My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Kust thought I’d let you all know I’m entering hospice tomorrow. The xeloda never even slowed the cancer down. Nothing has for the whole two years. It just is what it is.
All is well with my soul and I will be leaving in complete peace. God bless you all and keep you
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Gracie
God bless you too dear sister. Gentle hugs and prayers.
Tanya
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fuck.... 😭 Gracie, I’m happy that you are at peace but this update is devastating. I don’t know what to say other than noooooo... this is not happening. 🤬
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Gracie, it seems impossible to comprehend, especially in such a short two years.. Post as much as you can, please. Are you on Hospice in your home? You'll be in my prayers daily. 💞
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I haven't been around today. I'm kinda shock sitting and starring anywhere my eyes fall. I am gutted. Just plain raw with guttural emotion. Gracie is my very first friend on this website. Her and Dianarose. I remember speaking about the lymphadeama machine and that was it. Fast friends. I'm sickened and mad. Mad as hell. I am numb and I feel like beating on something until things go back to being good again. I know you are at peace with your feelings and I respect that about you and always have. I adore you. I love you. My sweet beautiful friend. I am struggling seriously. Your sweet children have my thoughts and heart as well. Words just can't do enough for how Ihave grown to feel about you. Always in your pocket. Forever 😢😭💔
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Peace and god be with you, Gracie.
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Gracie, I am happy you are at peace and in a good place, considering the terrible circumstances. I am sad to hear the news and wish it weren't the case. You will be in my prayers.
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Gracie, I'm sending love and hope for peace and good days as you enter hospice. xoxo
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Gracie, Praying for comfort and continued peace for you.
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Gracie, we're so sorry to hear such unwelcome news... The Breastcancer.org team is sending you warm thoughts, love and peace.
Sincerely,
The Mods
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Go in peace, Gracie. May you feel surrounded by love as you leave this life to what is next.
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Go in peace, Gracie. Prayers for a easy homegoing.
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gloomy, sad, painful afternoon. Don't even know what to even do with my thoughts... I feel helpless for us all, who will someday have to compose that post. I want to run by her side. But find it even difficult to walk somedays. Life is so filled with beautiful things. Why must there be just as much if not more evil?
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Gracie,
My thoughts are with you today. Hoping you feel the love from all of us here.
Micmel,
I’m sorry for your pain. There’s no comforting answer to losing our friends or family to disease. Hoping you feel the love from all of us here too.
When my mom was in hospice about 5 years ago I learned a lot from one of the nurses who took care of her. She felt she was there to provide a service to the dying and to their families, to make the dying process as good as it could be for everyone. She said she viewed dying as a part of life, and she felt honored to help people at the end. It gave me a different perspective, that although families and friends are sad to lose their loved ones, it’s not unnatural for them to die. We are all going to die some day, some way.
Losing loved ones at young or youngish ages does seem unnatural though, especially when they were dealt awful diseases. That’s where our sadness and anger come in, understandably.
There’s a quote or maybe a song that says something like “Don't be sad that I’m gone, be happy that I was here.” I love that. I still think of my mom every day, but in a good way, not a sad way.
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Gracie, sending Gods love. We will all meet again. Rest easy my friend'"
Gentle hugs xxxx
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Minnie~I honestly hope that when you say we will all meet again, I really want that to be the truth. I went through my life la la la la. Doing my own thing. Clueless to disease period. I had lost an aunt when I was 25.....to lung cancer. She did smoke. A lot. I loved her so much and it was my first look at painful loss. I used to have dinner at her house every single Sunday night with family. She was so. Sweet to me and I remember her like it was yesterday. I was naive to death period. I wish our culture would prepare us for death like they prepare us tobe mean to each other .
Losing my Dad in May was the first time it was someone in my family. In June 2018, a young woman that my son dated in his junior year was murdered horribly. It rocked our entire community. Things like that do no happen where we live. I am sure you can all relate. This beautiful young woman. Beaten severely, so badly that they wouldn't even allow her mother to view the body. Friday morning it hit all over the news here. They finally got him and arrested him almost to the day of her murder. We were all so happy for justice finally. It turns out they had been building and air tight case against him. He was already in jail for unrelated things and ran a sting from within the jail. He got to comfortable and started to run his mouth about how he got away with killing this beautiful blonde.... they nailed him to the wall and he is going right to trial. So I wanted to share some good news. Some justice has been served. Finally.
Now if they can find a cure. ~M~
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Gumdoctor, I am sorry to learn of your progression and hope the best for you.
Gracie, it’s hard to know what to say of your news that you will be going into hospice, it is hard to hear, but my thoughts are with you.
Rosie, thanks for sharing your hospice insights, they are helpful.
Micmel, I remember that tragedy in your community, something like that casts a long shadow over the people who live there. At least the one who did it has now been charged, but it is an event no one in your town will forget.
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dear Gracie,
My heart is with you friend. You are loved and you are always here with us, no matter what. If you are feeling up to it, please check in. We are sisters and brothers in the madness and beauty of life and we are all holding one another’s hand.
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Hi Micmel, just dropping in to say hello. I also want to thank you for allowing us to journey with you these past 2+ years as we read about your life, your struggles, your joys.. You and I started out about the same time and I like to keep track of my 2016 peers.
Graciem2007, I hope you can enjoy every single day. You seem like a person full of love for your family and I bet they will be right with you telling you of their vacation and new job stories.
A new chapter for you and you will handle it with "Grace"!
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Here’s a photo of some of the daylilies in my yard. They’re very abundant this year.
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Divine~ what lovely pics of gorgeous flowers. We needed something beautiful to look at. I didn't hear from Gracie today., I am sure she is settling into her care to relieve her pain and keep her leveled out with her pain.
My nephew got married this weekend in Cape May NJ. I would have loved to have gone. I'm seeing pictures of it. Now and she did wear the dress I saved for 22 years to the rehearsal dinner , with the sandals. (My great neice)We bought her. It made me feel like I was there. I contributed the center cylinders for the beachy look! They were pretty. I just wish I wasn't sick. Cancer sucks! Sometimes not a thing makes a damn bit of sense.....
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These are the same cylinders that we used for my DD’s reception. It made me feel like I could contribute to the wedding without my being there. It makes me smile when see ways of doing things by helping. Sharing. I have always loved my nephew. So it’s fitting that they would be used for his wedding. I adore him so much. My little Great niece wore the sandals that my DH and I bought her to the wedding and the rehearsal, another small happiness! Gotta pic small the Small things out!!
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Little flower girl in action!0 -
Sandi~I always love to see you here as well. It’s nice to have people to share this with. Like we’ve said millions of times. No one understands like we do. Gn ladies. I’m hooked on a new show. The Handmaid Tales wow! Fantastic series for sure. Takes my mind off things. Which I what I need right now
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Heartbroken to hear Gracie's news....just heartbroken.
Angie (masonsmawmaw)
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Micmel, what lovely photos from the wedding festivities. I love the tablescapes, very elegant. Your great niece looks absolutely beautiful and seems like she really enjoyed the event. Honestly, I think she resembles you quite a bit!
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Divine, funny, I thought the same about the resemblance, I even went back some posts to see the exact relation, strong family features.
Busy week ahead for me, today is treatment (Herceptin & Perjeta) and Xgeva, tomorrow is a follow up (post gamma rads) MRI, Wednesday we get results, then drive a few hours to spend the holiday with friends at the river, Thursday we float the river and finally on Friday we drive back to join another couple for a beach day. Whew....
I’ll be posting river pics for sure 😀
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The grandkids arrived yesterday 5 of them ages 7-17 to visit with us and the 5grands across the street ages 11-19. We leave today for Orlando I’m looking forward to maid service lol. It’s only a week but we’ll cook out swim and do some other kid friendly stuff. My niece and her family will meet us in Orlando. Take care all.
Tanya
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Gracie, thank you for sharing that you are entering hospice care, and I'm so glad you are at peace with all this. You are teaching us. I hope you will post here when you can. Are you at your home or in a hospice facility? My prayers for you are for no pain and continued peace.
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