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Janet, it sure is a great post. You took the words out of our mouths, "to subject ourselves over and over with fear and anxiety for scans and tests", I'm wondering how do we turn it off? I do have a couple of childhood tramautic incidents but didn't realize until I was 30. I was playing with a bunch of kids at my parents' friends house. They were doctors so needless to say very well off. This was a single family home in HongKong and it was a mansion. It had 2nd flora with a very large attic and a turret. So we were running around exploring and playing hide and seek. I didn't know the other kids too well but we just played together. There was a young man there, late teens to 20s. He was suddenly there, we knew him as the homeowner's son. We were hanging out in the attic area (the attic is large and has rooms, just like a finished basement), this guy took my hand and started talking with me, I was shy and scared and he tried to tempt me to stay and play. The other kids were going to leave the room and he gripped my arm tight. I am probably 5yrs old. I had a really bad gut feeling and I screamed and wriggled out of his grip and ran after the other kids. The bad thought that he could've done something was always on my mind and it wasn't triggered until I was pregnant and was resting at home that I watched some talk show and it started my panic attacks.
The 2nd such PTS would be flying from Japan to the States (I was 7 yrs old) it was to be 14 hrs or so. Fully packed 747 half way through, pilot announced that there were engine problem and needed to either turn back or go forward. The plane was shaking the whole time, suddenly dropping rapidly and gaining altitude. He said we have flown 5+ hours and it would be longer if we move forward, so he chose to turn back. The nuns sitting in front of us were making the sign of cross. I was very young and my mom had to interpret, but there was definitely tension around. I knew it was a close call but didn't realize that it has an impact on me in my adult life. I have to fly once a year and i have to bring Ativan with me in case I get an attack while flying. I can only piece these 2 incidents to cause my anxiety.Michelle, I'm so sorry about your mom, you and your sister were too little. I'm speechless when it comes to ordeal like that, but I can understand your trama. God Bless you!
I just happened to find out last night that my psychologist (she literally) saved my sanity and was such a selfless person had passed away July 2010 (a day before my bc surgery). Her name was Dr. Carolyn, her nickname was Dr. C. - RIP.
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Janet.. very well said indeed... I am the same way about driving the highway in this area as well, I never really was but then 7 years ago my brother in law at 26 was killed in a car accident and this fear of driving developed, well of course I have to do it anyway, then back in oct/nov when i first started the Tamoxifen I would be driving and i would get dizzy and 2x didnt know where I was everything was really distorted... better now but that anxiety and fear is everytime I get in the car.
Michelle so sorry you lost yourmom at such a young age! Will be praying for your son!!!
DIAMNOND.Sorry to hear about your pyscologist and thank you for sharing your story here as well
It is great to have aplace where we cantalk open and honest and pray together, because without prayer I shudder to think where we would be. That is the greatest support of all especially when we pray together
I will be praying today for all , that we may all find peace and tranquility amongst all our anxieties . Take all of our previous experiences we have had and grow in faith from them. Please watch over us Lord.
Amen
Maria
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Because she loves me, says the Lord, I will rescue her,I will protect her, for she acknowledges my name. She will call upon Me and I will answer her, I will be with her in trouble, I will deliver her and honor her. Taken loosely from Psalm 91. He is with us always!!
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Good Evening Sisters
I am almost at the finish line, or so I tell myself. Many loads of laundry too as I bring my stuff out. Nice and clean for a fresh start. What a journey, and I thank you all for taking it with me. I am most honored, and again humbled in the most spiritual way. A good kind of humble
So Tori, you had some of the beginning steps for Rads today I think? I think it is just wonderful you love you Rad Onc. I really liked mine too, and ditched the sour faced one for the cheery one. It is so important to feel that connection. We will cheer you on in this next phase. Your getting through it Tori.
Such interesting discussions regarding anxiety. The feelings of anxiety are so palpable at times, and the body is ramping itself up and PTSD gets one into fight or flight mode with full nervous system response.
I appreciate everyone sharing their stories and experiences. Trauma and loss such a prevalent theme as well. Michelle, such a loss and too young too young to try and process. Losing your mother is hard at any age, and you are a survivor. Truly.
I hear all the mom's here working to change past cycles, being present with their children and taking on the hardest job in the world...being a parent. I see so many sad scenes each day of children without stability and role models. Bless you and your children, I am happy happy for you all. You provide hope for the world, as each child is a gift from God and Spirit, and in Him all things are possible.
I am reading and learning about you all, and thank you for allowing me to see your Spirits. I just wanted you all to know I am right here, a little disheveled and a lot tired, but very much here with you all.
Love to You All,
Traci
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Thank you Traci!,,, love and prayers back to you!!! xo
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Traci....you have such a good memory! Thanks for checking in on me! Yes, had the "planning" today. I had the scans, got the mold and got three tattoos. (ouch only on the one in the middle of my chest)....
There are only 2 techs at the place I am getting my treatments, so I met them today, and I really like them too (so far)
Simulation will be next (TBA) and then the actual treatments start shortly after that. 35 treatments in total including the 8 boosts.
Okay, enough of me....been reading all of your posts and want you to know that I'm still praying for you girl.....praying that things continue to get better and better fr you each day....
I pray for all of girls...I make it a point to do so each day...even if I don't post it here, please know that your prayers, petitions, and intentions are being lifted up to our Heavenly Father many times throughout my day.
You ladies (and this thread) are my rock....one of the things that keep me steady when my world is spinning out of control... I simply can not thank you enough for being so good to me and each other.
Sleep well tonight and pray you all feel blessed....
Peace and prayers,
Tori
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Tori, my sister used to tell me I didn' thave the guts to get a tattoo (I guess she never had the old dye injection near the nipple.) She did concede I had joined the tattoo club however
Since there are 3 tats, I think it's a lucky number. Now, what a mold is, I have no idea! Sounds like a piece of artwork to keep after you complete Rads?Alright Ladies, Have a Blessed Day all.
and I know we all touch base with each other in our minds/souls everyday if not more!
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Tori girl,
Good luck with the rads! You will do it and we will be with you every step of the way. It does get very tiring, so be good to yourself!! xo
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Thanks Traci and LMFSM....
Traci-they want you in the exact same position each time you come in for treatment, so they make a mold of my position...(whatever I"m laying on to prop me in place is a type of material that can take a mold of my exact position...I use that mold each time I come in)..it's weird...kinda, but it's got to be working if that is what they have been using.
Happy Friday to you all!
Hope you all feel blessed today!
peace and prayers,
Tori
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Tori good luck with Rads, we be praying for you.!!
May you find comfort and peace and strenght throughout and beyond your treatment
God Bless
Maria
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Good luck Tori prayers for you!
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It's Friday! For tonight's prayers, since we don't have 2 people lined up, maybe we each write a prayer to post that focuses on any of the themes from this week -- fear (or rather courage in the face of adversity), fatigue, overcoming painful past memories -- and pray for healing in those areas? Also since tomorrow is Feast of St. Agatha - maybe also for intercession through her.
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I also ask for prayers for the halt of the dreaded depression trying to creep back in--begone!
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Dear Lord
Please watch over my sisters and help them find peace. Help them to overcome past tragedies and know that you were with them then and are with them now. I ask you to let each one of them feel your warm embrace and love wrapped around them.
Please help each of us to realize that when we give ourselves over to you there is nothing that we cannot overcome
Amen
Love and peace to all of you!
Maria
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Sisters,
I have a friend coming in to finish off the move and clean up. I will have to miss prayers online, but will be right with you at 10:00, then will come back to pray later.
I am sorry to miss, but know I am here with you in spirit.
Much Love,
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Love your theme Janet and love your prayer maria
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Good evening sisters --- I'm pooped again tonight but am doing my best to stay awake for prayers. Can I ask for prayers tonight that a financial arrangement finally go through for us? The bank has refused 2 short sale offers and this time one is coming through as a cash sale, so I'm praying the bank will finally take something! It's been stressful.
Tori - good luck with rads! I loved my rad onc too. She is Catholic and has a prayer group for cancer patients at her church. In her office, there is a prayer box for people to put in prayer requests. I was so blessed to have her as my rad onc and my surgeon was Catholic too. My new docs seem nice, though.... well, I don't have a new rad onc... I still see her once a year in Phila.
I will try to find a prayer tonight.
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I read this beautiful quote from Helen Keller the other day:
Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trail and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.
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Theresa great quote, will be praying for your financial arrangments to go through
Could we also pray for a sister on another thread who just found out she has lung damage for Rads.
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Healing Prayer of Surrender (http://www.catholichealingprayers.com/)
Dear Lord Jesus, it is my will to surrender to you everything that I am and everything that I'm striving to be. I open the deepest recesses of my heart to you and invite your Holy Spirit to dwell inside of me.
I offer you my life, heart, mind, body, soul, spirit, all my hopes, plans and dreams. I surrender to you my past, present and future problems, habits, character defects, attitudes, livelihood, resources, finances, medical coverage, occupation and all my relationships.I give you my health, disabilities, physical appearance, home, family, marriage, children, sexuality and friendships. I ask you to take Lordship over every aspect of my life. I surrender to you all my hurt, pain, worry, anxiety and fear, and I ask you to wash me clean.
I release everything into your compassionate care. Please speak to me clearly, Lord. Open my ears to hear your voice. Open my heart to commune with you more deeply. I desperately need to feel your loving embrace. Shut the doors that need to be shut and open the doors that need to be opened. Set my feet upon the straight and narrow road that leads to everlasting life. Amen.
From Night Prayer
Canticle Nunc Dimittis
Keep us safe, Lord, while we are awake, and guard us as we sleep, so that we can keep watch with Christ and rest in peace.
Now, Master, you let your servant go in peace.
You have fulfilled your promise.
My own eyes have seen your salvation,
which you have prepared in the sight of all peoples.
A light to bring the Gentiles from darkness;
the glory of your people Israel.
Glory be to the Father and to the Son and to the Holy Spirit,
as it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be,
world without end.
Amen.
Keep us safe, Lord, while we are awake, and guard us as we sleep, so that we can keep watch with Christ and rest in peace.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Let us pray.
Lord, let us be so united with your only Son that we become worthy to rise with him into new life, who lives and reigns for ever and ever, Amen.--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
May the almighty Lord grant us a quiet night and a perfect end.
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Prayers for Theresa and her Financial Support, Prayers for all of the ladies on this board to find the True Healing from their Anxieties, depressions, and fears. Lord light our way and guide us to the path that will illuminate your will for us and let us be blessed with your grace so that we may find the courage to follow those paths.Prayers for Ellie and her healing of depression as well.
Saint Agatha please bless us and keep us safe from bc and health issues women face.
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Dear Mary, Mother of God, we ask that you hear the intentions of your daughters here. Give us rest from our fears and anxieties. Heal our scars from the past and bless those who need healing now. Grant us the resources we need as we know you provide for even the most helpless of creatures on earth. We ask this through your Son. Amen.
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Beautiful prayers!
Lord hear our prayers
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Good night ladies... Maria and Michelle - thank you for praying with me tonight... where two or more are gathered in His name.... And all you other sisters who are with us in spirit tonight - God bless you.
Peace and all good.
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Goodnight sisters!
peace
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Oh - and Janet... you posted while I was writing. Keep warm and ice free! We are under a freezing rain advisory tonight. :-(
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St Agatha, we celebrate your feast day and ask that you pray for us. Amen.
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Good night sisters. The best of life is yet to come!
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Heavenly Father...
There are so many times in our lives right now where we need to feel your love and protection. Too many times we feel fear, despair, anxiety, and depression. These feelings are sometimes so overwhelming, that we internalize them and let them drag us down into a hole that we can't seem to bring ourselves out of....
We desperately search for the words to explain to those we love what we are experiencing, yet still, so many do not understand. We feel even more isolated than before.... This isolation expresses itself in panic attacks, sadness, painful thoughts and memories that we can not let go of....
Lord, you know us better than anyone...you know what we feel even before we do....You alone can help us get to a better, safer place where these dark feelings are no longer dragging us down.
Please hear our prayers and give us the knowledge we need to overcome the darkness that sometimes interupts the life you want us to lead. Give us the skills we need to cope better, speak better, and be better people in Your eyes.
In Your Name I Pray,
Amen
We humbly come before you tonight, asking that you bestow blessings upon each and everyone of us.0
