2013 Survivors!!!

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  • juneaubugg
    juneaubugg Member Posts: 517
    edited January 2013

    Chrisrenee: I allow myself one day a week to (ch)eat. As long as I don't go over 3000 calories I'm good. I try, to the best of my ability, to stay under 1200/day and its my understanding you have to go over 3000 to gain 1lb. So on my cheat day I stay under that. Otherwise eating this way for me is unsustainable. I break down and totally pig the fuck out!!! I need to know I can choose one day to really enjoy food.



    Mcook: love your sketch. That first one is scary- so raw- the scary part is how we all see "her" and see ourselves in her eyes. The beauty with the long hair and breasts... Stripped bare... Makes me cry. Wish I had enough talent to have expressed my pain through that media during my darkest days. Instead you lot just got to read my rants. (Thanks again for that btw)



    Ok gotta read more if my life after cancer book... Dancing in limbo. It's helping me not feel so crazy. (Just like you all do)



    xo

  • Tazzy
    Tazzy Member Posts: 1,442
    edited January 2013

    powerful sketches mcook.    Peed my pants laughing at the yoga one.

    Just got home from a wonderful evening out.   Dinner and the local hockey game with DH and I did not fare well as far as food was concerned.   I had a toasted lobster & brie cheese sandwich with fries and salad - but it was bloody delicious.  

    Juneau it is actually bollocks.  

    Welcome Maureen - you'll find whatever it is you need right here.

    Off to bed now girls.. tired.  So will catch up tomorrow.  

    Chris:  have fun with the texas girls tomorrow.

    Love, hugs and sweet dreams xxx

  • Blessings2011
    Blessings2011 Member Posts: 1,801
    edited January 2013

    MR. FOOD!!!!! Tongue Out

    (Art Ginsberg, who recently passed away at the age of 81...)

  • juneaubugg
    juneaubugg Member Posts: 517
    edited January 2013

    Yes!!! That was it... Mr. Food!!! So sad we i heard he had passed. I can still hear him... But ooo so good. Lol. Thanks Blessings.

  • liefie
    liefie Member Posts: 761
    edited January 2013

    Okay, so I went out tonight to a friend's for dinner. The snacks before the meal I resisted - ate only a few grapes, 2 olives, and 1 small piece of salami. Also drank only diet soda the whole night. Then dinner followed: a small piece of lamb, 2 very small red baked potatoes, cooked endive and green salad. Then disaster struck. Dessert was a chocolate and apple cake with caramel sauce and ice cream. Had a fair size piece, and then another smaller piece. Oh well, will just be back to the routine tomorrow, and I did do cardio at the gym this morning for 40 minutes. Confession complete - LOL.

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited January 2013

    Gals, I'm reading all your confessions and I'm thinking it's time to start a new thread ...

    "Confessions of the 2013 Survivor's WW's Society"....we could make bets on which thread would have more posts!!.....lol



    Weekends are so tough, especially when you have an active social life, or at least have the energy to get out and do things. Soooo, instead of beating yourselves up, think where you were this time last year!!!!! enjoy the fact that you are getting out and having fun...that's a big step toward the future....the weight loss will come because you all seem determined, but it's good that you are getting out there again and enjoying life....that's the most important thing.

  • Joanne_53
    Joanne_53 Member Posts: 714
    edited January 2013

    No confessions here since I have been doing ok. I do want to say though if you do not eat enough food then you will not lose weight .... Your body is being starved and retains what it can. Also I was told not to exercise before weighing in because your muscles hold onto the water ... You will be heavier. Weigh in before you exercise.

  • juneaubugg
    juneaubugg Member Posts: 517
    edited January 2013

    Somebody posted this on a BCO forum early in my journey. I saved it and just stumbled

    Upon it again. I thought it worthy if a repost:





    TODAY'S DEEP AND MEANINGFUL MESSAGE...



    A carrot, an egg, and a cup of coffee.

    You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.

    A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

    Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

    In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl.

    Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see."

    "Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

    Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg.

    Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma the daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"

    Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.

    The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak.

    The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its insides became hardened.

    The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

    "Which are you?" she asked her daughter.

    "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond?

    Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?

    Think of this: WHICH AM I?

    Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

    Am I the egg that starts with

    a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a break-up, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff?

    Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

    Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain.

    When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

    When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest,

    do you elevate yourself to another level?

    How do you handle adversity?

    Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

    May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.

    The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the best of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

  • Joanne_53
    Joanne_53 Member Posts: 714
    edited January 2013

    Thank you Juneau for posting that ... Wow ... I would like to think I am the coffee beans but have to admit that occasionally I am the carrot and the egg.

  • Scottiee1
    Scottiee1 Member Posts: 1,790
    edited January 2013

    Jo, you wouldn't be human if you were the coffee beans 24/7 !!!!!

  • schatzi14
    schatzi14 Member Posts: 906
    edited January 2013

    wow that is food for thought...no pun intended

  • butterfly14
    butterfly14 Member Posts: 84
    edited January 2013

    Thanks Juneaubugg for posting that, something that I needed this morning!!

  • maureen1
    maureen1 Member Posts: 87
    edited January 2013

    Thanks so very much for the warm welcome and the many tips...so much wisdom and so much practical advice, I really appreciate it:) Breast cancer sometimes makes me feel so alone, it helps to know others who have overcome some of the challenges and are willing to reach out and help each otherSmile

    And...juneaubugg...thank you for sharing the story of the carrots, egg, and coffee beans, Wow, what a great message...

  • websister
    websister Member Posts: 405
    edited January 2013

    Thanks Juneaubug - it was jpmomof3 that posted the story in the summer, your repost made me think of and miss her, I hope that she is doing well, she is probably training for a marathon and/or racing around in her brand new car



    Do you think you could give us your recipe for the butternut squash soup - it sounds delicious!



  • mcook301
    mcook301 Member Posts: 314
    edited January 2013

    Good Morning





    Juneau- thanks for posting that ..I remember when someone posted that awhile back and I saved it as well.



    So ladies - my DH and I went to the casino last night ...lost my ass! But played for a long time HA I actually stayed up till 2 am and can't remember the last time I did that. Once a year adventure for me but it was fun:( I am not a good gambler because I just like to play and get obsessed with the game not then actual winning so I don't go but once a year. I had a little issue in my early thirties and it was not pretty so I have learned that I don't want that habit again but when I looked back it was not about the gambling but it was because I was unhappy and needed an escape so probably not a good time to start going because it was an escape last night:)



    I bought some smoked Alaskan salmon yesterday so had that for breakfast today! Yum! Had a gluten free half bagel and some capers so not too many calories I hope.



    I love the confessions about weekend indulges and I agree we have been through so much once and awhile it is ok to treat ourselves. I do not crave Sugar items so I am usually safe there but wine well that is a different story :) I used to have a couple of glasses each night after work and bottles with friends on weekends. Those calories add up so If I am going to have a drink going to stick with vodka :) I stopped drinking during my treatments so I have cut way back but I need to limited those glasses of vino to weekend and watch my consumption.



    I have been reading so much about a vegan diet and I don't think I can completely give up meat but I do make most of my weekly meals with out red meat or chicken. I love fish and especially shell fish but living in MN now I miss the fresh fish markets in NC and WA.



    Ok so I am going to commit to walking a half hour every day this week. Straight down to my treadmill (or the bitch as many of you call it) do my arm stretches every day.



    It is freezing here today! burrs! I hope the winds stay up though otherwise I have to be in the field tomorrow overseeing some crane work and YUK! I will try and post a pic of me all bundled up so you can laugh at my oversized coveralls. So pray for high winds till the temps warm up for me LOL



    Well I hope everyone is having a Fabulous Sunday! I am counting down my days till surgery!



  • Believe777
    Believe777 Member Posts: 540
    edited January 2013

    Good Morning-wonderful Ladies. As always you Make My Day.

    Juneau-loved the story. I'll be coffee, since its a choice!

    Scottie-always love your tips and words of encouragement.

    I got the FitnessPal app. Thanks to all who recommended it.

    Off to the Beast! Then the movies.

    Make it a great day!

  • allurbaddayswillend
    allurbaddayswillend Member Posts: 40
    edited January 2013

    mcook, don't beat yourself up about eating meat in moderation. ... We don't need to be beating ourselves up any more - we've been through the wringer. Be kind to yourself. Health conscious? Sure. But also Kind.

    (I edited comments out of here about diet&studies. I don't want to start anything or put any of you off. I left the essentials.)

  • luvmygoats
    luvmygoats Member Posts: 2,484
    edited January 2013

    Websister - I did some cyberstalking and jpmomof3 was on December 29 on Tamoxifen thread.  Same avatar.  I miss her, too.

    Juneau - I second the wanting the recipe for the butternut squash soup.  never had butternut squash.  DH would probably consider it near "poison". Kidding but would not be something he would like.  I bought kale this week.  I think I have kale chips bookmarked somewhere.  Anyone else cook with it?  No smoothies as I only have a ooooold (harvest gold color) blender. I think it was a wedding gift or at least late 70s model.  Don't see a Vitamix in the future unless I win the Lotto.  LOL But then I would at least have to buy a ticket.

    Mccook - someone won lots recently at Winstar on the penny machine $17,000. My breast CA navigator sent it in one of her weekly pick-me-ups somone went with her DH just to get her mind of BC. My kind of person and about my speed of gambling.  My idea is to only take what you can afford to loose.  Easier said than done but easier when it is 1.5 hour drive up there for us and DH has better things to do with his money.  But!!!! DH is out painting the patio roof.  The paint on the metal inner edges is flaking off and was one of his vacation projects. It's 67 degress outside. One of the perks from surviving Texas summers.  I wish we had good fresh fish and even the not so fresh is sooo expensive.

    I applaud all those on the weight loss journey.  I need to be but motivation just not there yet.  I did go walking yesterday.  Not sure of how far and not really exerted myself but at least off my butt.

  • unowhoandwhy
    unowhoandwhy Member Posts: 54
    edited January 2013

    I posted this in the TE Trouble thread, but thought I'd throw it out to you ladies because I'm freaking out a little bit!

    I had BMX w/TEs on 12/4/12 and have been pleasantly surprised to have had zero problems with them ...till two days ago. Has anyone had any experience with their TEs popping out of place? I think one of mine may have. It just doesn't look or feel right and it went from being fine to not fine in a very short space of time. I was sitting on a bench in my room, bent over & tugged on the bed skirt, did I zig when I should have zagged or something?!

    Of course it happened on a Friday! I'll be calling my PS tomorrow, just wondered if anyone else had experienced something similar? There's sort of a hard, flattish section now & it's freaking me out. Not painful, but not comfortable, either.

  • mcook301
    mcook301 Member Posts: 314
    edited January 2013

    Unwhoandwhy- I don't have experience on that but def call you PS if it does not seem right:( hope it is nothing but better have it checked out. Maybe ask on the TE thread or google it? Although I don't always believe everything I read it sometimes refers me to others that have asked questions on BC threads. Hell if you are worried call them tonight

  • Believe777
    Believe777 Member Posts: 540
    edited January 2013

    Unwhoandwhy- sorry I don't have an answer either but I'm sure someone here will be able to answer your question. I'm glad you are not in pain. I hope your answer comes quickly.

  • Tazzy
    Tazzy Member Posts: 1,442
    edited January 2013

    Hoping that the confessions at the weekend absolve the fat from our bums Laughing  

    Back at work tomorrow - definitely chemo brain as I thought I was back full time, but DH pointed out that no I am doing 6 hours a day this week.  I am quite happy about that.   Gonna do a full day tomorrow to see how it goes... and then I will be able to leave early Friday - method to my madness Wink

    Enjoyed reading your posts.  Thanks for reposting that one Juneau.

    Hope you enjoy what is left of your Sunday. 

    Peace, love & hugs xxxxxxx

  • mcook301
    mcook301 Member Posts: 314
    edited January 2013

    Hello



    Sorry funny story (or atleast I believe so) last night I crawl into bed as usual in my king bed that has plenty of room for my DH and me. I can easily have a route to pull of covers when the dreaded 3 am hot flashes occur. As Normal, at 3 am I am having a hot flash and attempt to throw off my covers only to find that for some dam reason my 120 lab/mastiff mix has decided to crawl on the bed next to me and both DH and Dog have me pinned in the covers and neither will move their big ass! My dam dog was out like a light and would not move and with my limited arm range I was screwed. So I reached for my glass of water to throw on my dog or my DH but instead ended up spilling on myself ...help with hot flash! But still I was soak and still neither of them woke up or moved! finally my dog woke up so I could get out of bed!

    My dog has rarely jumped on my bed so was not expecting that :)

  • jpmomof3
    jpmomof3 Member Posts: 198
    edited January 2013

    Hi ladies!

    Mcook, i got your message! Thanks for drawing me back in.  I should check in more often but i am glad to say that life is getting in the way.  I can't say that i have gone a day without thinking about bc, but it sure doesnt take as much of my thoughts as it used to when I was in active treatment.  I am 3 months from  my last rads and almost 7 months PFC.  No marathons yet but I am running about 4 miles when my job, kids and the weather let me.  I am looking forward to running the next Race for the Cure this spring.  I am feeling good. I am taking Tamoxifen.  Other than some spotting for a few weeks, which is gone now, i have had minimal side effects from that.  My radiated side muscles get tight but stretching helps.  I am feeling almost normal.  Not that i will ever be the same again but that can be said about a lot of things.  

    I finally ordered my fast car.  April 27 i will get my Porsche Cayman S.  I am ready to get some tickets!  

    I am glad to see and hear how you guys are doing.  Its great how many people are still so active on the forum.  I am very glad to see that most of us are done with active treatments and that some are getting ready to do their final exchange surgeries.  

    I had a benign mamogram a couple of weeks ago, whew.  My first post treatment.  I still feel my axilla for swelling nodes and test my arm for lymphedema too much.  but less and less as time goes on.

    I see most of you have a lot more hair.  Me too!  I will try to update my avatar.  

    Love!

  • luvmygoats
    luvmygoats Member Posts: 2,484
    edited January 2013

    jpmomof3 - Glad to see you almost in person. LOL. Sounds like you got your mojo back.  Yes, an updated avatar would be great.  How is work going?  Is the Porsche what you had decided on back then or did you change your mind in the meantime?

    Mcook - Thanks for PMing jpmomof3.  Sorry your lovebug trapped you in bed.  Don't think I could slug 120# of dog out of bed even with 2 good arms if he didn't want to move.  Just think you're probably keeping him warm instead of the other way around.

    WE ARE SURVIVORS!

  • mcook301
    mcook301 Member Posts: 314
    edited January 2013

    Hi jpmom- awesome glad to hear from you! So proud of you! Running and Living life!



  • juneaubugg
    juneaubugg Member Posts: 517
    edited January 2013

    Unowhat; I had that experience. I called my PS and she told me it couldn't move. That it was sutured down and sure enough a week later the discomfort passed. Hope that helps.



    Ladies; will post the soup recipe today... After I write it. I cook from my cabinet so it will be estimates of seasoning amounts.



    Mcook; lolololol!!! Bloody dogs! (Yes that includes the man!). You might try Gabepentin for your flashes. Mine are all but gone and me QOL is seriuosly better. Also helping my neuropathy on my arm.



    So I was on The Bitch yesterday. Notice when I start to sweat the numbness around my arm feels very uncomfortable. Rubbing. Like chaffing. Suppose ill have to get used to this when exercising. Anyone else??

  • SherylB
    SherylB Member Posts: 147
    edited January 2013

    mcook301, probably not funny at the time but I am lmao. Thanks for sharing, Sheryl

  • loral
    loral Member Posts: 818
    edited January 2013

    You know when I do too much with that arm, or carry something heavy, or do anything physical, the back of my arm from elbow to shoulder where it is numb all the time, itches really bad. My MO says all that is permanent...Whatever!

  • butterfly14
    butterfly14 Member Posts: 84
    edited January 2013

    Juneaubugg - I'm like Lorall anything with that arm and I feel tightness and numbness. Also, have an area where they took lymph nodes that always seems swollen, MO said no LE and no problem, just feels weird, like there is something under my arm all the time. Unfortunately, its my right arm and I am right handed.