Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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WhaSux???
Hey kids! It was a great day with NO IOS's---in fact---my big SOI---when I got the the Humane Society there was only ONE dog left who was there 2 weeks ago!!!! YEAH for forever homes!!Luann--I am so sick of debates----on TV, at parties, in the store. on line or ANYWHERE else---PLEEZ! IF someone has made up their mind no one else is going to change it NOW--besides, both sides feel sorry for the ignorance ot the opposition....so it goes. How about posting some of those stripper pix?
Hope everyone has an IOS-free day tomorrow! HUGS! Be well & stay strong
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Big THAT SUX to those who need.....
And tonight I'm bummed. Dh normally gets 34 hours home a week. Gone all but one day and this week he put in for 4 days, b/c our 20th last year was spent with me getting test and surgeries, so we made plans to reconnect after this long year. HA! He can't now. Will be on the road thurs morning as normal
I hate this! We needed this time! Life sucks sometimes. I'm thankful he has the job and insurance, but dang it all, the guy with double pneumonia just came off 2 week vacation and was sick before that and never went to the doc. Now he's back and goes to the doc and bam...our time off is cancelled Poo on him!0 -
Aww wish-==THAT SUX big time--sorry hon----try to reschedule & make is sacred so NO ONE can bump it off HIS calendar------HUGS
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wish that is a big THAT SUX!!! Nothing worse than hubby always being gone. I hated when my husband would be out in the field for weeks on end with the military. Although I think some of that time away helped our marriage. Nothing keeps the love fresh than dealing with time apart.
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absence makes the heart grow fonder...
---when dh has been gone for long stretches we tend NOT to have too many disagreements when we do get together..........
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I hear you there. He's always worked away (well, for the last half of our life), but dang it...he's had one day for the last 6 months and needs the time off too to regroup. Thanks for letting me rant. I try not to, to him, you know. WHen he's only home a little while I try not to, so I appreciate this thread then!
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Thank God for this site!
Tonight my boyfriend is drunk in the bathroom after giving me a lecture regarding how thankful I should be that I had surgery. I know that I am glad to know I will live, but I have the right to feel pissed off about this whole ordeal. Losing both breast and waiting for expantion before getting implants is a big deal to me.
I am thankful that this man has been taking care of me since the surgery. He has stood by my side from recovery, but everytime I start to cry I must hear him tell me all the reason that I shouldn't be sad. He tries hard, but sometimes I need a shoulder that says its okay to cry.
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When he's NOT drunk or hungover, you need to relay this entire post to him, in those words. I'm sure he's not even meaning it, but still....drunking stupors are NO reason to for gutless rants. Sorry, dd's bf was a drunk and finally she threw him out. THEN he got sober and got help. He's a great guy, but liquor does stuff to some...mostly makes them stupid and ignorant of life!
THAT SUX BIG TIME for you dear! Know that you are loved and love yourself enough to NOT internalize his stupid remarks! He's luck you LET him help you during this time. {{{HUGS}}}
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Aww hugs pinky------maybe he has so much gratitude & shear joy for having you in his life he can't understand your anger! I know there are things I simply can NOT share with family & friends that I do with my bc sisters. I am glad to have ppl I know I CAN scream, cry or rant at if I need to since it is NOT part of who I am to them here at home. BIG hugs & That SUX! I have a shoulder that is always available-----pm me your phone number if you want a call.......that goes for ANYONE (in the US Canada or Mexico-can't afford to call anywhere else-LOL)
HUGS - Be well & stay strong
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HI to all that have IOS,
It has been awhile since I have posted on this site. Well, I have many issues with pain of my expanders, anxiety, stress and depression. I am really working at try to control and get rid of a few of my issues. Not sure it will happen. The expanders feel like they are cutting into me at all angels, I have had my last fill and waiting to the exchange surgery. That will be scheduled in January.
Pinkylee, I know what you mean about starting to cry and no one wants to hear it. I tend to be weepy every day and when I start to cry, my dh will hold me and let me cry, but I tend to surpress my emotions. This is not good for either of us. We need to learn not to surpress our emotions and to let them all hang out.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
To everyone, a big THAT SUCKS to all that need it.
Cheryl
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Dry skin on my lower arms - hope it is only a contact dermatitis, as my skin is super sensitive. Allergic to adhesive tape and scrub soap - which makes surgery NOT fun. They used dermabond for the port, which worked good.
I played bridge at another location today - and the pita does not go to this group. Then I went to the grocery store and who should I run into - PITA lady... I saw her first and tried to sneak away. Fortunately all she did was say HI - whew !!!!!
Hugs and Blessings. THAT SUCKS as needed. Hang in there - it is "doable" but no one has to like it. Nancy
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Hi everyone,
Pinky and wish.... so sorry things are sucking! It is nice you have men that love you, though. I'm sure it's a real comfort at times.
I got less than good news today. I went to see my onc to get the results on my PET scan. I have a suspicious spot on my lung that was not there ten months ago. Now I have to get a CT scan to check it further.
I know that it could possibly be nothing, but it's still very upsetting. I had Her2pos bc, but I only got 3 months of Herceptin because it damaged my heart so badly. I really have felt like it's just a matter of time ever since I got that news. Even thinking that, a part of me has always hoped for a miracle.
I was prepared to die after I got diagnosed and I was okay with it. However, now that I'm back to work and living life as I did before, I'm not okay with that anymore. I don't want to do any of this crap anymore. I want to be healthy, wealthy, and wise.
This is so whiny I'm even making myself sick. Maybe we should change the name of this thread to the bitchy, moany, groany, whiny thread.
Thanks for listening,
Miss S
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AHHHHH, Miss S---THAT SUX!!!
This is the place--let it out cuz it is pure,steaming, stinking poo & you need to purge it!
I keep a candle burning 24/7 in my church for all here & will keep you in my prayers.
Be well & stay strong---HUGS
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Dang it Miss S! Prayers it's an old scar from something, and not this crap!
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I must admit, with all the political stuff going on - I began to wonder what color the sky really is.
This is a pop in and just shouting out a big that sucks to those who need it.
Hugs
Nicki
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Oh, ((( MissS ))) - poopy, crappy, sucky. The waiting game again for results. THAT SUCKS.
If there is one more political phone call on my voice mail, I may need an "intervention"... GRRRRR. Yes, I am registered, Yes, I plan on voting and NO, I do not want your reminder call. Then I got 3 absentee ballot forms one day, 6 yesterday... WTF - what list are they getting my name from?
Chemo # 14 tomorrow and Saturday an informal meet up with BC ladies from the area. We are meeting at the mall food court to see if we can set up a regular or semi regular thing for support and friendship or to go together to an "event" in the area. Tyson's Corner Mall, Saturday, Oct 18 at noon in the Food Court - look for the pink tablecloth. Parking in Terrace C or E looks like the closest.
THAT SUCKS and gentle HUGS, Nancy
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Aww Shucks, Miss S.-
That really SUCKS! I'm praying that you'll get B-9 results! Maybe just scar tissue, like mine was... Sending HUGS your way!!
WISH,
I always just HATED it when my dh was away, when he was in the Navy! You are a better woman than me, because when I was getting chemo, (I got my tx on Tues, every three weeks), he would come down on Wed., and stay til Sun. However, I just couldn't be happy he was there, I would think about what was going to happen when he left again...
IT SUCKS that your dh can't be there with you, to celebrate your anniversary together.
NancyI used to live in Columbia MD, and even though I HATE driving on those highways --- DC area, I would have loved to meet you at Tysons Corner Mall! So sorry I can't meet you!
Hugs to all! Hope everyone has a non sucky day!!!
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Nancy, just hearing tyspns corner reminds me of my single days living in the big city. I miss that area so much, hope you all have fun.
Miss S, I tell people this on the mets forum all the time and will tell you. Lung nodules can be anything at all. Can be a remnant from a cold or just about anything. They show up and dissappear at will. Just because you couldn't follow your year protocol of herceptin does not mean youw ill reccur. I honestly hate seeing new faces daily showing up in the forum being dx. I will say some prayers that you are not someone joining our ranks and that you have one of those wait and see things. Then when you wait and see, you realize it is nothing to worry about!
Boy do I have an IOS! My dil wanted to go out and party with her dad last night. She is 19 and her dad likes taking her to the bar and out on his bike for bike runs with her. He is sick, I think he wants people to think this old man has a young hot girl for a girlfriend. Anyway, he only treats her nice when he wants something or has money in her bank account, really nice kind of guy. Well she asked me to watch the kids and promised to be home after this bike ride. The youngest baby woke up at 6 am with no mommy home. He was not problem but 15 min later the next one was screaming his head off and was no calmin him. I called her cell phone with no answer. I called her dad's house and they said she was sleeping, I said I don't care wake her and then her dad said she was sick. I said to bad for her she needs to come to the phone. They get her on the phone and she comes home and takes the kids. Now I waited til I calmed down and had my composure and told her that I was POed about her behavior last night. She doesn't understand why I was upset. She said the kids never wake up this early and so she would have been home on time. Then she tried to blame my boys on waking her kids when they got up for shcool but that didn't work because her son woke up before they did. Her resonse was "well I just take them with me then" What is up with this girl, she is married, her husband is fighting in a war and she prefers to stay out all night partying than being home taking care of their family????? I am just soooo angry!!!!! UGH!!!! I think I will be going out for the day because I definitely cannot sit in this house with her today!
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WhaSux???
Ahh CRAP LuAnn------that sux----especially since there isn't much you can do but sit by & watch!!!! HUGE hugs
I understand missing your dh & not enjoying him cuz you focus on when he'll leave again---mine lived away Mon-Fri when we were first married-----it SUX (sorry if I seemed insensitive on my previous post) It really SUX if you have to live without him while going thru hell..... :>{
I thought I had an IOS, but now I just think I was needing to vent & have a new perspective so I will skip it this time-----too much $hit in the IOS dept here----time for a bounce & change for everyone......
Be well & stay strong
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Sorry for your news Miss S. I did make it through the night and hopefully he won't get too wasted tonight.
I went to the general surgeon today who said that I was healing good and that all of my cancer was contained in the milk ducks. dcis. My back is pulling from the stitches on both sides, my expanders and aching and I can only imagine what they will feel like when the fills start next week and I pray to god that he will remove these drains at that time.
Yes, i am thankful for having a man in my life. I know many who would have walked away rather than take all of this. He has allowed me to stay at his house. He is totally taking care of me until I can get back on my feet. I guess you have to take the good with the bad but drunk is bad!
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Another Pop in.
Miss S: That sucks big time. Hugs.
Hi to everyone else.
Nicki
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That SUX ladies....so sorry for all the SOI's
CANCER AND the EFFECTS SUX big time! Big, gentle {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}} to you each! 0 -
SOI today: Pita lady was at bridge, but I did not end up at the same table with her at all. Whoo Hoo.
THAT SUX for all of your worries, problems, waiting, tests, side effects, and general poopies in your lives. HUGS, Nancy
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Ah, come on, don't you want to have a PITA party for the pain in the BLEEP! LOL
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Hey Nancy, I hope she has laryngitis the next time you sit together (as opponents), you get 20+ points, bid and make a slam!!!!!
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Popping in an marking my spot. A big that sucks to everyone that needs to hear that today. Im off to work - AGAIN!
Nicki
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Hi y'all,
I'm off to see the onc for a pre-chemo visit. Taxol has demolished me over the past 2 weeks. Severe stomach pain for 3 days, bone pain for another 8 days, then the open sores started - whoo boy. Lookinhg at several websites, some refer to it as a "rash" but do comment on open sores. I have them all over my stomach, on my back and on my legs. I look like a leper. Treating these is diffficult because I am allergic to all adhesives/tape including bandaids. Also bad were numb toes and my finger tips became numb/burning pain within a few days. I had told her my hands being affected was a deal breaker for me. Being in a wheechair, I can't really use my legs anyway - but I need my hands to stay healthy.
When I called my onc for help she pawned me off off on my pcp. I do have an appt. at a wound care cenbter tomorrow. I was very disappointed that her answer was to send me to other doctors. If she is expecting them to know the side-effects of chemo drugs, should they also have the authority to choose which one I should be on? I think since this is chemo related it falls in her court and she should have dealt with it.
My pcp is such a sweetie, when I called him for an appointment, he said he had an office full of sick kids and did not feel safe having me come in. He called in an antibiotic, something he doesn't normally do.
I am disappointed in my onc, terrified of more Taxol and really hoping my blood counts are tanked this morning and I can avoid chemo today. What would you do in this situation? Refuse Taxol? I want the cancer killed of course - and going through some discomfort is worth it - but this was very extreme and the neuropathy could be permanent.
A big THAT SUCKS to all who need it!
Love to all,
~Bliss
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Hi all,
I had a friend come into town that is writing a book and I volunteered to type it for her. 75 pages. Man, typing dictation is so much harder for me now than it was when I was 24. Hopefully, the book will be a best seller and I will get some royalties.
While she is lucky not to have cancer, she has had a life full of addicts. When her 24 yr old daughter was thought to be a heroin addict, it sent her over the edge and she started writing. It's actually a very good read so far. Misery loves company. Anyway, that is what has kept me away from the boards.
Bliss & Miss S, words cannot describe how sorry I am for what you guys are going through. This "journey" (I hate that btw...) sucks bad enough without throwing the extra crap in it.
Miss S, I hope LuAnn is right and that spot turns out to be nothing. I know you must be realing with all kinds of thoughts. I'm having them too and it's not even me!! I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better girl. (((((((hugs))))))) Just know you are loved liked crazy here and we are all there right beside you.
Bliss, what you are describing just sounds horrible. I can't even imagine. I had pain with my chemo but nothing on the 'outside'. My sister is allergic to adhesive too. When she had her hysterectomy (a gift from her cervical cancer) and she described what you are describing. It was awful for her and I'm so sorry you are having to go through that. GAWD....that sucks so bad. ((((((hugs))))))) I'm so sorry girl.
Cheryl, I feel your pain about the expanders. I had a horrible time with mine. So much so that I stopped the fills too early. Now, I'm left with the worst boob job on the planet. I hate them. I've thought about doing something about it but the thought of going under the knife again is making me just ignore the situation. It totally sucks. It's probably one of the reasons (no, I know it's one of the reasons) that I'm just letting myself go. I've gained 30 lbs since my diagnosis. Nothing fits. Everything sucks.
Everybody else (((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
gsg, you cracked me up about the brush. One time, my brother got a bad misquito bite and he was scratching and scratching and I said "don't you wish you had a brush?" and he said "yes, that or steel wool." LOL.
Love you girls, gotta get to work. Boss should be here any minute. I'm glad he wasn't here this morning so I could catch up to you guys.
I wanna see the Vegas pics!!! I also wanna go on the next trip!!!!
Hugs everybody,
Traci
ps Sue, it's freaking cold here!!! I'm not used to this! I didn't want to get out from under the covers this morning!!
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To Miss Bliss,
That sucks that the onc would refer you to another doctor.
I got a call from a friend in Richmond, VA who had been seeing the doctor after radiation. finally she had a mastectomy, now they have found that her cancer has metastasized in her bones. She was using Veterans Hospital. They really don't give good care to women.
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Bliss, you are suffering way too much with this tx and I don't think you can handle taxol. I take you are an early stage but if not I apologize if I am wrong. But there are many other chemos that are an option to try. If you are having such a bad time with taxol then taxotere is an agent to try that you might not respond so badly to.
I would highly recommend talking with another onc for a second opinion because your onc should be listening to your s/e and helping you with them. Being stage IV my onc handles all my s/e and if it causes sometihng out of his expertise then he recommends a specialist that will help me.
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