So...whats for dinner?
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Another night of salad. Had the most discouraging meeting with my Endo today. She is ignoring my weight gain, the fact that I am cold all the time, and sleeping a ton of hours every day and DECREASING my meds. So, maybe I just have to move back to six bites of food a day or be willing to wear bigger pants.
*susan*
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Yes, Eric, I hope you and DD are enjoying a job well done!
Thread is slower than usual today....so I think I will vent a bit.
Last week one of my former clinician colleagues texted me that she just learned that my position had been officially posted to be filled (I expected that since I'd just sent in my retirement notice) but with another type of staff (I did NOT expect that).
All markers pointed to the position being permanently filled by the substitute who has been doing a wonderful job with the kids, staff and families this year. I supervise her weekly, so mnow what she is doing by the thorough and sensitive concerns she asks for help with.
So this wonderful sub never even learned about this until I strongly advised the principal (after I received an email from her informing me of what happened, and that it was out of her hands....a bit defensive?) she'd better tell her before she learned it from the gossip line. So frustrating!
Right now it looks as though this may be a set up for a young woman in the system the principal has befriended to get the job (she has the certification that the position now requires....and has no clinical skills....just testing skills). It could also be that the superintendent, who is not a fan of clinical social workers because we don't just sweep serious behavioral issues under the rug when a child's safety is at risk, is replacing us one by one (as we retire) with testers who are basically educators rather than clinicians. Whatever the underlying reason, I feel so badly for the at-risk kids and families who now have to deal with another loss. My sub did a great job all year and they will grieve her loss and regrieve mine.....remember these are the kids who rarely have their basic emotional needs met. OY! If I could only help the super understand how such dismissiveness of these kids' needs will NOT help the them pass the almighty state tests!
I went through a few hours of feeling that my cancer was spreading its ugly tentacles to all the families that I had to leave and who are going to be left again with the new person they developed a trusting relationship with. I would most likely still be there if I didn't need to leave due to the cancer and the ongoing side effects that compromise my energy level.
End of rant....thanks for letting me get it out!
Remember our talk about bunnies.....
DH mentioned that he hadn't seen the backyard mother or baby (ies?) lately and wondered what may have happened.What I immediately thought, was verified this evening as I looked out the window and saw a huge black cat positioned about a foot away from the entry way to where the bunnies nest under our shed. I feel protective of them and tried to chase off the cat....tried clanging some pots, before remembering that such noise was for bears, not fat happy cats! Mr. Cat confirmed that by lazily staring at me, then trying to nuzzle next to my leg. At any rate, he never left, I came back into the house, and he is still at the ready working up an appetite I suppose.
I hope I don't hear those awful shrieks of bunnies being killed.
For dinner, leftover parsnip soup with barley, and chicken salad with almonds and red grapes.0 -
Oh Susan that sucks....or bites!! Is the Endo cutting back because of other SEs you are both concerned about? What did she say about all that you mentioned here? So frustrating to feel cold, constantly tired and gaining weight.
Is there a strength and fitness program a your hospital center? I am finding the one I was referred to to be very helpful to my overall well being....tho I have not just undergone thyroid surgery. Can you have a consult with someone else who can help?
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Lacey,
I am going to vent right beside you! These kids need clinicians, not testers or researchers. My kid is currently working with high school aged kids, and even kids with lots of family "support" are getting lost. The ones without hardly have a chance. Last year she did her internship at the Burke School in Boston; an eye-opening experience for a child who was always nutured.
Next year her practicuum choices are all in what I call the leafy suburbs. Whatever school picks her will be picking someone who has both the skills and compassion to make a difference.
We all play the "what if" game, but you can't blame yourself for how this is all turning out. We can grieve for the kids who will feel abandoned, and we can truly wish that the future had held a different story, but you did all that you could to provide your students with continuity while taking care of yourself. I can't imagine how deflated you must feel.
*susan*
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Hello everyone, big hugs going out to all those going through challenges (especially you Deb) stay strong!
Job was going okay until the snot nosed 23 year old girl ( the one training me) decided to have an altercation with one of the counselors and managed to cause a triangle of drama between the three girls. Geesh, she acted like a twelve year old spoiled brat and then started taking it out on me. She finally stormed out of the office and said she was going tanning. Left me alone on my third day. What is wrong with our younger generation?
Have been working till 8 every night, so tonight I stopped and got subs fo dinner.
Laurie You and I must have been on the same page...Last night I put country style pork ribs in the crockpot and added bbq sauce with pineapple and had a side of rice and veges.
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Susan - Are you tied to the Endo? There has to be a ton in your city. Even in the smallish city of Ft. Worth there are several; I used to work for one years ago. Might be worth looking further esp. since, and I may be wrong so forgive me, your endo. problems are relatively new. I forget what they look for on hypo other than something is increasing, right, trying to push your thyroid to make more hormone. Do your labs reflect the hypo state? Sometimes - and I say this gingerly - docs pay too much attention to labs and don't listen to their patient.
Lacey - Sounds like a no-win situation. You've advocated as best you can for your kids. Unfortunately like you know its "who you know". I felt the same way when I quit in December. Like I was abandoning patients/families. Sorry about bunny family. With our owls/hawks its amazing we even have any at all.
Attempting - LOL an never ending job - to clean out freezer. Found 3 lonely chicken breasts from a giant package and a bottle of Alfredo sauce. I'll add some canned mushrooms which DH will fork over onto my plate. Mushrooms, asparagus, avocados, sardines and such are just about the only things he will not eat. Not too bad for a semi-Texan which describes both of us.
Eric - sounds like you've walked the fine line of guiding your daughter well.
Special K - love the spread for graduation. Holy cow you can cook.
Deb - thinking of you and your daughter. I would have my ducks in a row for hospice, have one chosen and know where they can/will treat him. Rehab may very quickly fizzle. Rehab is very profitable for NH but with regs now I think they will look closely at progress. Please don't beat yourself up for not wanting him at home. Hope you've made some headway on his business.
I think we've had the last cool spell. Houseplants moving out this weekend. I've had the little ones out for sev. weeks but these are the heavy pots. I bought some "boxwood" basil at Lowes. Cutest little buggers. Also lots of flower seeds. I have a patch that used to be total shade until a mini tornado took out 1/2 the elm above. Now semi shade. Lost a huge holly to disease there so I have a weed patch. Hope to get wildflowers established. Found another dish garden container I had stashed away; will plant herb mix. I have a giant one of mint that spent the winter outside; looks tons better than the one I brought in.
Carrie - drama you don't need on day 3 esp. working till 8. Hope tomorrow is better. My 2 groceries always have pork of some kind in their clean out bin. I don't understand that. Why I nearly always have pork ribs in freezer. These country people have nothing against hogs - they hunt/eat feral hogs around here.
I spent yesterday running around FW. Optometrist appt. that was cancelled b4 I ever got there so I get to go back tomorrow. These glasses are c**p 2 years old. I find new glasses right up there with dental work for expensive. DH can get vision ins. but it is almost worthless and last time I checked opt. didn't take that co. Trying to arrange lunch with a former co-worker. I took baby goats to a playday at my vet's office on Sat. and was rewarded with an Olive Garden gift card. WOOHOO. Gotta keep my vet happy but I've spent oodles there this spring already.
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Tonight's dinner was a stuffed tilapia with Nancy's zucchini and corn fritters as a side!
Nancy... They were delicious and got thumbs up all around! Thanks for sharing your recipe!
Soooo... Today is kind of a weird jumble of emotions.... 4 years ago today, at 3:31, I got the call that changed everything..... Seems like just yesterday but also a lifetime ago! Remembering that white hot terror that i felt when I first came to BCO and feeling such gratitude for the support that I received.... Sending you all thanks for being there...0 -
Seaside- It's funny you mention "the call" I was wondering since I went for my one year check up, is our cancer-versary when we were diagnosed or when we were given an all clear? I was diagnosed on April 22nd- never made a blip in my mind when the day passed. But June 30th- my BMX is the day that sticks out for me? Hugs on your four year.
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Laurie,
I'm thinking it's a very individual thing... I tend to recognise and reflect on, but not celebrate, my diagnosis date.
For me.. the date we celebrate at my house is the day I finished radiation which was the last day of active treatment aside from the anti-hormonals...
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I don't celebrate any of the dates related to my diagnosis and treatement, but I do celebrate every day, every week and every year that goes by without a reoccurance. I recognize May 25th as the day my life changed and June 11, the day of surgery , as the beginnining of my cancer free future. And I will do my best to keep it cancer free.
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I am approaching the two year anniversary of my diagnosis. Not a celebration but I remember that day vividly. I was wearing my favorite shirt. To this day, I cannot wear that shirt.
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I have a similar shirt situation, but it is a sweater. A pink Eileen Fisher sweater. It was in the BS' office for diagnosis.
You know, I was thinking that the BCO discussion boards are really remarkable. I've been reading so much, and the women here seem to be better than the actual health care system. Not just talking about medical knowledge, but also the way in which they deliver information, or share information. I'm not kidding. I'm so impressed with my sisters on this site. I'm really gobsmacked.
Dinner tonight: I have no idea. Last night I had scrambled eggs!
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Bobo, I second that emotion.
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Apple's birthday today...
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Eric- I didn't know that. Happy Birthday Apple- we miss you.
I don't celebrate any of the cancer-versaries either. Neither day was a good day really, just something to get past.
Bobo- You are so right about this site and the people in it. I was given this site info by the breast care center and found the people and info beyond helpful as I went through everything. Back then they used to start a thread for each month for people going through mastectomies. The fact that we went through it as a group with similar fears was a HUGE help. We were able to support each other in a way that no one else could have done. SO thankful to that group of women.
Today we went shopping. Oy! Holy crazy kids! They were so excited and made it seem like their choice in new jammies was the most important thing in the world. The only thing that didn't seem to be in hand me down totes was summer jammies? So we went and ran errands and ended with the jammies. They have been switching from one pair to another all day. I tried to explain we should wash them first....the don't care.
Dinner tonight is roasted red potatoes, zucchini sticks and lamb patties. Yum. This will be to Mama meals in a row. Last nights Bulogi and tonights dinner is what my mom used to make and were my favorites. It made me happy last night that DS1 had thirds. It is a weird meal and he thought it was amazing. I thought so too when I was little and still do
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shrimp and grits for me and fish sticks and man n chz for the kids.
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I don't "celebrate" those days either.
I was looking up leg twitches on here for Sharon and found a post from Apple...where she mentioned it was her birthday...May 9.....
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Deb and Debbie - thinking about both of you and your families.
The chicken alfredo was great. Threw in some rough chopped onions, celery, garlic. Cooked some kind of mini pasta 1/2 box leftover. DH had 2 helpings with a snide comment about the # of mushrooms in it. Had a Parmesan mixed grated cheese - Asiago and others - on it. And it was just yummy just now warmed up. I dug out most of mushrooms for mine.
Made it to optometrist today. Says eyes are fine except for the glaucoma and very minor beginning cataracts. Didn't change lenses last year and for $550 or so change is so minor he says not really needed. Think I will save my money. Though I may go to Lenscrafters or whatever their name is now and at least see the price. I haven't bought glasses in years except at his office. I could never get them to fit right at other cheaper places.
Eric - thank you for telling us about Apple's birthday. I, too, bookmarked the YouTube video of her playing. Miss her dreadfully and wish I had had the pleasure of knowing her longer and in person.
Happy almost Friday.
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Luv - interesting comment about glasses. I've had the same problem with the cheaper places. No one could ever make my progressive lenses work. Always end up back w/my expensive guy. Very frustrating to hear of everyone else going to Today's Vision or Wally World or whatever. So - I've been in for yearly checks but am still wearing the scrip from 2010 since the changes weren't horrendous.
Eric - thanks for the Apple notes.
Found the most wonderful thing last night. Chemo #2 and I stayed overnight in the med center for Neulasta today. I never eat fast foods but wandered into a Burger King to see if I could get an egg biscuit for breakfast today. They have Pina Colada smoothies. Tasted fantastic when everything else was cardboard. I wish I'd ordered a large.
I can't imagine what I'd be doing w/o these boards - especially now that I'm back in active treatment. The honesty is amazing and the willingness to share. It's such a great help since most tips aren't available around the MO's or the infusion centers.
Hi to everyone else. I'm off to crash shortly.
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MinusTwo - I forgot about a place that has been talked about on here. Mailorder "Zenni". I'm going to put a message on the "girly things" thread later and ask again about ordering there. I'll let you know, maybe in a PM unless other members here don't object to a bit of hijacking.
The Pina colada smoothie sounds great. I, too, love being on here. I found BCO while I was home after my LX. Wish I had known about it sooner.
Everyone make it a great day.
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luv- I don't think anyone will mind here if you talk about anything. Hijack away!
Tonight I think I am going to use up what is left of the shaved roast beef and make pepper steaks and have them in Syrian pouches. The boys can eat whatever. My NH blood is not used to the temps we have been having and I am HOT. It has just felt muggy and in the high 70's. I am super impressed that I looked today and some of the plants DS2 and I did on Wednesday have germinated!!
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Today is pretty warm here in FL! I have taken the dog out twice and needed to come right back in. I was wanting to walk this evening to see how my knee is, but I am not sure at this point if it is too hot. We are having a home-made 3-bean salad, rice and turkey tenderloin medallions in tarragon cream sauce. We had a lot of cut veggies left over from the party - people just don't want to eat healthy things at parties! - so I used the last of the red peppers in the bean salad. DH has been eating broccoli and cauliflower all week for lunch at work - good news is he loves them!
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Well...after dealing with my 23 year old mentor at work (that has threatened to quit at least 5 times this week) my dinner tonight will be WINE! No kidding! I think I can really like this job and the people there once I get on my own shift and dont have to work side by side with her and her whining. Told me today her mom kicked her outta the house...Gee I wonder why?
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Carrie- You make me chuckle! I hope you get away from the whiny 23 year old and get to enjoy your new job, congrats! A little wine to drown out the whines never hurts either
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I have ordered from zennI as well as 39dollar glasses.
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Whoo, I got two pages behind in this thread.
Dinner tonight was simply so delicious. Pork apple sausage sauted with turnip greens and a splash of sherry vinegar. Steamed baby turnips on the side. Chocolate for dessert.
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ok- I am headed to bed but decided to share with all of you the strangest thing. So....2 days ago the boys knocked down the lamp in DS2's room and the bulb was junk. Won't turn on etc. I can't seem to remember to ever buy light bulbs. For the last 2 days we have tightened/lossened the bulb, last night DH unscrewed it and shook it and heard the rattle- dead bulb...of course. SOOOO......tonight I am laying in his room rubbing his back putting him to sleep and I am thinking of my Mum. That my Dad is coming home with his new fiance in a couple of days and I should go get her stuff out of there. That I should go visit her grave and bring her lily of the valley- because she loves it so much and I never go to her grave enough. I shit you not- the light turned on for about 2-3 seconds while my stream of thought was going and DS2 says- did you see me light? It went on? I said yes....thats weird. He says yha....because its broken. I laid there and smiled.....sometimes you have to believe. I am going to her house tomorrow before my dad gets back. I called my brother and told him the story. He said...you know whats really weird? I already planned on going there tomorrow morning too. Neither of us have been to the house in 6 months.
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Wow....great story Laurie....yes, believing is beautiful! Have a good visit to the house tomorrow....nice that DB will be going too.
Had a sad bit of news today from one of our NH friends (we see them a lot in the summer). Their son-in-law who is 45 was just diagnosed with stage 3 colon cancer. His family is in the midst of opening a new entertainment venue in NH, and he will now be busy travelling to Boston for chemo, radiation and then surgery afterwards. Cancer sucks!
Carrie, I sure hope you get your own shift REAL soon! Can't imagine that gal mentoring anyone! Yikes, scary to think of who can rise to positions of authority these days. I worry about who might be administering to me if I have the misfortune to land in a nursing home some day.....just can't see many of the "me generation" being caretakers. That is probably an unfair overgeneralization......and I would actually be cared for by many Mother Theresa types.
Really warm and polleny (!) out today...gave me the urge to get a bit more planting done.
I was happy to shower the pollen off afterwards.
We had soup, lamejan (sp? picked up at a Middle Eastern grocery store) ) and a caprese salad for dinner.0 -
Wow I love that story Laurie. I am such a believer and have never had the fear of dying as I believe there is a wonderful afterlife out there. AND I cant wait to stalk people! Right now, that 23 year old is on my list! lol
Rainy and cool here...I was gonna try to put in some garden plants, but we are having some unexpected company today. My DH best friend from college and his family are coming up from Long Island. Will do some sight seeing for them and then out to dinner. Guess I should clean the house.
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carberry - your 23 year-old mentor comment made me laugh - my DD is 23, so I can relate. She pitched a hissy fit when my DSILs were here for her graduation because she had to go to work and I washed her uniform pants and forgot to dry them - now they think she is a spoiled brat! Honestly, it was my fault because I took the pants without telling her and washed them and left them in the washer because I was too distracted - she had 10 minutes before she had to leave for work and she kind of lost it in front of them - now of course, it is gossip fodder for the rest of the family - they think she is "immature". Of course the fact that she was supportive and helpful to me after diagnosis, and took great care of me through 8 surgeries and chemo (along with DH), all while working and going to college counts for nothing to them. None of them has faced anything like that, or really anything critical in their whole lives - nothing more serious than a hangnail. It annoys me that they are judging her - but it sounds like you have every reason with your mentor, lol!
laurie - def believe that you and your brother were getting a message. All of my immediate family has passed, mom, dad and only sibling - they "talk" to me all the time.
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