Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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Lisa....so sorry...thinking of you. I am just so shocked to hear this.
Isabella.
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It has taken my two hours to catch up on all the reading. So I will try to do this well.
Please note it was not me that blabbed about Luanne allowing a strange man put her prosthetic breast under his shirt and almost into his pants. But she did do that. She even talked with the videographer for a few minutes to try to put a more positive spin on it. After that there were breast cancer jokes that made the whole event a big of a joke.
The snake story. TerryO had a tornado pass her rural palace and things were dropping from it... pickup trucks, cows.... and a big branch with a huge snake on it.
So I brought a rubber snake to Vegas and let someone sneak it into her bad....Heard she did react with a tiny scream and then when she got home she placed it in her garden.
I was in the thick of things in Vegas. That is what was truly my lesson - I was in a room of women that I had been conversing with for 8 months on the internet. And I belonged. I was part of the group and could comfortably be in the group ..... I luv you all
I feel crappy about bringing pencils with Canada on them when others gave bracelets and silver charms, photobooks etc. But I had something and everyone seemed to really want their pencils. I was the kid everyone hated in school. It was truly amazing that I could be part of the group and a vocal, funny part of the group.
I was blessed to be able to go on this trip. I call it traipsing off to Vegas. I have many friends - that is my riches. And they all gave me money to play with in Vegas. It was a trip of a lifetime. I know that it cannot be repeated. Many thanks to those that made the trip so special to me (special mention: Saint, Kosh and Flash).
When I got back from Vegas I did a little cleaning out .... anything negative went out. Get well cards etc - gone. I kept the positives, the pictures, the memories...
I find that I get more tired now and know it is not "me". I dont sleep half the day away, get up for an hour or so and then fall asleep again. Am not eating enough... and for the life of me cannot seem to make the calories go down. Am afraid that the cancer is progressing. I am not ready for that yet and I may never be.
A big THAT SUX for pesky popcorn kernals that drive you crazy, new dx of brain mets, and never ending pain. I wish for all of these to just go away. It will be the first question on my lips when I "cross over". Why do all my friends have to go through this?
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"I was the kid everyone hated in school."
Come sit next to me, Dreamwriter, aka "Last one picked" (as in "if you get Todd C on your team you have to take [rock] too!") in an area that lived and breathed for sports. (Honestly, it is so painful to think about those days. And when the HS librarian told me "High school is the best years of your life!" I went to the town library and checked out a book on how to kill myself. No joke.)
Anyway, I wanted to say Thank God there is life beyond K-12 education. I'm so glad that none of that crap matters on these boards. I think this thread is like the "cool" table in the lunchroom, if you ask me. Except that there's room at this lunchtable for everybody. Cuz that's how we roll.
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Lisa,
I replied on your other thread. I am so sorry! I'm glad you have an answer, but F*#*%^ THIS answer! Damn, damn, DAMN YOU FU#%^# CANCER!
((((HUGS))) and THAT SUCKS! everybody.
Diane
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Oh Lisa......tears are just flowing for you girl. It's just not fair. It's just so unfair.
So sorry about all the other suck-a** BC-BS going on in everybody's lives.
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Dream, you were great and I just sent you a PM. I loved meeting you and I bet you are still just recovering from Vegas. I personally loved your gift because it was from you and meant something about yourself.
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Hi ladies,
I am not an usual poster on this thread (as you know, I am usually a disgusting Susie Sunshine type). However, my heart is aching with anger and I don't know what else.
What the h*ll is up with all of our sisters getting so much bad news?!?!?!?!? Lisa and CalGal, and of course, AlaskaDeb, and whomever else I am missing (it's late, I'm tired), I just want you to know that all the crappy news that is swirling around your lovely heads is really getting my panties in a bunch.I'm just so irked, and as I popped onto this thread it brought me directly to Deb's posting about her T-shirt that says "Cuck Fancer," and I laughed so hard I nearly peed.
That helped.
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it's too much. i'm so sorry, lisa. best wishes for a good outcome with your treatment plan. it does seem many are doing well with mets. but it's a lot to take in.
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Mega Hugs ((((((( Lisa )))))). Dang, crap, pooh and some other choice words I dare not spell out. THAT SUCKS big time. I tried to catch up on all the suckies, but Lisa's overwhelmed me. So, THAT SUCKS for everyone else who needs it. Having your daughter there is so much better than doing this alone and WE are ALL here for you, keeping positive thoughts, sending prayers up, and holding you in our arms with cyber hugs {{{{{{{{{{{{{ lisa }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}.
My IOS is that yesterday I got the impression that it was no longer about me, that I had somehow faded into a composite, generic group of those who were dealing with just another of what life throws at us. Just another statistic, another female with BC, if you know what I mean. I wanted it to be about only me - then friends saying - my friend, my sister, my mom --- all who have or had BC. This is NOT to minimize any of YOU or to not feel compassion, pain and worry for each and every one of you, but - does any of this make sense? I feel a pity party coming on. and one person actually compared BC to having a zit on ones nose.... it will be gone soon. I wanted to scream back - chemo, radiation, and you cut off a part or the entire nose to get rid of a zit ???
Back to Lisa and all who will scream THAT SUCKS at the top of her lungs. Fancer Cucks is today's matra. HUGS, Nancy
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Somebody compared having BC to a zit on the nose???????????
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Well I dont think BC is so miniscule a problem as a nose zit but maybe they were trying to say just about everyone gets it. Which is not true. And those that do, deserve to do what the woman in red does (She decks the one in the pants). This is a hard road to travel and news is seldom good. Each treatment makes us look like we are superheroes or something. People are impressed by our ability not to sit down and wait to die. Gotta live each day until we cant. Chin up, chest out (if you still have one), stomach in..... and march on. Smile my friend while we are still here to hug each other.
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I have a minor (relatively speaking) IOS for tonight. My husband and I have been married for 25 years and we have lived in the same house for the last 21 of them. When it comes to home repairs, my dh is lacking a little in that department. My bathroom has been torn apart for 21 years. For about 5 years, we didn't even have a bathroom door - just a curtain hanging down. I've overlooked most of this knowing that my husband will never be "Handy Harry."
But...we had a flood in our bathroom about 4 years ago, which drained into our kitchen ceiling. For the past 4 years, the plaster in my kitchen ceiling has been hanging down and one of the inside of my kitchen cabinets is covered in mold. My home is not a showplace and I will never be awarded the world's best housekeeper award, but this little annoyance goes beyond style. I am worried about the bacteria and mold and how this may effect my recovery. It's hard enough fighting cancer; I don't need anything else to fight.
I've tried asking him to do it. I've tried volunteering to help him fix it. Our local American Legion has called and asked if there was anything they could do for us and I tried being passive/ aggressive and telling my husband that maybe we should ask one of them to do it or have a friend do it. DH is very proud and very stubborn. He does not like people helping him. I would love to get someone to just come in some morning after he goes to work and have it done while he's out. But, I don't know if it would be worth sufffering his wrath.
Any suggestions?
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Personally....I would sit down with dh and explain that you need this MOLD out now and a bathroom door on NOW. Give him 2 weeks to get the cupboard down and out and the ceiling and floor fixed, or you are going to get it done with someone else. Mold is horrible in so far as health concerns and with your treatment, you can NOT risk the infections from them. Or the injury of that said cupboard or floor/ceiling coming down on you!
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I would have someone come in immediately whether he is at work tomorrow. Mold is serious and can cause alot of health problems. You need that fixed ASAP!
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I did get my bathroom door about a year ago, so for that I am grateful. I'm thinking that he'll get over me having someone else fix the ceiling a lot easier than he would get over me dying from a preventable infection.
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Yep, that's a given hon! IF there's some way to get help to do it, then just do it. You need to conquer the beast and getting this taken care of will allow you concentrate on doing that!
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Guess I have been in my hidey-hole for a long time and can't even begin to catch up!
Jane, if the American Legion is still willing to help I say CALL THEM!! I think in the long run DH will appreciate it.
Lisa, what you are dealing with SUX THE BIG ONE! This just isn't fair!! You have every right to moan and groan and I am doing the same with you.
Hugs to you all,
suzie
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Well my IOS is that I have been boohooing all weekend. It started with the photos my son sent me. If you have not seen them check out the thread labeled Find A Cure. His whole unit in Iraq took some pictures in honor of all the women on these boards fighting breast cancer. They have become our poster boys! That just ripped me up.
Then I find out DIL is not sure she wants to leave her family in Cincinnati to move to Texas with my son when he returns from Iraq. Her father has her believing he is dying of something (not sure what this week). He is white red neck trash that would rather sit in his trailer park home and drink beer, smoke cigarrettes and look at porn online. Nice guy to raise you.... Anyway, he was on workers comp and when they dropped him he doesn't have any income. I know he has been going to her for money that my sons sends her to use on her and the kids. I guess he figures if she stays and takes care of him then he can get her child support to live off of????? What is up with people????? URG!!!!! I just want her to go to TX and give this marriage a try. These two little boys deserve a chance to know their daddy!
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Being new to the bitch thread, what is IOS?
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Issue of Suckage
SOI is opposite, can't remember exactly but it is something really nice to help brighten some peoples day!
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Lisa,
I am sitting here in the middle of the night bawling my eyes out for you. This just can't be happening to you. I want to scream. You were such an encouragement and help to all the gals in our March chemo group.... having you to go through this journey with me made it so much easier.
I just can't believe this..... it's so unfair. Cancer SUCKS so much and is such an evil beast! I just hate this so much! *big hugs*
You know you are well loved and cared for here and I hope that makes you feel better in some small way. There are no words..... just please know we are praying for you and hoping for the best.
Love you,
Miss S
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Shouting out a big that sucks to everyone who needs it today.
Nicki
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Hi Lisa ~ I signed on just to check on you this morning and I'm so sorry to hear this news. I'm so glad you had your daughter with you! Sending big ((((hugs)))) your way, I hope when you get to speak with your onc you'll get a plan you can (literally) live with to keep this at bay if not diminish it it indefinately. As was said in a previous post...you're not alone, we're all here for you and anything you need we will find a way to get done for you...
Lots of Love and hugs for you,
Bonnie
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Have a minor IOS today. My dd shared and gave me her cold. Normally I would not be worried but I go in for my 6 month bloodwork on friday. Does anyone know if there would be any problems?
Gentle Hugs,
Trish
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No, just let them know you've got the 'crud', b/c it's possible your WBC's could rise from it, but shouldn't be a problem.
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Has anybody heard from Lisa??
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Trac-she just posted one minute ago on her "Me, too" thread. She wrote it in genuine Lisa fashion (you will know what I mean when you read her last line).
She rules!
I do have a "bitch" to share! I woke up yesterday to my hubby saying "Daniel wants pancakes for breakfast." He then looked at me helplessly until I said, "Need me to make those?"
He then INSISTED that a receipt for a Wii we bought was NOT in the bag. I went crazy looking for it. As I sat at the table surrounded by wads of receipts (I can never place them nicely in my purse), he came in and said, "turns out the receipt WAS in the bag! ha ha?"
I do love him. I was gonna kill him, though!
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Hey - I'm here!
We've had a chat with the onc. who said that after a realradiologist (not some tele-radiologist via the ER, probably offshore) read my MRI that I have a single lesion. A larger lesion, but just ONE. I can't imagine what sort of ganja that guy was smokin' to have mistaken a double image for a single one, but I'm relieved as there is better results from a singleton.
The decadron isn't working as well today, but I can't expect it to every day. That's why I've got to get up to LA for this procedure. Sunset is the hospital in the Kaiser system that does Gamma Knife. It ought to be scheduled before Thanksgiving. Great - I'll be punctured and black and blue when I get on my Virgin America flight to San Fransisco to go be with my sister, bil, and daughter. Well, the meal will taste good - the decadron will make damned sure of that!
Lisa
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f breast cancer! Thanks for letting us know you got to speak w/the onc Lisa. I'm glad there was some good news mingled in there for you! Although, a radiologist who reads an MRI for someone who potentially has brain mets and gets it wrong ~ needs to be shot. Sorry, still have steroids in my system and they still make me a bit aggressive at times.
A big that sux to anyone who needs it!
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Lisa,
It feels weird saying this, but ONE lesion is good news! I've read of many positive experiences with Gamme knife both here and on the bcmets mailing list. I know there are a couple of California ladies on the bcmets list that might have more info for you about facilities/procedures. I'm so, so sorry that you have to go through this!
THAT SUCKS, y'all!
(((HUGS)))
Diane
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