Stop Smoking Support Thread
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I am trying to post pictures.. haha its there but huge .. enjoy ladies
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Thanks LisaMarie!0 -
ok girls i nhave a appt with onc today @2:45 so late to go over my progression and whats next i'm so scared and depressed talking to him about anti-depresants tommrow i'm going to go buy the tank found it on the southside of town i hope your aqll doing great today sending lots of love and blessings
Chris
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here is my Allie Cat .. also a big Yankee fan like her mom ... haha
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Chris , I will be in your pocket today ... Best wishes and bg hugs .. and congrats on the tank
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Hugs from me too Chris! We are here!!
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Beckers, you are right behind me as the momma bear. Us two as well as others have been successful in our journey so we need to journey with the rest. First, Lisamarie, loved your photos .... first one gave me a big chuckle and the 2nd a big smile. Such a change from all of our posts. Secondly, I'm so proud of you that you made the BIG decision today .... sometimes it takes a few kicks at the can to get there, but eventually you do. Thirdly, April485 .... don't even worry about the smokes you've have .... many of us have done the same thing. Take it one step at a time. I remember getting my diagnosis and telling the bs about my smoking. He never told me anything after telling me I have cancer but turned around in his chair and said to me "why don't you just kill yourself". Thank god I wasn't suicidal .... imagine! In the end, we were o.k. But I do remember saying to my dh, if I have cancer in the lymph nodes, I'm going back to smoking. You see, I knew nothing about cancer and looked at it as the final thing. I didn't go through what others did, but the feeling is just the same .... worry, worry, worry. I've moved on but I'll never forget that I have it. Don't want it to come back but the mo said I need to think about it. Yeah, I'm thing of it .... I kicked it's silly ass to the curb. Fourthly, Chris, we are in your pocket .... hope all goes well. And last but not least, Day .... loved your story. I hear you about the time .... what we will do for a smoke. I remember stopping that and just having lots on hand .... when the OPs (other persons) came around to bum a smoke, I just said didn't have any. I needed a Bricks truck with me to protect them. How is everyone's day today .... Beckers, I went to exercise class today. Man, they need new mirrors - I look the size of a truck and I know I'm no long hauler!
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Judi , I just figured out how to post the pictures but they come out sooo big .. haha gave me something new to do than bitch about smoking and all... lol ... I think if my BS would have told me to kill myself .. I might have .. omg that is a horriable thing to say ... thank God you are still here ..
Im missing Lisa .. hope she is doing okay... hugs 0 -
Lisamarie, it was a horrible thing to say .... but you know what, it made me think. When I left his office with no information, I lit up. I was so disgusted with myself that I threw it away. Over that weekend I did smoke but not a lot .... dh was away and he would have had a fit seeming me smoke. However, I didn't have time to prepare to quit smoking because then my surgery was scheduled for the Wenesday. Come hell or high water, I was getting that surgery .... I was sick with a cold .... so lots of tequila shots and vicks vapor rub (jar said it came from India and it stunk), I went in and had the surgery. I just wasn't up to smoking afterwards so my quitting was easy for me this time. Over the 40+ years of smoking, I probably tried a dozen times with no success .... so I just gave up and smoked. Not bright thinking on my part, I say. But we all do it our own way and this was what worked only for me. I too am wondering where Lisa is. Hope she is o.k.
Are you off of work today?
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Judi , I wished I was off ..lol no I am working until Thursday then I am off for a day... but being off makes me crazier !!! I hate to be alone .. well not so alone anymore now that I have my Allie cat back .. I love her so much , she is great company .. I spoke to Lisa she is okay .. thank god .. I have exactly 3 more cigarettes to go then my patch goes on .. woop woop to the fabulous dreams tonight .. Red Boots and all .. I am soo excited . I am trying to book a trip to Florida to visit my friends there next month .. I moved back here to NY from Fla when I found out I was gonna be a grandma , now all my friends are saying come visit lisa .. sooo I think it is what I need maybe a lil sunshine , good friends , laughs ... a mini vaca
I just hate to travel alone .. jeeze why does everything in life have to be sooo scarey ... then I gotta find me a cat sitter lol... I went to bed early last night and I am feeling very sleepy now .. and I have about 4 1/2 hours until my shift is complete .. when ya do 12 hours it seems around 3 to 4 I get sleepy 
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yeah ct showed no progression since i have soreness in tumors in breast he wants me to stay on x and do radiation on breast. talk to rad onc on the 21st after my 3 month mri my only concern is the liftime radiation and them not being able to do cyberknife so i'll ask him about that. thanks for holding me in your pocket i felt it in the waiting room big time love to all
chris
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Congrats chris , glad we weren't too noisy in ur pocket today
well I smoked my last cig ...so my patch wil go on tonight . I wanna someday be in the cheering section , helping others . I am strong , I can do this , I willl do this .. hope everyone had a good Monday .. see u later tonight or .. in the morning as I have 15 minutes till time to go home from work . Hugs .. hope I feel all ur non smoking vibes while I sleep and dream tonight ... Beckers !!!! give me that smile that says Lisamarie you can do it ... and Judi ... toooo0 -
Lisamarie, I think the doctor ordered this mini vacation for you. They say things come in three's so look at what has happened: got your cat back, going on a vacation - friends, relaxing, and ? I hear you about work - I was off today and back tomorrow .... days are getting longer for me. Don't worry about the flight ... take things one step at a time. Worrying won't do you any good - wait and probably be nothing. I hope you don't have wild dreams tonight because you need some sleep - soak it all in before deciding you are going crazy. That's what life is about. I have a hell of a afternoon .... all three fire/carbon monoxide detectors went on the fritz, bought new ones which were wrong, dh had a breakdown, saw a flyer for 30% off new ones, went to home depot and they matched the price plus 10% off. Now, I'm laughing at dh because he just told me that he was cool, calm and collect. As if! I'm glad you are have a good day .... more to come. Glad to hear that you got in touch with Lisa. O.K., now I have to get the laundry out, make tea and dessert for dh, and then off to bed .... I'm beat!
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Whew! I almost lost you girls!!!!! You weren't in my favs for some reason and I thought wow, they are very quiet today for some strange reason... And I found you again! So.... Oh my Lisamarie. I am praying for you!! Yay for running out of smokes. Lots of deep breaths. I hope patch takes edge off. You just gotta hold on to the fact that you want to quit more than smoke!!!
Braids....I am so happy you got good news!!!!! You must be so relieved. Awesome.
Did we lose a Lisa?? Where are you?
April darling, how are you holding up???
I am returning to work tomorrow after 11 months!!! Can you believe such a thing? I still have so much fatigue. Suspect tamoxifen is partly to blame. I hope I can handle 8 hours! Keep me in your prayers! Only working 3 days this week. I'm just so out of shape, my boobs are too big, hot flashes suck, I've gained weight...usual stuff. Ha!0 -
Braids, I echo the other women on their comments - you must be so relieved. O.K. Beckers, it's sucks to go back doesn't it. I wasn't off as long as you - 4 months for me - and they eased me back into it. Since I live 1 1/4 hours away from work, I asked to work M, W, & F. Really wanted T,W,T but they wouldn't give it to me. I arrived and got hit with an outbreak at one of my premises. I was working way more hours then I should have. I was exhausted .... I shouldn't have let them do this but I felt kinda guilty (and I say kinda) with being off. I would come home and just sleep. Take it easy and do only what you can do. Your last comments regarding your shape, yada, yada, yada, does suck. I felt the same way and feeling the same way. I just said to my friend today, that I'm not buying clothes any bigger. I know one of the SE of my drug (Letrozole) is tiredness so I do need my sleep - only problem is I'm starting to feel like a little old lady. Yikes! So, I see the smokers trying to quit .... so I'm going to try to quit eating and lose a few pounds. It's also a hard thing to do. Relax, don't worry about tomorrow - I keep telling myself that at least I'm seeing tomorrow. Enjoy the day and see what happens!
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Hi Ladies! Ok, so I was in rare b@$*! mode today. I missed my cigars and the boyfriend lit one up right in front of me!!!!Arg!!! He told me he will quit when I start chemo. I just wanted to beat his entire little behind. So I puffed on my ecig. Made it the whole day grumpy and bitter. Got home, walked in the bedroom to find my stepson sleeping over. He's 6 years old and was fast asleep and the BF shhhs me!!!! I didn't say a word, took the ashtray, found a half smoked cigar and took a few puffs rather than tell him off. Everything and everyone was just irratating the hell out me today. So, there goes by 48 hours. Tomorrow is a new day. Waiting for my nicotine free cartriges to come in the mail. Not really enjoying the apple flavor with 18mg. Not a good mix. I ordered vanilla.
Lisamarie: love your cat! My BF has a black cat, think in his past life he was a dog. He begs for wet food, and climbs up our legs to be pet or fed. He also flips his food bowl when its empty and he wants more.
Mama Bears 1 and 2: Thank you so much for your support and kind words.
Goodnight ladies!
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Thank you Judi. I'm trying not to worry. I am proud of you for exercising! I too have to keep working on losing this weight. I almost look puffy in the face. This is not me!!! Ugh! We can do this. 5 lbs at a time right?? I am very tired on Tamoxifen but it also messes with my sleep. I don't think I will take it tonight. I do know the place I am going to so that helps. I will let you know how it goes.
Keep up good work ladies. Didn't hear from you Shawntez...hope you are working on 72 hours... and April, hope you had clean margins!! Hugs!!0 -
Hi everyone!
I only smoked two cigs today! I keep going down one at least...has been 4, then 3. Tomorrow I get my path report from my lumpie. Praying for those clean margins. I know that once that is behind me, this smoking thing will get easier!
Lisa, sweet vivid dreams!
Judi, you crack me up girl!
Beckers, best to you on your return to work!
Chris, so happy you had a good scan result!
Shawntez, this stuff is hard! No worries on the few puffs!
Good nite ladies...hoping you all have a smoke free day tomorrow. I just want tomorrow to be over with and hear those words "We got clean margins"
See you on the other side!
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Only two puffs and only two cigs?!!! You guys are doing soooooo good!!!!!!!! Sleep tight!
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Good Morning Ladies , Hey Beckers good luck going back to work today .. Im in ur pocket just for fun !.. I amde it through the night woo hoo .. but I was disappointed as I did not have any good dreams .. I actually drempt of my X boyfriend who just broke my heart so bad.. In the darn dream he said he was sorry and that he really did love me and wanted me .. UGH !!! ( i know that is really a dream ) so its about 12 1/2 hours on patch . I went to gas station this am to see id they had zero nicotine filters for the blu e cig that I have just in case I really feel overwhelmed and the guy says no we dont have that no one wants it .. jeeze go figure .. so I am hoping I will be ok .. and not be tempted to puff on the darn E cig cause it has nicotine ... and I sure as heck dont want a heart attack by nicotine OD ...
Shawntez, thanks about the cat she is my best friend ... and now I don't feel so all alone .. and don't beat yourself up over the few puffs .. you seem to be so strong ...anyway we are here to help and guide each other .. Big Hugs to you ...
Judi , I am here routing for you as you do me ..
hugs hugs hugs .. and you are so right that at least you have tomorrow .. we all do April , praying for clear clear Margins for you
Hugs and you also are doing fantastic .. I cant smoke only a few or a couple a day .. if I light one , im done I am smoking all day .. so far my patch is working rather well , I am not really having any cravings now .. I am at work doing my 12 hours as always .. hope everyone has a great day ..
Oh Yeah i stopped at the store last night and bought this yarn ball that holds catnip .. OMG my girl was so funny and in heaven I am guessing .. I am such a good mom ... It was too funny to see her rolling around with the ball
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Ok , Its 1:30 pm and I am starting to feel cravings ... yuck hate this .. keep eating and breathing and drinking water . I have no idea why I am letting this get to me ... oh boy .. wonder if I take one puff from the e cig . ???
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Sometimes life just plain sucks. I have to have a re-excision. The margins were clean but the posterior margin was <1mm and that is too close so they have to go in and get some more out of that area...so bummed. Two more days off work and I am running out of sick time and will have to dig into my vacation time
Smoked a cigarette in the car on the way home. Took the patch off first of course. I am blowing through these damn patches and then tearing them off. Nothing like wasting money.
I am really bummed!
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Big Hug April , hang in there . I am sorry you have to go through this crap yet once again
I am the same way I put patch on and rip it off and smoke , Today I am really trying ... no real cig since after 7pm last night .. and I am ging crazy .. I am having a crazy pain in my right foob all day ... wondering if I did something to cause it . today has been 3 weeks post surgery , I was thinking my internal sutures should be healed by now , but I am pushing myself at work .. today I tried to take it easy here at work , but then it makes me feel like a slug ..
Cant win I tell ya ... we r here for you April ...
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thinking of u guys bought the tank today only had 3 before i went south to buy it will see Beckers hope u had good 1st day back at work. April hope procedure goes good .i was iv out of the box so i went through very little of the stuff now 19 months out there talking radiating the breast no mx or lumectomy i'm kinda scared! at least i'll be smoke free going into it love ya all and thanks for the support
chris
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So many posts, I don't know where to start. I'm going to be rambling tonight with probably lots of typos. Beckers and Lisamarie, thanks for cheering me on regarding the weight. Damm drug has made me gain 20 lbs. (last time I looked). This morning, said to dh, that's it ..... I'm done. New pants I bought in Texas at Christmas are tight now .... only in one week. I went on, and on, and on, and said to dh I hope I don't get to 180 lbs. He said he hoped not to. Then yada,yada, yada, I didn't shut up .... dh asked me if I needed a lifesaver. Made me laugh, but so uncomfortable today. But, in the grand scheme of things, I'm doing o.k.
Ladies, keep up all of your hard work. Who cares if you had a few puffs, a few smokes. At least it wasn't a pack or two. Really, why beat yourself up. It's only taken how many years to get to this? April485, yes it sucks but it is better to have it. I think our diagnosis is very similar, and I too had to have a re-excision. I thought I knew the drill the 2nd time around, and in all honesty, it wasn't bad. That time, I have for drugs .... didn't get it the first time, so I thought why not. Don't know if I would do it again, as I was pretty hungry and ate two bowls of soup. Not a good thing to do if you get my drift. We will be there with you. Shawntez, I hear you what you went through. It always seems magnified by 100 percent when you are tying to quit and if peeved you off. Don't blame you but it will get better. Lisamarie, please take the work thing a little easier .... you are only human. Braids3, it's hard and I truly don't know what is involved for you but remember, your sistas are here for you!
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I made it!!!!!! Oh Lord was I ever fricken tired!!! Damn. Oh and Judi, I got weighed and I am up 6 more lbs. What the frig????!!! This is serious now. Fat chubby face. Ugh! Soooo, maybe I need to smoke crack or something. Ha....totally kidding just felt good to say for a sec. I treated this adorable 80 year old lady today and she pulled something from her drawer to show me. It was a Chippendales calendar with all the hunks on it. She was so cute. That's the stuff I miss.
So how are you all today? I'm very sorry April about the margins. Too bad they can't just zap it with radiation or something. That is quite small though. Hug!!0 -
has anybody tried nicotrol ns with their patches? at the hospital i go to they try to get everybody to use it with them, says it controls the short term urges. i havent quit yet, but strongly want to, and took my patches out of the drawer, and put them where i can see them. sneakin up on quittin from behind..... first time here for me on this topic. thanks. march 5 2013
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Welcome kathec! We have a great bunch tryin to quit right now. This thread really helped me quit last summer. I don't know the answer to your question but I think someone will soon. Stare those patches down girl. Tell Em to get ready to do battle with you!!!! You can do this!!
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I know you girls went out honkey tonkin without me. Go to work and look what happens! Goin' to bed. Sweet dreams!!!!!! Zzzzzzzzzzzzz!
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Hey! I'm new around here, but I know your pain firsthand, having just quit a 25+ year pack-a-day habit on August 24, 2012 just after my DCIS diagnosis. I think part of my success had to do with the fact that I used every trick in the book to come up with alternative BEHAVIORS to do when I wanted a smoke. I chewed gum. I ate hard candies and sunflower seeds in the shell. I drank hot tea, herbal tea, broth, and bouillon. I used toothpicks, minty or cinnamon toothpicks, and little plastic flossing picks. ANYTHING that kept my hands and mouth active and didn't have too many calories. One of my favorite tools was a cinnamon stick. I spent weeks walking around all day with a cinnamon stick hanging out of the corner of my mouth, puffing on it, putting it in and out of my mouth like a cigarette, gradually gnawing off the corners of it. I ate about 3/4 of a cinnamon stick every day... just a little bit at a time.
I don't know whether this will help anyone, but it seems clear to me that cigarette dependence has two parts - an addiction to nicotine, and a separate addiction to the act smoking itself. Figuring out something else to DO besides smoking really helped me a lot. I'm still collecting ideas for substitute behaviors, so if you have some of your own to add to my list, I'd love to hear them!
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