My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Tonight’s menu is pork loin on the rotisserie, roasted red potatoes and Brussels sprouts with a dessert called chocolate delight. I’ll post some pics later. The Walking Dead will be airing for our viewing pleasure.
I have a follow up brain MRI (scheduled every two months) on Tuesday and an appt with the neuro rads one on Wednesday to discuss results. I’m not really worried, I’ve had weird feelings, like a brain itch, randomly all over my head but I had them since the Gamma Knife in October with good scans since and no other symptoms or issues.
My donut dash 5k is just 3 weeks away 🏃♀️ 😀
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Mae~ sounds delicious. I absolutely love red potatoes! Yummy! I've watched some of those as well, got side tracked with orange is the new black. Loving that right now. I've saved 5 episodes of GOT because I know it's over a year before the last season is realized and I will cry real tears. My favorite thing. Orange is very entertaining. Jaw dropping some of it. I could do without the nakedness, and that what not....but I do like the story. I'm already almost done season two! Your 5 k in three weeks, i am assuming that training is going well?? Kick some butt!! I'll be thinking of you Tuesday.... I'll be In your pocket making power kid comments! I'm glad you're confident. I am liking that! Friday morning at 615 am is my time to report for my surgery. So you may not hear from me too much. I will have Chelle check in for me. To let everyone know it went. If I am unable. I am hoping to be let go sooner than later. I'll want my own surroundings. And I haven't even left yet. Pathetic huh ? Have a good night everyone !
Hi Gracie
Hi Minnie
Hi Grannax
Hi Robin
Hi Magda
Hi MJH
Hello Tanya
Hello to the Lynne's!!!
Hello Blushine
Hope you're feeling good Keetmom!
Bigbhome 🦋🦋 hope you're feeling better today!
Hi Bliss!
Hello Runor~😜😜😜
Hi Divine~ Miss you around. Hope you're well.
Waving to Boo, my friend.
Hello to another friend GP
ty Honeybadger 😃 such kind words ty about my surgery!
TarheelMichelle~ I hope you're taking things day by day darling!
Hello JFL!~ hope you’re welll!!
Much love to all ~M~
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Hi Micmel. Just have to say I love, love, love the shoes! Been away helping with my 85 yo. mom's recuperation after gall bladder surgery, but she's doing great. Surgery and anesthesia are always a nerve-racking proposition, but more often than not, all goes well, and I trust the reconstruction will go well for you! Deep breaths. Cracked me up about a MBC Sisters show like Sister Wives, but I like it! Could work: the TRUE story of surviving cancer.
So sorry about all the snow some of you are enduring! I'm shocked it's not happening here, but so far, a pretty dry spring. Wishing you all some sunny days and lots of melting!
So glad to hear all the good news, and seeing the photos of pets, travel, family and friends. Hugs for everyone dealing with this crap shoot!
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Bliss~ Good to see you!! I am glad to hear your mother is doing better after surgery. You're kind to help her recover... that's always a different dynamic, daughter taking care of mother ......after mother taking care of daughter. My mother would drive me to drink if she lived with me. I'd rather have a gum scraped...but I would very much welcome her in the area. That would be ok...thanks about the shoes! I am looking forward To wearing them! That's saying a lot. Lol at the sister MBC complex!! Just would be so much help!! Be safe much love ~M~
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Hi all, Dh said YES!!! To the pool party! He loves my margaritas! I did not burst his bubble buy telling him that he won't be there. We took sil 2, whom we have really bonded with during this experience, and we went to St Augustine! We had lunch at Harrys Seafood, so good, then we walked through the historical section of town! It was a lovely day! Tomorrow we are back to the salt mines. Tuesday also. Then she flies home
The sil 1, is here until Thursday morning. What a piece of work she is! Have her a list of3 items to take care of while here and she has yet to do one. Then wanted to whine about it last night. It has been pretty tense around here. My decision to have a fun day today, they were not welcome. When they ask what we did, we are going to have very vague answers. I know that we will not go out of our way to see her again. Poor Dh, so disappointed, my heart hurts for him. Dh is being scheduled for left shoulder, elbow and wrist surgery this week, at least they can do it all at once. Then right shoulder in a few weeks. We are getting a second and a third opinion on his neck. We are both scared to death of that surgery!Micmel, I am here thinking of you and praying for you. You know that I am holding your hand through this. I hope you can feel that. Hey, if you have any belly fat left, I would not mind pumping up my left breast, to match my right! I did not realize how much they were going to take.
Mae, and everyone else, thank you so much for the pool party! I wish that we could really do that! Everyone here is always welcome in our home! We would have a blast together, and I really do make a mean margarita!
Hugs and prayers!
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Bigbhome~♥️💜❣️❤️😘. Thank you very much! For those kinds words. i wish your DH well with his surgery as well.... there will be a busy flow of good wishes all around. All around. Mae....with her MRI. Keetmom check up up this week
Love you guys. Pool party is a great idea. And of course I am in. I would really love being in a room with all of you women who have become my friends. And my sisters. 😘💎🌹. Much love ~M~
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Not feeling to bad from chemo, but I too am really sick of being sick, the whole brain Mets thing has knocked me on my ass and is kicking my fight, hopefully going down on steroids helps me feel a bit more normal, but I spent time with my family this weekend my nephew turned 1so that was fun, glad to have my own bed tonight though.
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Bigbhome, How long will your DH be hospitalized for his shoulder, elbow and wrist surgery? How are you holding up? Do you have anyone there for support during all this? It is easy for people to overlook their own basic needs when they become caregivers. Make sure you eat, stay hydrated, and get enough rest. I know it is not an easy feat, but you need to stay strong. I am worried about you. You have so much going on. You and your DH are in my prayers.
Micmel, Friday will be here soon, and you will be back home before you know it. It will soon be behind you. I am praying for you, too. Your shoes are beautiful. Are you practicing walking in them?
Tanya, Welcome home. The pictures are beautiful. Thank you for posting them. I am still in Naples, and this Florida weather continues to be perfect. My DH and I are enjoying all this warm sunshine.
My DH and I went to the Red Sox game in Ft. Myers yesterday. One of my sons, daughter-in-law, grandson, and granddaughter are in FL on vacation and went with us. My dil's parents also joined us. We had a good time. The Red Sox won 6-0. MJH and Lynne, I gasped when Sale was hit by a line drive. Luckily, he was not seriously injured, so he will be able to pitch the season opener. My son and his family will be returning home on Tuesday, but we are all going to the beach together tomorrow. My DH and I will be returning to NH on Saturday. The month has flown by. I am not happy to leave this great weather.
Next week I will return to reality. I have appointment at onc's office for blood tests, Faslodex injections, and Zometa infusion on Wednesday, and I am also supposed to have scans next week.. If that is not a good time, I don't know what is. WOOHOO.
Gracie, WOOHOO for your scan results. Stability is a good word. It sounds like TMs might not be a valid value to track for you.
Keetmom, I am glad that you aren't having bad SEs from chemo. I hope the chemo knocks down those ugly cancer cells.
Bliss, I hope your mother continues a smooth recovery from her recent surgery.
Lynne, How are you feeling? April is almost here, and before you know it you'll be flying off to WDW. My grandson ran in the Shamrock shuffle today. It was his first race. He was all excited and texted me a picture of his result slip. It looks like there were thousands of people in the race.
Have a good night everyone.
Hugs and prayers from, Lynne
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bigbhome, rain check on the margaritas, we’ll have some when you’re in town
This was dinner, yum!
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aw man. Now I want food. Again. Lol looks fabulous! Damn. Girl you go! Share that cake please. I have such a sweet tooth tonight. I don't know why. Enjoy your friends and that delicious food! I don't think I have ever had a margarita, I was never really a drinker. Like ever. I would do straight up shots of jack daniels, but was never a real mixed drinker. I do love pina colada's, can we Have those too ? Please !? Rest well ladies. Hugs ~M~
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That will be me Friday after anesthesia!!! Help!!!0 -
Good Monday morning all
Keetmom I am thinking of you and your new chemo. It’s scary to imagine but I pray the chemo does it’s job.
Gracie so happy for your stable results. I read about it on the ibrance thread too. You’re a star fighter!!!!!
Micmel your surgery date is creeping up. You’re gonna be so. Eautif when it’s all said and done. That mother of the bride ensemble is going to be fabulous on you. Deep breaths no worries. You have the Dallas cowgirls cheering squad here for you.
Big b home I hope your husbands surgeries are all baby steps to a complete healing that leaves no ailment behind. Speedy healing. Take care of yourself while you’re taking care of him.
Bliss I pray your mom is healing well and feeling all of your warm love and concern.
Mae you’re cooking is amazing.
I think dropping down to the 100mg has made a big difference. I went to Melbourne beach Friday to spend time with friends. I spent the night and the Sunday went out to a school fundraising dinner. Both outings involved chocolate desserts so I have to behave myself. Wednesday back to cancer reality check. Blood work, faslodex and zometa.
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50s girl come back soon. I’m glad you had such a rejuvenating time.
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Hi Gals,
How is everyone making it? I have started the Xeloda and have not experienced any side effects after a few days, so hoping that continues. Ordered the 10% urea lotion to ward off hand/foot syndrome. Spent weekend keeping my grandson busy with sledding, slot car racing, and the first spring bike ride. Always a challenge with this very active boy. Count me in on the pool party! Could use some warm weather and time with women friends!
Micmel-I know this is a huge week for you with Friday looming so close. I am with you all the way! In the pocket of that ridiculous hospital johnny(oh wait, they don't have pockets-just huge gaping openings to expose one's nether regions!) Maybe you could get a "forget pill" this week until you are under way....
Lynne(50's) so pleased you have had such a peaceful time in Florida. I see you will have to face appmnts and scans upon your return. Good to get them over with and then get on with life again! I know that spring will come to Northern New England someday!
Keetmom-sorry to hear that fighting these flipping brain mets is knocking you in the dirt a bit. I think you are doing very well, considering it all. Steroids do seem induce an alternate reality, so getting off of them will feel lots better. You are in my thoughts.
Mae-yummy looking meal! I will be thinking of you with the MRI tomorrow-may the force be with you.
Bighome-so pleased you had a lovely day out! Sounds wonderful! What a pain in the neck to have to tolerate less than ideal houseguests-such an invasion. Hope things go smoothly with what DH is facing. Thinking of you.
Big hugs to all of you-have a peaceful and easy day...
Love, MJH
P.S. Micmel -LOVE the shoes!
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Tanya~ I can't tell you how much I enjoy seeing the family pictures. It makes me feel like I know all of you when I get to see the beauty in each and everyone of you. I am so happy you enjoyed yourself and the reduction in doseage is the ticket to living larger!! Every time I see my ONC. I beg for the reduction in ibrance. He says (in his strong Japanese accent, and I adore him) “ I don wan to, you doing so wel, not gonn mess with what wurks. Plz twust me". So far. A been amazing. I don't want to mess with remission, he doesn't use the word remission. His assistant nurse does though....he says NEAD instead. So I'm surgery bound on Friday. So close now. Of course I have every ache and pain one could possibly have. Scary cancer is. I love the photos !! Thanks for sharing. Hugs ~M~
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This is my grandson, the gymnast, wearing all 23 medals. He has two more to add to his collection.
Yesterday was the State Meet. He had a great meet and got a higher All Around score than he’s ever had. We all had so much fun watching and cheering him on.
But, for some reason, we were all surprised at the awards ceremony that they included six AND seven year olds. Blake is six and this is his first season but yesterday he was competing with about 50 boys in their second season. Needless to say he didn’t get a medal in all six events like he has in all of his other meets. He was crushed that he only got two. Rude awakening for him. After talking about it more he realized what he needs to do. He said “I can do better “.
I was a very proud Granna in that moment. Isn’t he the cutest little boy ever?
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MJH~ Thank you for the good wishes about surgery. I need all the good vibes I can get. You're always so busy with your grandson, shows the power in who you are! Enjoying every moment with someone so special! I cannot imagine sledding with my bone mets. Yowsers!!!!! You go girl! You make us proud! So precious and adorable they are!
Grannax~ Of course he's amazing. He's your grandson!! He's got some heavy metals going on around his neck the Lil champion!!! I can imagine the happiness you felt cheering for that precious babe! I am going to have to live vicariously through you and MJH and The Lynne's!! I want grandchildren. For sure. But not too quickly. To be honest.... I cannot imagine worrying about someone else, my kids are growing and that's what I want. I'm too weak to Be scared even further daily about safety in schools and walking down the street even in some places. The world isn't like it was when i was younger. My mother would just kick me outside to play. See ya at lunch. Hours with no cell phones or contact all. I was just safe and no one worried that way then. Now I worry still when they are just driving.
If they are smart, they won't have children. Maybe their lives will be more peaceful, I especially feel this way since I've gotten cancer. I always think.. what about those strong beautiful women (like Keetmom) who have young children. That weight alone would break my back. It's so scary and not fair in anyway at all. I don't want my kids to possibly have that to deal with. It islike loving is an automatic risk and knowledge that someday you will in fact loose that person. Some people isolate themselves so they don't feel. I just think this world sucks these days and no one is truly fully ever safe. Younger kids have more available to them. The risks are bigger and different. I would never want them to suffer. Not to mention the expense of everything. How are people supposed to live well anymore ? When a grocery store run is over $100 for the basics. That only lasts a week. If you have growing boys. Forget it. $600 a month easily! It's disgusting. Honestly! Stay strong beautiful ladies. Much love ~M~ P.s I also love my shoes. I have been trying to wear them. They are really lovely. Thanks all of you wonderful ladies !
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Now, that I've rattled on about my grandson, I can say Hi to everyone.
The only drink I like is a Margarita. Sounds fun and refreshing, it's already hot in Texas. Bigbhome I'm glad to hear that the troublesome sil will be out of your home on Thursday. I wish it could be sooner. So, your DH will have his surgery soon? I've never had shoulder surgery but know several people who have. It's turned out well for them, but takes time and PT. Neck surgery I have had. It was to remove C3 because MBC was there. So, I'm sure that's not the same as what your DH is going to need. But I can answer questions about neck surgery and recovery.
Micmel I love sparkly shoes, yours are so pretty, I can easily pretend they are red! Friday is so close. I'm always better when I can finally say Its tomorrow. Somehow it calms me when I get to that day. That day, Thursday, I will be having a colonoscopy. Not what anyone looks forward to, the dreaded prep is the worst part. 😵
Mae that food looks yummy. I'm only going to be drinking liquids and rx on Wednesday. Yuck. I have to go get all that today, so I better go.
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MicMel, first let me say, I LOVE THOSE SHOES!!! LOL...I would have to practice too!!! Prayers for you all week long.
MJH, thank you, and sending you hugs back!
Keetmom, thinking of you also and keeping you in my prayers!
Grannax, I agree we are much stronger than we think. I took care of my Mom, (primary caregiver) for about 18 months before Tom's last year also. The night before she passed, Tom had his second large heart attack, so I had to make the decision, stay with my Mom, or go out of town to be with Tom. I went to Tom of course, but that decision haunted me. My Mom had ovarian cancer. The next day, my Mom passed away, and I was back in time to be at her bedside when she went. Then we had the year with Tom being so sick, his Dad died too, and a week after Tom's funeral I was in the doctors with my only brother finding out he had stage four cancer, and had to have extensive surgery as it was in his jawbone. So I cared for him for a solid two years. I never had time to grieve anyone. So I fell apart finally, and then picked myself up and went on. To this day, I believe all the stress was part of the reason my cancer reoccurred. I look back now and am not at all sure how I did it. But I did. I feel for anyone who has to be a primary caregiver. It is hard, has to be even harder when you, yourself are fighting cancer. I can't even begin to imagine. By the way, your grandson, is a little doll! Congratulations to him!!!
BigB, am thinking of you and praying for you daily. Hope your party turns out well
Marguiritaville!!!!!Thanks, Lynne, I am SO read for baseball season, although KU just beat Duke yesterday in Basketball, so focus right now is on the final four!!! Go KU!!!
Thanks so much Tanya, for your kind words!!!
I celebrated my son's 39th birthday this weekend with his family and extended family. It was a good time, and good to see my grandkids. I was the only family member he had there. It's weird, he grew up with a huge gigantic extended family and we have all kind of scattered just in the last five years. Sad really. I miss my big family so much!
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keetmom, glad you are doing ok. Big hug going your way.
Lynne, so,glad you have had a lovely break. Nothing like a bit of sun to make you feel better. My best wishes for this week.
Mae, food looks great. Not many episodes left of Walking Dead. About time Negan was sorted. We usually watch a couple of days after it's aired with you.
Tanya, looking great and love the family pic.
Gracie, you have coped with so much in your life. I feel I have nothing to complain about.
Grannax, love the grandson pic!
My oldest grandson will be 11 next month. I am going to visit in Scotland early May. So looking forward to seeing him, and his brother who,is 8. Micmel, when you have grandchildren you will understand the love. It comes naturally. I know you don't want them just yet, but when it happens, you will be happy.
Bigbhome I hope DH makes a full recovery. Sending you best wishes.
Off to sleep. Will dream about that pool party . Maybe we should set a date and have a virtual pool party. Put on your best beach wear and get a drink in hand and post a picture? Lol x
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Grannax-Your grandons is a cutie! Love the pic!
Tanya-Beautiful pics of you and your family! It sounds like you had a wonderful trip! Welcome home!
Gracie-I'm glad you had a good time with your family this weekend.
Bighome-That pool party sounds great! I'm praying for you and your husband. I hope all goes well with his surgeries!
Keetmom-Praying that you start feeling better soon.
Mae-Those pics of your dinner look very yummy! Good luck on your MRI tomorrow.
Micmel-Praying all goes well with your surgery this week. I love your shoes for the wedding!
Lynne-We missed the last storm last week (thankfully!). We'll still have plenty of snow on the ground to welcome you home though! I hope you had a wonderful vacation! I've been feeling ok. Of course Fri I have chemo, and it will be downhill from there again! I am taking a break for the month of April. I was going to be having chemo the day before I leave for FL, and I pushed it back 2 weeks, which will bring me to the first week in May. I also have my scans due the second week in May. I'm so look forward to this break from Taxotere!
MJH-Xeloda was pretty easy on my with the side effects. I did get the hand and foot syndrome, but the Urea cream helped a lot. I hope the snow is melting up there as well as it is here. Every day there is less and less, still a lot on the ground.
Spent the weekend at my in-law's (the go to FL for the winter). No tv and internet (and KIDS!). It really is a getaway. Just quiet. Had a fire in the fireplace the entire time we were there. Love watching it! We played games too. On Sat night, we met our younger daughter (she lives a 1/2 hour from our home and a half hour from the in-law's). We took her and her husband out for her birthday (she turner 28 on the 22nd). Just a nice weekend away.
I hope all of you have a good week! Hugs!
Lynne
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Grannax ~ you have every right to feel happiness and excitement about talking about your adorable grandson. Who wouldn't love that feeling of pride and unconditional love. I think it's wonderful ! I alsonlove my sparkle shoes. How is your son settling in his house? Today was my DHs settlement on the house down south. So now it's just his one. Within. Maybe two years we will find our perfect home we have waited to have together for what has been like 15 years. The time has come!! Much love more pics of that handsome lil guy. 😁🌹❣️ ~M
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Gracie~ okay so somehow that bold thing happened. Looks pretty cool actually! Thanks about the shoes. They really are my taste and I love them. I can't believe it's already almost April. 5 months before the wedding that's like nothing ! Nothing! And I hope that soon I'll be able to look down and actually have a body part back. I'm looking forward to seeing the end result. Scary stuff! I think you ladies are very very strong! I am not with my DH everyday. I am alone a lot and I still take care of a 4 bedroom house and two larger dogs. I'll get my Grand puppy again more when the weather is better. Not to walk a horse through the mud! He loves the snow. It was something else to see! I'm am so glad to see you here. When you're gone. I worry my sweet friend. Hugs to you darling ~M~0 -
Minnie~ Hi darling! How is your hip today?. Been thinking about you! Hoping maybe it was just a stubborn flare up. Scotland wow! Spain, Ireland, Scotland. So amazing to have a friend across the world, and care so much. It's a very interesting thing we've done! Built a great group of us! I trust that you are correct when you talk about grandchildren to love. I am sure the switch would flip, and I would be hooked at first sight!!! How could I not be. But maybe you're right. They aren't ready... so I'm of course not either. The wedding is exciting me. I have all the decorations done and finished! I almost can't wait!!! Wish there would be a table just for my MBC sisters! ❤️ Love ~M~
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Lynne(Man)~ thanks for the shoes comment. I do really love them! I am glad you're getting a break from your chemo, it's like sometimes our bodies can only take so much. I'm astonished you're able to tolerate that many. I had nine Abraxane and I had had it! You're very strong! Glad you had some good time with some family. For me that is the best medicine. Hugs to you ~M~
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Mae~ been thinking about your MRI Tuesday and will be sending you thoughts constantly!
Magda~ everything ok honey!!
Lynnwood~ haven't seen you. Hoping your ok honey! Sending hugs.
Chicagoan~ how are things sweetheart ?? Haven't seen you either.
Hi GP... Hello Boo!!
Hello~Runor.... hope everyone is doing well!!
Haven't seen Divine either!! Hugs ladies. You know I'm a worrier! 🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🦋🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐💐🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🕊🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌻🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌼🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞🌞☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️☘️🍀🍀⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈⛈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
Sorry I got carried away... can you tell I really would like spring ? I am not enjoying the dirty black/yellow snow laying all around. Much love ~M~
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Thanks ladies! Ugh, I hate IV’s. I’ll get results on Wednesday, like I said before, not too worried but you never know. I noticed some sinus pressure tonight, so naturally I’m thinking it may be growing again or that new spots are popping up everywhere. Well, it’ll be one or the other....
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Big huge group hug around you Mae!!! We are with you! Much love ~M~
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Hi Mic, since you asked, I’ve been in the hospital since early Friday. Ran a fever. Long story short, rare se of gemzar. See Loverly a Sas’ post son insomniac thread. House will close tomorrow, remotely. Don’t know when I can go home, Wednesday or Thursday. Was actually in icu until this morning. Got a unit of blood today. Very tired, tryin to keep everything running and everyone up to date. Love to all.
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