Single life after a mastectomy
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Hi, everyone. I still don't have a working computer, so I'm stuck typing on a little phone that's not hooked up with phone service but that I rigged to use as a miniature tablet. Then again, maybe some of you are stuck using phones, too?
Melp - I've been keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I'm glad to hear you're doing well.
Jazzy - Thanks for sharing that cat meme. Come to think of it, I never have seen my ex and Satan in the same room.
Enerva - Sorry to hear about the insurance troubles. :-(
Cubbie- I've been cleaning and trying to clear things out of my house, too, as much as I can. There's still so much more to do.
BB - I'm sorry to hear that your son is having troubles. There has to be a way to get your son insured. Maybe we can brainstorm here and come up with an idea.
All - I read through the conversation I missed here, and you all were talking about phone calling or voice chatting at one point. I just wanted you all to know that you can sign up for a free Google Voice phone number and talk right through your computers. Of course, you probably all knew that... lol... I'm a bit behind the times, so I only found out recently.
These past two weeks have been interesting. A glitch caused the alimony to be late, and I would've lost the house (long story) but everything came through just in time. Meanwhile, I've been looking into ways to earn money, as usual.
Everyone - I hope this week is a good one for all of us. I will check back tomorrow.
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Jazzy, that's exactly how I feel, I find myself questioning everything. What is it I want to do next? Simplifying things is the one thing I'm sure of.
Life, I'm glad your glitch got straightened out. It sounds like that was a close call.
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bb I am so sorry about what you are going through. I found myself very depressed yesterday thinking of how the hell could anyone survive with 35% of their salary when our salary is not even enough as it is. I honestly became depressed and then I realized the why
why this issue of been decline the additional insurance coverage bothered me so much and then it hit me yes deep inside I know eventually I will be sick again or maybe not but deep inside the fear is still so strong that it afected me mentally when I saw I lost a so called window I was given to keep my coverage .Bb I wish I could give my 35% to ur son now I can't imagine the stress you are going through
I am like you too cobie lost I am busy busy cuz I decide to get busy so my own mind could not think much about the why the what and the what s next. I am so exausted at times but I am more disappointed than anything I still close my eyes and wish this was just a nightmare and I ll wake up. I think of the fact that my sister pass my mom my brother and life kept going and I can't even heard them or sence them so I am still a non believer I really wish there was some kind of good luck coming your way bb. And all of us do need some positive change. I asked my manager today if ok I could work from home tmw I told him the condo place needs access to fix my furnace tmw at 10am well I just hate when repairs are been done and I am no home. No sure why I just can't trust anybody these days. So surprised but he gave me approval so I ll work from home tmw. I am very lucky cuz there supposed to get 15 cm of snow tmw.
Other than that no much from my end.
Hope all gets better for all of you
Sending you hugs
And lots of strength
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Hi hi ok so today I got an email from HR reminding us to re enroll in our benefit plan lol it piss me off so I sent a vent letter telling them about how I feel . No it won't do me any good .no body will change what happen but it made me feel good to tell HR what I think . Lol
I don't think I have many years in that crap company and I know any where I go I ll be treated the same as per my sick history so next job I have I won't share that with anybody. I know I won't get insurance higher than 35% so I better not get sick again. I must just live every day and not worry cuz it's not up to me . I am paying for my own mistakes .
I plan to erase the fact that I lost 45% and I ll pretend I never had it cuz it ll make me sick everytime I remember lol
Today at least I stay home work from 7:30 to 5pm in my labtop called in to a conf meeting and had to do a few test cases .
My neck hurts snow came and the guys who supposed to fix the furnace did not show up so is still not done .
I don't care I ll just take it easy now.
I figure everytime I get upset I get depress I am now like those children's who I see if something does not go their way they lose it . I became like that . Is it me ? Are u guys out of patience? I feel as if I am a very not ok person I don't show it in the outside but inside I lose it so fast. I have no patience for stupidity nor people who are mean just to be mean. I wish I could be the happy person I use to be. Yes I know she is dead but I am not ok with that I am not ok with the me I lost I am so piss . OK sorry guys I must be depress again
Bb sending u hugs
Cubbie hope u are ok
Oh yes milky is ok I msg her she got her divorce papers and she is having a hard time dealing with that reality she sends everybody her love.
Life hope u too are hanging in there .
Jazz yes I know u need to find another job. I ll star but I am not done with the courses I took. Will be better next month since I ll have a BA course under my belt .
June VDavis and all the other hope all ok
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Enerva- we are all entitled to have a bad day (week, month, year, life?) The insurance stuff is really frustrating. I know you lost a lot with all that has happened there. If I understand it correctly, you would only get 35% covered on any medical care? Well, see what HR responds back on. This stuff is really hard to deal with, especially after a major medical event.
I am proud of you with all the classes you are doing. You are working to create new doors to open for you. You go girl, but take care of yourself too? Sending you positive vibes for good thing to happen for you this year.
Ugh, stupid contractors that don't show up. Especially when you wait at home for them. Well, I hope at least being home was a plus today?
My work has been very busy and stressful. I could go on and on about some things here that remain broken, but going to work with my client on some improvements to my efforts tomorrow. I am submitting a nice invoice today and that makes me happy. But a big chunk goes to taxes soon so that makes me UNHAPPY. I am leaving on time today and not sticking around this joint. Other things to do......
Everyone here on this thread is having a tough time right now. Wishing you all better days with the problems you are dealing with right now. Hugs.
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Yes jazz I am OK I am strong and you are right I brake sometimes . No HR won't say anything they don't care. But I felt good to just say something I now became like that I need my voice heard regarding what happens like I wish I could help for others not to deal with the same issue . Is such a big company I bet lots and lots of people right now are been cheated same as I was and that makes me piss.
Anyway enough of that I am trying to be positive yes it was good to work from home I also did a little exercise just now and well didn't keep up with the lady till the end but did enough lol
I am going to try to focus of my classes and yes open a new door soon I hope . Need to focus on moving and getting things over my old apt.today I pay the rent there and well I ll be hard paying both but hoping to find a tenant soon
Good night all hope for better months
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Enerva, losing our tempers now and then can be healthy for us, I think, especially when we've been wronged in some way or when something bad happens. I have a meltdown at least once a week. ;-) I tell myself it's a healthy exercise. ;-) Sometimes it seems we do everything we're supposed to do, but then there's some confusion that messes everything up. I hope there's some way that you can switch to a better policy. I don't know how things work in Canada. I always thought everyone in Canada was fully insured - that shows how little I know.
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Hi this is what it looks like here today
Oh here in Canada we are all inssurared like we don't pay the Dr. Fees but we must pay for our medicine and hospital rooms if we have to stay over night . So we all need our own inssurance to help us with that.
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Thanks for sharing the lovely photos.
As for the insurance, medicine and hospital stays can be very expensive, so I can understand needing insurance for that.
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E- what lovely pictures. I see you are still in the throes of winter
I went out yesterday at lunch for some errands and to grab a bite to eat. Here is what I found blooming. Spring is here!
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jazz how beautiful
Thanks for sharing those
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Hi hi hope all ok
Finally a weekend with no Saturday class
Last night I make kale sale chips lol
Fits time and I love it lol
Hope everybody is doing well
Love u all
My two nephews are now in cancun
Remember the boy who was in Panama and his father took advantage well I got him and the other nephew flights to cancun and they arrived yesterday.
My friend there will help them with a job and I am very sure they ll love it there .
Now finally I ll have someone where to arrive when I go .
I just want my entire family to leave Venezuelan and finally my nephews went and they ll start a new lives .
I am so happy here is a picture of the two.
In the airport before leaving the dump lol
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E- I hope your nephews like it in Cancun. Would others in your family go if they had the chance? Venezuela is such an amazing country, it is so sad what has happened there and to the people. I hope they can find good work there in Mexico and build new lives.
Been a busy but good week. One of my BFFs from the east coast is swinging through town next weekend and working to get a few things in place for that spontaneous visit! She was here last fall and travels a lot for work, and periodically comes through to visit me and also has some family here. We always have fun together and should know more by the weekend if this will happen!
BB- how are things with you and your son?
Melp- how are you doing here at the end of the week?
Cubbie- thinking of you and your journey to find the new normal. Some of the hardest part of this after treatment. Do I remember you have some family visiting in April?
Simplicity- keeping up with you on your support group on FB. I know you are struggling with the fatigue, that part also very hard after treatment.
Life- I am glad nothing bad happened with the house. Your ex pulling from his bag of tricks no doubt. You are strong and ensuring you and your boys have a home to live in. Wishing you the best with finding work. Not easy for anyone these days I think.........
Got tons to do from home today on all fronts, including work. Sending blessings to all those struggling here right now.
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Sorry BB, wishing you better days. Hugs sister.
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Hi Ladies... Sorry. I just don't come on this site often at all... clearly.
My life. Well... My divorce was finalized in September... I've continued to date, but haven't found the one. I've been seeing one guy since July, but he's 14 years younger than me, and just don't see him as a long term soulmate. He thinks otherwise... So I had to recently tell him, that I need to date other people and not feel guilty about it. He agreed to go along with this...
I've been loving life, getting out all the time, traveling... so all is good.
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Jazzy: Yay for spring... So looking forward to warmer weather here, too. Have fun with your BFF.
Enerva: You are a truly good person, looking out for your family. I hope your nephews find work in Cancun soon.
Bdavis: Your divorce was finalized around the same time as mine. Glad to hear that you're enjoying life. Hope you find your soul mate soon.
Melp: I hope you're continuing to do well. Always keeping you in thought and prayer.
Cubbie, Simplicity: Hope all is well.
BB: I'm sorry to hear things are not better. I hope everything works out soon.
Not much to report here. Looking into my options, as usual, for work. That's all. Goodnight...
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Good evening friends- busy over here trying to get my tax work finished to send to my accountant so we can finish up the 2015 filing for myself and my business. I finally found the last of some receipts I have been hunting for tonight, so I should be able to wrap this up now!
I am thinking of you all knowing many here are struggling with finding work, with family issues, dealing with treatment, trying to get moved, recovering from treatment, and more. Sending you love and peace and wishing you all better days.
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Hi everyone. I have not felt up to writing much these days. Just discouraged you know?
Jazzy, I hope you had fun with your friend. Yes, I have family coming in April. I hope I feel up to it.
Life, I hope your job search turns up something you like. Searching for work is so frustrating.
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Cubbie- going to PM you.
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good morning ladies I am OK just so busy and stressed out with the moving .I packed 9 boxes so far but waiting for the 12 so my nephew ll move out that day and I ll have the place empty to move all my stuff. I am super tired
I started the Excell class yesterday and so I love it I always wanted to learn Excell I only know basic so thus class for sure is a good one for me.
I also applied for a job yesterday I hope I get an interview but I am not sure I ll. I saw the job and contacted the hiring officer he then told me that position was close as off yesterday but he said to send him the application and that he could still put it through so I did but not sure if I ll have a chance . I ll send u the details later jazz
Other than that weather is great finally this week +6 and is going to be +14 this week so I am supper excited.
I am just very tire it seems I just drag myself these days
So many things going on at work I am in charge of the month release and I am not sure what ll happen cuz we are in the middle of changing systems so it's a big mess my manager as usual finding people to blame for all errors and oh well I get to my desk and don't move all day only go to meetings and people are getting fire so far 6 from a dept and 8 from another and so the rest are scared and stepING over who ever is left
Hope you are all havin a great week a picture my nephews sent me wish makes me happy
Need to share
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E- You sound tired but know that goes with moving. I hope the rest of this comes together for you. Any luck renting the current place yet?
I also am glad to hear about the other job prospect. It sounds like even if that job is filled, there may be interest for other opps.
Super busy week this way. I have a new testing lead I am getting up to speed this week, finishing business tax work and have my friend coming in Thursday night for the weekend. I am tired too E.
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hi jazzy I'm doing ok. Found out I will need one session of radiation on my spine so that the tumour doesn't grow.
Doctors are concerned if I do nothing it may grow and get worse. Anyways I have moved into a new place its got heaps more room!!!
Enerva and BB - sorry to hear things aren't going good for you two
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Melb nothing is as serious as what you are going through I wish I could wake all from this nightmare we call bc. I hope rad is the answer but I am afraid for you. Please try to keep positive even though is just no easy. I honestly send you all the strength I have and more .lots of love and health wishes going your way.
I know I am in a mess I created by making wrong choices in my youth so I ll keep pushing till I can't anymore.
Bb I don't know how to deal with all you have in your plate
I just know that one morning it ll stop raining and the sun ll shine.
Sending you all big hugs sisters.
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Melp- glad to hear you will get some treatment to manage the tumor. The new place sounds really wonderful, having a good home base makes all the difference with our ability to rest and heal. I am glad you like your new space.
E- I know we all blame ourselves sometimes for what has happened. I know other people are quick to judge and blame us too, but decided I am not going to beat myself up about the past on any front. We all do the best we can in our lives with what we are given and the skills we have. I think we now just need to try to do the best we can to take care of ourselves. I have learned to say no to a lot of things and people that are good for everyone else but me?
Having a gnarly week at work, but have a great new lead on my team who is AWESOME and going to take a big load off me with some things I have been carrying until we got him on board. Things are coming together and got some praise from on high, but have a lot of struggles with the politics with the IT dept. Nothing new there, perhaps just a bit worse through time. I am leaving work early today to be ready for my friend's arrival tonight for the weekend.
Hoping everyone else here from Cubbie, to BB, to Life, Simplicity and others are doing okay. We have daylight savings here in the US this weekend and the evening light will return. I love this time of the year.
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Hi ladies Well tonight my nephew brought me the keys so he will move this Saturday and tmw he won't be at the apt .so I ll be able to bring 6 boxes which I have in my car
then Saturday after he moves I ll go and move more stuff. Also called a friend whom I haven't seen in a long time whom I offered to give my mom bed and she will take it so I don't have to worry about paying for the storage .I am glad cuz is a new bed and that lady is a good friend from the past so is a win win. She will be happy with the bed. here is a pictures 
I am so happy jazz about day light savings too
And springs finally ll arrive
G night
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Hi ladies hope u are all ok.
Well I am so depressed. I went to see the apt and I almost had a heart attack lol is in such a bad shape. I ll go tmw to clean it and make a list of the repairs I need to do in order to move
I feel so sad.so much for my excitement
Good night
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Dear friends- I am sorry for all the ongoing challenges in everyone's life here. No words to say sometimes about the struggles everyone faces here day to day, but some photos of spring for you that I hope you will enjoy and that may lift some spirits.
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hi all
Haven't updated in a while. Meeting with radiation doctor Thursday to discuss radiation on my T9 vertebrae. Been getting some rib pain but had an x-ray of chest and the doctor thinks it could just be from where I had my lungs drained previously. I do have some fluid back in the right lung but I'm not sure if it needs to be drained again..
Still on femara and clexane. Seeing psychologist still to help with my emotions. Enerva and BB- sorry to hear you are struggling
Thanks lifeiswonderful its good to read you guys are thinking of me
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Melp- I am glad you have a psychologist to help you with the emotional ups and downs with all this. Just so hard with all the unknowns I know you live with on a daily basis.
Are you still enjoying your new digs and the increased space?
Hope everyone else is having an okay week.
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yeah i am enjoying my new place still. Even got a few plants to brighten up the back patio area.
Going to see rads doctor today to discuss the fact that they want me to do one course of radiation on spine. If it will kill the tumour then im up for it!! Certainly is good to have a psychologist to talk to when im feeling overwhelmed. Which is allot!
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