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Sas, if you’re still lurking, I apologize for not calling. I overdid it and am paying the price. My lender needed our 2016 tax return, and DH had filed for an extension (actually 2) and had the poor taste to die right as it expired. Hmph. Once again leaving me to clean up his 💩. Cousin and I spent the weekend digging through paperwork and found everything except his w2. So I had to have his company get me a copy, and they were up to their eyeballs in payroll on Monday, which is when my appointment was to get them done. So I ended up having 4 appointments in 2 days, with a trip downtown to IRS to drop off the 2016 returns and have them stamp my copy as received for my lender. But the good thing is that i got 2016 and 2017 done and will be getting a substantial refund, which will come in handy as closing day approaches.
So that was Monday and Tuesday, then Wednesday we had inspections on the new house; my sister went with me and we took my chair so I wouldn’t need to walk (and with stained concrete throughout, so easy to get around!) and of course Rose went along. DS took her outside and around the perimeter so she could mark it as her own - she seemed to know! Well it was her third visit so she may be getting the idea.
After all that I’ve been feeling kind of puny, and my lungs are kinda rattly so i’ve taken some Mucinex just in case I’m trying to come down with a URI, which is my norm when I get worn out. It didn’t help that for 3 days I talked more than I have all year! Talking just makes my lungs hurt. I can’t seem to make my other DS understand this, she texts me at 11pm and wants to call and talk. And I just can’t. Plus she’s deaf as a post so I either yell or she’s saying What? And I have to repeat myself. I lose patience.
My first bottle of CBD oil arrived today so we’ll see what that does.
If y’all promise not to drool I might post a short video of the new house. But you gotta promise. Remember it’s my dream house.
Love to all.
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ack on computers. If this one died I don't know what I would do though. I'm using an ASUS laptop w a huge monitor and wireless keyboard hooked in. So the laptop is away and behind me, less rays exposure I suppose.
I understand Pizza Hut has read wings and the best in the area. Or Wings n Things in Plymouth. hmmm, will check it out. But really makes me disappointed in the privately owned establishments. Though the firecracker shrimp salad at one place is calling me now. I want something badly then get 3 bites and cannot eat more.
Bills figured out for month are done, bills for the 1st two weeks of month are done, menu for 2 weeks done, protocol outlined.
Got up at 11:20. I did not look at self in mirror all day. Brushed my hair while sitting on the toilet. This afternoon I look like the raccoon that was bopped in the eyes. What's up? Got 11 1/2 hrs sleep.
and crossposted for shats and giggles.....
Hubby got the "You are in denial, sir." speech this afternoon. I commented on the way home that I am so awesomely sick, I cannot believe I can be so sick for so long and how is it possible. He said, "When was the last time you took some colloidal silver?" deflated, I said what I said. And how could he think that would get me better from this. About 20 minutes later I had a thought and told him he is right, it could help. Since my protocol is about killing off cancer cells I could be having a heavy burden of bacteria and colloidal silver is good for bacteria smothering. He said nothing, kept driving. I said, "Well, aren't you going to do a parade or something? cuz I said you're right." He said, "When we get home I'm making my mark on the wall, that'll do." He is such a toad.
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Sensi ~ I am so sorry...... Chance was your soul mate, as Marti was mine. To share such a strong bond and true unconditional love is a blessing. A Blessing that didn't last long enough. We lose part of our heart and soul when our best friend passes.
Chance will always be a part of you. When you meet again, he will have those pieces of your heart and soul, waiting to return to you. Being a Lab, those pieces will be soggy...... only because he has been holding them close so tight. 💗
(((hugs)) ~ Shep
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hello fellow insomniacs. You ladies must be taking s break on posting. Yesterday and today when looking for insomniacs on active thread and it’s been on page 4. Wow. Always used to be in first page. Where is everyone ???? Sleeping ??
Hootie hoo
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I guess it’s just you and me, Patty.
I took the tour of Mags new home. It is glorious.
Mags, my mother in law hums alllllllllll of the time. She must have another form of what you have.
Funny for me, I can hear songs in my mind...but when I sing I swear the dogs in the neighborhood howl
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I'm here, I was scrolling back pages trying to find out what happened to Sensi's pet. Nada.
Sensi - I hear of your loss and send hugs and love.
Beatmom - Danny Boy does not like the sound of my new voice. I use to sing blues and he stayed in the room at least.
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crossposting.....
I haven't been doing very well physically for a long time. This last month is worsening.
I feel like everyone in my inner circle has stepped back for their own reasons. I know they will come forward again as they get a grip on what they realize is happening.
DS - that I am not doing enough through western medicine to get well. That I should not be spending time on my funeral stuff and organizing accounts. Though believe it, attorney stuff and doctor stuff took my time this month, that and being so sick.
DD - even after she asks how I am and I tell her as clearly as I can she writes in chat that she still doesn't understand how I am and what my condition is. And I wrote, really rough and on a fine line between palliative / hospice at this point but doing the best I can to get well. She has not comented further for two days.
Friend - When I was railing at the wind a few days ago about how I keep hitting the wall on answers and getting help she said.... I really don't want you to get upset with me but I really believe if you accepted Jesus Christ as your Saviour this would all turn around. (I don't want to get into beliefs with anyone, please, or what I am as far as saved or not, it's personal.) But I was really stung that in her mind I was being blackmailed by her higher power. That is the only way I can understand and though I know she meant well, it just stung.
SIL - she is not really my support system but could be. She sits back and says God healed her (though she did all the chemo and mastectomy and radiation they would throw at her) and that is the way it is. So that means in her minds eye that God is choosing not to heal me, I guess. I haven't asked - I don't believe in special favours. But that is my belief.
Hubby - He keeps saying he believe I can still beat this. As he watches me clinging to the side of the cliff. That is a lot of pressure.
Tonight on Scandal the opening moral to the story was "What do people fail to do when they are in crisis?" "Realize they are in crisis."
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Mags - Beatmom posted that she had taken a tour of your new home. Did you post a link or am I missing something? I am glad you got your taxes and other paperwork organized and done. How soon before you move into your home?
Blue - I have a silly question for you. When you had your pet skunks, were they de-scented, and if so, did they still have a skunky odor? I ask only because I was talking yesterday with a woman whose dog got sprayed by a skunk in their backyard for the umpteenth time, and my question about a skunks odor after de-scenting is done. I did not know the answer.
I read your post about the people around you who just don't get it. I have to wonder if it is that they just can't face the prospect of losing you. I'm not sure what is more difficult, well meaning, but unhelpful individuals or not having anyone close who cares enough to make the effort. I am not being facetious at all. Just wondering.
SAS - I hope you get your computer up and running soon.
Seni - If you are lurking: I am so sorry for the lose of your sweet Chance!
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Today a friend and I finally made it to the bus to go to Portland to go to a specific shopping mall. Although we made on the bus, we never made it out of town. About 10 mins after starting our trip the bus we were on was involved in a crash. Two people in a mini-van that were being chased by the police lost control of the vehicle they were driving and crashed into the front of the bus. I was thrown forward into my friends lap/chest, banging my right knee on my walker and had my spine/ribs jolted. I went to the local ER where they did a CT and it showed no new/worsened fracture to my L3 or damage to my T11 where the tumor is. Kirby was also thrown over the front of my walker and was hanging by his collar under my walker. The possibility that Kirby could have been injured scared me more initially. But once I got him situated and back on my walker, I realized how much I was hurting. I explained to the EMT's my medical situation and they didn't seem in the least concerned. They had me walk off the bus, get on the gurney and once we got to the ER I was transferred to a wheelchair and left to sit in the triage area before being wheeled to a new area where a doctor spoke to me for a minute then said all I needed was an ex-ray. I heard another doctor tell him that they felt a CT was called for, so he changed his plan. They gave me one Vicodin and left me sitting there for about 4 hours. Just before discharging me the doctor told me I was probably gonna hurt like HELL tomorrow. Well that happened when the pill wore off this evening. Yay Me! NOT! I seriously don't like this hospital, but it is the only one locally and when you don't drive or have family to drive you elsewhere, you're stuck with what you've got. BLAHHHHHHH!
That hospital is the same one that sent me home 3.5 years ago in excruciating pain because they missed the tumor in my spine. So when my vertebrae snapped 5 weeks later I called a friend and her DH was kind enough to drive me to Portland. I refused to go to our local hospital. Later when I filed a complaint, their response was "Well, at least 50% of radiologist's would have missed that tumor" These kind of results are fairly common for this hospital, yet they have a lock on the area and no other hospital will ever be built here. This hospital is the largest employer in the area and spent a great deal of money last year to ensure that a bill for an employee tax to raise funds to improve/increase the busing in our State Capitol would NOT be passed, and it did fail.
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Hello ladies. Sorry I've been missing in action for a while. Thank you for the kind words and thoughts on Chance. I wanted to share some of my favorite pics of him. I was so very lucky when he came into my life 7 years ago.
I have many of his “dust bunnies" lying throughout the house. I suppose I should clean one day.
Was great to see the Sacramento ladies. Always love getting together with them.
Shep-love the new pup
Waving hello and sending ❤️ To ever
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Sensi - Thank you for sharing your memories of Chance with us!
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Sensi, What a beautiful tribute to a wonderful dog. I was in tears watching. I loved all the photos of Chance having fun and being loving. Very special dog.
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Sensi - Well, there he is. Oh those eyes, he had a happy life with you. I don't mean this is a bad way but he sure looked a lot like you in a beautiful way. Do you have other dogs at home now? Are they missing him or do they have each other?
Junie - They were desaced. The longer they went w/o being desaced the more their poo smelled of spray. But as they grew older it wore off. Unlike ferret that has the musk gland removed and still frankly smells like a ferret, skunks acquire their own aroma when desaced. Pooh, who was a wild kit turned to a pet, he ended up smelling like holiday coffee. Baby smelled like powder. Sage like weeds. Blossom like she was in heat, though she was spayed. Lacey like a flower of some kind, such a pretty smell. Jazzy like potato chips.
I would rather have people that are caring about me that I have to figure out how to deal w than to have no one. I know you aren't being facetious, it's well understood. I think it is just that they all seemed to change at once. And yes, when it looks like my case is going to end despite all efforts thus far. So it probably is that they just can't take it anohter second or they could break right in front of me. That is what my SIL does. My nurse did, we won't hold that against her. Wonderful to have a professional medical person w a real heart. I was surrounded by them for awhile, including my primary MO who moved away.
The lady bug is being clingy despite the water drops I gave 'her.'
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Hi Ladies
I'm finally joining the land of the living. I have not been out of my apartment since Monday, the day of my exchange surgery. Going CRAZY!!!! My sweet 73 year old mom needed a break, and went to TJ Maxx and Ross's. When she's in those stores, might be tomorrow before she gets back. Lol. My daughter and her boyfriend are working on a tough biology project. He's been here all day. I sit in the living room listening, and barging in her room at anytime I choose. Eyes and ears wide open.👀👀👀👀👀👀. Damn straight. She's a great girl, and she, and the boyfriend have known each other since kindergarten. I also know at 15, hormones are raging. I'm on her like white on rice.
Junie
Sorry about what you've been through. The accident, and how people are not empathetic, I'll never know. How can people in the medical field be such asses, and uncaring??? When a person chooses to go into any field to help others, you should truly be passionate about it, and bend over backwards to help!!!! Why are there sooo many rude people in the world??? I hope your pain gets better.
Loverly
Thanks for your thoughts, and yes, the exchange surgery is less painful than the mascectomy. However, there is still some pain. Each day is better. I put ice packs on my boobs a lot, and that is soothing. Taking the vicadin less, but having trouble staying on track with the antibiotic.
The itching is now more on my right lifted breast where the incisions are. Uhhhhhh😬😬😬😬. I want to yank this tape off!!!!! I can understand women who choose not to reconstruct. Although, it's a pain in the ass, it was a no brainer for me to have an implant and reconstruction. To me, although breasts do not DEFINE us as women, to me, they represent sexuality, and feminity. Hope this is worth it. God, how breast cancer changes our lives forever. And it's true, we see who really steps up to the plate, and who really loves and supports us. But I also, wonder, why do people who "love" us sometimes keep a distance?? Fear, scared, don't care??? Hmmmm.
Blue
You are very strong, and what a great hubby you have. I've read, and heard so many women who' husbands have left them due to changes in their appearances, and just can't "handle it". Also these jackasses find other women. Does the marriage vows " in sickness and health" really matter? Sorry, I'll stop now. I hope you're doing everything for you, and what about your bucket list? Is your pain under control? It seems you still have an appetite. That's good.
Well, off to take a shower. I miss my long baths. Apparently, no baths for a month.🙄🙄🙄.0 -
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Mags
WOWZERS. Just watched the video of your new home. Yes, I'm drooling. Beautiful!!!!! Lots of space. I'm a kitchen person, although I don't cook anymore. However, with that size, and the top notch appliances, I would LIVE in the kitchen. Are you living by yourself? I'm sure you have top notch security, which of course is needed these days.
I love that sink, and I've seen them, but I forget what it's called. And the master bath. Very nice. If you don't mind me asking, what is the square footage? Have you moved in, or in the process? I know you love it❤️❤️❤️❤️. What does it look like outside?0 -
Incredible house. It would fit my dreams too. And the roses in the shelving are just the finishing touch. Are you still in the same area? The storage alone makes me drool. Our house was built in 1946 when people didn't own much. If it didn't have a basement, we would have no storage at all.
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bluebird de. Whenever I see your post it reminds me of an awesome bco sis we lost. Was bluebird. It tears at my heartstrings. So many people here loved her. I am sorry
Sensi. Thanks for sharing video. So sweet
Junieb. What a day. You still feeling ok or sore ? Is there a lot of crime in your area. Thank his you were t not killed in accident. That hospital blows me away. Totally unacceptable care. I guess when they r the only game in town they can do whatever they want. How far to a different hospital ?
Sas. I haven’t seen you. Are you on a break ? Wherever you are I hope all is well
Hootie hoo
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Hottie hoo Patti, I'm back.
Quennie. It was over 50 hours to get it fixed. The touchscreen failed after and AVG scanner&update driver program ran. I had hired AVG technical service. They spent about 7-8 hours trying to fix it. They told me to contact HP. The first technician fixed the problem and a printer driver that was also corrupted. Then over from mon till fri other technicians tried to "fix more" Except the original problems returned after the second technician started working. They're was a different tech each day.
Today the original technician was back. He had a emergency out of town. Today when he got back he called. He had reviewed everyone's notes. He had everything fixed in <an hour. I asked if I call in the future may I ask for him YES. YAY. The other tech's didn't want to say he wasn't available. I kept suggesting they ask him as he was successful on the first contact.
I'm very happy right now.
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Mags, where is the virtual tour link. I very much want to see it again
Sensi, so sorry about Chance. My heart breaks with you. They are so much apart of us. Bless you and Chance.
Blue, well dear if you just try asparagus, that will certainly cure you. Duh. I agree the ones I find the most hurtful aand really condemning is that God does this i.e. either in the giving or curing. I have a strong faith, but not for vengefulness. I have a strong visual/auditory memory of my first colon cancer patient. Her Pastor husband told her she must have sinned against gold terribly for this to of happened. He wanted nothing more to do with her. That was horrible, She was devastated on so many levels.
Junie, hope you are feeling better from the accident. I got the tax paper work done. I ws so happy I screwed the days up. It meant sunday was free to spend with Donnie. Today was just adding up numbers from the remodel , medical, and mileage. The stack is ready to go for Tues.
Loverly, Thank you for the roll. I tried it once without viewing the video. I need to view it. What was that link again?
Waving to kathy, and Beatmom and all I have forgotten.......
Whoohoooooooo
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Hottie hoo Patti, I'm back.
Quennie. It was over 50 hours to get it fixed. The touchscreen failed after and AVG scanner&update driver program ran. I had hired AVG technical service. They spent about 7-8 hours trying to fix it. They told me to contact HP. The first technician fixed the problem and a printer driver that was also corrupted. Then over from mon till fri other technicians tried to "fix more" Except the original problems returned after the second technician started working. They're was a different tech each day.
Today the original technician was back. He had a emergency out of town. Today when he got back he called. He had reviewed everyone's notes. He had everything fixed in <an hour. I asked if I call in the future may I ask for him YES. YAY. The other tech's didn't want to say he wasn't available. I kept suggesting they ask him as he was successful on the first contact.
I'm very happy right now.
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OH no I wiped out along post to everyone else DARN
Mags, please redo virtual link. Also very interested in the cement floors. Considering it for the bathroom.
Sensi, so sorry about chance, they re so much apart of us. Bless you both
Loverly, Thank you for the roll. I tried it without viewing the video. Could you repost the link? Loved the lunch pictures
Blue, Just eat asparagus and you will be well hahhaha NOT.
Waving Beatmom and Kathy and whomever I missed............
Whooooooooo
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Duh, well everything is now double posted OH well............
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Sas, the previous link was taken down because the house is off the market now that I’ve signed a contract on it. So you’ll have to live with my poor video skills.
The house is actually bigger than the one we’re in now, not by a lot, it’s 2678 sq ft, but we are definitely downsizing our stuff. My cousin lives with me, does all the shopping and most of the cooking in exchange for living here, although that kitchen is so inviting I’m looking for a rolling stool so I can cook without having to stand. The sink is called a farmhouse sink. We won’t move in until after closing on March 27. Cousin doesn’t want to move Easter weekend as she’s singing 4 services between Saturday evening and Sunday morning. But we will have a lot of help. The community is gated, and walled, and there is an alarm system installed. I think that answers all the questions except what it looks like outside. Here’s the realtor pic:
Not enough roses. Needs more roses.
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I don’t want to jinx myself, but I’ve actually SLEPT 3 full nights in a row 🤫🙌🏼 So I’ve missed everyone.
Hi!!!! This week has started off with a BANG. Broke up a fight today. Kids throwing desks. Yes. Throwing. Desks. Poor sub was freaking out. Coach and I walked in and it was like magic. It got quiet. The kids stopped swinging. Ugh. Then they started calling each other names. ‘Cause that helps, right? So off they went with Coach to the office. I stayed and helped calm the frazzled nerves of the sub. I tell ya, never a dull moment.
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mags. House is awesome. Reminds me of a church.
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Mags
Love the outside as well. Now, I remember, farmsink. Yes, I could see you cooking in the great kitchen. I WANT THIS HOUSE😂😂😂😂. Lol. You will get so much enjoyment with your new place, and very much deserve it. I'm glad you have someone you can trust staying with you. Gated, great security system, yep, I think you're very safe. Please keep on a sending. Would love to see footage of the day you move in. Could be funny. Lol0 -
PattyPeppermint
I don't know how to ask, what happened with or to Blue? Not sure if I'm clear.0 -
Hi Jay, Fierce Bluebird had brain mets and passed away. She was a wonderful person. Her farm was known as Bluebird Farm. She had a shuba. Someone correct me it was a chinese dog with the curly tail. She was a large animal technician. Working in a vet center that took care of horses and big animals like that.
Ta, what was your plan that you slept three night's in a row. YAHOOOoo. Share. Poor sub teacher, Hope she comes back. Kids are so violent these days.
Mags Did you notice you have a cross at the center gable? I love the house. It is so inviting.Patti so very nice to see you here. Please come more often, Your Hootie Hooooo lways makes us happy. How are the boys doing? Update? How about you?
Tax day today. Hope I don't get hit with much.Have a great day
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Pattys not doing well. It's a friend that's posting for her. More info on the stiv thread.
https://community.breastcancer.org/forum/8/topics/...
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