Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.

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  • fire
    fire Member Posts: 9
    edited April 2008

    Hanna B, thank you.

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 136
    edited April 2008

    Hanna honey , are you in prison?lol Why is there people opening your mail?! I wouldn't like that at all. I like that word fungoid! Its sort of a cross between freakazoid and fungool!lol

    And don't you just love the 3am hairball puke. You can hear it happening , its dark in the house , but when you get up you know your bare foot will find it!

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 136
    edited April 2008

    Hugs to you fire. I know this all sucks. But I hope the sun shines for you soon. I'm glad you are getting relief from hf by swimming. Maybe I should join the ymca and start swimming. I love to swim , and I would sure be glad to get rid of the hotflashes! Take care. Mel

  • AlaskaDeb
    AlaskaDeb Member Posts: 1,159
    edited April 2008

    I just have to say that this thread saves my sanity daily....or at leasts lets me know that I am going nuts in good company!!

    Honeygirl - I laughed so hard at that cat picture.  I HATE the cat puke sound! 

    Fire - vent away girlfriend.  You are in good company and every little thing about cancer SUCKS!!

    Deb C

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 136
    edited April 2008
    Hi Deb C! You are sooo right. About the puke sound and going nuts in good company!      Hugs. Mel
  • fire
    fire Member Posts: 9
    edited April 2008

    I'm glad I have found this tread. I still need support. Thank you all!

  • Hanna
    Hanna Member Posts: 228
    edited April 2008

    Mel!  You found an animated picture of that no count fongool Shelly from my onco's office!!!  That's her!!

    Prison?  Me?  Not yet....but that's an interesting thought.

    I can think of plenty of ways to get in....just a little concerned about how to get out.  I mean how many of us have ever had THAT experience??  Hmmm.  Now you got me thinking.  I do need a vacation and someone else to do the cooking. 

    Maybe someone should start a thread...how to get into prison when you have bc?  GAWD.  What if we just all went ballistic....loose cannons on deck....unguided missiles whizzing around!!  We'd all get shipped off to the hoozegow!!  Just think of how intimidating we'd all be!  WOW.  We'd be a gang from the get go!!  Complete with rad tattoos and intimidating scars!  Who needs a weapon when you can barf at will - have explosive diarrhea, shoot Rocks of Gilbralter, wear a shirt that says Ya, these are fake, the others tried to kill me so YOU better watch it!!  Fa!   

  • honeygirl
    honeygirl Member Posts: 136
    edited April 2008

    Hanna lololololololololroflmaolololololo, I'm cryin' here! You're too funny! But you're right. After what we have been through , nothing scares us , we won't back down!

  • Hanna
    Hanna Member Posts: 228
    edited April 2008

    D*mn right girls!!!! Yell

                                       ?

    ...can we say that here Undecided

  • chemo072
    chemo072 Member Posts: 31
    edited April 2008

    Y'all are a riot.  Welcome change of pace....

    Though I do need to do an "it sucks" post:

    Think I need to file today under "it could be worse."  Right?!  Small cyst showed up on my liver u/s, of course they have to c/t it.  The doc calls and says "I'll be here all day, call anytime."  Freaks my sh*& out to get that kind of super-nice message from a doc.  So I go get a latte, try not to cry, take some deep breaths, call her, and her aide schedules the c/t for first thing tomorrow morning.  For goodness sake, with that kind of urgency you'd think something was really wrong. Plus NPO I go again tomorrow....

    All I'm thinking is nooooooooo....I want to live in ignorance......I want this week to be the week that I don't know that I have mets or a new primary or whatever for a long long time, I want this week to be the week that I am still NED forever.  I mean, why the rush, ya know?!  Unless the docs are just bored...sheesh...... 

  • formygirls
    formygirls Member Posts: 154
    edited April 2008

    OK..I just discovered this thread even though I have been addicted to the site sine one month. I have read all the posts.. and laughed at some and given big it sucks to many. We really need this thread.

    Amya..hope your liver is fine. They discovered a spot on my liver also a month and are jsut watching it. I will only know when I get a repeat MRI later this month. So I one more thing to worry about as I lay awake every night..do I have mets?

    My gripe for today: I refuse to meet anyone or talk to anyone because I am so sick of people telling me "I know you will be fine....just stay positive. It is all in the mind. Yay tell that to my tumor that tripled in size to 7+ cms in a month" Well how do you know?

  • WellWater
    WellWater Member Posts: 4,524
    edited April 2008

    Hannah - I am copying your post and sending it to some of my friends - too, too funny but damn that's just the way I feel at times.  Let's just kick ass!!!!!!

    AmyaM - Good luck on the scan....hope it isn't a bad one.  Cancer and the thought of more cancer sucks big time.

    Fire - Just remember you are not alone, especially when you're here.

    About the bitch slap - notice the white haired lady in the left hand corner?  What is her role in this?  The bitch has obviously made her angry also.

    Hugs to all of you.......

  • barbeqrn
    barbeqrn Member Posts: 38
    edited April 2008

    Ok...another hair comment! I am going to Sea World tomorrow and am wondering if the roller coaster will make my wig fly off...what do you think? I hate my 2 inch hair so much!!!!!!!!!!!!



    Also, my bottom lashes are looking pretty puny...chemo ended in Oct...has this happened to anyone else?



    During rounds at the hospital I see one of patients every day in her last stage of mets from bc...panic mode sets in every time I see her...



    Just got the $800 rad bill and paid off the $800 chemo bill not too long ago!



    Thanks for listening to my bitching today! You all make me smile!



    Barb

  • Hanna
    Hanna Member Posts: 228
    edited April 2008

    You're going on a roller coaster with your wig on?  I'm pretty sure it will fly off unless you duct tape it on.  You don't want to be one of those people you has to go walk around under the machinery after the ride's over looking for lost articles. 

    Gosh.  On the other hand you wouldn't want to miss out on the perfectly normal appearing screaming allowed on the roller coaster experience.  You could just scream it all out while you're whirling around up there.  Excellent opportunity.  Hmm. 

    I don't think they allow scarves these days or hats on roller coasters either.  This is a tough one.  I hope someone comes along with an answer for you.  Meanwhile, I go by the motto that everything can be fixed with either duct tape or WD40.  With regard to a wig on a roller coaster ride - duct tape - but I'd worry about it pulling off the hair you've grown.  Why not just go without the wig, wear a hat or baseball cap that you can take off during the ride.  Everyone will be so into the experience, they won't scrutinize your short hair.  Just go and have fun!   

  • Traci-----TripNeg
    Traci-----TripNeg Member Posts: 567
    edited April 2008

    Fire is one of my other personalities. Except for that swim part. nuh uh. no way. I'm not swimming!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    (((((((((((fire))))))))))))

    We started packing today!! It started with, are these your extension cords or mine? take them all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    This is a funny ass thread. Laughter through misery...or tears...what was that Dolly Parton line in Steel Magnolia's? Laughter through tears is my favorite emotion! Bring it on Watson!!! Cool

    Hugs everybody. It's late......way late for me.

    C y'all tomorrow.

    traci

  • Hattie
    Hattie Member Posts: 12
    edited April 2008

    traci, i was in a four letter word mood tonite and just the title of your thread had me laughing out loud in spite of it all.

    thank you!

    take care,

    --hattie

  • 1965sally
    1965sally Member Posts: 29
    edited April 2008

    3 am hairball...  yes, that's a bit of familiar music.  My cat has been waking up at 3:46 am several days in a row, to play.  With everything beside my bed.  She chews the phone cord, pats the blinds, jumps up and down on the bookshelf, even licks the wall.  She never plays on my husband's side of the bed, and if I get up and move to the couch in a huff, she just lies down and goes back to sleep like I ruined the game.  But of course then I have trouble going back to sleep myself.  So I increased her dosage of anti-depressants, though I really think I need them myself.  She slept through the night last night.  Maybe that's the answer.  Drugs for all of us.

    It takes me so long to read all the posts each morning that I forget what I was going to write.  I want to acknowledge everyone and comment on everything but I can't.  Just glad you all are here.

    Everyone keeps telling me I'm so lucky with just DCIS, and I know that, but I'm going to lose a breast anyway.  And I'm terrified they'll find more when they take it off.  And I'm in a period of waiting for the surgery April 30th (7 weeks since last surgery) while I supposedly have no excuse for fatigue and depression because I'm not currently in any kind of "treatment".  When people ask how I am at work and I say "tired" they say, "Oh, did you have a treatment today?"  My department VP asked me at lunch yesterday "How ARE you?" (with the eyebrows of concern you know)  I said "I'm doing okay" and then cut off the follow up question by giving him a report on a meeting I had that morning - changed it to a work topic.  He got the message.

    AND my marriage is going to hell.  It was bad before this, but now I have no patience or optimism to get through it.

    I feel lonely.

  • kiki
    kiki Member Posts: 38
    edited April 2008

    Oh ladies this thread is a breath of fresh air.  I can relate on so many levels, and laughter is great medicine. 

    Fire hang in there, I know that is cliche but it does get a bit easier.

    Amya, thinking good thoughts for you.  Damn cancer always in our heads,or sitting on our shoulder like that little devil.

    Barb, we went to Disney right after my chemo ended.  Not even fuzz on my head.  I wore a kerchief all the time.  Went on the rockin roller coaster and I had to sit next to a total stranger.  Well, wasn't this the time I forgot to tighten up the kerchief.  As soon as that baby took off my scarf went a flying!!.  Luckily I caught it but spent the whole ride holding it to my head and wondering how to get it back on without buddy beside me seeing my bald head!!

    Hanna LOL I'll join you in jail.  You can do in Shelley and I'll do in the bitch secretary from my PS office!!  Everytime I see the bitchslap I picture her!!

    Traci my condolences on the packing.  I HATE PACKING!!

    Hope everyone's bowels are in good order today and have an absolutely unsuckable day.

  • sam408
    sam408 Member Posts: 474
    edited April 2008

    (((1965sally)))

    Don't really have a bitch this morning. I'm actually feeling a little more like a human being today.

    Wish I could respond individually to your posts, but my percoset fogged brain can't remember who said what.

    Hope everyone has a good day. . .of course, it's early. . .

  • cmb35
    cmb35 Member Posts: 554
    edited April 2008

    I think I am also bitch free this morning. Either that or I'm just too tired to complain.

    I'm going to say that rollercoasters beat wigs, but that's just a guess. I can't think of a way to keep that sucker on there. Good luck!

    Sally - The "how are you?" sucks big weinies, particularly when accompanied with the "concern/pity/thankful this isn't me" face. Depending on my mood, I'd do the gracious smile/fine thanks, perky smile/I'm hangin in there!, sickly smile/I'm OK, or evil smile/well, I have cancer, so not great you know? The good news is you can come here and tell the truth, we get it. It all sucks, but I hope April 30th comes really soon and that you get the best possible news.

    Traci - hhhmm... packing is bad enough, packing with a cretin, well that plain sucks!

    Amya - I really hate it when they don't take the fact that we are human beings with both brains and feelings into account. They should KNOW that that kind of urgency/service scares the crap out  of us. Experience tells me it isn't so, not even most of the time. Hope it goes well today, and that they are just as speedy with giving you the results (all clear results, thanks very much!)

    A big hello to everyone else, I need to get hopping!

  • dhettish
    dhettish Member Posts: 96
    edited April 2008

    1965sally, are they saying you are lucky to have cancer??????WTF????Tell them, I wish you the same luck! You have cancer, girl. Albeit a better one to have but it is still cancer. Sorry you have to go through this.

    With 11 cats, I have hairballs, poop, pee, spraying. I go through a bottle of urine off a week. Only have one cat (16 years) with the pooping and peeing problem on the bathroom rugs. She goes outside sometimes but will not get her feet dirty in the litter box. We clean it 2xday. Most of the cats stay out during the day. Nothing worse than a hairball or puke squishing between your toes.

    My bitch for today: Finished chemo on 3/11/08. I have had to shave my legs three times. I have no hair on my hair except for the dryer lint (who called it that?) and no hair in the middle or crown. I have no eyelashes or eyebrows and not one hint of them growing in. I wish I had as much hair on my head as on my legs and wish it were as dark.

    I would not wear the wig on the roller coaster. When wind blows wig hair, it does not go back down. I went to Kroger's in my wig on a windy day. I caught myself in the mirror and I looked like Phyllis Diller! Talk about embarrassed. I just about pulled my wig off right there. No wonder everyone was smiling at me. 

  • danix5
    danix5 Member Posts: 141
    edited April 2008

    1965sally,

    You have every reason to be depressed Cancer is cancer!  I have just DCIS and they took both my boobs! one good one but I wanted to reduce any chances repeating this cancer crap!! 

    So you should definitley come here and you should let yourself feel lucky and feel like sh*t!  Because that what it is when you have DCIS or LCIS!

    Sorry about your marriage.  This will either help bring you closer, talk about your feelings to him if you can or it will make things worse!  Duh, you already know that sorry!  I do not have any good advise for marriages.  I have not had any issues so I have no idea what to tell you.  Or even if you want it or want out of it.  But now is the time for him to be there for you!!!!  Regardless of any issues before hand!  Tell him how you feel and maybe things will improve.

    Please understand even without treatments this is verrrrrry hard, you have to understand worry makes us depressed, fatiqued etc....

    BTW, I felt like you why can't I focus why can't I just let go deal with it and move on to normal things I need to do!   Well......this is a life altering dx, no matter how "good it is", and that effects us mentally and physically.

    Best of luck to you and come here often!

    We can understand and make you laugh too!!

    Dani

  • Wink333
    Wink333 Member Posts: 20
    edited April 2008

    dhettish (Debbie),

    Sorry ,change of subject, but help! Does urine off work on carpet and where do you get it? Is it a cleaner or just deter them from using that spot?

    Thanks for any info,

    Wink 

  • danix5
    danix5 Member Posts: 141
    edited April 2008

    bumping

  • gsg
    gsg Member Posts: 1,700
    edited April 2008

    *right click save* both of honeygirl's gifs.  LOL!

  • gsg
    gsg Member Posts: 1,700
    edited April 2008

    oh....my bitch is my husband is going out of town on business for 3 days next week and i'm going to be too busy to enjoy it.

  • MissShapen
    MissShapen Member Posts: 3,963
    edited April 2008

    Wink,

    Here is the url.

    http://www.urineoff.com/

    It says Used properly, Urine-Off is guaranteed to remove even old, deeply embedded odors and stains permanently. 

    Good luck.

    Miss S

  • snowyday
    snowyday Member Posts: 121
    edited April 2008

    Warning you don't have to read this whole post I've just finished and realized how stupid it sounds but just need to type this shit offf of my mind. I haven't posted for awhile I', still so damn tired and had the luck to have another bloody tooth pulled yesterday another one. SHIT.  Oh that's still not going to good either.  I've read the posts above and laughed my head off about Hanna's jail tale.  Yesterday while I was waiting at the dentists office I was shaking like a leaf, and thinking what the hell is wrong with me.  I've gone through surgury, chemo, rads, still having scans and pains and problems and I'm scared shitless of going to the dentist.  What is wrong with me.  The hairballs also made me howl as the same thing happened to me just this week.  Stomped right into two hairballs, I have my sons cats for a few weeks until his exgirlfriend comes and gets them.  Five cats all I do is feed clean litter boxes and pick up after them.  I love cats but man 5 is a bit much.  I went outside and found some really nice ornamental grasses, my neighbour would through them in the back area where we park and the cats just love the grass and it grow better than any cat grass I've ever bought.  It also has bulbs on the bottom weird looking but I think I'll have grass for next winter now.  I'm babbling, my mouth hurts where they pulled the molar and the dentist showed me the roots holy s##t they were huge any wonder its hurting and like an idiot I told them I didn't need any other pain killers, stupid me, I should have got a different type because my normal ones don't seem to help at all, I wonder why.  Did anyone watch Primetime last night, I asked my eldest son to watch it with me because I feel he needs to realize that this bc can cause death. There I said it.  Well he was good and we talked about some of the things I want when my turn comes. So it was a relief but then Jay started on about what causes cancer and started on about how cancer is just a money maker and they are totally screwing us all over so they can just continue to make money. So I told him about the pink ribbon campaign and boy was he surprised.  Then I told him about the Canadian Cancer Report and how only about 7% of all donations actually goes to help cancer patients shocking huh.  So now I'm really angry again about, just calmed down a bit over it. My son wants to go to my cancer clinic and do some yelling, he's furious that I've slipped through the cracks there. I told him I'm just lucky I have my Angel Dr. helping me get the bloodwork, and scans that the cancer clinic should be taking care of.  I'm getting paranoid about the clinic, because I went into a trial and I'm starting to wonder if they just want good numbers and thats why I've slipped through the cracks I'll be asking at my next rad onc appt. It's probably pointless though in one ear out the other.  Okay I have to stop babbling feel free to not read this post it's really a dumb one.  Everyone please take good care and remember I pray for all of us at least three times a day.

  • Wink333
    Wink333 Member Posts: 20
    edited April 2008

    Miss S,

    Thank you so much for info.  We are desperate here.

    Thank you,

    Wink

  • gsg
    gsg Member Posts: 1,700
    edited April 2008

    Pearl:  I read your entire post.  I'm sorry I didn't see Primetime last night.  It is really maddening how little money is getting to the people who need it.

    I don't know how you have slipped through the cracks, but thank god you have a doctor there who is looking out for you.  Frightening!!!!

    Are you all settled into your new place now?