Im bitchy, I moan, I groan.....anyway.
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AmyaM:
An MRI showed something on my liver during my "cancer year"...my oncologist told me it was a cyst and that most people develop them as we age. It's possible that that is what yours is and that the CT scan didn't get a good enough image of it to be sure.
I don't know if some people are able to put their worry off for another day...if so, they need to teach us how they do that.
Try to keep busy....that never completely does the trick, but it can help.
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crazydaisy, here you go...
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Wow. A weird thing happened. I was almost done with a post here when out of nowhere, up comes a page asking me if I wanted to report the voodoo doll up there! WHAT?? I didn't even know what to do, then I saw you can click cancel so I did. Well this sucks! My whole post goes away and something tries to get our voodoo doll reported. Voodoo up there is one of our mascots here like our Bitchslap video! Hmmf. Nobody takes OUR mascots away!
Anyway, I will try to recollect some of what I wrote before I was so rudely interrupted....
First, glad you all enjoyed the donuts and now I'm drooling for more after seeing the pic of all those glorious donuts stacked up. Thanks honeygirl for the picture! Next time I will get some of the powered xanax. I didn't know xanax came in pink. I wonder if any guys out there take the pink xanax?
BinVa, I am so sorry your daughter in law has this shit to deal with now. It's not fair. Then there's the people who say oh it's probably nothing and we've all heard it from someone. We know they are just trying to make us and themselves feel better, but it is so irrelevant until we hear it from our pathologists.
I have had more biopsies than I can count and two of them were when my babies were small too. They turned out to be benign fibroadenomas both times but there's no way to tell without a biopsy. I wish they could tell benign from not without all the stress in between. It does suck that so much bc is found in young women. There was a 16 year old girl in for a biopsy during one of the times I was in there these past months. Scared and holding onto her worn out looking baby blanket in the waiting room with her mom's arm around her. I so don't want my daughter to have this to worry about in life. I will keep your dil in my prayers too.
Guess I better get to work on taxes now. Oh, do you all know about the medical deductions? I heard we can even add in the gas money back and forth to appointments and treatments, and each monthly insurance premium along with medicines and the out of pocket medical expenses. Even money paid for housecleaning people. I never knew that. Too bad I never got my house professionally cleaned. Add every bit up and anything over 7% (or 7.5%) of your income is claimable according to this tax woman I talked with. Well, I'm starting this sucky project with a headache already. Time for a chocolate glazed and a stiff coffee.
ps - If anyone knows this tax stuff is wrong - please say so, because I'm definitely going for it and if it's wrong....well, then I'll be posting to you all from the hoozegow!!
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You are correct, Hanna. I was able to deduct medical when I did my taxes last year and I did keep track of all expenses. I think they added up to around $10,000...it turned out it only reduced my total tax burden by $100. Better than a sharp stick in the eye....but I wondered if it was worth all the time it took me keeping track and adding everything up
Hopefully, yours will save you more money than mine did.
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Sure glad we have this spot to bitch ...
I have no particular reason to bitch but geez I am in such an angry mood. Well - no reason other than bilateral mastectomy, infections, chemotherapy, multiple side effects and now radiation. But overall, it was not the stuff of my nightmares but the not the stuff of my wishes either.
If another person tells me how good I look or that it is my positive attitude that will get me through, I'm going to scream scream scream and then just punch them in the nose !! What would they expect us to do, sit in a corner and cry all day, every day ... to look like walking ghosts ... would it make them feel better if we looked like crap. Wanna see my insides - I'll be they look like dog poop dragged through loose gravel and then some 2 year old tried to put it into shape of human. Would that make them feel better? Do they think that it must not be that bad - she looks pretty good.
So my skin is getting pink from the radiation. I'm tired of going there ever friggin day ... geez only 20 more left and I'm done. Isn't that wonderful ... into the black hole of nothing. I'm triple negative and there'll be a hand shake and a good luck!! Go back to your life and forget cancer - yeh right !!!
What is getting back to pre-cancer ... how the heck is that supposed to happen? I'm almost done treatment and my emotions seem worse than they ever have been.
So yes, here I am ... I'm bitchy, I moan and I groan .....
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"Better than a sharp stick in the eye..." What a cool intro g!! I'm gonna owe you royalties on that one... Thanks for the info. (So if it's wrong..can we be roomies in the hoozegow?)
Meanwhile, I'm starting with my stack of gas receipts. Ugh.
Amya and Viv, you both get awards for keeping your heads on straight thru the wait. Last weekend I was waiting on a biopsy so I had a nightcap in the middle of the day and went to sleep. (Both days to be honest.
) Woke up Monday morning to B9 thank God. Praying B9 and be fine for you both. 
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BinVa, Hope your dil ends up with a B9 report, but with all that family history, it's not looking good, is it? It just makes me sick when I think of all the young women getting BC. She will be in my prayers.
Amya, may God grant you peace as you play the waiting game on this biopsy. That darned waiting is the part that really gets us! Praying for a clean report at the end of it all.
Hanna, good luck with your taxes. I had a ton of medical deductions and I'm just waiting to get audited now. LOL I've got all the proof, but I would hate to have to get it all together to keep my butt out of the hoozegow!
Have a great weekend!
Miss S
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I'd like to warn all of you that I am in the midst of the MOTHER OF ALL HOT FLASHES and you may want to take steps at this time to save all data on your computers as I feel certain this one is going to take the Internet down.0
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Also, Hanna & Miss S: I can't think of two people I'd enjoy doing time with more.
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g! Quick! Stick your head in the freezer!!!
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Has the Hoozegow got air conditoning Gsg? I hear they cook for you....might not be a bad choice. Think we can get ajoining rooms?
It's only 11 degrees here this morning. Come on up, I'll make you an iced coffee....
deb C
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Hanna: Good idea...it will also cook tonight's dinner while my head is in there, so should kill two birds with one stone.
LOL@Deb...I'm on my way. if you have snow on the ground still, I'd like to roll around in it (and melt it for you) before I come in.
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Otter don't be sorry for posting your post, it was good and honest and you said it just right to your husband, I would like to quote you with the next idiot that says bc is nothing anymore, it can be cured.
Thanks everyone for telling me my post wasn't stupid, I get typing away sometimes and really don't think I'm making sense. I almost freaked when I read evils' post on the snake I'm snake phobic, how the hell did the dog not get hurt, amazing. But to put your foot down and feel it yuck!!!! pets we love, gotta have em, but man can they throw a scare into us at times. I just want to thank you all for replying to my post, means alot. My bitch for the day, tooth that was pulled is getting infected, oh joy oh fun, oh f*%k, ouch!
Friends that change with your illness, good way to weed them out, whats amazed me is the fact that the friends I thought would be their weren't and the ones I thought wouldn't be were. But then again we all learn not to complain to them to much.
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GAWD! I'm sitting here with my gas receipts and tax forms and this site on and laughing at the screen so hard the cat comes up to see what all the commotion is about!! This cat thinks laughing is so amazing cause he can't do it. Course purring is way cool ya gotta admit. Dogs, on the other hand can laugh. Now git you furball....
Pearl, that sucks you have an infected tooth hole. It was a molar too wasn't it? Rinse your mouth with warm salt water all day. I think it's 1/2 teaspoon salt to a cup of warm water, stir and swish it all around. Did you get antibiotics for it? Gosh, I still have a whole bottle leftover from my root canal I could give you. And Pearl, I always love reading your posts. You write like poetry. And Otter, you write like Thomas Jefferson. You should a signed the Declaration of Independence. (edit..this is a compliment!
) OMG I need to just SHUT UP! OK, I really REALLY need to focus here on taxes - so I have to turn this thing off. Later taters.
ps - My computer IS combusting!
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Hanna.....thanks for the voodoo doll, I think I'll spend the weekend practicing sticking it and my chants!
GSG.....ever feel like you'll spontaneously combust! Gotta love menopause!
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crazydaisy: at this point, i'll be shocked if i don't.
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I have reviewed last year via receipts research for taxes and I'm declaring my 2007 - The Year that Began with a Root Canal. Instead of a tax form, I think I'm going to present an essay to the IRS.
Otter, when I said you write like Thomas Jefferson, I meant that with all respect. It reads back kinda dorky, so I'm expanding. (Expanding is a word on my mind and chest these days).
Thomas Jefferson was well known for his writing of the truth. His ideal truths were not in pidgeon-holed doctrine. The only "truth" Jefferson accepted was the truth that empowered the mind with freedom. He believed that armed with that freedom, the mind could guard itself against error and gain knowledge which is the first step toward happiness for individuals and society. One author, Andrew Burstein, wrote a book about the philosophical Thomas Jefferson entitled: The Inner Jefferson ~ Portrait of a Grieving Optimist. There it is for many of us. We can be simultaneously happy and sad. That feels sort of right to me.
So Otter, without further ado I just want you to know your thoughts posted the truth, and the way you presented those truths made me think of the man on the 2 dollar bill - which is a rare bill these days.
Now, back to the grindstone of tax year 2007.
ps - g? Is your dinner cooked yet? I hope your head still isn't in the freezer.
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Pearl sorry to hear about your tooth. Another home remedy you could try is one part hydrogen pyroxide to three parts water. Swish and spit. Hope you get some relief soon!!
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hey gals,
i have not yet started chemo. my first chemo is 4/17 and will be a/c. it was nice to see a site where you can wear your emotions on your sleeve.although alittle scary to think what les ahead but atleast i can try to prepare and i'm sure i'll be back.
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Damn. I'm laughing so hard I can't type. (Does that count as a complaint?) This thread has saved me so many times already.
There is no way to do justice to all of today's entries in the moan & groan competition. "Inconclusive" scan of a liver lesion (can't they focus the darn machine?); infected/abcessed tooth socket (OMG Pearl, it never ends--I can't stand dentists anyway!); hot flashes intense enough to melt the polar ice cap (oh, so that's why it's melting?); income taxes (need we say more?)...
BTW, HannaB, I was tickled with your reference to Thomas Jefferson. He's been my philosophical idol for many years.
Gotta go. dh has some mindless flick all loaded and ready to play, to keep our minds off more serious matters this evening.
Love ya all... Big hugs!
otter
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hehehe....funny you should mention hot flashes. Do they ever go away or what? I heard black cohosh is supposed to be good, but I am afraid to take anything, lest it mess up my Prozac!!! It's almost six yrs. since dx and tx, and here I am, still having flashes....I don't know 'bout anyone else, but right before I feel an "aura" of sorts...like a nauseated feeling, then I want to rip all my clothes off and run outside!!! You'd think with all the body fluids I sweat out, I'd lose weight!
How does everyone else cope with these motherf**kers?
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(I'm sitting here with this image of a red-hot, menopausal woman, running down the street ripping her clothes off. It's not pretty.)
We spent more money on air conditioning during my hot-flash years than we did every other year combined. How to cope? Dress in lightweight fabrics, and wear lots of layers because the sweating from the flash will chill you a few minutes later. Cotton sheets, cotton blankets, percale pillowcase, cotton jammies to collect the sweat (I wear a guy's cotton tank-top--how sexy?). Some women buy a "chillow" which I guess is a pillow with some sort of refrigerant in it. I didn't but it sounded like a good idea.
Oh, that's right. You've been doing this for 5 or 6 years already, so I'm not telling you anything you don't already know. I don't know how to stop 'em. Mine (induced by natural meno) went on for about 4 years and then just faded away. On rare occasion I still have something I could maybe call a hot flash.
Some of the SE's of menopause eventually go away. Unfortunately, others don't. I've heard rumors that even if someone has survived natural menopause, she'll experience it all over again once she goes on AI's.
otter
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Laura , I am taking tamoxifen , so I am taking effexor for the hot flashes. The onc just upped my dose to two per day instead of one. Because I was having them soooo bad. Sweating so bad my hair looked like I just got out of the shower! I can tell one is coming on , because my skin has a prickling sensation and then itches like crazy. This Friday , I believe it is finally helping. I have been getting "flushes" nothing like I was before with all the heat , red face and chest , and sweating. But this happened when I first started taking the effexor and I was good for a month. Then back they came , so he told me to start 2 a day. I hope its not short lived like before. And I am forever turning the thermostat up and down. I sleep with a fan on at night. Good luck to you. Hotflashes SUCK!!!!!
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Honeygirl, Otter and Laura- Thanks for bringing hot flashes up. I am doing the surgical menopause route on May 20. Can not wait to see how the "no hormone thing" works out for me!!!
I do have a bitch today! Why the hell are teenagers sooooo lazy and such slobs????? I kid you not! I spent hours dissecting my two sons rooms! Mind you I have 4 sons and one daughter.
Walking into the room gave me a serious heart palpitation!!!They had Peeps from Easter under the pile and piles of clothes on their desk. Blue frickin sugar everywhere!!!! KILL,KILL,KILL was going through my mind as a continued to push on.. Let me see candy wrappers in the book case, socks and underwear everywhere! No wonder they have no undies and the socks are always mix matched!! OMG!!! The crap collection was unreal! There was certainly a bomb or something I just missed it when it hit my home in this exact spot!!!
Now you may say, well... what the hell have you been doing to let this pig sty be created? I did clean this pig sty the week of my heart surgery March 14, 08. Yes, I cleaned it all up, I do this every now and then because I am told by friends and family that I need to give them space and I am Felix Unger! I AM NOT! Anyway back to their room quite the sty that day too! I warned them looking into their sweet little faces, okay I threaten to kill them if they did not keep it clean! They did not, this is part of the problem just can not go through with my threat!!! LOL!
Man, was my heart pounding that day! Well,Low and behold the dr says that pounding and shortness of breath I experience while "loving" my children is the PVC problem they have been talking to me about! That I did not recognize. Oh I should have recognized that! I though it was just 5 teenagers!!!! And living with them, that brings out the symphony of pounding beats to my heart!
Well, back to my pigs, oh I mean Kids, the two victims of Mom's wrath today,(the other three got out of it because one is away at college the other two were working, lucky for them!!!) anyway these "rocket scientists" decide to just kinda sit there on there wee little beds saying what, what so bad??? I swear if I had a broom I would have knocked them out like the wicked witch herself!!! So hours into this nice family scene I let the prisoners go free. Only to call the youngest of the piglets home! He frequents the older sisters room while she is away at college to get away from his "retard" brother as he affectionately calls him.
So.... This youngest piglet has left quite the piggy mess! In the one DAMN room I thought was safe! I had the door closed, beware of what is behind closed doors girls!!! Oh no I found Doritos, Cheese's Its, Nilla wafers, 4 glasses, two water bottles and a soda can, this piglet is not even allowed SODA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my god! Did I get his little curly tail home! So I re-release the piglet one more time! Reminding him I love him and I have surgery Thursday so he better keep the room clean. As he scurries off nodding yeah, yeah, yeah MOM!
I continue to look into "the princess room", to make sure it is in order for her Highness when she gets home May 2. Well, the princess had brought a few items home last visit and shoved them in utter chaos into the closet! No lie she has 28 pairs, I counted, of reject shoes in the damn closet! These would be the ones not good enough for college! Bags and boxes of old books and decorations for all the holidays from her dorm! This is all her room, before the semi- truck full of sh*t comes home when hubby and I move her Highness out of the dorm on May 2!
Teenagers!!! They get jobs they spend and then I have to find somewhere for all their SH&T!!! We will have a little queen to princess, chat about donations to the needy and saving some cash when she gets back!!!!
Girls please you must remind me why the hell I had children! Right now I am sure it was to get me to the mental hospital sooner!!
Dani
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Wow Dani, quite a mega bitch going on there !!
HOW the heck do you cope with 5 teens?? half a teen would be too much for me !
I always say that if I had seriously started collecting dogs before I had my kids I just never would have had any kids.....I have 2.
When I was newly married I had 3 dogs and 2 cats....why I didn't leave it like that I 'll never know !!
I have forgotten all those stinky festering bedrooms, and unearthing strange kids from under the bedcovers. I'd go into DDs bedroom to get her up, and out would crawl 3 more for breakfast. My son was worse, he always had a roomful of unwashed young men, and as his passion for a time was shooting, there'd often be a dead rabbit or bird in there too. Luckily they soon grew up, now I get g/kids littering my house up, they have a row with DD, and shoot down to my house to lick their wounds.....no clean clothes, no money, no petrol, and they eat me out of house and home....I just want to have a nice quiet household, with none of these distractions !!!
I suppose I am a soft touch! At least I usually get them off back home in a day or so, but how you cope with 5 I don't know !!!
Good Luck with your op., make those kids work for you while you're resting up.
Isabella.
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Ahh...you had 5 kids cuz your husband is that hot cop you told us about? I think?
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Dani , I really , really , really feel for you. I only had one child. A boy. He had the messy , dirtiest , clean clothes mix in with dirty , room ever. And yes , I was told , this is his space let him be. Well , when I finally couldn't take it anymore and would force him to clean , it would take all day , and usually half the night. Because he would find things he forgot about or didn't realize he had! And the worst thing I ever found , he had fixed a "room"in the basement for he and his friends to hang out in. Well , its an unfinished basement , but had cable and a phone. Well after he left for college , I went in there to see what he left , and there were some dirty dishes that the young lads left for me. And as I went to pick up a tall plastic tumbler , there was a dead mouse in it that tried to drink the pop and fell head first in and drown! I love my son , I love my son , I love my son....
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Dani, you are a poet of rage:
Peeps from Easter...
Blue frickin sugar everywhere!!!!
I'm with honeygirl and Isabella: I could barely handle the ONE I had -- but FIVE???!!!
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