ever, but especially at this time of year.

    Gma, I love your view and the pictures of the birds that visit you!

    Thank you everyone. I think only you understand what this feels like.

    We are completely crazy with Christmas decorations but this year we focused on the inside of the house. We have a total of five Christmas trees. This simple tree has a ball ornament from each year that my DH a I have been together. Note the terrible wallpaper and kid's art from when they were much smaller. 😊image

  • Lucy55
    Lucy55 Member Posts: 2,703
    edited December 2016

    Poppy ..I love your ball tree 😃What a lovely idea ...And I'm in awe ..5 trees ..WOW !!!!


  • proudtospin
    proudtospin Member Posts: 4,671
    edited December 2016

    well it seems the CT scan of my tummy my has suspicious stuff, so so sending dang report to my own oncologist , just spoke to her office and they are moving up my next appt with her. On to getting a cd of that thing as onco may need to do a biopsy on my liver or tummy

    First step is a colonoscomy

    I refuse or will try not to freak out at the nasty words on the report

  • octogirl
    octogirl Member Posts: 2,434
    edited December 2016

    (((((Iris))))) hope it all turns out fine, and I am sorry you still have to worry. Please keep us posted. We are in your pocket!

    Octogirl

  • proudtospin
    proudtospin Member Posts: 4,671
    edited December 2016

    thanks, just setting up new Jan doc visits, at least it is my old docs

  • PoppyK
    PoppyK Member Posts: 1,275
    edited December 2016

    Iris, I'm sorry you didn't get better news. Hoping you get your appointments quickly and b9 results.

  • pennsygal
    pennsygal Member Posts: 264
    edited December 2016

    Poppy - sorry for the need for biopsy. I'm assuming you will have to wait til after New Year's?

    Iris - sorry for your results - it sounds like the docs are on it.

    Today is my two year cancerversary - two years since date of dx. I've been all over the mood map lately and realized it's the month of December.

    I love seeing all the decor!! Wishing all peaceful and lovely holidays. 💚❤️💙

  • chisandy
    chisandy Member Posts: 11,408
    edited December 2016

    Iris, Poppy--bummer on all those "suspicious" things turning up where they shouldn't. Just when you thought it was safe to go back into the water....:(

    Gma, joining you in giving a big fat raspberry and a bigger middle finger to the insurance company!

    Ducky...that cartoon of very Bad Santa is just one more reason why we love you!!!

    Spending Christmukkah in NYC--midtown (57th & 6th). Nice hotel, horrible traffic (normally bad, but all these security precautions a block away are making it exponentially worse. More than that I cannot say on this thread). Gotta bite the bullet tomorrow or early on the 24th and rent a car for the day to drive out to Queens & LI to visit the family graves--we'll just walk to & from the rent-a-car agency and not even attempt to park in Manhattan.

  • Tomboy
    Tomboy Member Posts: 2,700
    edited December 2016

    ((((Pop)))) ((((Iris)))), & (((Chi))), yeah, you get one for you-know-who.

  • Tomboy
    Tomboy Member Posts: 2,700
    edited December 2016

    Popp, 5 trees! Wow! I love them! They look professionally done, very nice! Mine look more like worse than charlie browns, I have a tree from my neighbor's yard, that I move into the house, unfortunately, so far it's only made it to the porch this year! I am still going to try to get it into the house today or tomorrow.

    Gma's IS professionally done, VERY nice! I love all of you, thinking of all of my good women here, I hope all your holiday wishes come true, and I am very happy to think of you with family & friends and coziness, good things to eat and drink, and warm socks!

  • gmafoley
    gmafoley Member Posts: 5,978
    edited December 2016

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    Couldn't help sharing. Hope it makes you all smile.

  • Lulu22
    Lulu22 Member Posts: 61
    edited December 2016

    I'm in a place where it's now the morning of Christmas Eve, and unable to sleep I opened my email at 1 am to find this lovely present sitting in my inbox:

    "...High uptake along the proximal right femoral diaphysis laterally, more focal and intense than described 12/14/15, and focal high uptake in or adjacent to the right lesser trochanter. Stress-related changes could be favored if clinically appropriate but metastasis cannot be excluded..."

    Fuck, fuck, fuck.

    I need to move out of Crazy Town, not take up permanent residence!

  • gmafoley
    gmafoley Member Posts: 5,978
    edited December 2016

    {{{{{{Lulu}}}}}}} Not such a good Christmas present. Is it? They don't know for sure and being you have a history of cancer, they have to throw that in. Praying that it isn't the latter.

  • PoppyK
    PoppyK Member Posts: 1,275
    edited December 2016

    ((Lulu)) definitely news that could wait until after the holiday, especially since there's no definitive results.

  • proudtospin
    proudtospin Member Posts: 4,671
    edited December 2016

    lulu, i so get the feeling and figure you and I are in same boat

    I am trying to put it away and I enjoy the holiday

    Dang it for all of us,

  • Lulu22
    Lulu22 Member Posts: 61
    edited December 2016

    I needed my middle of the night freak out and I thank my stars that BCO and you fine ladies were here to allow me to vent, then talk me off the ledge. I went for a nice early morning run and now I'm going to take swim, eat a yummy island breakfast, and have have a massage with my wonderful husband. Scary things may await, but in the immediate future life's pretty sweet. ;-)

    Proudtospin, I'm sorry we're sisters in crazy. I wish you good, clean final results.

    To all the BCO ladies, wherever you are in this journey, may you have a wonderful Christmas. I'm sending all the champagne, oysters, sugar cookies, chocolate truffles and other yummies my imagination can conjure. Hug your loved ones, sing with joy, laugh at the silliness of life and enjoy the kindness of others. Even in the midst of darkness there can be some beautiful, beautiful light.

  • Lucy55
    Lucy55 Member Posts: 2,703
    edited December 2016

    Lulu ..Awful to wake up Christmas Eve and read that ...I tend to agree with GMA that because of previous cancer history they have to add that comment ..I hope that's the reason ...Are you from Australia like me. ??

    Iris ..Sorry you are waiting for results too ..Good idea to move it to the back burner and enjoy Christmas.

    Time to rise and shine ( shine. ? Thats a joke ) here ..7am Christmas Eve ..We have a crowd coming tomorrow for Christmas Day ..And one of my daughter's and her family are sleeping here ...Im actually very excited ..

    When I was first diagnosed with this shitty disease , I was so depressed and can remember thinking that I'd probably only see one more Christmas ...I am thankful that I am now about to enjoy Christmas number 3 , and here's to many more for all of us. 🍷

  • Molly50
    Molly50 Member Posts: 3,008
    edited December 2016

    Quickdrive by to check on Iris and well Damn that stinks ! You too lulu ! I got the biopsy results from my mole which was benign . I need to schedule tx for my precancerous skin on my face . Sending gentle Christmas Hugs to all of you lovely crazies . Wishing our dear Beppy a joyful heavenly celebration . I like to picture her free of pain and dancing with the angels .

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  • Lucy55
    Lucy55 Member Posts: 2,703
    edited December 2016

    Molly ..I love , love your photo 🙂 I hope you and your family have a wonderful Christmas ...I like to think of our beautiful Beppy spending Christmas just like you said ..

  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 9,646
    edited December 2016
    I wish I could learn to love Christmas, each year I pray for a better outlook, and promise myself that this year will be different, ;but with all the unchritmas crap going on in the world, in the country, at the malls, on the streets, in traffic, it has become such a depressing time of the year.........the whole spirit of Xmas is gone and has turned into a commercial mockery of what it's all about..........I am so sorry for this comment, but I guess I"m just an old Scrooge.........forgive me......I know it will be good tomorrow night, and Xmas day, just wish I could see through my tears that it will be....love you all.........
  • Italychick
    Italychick Member Posts: 527
    edited December 2016

    duckyb1, hugs. Whenever I get jaded, I hang with the grandkids. My 5 year old grandson Jack is Mr. Christmas to me and his joy of everything about Christmas restores me. He hugs santa wherever he sees him, and loves everything. My daughter mistakenly put on some movie where somebody steals santa's Christmas sack and Christmas doesn't happen for 30 years or something, and my little Jack sat there and cried his eyes out, Christmas is such an important time for him.

    Lulu, sorry about your report, they put those words "metastasis cannot be excluded" on about every report I get, so fingers and toes crossed they are just cover their butt words and you have arthritis or something else.


  • proudtospin
    proudtospin Member Posts: 4,671
    edited December 2016

    yeap, i keep telling myself that until the onco says that it is ...... it ain't

    Tummy Hurt and trying to make some chicken soup and plan on rice chicken and some tiny pieces of carrot as i read were cooked carrots have very little residual fiber or something

    I could use some grand kids about now

  • cubbie2015
    cubbie2015 Member Posts: 773
    edited December 2016

    Iris, I hope this something easily sorted out, and that you can get some tummy relief in the meantime while you are waiting. It's so frustrating, you just got your back surgery done and that resolved.

    Lulu, I agree with Italychick, I think that is pretty standard wording they put on almost everything, because they are always going to recommend more testing to be sure.

    Poppy, hoping for a benign result.

    My gastroenterologist changed my antacid medication, but my biopsy results where OK except for some mild reflux. No H. Pylori, I was kind of surprised. I had an actual peptic ulcer when I was teenager, back when they thought ulcers were caused by stress, so I wouldn't have been surprised to find I had H. Pylori all these years. I am trying to stay out of CrazyTown by focusing on all the stuff I need to get done from Christmas and what I want to do with my days off over the holidays. Since Sula hasn't been around, here is some food porn. Oatmeal raisin cookies, soft on the inside, crunchy on the outside. These were my Dad's favorite.

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  • proudtospin
    proudtospin Member Posts: 4,671
    edited December 2016

    cubbie, hoping the tummy issue will have a safe fix, did make a tasty chicken soup today, not too many veggies but broth tuned out great, I need to just be careful on what I eat till next week colonoscomy and doc visits

    Good thing I know how to make good chicken stock

  • Chevyboy
    Chevyboy Member Posts: 10,258
    edited December 2016

    Ducky.... just had to talk to you a minute.... It's just because Christmas ain't what it used to be... for us. So many things have happened through the years, that we forget how to believe in the magic of Christmas!

    So many things are going on that we don't like.... Too many friends are no longer "friends" because we have lost our trust in them.... But it's okay.

    Yesterday, with nothing else to do, DH and I headed off for Colorado Mills... Not really to shop, but just to get out and walk around that whole thing! It was BUSY when we got there... People hurrying everywhere, and everyone looked happy! So many little kids! We walked by one little guy and he smiled at me, and I waved back at him... We both just smiled at each other!

    We stopped and sat down for coffee in one little place... watched all the people... Said Merry Christmas to one old Korean War veteran, that always sits in the same place! He wished us Happy Holidays! Then the line for Santa was unbelievable! So many little kids and Parents standing there patiently....

    Yes, it IS all commercialized, but we see that now because we are older... It's okay.... but just don't let all your feelings, your loneliness take over your heart. Things used to be different, I know.... but we can still enjoy little things.... We can feel happiness from other people...You know you are loved... and I love you too.....

    So just get out there little miss Ducky..... Remember who loves you, and find something beautiful about today! Thinking of you..... Chevy.........xoxo

  • Chevyboy
    Chevyboy Member Posts: 10,258
    edited December 2016

    Just put this music on, close your eyes, and dream of how it used to be!





  • duckyb1
    duckyb1 Member Posts: 9,646
    edited December 2016

    Thanks Chevy, needed that................It was a wonderful Chritmas Eve....the entire family was here......My kids/grandkids/ were so good to me it is unimaginable .......and again.............we fed an army , and still had enough food for the Marines........Merry Chrismas all

  • Chevyboy
    Chevyboy Member Posts: 10,258
    edited December 2016

    You have so much to be thankful for.... just remember that when things and Holidays get you down.... It's like your heart and soul sometimes feel empty, but being around loved ones, and friends fills it right back up again! And Happy New Year to you too! xoxo

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