Bonfire of the Goddesses
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Hi haven't been around for a week...
VR, thanks for your words of wisdom. I didn't think my post was that negative...I was moving away from depression and dealing with nostalgia...it was DD#3's wedding anniversary on 9/11 and I was determined to make new memories. This year was the first that I did not get caught up in the 9/11 tragedy. Her wedding WAS a very happy time and I like to remember it. DD#2 had a new baby andDD#1's son was on the way...
Is nostalgia a good thing to remind us that life is good, or is it just a distraction?
My grandson's 10th birthday party was Sunday and we had a good time. It was quite unconventional, with DD #2's new man-friend and her ex husband hanging out together...my son came from Chicago so it was quite a day.
I have always been pretty happy but there have been many changes in the past year or two. It takes time.
Thanks for thinking of me.Linda, so glad to hear you saw your friend and that you have a break from appointments for awhile. Enjoy your time.
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Joan... I think when we become nostalgic, there are tingling sensations, some good, some bad, when we begin calculating. I hate thinking about how long it's been since I met the DH. When I look at him, I'm thinking of how young we are, until I astonish myself and realize, we are no longer young....
Last night I was listening to Simon and Garfinkel's song Old Friends. I once thought that 70 seemed so old and so far away. Now, I wish 70 will slip by me quietly while I move along to 80 and beyond. I live in the present and am nostalgic for a future... a healthy and happy future for all of us. Thinking about the past is for young people... They haven't acquired enough of a past to need or want to remember. For them, thinking about their little past is easier because there is so much more future ahead for them. As we age, our minds are filled with so many more good and bad memories that if we think too much about it, it's quite overwhelming. And what is it that we want so much to remember? Does it bring us more solice than sorrow? Are our past memories of our experiences understandable and believable?
I chose to hang my heart on a man when I was 16 and he was 21. What was I thinking then? What did I know then? I thought I loved him, I guess. But what did that child of 16 know? Is she the same person today? I wish I could remember those sensations. But I can't. Not because I don't have those same sensations, it's because those sensations have been incorporated into memories. And those memories can never include those exact same sensations that I felt when I fell in love. So good and bad memories aren't helpful when we want sensation. Soooo, I think it's best to not try to think much of the past. Instead, it's better to fill our present with doing things that give us the sensation of happiness. That way, growing older will still be something to look forward to.
Linda...6 weeks!!! Pack that calendar with things that bring you happiness!!!!!0 -
I am having trouble wrapping my head around the philosophy...
What are photos for? I believe my experiences, good and bad, are part of who I am. When I get a negative thought, I willfully dismiss it. I feel sad at times because things are, and recently were, so good. I am not longing to live in the past. It's similar to the grieving process and it takes time. I have never been a cut and dry person. And everyone is different.
Life is good...and I do look to the future...I may have to change how I spend my free time. I have a fabulous trip coming up this week and visits with some BCO friends.
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How much more do I have to endure? What else is going to be thrown at me? I want to throw it into the fire. My 20 year old is having problems with his blood sugar now. He gets awful weak and nearly passes out. My husband took me shopping yesterday and my son calls. I worry because first he never uses the phone and when I answer he sounds really weak. I had to keep him talking until we got home. He cried in my arms. Isn't my cancer enough for this family? My heart is more than broken. He's my biggest helper.
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Veggy... So sorry! Gentle hugs! Your son might need a good endocrinologist and dietician. In then meantime, low carb and high lean protein, small frequent meals should help....
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Ditto VR's advice. He should eat before he feels hungry. Almonds are great carry around food.
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Veggy so sorry!!!
Joan I am so sorry that you are depressed, did you decide anything on the FLA/babysitting trip?
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Sandy,
Thanks for your support. Yes, I am going to help DD in November and will enjoy spending 2 days with my 30 month old (smart,funny) grandaughter.
I am good -- not depressed. I felt sad. It's fine. It's normal. I work. I travel. I function...I miss my grandkids because they just moved and I love them; not because I can't function without them.
Be well, be happy, my friend...
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Joan----u depressed????
Could have fooled me
We had a really fun time visit this weekend....
Everyone is different when it comes to handling life changing events.
You did good sista
I have a bed with your name on it...
Xoxo fireKracker aka grannydukes0 -
Here's a secret...the guest bed at FireKracker's is great...I think she's starting a waiting list...
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Oh Joan----can u change the name to fireKrackers bed and breakfast"?
Seriously,a cup of international coffee and a corn muffin doesn't call for a bed and breakfast...0 -
Can I be the cook at the bed and breakfast?
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Veggy - Can I help you do the cooking at the bed and breakfast?
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Yes! With the two of us in the kitchen it would much more fun.
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Veggy - It would be so much fun. Of course, we would have to find a way to keep Granny out! LOL!
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Veggy---yes you can be the cook...
JOJO ya gotta move here to help veggy.
You 2 can gladly take over..
I'll take care of the $$$$$$$$$
Joan will commute...
Hey do we have something goin??????0 -
All in
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exhausted
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Wouldn't it be something if we could pull this off. I'm a great cook and have cooked for large groups in the past.
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JOJO start packin..I AM NOT MOVING AGAIN.
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Granny - It is way too cold in PA for me. Maybe we can do this virtual.
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Where is everyone? This thread has been so quiet.0 -
im here....
getting ready to go nity nite.
nuthin to burn either...maybe tomorrow.0 -
Jo, sorry about being so quiet. Am just too tired to even complain some days. Have ugly dirty-looking glove on LE hand, multiple bandaids on other hand where nails are so thin and have ripped into the cuticle and now snag on everything, including expensive LE garments .... feels like bamboo under the nails most of the time - neuropathy? Or due to other meds? Lost gobs of hair, now thin compared to before starting these meds. Taking biotin to see if it helps. One misery follows another. Into the fire with them all!!!!!!!!
Typing is such a pain because I am such a perfectionist I cannot bear to NOT correct it, and these hands are bumbling and cumbersome and painful.
I am sad that we lost one of our BCO sisters a couple days ago. A wonderful woman who was so inspirational to so many of us has been in hospice for over a year, much longer than her docs predicted she would live. I am throwing in all the sadness, tears, pain, frustrations, and loss that this horrible disease provides to so many families. May Cindy-Rose fly with the angels and feel no more pain, may she and her family be at peace. I HATE WHAT BC DOES TO PEOPLE!
But today is a GOREGEOUS day here, high in the mid-to upper 60s, my mums are brilliant with the sunshine on them. And I just found out I got accepted into an abstract art painting class starting at the end of the month, so this is great news! I had been wanting into that class, but there was a waiting list a mile long! I think I got bumped up because I live near the instructor's daughter, LOL.
Maybe I can get DH to have a REAL fire tonight - perfect fall weather for one! Will toast you all with some good wine, fire or no fire! Sending lovingkindness to each of you.0 -
Linda, wonderful news about the art class!
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Linda - You are such an inspiration. I don't know how you do it everyday - you are one strong pink warrior. I have taken Biotin since starting Tammi and it does work for me. The minimum I would recommend is 5000mcg. You can get 10,000mcg. Obviously, it comes down to which one will work best for you. How exciting you got into the art class. You will be starting before you know it. Sending gentle, healing hugs.0 -
Linda Have fun with the art class. Sorry your hands are soooooo bad. Sorry. sassy0
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I just discovered how to insert photos from my iPad!!!!!! I cannot change size - will work on that. In any case, this is a Zentangle-inspired art card that I did recently that I thought some of you might enjoy. It was made for a very special couple who have served a small rural church by organizing an annual fish fry, singing in the choir, and serving on numerous other committees and activities. It is definitely Christian-inspired, but also Buddhist-inspired as well.
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Excuse me breaking in here, but we are looking to show your faces, names and quotes at our fundraising event in October (www.rockforbreastcancer.org), and would love your help. This event is one of our largest fundraisers of the year and we'll be joined by hundreds of generous donors.
Specifically, we will have two projector screens up during the event, and want to show the people attending the event YOUR faces--- the women of our community, the women who use and rely on BCO ! Having the opportunity to share your photos and quotes that night will reinforce to our donors, in a meaningful and personal way, just how vitally important their contributions are to our community.
For this, we are looking for people willing to share a photo of themselves (either alone or with family, friends, pets, other BCO members, etc.), allow us to use your first name, say where you are from (it can be from anywhere in the world!), and give us a quote on how important BCO is to you. We are looking to have at least 40 people and have (only) a few weeks to work on this.
If you are interested, could you please email Melissa at mjenkins@breastcancer.org, with your photo, first name, where you live, and your quote? Also, PM us if you have any questions!
Thank you, thank you, thank you for helping us!!
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linda-n3, Nice! Good for you for going out there n doing that! turned out nice. i am an artist, i think, even tho i am not doing any right now. So! i want to be a goddess, so what i am throwing on the bonfire today is.....PROCRASTINATION!!!! FEAR!!!!! fracking fear of doing something that will hurt my LYMPHEDEMA!!!!!arm. farkin' nurtzez and herr doktors who dont care that my sex life is over, from treatment "SPECIAL EFFECTS"!!!! DISHES and LAUNDRY and BILLS, OH MY!!!!!!! PEOPLE who dont measure you for a sleeve correctly!!!! TAMOXIFEN and ARIMIDEX!!!!! oblivion. Some one a few posts back had mentioned that she had taken the money and run at diagnosis. i said something similar to my b.s., and in her "minutes of our meeting" summary diagnosed me as suicidal thoughts!!!!!WTF!!! i love my life, anyway, so onto the fire with my breast surgeon's ASS!!!!!0
