My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer
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Lynne, your family is beautiful! I wouldn't know that was a wig unless you told us, it looks great! It's always nice to get everyone in one photo, it's hard to do here at times due to work schedules. I love photographs and have tons of pictures displayed of my family. When people tease me about it I say who else would I want to look at??
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Lynne(man) - That is a wonderful picture and family you have there! Thanks for sharing!
Micmel - I am glad that your day got better! This stupid cold is bringing me down today, I am tired of it. I have not been going anywhere because I don't want to spread it around. No yoga since before Christmas. That is not a good thing.
I have sad news. Anastasia, who is the smartest dog we have ever had, had to go back to the breeder. She was great and we loved her, but she would not stop terrorizing Skittles. She was so obedient to everything else, but we could not get her to stop. He was a moving play toy to her and he was living in constant fear. He stopped eating, playing and going to the barn with us. It was an incredibly difficult decision for us, but we felt like we had to give Skittles back his safe house. Within 30 minutes of her leaving, he was back to his old self. So I have been a little sad for the past couple of days, but I do know that we made the right decision.
I feel like I have been gone forever from here! So much happening! I am thinking of all who are having scans this month. I am praying that 2018 is going to be a great year for all of us.
Claudia
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A big day today for the little man!
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Lynne~(Man) I happen to like your dolly wig. I think you're beautiful, and you do have a beautiful family. I love the outdoors picture and having everyone show up for the actual pic. You must have magical powers lol. It's freezing as you have said but um did you say hurricane winds In the winter? What is happening in this crazy world of ours. Florida with snow has to make you scratch your head. Crazy crazy. Please stay warm and I hope your chemo is on for Friday. Don't want you to miss One because of sickness. Not that they are at all enjoyable! But I want that chemo to kick some cancer butt! Much love ~M~
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Claudia~ Hi beautiful! I really hope that none of those snakes come anywhere near you or your puppy or horses. I am sorry you're having such a hard time with this cold also. Mine has settled in my ear and I had some heavy guns phoned in for me. Who feels like going to the doctors. In this rain and and or tundra weather. I am dying to see more pics of your Anastasia!! I think everyone I know is sick, seriously everyone. And it's exactly how you described it Claudia. Sure does linger and It’s annoyingSo glad To see your smiling face here. Big hugs my friend ❣️~M~
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Gracie~ I hope you get at least some snow. Just something to come your way. I don't know what temps you guys have,but out here it's like torture. It's so frozen, that when you breathe your nose hairs freeze. It's physically uncomfortable to be out for more than like 5 mins. Supposed to travel to Maryland this weekend. Saturday night low. -1. Who are we elves at the North Pole? I mean I do have a very red nose but geeze!! Hope you're adjusting to ibrance well! ❤️To you ! ~M~
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Lynnwood~ I agree! Who else would we want to look at? The fake family that came with the frame ? Duh! I love family photos. My DH has at least over 9 k pics saved with face recognition and folders for them each. It's actually so precious. When my son graduated, he pulled every pic out and we made a memory board for his day. IT was a wonderful thing to share. Time flys. Pictures prove it. Hope you're staying healthy and warm. Much love ~M~
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Claudia~ I am so sorry about Anastasia, but I can understand what you're talking about. We are experiencing this with Chief at his Home now, the other dog who lived there first is a pit bull and she has been showing some of the same signs of not eating and aggression. I know how hard that must have been for you both. Taking on a puppy with MBC is quite a challenge I am sure. Never mind the horses and all the work you deal with. I am very sorry. I hope skittles feels happier for suren. We missed you. And Omg at the little handsome man on his first day of pre kindergarten ! Hold on to that pic because we know how fast that goes wow! Little precious angel cutie pie. Now life begins. School begins the training to being a young man. Apparently, he will be a very cute young man!! ❣️ Hugs to you on this big day! For your daughter also! ~M~
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Our 2 little guys, asleep on the couch last nnight
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Aaaahhh, where did the picture go?
Found it!
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Looks like they feel like they can finally rest. You have had a rough week!! Big hugs to the puppies and you! That's going to be me really soon! I am tired today! But then again, went aren't I? Ugh. Hugs hugs. ~M~
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Mel, today is a bit warmer. This weekend was horrid. Temps of 0 and below, wind chills in the -20 to -25 at night. Worst I’ve seen in a few years, but maybe it killed off some spiders!!!
Hope you get better, please take good care of yourself!
Claudia, I gave up my Shepherd thus fall to my daughter and son in law. It got to the place where I just could not handle him. At 85 lbs he was becoming the boss. He’s happy with them and I can still see him. He also terrorized my cat, who was declawed. Not a good situation. He was just a hair over a year when my kids took him. It’s a difficult decision, I know, but sometimes it’s for the best😊
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I was just hearing how the power companies are stressed beyond capacity, and they are worried about the stress on the generators and power supply grids. That's all we need is to have some communities have rolling black outs. I know my heat is constantly running and I know most homes will have the same happening. Bundle up and stay warm. Even slippers are waiting by my bed. Three blankets. I got my Antibiotics and I am taking them, hope they work soon. Rest well....everyone tonight and feel better to those who are feeling like crapola too!! Much love ~M~
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Yes stay warm! We are better today...only 30 and 18 tonight, so not bad...but that huge storm is moving in on the east coast so everyone stay safe! Hoping the power companies will be prepared and keep everyone safe in the storm!!!
Mel, get under those covers and rest! Praying you feel much better tomorriw
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I can't believe it's two days before I have to travel three hours one way to go to Maryland! I have been wanting to do this for so long now. But of course I have an ear infection and it's driving me crazy. It's feeling a little better since the medicine, and it doesn't really hurt, just feels full and I Am sure some sinus in there. I am going to grab a blanket and sleep the entire time. I doubt my DS would like that! I never did have any good timing. This cancer thing just doesn't help either. I love to sleep, it's about the the only place I feel freed from worry, the only place where still I can see who I once was, not who I am accepting to be. Since I don't have a choice. Having cancer and being sick just compounds things. Just like stress, stubbing your toe, makes you want to take the tv out. I just feel worn out all the time. No matter what or even how much I sleep. I always want more. Cancer is the strangest thing to begin to explain to someone who doesn't get it. They look at you, you look at you, and wonder. Why did this happen to me? So I'm going to do what I can guarantee I still can do pretty good with theassistance of NyQuil! Good night everyone. Aren't we lucky To have warm, houses to sleep in with blankets and pillows and heat. I feel thankful right now. Even though I have cancer. Good night friends ~M~
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woke up to already more snow, at least 3 inches already and lots of wind delays as school closings are back, none for work though. Like my DD says. Why not delay Work? Safety is safety!! She has a sinus infection and has been playing badminton with this sickness like us all seem to have been doing. I have had enough. I could blow my nose like a ship entering into port. HOONNNKKK! I am not going anywhere today. It's another awfully freezing day outside yet again. Gross. ~M~
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Please stay safe Mel!!!
To all our sisters on the east coast, please take care of yourselves and stay safe. Praying everyone keeps power!!
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Stay safe everyone! It was a balmy 26 here when I woke up. We are supposed to have a high of 41 today and then down to 24 tonight inn NE Florida! At least the sun is shining!
Claudia
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Gracie~Good morning my dear! My ear feels a little better, but every time I say that it starts to feel full again, actually the full feeling is moving to the the other ear. I have-the medicine And am taking it, I just hope I caught it fast enough before I am bed ridden for weeks because of a double ear infection. I have to be at that ceremony. It's just something I have to do , oh and I will do. This weather is actually nuts. Snow bomb cyclone ? Seriously? I am 47 I have never heard of such a thing. I just hope to see 45 Degree weather soon. I haven't seen Chief in a long time and it's making me mad! I need warmer weather please. ?? I said please lol. I look outside and it's a winter wonderland......of hell.
The frozen warlock, has struck!! Again and is to strike again next week! But it's winter! ❄️ ❄️ ❄️ 💨 💨 ⛄️ ⛄️ ❄️ 🌬🌬🌬🌬🌬🌪☄️🎿🛷🛷⛸⛸⛄️⛷⛷❄️💨🌬 not that I would ever be able to ski or sled even. I used to ice skate Well and I loved it, now I'd probably break a hip , or even worse find the only spot that wasn't frozen fully and fall in alone. Sometimes my mind still says “yeah sure you can do this, but when I actually even try to get off the floor, it's like preparing for a wrestling match! Rolling all over like a turtle on its shell. It's those damn hormonals. But what can you do!! We fight on. Freeze our asses off in some place, I would think all this shivering would consist of losing some weight lol. Have a warm day my friends ~M~
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Claudia~Lol at balmy lol I can't believe that Florida even got snow! Crazy crazy crazy. My mom lives in Mississippi and she was complaining about 21 degrees there too. I have no idea what's going on. I don't even want to move outside the house. I started taking down the decorations inside. I'm going to go cabin crazy if I can't get out soon! Lol. My son just took my van....he usually doesn't like to drive it. Not cool vehicle! Until it's snows, then he wants it because it's really good in the snow! I would say about three inches of snow already! Which isn’t much but it’s the wind whipping I hope it stops soon because this really sucks !! Much love ~M~
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It starts to look deep in the field, but then the wind is making it drift. Around the hills and bases of the fences. The dogs love it that's for sure !!! It's a snow filled wind that twists and turns. Freezing has a new meaning to me this winter lol. My poor heater is coughing downstairs. ! I hope it's not catching this viscous cold too lol yikes. Much love ~M~0 -
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The weather is great here in NH, too.
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Lynne(50's)~ that is a beautiful dog, omg beautiful! I love dogs so much. Mine seem to like the snow. But I just want them to do their business and come inside. The view out the window is lovely. Looks like a lovely yard for that beautiful dog to pounce around in! I remember the days of needing a swing set. Melts my heart thinking of when the kids were little and would play in the yard! of course a fight would break out lol Have no idea what just happened there with my print. Lol. Keep warm stay safe.
Much love ~M~
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Good morning Lynne NH all Floridians are terrible complainers about any cold. I'm originally from NY lived there up until 11 years ago. My family is still there freezing with you. I remember the fear for us was if we lost electricity from the ice on wires and wind. May God protect you all. We always made the best of it shoveling, sledding, scraping, paying for exorbitant heating oil and electric bills. Your Christmas card is beautiful and even the corn on the door just makes it more memorable for your family. Be safe and warm.
Micmel I'm happy you had that Red Lobster lunch. Sometimes it's just that gesture and family time that makes us perk up. It always warms my heart when family is around.
I got my faslodex shot yesterday, blood work, and zometa. I slept well. Everything seems like it takes a long time anymore. But the RN did the shot and it was warmed in a heating pad and was not painful during or after thank God. My veins are really not happy about all this stuff though. Three sticks for the zometa.
Stay warm with the family love!!!!
Tanya
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Tanya~today for some reason, they forgot about plowing and taking car of the roads here. It's weird. Even a four lane highway is still untouched. I'm baffled. Our neighborhood isn't even moved, one flake! I hope it's all gone before we have to leave for the court of honor. Ugh! I don't even have a clue what I am wearing yet. I have like no shoes. Or pants that even fit. I could go as a fatter woman. Then I once was!! I don't like being in public. I realize this is about my DSS completely. But these people know i have cancer! They are going to be looking at me! 🤭 I guess I'll just get used to it. I'm trying. Stay warm people. Hugs to you Tanya! ~M~
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the plows are here to push back every single thing anyone has shoveled. It's joke. I hate the snow. It's a pain in the rear end and it's freezing out. How can someone even shovel in this freezing wind. I absolutely hope this is no indication of the winter to keep coming. Because that would be awful. Today has been a down day for me. Today for the first time, my DH told me, he was depressed and scared. Usually he's my rock and is always sure and positive and the up beat One who knows I'll be around for years and years! When he said that to me today it shook me. Made it more real. If DH who is the rock, is worried and depressed and sad because I got sick. How can I help him? If I can't get over what happened to me? How can I help him. ? I want to help him. I want to go back to the way things were also. I desperately want that. I want two boobs again. I want to feel like a real woman again I was happy with who I was. Why did this happen to me.....? Why did this happen to us? Makes me so mad And so sad there are no words. Nothing could explain the sorrow or pain inside that comes with this awful disease. It's more than one can bare sometimes. More than someone should bare.Please keep warm and safe everyone. ~M~
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Weather is cold here.....hasn't been above 15 in 2 weeks...usually single digits..
We are discussing getting a dog here..we would want it trained to be a service dog for Emma...not sure about taking it on but I know it would be good for her..
not much else up, started back in my Stay Strong this week, really thinking I dont want to keep it up...hate being around those who are cured knowing I will never be...and they had us work out in the main fitness center cant be around all those people who are in such good shape...cause Im not, came home depressed last time...that isnt right...0 -
Keetmom~ I would feel the same way! That is the main reason I don't want to go back to my old gym. I don't want to see what I cannot be anymore. I am so sorry that you had to feel that way. I find myself feeling that way quite a lot lately. Part of me wants to see about reconstruction, but my luck something would go wrong and I would have issues. But I want to feel as close to whole as I can ever be again. Is that even possible? But I can never give up that hope that I will be here to love my DH, for years. I can not think any other way. He's my world. I love him. He's so special and kind! I adore all of you ladies as well. Thank you for listening to my rambling! Keetmom. ❣️ Hugs for you. I'm sorry you came back depressed. But I know it well. Boy do I ever! ~M~
Old man winter had his grips on all of us. And the wind is whipping wild here. To even peek your head outside you freeze! Stay warm tonight ladies. And I am thinking about alll the people who have to work outside in this freezing weather. Hope you have warm liquids! 🧤 warm 🧢 🧣 💨 ❄️ 🧦🧣🧤 🧦🧥🧥🧦🌨☕️☕️🍵🍵!! Sorry. All the icons are so cute lol.
I can’t blame you on wanting a dog. The kids would love i, they are just so much work. They are like babies but they don’t wear diapers. No more family road trips without Kennels. I don’t really care too much now about going anywhere. But you guys sound like you’re always doing something fun!!
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Keetmom, I'm so sorry you were feeling like that. That would be why I do private yoga and yoga with other bc and MBC women. I totally get what you are feeling about the bc'ers! Look I created a new word😄. I am torn between not wanting to tell them that I am MBC, for fear I will bring them down, or take away their hope. Sometimes I want to yell, don't be so smug, I was you 12 years ago. This could be you tomorrow. I know, horribly mean thoughts. I am always ashamed when I think them. Please keep exercising, it is so good for you. You are you, warts and all, and I bet there's a lot going on in their lives you would not want.
I love dogs and think every child should have a dog! Service dogs are phenomenal! My only warning would be, they shed like crazy, meaning lots more vacuuming. They also need to be walked at least 3 times a day.
Micmel, I'm sorry you had a bad day. It is especially hard when our Dh's allow us to see their fear. All you can do is be supportive! I try to do something extra special for him. I also listen calmly to his fears and urge him to do something fun with his friends. I want him to continue living after im gone. We ride with a group that are equal amounts couples, and singles, most because of death of a spouse. I want him to continue riding and living after I'm gone. Its painful, because part of me thinks that the world should stop when I go! I am always shocked when the world keeps revolving after someone I loved dies! Stay strong and have a wonderful time this weekend!!
Hugs and prayers,
Claudia
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