2013 Survivors!!!

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  • KarenZ0305
    KarenZ0305 Member Posts: 345
    edited March 2013

    CM - how about a good old black and white movie? I just got a ton for my birthday and a book written in 1970 about time travel. I love stories about time travel. My favorite B&W movie is The Time of Their Lives with Abott & Costello. I've been sitting here under my favorite blanket all afternoon reading and watching snow. {{{{{HUGS}}}}} for you!

  • luvmygoats
    luvmygoats Member Posts: 2,484
    edited March 2013

    Carolyn - Sounds like you have the right to a bad mood.  And today doesn't help considering what yesterday was.  (((HUGS))) coming your way.  Can't get graphic to attach but the sentiment is the same.  Hopefully your evening and weekend will improve.  You sound like you need some chocolate or Mccook's hot dude Adam (who I would not know from Adam).

    Oh, Believe, I like the baking.  Carolyn - Maybe mixing up some brownies or something easy if your not nauseous sounds good.  Family would prob. like it, too.

    How about getting on You Tube and looking up old TV shows.  Someone on BCO watches old I Love Lucy's to cheer up.  They are so silly and don't apply to us with her ridiculous problems so we don't identify so much.  Oh, yes, lots of them on You Tube - the chocolate episode, bloopers.  I might just have to watch some.  I consider most of afternoon TV a vast wasteland even with satellite.

    Or maybe just some beautiful relaxing music.  My DH has turned me on to Kevin Kern.  It's piano music somewhat like elevator music but I love it.  My favorite is "From This Day Forward".  Or Liefie believes in putting on rock music and dancing around the kitchen.  Might not be possible with your achiness but you never know.  Hope some of your fellow BCO'ers suggestions help.

  • luvmygoats
    luvmygoats Member Posts: 2,484
    edited March 2013

    Karen - In the right mood I like the Three Stooges.  I have to overlook the slapping, head butting, etc. as a bit much but I LOVE looking at the furniture, clothes, dishes.  Watched one not too long ago that had a couch like I grew up with (hopefully it was one of the latest one's they made, I'm not THAT old LOL).  I think in another life I was a movie set designer.  One of my favorite Three Stooges had the line "let's go places and eat things" which has been a theme for DH and my rare nights out.

  • allurbaddayswillend
    allurbaddayswillend Member Posts: 40
    edited March 2013

    cmbernardi, honey, it is not whining when you're in chemo. chemo sucks. I spent a fair amount of time last summer during AC hanging out in my bed listening to audiobooks with my eyes closed, resting. I got old favorites (that I knew wouldn't add to depression) from the library or friends and copied them onto my computer so I didn't even have to change discs. & hulu.com has tons of TV shows. I also can watch basically any stupid sitcom and that will help. There are old shows and movies on there too. I read light fare when my eyes allowed... oh, I also got as many "Words with Friends" games going as I could. have you found any internet games you like? good luck and keep us posted.

  • Chrisrenee77
    Chrisrenee77 Member Posts: 693
    edited March 2013

    I'm jealous! I want a cute short haircut. I don't think I can pull it off though. So I stick with my boring shoulder length cut.



    Tomorrow my mom sister my daughter and I are going to get manicures and pedicures eat lunch and going bra shopping. I'm getting my "first" official sizing, according to all my boobage measurements and it all says a 40D. So let's see what the experts say.



    Cmbernadi- sending you a PM

  • mcook301
    mcook301 Member Posts: 314
    edited March 2013

    Happy Friday Ladies!

    Holy Moly way to hard to keep up and I just got home from my PS appointment and once again I did not see the doctor but her assistant. Oh well screw it! She is good but I am going to find another PS if I ever want to do more work. She released me from my harness! So I went to buy a bra afterword but first after my appointment threw my dam sport bra I have been wearing in the trash can at the clinic and just went without!  It was kind of liberating! Then went to Macy's to find one bra to wear so I could figure out a size. The lady there was really nice, talked a little too much but helpful. So I bought one bra, 36C :) going to try that out and see if anything changes over the next couple of weeks as far as swelling etc. I don't love my scarred fboobs with no nipples but I am so freaking glad to be over that dam hurdle! Three more heception treatments! and of course scans etc but I see a dam light and it is bright at the end of this nightmare! Yes it can come back but I am going to really try to not live in this fear and will have to find a therapist to help me with this as I have a little trouble with this now but today was a good day!

    I love the photos! awesome to see everyone who is getting some hair! for those still waiting it it will start growing! I don't love mine but like it better than being bald! It is wicked thick! and I have to put a lot of smoothing oil in it to calm it down.

    I want to catch up with everyone but going to get on my treadmill do my run then go out and do some dancing on tables. Then move likely in bed by eight:) I need to get my arms, legs, belly hell my whole body back in shape. I have no tone anymore and it is not too sexy:) 

    Have a fabulous weekend Ladies! Lots of Love and Hugs to all of you! Like Ramols says, " find your happy today" mine was going braless!

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited March 2013

    Hi everybody.....yay....March break for me and I'm going away with Jo to her cottage. I'm

    really looking forward to it. Chrisrenee....I'm hoping Jo will teach me how to get my avatar on here....I'm useless....lol



    All the new avatars are fabulous.....Scorchy, Ramols...gorgeous ..



    Stride....I think I read you finished rads....congrats 💃





    cmbernardi.....nobody here is thought to be whining....come here and say what you need to say or vent, cry, whatever....we're hear to listen....WTH you're having chemo...totally

    normal girl....I always say for everything now, one day at a time!!!!!! If I feel bad today, I always look forward to tomorrow because I'm sure it will be better, that's just me.



  • Chrisrenee77
    Chrisrenee77 Member Posts: 693
    edited March 2013

    Ramols- yes absolutely gorgeous! Love it.

    Scottie- You better hurry up and put one up or I'm going to be 65 when I see it! haha Gotta give you grief, otherwise you might think I'm mad. Yell

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited March 2013

    Chrisrenee......better put pressure on Jo otherwise it ain't gonna happen ...on the other hand, we can be 65 together 💃💃💃

  • Believe777
    Believe777 Member Posts: 540
    edited March 2013

    Yeah Mcook! We celebrate even our small steps. Good luck on finding the right bra, I've been searching forever. I think I own them all. After my surgery was the worst. I kept buying. So glad I never threw the old ones out because little by little the old ones are fitting and working again.

  • Chrisrenee77
    Chrisrenee77 Member Posts: 693
    edited March 2013

    Scottie- I will let Jo know she needs to get on the ball. You know what you can email me your picture and I will just post it on here for you, you won't have to worry about the avatar picture. Wink

    mcook- I missed the part about only having 3 more herceptin left. You will definitely be dancing on the tables!

  • Joanne_53
    Joanne_53 Member Posts: 714
    edited March 2013

    I don't know how to change the avatar from my iPad .... But,I will try

  • Tazzy
    Tazzy Member Posts: 1,442
    edited March 2013

    Joanne, Scottie.. have a great time together... jealous - need to meet up with you all... what's happening with that ? 

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited March 2013

    Thank you Chrisrenee and Believe......I feel so proud of myself....It's only taken me a year...lol...😋

  • Believe777
    Believe777 Member Posts: 540
    edited March 2013

    Yeah! Love your photo. The funny part is I went to photo bucket for a refresher incase you had questions and I've forgotten how to use it! I will go back and try harder. Juneau really deserves the thanks. She told me about Photo Bucket. Now we will be getting lots of photos with your advise, right?

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited March 2013

    You got it Believe.....I could become even more dangerous now......lol

  • flannelette
    flannelette Member Posts: 398
    edited March 2013

    cmbernardi - I hope you don't mind me posting this, but I have been lurking here and I do have a suggestion. Are you being treated for depression by your own doctor? because sometimes they know next to nothing about the meds. I would never have gotten out of a very serious depression without my pharmacist, who knows me well and also attends seminars in mood disorder drugs. I had gone off prozac and onto Remeron, for some stupid reason, as it was useless. My pharmacist told me I needed to go on 40 mg Prozac combined with Risperdil (an atypical antipsychotic which boosts the Prozac's effectiveness - some shrinks call that combo rocket fuel).

    I went to my dr., told her, she prescribed what I needed, and  it was indeed rocket fuel and in 3 weeks I was out of rock-bottom. Or, can you see a shrink for the correct meds for you? I find Prozac really good, but sometimes you are getting way too little.

    2 other things are happening and they are serious - you are being treated for brcancer and your husband keeps his hands in his pockets while you hug him, because you so need a hug. what a jerk!!!  I know exactly how you feel, I had the same experience for 22 years, emotional rejection and malnourishmnet, and finally, thuogh it was the hardest thing I ever did, I left. I was compelled to, from a force inside. it just took over. At first, it was like jumping from the frying pan into the fire.

    Then I met a man who could HUG. and then I got brca - and you know what, it was a piece of cake compared to the s**t I'd lived though all those  years. Is there a social worker or therapist attached to your dr's office or cancer centre? Maybe you could start a wee plan of action...just baby-steps, starting with your meds...

    Again, my deep apologies if this is too personal or if I have missed the mark and misunderstood. you have every right to cry and no amount of baking or watching old movies or pretending to distract yourself will make you feel better, I am so sorry to say. Depression plus cancer plus an emotionally unavailable husband is WAY too hard.

    Sending you my best wishes for your happiness, and HUGS

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited March 2013

    Believe, I love your pic too.....you are gorgeous!!!!!



    Juneau.....you really got everybody off their asses .....lol

  • Chrisrenee77
    Chrisrenee77 Member Posts: 693
    edited March 2013

    Believe I love your new haircut! Looks very pretty, is it easy to maintain?

    Scottie- You weren't lying about you becomin dangerous. Look at that FB and BCO. I'm so proud of you.

  • Believe777
    Believe777 Member Posts: 540
    edited March 2013

    Scottie - put on your glasses! Thank you but too kind. If I ever stop interviewing eye surgeons and pick one my eyes will look so much better! My DH says I'm getting into this interview stuff. Next one is Monday at 8:30 am. Hope I am up on time!

    Chris - short hair is a breeze. Blow and go - go to the Beast that is.

    I was able to put Mcooks Marathon flyer on my Facebook page using the FB link on the bottom of her link on this site. I hope you can send it out to all of your FB friends too. We need to find a cure!

  • cmbernardi
    cmbernardi Member Posts: 853
    edited March 2013

    Dearest Warriors,

    Thanks very much for all of the kind words, the understanding, the suggestions, the direction....EVERYTHING.  I so appreciate what you have all said and done to help me crawl out of this funk today.  It's close to midnight here in Texas and I can feel my mood lifting from just knowing there are so many of you out there who will take the time to care.  Everything that was written to me today was marvelous, NOT AT ALL too personal or out of line and much appreciated.  I am snuggled safe and warm in my big comfy bed with the 2 dogs watching closely over me from there favorite spots by the window.  My family are all home too from business trips, work and school and I am sure tomorrow will be a better day.  I still hurts a lot that I hear nothing from my soon to be ex-husband (residing back in Northern Virginia) who left me when I got ill but that is the selfish man-child he was when we were together for nine years and I do not expect that to change.  So, I'm safe and well cared for by my only sister, Toni and her hubby and sons.  I talk to my wonderful parents daily and hear from friends and family on a regular basis who will all support me through these great challenges.  I am so blessed to have all of them and all of you here to learn from each day and I just want you all to know that I am very, very thankful to have found you all even though this "club" we've all been forced to join is not Club Med!  For now though, I will enjoy my evening in Club Bed feeling grateful for all I have and all that you have given me.

    With peace, love and blessings to you all.

    Carolyn

  • schatzi14
    schatzi14 Member Posts: 906
    edited March 2013

    Jo and Christine...have a great time WITHOUT me!Yell

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited March 2013

    Carolyn.....what a beautiful post.....you truly brought tears to my eyes.....you conjured up such a lovely picture of your sister's home, with dogs and all....a place where you are loved and are secure.....I don't want to speak Ill of your ex as I didn't know him, but just the fact that he took off in your time of need for me makes him less than a man and your life eventually will be better without him....who needs a man-child when we have children

    to take care of. You do have this family also and I myself am honored to have met

    so many beautiful strong women here who support me and listen to me jabber on from time to time. I wish I could invent an electric broom so I could fly around and visit every

    one .......lol

  • Joanne_53
    Joanne_53 Member Posts: 714
    edited March 2013

    Schatzi I am exhausted already ... Christine will be running circles around me and I am going to have to keep up.

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited March 2013

    Susan.....be grateful for the serenity of your home.....Jo doesn't know it yet but Inhave planned a strict exercise regime which will start with a brisk run along the beach before breakfast and will end with a 5 mile walk before bed. 😋😱😜😡..



    Don't let her know or she might cancel the cottage, and I'm so looking forward to going.....lol

  • mcook301
    mcook301 Member Posts: 314
    edited March 2013

    Good Morning!



    Waking up stiff as a board every morning is getting to be a routine for me:) but hopefully little by little as I keep up with running and yoga it will get better. I am learning to live with my frozen shoulder but some days it just makes me break down and wonder will I ever get my range of motion back? But then I just deal with it and accept it.



    Carolyn- I have went through a divorce and for me,it was not that I wanted to stay married but it was a lost to be mourned. With What you are dealing with now w bc and that, is really freaking hard! But just remember it will get better! Hang in there, we are here for you! Hugs!





    Believe- Thank you for the support and posting that! I love your photo you look fabulous! Still chuckle at the other though, workout attire:)



    Tazzy- agreed we need to meet! I think I should find out my route soon but it is probably in Iowa or NE LOL not the hottest vacations spots in June:) who wants to jump in my truck and just road trip and we can stop by and see everyone:) I love road trips!



    Anyone want to go to Italy with me:) I really want to go and thinking now September due to my race in June? Never been but want too!



    I told my mom I was quitting my job and moving my two dogs in with her last week:) I was almost half serious but I think I scared the heck out of her:) she would never say no, but we would kill each other. Soon I hope I can muster up the courage to make a career move because after 10 years of this stress I need a new change.



    Ok I am rambling and all over the place this am! It is raining here and it is going to get nasty out when this freezes tonight. I have some major ice dams on my house and my roof will probably leak and good thing I do not own my house :) landlord lives across the street from me and he knows so guess his problem.



    better get on the treadmil or run in the rain bf it gets too slick out!



    Have a good day!



  • mcook301
    mcook301 Member Posts: 314
    edited March 2013

    I want to come Jo:) you two have fun! Sounds like Scottie has a lot planned :)

  • Joanne_53
    Joanne_53 Member Posts: 714
    edited March 2013

    Scottiee can have all the plans she wants ... I have the car and the keys ... I might either go for a drive or just lock her out ....

    I am on Lake Erie across for Erie, PA ... Maybe plan something for the beginning of August .... 1 hour from Niagara Falls for sight seeing.

  • 2FriedEggs
    2FriedEggs Member Posts: 324
    edited March 2013

    JPMom welcome back!!!! you look great. Glad to hear you're doing ok and getting on with life!

    Believe beautiful pic! Dang you, we must be on two different kinds of Arimedex because I am baking to eat!!!!! (Jo hide Scotties eyes please so she doesn't see that). I have such a sweet tooth I am going crazy. I would rather skip all the healthy stuff and just bake and eat but fortunately my conscience (and weight) won't allow me. But I still eat the bad stuff after the healthy stuff so I'm probably taking in just as many calories orevenmore. lol

    Marian so glad surgery went well. SO nice that your friend came in to help.

    Tazzy did you hear about the mammo yet? We KNOW it's good news but still would be nice to know. Oh well celebrate in advance of the good news; have more wings and beer, and get back up on the table.

    Layla Did you hear about your blood results?  My MO says he does not do blood markers but he does run other blood tests. He said if there was some thing way out of wack it would give him a clue that something was going on in the bones, liver etc and from there we would do more testing. I don't know, regardless just the fact that I have to go to an MO makes me nervous.  You said your mom had ovarian cancer are you Brac positive?

    Chrisrenee77  How exciting! Your first real bra fitting! Have fun.

    McCook wish your route headed toward Disney so I could meet up with you!

    Juneau wow that dilaudid I had after my bmx surgery had me in a complete stupor. SO much so that I asked for something weaker. My eyes were even so blurred I couldn't see the tv. I pretty much have to cut all meds down to a baby dose because they effect me so much. All of you using your treadmills has me looking for one. Even though I can't really blame mylack of walking on the weather I still do. It has been chilly here lately plus I think if I could be distracted by the television I might use the treadmill.

    Love all of your avatars. What a beautiful group of ladies! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

  • Believe777
    Believe777 Member Posts: 540
    edited March 2013

    Scottie - what a great idea! Only you could come up with an electric broom. Of course, I want one too. Mine will be red.

    Cmbernardi - I hope you are feeling better today. You are probably tired from reading all of our suggestions and not sure what to do first. Do them all and see what works for you. Sounds like more than one of us has lived through a divorce we didn't want. Life really does get better. Someone told me divorce builds character. When mine happened ( he left me for a super market checker) I was in a new town, with a disabled son, a dog and a car payment, i couldn't afford, didn't know a soul. Somehow I pulled it together, had no choice really. Then, working, which I had to do, I meet the most wonderful DH. We've been together 25 years. Who would have thought. Someone and something is out there for you. Don't hide and you will find it. When you are ready, get out there and it/he can find you.

    Not sure I'd vacation with Scottie. Brutal routine. Good thing you have a car and keys, Joann.

    2 Fried - I miss my sweet tooth the most! Be careful what you wish for.