STEAM ROOM FOR ANGER

yep!

Let me know if anyone has gone through this!

I had not been in to get a pap smear in over 3 years, mainly because I moved and needed to find a doctor. I just had my appointment with this great doctor, and some cells were mimicking HPV. I just had the colposcopy on Thursday. She said there were two spots that looked "moderate". She took biopsies and she told me not to worry, there is a very slim chance it will be cervical cancer. I'm still trying not to freak out. I've never had an abnormal pap smear let alone one that was elevated (HPV 16) I made an appointment for 3 weeks should it be something more to come in for a consultation. If it isn't warranted because it comes back moderate or low for possible cancer, she told me to cancel it.

It takes 5 business days to get the results, so Thursday or Friday this week they will call me.

UGGGHH!!!!!

I've been going every year until 2020 when they weren't taking patients. Then I moved and I had to research to find a good doctor. I've always had normal paps so this is concerning to someone like us where we've had that "testing" for cancer before. PTSD big time, no matter how much she tried to calm me.

My sister hasn't been in 30 years, so I wouldn't feel bad if it's been six months LOL

Thank you for that. I see that the results are in my portal, but I never look because I don't understand medical talk and I'm afraid I'll read the wrong things into it. I've also looked it up and one of the premier hospitals said it takes 10 - 15 years for it to turn into cancer, so that also gave me some relief, but I'm nervous. Tomorrow it will all come to light, most likely in the morning. ugh.

I'm sorry you need to have dysplasia taken care of. Gynos did my cone biopsies/leep procedures. You could consult with your gyno and then make an appointment at the cancer center if you thought she was out of her depth. My procedures were all pre bc diagnosis so if you are concerned you could opt for the cancer center.

The leep removes tissue with an electrically heated wire loop; they give you a local anesthetic so you don't feel it. Afterwards there was a bit of spotting and cramping but nothing ibuprofen couldn't handle. It was the level of procedure where you could return to work the same day. There were lifting restrictions for the first week and no intercourse/tampons allowed for a month. Dysplasia is precancerous so there is nothing else done except followup to make sure they got it all. I have had dysplasia removed from other parts of my body (my esophagus just last month); the cervix has been the easiest. I hope all goes smoothly for you.

did not know it affect other areas as well. I am so sorry you have had to deal with it.

m0mmyof3 I hope you are feeling better today. Moving is tough as it is, so sometimes the expectations are more than what we actually experience. I would reach out to those I want to be around and have lunch or invite several over to a small party - maybe cake and coffee if it is someone's birthday.

You know them the best, maybe talk to your Dad's best friend/wife or your ex SIL about how you're feeling?

I have an upcoming appointment with the NP. She's my new primary, only saw her once and it was OK. Just reading my blood panels that came back in my chart. Glucose 147, A1C 6.6% Total cholesterol is good, but my triglycerides are 368 and HDL is over the mark. Shall I keep going? All 3 liver panels were over. The Alk Phos was only 2 points over. Carbon dioxide is low (WTF is that?) and Anion Gap is over in the high. All the other stuff was fine.

I hope I don't have to be more scared of the NP now than any other doctor!!! Perhaps I can talk her into having me repeat this in a few months? I have NOT been myself with daughter's wedding, my sister dying. I will be truthful and say I am not watching what I eat, and I am drinking something practically every day. I have no illusion whatsoever that I'm getting out of here alive, so while I know the risks, I still do smoke occasionally because I want to. That I could probably cut back out for sure, but it's been a wave of craziness.

Do I really want to know that something could be wrong with me? Yes and no. Steamed to not know how to feel. I really feel just numb. Strange that I had a feeling when I made the appointment that somethings were going to be off.

So I met with the NP who did the biopsy to go over the results. It is totally pre cancerous and not cancer. I am going to the gyno oncologist because it was located on the vagina and they would rather I go to the specialists. She said it is very common, and the odd thing is that she has never in 10 years checked the vajayjay, but for some reason did this time. So relieved. Thanks for letting me blow off some steam!

I miss the way the old Breastcancer.org was set up!! I spent a lot of time on here years ago, made friends and had nice conversations about breasts, family and crazy bs. Now this is a mismatch of topics that don't seem to have any flow or conversation. Damn… rant over!

Thanks, I remember your name and think we chatted in various threads. Maybe the group was August 2011 chemo or something like that. It is true that people pass :-(. I also assume if they didn't have a recurrence they wouldn't have a reason to come back either. I guess I remember really long threads and recently when I pop in I see someone ask a question and maybe they get an answer or two and then there isn't any more conversation. Anyway, having my own little pity party these days.

So fricken mad I want to scream! Earlier today I tripped and smashed a toe against a door frame, took a pain reliever for the pain but it has had little to no effect because I have been on my feet since then. My jerkwad of a husband decided that I did not need help and could do everything I asked him to help me with on my own as it was too important for him to be sitting on his lazy backside today! When I said something about his lack of help, I got “it’s only your toe that’s hurting you, not anything else. I’m too busy to help you with what you need help with.” I told him if that’s the attitude and help I’m gonna get, then he can do his own stuff (laundry and anything else) from now on! He’s become like his jerkwad of a father and I won’t deal with it anymore!

I told mine to stop expecting me to be like his step-mother as I am not going to be like her. I made him cook dinner tonight as I noticed the bottom of the toe I smashed is pretty bruised and then showed him how bad it was. That woke him up to that I wasn’t lying when I said I was hurting.

We got some new phones since we have landlines of course since we are old according to our kids and other family who are only using cell phones. I could not live without the landline though. They still work if power goes out as well plugged. The new one I have my chair though talks and tells me who is calling so I do not have to stop reading or whatever to answer a phone if I do not want to talk to that person. I can just ignore the call. If it is someone else I figure if it is important they will leave a message. They were ATT phones I know. Best thing we got last year and now so glad we have them.