Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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I hate this fffffn' disease!!!! I just want to scream for all of us 
Deb , Debbie , Laura , and Linda , Bluesky My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Traci , I think we could all use that video again!xx
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" honeygirl, that smiley sure does feel familiar!!!!0 -
Who said they were going crazy trying to figure out why that girl punched the other girl??? LOL! I am too!
I hope everybody else's Friday nite isn't as crappy as mine!!!!!!
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Traci , (((((((hugs))))))) Sorry you're having a crappy Friday. Hey , it was me that said I need to know what happened in our "therapy" video! I am trying to figure out where they are. Do you think an airport? An office building? A hospital? Yeah , I think its a hospital and she just told the lady who hit her , that her cousin of the butcher's sister's friend had cancer and she would just be fine!lol
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LOL! That's funny that was you!!!
There is a pay phone and 2 stiff shirts. I say it's outside a courtroom and the one girl slept with the other girls husband! That bitch!!
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Hi Laura,
I take Actonel every week, not every month... are there different kinds? I honestly can't stand to take medication on an empty stomach with a big glass of water. It makes me wanna puke.
I was reading up on Actonel and it said for "post-menopausal" women so I wonder if I am getting any benefit at all. I am pre-menopausal (or perimenopausal depending on who you ask).
Anyway, it sucks to have had cancer and then all these other things to deal with... brittle bones, auto-immune issues (in my case), severe allergies, etc. etc.... I used to be so healthy!
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OK...I'm probably going to end up in the ER with some kind of mutant infection on my face, but I popped the nasty pimples!! I know, I know....WAY too much information huh? I swear that there should be a rule that if you have to put up with being bald and fat that chemo should not be able to give you crazy huge ZITS!
Deb C
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Oh my god , I think you are right! Bitch gonna be hurtin! But I wonder what that husband looks like!?
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Deb, I agree with you 1000%. That sucks!
You poor girl. Mutant infection...lol! (not) You are too funny! (Notice I didn't say "what a positive attitude you have"!!!)
Edited to add.....honey girl, prolly like that pig your holding but 20 years older!! : - )
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Oh Deb honey , I would of done the exact same thing. Just wash you're face real good after the "popping". Not popping pimples is like telling someone not to scratch their chicken pocks!xxxx
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Deb, maybe we can get you to be a Proactive model. You should be able to get the crap for free then.
Death to all zits!!!
Miss S
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Traci; You say what I hold inside. thanks.
Jacqueline, triple neg
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Laura, I take actonel, but do not have any SE from it. My MIL takes Fozamax D. I think there are some others also. My onco told me there is a med about 10 times as effective as these. She said she can prescribe it with the chemo and because I have bc, my ins will pay for it. She said ins companies will not pay for it for anyone without cancer. Have you heard of this?
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Traci,
I have to laugh everytime I read your posts! Hows the hair coming? I still feel totally gross without a wig and I too, hate it when I am told how great the wig looks....I am also sick of people asking me if I have any "real hair" yet. Every single day someone looks at me with these pathetic puppy dog eyes and asks me how I am feeling...pre cancer days it was just a "hi" and now they look at me like I am dying tomorrow! Hope everyone has a good weekend! Barb0 -
Deb, I got a huge zit when I started chemo, the thing should have grown its own head it was so big. I tried everything but in the end I popped mine. Just make sure you put something on it after you pop it, I used neospoine on mine.
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Deb C I can so relate to your zits. The taxol caused some weird skin thing on me too. I had whiteheads combined with a red rash all over my neck, face, and bald head. How lovely. Pop away sister. Hoping they go away soon for you. CANCER SUCKS!!!
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Good Crappy Morning,
I was doing what I do every morning. Putting on my bra with my prostheses. I touch the nipples on the prostheses to make sure they are even. For just a second, I remembered how it felt to touch my own nipples and I broke down into tears. My nipples were very sensative and I had to have them stimulated to get "in the mood". No wonder I don't want to have sex anymore. It has been almost 5 months. (sorry this may be too much info.)
I just hate this f*cking disease. It is bad enough to loose my boobs, but to have to have surgery to put these numb foobs on my chest. I want my nipples back!!!!!!! It is not fair. I don't regret having a double mast. but......I don't like the ending.
Linda, my onc would not let me have immediate recon because she thought I would have to have rads. As it was I did not have to have rads. But I was glad I waited as the Taxotere was hell on my body and I could not imagine having the pain of expanders while I had (have) the pain from Taxotere. As it is, I am choosing to wait until I loose the chemo weight and get back into shape with my stamina and energy. Right now, it feels like I will never get it back.
Alaska Deb, you go girl! I am going to try that. I am sick of saying "I'm fine".
Debbie
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Who was it talking about grammar and spelling? I had to edit my above post because I wrote wait for weight. WTF is wrong with me?
Debbie
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Debbie,
I was mourning the upcoming loss of my one remaining nipple last night. Same as you, they are/were a large part of my love life. Yes, I know there are other ways to "get in the mood", but flippin' H@ll, I've had these babies for years! They have fed my four children, looked really cute in tank tops, and sexy in a low cut dress. Now what? I can wear a little boys tank top and look like a pre-pubescent 12 year old? Lordy! At least the buttons won't pop open on my blouses any more. They won't bounce when I jog??? I'm trying to find that silver lining...ah, forget it! Cancer Sucks!
Linda
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Hey girls,
Just getting ready to get the 'F' out of dodge before the drinking cigar comes over. Oh well, my mom will be happy. I hide out at her house sometimes.
Jacqueline, your welcome. I think. lol!!!
Barb, my hair has a mind of it's own. My 'lil sis bought me some baby hair clips, all colors and styles, and I wear those all over to keep it from puffing out. Those and a handful (literally) of gel. But, I am definitely NOT BITCHING about that! I love my hair, I love my hair, I love my hair, I love my hair, I love my hair, I LOVE MY HAIR!
(Not...but, better than none!) I know you can ALL relate to that!
Debbie, you ought to be a comedian. lol. I haven't had sex in 9 months and you wanna know what's really sad? I don't give a s*it. Hopefully, that will change.
Cancer does suck Linda. At least you did get to feed babies!! I didn't.
C y'all later.... ; - ) Traci0 -
i should'nt really complain about my hair because i have four inches, finally!!, it took a year after treatmet to get this much, but it does look horrible, i feel like a man. oh and i won't even go into the last time i had sex, i've been single since this ordeal started october 2006. and one final thing, cancer made sure that i would never have babies. I F....G HATE CANCER, AND I REPEAT 10 TRILLION TIMES.
over and out. have a good day everyone, at least it's blue sunny skys here.
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I know that this isn't exactly the place for it, but while we're talking about nipples. I thought I'd throw this out there.
First, Linda, I want to tell you how terrible I think it is that you have to get your other boob hacked off so freakin' SOON after finishing tx. How the heck does cancer live through chemo?? It makes me think of stomping on a bug that just won't die. GRRR.
And Debbie, I am so sorry you're feeling so depressed about having to get fake, feelingless nipples to replace the ones that served you so nicely.
I, too, had very sensitive nipples that were very much a part of sex play (as well as feeding my babies, etc). I had a left breast mastectomy a year ago and somehow they managed to remove the sensitivity from the nipple on the other breast! It's just barely (by barely I mean on rare occasions I get a slight sexual sensation)sensitive at all anymore. I find that so distressing.... I am now considering a prophylactic mast of the right breast and the fact that it is basically serving no purpose at all now may be the deciding factor.
I know we should all be happy to be alive (and hopefully we all ARE). But there comes a point when you have to stop and admit that all this crap just reeks!
Anyway, I guess I was wondering if anyone else lost sensation from their remaining nipple. I find that so odd.
Have a great weekend, ladies!!
Miss S
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Hi all,
I too can not stand to look in the mirror. Tracy , you are so right about this weird hair that isn't like what we think of as us. Mine makes me look like Mamie Eisenhower- those dorky non bangs that friz up and go nowhere.I almost preferred bald. i did have mine dyed since it came out of the cap under the wig so at least it blends in. I may wear a wig forever since on an AI I doubt it will ever be thick. My nails are redarkening 5 months after chemo and of course i have gained weight. Not much, but the larger lymphedema upper arm should really be attractive when i have to take the sweaters off. Beth last year at this time I thought I was fighting ER+ cancer, but all the news about chemo and ER + just makes these side effects less tolerable. I have not exponded on the SEs from an AI. I can only tolerate unbending my trigger finger once a night which is when it hurts most.
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First off: Hugs to you Traci, Linda, Carol. Deb C., Beer Girl, Diane, Barbeqrn, Mis Shapen, Bluesky, Honeygirl, Kiki, Debbie and anyone else I forgot to mention. A hearty "THAT SUCKS!" to you all...
My bitch today is about my stupid ex. He is such an a$$! He moved 40 miles away (not 400, mind you) and has not seen our son in - are you ready for this - 6 months!! He is good at calling and saying he "may be" coming to town and getting my child's hopes all up only to cancel at the last second. It is maddening to watch my child feel like he is an unimportant spec in his father's day, not even worthy of a monthly lunch, movie "date" or trip to the mall. He SUCKS - and if it were not for the beautiful joy that is my son, I would be oh so sorry I ever exchanged body fluids with the $hithead!! If he were a houseplant in my home, I'd rip the leaves off one by one, screw the H20...
Here's what I'd like to do tho him:
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Who said grumpalafagous? That's a good word. Good bitchy afternoon to all. This is my very favorite thread on this site. I am also sick of having to answer the stupid "how are you?" Sucks.
I do feel bad for the lost nipple situation, but my left nipple hurts so bad and is so inflamed from rads that I want to slice the damn thing off. Maybe I'll leave it on my boss's desk the next time he asks"how are you?" !!!
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I think someone should compose a book of all these posts - they make you laugh, they make you cry, they stir every emotion you have but one thing they give you is strength because if you can give a hug to someone whose problem is worse than yours then it helps you thru YOUR day.
Deb: Try tea tree oil on your skin. I know it stinks to high heaven but once you put it on and pat it dry the smell doesn't knock you out. This stuff dried up crappy pus bumps on my face during chemo.
Felice: I think there is a special place in HELL for all the parents who make their kid feel unloved or unworthy. What a piece of sh*t your ex is.
My bitch today is that my vaginal lips (what's the correct anatomical word?) are so dry that toilet paper sticks to them. I keep putting on cream but that doesn't seem to help. They are slightly swollen and discolored - WTF is that about? I am only seeing my rads onc right now and since he is only 17, this info would probably turn him beet red - do I mention this to him or do I call my med onc or do I live thru it??????
Cancer - the f**king gift that keeps on giving forever..........
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Maire6 - yep, I've been known to say "it's my 34,000 haircut." I think of it as my part in doing public education.
bluesky - hear ya! a trillion times, it sucks.......
Guggerty - maybe vit E oil would help? That dryness sounds miserable.
Felicia - hugs to your son, hope his dad steps up at some point.
Calypso - grumpalafagous is me!
And I thought it'd let up but NO.....Still grumpy here....ya know what sucks, when I know that I am the one responsible for making myself grumpy as all get out. My darn worrying brain. Aargh.Here's why:
1) now that I'm back to pre-menopausal, I have to take tamoxifen. My mom took it, she got uterine cancer, she's still recovering, I don't want to take the effing tamoxifiend.2) my ALT (SGPT) has been up near twice normal for months now and my albumin keeps dipping below the low end of the range. The whole schmeal deal just makes me grumpy as all get out. Plus I've gained 30 lbs in such a short time (since Nov, what's that, 5 months?) - never have gained weight like that in my life. Some gain for sure, but the most is 10 lbs in a year. One week during radiation I gained 5 lbs, the next week 6. WTH?!
So, my oncologist is the one who has been doing labs, but if it isn't obviously cancer threatening to kill me, he's unconcerned. He only took liver labs this time because I requested it, being paranoid. He looked at these elevated enzymes (trending that way for 3 months of draws, not just a 1 time deal) and said, "oh, it might be meds, it could even be from a glass of wine." He even canceled my labs for April. Ahem.
That's a marked contrast to my PCP who said she worried about a mass, about low albumin possibly leaking fluid into my system (causing weight gain) etc. I faxed the labs to her on Thurs, she called me at home on Friday, scheduled me for a liver ultrasound on Monday.
Historically, she over-reacts, my onc. under-reacts, together I guess they make a good team, but sheesh. I'm either forcing one to pay attention or trying not to freak out at what the other one's said. I guess doctoring, like many things, just depends on one's point of view.
I'm just worried chemo trashed my liver. I guess we'll see. Ultrasound scheduled for Monday afternoon, which means I can't eat all day long.
Cancer was enough. The rest of this, these on-going side effects, they could suck worse I guess. Yep, cranky, cranky, cranky.
There, I feel better having stomped around a bit. Sometimes it just helps to get it out ya know?!
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Deb, I read a scifi story years ago about a man who had zits pop up all over and they were really alien beings. Check to see if they have eyes!
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Felicia, Your son should meet my grandson who keeps on hoping Mama will find a really nice dad for me. His hasn't been around since he was 2 months old. Unfortunately this is much the same for too many children
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