Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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((((((((Traci)))))))))
I am so sorry. I am so sad for you. I wish I could make it better. I was just telling my husband this afternoon that I love these dogs...I said, I know they are "just" animals, but love is love, wherever you find it. I am so sorry that your kitty died. I know how very sad it is to lose a pet, have buried four dogs in my current backyard. We have a Collie-German Shepherd mix that is sixteen--almost unheard of for that breed to live that long. He can't hear a thing, his vision is starting to go, it hurts him to get up from lying down, I just pray we will know when the time is right for him to go (That's after I pray that he just goes in his sleep one night and we don't have to make that heart-wrenching decision). I could say those empty words about how strong you were and how you did the right thing for Jimmy but..it doesn't help a bit. Wish I could make the hurt go away.
All I can say is how good it was to talk to you yesterday and how much I am looking forward to meeting you! And, hey, when you are ready, I have a very good, sweet outside kitty that needs a home!
Love you..
Sue
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Traci,
It is always sad to lose a pet, and even harder if it is unexpected.
Your loss puts into perspective us having the puppy we've raised for the last 18 months leave today. He is going on to do what he was bred to do...be the eyes of a blind person, but we still have a hole in our family tonight. We know that Jones will be well cared for, and will have other puppies to play with through his training until he is matched with his blind person, but we sure miss him.
Losing a pet really sucks!
Hugs,
Pat
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OK - definitely marking my spot tonight.
Hi to Saint, Felicia, and Sue.
A big sucks to everyone that needs one.
Pat: Sounds like your dog is going to a good home.
Nicki
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Ok Nicki, can't make up your mind on a name or an avatar huh?
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Traci - Sending you hugs!! So not fair, but it sounds like you did everything you could for him.
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Hi everyone,
((((Traci))))
I'm SO sorry to hear about your loss... Jimmie was a very special kitty, and you shared the best times of his short life together... pets give us unconditional love... I know they feel emotions and love, too... sending HUGS your way!! You did all you could for him!!! He's at the Rainbow Bridge now, waiting for you. He's not in pain. He's playing, and waiting for you. You were lucky to have been able to share your life with him, and you'll be together again one day.
We are waiting for Hanna to arrive... oh... too funny, Hanna! We are expecting Hurricane or Tropical Storm Hanna to be just alot of wind and rain, but we are a little apprehensive, since this will be the first hurricane we've had since moving here to NC two years ago.Oh, as far as the ghost stories go, I believe that there is something there. When my Mom died, she had had a stroke. They took her to the hospital, where she had another stroke overnight. She was in a coma all day, and she died early Saturday morning, Dec. 14th, 1991. I'll never forget it. My dh and I left the hospital, and we went to bed. I awoke at 3:00am, and I felt a chill come over me. Then I felt someone touch my hand... and I swear I heard my Mom say "I'm alright now." This peace came over me, and I went back to sleep, but I knew that she had died. She came to visit me, to let me know that she was ok.
Well, now I'm crying again... so sorry Traci!! I think about my first cat, Axel. He had cancer, and we had to have him put down 6 years ago, the week of Halloween. I still miss him. He was special, too.
Harley
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Hugs Traci, do you know of Rainbow Bridge - memorial site for pets? http://www.rainbowsbridge.com/
I just found out a former friend from PIttsburgh died last week. He and I were coffee buddies after my husband died - nothing more than friends. He was divorced and retired and we met for coffee or lunch, worked the crossword puzzle together and sometimes went over to the local VFW for a drink or for the holiday dinners they had. After I moved, we lost touch and I had been thinking about him the past couple of weeks -- remembering and reflecting on my pre bc days and before I moved here and sold the house -- and the friends I had made over the years and lost touch with for one reason or another.
I went to bingo last night, didn't win, so today i got out a jigsaw puzzle and camped out inside with the ac cranked up. My skin is super dry, been slathering lotion on like crazy. I got a Ped Egg, which is great for the dry skin on one's feet - sort of like a cheese grater. Tomorrow I will increase my water intake for tx # 4 of Taxol and herceptin on Thursday. They slowed the iv drip a lot, gave me extra saline and I had NO burning ring of fire or stripes in front of my eyes. I also see the onco and will see if the tumor has shrunk any more.
Gentle HUGS for all. Nancy
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Stay with Hanna headed your way, Harley
Traci, still sending {{hugs}} to you...so sorry again sweetie.
Lefty, try to keep up with the increase fluids even between the treatments and it might help even more with the dryness. That stuff needs constant fluids to combat. And with the winter months coming, it will only get worse. Stay ahead of it!
Deb, LuAnn, and you ladies in tx's and fighting SE's, BIG THAT SUCKS to you all. Dang every giving disease!
Hate it all! Hope you are feeling well today, or better than last at the least. Deb, hope you got relief from your n/v and vision problems, haven'ts seen anything yet on it, but hoping. LuAnn...sucks you are having more pain dear. Hope you got some relief too It's still sticky outside. Was supposed to cool off today with some rains coming, but last night we had that sailors' delight sunset that I'm sure will predict another HOT and humid day, fit ONLY for a sailor on the sea
WE NEED some of the rain coming up from the gulf!Here's to a comforting day for everyone and hoping it's a Wacky Wednesday as dr. Seuss says!
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Yep, see what happens when your on vacation. You are all right, I cant make up my mind. I decided that everyone knows me as chemosabi. I thought maybe going quiet would make the bogeymen go away.
My IOS is insidgnificant today. Its official, we are closing down our pool today and tomorrow. Wasnt it just yesterday we opened it? I did swim my little heart out yesterday knowing it would be my last splash and I have sore muscles today to prove it!
I was sick of teepee's so I chose an American Indian dancing.
LuAnn: You made me laugh this morning.
Hanna: I cant remember my old quote either lol. Guess I will have to think up or find a new one.
Harley: The story about your mom gave me goose bumps. I really believe in alot of stuff like that. Sure hope you stay safe with "Hanna." Amazing how active the hurricane season is right now.
Nancy: Sounds like Thursday is gonna be one big sucky day. When I first came here many told me a big key to chemo and side effects was to drink and pee. I always drank alot of water the day before, the day of and the day after chemo. Good luck with the results of those tumor markers.
Wish: Same thing here. We also need some rain. The ground is so dry it has deep cracks like a earthquake, the grass is brown, and my flowers have withered away.
Sending out a big that sucks to anyone who needs it today. BBL
Nicki
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Traci: Thinking about you today.
Nicki
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My IOS is ridiculously minor, barely qualifies, but here goes: Last night as I'm standing at football practice, a mom walks up and we start chatting. After a few minutes, I say, "my name is Colleen, what's your name?" Flash forward 3-5 minutes, and I think to myself, did I just ask this woman her name, or did I just think to do it? So, I say something completely self-depecrating like, "I'm sorry, did we just exchange names, I don't know where my brain is, if we did, I've forgotten your name already." To which she responds, "we did, but I won't tell you my name again, I have a policy." She has a policy. She has a policy? What in the hell does that mean? After a few seconds of floudering, the woman next to me tells me her name. I don't know why, but I had such an urge to just go off on this woman, to rant and rave about chemo and 5 years of menopause condensed into 5 months and plain old stress and how I have enough to deal with just trying to not sound like a complete moron at times without having to contend with some fool who clearly doesn't have enough problems in her life if she has a POLICY about people she just met 6 minutes ago forgetting her name which has somehow overruled any iota of common sense or common courtesy she may have possessed.
Apparently I should have (gone off on her), perhaps it would have prevented me from ranting and raving about something so ridiculous here. And of course, it has nothing to do with her, (although, still, give me a break with the policy) so I guess my real IOS is I hate it that my short-term memory sucks!
A big "that's sucks" to all of you.
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Traci -- I'm really sorry about your kitty. Not fair, not fair at all. Very sad.
And cmb -- Hmmm. Two responses leap to mind:
1. "I have a policy, too. I try not to be unnecessarily rude to people who do not mean any harm to me. You might give it a shot sometime..."
2. "No problem. Since you won't tell me your name, I hope you don't mind if I just call you 'Rude b*tch'."
Arrrrrggggghhhhh.
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Rock - You hit the nail right on the head! So strangely and unapologetically rude, and for no reason! PS. Sorry about your real-world friends, talk about rude, hope that's improving!
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Traci--I'm so sorry about your kitty....I just hate it for you.
cmb--"I have a policy"?!?!? WTF?!?!?!?!? I don't think it's trivial at all--she went out of her way to make you feel like an idiot. "I have a policy"?!?!? What arrogance!! Rude b*tch, indeed.
Rock--so glad you're back!! Can't tell you how much I missed your wit 'n wisdom!
Oh, yes, and thank you all for the encouragement about my ds and seeing me bald for the first time. All went well, as you all said it would. He has a quarter size bald spot on his head that they're saying is alopecia areata (sp), and he showed me that and joked that if it keeps growing we'll match...as usual, worried about nothing!
THAT SUCKS to all with IOS's, and a suck-free day to all!
Sherri
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Colleen: She has a policy? That definitely deserves a big that sucks.
Rock: I love your responses. Gonna remember them for when I need them.
Hanna: I too forget names all the time. I would be walking around clueless if everyone had a policy.
Sherri: There is a book called "The Year My Mom Was Bald." Its written for children.
OK - gonna get dressed and take the dog Mister out for a walk.
Nicki
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OK, so now I'm just sitting here giggling, so thanks for that my friends! I think I might just start saying, "I have a policy" at inappropriate or random times now. "
Oh, all parents are required to work the snack shed for at least 2 games? I'm sorry, I can't, I have a policy."
"Oh, you'd like to get by me to reach that carton of milk which I am blocking as I try to decipher which of my 4000 choices is just plain old milk? I'm sorry, I can't move out of your way, I have a policy."
Ladies - have a suck free day please, you need to, cause, well, I have a policy....
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Good to see you, Rock!
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Traci, I am so sorry about your kitty!
cmb...if having cancer doesn't qualify one to have a "policy", I don't know what does! The NERVE of that b-word!! I hope she *chokes* on her "policy"...
Everyone else, I really have read your IOS but my "policy" of rapidly forgetting what I just read prevents me from addressing you individually. I really do care and am throwing out a huge, 'THAT SUCKS!" to everyone.
Now, my crap:
DS #3 (12 years old) started junior high last week. He made it until Thursday and had to leave early because he started vomiting and had diarrhea. I was at the doctor's so he called my in-laws to come get him. I picked him up after the appointment and he seemed better--even asked to get pizza. They had a 1/2 day of school Friday and of course were off on Monday. Well, he seemed to get better over the weekend, but ended up feeling too rotten to go to school yesterday. He started antibiotics last night and woke up this morning throwing up, which I'm pretty sure is from the antibiotics. Poor kid. I called the school to ask if I could come pick up the classwork that he missed and was told it's their "policy" (hah!) that he hasn't missed "enough" to "bother" the teachers and, besides: the teachers need 24 hour notice because they don't "plan that far in advance". Um...WHAT? They get to school 10 minutes before class starts without knowing what they're doing that day? BS! Oh, and the school website was really helpful..NOT! It lists all the assignments and worksheets for his classes........from the spring semester 2 years ago. Honestly, if they're going to "suggest" you keep in touch with your kids' teachers via the internet and tell you to email the teachers instead of calling, maybe they should think about updating the pages and adding a stinking EMAIL ADDRESS. Oldest DS woke up with the same crud this morning...Oh, JOY! I can't help thinking how sucky it is that I'll probably catch the bug too and the two week window I had before starting perpetual chemo is going to be filled with yacking and crapping. I guess that makes me a bit self-centered, but I was really looking forward to the time off of XELODA and feeling halfway normal for my birthday next week.
Oh, and I saw a suggestion on rock's chemo shopping list thread (Thanks for that, Rock...and WELCOME BACK!!!) about getting wigs on eBAY. I'd already bought a wig a couple of months ago when I thought I'd be starting chemo but ended up on XELODA. I bought it from the same woman who was *supposed* to order my bra and prosthesis that I've needed to replace for a year now. Anyway, I waited a month for the wig (which ended up being ok since I didn't need it yet) and she didn't tell me until I went to pick it up that she "never" bills insurance for wigs--even though she took the prescription for it. She also told me that day she's not "on my insurance" so she didn't order the bra/pros. WTF??? We have endorsements to our policy making every provider "in network" and she even called the insurance company when I was first there ordering the wig and pros, so...BULL$HIT! So, anyway, I decide to look on the wig manufacturer's website to see what styles I want to look for on eBay and find that this broad put an 80% markup on the RETAIL price of that freakin wig and adding shipping to boot!!! She was all, "I really love to help you cancer ladies...I do all the walks...I understand...Blah blah blah".. I guess it's her "POLICY" to gouge cancer patients. OOOOOOOOOOOH, I'm pissed! May she have an unfortunate accident with a pink-ribbon bedecked shovel.
/rant off
Carry on...
Diane
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Diane - you need a break! I hope you don't get your sons crappy pukey stuff!
@'s "
I have my own IOS today. I went through a tough surgery in July. I have degenerative and other issues in my spine (non cancer related, although aggrivated by AI's). The pain got so bad in my back, hips and down my legs I could hardly walk for about 6 months. The surgery to put a pain pump to administer medicine to my spine that was tough and took quite a bit to recover. After recovery I was so happy! I was getting out and about, was given my driving privileges back and everything. So that brings up to know (barely into Sept), I called the pain clinic to have my pain pump adjusted. Since they did that I still have pain but now my legs feel like I am pulling concrete bricks along with me with every step I take. I'm not sleeping well and am flat out miserable! I called the pain clinic and can't get in til Friday to figure out what might be happening!
Then I called yesterday to check on my scans. My onc was not in to approve giving me the scan results and the nurse said she would pass the message on to my onc regular nurse and she would call me today. Well it is 1:30 EST and still no call. At noon I called and one of the girls I know said didn't someone call you yesterday and I said yes but she couldn't release the results and Carrie, my onc is nurse from hell is supposed to be calling me. Well she left her another message to call me. Miss BI%$H is getting another call at 2 and then every 30 minutes til she calls me. I hate nurses that play GOD in their jobs! My onc and I are going to have some words next week. That is twice this month she has pull crap like this on me!
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OMG!!!!!!!!! I've been laughing my *ss off at some of your posts! Sorry about the IOS though....
Thanks so much for all the nice words about Jimmie and Nancy, thanks for sending me that link. That website is just AWESOME!! and, you got the balance of my tears out of me! Did you see all the tributes on there? It took me an hour to get through them all. So freaking sad. Boy, we sure do love our animals. Who said they cried more about the pet than there parents??? I can't go back now...(I don't like that) anyway, I thought that was funny and, my 'lil sis Debbi said the same thing last nite.
I feel better today but yesterday was brutal. I thought about y'all last night but I was just too sad to come online. Thanks again everybody.
Diane, I think we ought to start a wig exchange thread. I shipped two of my wigs to a very grateful girl on here and I know others have done it too. Something like the "community afaghan" (sp?) thread??? I'm sure some people think wearing a used wig is gross but I sure don't.
I got a ton of hats and scarves from Elaine that saw I was a newbie on here and lived in my town. She was awesome and when I was done, I gave them back to her so she could share with someone else. She doesn't come on the boards though, she is in the chat room.
I am so sorry about your perpetual chemo girl. ((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Sue, I'll let you know about the cat. I'm definitely not ready right now, that's for sure!!! Nice talking to you too girl!
Speaking of my 'lil sis...she is so funny. She was talking about her dog George getting old and how she is going to miss him. (it's amazing that dog has lived this long given the way those things she calls children (just kiddin'!!!) treated that poor dog over the years!!) Anyway, she was talking about him and saying the good things and she says "he's so smart and he picks up shoes..well, he only picks up one shoe..." and then she goes on talking about how on a daily basis they as a family have to look for the missing shoe....Now that I typed all that it doesn't sound funny but when Debbi was telling me the story I was LMAO!
Anyway, I was gonna say something else but my phone rang and now, I've forgotten. I've got to get back to work. I haven't had a very productive day work wise.
Love you girls. Can somebody tell me what page was the last page I read before I posted about my dear kitty???????? LOL! I would say I will catch up tonight but I can't cause I've got to get ready for my friends visit tomorrow. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hugs, Traci
ps Pat, that's awesome that y'all raised that puppy to help the blind! And....his name is Jones...? I love that!!!
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LuAnn, you posted while I was writing my mile long post.
I'm sorry girl......(((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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Traci, I love your trade idea. If you all are serious and interested in doing an exchange I wouldn't mind taking it on as a project. I could post a picture of whatever we have. We can set up the page maybe so that we know about it through bco????? Just a thought, but it isn't hard and an easy way to help others that just want a change of look or flat out can't afford a wig! I never got rid of my first one but it still sits here. I hate it and know i will never use that one again. If I ever need a wig again I will go looking for a new one.
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Lots going on here--
Nicki, closing the pool, sucks. Summer is over, if only someone would tell the Texas weather gods. Actually, it was pretty nice today, only 80 degrees and cloudy, a bit windy (Gustav).
LuAnn-being in pain sucks. Hope they figure it out quickly and you get some relief.
Colleen-"policy"? OUTRAGEOUS. Next time she tries to talk to you tell her that you have a policy--you only talk to people whose name you WANT to remember.
Diane-sorry for the creeping crud bug at your house. Those stomach ones are the worst.
My suckage--I started rads today. And I can already feel it. Feels like a sunburn, and I'm getting a rash. My skin reacts to everything, I have to be careful with soaps, laundry detergent, basically everyhthing. If I can already feel it after one tx, how is it going to feel in about four weeks? Arrrrrgggghhhh...
Off to walk to dogs. Here's the greyhound, in her favorite spot:
Have a great evening! If I missed anyone, I apologize!
(Hey Traci)..
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Wow Ladies,
I am afraid I too have been gone wayyyy to long! I miss all of you and this thread!
I went to the beach for two weeks and then had to settle two kids in their college apartments!!! Whew! That is a job!
I miss all of you and just wanted to make a quick hello! My oldest turned 21 today so I went to work with the cop hubby and son met us for lunch! Weird how we can remember it like yesterday giving birth to him and it was 21 yrs ago!!!!
I hope everyone is not having to much suckiness! Be back soon!
BTW got another infection...both ears and had to go on augmentin 875 + 125 something, my infectious disease doctor is not happy!!!! Hope she does not remember the 6mth rule to next surgery. Then I could not get nips until mid March!!! Today was supposed to be that surgery, now postponed until January!
Do you like the foobs alot more with nips???? I am not really a big fan of them right now!
Small crap compared to others sorry for asking about it!
Thinking of you all always,
Dani
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Hi Y'all!
Do you have room for one more? First someone has to help my poor chemo challenged brain and tell me what IOS means. I already had MS brain, so the addition of chemo brain makes me practically brainless.
To the goofball who had a POLICY...I would have responded one of two ways. I would either say, "Sorry since I was dx with breast cancer I have discovered my life is too precious to include stupid people" and start speaking to someone else. OR I would just call her policy every time I saw her. Make her WISH she had repeated her name.
A great big suckage to all who need it!
Now for my crap - I am currently on A/C every other week with some of the normal se's (nausea, queasiness, fatigue and gas that is definitely a weapon of mass destruction.) The worst for me is dry eyes that hurt all the time, and have affected my vision. I have an appt. with an opthamologist on the 9th. I am hoping for a solution, artificial tears haven't worked. This keeps me from being online much , and as I am homebound (except for cancer tx) my computer is my link to the world.
I look forward to getting to know everyone
~Bliss
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Hey!!! WaSux???
I have been sitting here lmao. This is one fine thread & makes me feel that I don't really have any IOS's when I read what others are saying (which is a good thing for perspective) but whatever is bugging me is OK to post here! LOL
Traci-I said my sis & I cried more for our pets than our parents----gotta add--our pets were better at their jobs--so maybe that is why.... ;>{ When I had to put down my favorite shepherd of all time the vet called a few days later to see how we were doing. She said, "What it says in the bible you must do to gain heaven, a pet does everyday of it's life!" WAY cool vet huh? I DO believe they will be the first to bound out of the gates in wild welcome......don't care if the Church says -NOT so---MY paradise MY rules!!! LOL
Nikki---no pool & sore muscles? that sux-what is next on the vacation itinerary? LOL
Cmb----you have gotten some fantastic responses here for the policy bitch----don't ya wish life had a rewind button??? LLOLOLOLOL
I am a "perpetual chemo-babe" (it sux!), but the alternative sux more!-----going on xeloda next monday (I hope) anyone have experience with it to share?
A wig exchange is brilliant! We had one locally---don't know why it hasn't been started here sooner!! Guess I'll have to keep my wigs since I'll need em again----But if we could start a body exchange & sneak away with cancerfree bodies?....now I'd be in on that one!! LOL
A BIG THAT SUX for all the crapola so many are facing here---I really love this place & I think you are stuck with me!! TY NIKKI for inviting me!!!!
Posting 3 pix I got in an email today----it was called Girls on the Beach thru the Ages!!! made me LOL----enjoy! Be well & stay strong!
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Saint, "WaSux" made me really laugh hard but, I could have done without the pics of the chicks asses. The little girls are cute though. I got the same email.
I had a post written and it went poof. Damit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I was saying LuAnn you that would be awesome! When I sent two wigs, I put them in a shoebox with tissue paper and it was like $5. I think that is a GREAT IDEA. We could not only do wigs but scarves and hats too. I know I was happy to get rid of mine when I was done!
Do it girl. I'll chime right in and keep it active.
Now though, I've been cleaning all night, started missin' my kitty by picking up his toys and so popped an ambien and am about to go nighty night.
I love you girls. I'm so glad you are here for me. (((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Traci
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So much suckage...so little time...
cmb - The policy thing is just toooo much. My latest thing for stupid people has been wishing I could flick them in the forehead. She's a definite flicker (or would it be flickee...?)
Traci - Glad you felt the love!
Sue - Owie. I am far behind you, but I think that will be me as well. I burn in about 15 minutes in the sun.
Diane - I wish you a crude-less 2 weeks before chemo!
Nancy - We are chemo partners tomorrow. Taxotere for me.
Which leads to my suckage...I've already complained about the weekly part of this particular suckage, but can I just say I HATE this medicine!!!! I thought the Carbo and Cytoxan were bad (and mind you, I am really glad not to be naseous or constipated), but this is just crap! This one is affecting every inch of my body and gets worse over time, not better. At least with the other two, after 4-5 days, I would begin to feel normal. Not now - feet hurt/burn, hands are overly sensitive, fingernails hurt, eyes and lips are like the Sahara, and in place of constipation, every thing I eat runs right through. Don't like it, don't like it, don't like it. Especially don't like that I have to do it again tomorrow...
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