Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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What's crazy is I'm kind of hungry for pudding now. This makes no sense. But I'm still going to go make some.
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Oh yes, there was chocolate one day. AND YES! THat was my question? WHere do you put it down? She claimed she didn't, but you know this is one child, who KNEW how to answer an adult question with what they wanted to hear! Years later she has thanked me for her interventions! ROFL...Seriously, she was thankful that I made her shower, brush her teeth, learned how to care fo her self. Although it was a long life before that! We had custody from 5-13 and then 6 months at 14 when her mom couldn't handle her. After we grounded her for something here, she went home for christmas (to another state) and didn't return b/c of the grounding. Never did finish school Such a sad situation! Too many kids fall through the cracks b/c of ill ran homes like hers at her mom's
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Good F...ing morning to all;
I just got a letter from my employer yesterday, dated Oct 20th, threating to terminate me if I don't get proper paperwork to them in 15 days. The letter was fedexed to my home where they had been informed that i no longer stay. Luckily I had gotten enough energy to drive there and check my house. WTF, they know I have been fighting cancer for awhile. So today I will drive to my onc and have her fill out more papers, drive to the surgeon have him fill them and take them to the ps on Friday. I truly hate everybody without cancer today.
As far as eating in the bed, I walked in the room last night and Mr. Perfect was eating Ritz crackers. I just looked at him since I would have been given third degree for that and I am the one sick.
I woke up this morning with a tightness in the center of my chest followed by vomiting. I hope the discomfort is from these expanders. The last thing I need now is to develop heart disease. My mother died from a heart attack when she was 44 years old. I am hungry but don't want to eat anything in this house and I am too stressed to get dressed and go to the store. My support is back in the bed, sleeping off his last night Sky vodka. I will be so damn glad to heal and go home for good. If I could stop having these dizzy spells, I would moved, but I still have problems with the muscles and I have the next surgery to look forward to.
Thanks for letting me share.
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A big THAT SUCKS to everyone who needs it.
My IOS is minor, but...
Last Friday, DH insisted that we bring the puppy (who gets car sick) with us to pick up DD at the train station. Of course the puppy had a problem.
This morning, as I'm throwing the muddy towels from cleaning off the puppy every time he went out yesterday into the washer, I added the other old towels that were sitting in the garage waiting to be washed. That's when I found the one that the puppy got on FRIDAY balled up and thrown into the pile. Did he think the thing would be more pleasant to deal with once the chunks had aged for a few days?
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Pat,
Kindly get Pinky's temporary address, throw the towel in a box, and send it to her "S.O."
Thank you very much,
Shari
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Shari,
Hilarious! I love it.
You guys are all really cracking me up today. You know, like every day.
See? Acknowledging when things suck HELPS you to be a happier person. Mindless, relentless positivityism sucks!
And yes, I did in fact just make up my own word!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
That is TOO funny, Patrice, about eating in the bathroom, and the chocolate pudding!! lol
Harley
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I am so glad I found this thread. Sometimes I get tired of being the constantly perky, glass-half-full, perfect little patient! My husband recently said that he is tired of hearing about my cancer, talking about my cancer and having our lives revolve around my cancer. DOES HE THINK I AM ENJOYING THIS? I would love to be his little Suzy homemaker, but I wasn't exactly that before and, now that I am working less, it ain't happening now. But, in other respects, he has been great. He has never complained about my disgusting boob or my bald head and he calls me several times a day just to check in. And his voice has changed on the phone. When he talks to me now, his tone is gentler and more caring (if that makes sense).
Keep ranting ladies! It's keeping me sane.
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((((((((((((((((((((((Maria))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Hey everybody, sorry I haven't been 'round much. I'm reading just not much time to post lately. EGal, here is Amber's blog: http://amberchase.weebly.com/our-blog.html
I'm going to PM you too in case you don't see this.
Hi Sane Jane!
Who's birthday is it????? Gotta run, be back a bit later.
Hugs everybody, Traci
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A big that sucks to everyone - pudding in the bathroom, vomit chunks in the laundry (at least he didn't throw it in the hamper, which is what my dear ones do), pretzel crumbs in bed...it all sucks.
My IOS. Feeling like crap. Go back to work tomorrow & have an appt with the surgeon in late afternoon to get my path from the surgery last Friday. Tired, worn out, and cranky. My husband's cranky, my girls are obnoxious, my 17yo was crying because life is so bad, UGH. I just want to curl up in a corner for a month or two. People are negative, tempers are short...why can't it all be done and over?
Cranky pants Pam.
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Oh, gawd, Shari, freakin' awesome suggestion!
Colleen, I'm glad you are having an un-sucky birthday.
Here's a card one of my buds sent me after my recent dx & surgery. Somehow I thought this was the right place to post it; so in honor of Colleen's birthday & hoping for less suckyness for us all:
XXOO, Kathi
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kathi,
that is great. It is good to know that someone else is feeling the stress. I must say that my day got better. I took a shower which is a luxury these days, got dressed to find all my clothes are now too big. That's not the worst thing since I could stand to lose some weight, but then everyone started laughing because my jeans sag off my now complete flat ass. My suggestion was why doesn't someone buy me some new ones then. Of course they didn't look that bad anymore.
I have been looking for my birth certificate all afternoon since social security doesn't seem to know who I am. Of course I can't find it when I know I had it here prior to the surgery. I called myself getting everything in order in case of the worst. My memory is short so I don't know where I put things so they would be easy to find.
Happy birthday to who is was that posted.
I too want to curl up in the corner but my SO is determine that I get it together. I told him he reminds of me the little girl in "Along kiss goodnight" which isn't all bad, but sometimes I would like some pity, not always hearing the look at the bright side of things.
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Pinky,
Your SO and my DH must be trading notes. Is there a thread here on this site for insensitive and/or ignorant SOs?
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Hey, everybody, here's what Nicki was talking about a page ago.
I've copied and pasted John's most recent post about DebC's condition (see below). It's on a thread on the "Help Me Get Through Treatment" forum, called "Methaltrexate". The post is from 6 hours ago (approx. 2 p.m. Wednesday afternoon).
Deb has been getting Methotrexate injected into a reservoir implanted beneath her skull, to treat mets in her spinal fluid. John had posted yesterday morning to say that Deb was having some problems with swelling of her frontal lobe.
This sux really big time.
otter
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6 hours ago AlaskaDeb wrote:
All,
Thanks for the feedback. Debs still quite out of it but.... I may be seeing slight signs of improvement.
I spoke to the Dr.s again yesterday. They considered the Decadron but Deb reacts very badly to it. So we are temporarily sticking with the wait & see.
Also, I feel like the only thing I can do is feed her, keep her comfortable, clean...., kisses & smiles.... so that's what I'm doing. I'll check the other site.
Thanks & blessings to all
John
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Thanks Otter, I did find it once, but had lost it again. An update is always welcome
Just ticks me off she is having more problems darn it. She wasn't even over the eye problem yet Prayers all goes better with each passing hour!
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Oh, man.......haven't been on here long, so just read over Deb's & John's posts. This just breaks my heart.
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cancer sucks
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WhaSux?
Hugs & a big THAT SUX to all who need it. I do NOT have any IOS to report, but if I did it wouldn't seem like much after reading about Deb....her dh sounds so sweet it made me want to cry,
There is a wonderful line in the Bucket List-just after Jack Nicholson has puked his guts out he looks into the bathroom mirror & says, "Somewhere some lucky bastard is having a heart attack!" I kinda feel that said it all about cancer.....
On a lighter note:
It's the birthday of friend,CMB
So today better be IOS-free
Make up a new more word
Cuz you're clever we heard
And we don't want to hear "positivity!"
HUGS - be well & stay strong!
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Reading and marking my spot...
THAT SUCKS! Particularly for AlaskaDeb...
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Dropping by and marking my spot. I'm totally lost and out of touch. A big that sucks to everyone that needs to hear it today.
Nicki
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My turn: CANCER SUCKS, SUCKS, SUCKS, SUCKS, SUCKS!!!!!
I want my old life back. I want to turn back the clock. I want this bad dream to end. I want the intimacy my husband and I used to have. I want a life that doesn't revolve around cancer and treatments and doctor appointments.
IS THAT ASKING TOO MUCH!??
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I posted this on the no more pink site. I guess I thought I was on the bitch site - chemo brain.
I was hospitalized from October 20 - October 27 due to cellulitis of the chest wall. I was on 3 IV antibiotics and needed to have 3 units of iron infused. If the iron didn't bring my counts up, they were prepared to give me a transfusion
According to both my oncologist and my surgeon, the infection was the direct result of an incompetent dentist. Friday before last, I had a tooth problem. I called the dentist and informed them that I was a cancer patient and I needed this situation handled specially. I brought a copy of my current white count with me. I asked the dentist to pull the tooth. He would not. He said he could "fix" it with a filling. So he did. The following Wednesday, the tooth itself broke. I called the dentist's office and told them that the tooth had now broken, leaving a gaping hole in my tooth. The receptionist told me they couldn't see me until Friday and then they could just look at it. She said they didn't have time to fix it until the next week. Once again, I informed the oh-so-helpful sprite that I was a cancer patient and that I had a very small window of opportunity in which to fix this problem. All she would say is that they would "look at it" on Friday. I told her that maybe she might want to check with the doctor to see if he thought that was ok.
I called my oncologist who, in turn, called the dentist's office. He told them that they tooth MUST BE PULLED THAT WEEK. He also told the dentist that he (the dentist) would have to prescribe antibiotics after the treatment, dependent on what happened with the tooth pulling.
I went to the dentist on Friday and, again, asked to have the tooth pulled. This dentist is so caught up in the idea that, at some time in the future, I will have a root canal on this tooth and have it capped at a hefty price. Pulling it would result in a loss of potential income for him. So, at this point, both my oncologist and I have told the dentist that THIS TOOTH NEEDS TO BE PULLED. Nonetheless, the dentist insisted on putting another filling in (which, by the way, served to seal in any bacteria that collected in that hole during the 2 days I had to wait to be seen), and he said that, if it fell out again, then he would pull it. He said that the reason 1/2 the tooth fell out is because it was "fractured." Well, if he knew it was fractured a week ago, why didn't he do something about it the week before? At any rate, after he filled it, he did not give me a prescription for an antibiotic.
To make a long story short, the following Monday I had cellulitis in my chest wall. This was 7 weeks post-mastectomy. There had been no infection during the previous 7 weeks. My wbc was fine before I went to the dentist. I believe both my oncologist and surgeon are right. Doctors don't usually rat out other doctors. If they put it in writing in my medical record that this infection was caused by a dentist, then that's what I am going with. I'm seriously considering suing this guy.
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And rightly so! BIG THAT SUX! I swear, there is something going on with SOME dentists. I have no idea where this guy got his training, but maybe it was off that phoenix site!? Geepers, my mother has a heart murmur, that's NEVER giving her a lick of trouble, but her dentist has ALWAYS put her on antibiotics for any teeth cleaning or other dental visits.
That guy is INCOMPETENT!
I hope you are doing better.
You know...come to think of it. I just read in the BC/BS newsletter recently that they will NOT pay for anything that results from a mistake made in treatment. Meaning, in a situation where an infection results from a treatment that could have been preventive (I think), then they won't pay and they say YOU don't have to either. Perhaps this dentist having to PAY for this mistake by covering that stay in the hospital will prevent it from happening to another cancer patient. Do you have dental insurance? Perhaps they have the same policy?
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I do have dental insurance, but they don't accept it fully. In addition to what the insurance pays, they charged me $183. I didn't want to create a scene in the dentist office and I was already in a hurry to get out of there, so I paid the $183. Never before have I put a stop payment on a check, but this time I did. I'm waiting for them to call me to see why.
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Morning and that sucks to all, read, but no time to post just yet
Traci - you OK?
Thanks for the birthday wishes, it was a decidedly un-sucky day overall
Saint - I love my song! Thank you!
Praying for Deb, John and the girls
Pinky - ay yi yi, you hang in there
Welcome Jane
Wish - wouldn't that be great, I was worried until I saw they weren't paying and I didn't have to pay either - that's the way it should be
OK, really do have to get to work...
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Go for it Jane. he needs to be out of the gene pool anyway. My mil has gone to this dentist for years. beginning of this year told her she needed 3 root canals. she ended up going to the UMKC school of dentistry all e teeth had to be pulled too far gone for a root canal, thsi b itc# could have filled those teeth and saved the teeth, UMKC has the area
osteonecrosis of teh jaw clinic.and I always get antibiotics before any invasive procedure.
Your lovely dentist just saw the big bucks when he saw you= find a new one and report him to the board or whatever thay have in your state.
Helen
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HOME Health Care called. They came out last Monday to measure for an electric wheel chair or a scooter. Right off the top he said the chair wouldln't fit in my car. A scooter would. I could buy a motorized ramp or a refitted van. Asked him how i WAS supposed to do that since i was on disablity. by this time I was bravely fighting back a few tears= he said the chair was probablly about 2 inches to big. Called today= ordered a demo to see if it would fit in my car, if notthe insurance will have to pay for scooter and I don't think they want too. it will take about 2 months after they order it to get it. dam#@ decent of them. I called them told them to pick up the hosp bed (tomorrow hopefully) it has a 1/4 inch padding over springs, plaastic covering and teh most uncomfortable bed I have ever slept on. Will get my queen size mattress back. At least then I can turn over w/out having to worry about falling out of bed...
Made it to the bathroom w/ walker= took shower washed hair mostly by myself, cant reach the faucet yet, but I can now reach hard to reach places. walked two thirds the way from the bathroom to computer in the living room. Am definitely going to work Monday. Got to get out of my house and away from my sister.
some things are getting less suckier remember joan baez song= Some days are diamonds, Some days are rust.
big hugs to everyone that needs them
Helen
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CMB35 -- HAPPY BIRTHDAY! HAPPY UN-SUCK BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!
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I just read through three pages of profound, heart-wrenching suckiness.
That sucks. It sucks to have limited mobility, to have all this stuff done to your body, to have to fight for something you deserve, to be misunderstood, to deal with someone's drug addiction or alcoholism (Pink-- you are NOT ALONE on that one), to have loved ones be oblivious or indifferent, to be in pain . . . all the stuff sucks so hard.
And it sucks to not know what to say in the face of such incredible suck-hell.
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You are right Rock, IT SUX to be out here, looking in, and not being able to help anyone alleviate some of this crap! SUX BIG TIME!
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