Bonfire of the Goddesses

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  • barbiecorn
    barbiecorn Member Posts: 86
    edited April 2012

    I am throwing into the fire every negative thought I have had since my BMX on 2/1 - Burn!!!!!!!!!!

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Member Posts: 15,894
    edited April 2012

    Chabba and VR Blessings

    Leah blessed Passover.

    Barbie corn , we haven't met before, Welcome!, I see your negative thoughts flaming.

    Jo, read about your visit with Cheetza and DH  and saw pic's on Rads thread.--------Yeah for visits

    Granny------hugs

     Badger cute pics, can you imagine trying to get those butts still while drawing the lines--Thanks for the positive thoughts.

  • Linda-n3
    Linda-n3 Member Posts: 1,713
    edited April 2012

    Badger, thanks for the Easter butts!  Chabba, thanks for the bunny hugs!  All the rest of you, thanks for being here.  I am exhausted today - a good exhaustion because my younger sister spent the last 3 days here with me and we did fun stuff!  She drug me to one of those scrapbooking stores, bought some fun paper and a press so we made some note cards out of pretty paper with embossed designs, laughing and talking the whole time.  So nothing to burn right now except the exhaustion.

  • jo1955
    jo1955 Member Posts: 7,545
    edited April 2012

    Linda - So glad you had a good time with your sister.  It keeps the mind off other things and it is a good kind of exhaustion.  

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited April 2012

    I miss my sister. She moved to South Carolina. We always have great times together.

  • chabba
    chabba Member Posts: 3,600
    edited April 2012

    I know what you mean veggy.  My brother and I have always been close and he now lives in Virginia.  It has become even harder as we now both have possibly life threatening health issues. 

  • madpeacock
    madpeacock Member Posts: 216
    edited April 2012

    Sorry to see all of the worries and waiting that's going on. Hugs to all and sharpening my pointy stick again for that snotty tech who can't define a breast nodule!! 

    I'm an only child, as is my husband, AND our daughter...our family tree doesn't branch, LOL... 

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited April 2012

    I just got a message on my computer from the hospital. My heart is still racing. I thought, "Okay, this is it." I opened it up and it was a reminder for my appointment on Wednesday. I can't take this! Its too early to start drinking? Its 5 o'clock somewhere, right. Someone please calm me down!

  • madpeacock
    madpeacock Member Posts: 216
    edited April 2012
    veggy - I got a robocall from my MO on EASTER to remind me of my appt on Tuesday. Phone rang and caller ID said GA Cancer (Georgia Cancer Specialists), which always gives me the creeps when I see it. Part of the message says "We have reserved this time especially for you and look forward to seeing you at your appointment." Barf. On the fire! And pass the bottle! Yell
  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited April 2012

    Actually, uhhhh, we need a new bottle. Sorry. I finished this one!

    (trying to be funny)

  • lintrollerderby
    lintrollerderby Member Posts: 70
    edited April 2012

    Dancetrancer and DianeEssa: Thank you. The tech was the first person on my awful introduction to CancerLand that I felt like smacking. So nice to see she can roast with so many other hurtful people. :)

    Sas-Schatzi: Thank you. No, the vet was great. The office manager I wouldn't mind considering to toss in. We weren't expecting to have to put our girl to sleep; we expected to pick her up. My daughter and I were a mess while we were leaving. The vet told us to go ahead and go home and we could take care of the bill the next day. (It was late afternoon.) I didn't want the office staff to think we were bolting without paying, so I stood at the counter with tears streaming down my face to let them know and the office manager said, "Hmm...well, I don't know. People never come back and pay." I told her not to worry, that I would--and I did. The other office staff were clearly bothered by what she said and were giving me looks of support while shooting cruel looks at her behind her back. Some people.

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited April 2012

    No news yet. Thanks for all the hugs. I need them!

  • sas-schatzi
    sas-schatzi Member Posts: 15,894
    edited April 2012

    Lintroller-------when things calm down,please, tell the Vet-----if you think it would do any good. That person shouldn't have contact with the public.

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited April 2012

    I just got the phone call. I want to thank everyone for all your good thoughts and hugs. Please keep them coming. I'll need them even more. The cancer monster has returned. I see the team on Monday (oncologist, rad dr, BS). I knew it was cancer but now I know.

  • jo1955
    jo1955 Member Posts: 7,545
    edited April 2012
    Veggy - Damn it all!! Not fair.  I am so very sorry. We will be here for you.  Sending great big hugs to you.
  • Bluebird-DE
    Bluebird-DE Member Posts: 1,233
    edited April 2012

    Veggy - link arms, we are with you all the way.

  • kingjr66
    kingjr66 Member Posts: 406
    edited April 2012

    Veggy - so not fair, I'm sorry too.  I'm lost for words since I can't even imagine what is going through your mind.  Mind over matter.....never, never give up. 

  • voraciousreader
    voraciousreader Member Posts: 3,696
    edited April 2012

    Veggy.....our reserve of prayers, thoughts, courage and strength are being sent your way....

  • Linda-n3
    Linda-n3 Member Posts: 1,713
    edited April 2012

    Veggie, I am here to link arms with you also.  I know how that just hits you in the gut.  I knew I had a recurrence long before it was confirmed by biopsy, and there are just no words to describe that feeling.  I will be thinking of you on Monday as you meet your team, and holding you in love.

  • Leah_S
    Leah_S Member Posts: 1,929
    edited April 2012

    Veggy, I'm holding you tight now and bringing you to the sweet fire for some warmth and love.

    So sorry this is happening to you.

    Leah

  • dancetrancer
    dancetrancer Member Posts: 2,461
    edited April 2012

    Veggie, I am so very sorry.  It is so so not fair.   We are here standing by your side, sending our strength to help you in this next battle.  HUGS! 

  • Bluebird-DE
    Bluebird-DE Member Posts: 1,233
    edited April 2012

    Onto the fire, reoccurrences.  And first occurrences.

  • joan811
    joan811 Member Posts: 1,981
    edited April 2012

    ((((Veggy)))) Hang on and know you are never alone.  So sorry to hear the news...so not fair. 

  • badger
    badger Member Posts: 24,938
    edited April 2012

    ((veggy)) linking my arms with the others, around you, in love and support.

  • lintrollerderby
    lintrollerderby Member Posts: 70
    edited April 2012

    Nancynow: Thank you! I hope your kitty stays safe. My kitties (well, now just one kitty) were always indoor-only because they'd be too terrified to go outside. We had a stray neighborhood cat that I adored and would feed everyday. I would worry about her if I didn't see her. Pets are like family.

    Sas-schatzi: Thank you. I was thinking of saying something until I found out she's the main vet's wife. This is a new office that we've only been to one other time. So, I'm stuck and can't say anything. I totally agree with you that she has no business working with the public.

    Veggy: I am thinking about you and your family. I'm so sorry this has happened. Please lean on us and let us help you. Gosh, that's not fair. We're sending you huge hugs. When you feel up to it, please let us know how you are.

  • veggy
    veggy Member Posts: 4,150
    edited April 2012

    I'm scared and overwhelmed with the support I am getting from everyone.

    I have my plan on what I want. Can't wait to see if the doctors agree. I know the left breast will have to come off. Its trying to kill me. I started thinking about the right breast. Should I have that one taken off too? Too much to think about.

    I am a fighter. I've been fighting before I turned 4 and my appendix burst. Doctors gave me a 30% chance to survive. I made it then and I can do it again.

  • chabba
    chabba Member Posts: 3,600
    edited April 2012

    Proud of you veggy!  Praying for you.

  • 1openheart
    1openheart Member Posts: 250
    edited April 2012

    Thinking of you Veggy.  You can do whatever it is you have to do.  We all can.  (((Hugs)))

  • FireKracker
    FireKracker Member Posts: 5,858
    edited April 2012

    Veggy I told you before and i will tell you again.....I'm here for you



    If I went throu what you did I would take those bad girls off.."you asked and I'm sayin..

    I think this calls for a group hugggggggggg

    Who is in besides me"?????"

    Hugggggggggs my sista.K

  • Linda-n3
    Linda-n3 Member Posts: 1,713
    edited April 2012

    Veggie, I decided to get rid of both breasts rather than have to deal with this all over again or continue to have to monitor and test etc etc.... I also wanted to be "balanced" (OK, no wise-cracks about me being or not being balanced BEFORE!).... but some would say it doesn't make sense to remove a healthy breast. You will find support here for either decision you make.  I actually had asked the BS last year if it made sense to just do BMX then, but she assured me it was unlikely I would have recurrence since I did chemo, but she was willing to do it if I really wanted to at the time.  I think it would have been much easier if I had done it then rather than have more tumor involvement with the recurrence.  But hind sight is 20/20.  And I do not have any regrets about having BMX rather than UMX.

    So into the fire with difficult decisions!!!  And it seems NONE of them are easy!