Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

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  • mzmiller99
    mzmiller99 Member Posts: 220
    edited February 2009

    Ooo, how about a handy house fellow??  With great teeth and a cute dimple??!!

  • luannh
    luannh Member Posts: 350
    edited February 2009

    Hey ladies, missed you all!!!!!!

    As for bills, what are they????  I don't have many anymore but the few I have all have notes, if she hasn't paid, call her and she will!  LOL  I can never remember to pay my bills.  I go online and pay things but occassionally forget things, especially the every 3 month ones.  My trash company doesn't usually shut me off, they just call and say who they are and I go, Oh you want money  LOL  and they say yes.  And they normally get paid.

    I had surgery again last week and am back to recovery and meeting with the rads onc tomorrow.  I wish I would quit seeing doctors that would take away all my energy......

    I have been trying to follow you all without much luck, but Traci, GET THOSE TESTS DONE!!!!

  • mzmiller99
    mzmiller99 Member Posts: 220
    edited February 2009

    LuAnn - Big that sucks to more surgery!  I hope all went well.

  • flash
    flash Member Posts: 129
    edited February 2009

    Luann,

    A big that sucks about the surgery. But glad to hear that it went well.

    A big that sucks to all and raising a big glass of margheritas to everyone.

  • BooBee
    BooBee Member Posts: 288
    edited February 2009

    My IOS......Son and GFriend broke up today after 4 years and everyone knew it was happening but me.  I'm not fine china!!!!!  I am PISSED he didn't come to me to talk about it..........There nothing like  seeing your grown son cry and........ she's become such a big part of our family that I'm crushed on two levels. 

    He had his ACL operated on in October and has been out of work for months.  Unfortunatly, his company is close to going out of business so not job to return to.  Needless to say, his self esteem is close to nonexistant.

    Sorry....bad day.

  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 678
    edited February 2009

    oh boy.... ya'all sound down in the dumps.

    I have meeting with the ct/mri tomorrow ... if the plumbing would empty out... and now the onions on my burger are repeating the wrong way.... more dots on my body....

    I got a wife.  I mean a personal assistant.  She is my age, havent seen her teeth or dimples... but she is here to help me get some projects done... oh joy oh rapture... I may get organized yet.

    My sucky thing - after lunch I start to fade out so she leaves and I have to nap.... its like being 5 in kindergarten.. except I never went to kindergarten.

  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 2,234
    edited February 2009

    A few years ago there was an article in some women's magazine titled " I need a wife", really, true.  It mentioned all the things a wife does and without pay and on call 24/7, etc.   

    I am glad to hear I am not the only one who is forgetting or misplacing bills. I did not think to use the cancer card.  

    THAT SUCKS as needed and good thoughts and HUGS for all.    Nancy   

  • navygirl
    navygirl Member Posts: 369
    edited February 2009

    hmmm. I have no excuse, I have a wife...problem is...there are boundaries...and I get lost in mine! I'll call them today since I am finally better from my cold...I go for treatment today and I am praying they have the zofran for my IV because I really (REALLY) can not take another bout of puking. And, when I get on that scale it darn well better move DOWN...I have forced myself to keep moving/walking every day but yesterday (worst day of cold and cold and rainy...) so I darn well better see some results or someone is going to feel my pain on the 5th floor at GUH. ;(

    I hope it's a quiet day for you all...I gotta run - lots to do before treatment (like, work).

    Have a good day ladies...

  • luannh
    luannh Member Posts: 350
    edited February 2009

    navygirl, there is a better drug than zofran, why not ask for aloxi?  It lasts 3 days for naseau.

    Renee, sorry to hear of your son and his gf.  Going through somewhat of the same with my son and is soon to be ex.  Messy stuff!

    Dream, sending you good wishes!  You got a wife huh???  What does one do to get one of those???

  • AnnNYC
    AnnNYC Member Posts: 236
    edited February 2009

    Aw, geez, Renee -- are your son and mine psychic twins?  My son has been going through protracted mourning over break-up with his girlfriend last fall, injured a knee ligament in a basketball game a month ago (treated it himself with ice, rest, gradual exercise -- tells me he thinks it's mostly better) and just lost the job he's had for EIGHT YEARS (he's 25)...

    "self-esteem close to nonexistent"???   "nothing like seeing your grown son cry"???

    You rang???

    Sorry I'm a little behind on all other IOS's.

    Tracie, please get to the doctor!

    LuAnn, hope you're feeling better!

    Ah yes - the check in the sealed envelope with the stamp on it, lost under some pile of junk...  been there and have failed to do that!!!!!!

    xoxoxox to all, Ann

  • Isabella4
    Isabella4 Member Posts: 1,352
    edited February 2009

    Sorry for all you're suckiness.... Hope things will all start resolving soon.

    I have a little laugh for you all.

    DH was at the pub last night (whats new??) he was on his way out , a little later than normal, and the 'boys' all called in at the toilets on their way out.  All stood standing in a row doing their little jobs, when one of the mens 'phone rang... he fished into his pocket for his phone...letting go of his little friend, completely forgetting what he was doing, and peed all down his trousers and over his shoes. he he he!!

    The 'phone call ?? from his wife, to ask why he was late coming home !! Guess who's fault it was that he'd peed all over himself ? ... his wifes , of course !!

    Isabella.

  • Jane_M
    Jane_M Member Posts: 932
    edited February 2009

    Wachovia called last night about my late car payment.  I don't know what it says in my file, but the lady asked how I was feeling and how my treatment was going without me saying a word.  They must've put down, "lady has cancer and forgets to make payment."  I can't even blame the post office - I pay most of my bills on-line!  Thank God my husband and I have our paychecks direct deposited or I'd forget to go to the bank!

  • GramE
    GramE Member Posts: 2,234
    edited February 2009

    Someone I know who works in a bank said they have "codes" when people come to cash checks.  One is LOLTAC = little old lady,take a chance.  Maybe Wachovia has a similar code on your file...  

  • Jane_M
    Jane_M Member Posts: 932
    edited February 2009

    I think it should be HCBPFG - Has Chemo Brain Please ForGive

  • BooBee
    BooBee Member Posts: 288
    edited February 2009

    Ann......I'd take 2 extra chemo treatments if it meant taking pain away from one of my kids,  Maybe I sold my soul in a past life and offered the same deal to protect one of my children.  So that's what causes cancer. 

    Two bad one of our boys wasn't a girl.  We could hook them up:-)

    Luann...seems like yesterday you were having similar issues with your son.

    Hugs to all.

    Renee

  • AnnNYC
    AnnNYC Member Posts: 236
    edited February 2009

    Renee, I know exactly what you mean.

    I'm wondering if my SON made some deal like that in a past life, and that's why he has always gone through such bouts of depression...

    Oh, goodness...

    LOL about one of them should be a girl...

    Fingers crossed for both our sons to feel better soon.

    Hugs,

    Ann

  • AussieSheila
    AussieSheila Member Posts: 439
    edited February 2009

    Okay ladies, one more from '95.  As I said before, sometimes I had to have chemo in the patient lounge, and other times in a private room.  Anyway, I was sitting in the patient lounge as the 'poison' was slowly leaked into my veins, observing, as you do when you are bored, the fact that all the paintings, that had previously been on the walls, were now sitting on the floor, propped against the wall.

    As I couldn't hear the TV, I was trying not to fall asleep, in case I snored or something equally embarrassing, when this little old lady in hospital pj's came strolling into the room. Sitting down beside me, she asked me what I thought of the artwork on the floor.  

    Not being an artist, nor an art critic, I looked at one painting and thought it looked a bit odd.  It was a picture of a small boat in a bay but there were no shadows and also the boat was tilted as if sitting on its side in the water.  

    "Well," I said, "I'm no judge of art, but I think the boat doesn't look quite right, and there are no shadows to tell what time of day it is, it looks like the sort of thing one of my kids would paint," I replied.

    "What do you mean 'one of your kids would paint?'  she yelled, "I painted that picture and I have been a well-known artist since I was twelve years old. I was a child prodigy and sent to art school to turn me into a top artist. My work has been hung in the best galleries."

    Oh boy, I thought, this time I've stuck both my feet into my mouth at once. I tried to assure her that I was not in any way, shape or form, any where near an art critic.  This set the old dear off into an apoplectic tirade which soon bought nurses running to see what the commotion was about.  As I was tethered to a drip, I couldn't remove myself from the scene, so the nurses who were used to the 'artistic' temperament of the old lady, distracted her and took her back to her room, much to my relief.

    As my session came to an end and the nurse started to cut me loose, she mentioned that the old lady had donated the artwork but was now suffering from a mental illness and usually didn't wander out of her room.  

    The next time I went for treatment, I tried to be very inconspicious by wearing a big brimmed hat as opposed to a turban, in case she was still around and remembered me.  After that lesson, I never discussed art with any one I didn't know again. 

    Sheila.

    12:18am, Sat Feb 21. 

  • BooBee
    BooBee Member Posts: 288
    edited February 2009

    Sheila....I was afraid we were putting undue pressure on you to perform but alas you pulled it off again.  I did that once to a builder's daughter when she asked me what I thought of the builder only I had an audience.  At least yours lady was mentally ill.

    Renee

  • EWB
    EWB Member Posts: 592
    edited February 2009

    Sheila-

    If people don't want an answer, they should not be asking the question :D

    I say go for it every time

    Elaine

  • [Deleted User]
    [Deleted User] Member Posts: 20
    edited February 2009

    Hello!  My name is Peg and I am trying to find the right spot now that I'm done with treatment.  I have been lurking since June when I was first diagnosed.  I have 4 children - 2 boy and 2 girls, one grand child, and my mom live with me.  Guess we have an extended family. I don't have any moans or groans today, but I wanted to introduce myself for when I have a moan or groan.

  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 678
    edited February 2009

    Welcome to the thread... I think you were in chat one night - I remember your name.

    Well I went through all the reports with my therapist (who is a GP) and she says that I do have progression and it is the tiny area above my bladder and another tumour in my lung.  And I said, isnt that just too little to be considered progression - I mean two small dots..... !  And she said, you have to remember that they didnt fly Air Canada, they swam the lymphatic system or on the tide of the bloodstream.  And they are not alone.  There are other seeds too small to see.  And the radiation will be aimed to help with seeds, the tiny tumour above my bladder and to stop the ovaries from working.  And that is why they arent going in surgically and simply plucking out the ovaries.

    She said that I am in an area where they cannot predict how fast or slow my cancer will go from here.  I have to face my own mortality and be ready to accept it.  Otherwise it will be hard for me, hard for the family.  I do not want to go out, complaining.  But I dont want to be this helpless, diapered baby either.  And she said that that is probably what I will need to deal with.  I will be too tired to get out of bed, and I will accept the consequence.... diapers or catheter.  I will be comfortable with drugs.  And if I go to the Hospice bed at the hospital I have chosen, I may even have my cat with me.  I will be surrounded by many friends and know that all my friends here will be thinking of me.... what better way to go?

  • badboob67
    badboob67 Member Posts: 236
    edited February 2009

    Oh dream..........that sucks! I'm glad that your onc is being straight with you, but geez.......I think all of us want to try to preserve as much dignity as possible. And, dammit...I choose to believe the rads are going to get all the crap they can see and all the rest they cant.

    (((HUGS)))
    Diane

  • navygirl
    navygirl Member Posts: 369
    edited February 2009

    welcome Achi...you found a good place to sit and put your feet up...even in hard times...it's fun to be here!

    Thanks Aussie...I needed that today...the day after treatment is just as hard now as it was after chemo, only I don't have the chemo as a reason and somehow Herceptin doesn't justify it in my mind. Like an older person who can't quite do the things they used to, even though their mind still thinks they can...I feel like I should be doing better than I am. I'm going to do like they do in the military when they are getting ready to leave a duty station - make a "short timers" calendar and start counting down the treatments until I am done this. Thank GOD I have a partner who is supportive and understands and doesn't fault me the way my body is reacting to this drug.

    Dream...I'm so sorry you are having to face this. No matter when you get there or how, I imagine it's a hard thing to wrap your mind around. I think you are extremely brave and strong for not only doing it, but being able to share it with others and express what it's like for you to deal with. I only hope when my day comes I can do it with the grace and dignity you show in your own situation!

    Traci ~ where have you been all week? I hope you've not come down with the bug that seems to be infecting everyone in this area! I have never seen so many people sick at one time as we have here in the east. It's one nasty bugger that just hangs on for weeks. I'm finally feeling like I have it beat.

    I hope you all have a good weekend...I get to prep for some tests I have on Monday - here's hoping they find a reason for my stomach pain and vomiting episodes. I'd hate to think I'm doing all this and putting a camera where a camera ought not go, for nothing!

    ((((HUGS))) everyone

  • KAK
    KAK Member Posts: 297
    edited February 2009

    Oh, Dream.  Shoot.  Shoot, shoot, shoot.  Gosh darn it all.  Massive and heartfelt HUGS to you.  (((((((Dream)))))))

  • luannh
    luannh Member Posts: 350
    edited February 2009

    I HATE CANCER!!!!!!  I HATE CANCER!!!!!!   In case anyone missed it I HATE CANCER!!!!!!  I am so tired of watching my friends I have made over my two years on these boards keep dying!  It just isn't fair, why won't someone listen and help us!  We don't want to die, we want to be normal like the rest of the world and it seems the rest of the world thinks we are pink and pretty!  I hate it so bad!!!!!!

  • sueper13
    sueper13 Member Posts: 360
    edited February 2009

    ((((((Dream)))))))))))((((((((((((((LuAnn))))))))))))))

  • dreamwriter
    dreamwriter Member Posts: 678
    edited February 2009

    Ok ok settle down.  We were born mortal.  And it is just my time to deal with the creature I call Death and decide how I want I want to handle it.  I prefer on a leash, on my own terms.  But thats not going to happen but its not going to make me quiver.  There are too many people who care about me, and I plan to bask in that love.......but it wont be tomorrow.  So dont write me off yet.

  • lovinmomma
    lovinmomma Member Posts: 105
    edited February 2009

    Dream...you are in my prayers. That does suck, but we do love you and you had better hang around!!!!! Not writing you off for a long time!  Those rads will do some good things for you.

  • crazydaisy
    crazydaisy Member Posts: 100
    edited February 2009

    Dream........you've got spunk girl! Our mortality is always a difficult subject, in any way shape or form. Who knows when time is up for anyone? Tomorrow is a new day, thats all anyone has, one day at a time. In the meantime, how about a cleaning brigade! Give me a mop, I'll tackle that floor!

    LuAnne......((((HUGS)))) we all hate it! Hate to see so many women fighting and hurting.

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 7,605
    edited February 2009

    And don't y'all hate those 3-Day Walk-a-thons going on the TV commercials lately? Like LuAnn said, so "pink and pretty". I'd like to show them the real face of cancer and I DON'T wear pink!

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