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  • edwards750
    edwards750 Member Posts: 1,568
    edited April 2015

    Thanks for the suggestions for the pups. We have a huge backyard so I typically put them outside esp when I'm gone. That day it was pouring down rain so I took a chance. We have a back porch and I arranged a bed of sorts for them with toys, food and water and btw I have bought them every toy and bone known to man. I even sprung for the buffalo bones at 3 Dog Bakery. They like them and they last a long time. Pricey but worth it. I know they have separation anxiety.

    We have tried everything for discipline. Not going to ever hurt them of course but it doesn't faze them. Maybe it's time for a trainer.

    Lucky you Josie. We have to pay. Mailed it in yesterday. IRS has fewer employees now so it may be 6-8 weeks before they process our return. Meantime we are monitoring our accounts with help of Lifelock.

    Diane

  • gigil
    gigil Member Posts: 916
    edited April 2015

    Diane we had dogs with separation anxiety too. We crate trained them, because it calmed them, and kept them from causing damage. Dogs are den animals, so their crates give them a lot of comfort. We had two crates side by side so they could see each other and keep each other company. Kongs filled with treats help too. It challenges their minds and gives them a job. Also, we learned that taking them for a walk on a leash each day, where they learned to follow their pack leader (you) helped to re-set their brains and make sense of their world. The last of our two dogs died two years ago. I haven't been able to deal with getting another one, although sometimes I really get the itch.

  • brooksidevt
    brooksidevt Member Posts: 1,432
    edited April 2015

    Edwards, your pups remind me of my middle son--and his oldest.

  • Redheaded1
    Redheaded1 Member Posts: 1,455
    edited April 2015

    Josie, thanks for thinking of me--the tornado was further North.  But I had actually visited a yarn factory in Rochelle when I was was in college.  We had to create a business in a small group setting for a management class and my group made YARN!

    (there were 5 of us and only 2 girls, so it was the GUYS who picked the product)

    Sew, please take care of yourself.  I am crossing my fingers it will be an infection easy to fight.  My Doctor has also done the finger test and walking around etc. to see what's going on.  Good doctor!

    I love animals, but I never want a pup or a kitten.  Esmerelda the cat is more than a year and she has started hot rodding thur the house and meowing at her shadow every night like she is possessed. 

  • MostlySew
    MostlySew Member Posts: 1,311
    edited April 2015

    red...don't ya just love cats? I think she's made up a new imaginary game and wants you to play...hide and seek anyone

  • Redheaded1
    Redheaded1 Member Posts: 1,455
    edited April 2015

    Yes, I do love cats... I'd have two, but the shelter said she needed to be the only one, and she was so darn cute I couldn't leave her there...... Whenever I have had two cats, they have both been males and not been nasty to each other but once.  My females have all been spitfires and prima donnas who don't want any company......


     

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Redheaded, I started to post a response to your post but lost it.That's great that you weren't near the tornado. Don't yah just love the Midwest? At least we don't live in Kansas.

    Yesterday was pretty rotten. We were so busy and I couldn't even finish one patient orders and had doctors calling out orders for other patients I just room ed. We had 3 providers and only 2 of us rooming patients. I don't know why they didn't pull our other MA that was supposed to be in training up front. They would of pulled me to the back.

    I had a breakdown on the way to work this morning and cried uncontrollably all the way to work.So when I got to work I sat there and called my MO and left a message for the nurse still somewhat crying. She called me back and left me a message that it sounded like I was severely depressed and I need some Effexor.Also to follow up with the social worker at the Cancer center.I haven't started the Effexor yet. Kind of afraid to but I will I guess.

  • Redheaded1
    Redheaded1 Member Posts: 1,455
    edited April 2015

    Well, Josie, I don't know what to say.  Do you feel depressed, or were you having a panic attack or overwhelmed from stress?  Do you sleep ok at night?

    Not sure the MO is the best person to tackle any of those things.  I know I had panic attacks when I was in my 30's and the first thing they did was toss an antidepressant at me and it made me worse, so then the doc said, well anxiety and drpression are at opposite ends of the sprecturm, so we will try an anxiety med and that worked.  So try it and see if it makes things better.

    I know I feel much better mentally and emotionally when I am rested.  So I try to get some exercise (walking) every day and I try to keep my bedtime routine the same every noight---warm bath, cup of herbal tea, same time every night.  But there are still nights I can't sleep and then the next day I am snappy and irritable with everyone, icnldung myself. 

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    I've been depressed for a while. But Tamoxofin tends to do that to you too. Never used to get depressed before this whole cancer thing.But suffered anxiety for most of my adult life. On and off antidepressants like Zoloft, but Celexa was the only one that helped.I haven't taken anything for anxiety for years.

    I'm sorry maybe TMI just looking for some support from someone. I will start my Effexor tommorow I've decided. But will have to take it day by day.I know someone mentioned PTSD I think Brookside. I wouldn't doubt that might be what I might have. My mother suffered depression for years then seemed to even out after a while and my Brother is manic depression. I guess I inherited it.If I'm absent just know I'm lurking but may not feel up t posting but will pop in when I can. I know I'm not the only one on this thread and don't want to take away from someone else being heard. So I promise I won't.

  • brooksidevt
    brooksidevt Member Posts: 1,432
    edited April 2015

    Yep. I'm the one with the PTSD, which has finally lightened after two years. You, Josie, (as all of us) are very much "entitled" to be suffering from PTSD, depression, anxiety, and/or some combination of all three, especially as you've been trying to tough through some pretty lousy family health issues, a lousy former job, and some lousy stuff at your new one, not to mention all the normal (and not so normal) life events that just happen, and the after-cancer ongoing stage of alert and sense of vulnerability we all deal with. Wow! That was a pretty long sentence, and I suspect I could have added lots more!

    I suppose the good news is this all came to a head on a Friday, so now you can take the weekend to be kind to yourself, hide out, work out, sleep, shop, do yard work, rant and rave, or whatever stress reduction technique works best for you. If you can, give everybody notice that this weekend is for you and you are offff-duty.

    Interesting point, Redheaded about the fine diagnostic line between anxiety and depression. When I was in the middle of my post-rads funk, I constantly monitored those symptoms in myself. I was certainly anxious, but depressed? Maybe? Maybe not? PTSD sort of covered it all. I took ritalin, but probably, well, definitely, should have done more. I do think, however, that our MO's are a very good first stop for emotional issues, as they are specialists in supporting us through our icky treatments. They also are in a great place to refer a therapist or psychiatrist with a specialty in the emotional traumas we cancer patients/survivors/victims experience.

    Josie, do please let us know how you're doing. Sometimes you might find you can tell us things you hate to bother your family and friends with.

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Thanks Brookside, I really appreciate it.And I promise to keep you a and everyone posted. Sometimes I just feel a bit needy when I share so much but hope no one thinks that.

  • brooksidevt
    brooksidevt Member Posts: 1,432
    edited April 2015

    We're all needy and fragile and way more delicate than we used to be.

  • Redheaded1
    Redheaded1 Member Posts: 1,455
    edited April 2015


    Josie- something will work and make it better!  And we don't mind if you shareHug  That's why we are all here!

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Thanks Redheaded and Brookside.

  • SAB
    SAB Member Posts: 1,121
    edited April 2015

    Sorry Sew, pay me no mind. If I didn't get the name right the diagnosis probably wasn't too credible either!!! anyway, I'm here skimming tonight, and I hope that you are feeling better...I'm glad about all the stuff that you didn't have. Well, on to the next page...

  • MostlySew
    MostlySew Member Posts: 1,311
    edited April 2015

    hey Sab, I think your diagnosis was just fine....what's in a name anyway? I see the pulmonologist Tuesday and hope to find out what I have or at least what the plan is. I've been on a pretty stiff antibiotic since Friday although this appears to be viral, but just in case there's any bacteria my doc thought it would be a good start while "waiting" ...we all know about those miserable times spent waiting for appointments

  • MostlySew
    MostlySew Member Posts: 1,311
    edited April 2015

    oh...and this pulmonologist is also a sleep apnea doc...two birds with one stone!

  • gigil
    gigil Member Posts: 916
    edited April 2015

    SEW thinking about you and hoping you are knocking that weird infection to the curb. Glad you caught it and are getting good treatment.

    Josie, never worry about venting here. We all understand. I haven't been free or panic and PTSD since I got the first phone call saying my mammo was showing unusual changes. I work on finding peace daily. Some times are better than others. Proper diet, regular exercise and sleep are so helpful. Hang in there girl.

    Hi to everyone. Hope you have a good week. Minnesota jumps from spring to early spring daily. I am still busy with the IRS audit. One more week!

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Thanks Gigil, I appreciate it.

    Janis, where are you? Hope your ok.

    Sew, hope your doing ok too.

    Today is a better day . Woke up feeling like I had a hangover but it's better after I get moving.The first few days on Effexor are pretty rotten or so I have heard.

  • Redheaded1
    Redheaded1 Member Posts: 1,455
    edited April 2015

    Wow, it has turned chilly here since the rain yesterday.  Decided to have coffee and donuts tohis a.m. and had on a long sleeved T when I went to thedonutshop.

    You should have seen me turn on the heated car seats and the heater in the car.  Came home and put a cordurory jacket on.  Bet they laugh at the hair salon when they see me coming in.....

    Of course it's going to rain when I have 3 appointments to make, one involving taking my dad to the Wound clinic again with his leg.

  • MostlySew
    MostlySew Member Posts: 1,311
    edited April 2015

    Thanks Gigil and Josie...

    Redheaded...sorry to hear you're dealing with the wound clinic with your Dad. Those leg wounds are tough on our elders. Mom's took 3 1/2 months to heal. Oh....and send that rain along to California any time..lots of rain..any rain. It's getting really serious out here......

    janis, You've definitely gone incognito again, pal. Hope you're not fighting demons but rather playing in the sun. Take care

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Having a rough time of it. They had to take me off Effexor. My head hurt so bad this morning I called in.Migraine probably due to no more Effexor. I was only on it for 3 days. My job is not going well. Second write up this time because of patient complaint .1 month to improve or I'm fired.Can't give details but anyone can IM me.

  • brooksidevt
    brooksidevt Member Posts: 1,432
    edited April 2015

    Oh, no, Josie. Rotten news on every front! If the effexor did not do the job, maybe consider going back on the celexa, which I believe you said helpded in the past? I know it's been tough for a while, and I wonder. . . . Are you by any chance feeling rotten enough to ask the doctor to put you on disability? And rotten patient! I'll bet you could complain right back at her!

    Stay calm. This too will pass.

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Thanks Brookside. No disability for me yet but if I lose my job I may just have to.

    They proceeded to tell me how I should know my job by now and that I'm too slow.

  • edwards750
    edwards750 Member Posts: 1,568
    edited April 2015

    Oh Josie so sorry girl. Don't want to pry about the patient complaints. I know that hurts. Too slow? Do you think you are? Are there long lines waiting on you? Do you need help? Def change meds. You can only do the best you can. I know need the job. Ditto. When I worked at FedEx Freight our Sr. Mgr used to send out emails every Monday listing our mistakes. Everyone got the emails. Pretty humiliating.

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Thanks Diane, no I don't think I'm slow. I actually am a little faster than I even used to be. Tues and Thursday are the worst and pts tend to pile up But most times we don't have the rooms for the patients anyway.We have 3 providers on those days and don't have any more than 2 rooms for each provider on those days.

  • edwards750
    edwards750 Member Posts: 1,568
    edited April 2015

    Sounds like a case of overcrowding then Josie. I think that is pretty much the case at most medical offices. What exactly do they expect you to do? How did they handle the customer complaints? Did they throw you under the bus or at least listen to your version? They should be sensitive to those complaints but within reason after all we are all patients too at one time or another.

    BTW did they offer any suggestions on how to improve the situation? Did they say they would fire you if it happened again? Pretty drastic. Keep the faith and keep us posted.

    Diane

  • Redheaded1
    Redheaded1 Member Posts: 1,455
    edited April 2015


    HM-Josie would they consider a "different " approach to rooming patients?  You do the vitals and computer stuff and then the patient goes back to the waiting room until a room opens up for them., then they just have to disrobe, if necessary and they are ready for the doc. 

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    Redheaded, it would be too confusing and we don't have the extra room for the vitals only but it's a good idea.

    Diane, yes I was pretty much thrown under the bus.It's complicated I didn't get written up But talked to today.Can't go into too much detail because it's a public forum.

  • josie123
    josie123 Member Posts: 1,749
    edited April 2015

    I talked to Janis tonight. I was so happy she's ok. She promised she will be back on the thread soon.