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Oct 12, 2017 10:06AM
I don't know whether to say I HAVE breast cancer or I HAD breast cancer.
Hub likes to say that I HAD breast cancer, they cut it out and now it's gone. But is it? Is that the end of it? Because if it is, then yes, I agree, breast cancer is a past tense event, it is over, gone, tralee, tralaa, I am cured!
But hold on a minute (sound of screeching tires). If I HAD cancer and cutting it out was the absolute, forever end to it, why was I radiated, why am I tamoxifated, why am I lymphedated? There seems to be a whole lot of shit still going on including the use of diagnostic mammograms instead of screening mammograms for someone who (past tense) HAD cancer.
To me the word HAD implies that this is a done deal. Because if I say I HAD it, telling everyone that I feel I have beat this thing once and for all, no Olivia Newton John for me, and then it does come back, what do I say? Well, I got more breast cancer? I had it, I beat it. Then lo and behold I got some more of it! Who knew?!
Well I knew! I DO NOT BELIEVE I AM CURED, merely postponed. I think if I was 70 when diagnosed I might live long enough to die of something else and then wow, I guess they were right, I guess I was cured of cancer (since something else killed me). However, I was diagnosed at 53 and I doubt very much I will live to even see 70.
I HAD breast cancer - and went through several surgeries and still taking treatments.
I HAVE breast cancer - and went through several surgeries and still taking treatments.
What is correct. Have or had? Present tense or past? I seriously do not know how to refer to my situation.
3/23/2017, IDC, Left, 2cm, Stage IIB, Grade 2, 0/1 nodes, ER+/PR+, HER2-
4/12/2017 Lumpectomy: Left; Lymph node removal: Sentinel
7/5/2017 Whole-breast: Breast
Tamoxifen pills (Nolvadex, Apo-Tamox, Tamofen, Tamone)