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  • Delilahbear
    Delilahbear Member Posts: 206
    edited September 2012

    kate - glad you had such a magical anniversary celebration with your DH, you deserved it and with no medical talk.

    3jaysmom - sorry to hear you have a pseudomonis infection on top of everything else you are going through.

    To everyone else - sending good thoughts and warm hugs. everyone seems to have so much going on.

    My DH and I went to a nice restaurant and had a relaxing dinner on the water Tuesday evening before I had my rotator cuff surgery yesterday. It went well with the actual damage being less than they thought. Worse was the 4 tries for IV. Doc thought a cain for balance would be a good idea to prevent further falls so guess I'll be an old lady with a cain. At least I ordered a pretty purple paisley one.

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited September 2012

    3jays glad you may be able to find a doc you like.  Diane I would love some of your cupcake recipes.  That somehow has become my grandson and my tradition when I go visit.  We make cupcakes together.  He is going to be 3 in October and his face just lit up when he looked through the oven window and saw they were rising!

    Ok, well PS debrided the necrotic (dead tissue) skin.  Cut it away.  Now it will have to heal by secondary intention meaning from the bottom up. I knew it was necrotic but had a small hope maybe I was wrong.  He thought it might take a month.  My incision on my left breast opened up after the third surgery and it healed that way and it took a lot longer than a month.  He said he thought it would heal.  Did not feel the need for antibiotics but I will continue with the triple antibiotic ointment on it.  He said the nipples were healthy and that was the bigger concern because if those had failed it would have been much more difficult to fix it.  So if something was going to fail I guess I am glad what did was the skin on the grafted areola under the nipple. He also said he would probably need to do a small revision on each nipple. He said the tattooing may not take as well on the areola that had to be removed as the skin will be a scar.  But luckily it is the areola as I said below and a little to the side of the nipple.  He said he believes I will still get a good outcome.  I know he felt bad that it failed.  But I know he did his best. And I think when all is said and done while it won't be "me" and won't be what it could have it the graft hadn't failed it will be two well shaped breasts with nipples and areolas.  2.5 years ago when the complications first started I didn't know what I would end up with.  So of course a bit disappointed but feeling very blessed that the nipples made it :)  So this will push everything else back once again.  Have to wait a couple months after this heals before  he can do the revision or next fat injection and tattoos  So looks like it will be over three years of reconstruction before all is said and done. But..... it is a step forward right.....

    But you know what.....  I have the support of the wonder women here.  (My hero husband just walked in and after I told him I was updating you guys, he said, "You really have a great group there don't you" .  I do and am so blessed by how each of you has taken the time to support and encourage me through these 8 surgeries.  I have the love of my hero husband and kids that love me. In reality I have what truly matters. Now if I can finish this with a good outcome on top of NED I will be truly blessed and grateful.

    We drive out of state tomorrow. We had a condo on a lake that we sold.  We had so many wonderful times there. The lady didn't want the furniture so we are going to get it.  So Saturday and Sunday we are going to play.  Go to our favorite towns on Lake Michigan, our favorite restaraunts and celebrate being there one last time.  Then Monday we load up the truck and drive home. May have to break it up over two days.  So looking forward to some away time and in one of our favorite places.  A little scared about the long drive as I will have to drive it home as he will be driving the moving truck.  Hips and breasts both have incisions.  So will be driving with a pillow!

    Ladies once again I feel so much better being able to come here when I am struggling.  Each time your words of encouragment and funny things you say (Barbe) lift me up and help me to realize it is time to celebrate this day and this moment in time.  Because there are very very few people in my life I share this with. Really my hero husband and a couple of other ladies, both who have had BC. 

    I felt you guys in my pocket and it helped. Thank you 

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited September 2012

    delilahbear glad your surgery is over. Now the recovery time and shoulder exercises.  I had shoulder surgery many years ago.  The excercises can be a bear but worth it.  I hope you heal quickly and the cane sounds lovely :)

  • Kate33
    Kate33 Member Posts: 1,936
    edited September 2012

    I'm so sorry for all the struggles that everyone is going through right now- surgeries, injuries, infections.  It just seems to never end, doesn't it?  

    Diane- Hope your appointment went well today and they have a plan to get you pain free without losing your ovaries.

    Claire- Hope your surgery went well and you're not in too much pain.  I had fat grafting, too, and the pain is pretty intense.  I found wearing compression garments helped so much.  Do they have you wear those, too?  Hope it isn't too bad.  (((gentle hugs)))

    Hopeful- I'm sorry you're dealing with healing issues once again.  It seems so unfair!  Hope things start to resolve soon.  Hope you and your DH have a great time on your trip.  I grew up in Michigan and used to spend every summer at a place on Lake Michigan.  So many wonderful childhood memories!

    Delilah- Glad your surgery went well and that the damage wasn't as bad as they thought.  Hope it all heals quickly and you are pain free, too.

    Quick update on me- BS finally got the CT images and is not liking what she seems on the sternum.  She's having everything looked at but the radiology onco has been out of town.  He will review tomorrow or Monday and she'll get back to me.  Still haven't heard from the other cancer center where I requested an appointment but they said it could take several weeks.  

    My DH and I are getting away for the weekend for a belated anniversary trip.  Our neighbor's are letting us use their place up north.  I've been there before and it's really nice.  We'll be up in the cool pines next to the National Forest.  Amazing how different the landscape can be in the same state.  The best part is it's 20* cooler during the day!  It will be so nice to get away.  Hope everyone has a great weekend.  I'll be back Sunday night. 

  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 2,604
    edited September 2012

    no big deal Delilaha: i've had this crop up many times before, but its always scary.. it can be deadly, but the doc i swear by gets it beaten back,  everytime.. my immune systym just isn't any god.. i had MS before bc, but chemo knocked any immune systym i had back then. thanx for the concern, though..

      Hopeful, im so glad you're getting away. I'm sure it will be bittersweet, but enjoy all you can. Also glad it wasn't the nipples that went necrotic..

      it will heal, i had the left breast left totally open when  hd the bmx, and it healed.. but like you said sooo slowly..be patient, and dont do too much.. for the drive home, take many breaks.. i'm so glad your hubs is so supportive. i am so grateful for mine, as well...

     night ladies thinking good thoughts for you......3jays

  • Kate33
    Kate33 Member Posts: 1,936
    edited September 2012

    3jays- I'm sorry you're dealing with infection, too.  I hope your doc can pull out the big guns and get it taken care of.  You do not need one more thing right now!  How are you doing emotionally?  I know it's hard when you lose someone special and life returns to normal around you.  You just can't believe the world hasn't stopped for even a day.  Your onco sounds so wonderful and empathetic.  It's so great that you have her and she understands.  (((hugs)))

  • didel
    didel Member Posts: 733
    edited September 2012

    AAAHHHHH I just wrote the longest response that has taken me two hours because I keep getting interrupted with calls! UGH!! I lost it!!!

    Well first my appointment tody was unevntful. Basically he said that he cant make any decisions until 1. my pap comes back 2. I repeat the TVUS. He said yes my endometrium is too thick (which really makes me feel icky) BUT he is not ready to subject me to an endometrial biopsy until we repeat the test.  He said if the cysts is an endometrioma he will remove it the other kind go away on their own. He said that the bleeding and extreme pain I had before the TVUS could have been a ruptured cysts but (and I quote..in middle eastern accent) "If it ruptured then one problem solved!" I was on antibiotics for the UTI I didnt have so that would take care of any infection caused by a ruptured cyst. I still of course have one cysts but also in his words.Its teeny tiny as are the fibroids. So We'll just have to wait and see. So like I said uneventful..thankfully.

    Kate I am sorry you continue to worry and wait. I am glad you and your hubby can get away this weekend to cooler temps. We are all here waiting with you.  

    Hopeful It sounds like you are happy and that things went well. I know getting over this hurdle is huge!! You see the light at the end of the tunnel...so close. I am glad that even though some of the tissue died that your ps thinks it will continue to heal nicely for you. I had a little scarring too and my tattoo came out ok. I have to darken it a bit more but it is even tone. Glad you too are getting to go away with your hubby..YES a big soft pillow for sure!

    3Jays sound like your hubby stepped up to the plate too!! I am glad he cheered you up and that you have a doc that really listens to you and makes you feel better to talk to. When I am in Florida (hopefully fall) I will bring you some cupcakes!! I promise.My really long post that bleep away into cyberspace was mainly directly to you regarding the loss of Marybe. I will PM you instead cause I cant rewrite it now. I am falling asleep. I will hit you up tomorrow sista!!!

    Delilah Claire hope you both continue to heal and rest....and pop those pain meds as needed Wink

    Love you ladies! Talk to you tomorrow.

    Diane

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited September 2012

    Kate have a great weekend. Hopefully the distraction of a beautiful setting and time with your hubby will help with the wait. 

    Diane  I am glad you are getting some answers.  And that you are taking the time to make the right decision for you.

    3jays the loss of someone you care about and shared the same journey is devastating. When my friend Kathy died last October from BC and diagnosed a month before me I felt stunned and angry and sad and scared. I think of her and all she was and I still get sad. So my heart goes out to you.  I did not know of Marybe but I know from what you have said you were close.  I know that part of us dies each time this disease takes someone we love.  My feeling is I honor Kathy by trying to LIVE  life ..... to keep living and learning and loving life like she did.  I think sometimes that is how we honor our sisters who have been taken by this disease by living the best way we can.

    It is really amazing when we look around and see all that everyone on here is going through and recongize how strong and courageous everyone is.  It would be so easy to just quit or get bitter. But each of us is trying to learn and love and grow and we keep moving sometimes slowly and others times more quickly.....  but we keep moving forward. You all amaze me! 

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited September 2012

    Gosh so much to write and catch up on....

    Hopeful - you knew you had reason to be worried and I'm sorry that everything couldn't be saved but encouraged he still thinks you will have a nice outcome. Just so sorry it didn't go smoothly. Hopeful enjoy your trip - you don't sound sad about selling the condo so sounds like a celebration but glad you get to go back up one more time. Sounds like getting away will be just what you need. 

    3-jays- I like what Hopeful said about honoring her memory by living and taking care of yourself - you need that more than anyone I know.  So sorry for the infection. Glad you have your sweet hubby and glad the wig comment was confusion on our end. From all you have said I was surprised he would have said something to hurt your feelings - you are far too lovable and sweet! 

    Diane- you are so funny imitating your Doc's accent. Soooooo going to Florida?? Any chance you are coming through Atlanta? Hint Hint!  Glad you are finding out information and doesn't sound as scary or at least you have some better options. Sorry you have to still wait.

    Kate- Ugh! Well hopefully first of the week you will get some answers and hopefully some answers to bring you relief in worry.  Have a fabulous wonderful weekend!

    Claire- hope the pain and swelling go away quickly! 

    Delilah - Wow, shoulder surgery sounds painful hope you recover quickly as well.... 

    Debbie, hope  all is well with you and you are feeling ok.

    Barb- you too! 

    Happy Weekend.... Hoping to take Alfie in he has been scatching up a storm... keeping me awake all night too.... I think he has just really dry skin but hopefully they can give me something for him. I've been using the expensive oatmeal shampoo and conditioner! LOL for a dog, conditioner?? Who knew?

  • ptdreamers
    ptdreamers Member Posts: 639
    edited September 2012
    Gentle hugs for all of my sisters.
  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 2,604
    edited September 2012

    so many of you , you're all taking care of me!!

      yeah, hubs remark was loving, not the way ya thought.. he really accepts how i am now, its ME that can't.. i have a pic of a joke somewhere, ill see if i can find it.

    Kate, i can't believe you still don't have any answers.. but, i did have to wait for a tumor board, too.. i jst had forgotten.. my hubs reminded me, thats why i was like tke it out..now, what are you waiting for..

       hopeful,i'm so glad to ps still thinks you;ll get a good otcome.. i didn't have anything done.. im still a little sad i couldn't , but my overall health prevented it.. and I'm WAY older than you guys!!!i make due with foobs, which btw; some loving person has helped me with, just lately, so i'll be rockin them soon!!

       Delilah: i hope they've given you GOOD meds.. my fil is a dr. and said shoulder surgery is only 2nd to hip surgery in pain, and you should relax, let it heal, and stay medicated!!so, there's your 2nd opinion...

      Stanzie, i add a little vit E, or even a little olive oil in the food for my furbabies, nice shiny coats, and no dry skin.. when it dries up badly, they have a tar shampoo, but we both don't like it!!!I find tegrin is cheap, and works well, along with the add in their food.. fla. is notorious for grass allergies, so they walk on the sidewalk, WHEN  take them out.. its not often enough now, with their mama being so weak.. and i confess, they're in their carrier, when we go out, most of the time..

      as far as Marybe's death goes, my personal "guess" is incompetence with the PA her cardio sent er to, she wasn't clear how to take the new med.. but, i have a sneaking suspision that when they told her she'd have to quit working, and miss Europe, she just didn't want to fight too hard..

     I'm comforted, by the fact that she copied all my "letters of instructio n" for y demise , in Juen, when she was here.. a few ple were mad, cause I talked to her about t, but im in the same situation with the MS, as stage 4 people are...

      she was a loving gal,. and fought so hard, for so long.. her only "probision" was that she would be able to lve that very busy, full life she was.. and that didn't look so good.. she WAS rallying, but the adromycin caught up to her heart, in the end..

      Tim fought with her for four days, to call the paramedics.. she wouldn't go, she did things to the end, her way. Even the choice to be in the light coma, she discussed w tim, and they started the drip, at her request, just like we had discussed.. as usual, she showed ME how to do t dignified, and at peace, when I was trying to prepare her for mine...

      we tried here, to do a "shiva" of sorts, honoring her in my hubs faith (we have a "mixed" marriage.. but, he changed his plans this week, and is seeing his parents sat, so we can be together..

      we plan on posting pics, thoughts, and sympathy cards on the "in memory of Marybe" thread.. the last few days, i've been saving some, in case someone doesn't know how to post pics, etc.. i'll out them on this thread, if any of you are in that position, and need it..

      I think i've lost so many pl;e in the last few years, its' all caught up to me... I know monday will be a tough day, so i'm taking my synthyroid then.. it makes me so sick, but i sleep the day away, and i know that'll help..

      Thank youmall so much, for loving me, and supporting me thru this time. i don't know WHAT I'd do without ya!3jays

  • didel
    didel Member Posts: 733
    edited September 2012

    3jays..here's what I posted and deleted last night...I hope I remember it all

    When I was 25 my 22 year old roomate of 5 years died of Ewings Sarcoma. She was the first person I knew that got cancer and the first person I was so close too that I lost. She was like my sister and for so long we were partners in crime. She got sick and I helped to take care of her..best way a 25 year old knows how to..I remember in her last days..her calling my name and saying she was hungry in the middle of the night. I'd slice her some oranges and sit on her bed and talk until she fell asleep again. She was brave and until I got bc I never realized how brave. She was on chemo for 4 years until she couldnt do it anymore. I remember like it was yesterday the never ending nose bleed that led to me taking her to Hopkins ER in the middle of the night..and getting the news that her cancer had metastasized virtually every organ. They gave her 6 months (and back then there was no more than what they gave you) and that was all she had. I think of her a lot...that never goes away. Some days are sad some days are the silly memories and laughs we shared. I swear I can still hear that laugh...it was a good hearty laugh. I read this book many years ago called The Five People You Meet in Heaven (if you havent read it you must...I love the books idea of what Heaven is and how its different for everyone). It's a book about a man's journey to Heaven and those he meets along the way to help transition him. Its the people in your life who influenced or inspired you..shaped you into who you are. Those were the spirits to greet him. Some expected and some not so expected. I think of that when I think about the woman who moved and inspired us on BCO and who will never know how their words helped us or inspired us. I think about how I know I am gonna see MBJ again and no doubt she will tower over me. I imagine her smile lighting up the heavens. While we are sad for those we lost and we miss them and that wil never go away..I take a little comfort in knowing we will meet again.

    I hope that the hurt in your heart lessens in time and that you always remember the laughs and good times you shared.

    Hugs to all. I didnt have time to read everyones post today. I just got done work and wanted to post this. I have one more tax return to do and then I am off off off for the next few months!!

    Love and hugs to all

    Diane

  • didel
    didel Member Posts: 733
    edited September 2012

    Someone has a birthday coming....in case I get too busy wanted to wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! to guess who...

     

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited September 2012

    Just a quick pop in- Diane----- beautifully said!!! Thank you for sharing... 3jays!!! We do love you! hang in there... and talk about her as I love hearing about her.... Hugs!!!

  • hopefulhealing
    hopefulhealing Member Posts: 581
    edited September 2012

    Diane what a beautiful post.  Thank you.

  • macatacmv
    macatacmv Member Posts: 1,200
    edited September 2012

    Hugs to all.

    Safe travels to those who are taking trips this weekend. I'm glad they don't involve drs or tests.

    Healing to those that need it.

    I did my 2 day trip to the city this week for dr appts. It wore me right out!

    I got the all clear for 6 months from the dermatologist! Yay! He said the spot that is forming on my cheek right over where I had the MOHS surgery is like my face growing gray hair. Is that a nice way of saying I am getting age spots? Where do these drs get their "bedside" manners? LOL It is a teaching hospital so he always has a student with him. So as he is hmming over my chest, he calls her over to get a look. I am so glad I can help someone with their education. Actually he always asks if it is ok and I always say sure. 

    Then I stayed in a hotel near where my DS goes to college. So we could go out to dinner and he took me to see his bachelor pad. I am so glad I made other arrangements for a place to stay. Then he drove me back to the city the next day to see the new pulmonary doc. I like the new guy. He is very young, but very compassionate. He listened and heard me about my lung issues. He is going to call the other doc, whom he trained under, as a professional courtesy and discuss my case. But he ordered a CT scan for next week and is going to see me the same afternoon to go over the results. I am still on all the meds, but it now feels like we have a plan. So another trip to the city next week but at least the appts are both on one day.

    Anyway I hope you wonderful ladies have a good weekend.

    I was talking to my biofeedback doc today. This is a quote. "It is what it is and you are where you are, so breathe and try to feel joy."

  • Maddie57
    Maddie57 Member Posts: 85
    edited September 2012

    Hi Ladies- boy what a tough week some of you are having. Kate- I am so sorry you have to wait again. Have you noticed whenever you are desperate to get some answers the Dr's are always on leave!! Must be Murphy's Law. I notice you did not have chemotherapy post surgery - is that correct? I hope all goes well with your next appointment.

    Hopefulheal - you poor thing. Can't believe you have had so much trouble with your operations. You said the Surgeon was cutting away necrotic tissue. Was this because of the nipple recon ? Sorry the thread is long for this, and it was hard to trace it all back. I am not sure my skin over my TE will survive the chemotherapy I am having - seems to affect it more badly each time. It lurks in the back of my mind like a gargoyle no matter how much I say - don't think about that yet. For those of you who have had nipple and areola reconstruction - do you think it is worth it? . A lot of people seem to have had terrible trouble with the reconstruction.

  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 2,604
    edited September 2012

    thanx Diane, for writing for me. i HAVE read the book, and cant reread it right now...

     I'm sooo grateful that Marybe came in June, it was the 2nd time, and her/ I alone was somethiing to behold!!

      I know I WILL always remember the days she was here, and i've saved every email she ever sent me.. my hubs thought it was crazy. but understands now..

     I know from losing SO many ple lately, that a dull ache that never goes away, will come.. i just haven't gotten there yet. I'm hoping that our "shower of cards" will help me get closure tommorrow. we're all gonna post pics, sayings, and whatever, on the "in mempry of Marybe" thread.. her 1st "party" is going to be tommorrow in Ohio, so i feel like ts the best those of us who can't travel, can still feel like we honored her...

      i was sad, hearing of your friend, but so proud of you! its a hard thing to do, even when you're older, but as a "kid" wow!!!

      We do have amazing women here, in our lives...........3jaYS

  • Delilahbear
    Delilahbear Member Posts: 206
    edited September 2012

    Diane - such a beautiful post. It proves what a supportive and beautiful person you are. You are always such a positive and supportive person here and I appreciate it. Anyone who could take care of someone as you did at such a young age has a special place in my heart. I know we are all caring and supportive of each other here and it is nice to have such a place to come to to chat without being judged.

  • didel
    didel Member Posts: 733
    edited September 2012

    Thanks for the kind words.



    Debbie dont you like my b'day kangaroo??? Hope you have a fun wonderful peaceful birthday!!!

  • justagirl
    justagirl Member Posts: 633
    edited September 2012

    Diane - loved the birthday kangie!  Truly. My day so far is peaceful and I'm heading out into the garden to get my hands dirty.  Seems I find a lot of peace and joy outside.  Someone a while ago told me he thought his gardening was therapeutic for him and his garden is tiny weeny compared to my 1 1/2 acres...luckily for me half of it is lawn.  Well, I told him if gardening was supposed to be therapeutic, then I must need tons of therapy.

    Truly, I have tried therapy to deal with bc and taking femara, and have found all of my dear friends here to be better and more supportive and helpful to me.

    I was a bit of a bad girl today.  After grocery shopping, I stopped at the jewelry store.  I'd been looking at this glorious cushion cut deep blue  4 carat topaz ring with a small diamonds down the sides and bang, I bought it, so Happy Birthday to me.  I came home and presented the bag with the box in it to my husband and he said 'what is this' ?  I replied, oh sweetie thank you for my birthday present!  Poor guy didn't know what hit him....and so goes our life together.

    3jays: you remain my guiding light for inspiration and strength.

    Kate and Diane: where do some of these doctors learn their bedside manners from?.....bet if it was their mother, wife or daughter there wouldn't be all this waiting and 'seeing' time.

    hopeful: I hope and hope you don't have any more complications - enough already!

    macatacmv: I like your quote from the biofeedback Dr - I'm trying to practice itInnocent

    All I know is every day I'm here, I'm on the winning side but still trying to calm my mind down and arrest my fears.

  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 2,604
    edited September 2012

    just a girl: the ring sounds Divine: how bout a pic?? and it was so nice of your hubs to get it for you..wink wink..

      i slept a little tonite, but now i'm up again.. trolling, and gonna get some pics for Marybe's shower of Pics /cards tommorrow.3jays

  • justagirl
    justagirl Member Posts: 633
    edited September 2012

    3jaymom: I will post a picture of my 'birthday' ring when Max, my son, comes home next weekend.  Barb walked me through how to do it but the program I had on my computer blocked me.  Now Max has loaded a new program on, so will give it a try. Will be thinking specially of you and Marybe tomorrow....

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 7,605
    edited September 2012

    Debbie, happy belated birthday!! I LOVE cushion cut stones!! AND a deep blue!! Wow, your DH has good taste and a deep wallet!! Congrats!

    Mac, this just might be the young-blood you need that is eager and challenged enough by you to want to get to the end of your misery!

    Hugs, to all... 

  • Stanzie
    Stanzie Member Posts: 1,611
    edited September 2012

    Oh Debbie!!! Happiest of Birthdays - so glad you got Just what you wanted!!! I have no clue what a cushion cut is- wish I did then it would mean someone gave me jewelry! But alas no... my Bf did give me a ring once that he just went on and on about then I saw the ad in the PAPER for the FAKE ring!!! ARG!  Anyway I used it when workmen come around so I look like I'm married or have a male arounds... LOL!

    3jays- glad you are feeling a bit better.... 

    Diane- you are truly such a special and amazing person! Wow just love all of you!!!

  • macatacmv
    macatacmv Member Posts: 1,200
    edited September 2012

    debbie, yes happy birthday (little late). keep the celebration going! Yay, on knowing what you wanted and giving it to yourself (through your DH).

    barbe, yes the mystery aspect is working for me, finally.  Young and eager is good. How are you? Did you have little guys bday party yet?

    stanzie, LOL about the "fake" ring.

    I have lots of rings but my fingers are so puffy I can't wear most of them. (darn meds)

    I have been looking for new one since dx. I love the ones my DH gave me (bless his soul) but I would like one for me from me to say I like who I have become through this journey. Right now I am wearing an adjustable shell ring that I bought in St John when DD and I was there in May, reminds me of the good times. 

    I am realizing I  use to be able to "manage" my anxiety by keeping myself busy. With work, raising chldren, taking care of my parents. Now that has all been "taken" away from me. So I need to learn new coping skills. So breathing is a new technique. Since I have to nebulize 3 times aday, that helps me focus on my breathing, then I have a breathing pacemaker recording of two bells to time my breaths. who knew that at my age I would need to learn how to breath all over again. Anyway, another day to feel the joy!

  • didel
    didel Member Posts: 733
    edited September 2012

    Awww Mac! I hope the nebulizer is doing the trick. Oy well I am glad you have a doctor who is trying to figure things out. Since chemo and on tamoxifen my asthma has been way worse (no comparison) and I started taking Singulair and what a difference that has made. I never knew what anxiety was until I was diagnosed. One of the reasons I got my puppy was to keep me from wallowing and sinking into a deeeeeeeep hole. He makes me get up and out 4 times a day...sometimes more. Plus he makes me laugh and smile and always comforts me when I am crying or sad. Before I got him I was trying yoga (at home of course I refuse to embarass myself like that in public) that helped to calm me and get ready for the day. Or there is always acupuncture which I highly recommend for everything! I love it and it has changed me..or my back and inability to sleep Hope you find something that works for you.

    Debbie Love the ring!!! Sounds so beautiful  Love a cushion cut...gorgeous. Happy Happy Happy Birthday!!!

    Stanzie you are too sweet.

    3jays thinking of you and Happy New Year to you and your hubby!!!

    Kate you better be having some crazy sexy fun!!!

    Love to all

    Diand

  • 3jaysmom
    3jaysmom Member Posts: 2,604
    edited September 2012

    thanz,DianD .. happy New Year to you, also.. its back to work for hubby..

     it was a full, emotional day here.. getting pics (which most i didn't post) then, doing marybes thread.. planting flowers for her i will send those pics here.. and then my FIL called really anxious...

      he's 87: and was a dr.. now dementia is beginning, and when my mil gets sick (she has the flu) he gets so scared.. feels incapable of doing anything for her

      it is kinda true, but the anxiety of it all for him is what's so sad.. they have a nurse for them, but she doesn'tcome weekends..

      My hubs changed days.. he usually goes sunday, hw went sat. to be here today, and i think the change in routine freaked him out...

      He called all 3 of his kids, and then, seemed to calm down.. hubs was gonna go up, its in Boynton, about anhour away, but Dad said he's going to bed.. if he has another panic attack, hubs will go, and take the morning off at work.. poor baby: he has FMLA on all 3 of us now.. talk about pressure.. thank goodness, i'm stable, so he wdoesn't have to worry so much about me................

      our puppies are what got me thru chemo.. i had to keep stopping him from licking my bald head.. i was told that he could consume the taxotere!!!

    we got them certified as service dogs, had them trained, and thats why we can have them in a "condo" situation.. we're in a 4 plex, so its all good..have a great week, ladies........3jays

  • barbe1958
    barbe1958 Member Posts: 7,605
    edited September 2012

    The birthday party went very well...NO tears!! And the babies didn't cry either!! When I got there early, the room was SO not ready so I jumped in and started ordering everyone around, but whipped it into shape and was able to relax during the party. Then when it was all over I did the same thing to clean it up. So I DID help!!! My grandson Zach didn't "know" me at first and kind of hid into his Dad, Ed (glad the Ed saw that) but then came around. My DD was cool at the beginning but I only got a chance to talk to her once. Found out after that Ed tried to talk to my DH about it all and my DH just walked away (good for him!). Ed was saying how his Mom had only seen Zach twice this year (his Dad is where they go up and stay for days at the "cottage"). I told my DH later that the relationship Ed has with his Mom should have NO bearing on the relationship Kim has with me!!! But it's Kim that needs to hear this...

    My SIL and her partner came in on Friday from out of town and stayed at the Inn in our complex. We had a marvelous dinner at our house on Friday, the party on Saturday and then my SIL and I went shopping yesterday at an outlet mall 10 minutes away and the guys went golfing. I finally bought myself a Coach purse!!! They had them deep-discounted and then ANOTHER 30% off!!! (My DD has FIVE of them!!) I would NEVER spend that much on a purse but with the discounting it would have been stupid not to. So I am now the proud owner... (couldn't find a pic on the Coach website so I'm sure it's old stock) but I got a very vibrant one that I can use all year and every day. I didn't want a "work" one as I don't "work" anymore, so I'm glad I'm getting one now that I can use all the time. 

  • cmbear
    cmbear Member Posts: 674
    edited September 2012

    i know I'm late but HaPpY BiRtHdAy Debbie! Thought of you and your garden, and thought you would enjoy this cake.

    I am so jealous of your new jewelry, sounds sparkly and gorgeous!!