Single life after a mastectomy
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just saw my new family doctor she is sending me to see a PS who she says she is familiar with his work. She says that i should avoid seen the PS at that Hospital where the original PS is cuz they are colleagues. This is the first time i meet an honest doctor that just thinks and speaks her mind lol now getting in my car, Will log in when i get home.
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OH E!!!!
Yippy!!!!
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Enerva- glad you found a different doctor to talk to. I have had that experience too, colleagues who give second opinions and back each other up. My PCP has been the right go to for things when something is not working out. I hope your next visit goes better. We just have to keep asking for what we need until we get it. Squeaky wheel gets the grease, as they say here in our neck of the woods.
BB- Piper is right, you go girl! You push for what you need too.
Piper- you sound super tired and dealing with stuff needing fixing. Hope the car repair is not too expensive.
Home today with the beginnings of a cold, but just slowing it down and taking care of me. I am doing a bit of work from home, going to nap soon too.
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I just got home, i am going to keep positive until i find someone who may see me as a regular or normal patient, someone who can say "well i can try to give you better results, i may not get it to look perfect but better i can try" that is all i need for now. Just someone who does not look at me as a bc patient i am sorry but i feel now they only see me as a woman who should just be great full for been alive and i do not accept that its my life what ever years i have left its my body and unless a test, a MRI or a biopsy tells me i have C somewhere then i am not wiling to be treated this way. I told that to this doctor today and she smile but did agree that doctors now will treat me different due to the high risk i represent. i said i understand but i deserve some respect as a human been and unless proven i am a c free person right now. I hope you guys understand me . I am tire i feel bc has taken so much from us and we deserve some respect and sensitivity.
I know nobody but you ladies know how i feel.
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Oh BB, i hope you meet someone special i understand i feel the same way. Today i found myself telling that doctor i need my body to look better in order to feel better and i could see how superficial that sounded but it is what it is, as long as i see my body this way i feel hurt, i feel broken it just sucks....
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True Detective fans, everyone seen Episode #6 yet? Sounds like only 2 left. I hope they renew and do another season.
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BB- yes it's very good. I am not a big tv watcher, but when I was out in AZ last year and resting at the hotel in between rad treatments, I got into watching HBO a lot. So I added it to my cable at home. I have a very basic cable package, not the hundreds of channels many have, but added just HBO and watch it often.
True Detective is on HBO and just started in January. It is focused on a murder in Louisiana that has a dark side to it and features Woody Harelson and Matt McConnaughy. Both actors are from TX and definitely can pull of the deep south characters they play. I think a few others on this thread said they were watching too and I saw the latest episode last night. It is getting more interesting all the time, but only two episodes left!
I think you are all fall lover like me! How sweet your kids remember the nice things you did for them!
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They have a page on FB if you are out there too. Here is the latest post from today.
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You fine Ladies have been busy today. I see some glimmers of us all kind of digging out of the ruts we feel we are in and then find more ruts. Kind of like potholes in my town. You dodge one and hit the next 6.
I do not have cable , but hear everyone raving about True Detectives. I never watched much TV. Haven't had cable for over 14 years., (yes you read that correctly)
Netflix has given me the opportunity to catch up on many shows people raved about in the past. Even regular local tv/major network shows. Given my erratic work hours, I could never commit to a weekly sitcom etc. I like Walking Dead too and also (for some reason) liked SOA, How I met your Mother and watched the entire LOST program. never understood what people were talking about when that show was popular until last summer. Another cute show I caught, which only lasted one season, was Freaks and Geeks. It was well done and of course about the 80s which I grew up in. too bad it didn't last. My son got me onto that show.
I am now hooked on House of Cards. WOW!!! If only they could have it as a regular series instead of baiting us with a season of episodes which I go wild on.
E-While I often feel the same way IE seemingly ungrateful for being alive or what have you-we still deserve what you also stated so clearly.....To be given a sense of feeling whole and human. Why do you think you deserve any less?!!!
Blues-I really think you should buy that rose for yourself to remind you that your mother, children, friends et al love you as you should love yourself.
But, who I am to say since I have a hard time self loving too. In fact I have become so cynical I don't feel like there are people out there to love or to be loved by. (except my family) Yet, here I sit typing away on a keyboard feeling like I am gathering my girls around for some extra special hugs and loving.
So thank you...all of you- for accepting me on this thread and into your lives. For whatever time we are here for each other......
This is a long winded response....I worked the last 2 nights (12 hours each). Pulled my car out of the parking garage at work this am only to have it go completely bonkers. It wasn't the battery either. I couldn't be so lucky right?
waited over 2 hours for the tow truck as it was morning rush hour. In the meantime. I will just say while a few people were angry because I was stuck in a very busy part of the parking lot, many stopped to make sure I was OK and to see if I needed help. Some were coworkers and many were strangers. Even a woman who was walking from the bus stop paused to see if I needed anything.
The secretary for our unit was going to phone her hubby to take me home as well as a few others were going to find me a ride.( I live @ 35-40 min from work) And ladies it was bitter cold today with me in scrubs and crocks freezing my azz off, directing traffic around my car. The tow guy was rather sweet too. On the way home,There were accidents all over the place due to the iced roads. The tow guy told me his mother has ovarian cancer and was actually at my hospital getting chemo today! He thinks she is keeping her condition under wraps. (seems from what he can tell the cancer has come back but she says everything is fine) He told me I looked much younger than him. LOL We went to the same HS but he is 3 years younger than me. LOL. Seriously sweet compliment. Considering too, I just worked for the last 2 nights.
He drove me to my house after we dropped my car off at the garage. He didn't have to! Just did!
So my car......I was so upset. Just another thing to break down on me. I saw thousands of dollars passing through my head and hands. I just cannot get ahead no matter how hard I work, save or try!
Garage calls and says car is fixed.....
Ready?????
ZERO...................ZIP.......................NO CHARGE!!!!!!!
The part they fixed in Nov 2012 was still under warranty. And is the what went wrong today. Seriously?!?!?!?!?! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!
I thanked the guy at the garage for being honest about the repair. What would I have known?
My neighbor the sweet thing she is....drove me back to the garage this evening.
I only had about 3 hours of sleep. Waiting for my son to get off work at 11pm. Maybe I will try to get on the treadmill and watch an epsiode of House of Cards.
I will sleep well tonight for sure. In the meantime.....Look at the positive karma washing our way all over this board.
Jazzy.......hoping you are feeling better this evening. Passing you a bowl of the homemade chicken soup my neighbor gave me today.
MMMMMMM
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Piper
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Piper - It sounds like you're surrounded by many nice people who care about other people. And, yes, isn't it nice when things start going our way? Some of the house problems I've been having are fixed now - I was able to take care of them myself. So, it turns out I don't need to be dating a handyman after all. :-)
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Life-you can come visit me anytime........although I think I am due for some more handy dandy plumber repairs
I am going to see if I can do some minor repairs around the house tomorrow. You better be here so I can tap into your abilities.
I needed reminded that there are some lovely people around me. Whether I know them personally or not. I was especially humbled by those strangers who took the time to stop and make sure I was ok, safe and offered to help in whatever way they could.
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Piper- you were surrounded by angels all the way through! I find people are usually really great/helpful with car break downs. Not having to pay is the best thing of all! Gotta love those warranties. I have one car under warranty and another is not. Second car is a play car and it's expensive to fix (older jaguar convertible, my midlife crisis car).
I find strangers can often be so surprisingly helpful during hard times. It is one of those things in life I don't totally understand, but am surprised by time and time again!
Cold is working it's way through. Theraflu helping. Viritual chicken soup accepted, thank you!
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Jazz. Someone I work with said I took things way too well today. I am just so happy I did not have to work tonight and all things worked out.
I honestly have a very small network of friends. most live out of town. I was very fortunate today. I know it so well.
I have had so many mishaps in the last month I could write a book of WTH is wrong with my life.
I have never been very active on the boards and never found a real thread to call home except for the running thread.
I have recently found a few and some individuals such as those in this group who have risen to offer kind words and hope.
I am a sentimental fool and at times hate myself for hiding how big my heart really is.One thing I would tell my younger self.......run with it girl..............no regrets..................
I lived that motto for some time and have a feeling I have lost who I was ...
I need to work on reclaiming the nice, warm, open and loving person I was in the past. I cannot continue on with regrets, cynicism and misturst.
It is wearing me down. when feeling the love feels so much better....
"just keep swimming"
Piper
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https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=7836731949776...
I hope this link works.
We will all be in our commune waving at all of the neighborhood children and teens. Making hilarious you tibe videos about our old age antics and going to proms in our 70s and 80s prom gowns.
Now i am going to look up my prom pic and share when I get a hold of it
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Piper- I saw that post on FB today too. Very heart warming.
I have found myself very disappointed with people too after all I have gone through the past few years. BC was only part of it too. Difficult times show us a lot about people, who shows up, who runs away, etc. I too have a big heart, but I have not been that open to and with people for awhile now. I think it is just a self protection after all I have gone through. I think we are different after all this.
Glad you found this thread and others where you can feel at home. This is a place to share things without fear of judgement, being dimissed, etc.
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Oh Jazz, I am sorry any of us have to experience the epic fails in friendships, society...what have you.....
I can feel your warmth loud and clear.
TY for words that warm my soul and make my heart skip
It is so good to feel
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Ladies i am here for you, lets be positive all the rain will pass and the sun will come back to us
I also isolated myself this past year and its just hard to open my heart to people other than you my bc sis.
Something tells me that yes we will be ok its just takes time.
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On a funny note. I read my last entry here from last night
LOLOLOLOLOL
The wine and lack of sleep were talking.
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Piper- you were on a roll. Did you get some rest?
I am working through this head cold of mine. Still pretty congested but some of it seems to be settling down. The hot shower is my friend today. I am hoping to get out and about tomorrow, thinking the worst may be past. One can only hope, right?
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BB- well that is not good news. So may caveats and conditions around getting coverage still. You might need to look at a lower cost plan through the affordable care act so you have at least the basics covered. Maybe you need to tell your health care providers and see if they know of any other programs you could qualify for? Almost all offices have financial counseling teams to help with situations like this.
True Detective is a great way to escape your woes, you may find yourself engrossed in it. Getting rave reviews, and think it's one of the better things on the tube I have seen.
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I was on a roll/ I should go back and delete....House of Cards is on Netflix.
I did not get a lot of sleep. Maybe tonight.
Had another couple of lemons handed to me today.....nothing that could not or cannot handle.
Catch ya later
Piper
XOXOXOXOXOXO
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Piper- you can handle anything!
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Lemons? lol i want to share a cute pic i saw today.
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omg how cute E!
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Oh BB, that show its really something i wonder where are they going with it lol
here is another cute one
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Hi single ladies- I am loving all your pictures. Posted one of my own on one day at a time. Being sick with this head cold has me in that place again this week. Things are starting to improve and I am going to go to my client site today to work for a few hours. I am not there usually on Fridays, so I need to make an appearance today.
BB- very well written and good acting, but yes, very depressing. They got the poor rural Louisiana bayou thing down. There are two more episodes of this first season left. I read something on FB that says they may renew it and do another short series featuring two women detectives. Almost like a short story, but in the form of a tv series.
I go in tomorrow morning for my six month mammo. Fingers crossed.
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Great pics ladies.
This is my motto for today.
Need to go stove shopping sooner than expected. 3rd lemon handed to me yesterday evening.
Unless Life can come here and fix it
The girls at work are all meeting at the Casino tonight to celebrate a coworkers 50th B-day.
I am riding with someone who lives fairly close to me and we decided to stay a limit of 2 hrs. which is good for me. I haven't been to this casino yet. I don't gamble so I will be there to hang out and people watch.
Glad your cold is beginning to ease up Jazz.
Lot's of
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to all
Piper
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