My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Lynnwood~I was in on the idea and he showed me the ring months before she got it Christmas Day! She cried and it was special. She is beautiful inside and out and has such a great sense of humor. They both make me laugh. There is also nothing like your children's laughter. No matter how old they really get! Stay warm please. It's freezing, my DH just went to start his car and nothing. Too cold. I told him. He has to stay and not leave to go back out of State for work. Ugh! Coldd!! Hugs ~M~
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Belated happy birthday Grannax. Micmel, beautiful daughter, we wish for nothing more than our children to be happy and healthy. Amazed by all you ladies that know the same places, guess you are all In the same sort of area? I suppose we celebrated new year here in Spain a few hours before you. 9 hours before my daughter in BC, Canada and one hour before my eldest daughter and the rest of my family. I should have scan either before 12th or after 24th as going to be in Ireland between those dates. Big 60 on 23rd, and hoping for a few more birthdays. DH and I have had a good talk and I think better understand each other's thoughts, so thank you lovely ladies for advice, as always it helps me to see things from another's view. Here's to 2018, going,to persuade DH gently to lose a few pounds while I try to put some on! Bed early, as managed to see in new year and up till 2am xx
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I had something written and I lost it. Ugh! I don't like it when that happens! Annoying ! I was in on the plan, and he showed it to me way before he wrapped it in like 5 different shaped boxes and had her on a scavenger hunt! It was adorable. Of course when she cry's. I cry. It was a heartfelt moment because my DH got me a wedding band. So we had a really nice time. I just pray to have us all remain stable and hear the words remission. I have to have blood work in February, but that is my next doctor related issue, then to see the onc a week later. The problem I have, is the longer I don't go to the doctors, the more I get used to NOT going and makes me hate going even more it seems. I just want to leave the cancer all behind me and look towards loving this beautiful man, my DH. That's all I really want. It breaks my heart every time he has to leave again to go back to work out of state. I truly hate that as well. Hope everyone is staying warm!! Let the New Year, Be our year! Let every year become our years. From now on! Hugs to all! ~M~
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Minnie~Happy New Year to you beautiful! DH and Iwere up until close to 1:00 ourselves. But now he's driving three hours back to our other house south! I know where Lynnwood was talking about because the jersey shore is where most people that are from NJ,DE,PA and actually all over the Midwest even come to the NJ beaches. Ocean city NJ is where my family went when my kids were kids because, that ocean town doesnt allow alcohol and it was a calmer place to go with little ones. Wild wood was named Wildwood for a reason, back then. Now I think it's a nice mix of families and the Young kids still love the boardwalk, I would go to that beach, just for that. Awesome and fun. Shopping galore, food to make you fat lol funnel cakes, French fries, pizza, you name it, it's there! Salt water taffy!! Rides of all kinds! Fun place and a flash back to child hood!! I would love a walk in the not so hot sun! Hugs to all ~M~
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Micmel, beautiful picture. It warms my heart. She is pretty , happy and that is all we mothers need.
I hope you will fill better soon form the cold . Hugs and love
Elena
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blueshine~Thank you very much! It warms my heart also to share one of my most precious people in my life. Which is my daughter. She's funny,silly and loves dogs also! I just want her to be independent and able to provide for her own self and family if need be. Our mothers job as worriers is never done! Thank you for the sweet kind words! Big hugs! Much love ~M~
What’s beautiful name Elena...
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Gracie~ hope all has calmed down about your ibrance taste. Hopefully taking it with Gatorade will help. Next, around the second week, your mouth may get sore, mine did! Yogurt helped for breakfast and I used Biotine mouth wash. It adds moisture to your mouth. All the medicines we take dry our mouth out. My sores varies every month! I am just ending my 14th month. I found swishing with the biotine mouthwash as much as needed helped me! No tomato sauces and watch certain toothpastes, they can burn also. I use toms toothpaste and it helps. I bruise very easily, am tired a lot. But once you get your routine down with a few months, you'll start to see the patterns form for you. Like the last week my scalp hurts a little in the very back! Everyone is different. But I know the mouth issue sucks. They may offer you magic mouthwash, I tried it and hated it. It numbed my mouth for 5 minutes and I drooled the entire time and couldn't swallow well because my throat was a little numb from it slipping down there. For me it was the biotine! Thinking of you sweetheart! ~M~
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Lynne, enjoy Bretton Woods. I only skied there once, a long time ago. It was raining, and I hadn't skied in 7 years (due to being either pregnant, or having babies at home. I made one run down, and I was done. My husband skied the whole day, while I stayed in the lodge. I stopped skiing altogether about 10 years ago. My husband still skis, of course he started at 7, and I started at 17. Our kids all ski, and a couple snowboard too. Although, just the girls still do it now. The boys have no interest. We are up in Laconia at our timeshare. We got her on Fri, and have it until Fri. My husband is going to commute to work from here starting tomorrow. Of course, he has to be a mile from our house at 7am in the morning. I'll stay here and read, watch tv, or be on the computer (just like at home) but mostly, just enjoy the quiet. I have chemo again on Friday, so Bryan will be picking me up after work on Thursday night (so I don't have to get up at 4am to leave Fri morning). Our daughters, son-in-law, and grandsons came up on Sat. They all went in the indoor pools and went on the water slides while I watched through windows, from a sitting area, outside the pool. My white cell counts were down (my blood work/oncologist appointment was Fri), so I stayed away from all those kids in the pool. It was packed with people. I don't know what to do with my bald head either. I could where a bandana, I suppose. My husband says to go without anything. I really don't think I can do that. I do it at home all the time. As soon as I come in the door off it goes, my younger grandson wanted a "haircut" like Nana. It's short but not just a little fuzz like mine, thankfully! We watch the Patriots every game (I record them if I know we won't be home). That game looked very cold, but this weeks looked freezing. I don't know how the people in the stands could stand it! Good for your granddaughter for hanging in there! Yes, there has been way too many nail biters! Good luck on your scans! I'm do again in Feb.
Mel, my son Bryan Jr is 31 (32 in April), my daughter Christiana is 30 (31 in August), my daughter Lindsay is 27 (28 in March), and my son Kevin is 22 (23 in July).
Weather here is brutally cold right now. Single digits with wind chills in the negative numbers. It's supposed to be like this all week (aside from Thursday, when it will be a little warmer and will snow). Schools are all having 2 hour delays tomorrow, when the kids go back to school, because of the freezing temps.
I hope all of you have a very Happy and Healthy New Year!!
Lynne
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Lynne(Man)hi sweetheart Happy New Year my friend. I know that they have really thin turban style hats that I wore when I was in the bathroom after the shower. From the pics I've seen, you could definitely rock any headwear. I am so happy you're enjoying your time share. That sounds exciting. The skiing incident sounds exactly like mine. I rolled down the hill and almost-broke my entire skeletal system! Never again.....and I am very...or was very athletic...just didn't have it in me to ski! I would be right by your side watching everyone in the indoor pool! My one boob may freak everyone out, just not ready for that action yet. I did however do my hair this week! I was so pleased with it. It's shorter of course but my style is there. It's coming back finally the way I want it too! It makes me feel better, but one mention of a doctors appointment or my next blood work and I worm hole. But then, I think of you,my second family and I know we can get through these months of chemo, scans, bloodwork, you name it. I adore you all.
I had such an amazing time with my DH for Christmas. I love him more than even the word love would even do justice for him. He's is the air I breathe and the reason I will fight till my dying breath. I was sick this weekend, so we are sooo used to being affectionate and it was like two kids that were back in school days, pinching, tickels. Laughter,smiles and just pure gentle love and affection. I would do anything for this man I have been blessed with. I want so many more years to look at his handsome face. And hear that voice that is like water to me. I have to have it. It was a beautiful Christmas 🎄 I hope you all had your reflections moments.....because I certainly did. Much love to all. ~M~
Nan~~~ officially scared.
Keetmom~~hope all is ok
NKB~ been a while
Leapfrog~hope all is well with your new digs!
Claudia~Anastasia keeping you busy huh! ❤️
MJH~ keeping you in thought and your daughter
Grannax❤️To you for being you!
Minnie~ goodnight darling!
Hugs to anyone else I forgot.
Blueshine~ you too ! Waving hello
Tanya~ Of course.
Mae~ hugs and safe travels. Wonder where next?!!
Chelle~ miss you darling !
Much love ~M~.
Can anyone read what that says below!? In that new add? Edited to add;; yesterday the last add below this thread was written in spanish and I couldn’t read it, so I was just wondering if anyone else could! Now today its back in English! Thanks
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Micmel, your Daughter is just gorgeous. Thank you for sharing pictures. I’m still having some funny taste in my mouth but today my mouth started getting sore, I don’t know if it’s too soon for that or if it’s just all in my head. But I’ll call the MO Tomorrow and ask about it. Other than that I’m not feeling too bad but then I’ve only taken it for two days. I guess time will tell. Hope you’re doing well and that you had a wonderful New Year’s. Sending you lots of good wishes and hugs!
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Gracie~Hello sweetheart~ thank you for the comment about my daughter. Thank you. As I have said, she is a princess without a country. But I do love her very much. Sometimes though girls can be crabbie and guys can be grumpy. My son is the size of a football player. He's just like his mama, doesn't like his picture taken.
I don't think anything is in your mind Gracie, some people just have different reactions to it. Just make sure you're taking it with enough food. You don't want the heartburn. Maybe try The gaviscon. It worked for not not only for the goofy taste, but if you coat your entire esophagus with the gaviscon first drink ot of fluids and then take the ibrance. Try any trick, just gotta find out what works for you. In the first few months, the side effects change each month a little until your body reaches the high point of it getting used to having the medication in your system at a certain level monthly, it seems to improve. But I swear by biotine for the sore mouth! Get it now, so it won't get worse and use it everyday. It helps me, because sometimes the mouth pain feels like you ate some hotpizza badly! That's how mine felt. Big hugs my friend. Always here as you know!!! If I could only get Dianarose here! Much love ~M~
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Mae- looks like you are having a wonderful trip! The Grand Canyon is on my bucket list. My husband asked me if I wanted the Grand Canyon or Disney with the kids and grandkids (maybe my Mom) this year. Of course I said Disney. Hopefully, next year (or maybe the fall...). He's like you, it's just a hole in the ground, but I still want to see it in person.
mel-Beautiful pic of your daughter and her boyfriend! I hope you are feeling better!h
Grannx- I get the birthday thing. Mine was the 21st. My sister came home for the hospital on my 1st birthday, she's the 17th. We're Irish twins, same age for 4 days! Always got jipped. "Here's your birthday/Christmas present". Happy Belated birthday to you!
Lynne-We get up to the lakes region at least once during the summer. We rent a place for a week (it was Newfound for 10 years, my favorite lake. Last year we tried Winni, the place was nice, but the beach wasn't as nice), and bring the 40 yr old boat up. I can still pull tubers. It's not pretty to look at though! Our timeshare is only good for one week (we can even split the week) before Memorial day and after Labor Day (we couldn't afford the year round one 20 years ago). We used to bank it, and go elsewhere, but it still costs us $300 to exchange it, so now we try to go Christmas week, so the grandkids can come up and stay. We can use the pools (and the water slides) anytime though.
Another deep freeze day. I'm enjoying my time alone today. My husband will return this evening (commuting to work from here, of course this morning started a mile from home). It's supposed warm up tomorrow, in the 20's. Thursday, depending on the storm track, we will either get a trace or get swamped with snow! I hope it's the latter! If not, I'll be coming home Wed night instead of Thurs night!
Stay warm everyone!
Lynne
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Lynne(Man)~Ehh I guess it's just my turn to get that dreaded cold. I just am worried it's settling in my ear! I cannot be sick this weekend. I have to travel with my kids to Maryland for my DSS's eagle court of honor! I am to receive a mentor pin from him. I need to be there for our family. My DH was involved with the entire process. He was Cub Scout master. And then became scout master for the troop. When he was done his tenure as scout master, the troop had grown from 21 kids to 69 in the years he was leader! He did so well, the actual scout leaders committee wanted him to teach other leaders his ways! He just wanted To get his son through! That is exactly what he did. I'm so proud of both. Great young man and exceptional father, person, and man. I adore them both greatly. So that's why I can't be sick. If I am completely honest. I don't like to travel. Especially when the weather is supposed to be a hugh of like nine. Seriously ridiculous!
Lynne(man) or 50's I honestly don't know how you could do it. I would freeze like a block! I hope the break comes soon! This early, this cold. What does that say about the next few winter months! Ugh! Stay warm! Stay safe. Don't catch this cold. I know you just got over being sick. It makes the cancer so much worse. Fatigue. Sucks! Hugs ~M~
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Happy New Year All
I've been doing too much and wearing myself out. I hope everyone had a good start to the year. I took tamaflu for five days because I had the sniffles, I also ate fists full of vitamins, soup, juice etc. I didn't get the flu and sniffles and coughing has subsided. I know some of you have scans next week. I pray they all go well. When I go to the DR tomorrow I guess we'll talk about scans my last one was in October. Does that sound about right?
I went to the movies with my brother and grand son last night and saw Jumanji. It was entertaining and light. My grand son saw the original one and provided me with some details that only fans would know.
Have a good evening all.
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Tanya~Hi darling~. I know exactly what you mean. I think I feel exactly the same way. I have been doing too much. Way to much. I sleep well though. I have to say. Thank goodness. But I honestly can sleep 12 hours with out blinking. This cold weather has me miserable. I don't want to go outside. It's just too damn cold. I don't want nineteen layers. Hell I hate even having to wear gloves. I guess I picked the wrong state. I even heard on the weather that there is snow coming to Florida. What?? I don't know what area. But did you get that. Considering that's where you are ?!! Please get some rest and hopefully we will both feel better, my entire house is sick. I knew it was only a matter of time. Especially once this is my last few pills on my 14 month of ibrance! My blood is tanking! Happens every end of month. I don't have to have blood work until February! I'll take it. I'm thinking of you and everyone else having results and any scans. Lean on us. We all understand. Much love to you friend!
Claudia!? Have you heard that darling ? Anything about snow. ? I miss you. I hope youre doing well with the new baby Anastasia in the house. I miss seeing your beautiful face here! Hugs. ~M~
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I am not sure why today seems so hard for me. Maybe it's because my ear is full of fluid because everyone in my close proximity is sick with a cold. My son has a double ear infection with bronchitis, and my daughter and significant other have the cold and throat cold. Now DH feels badly because he took care of me this weekend. Not fair! But some days I just can't seem to accept that I have cancer. I must have had it in my body for a long time for it to be into my bones also. How did I not know ? Why didn't blood work show it? I had blood tests they checked everything at a physical! Full panel. None of this makes sense still. I can't understand for one second. Here I sit, I can't accept it. I should have known, before the lump. That they said was a cyst. Two different doctors. Oh you're so young. They said. Why are so many young women getting diagnosed with cancer more and more. These boards are packed with. Young women. I don't understand any of it. I am sure none of you do either. I had to vent. Today is an emotional day....I don't like having my DH leave to go back to work after having the holidays together. Sometimes life is a greatest joy and others just living it is just like a job! I worry for my kids. This world is ugly sometimes. Costs are ridiculous, everything is just becoming so shitty. No where is really safe anymore, it just sucks!! You try your best in life and then you hear those three words....you have cancer. And on we go.
Tough days are tough. But much love ~M~
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Hi all, next was Carlsbad caverns but it was closed on New Year’s Day so we drove straight home, arrived at 2am and slept in until 11. Cleaned the bus and did 8 loads of laundry (bus bedding for 12 bunks), then had dinner and drinks with some MDA girls (all Stage IV, ages 38-43), good times. Off to bed now, more cleaning tomorrow andback to work on Thursday.
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Mae~ welcome back honey! you have had a whirlwind of travel, in a week. That is amazing. I would love nothing more than. To sit down to a huge seafood feast with those I love. This Christmas was wonderful. Even if you don't celebrate Christmas per say. I just hope the time we all spent with our loved ones was amazing!!My DH gave me a 10 puzzle piece set. Thomas kinkade. And Iove them! Can't get enough. They are so entertaining, hours seem to fly by!! Welcome home. And so glad you're safe! Much love ~M~
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I just read that there will be a big little lies TWO great HBO show recommend it highly ! Great cast, great storyline. If you haven't seen it. Watch it, you won't be disappointed at all. DH and I loved it and my DD also and her significant other as well. Won. Lots of awards.
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.......my DH said that to me. And many things like it. Sometimes love is the only reason I want to fight thisawful disease. But if we think about it. Even if we gave up and don't take the treatment, it would be still nothing but pain and suffering, because that is what cancer is. So love that person in your life hard, and every possible second !~M~0 -
micmel. Wear a mask for the Eagle Scout celebration, just take it off for pics. I know how it feels to have to travel when you feel horrible, but this is something so important to your family. Don't try to do everything, just the very important things.
I had my first ear infection about two years ago. I thought that was really odd, at age 68. I assume you are on antibiotics and mucinex?
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Hi all, decompressing after the holidays. We host a huge open house/cribbage tournament every New Years' Day, which is a lot of fun, but wipes me out! I made a gargantuan kettle of chili, vegetarian chili, giant broccoli salad, cornbread, huge platter of cookies. Everyone brings something to share also. It is in honor of my Dad who died 10 years ago on Dec. 21st. Of course, he loved to play cribbage.
My grandson went back to school yesterday also. I stayed in my pajamas all day and was hardly capable of making a sentence! Feeling better today. Bracing for another big snowstorm tomorrow.
Now the dreaded task of taking down Christmas........ Sooo much more fun to put up!
Hope you all are soldiering on and may the force always be with....MJH
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Grannax~Actually that is exactly what I am on. I don't usually get ear aches either. My son has a double one and I know he said his head feels full and achy like mine does. I have to go down to a doctors appointment today an hour away, I have no choice, my mouth guard that I sleep with nightly, is cracking and I don't understand why! I had my last one for 8 years. No problems. This one sucks. Discolored and cracking in three places. I paid over $600 for this. Special made. Because I have a pretty severe case of TMJ, I have to have this to even sleep, so thank Goodness it has a five year guarantee! It's only been a year in October. Annoying. But so happy I can have a new mold made and that is what has to be done today. I am also stopping at the mall. Yeah bad place for me. Once in a while I love the mall. But I have to find something to wear to the Eagle Scout celebration. Since I have changed so much, they may tell me th old folks Home is down the street on the left lol I just can't be sick. I called the doctor. Usually they issue the medicine immediately, I have some stashed for emergencies as usual! Thanks for the tips. Much love ~M~
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MJH~
at the the thought of even taking one decoration down. I hate this freezing weather and I am not doing anything I don't have to do. It really sucks. I'll take 65 degrees and no breeze and sunshine any day over this crap! Sorry you're so worn out. I think we all can agree. The holidays wear you out. For you it even sounds like New Years wears you out. Hugs to you my friend. ~M~0 -
It is snowing in Florida! Ha! The temperature here is 36, but the real feel is 27! It has been raining since 2a.m. and not expected to quit until around 2p.m. today. Parts of the10 and 95 are closed due to snow and ice. Lots of major surface roads with bridges are closed due to ice. FHP had asked people to please stay home as roads are treacherous, for Florida, for you guys, its a cakewalk. The low tonight is supposed to be 27. I could complain, but I decided to be grateful for 3 nights of a hard freeze will cut down on our over abundant mosquito population, which has become so bad from a combination of no freezes for 2 years and the 2 hurricanes and nor'easter we had blow through. One before Irma and one after Irma. We are so saturated here, that we need a good drought, to dry us back to normal. The weather has been insane, the past couple of years, and the bugs have gotten completely out of control. On the negative side of this arctic blast, its been raining for hours and I have water in my barn again. Thankfully, the stalls are dry!
Claudia
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Micmel sorry you're having a rough day today. Its 43 in Tampa and rainy. I know it doesn't compare to the ice and snow but take comfort that we're not all sunshine sparkles and unicorns over here.
I promised my grandson that we would pull the carpet out of the back bedroom. We did it in two days. He was such a good worker. taped and tied the carpet, hammer and flat screw drivered all the wood around the edges, swept clean and he's only 9! Took all that junk out to the curb and the next day he also helped me clean out his moms family van. Today I dropped him off at school and he was coughing his head off but wanted to go just the same.
Mae You Are Amazing. You work hard and then you have a job too. Takes my breath away.
Well off to get my blood work done. I think I'm going to have the conversation about the port today. I only have one good vein in my arm. I don't want the hand veins used, too painful. Last two weeks I've had to have multiple sticks. Only one phlebotomist can get me in one stick I hope he's in today.
Take Care, Stay warm
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I wish it were snowing here. We haven’t had an measurable moisture since the last week of October!!! Everything is dying in the ground!!!!
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Gracie, I wish I could send you lots of rain! We are so saturated here, it is awful. We have no where for it to go. The back of our property is a swamp! The only positive thing about that is We have had Blue Heron back there and some other big cranes, but honestly we have not been able to bushog since last spring. When it gets this wet, we have to worry about water moccasins, pygmy rattles and other venemous snakes. They terrify me and I worry about the horses and the dogs! Those Water Moccasins are fearless! They will come after you, when most snakes will run away!
Then there are the mice and rats and bugs, that look for a warm, dry spot. Ugh! Sigh...
How long does this cold last? I have been sick since last Wednesday! When Dh comes home and finds me still sick, he is going to personally drag me to Dr. He wanted me to go yesterday and I refused. I don't have a fever, clear nasal discharge, when it discharges, mostly it is stuck in my head. Some coughing, not terrible, some scratchy throat, mostly from mouth breathing. I figured it would resolve on its own. I have been drinking, eating healthy and resting, but I am no better than last week. Tired of it. I can't take antihistamines. Never have been able to. Sigh...
I hope everyone feels better soon!
Hugs,
Claudia
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Claudia and Tanya-enjoy the snow and cold temps, I'm sure it will be warmer soon, and you'll back to where you should be. It was -6 here this morning (warmer than it's been in a week), and is now in the low 20's, snow here to-morrow 4-10 inches with hurricane winds in the afternoon. Back to the deep freeze again for the weekend though.
Mel-I hope you feel better soon and can enjoy your son's ceremony. My older son made it through Cub Scouts with my husband pushing him, but he didn't want to do boy scouts with our neighbor across the street son (who became an eagle scout). Later after another of his childhood friends joined as a first time scout, he wanted to join. They had already been in scouts for 2 years. My husband said no, he had too much to make up. All of our kids were scouts. Our youngest only lasted a couple of years in cubs,but our girls were in through 7th and 10th grades. Now our grandkids are all scouts.
Here is our family Christmas card that I don't think I posted. We've taken one every years since Bryan Jr was born (except on year, and boy did we hear from everyone!). It was taken on Thanksgiving day by our youngest's (Kevin) girlfriend who visits us every year. It was cold (but not this cold) that day and I remembered to take the pumpkins off the steps, but forgot to take the Indian corn off the door! LOL
Starting from the top, Me (with my "Dolly-Farrah" wig on, my husband Bryan, 2nd row, Kevin and our 3 grandkids Aiden (5, Lindsay's), Ryleigh (8, Bryan Jr's), and Matthew (6 1/2, Lindsay's), 3rd row, Christiana, our son-in-law Nicholas (Lindsay's), Lindsay, and Bryan Jr (I hate that Nick and Bryan aren't smiling, they both have great smiles!).
Hope those of you who aren't feeling well, feel better soon, and those of you coming up for scans and bloodwork, get
great results! Chemo for me on Friday (if the white cells are up that is!).
Lynne
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Tanya~ thank you for your support. Goodness knows we all have bad days! I just had a nice lunch with my son at red lobster and we talked and laughed a bit about of everything ! It was nice just to look at him and see his beautiful blue eyes. We live for our families. I know it's beyond freezing. And snow in Florida what!??? What the heck. Crazy weather.! Sounds like your grand son is a hard worker, at nine good things to teach him. Women find that attractive!! What a good young man ! Much love ~M~
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