My Husband, My Life, My Love, My Family, My Cancer

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  • marijen
    marijen Member Posts: 2,181

    So...I have just received a message from Bluebird's (Diane) niece Shannonand maybe others here have too. She has given me her email and also Diane's DH contact info. Please PM me and I will forward to you. She said Diane passed away peacefully on May 22nd surrounded by family and friends just as she wanted. So sad for my friend Diane. I did receive the news at the time while on a trip. I think her niece would really appreciate all of our responses. Thanks.

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    Lynne(Man)~ you really are something special. I am in awe of all you do, you're always planing something and always on the move. I cant remember ever doing that much. I hope you have a great time with some sweet reminiscence with your lovely friend. I enjoy going back to my neighborhood and stomping grounds when I can. Funny thing is. I recently saw on the news that they have detected that there have been some water issues that are now coming out and realizing some of the wells might have been contaminated. I read several articles about the area and was shocked to read that. Scared me some. Please be safe and enjoy your time with your friend. Hugs to you ~M~

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    Mae ~ yeah that looks yummy alright. I love anything water melon for sure. I think you’re a stand up employee, and I honestly hope they work out your bonus debacle. You really deserve the best. I hope all is well with your DH! That bike story was awful. Who Could do that?? It was a long exhausting day. That watermelon drink looks inviting to me! As does the food and friends! Hope you had a blast. Much love to you ~M~ Love your apron!

    Lynne~ (Man)~ will be in your pocket Friday! Thinking of you darling. 🌷 also Holmes has a great point sinus infections Can be something else for sure!

    Waving hello to Gracie. Thank you darling for your kind thoughts about the lovely young woman.

    Today was a hard one. Makes me see yeah... I’m getting older and I am sick but. Not 20 young. I got outside today in Alexus’s honor. I walked and sat outside while 9 of those kids that were at that funeral, they played Games in the yard and I sat with Chief and His mommy. (My second daughter). It was a good feeling to be outside with all those kids playing the trash can game for hours. I got to have them here with me. We chose to grieve together. In her honor. It was very special, If I am honest. It was a beautiful day outside, in every way. I felt honored to be surrounded by such good kids togetherness. We just need him prosecuted to the Fullest extent of the law.

  • MJHJAN1014
    MJHJAN1014 Member Posts: 622

    Mae-thanks for sharing those fabulous photos! So pleased that your job is ending on a positive note; you must feel so validated that the higher ups are fighting for your bonus, to which you are entitled.

    Micmel-delighted that you were able to go and be a part of that dear girl's service. I can see that it was so bittersweet for you and pleased that you found joy throughout such a heartbreaking day.

    Lynne(Man)-Have fun at your old haunt!

    Best to each, Mary Jane

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    thank you MJH~ Spending time with those young adults after the The funeral here at our home will always hold a specialplace in my heart. She will always hold a special place. I truly adored her. She was special. She didn't deserve such violence.... no one does. But I am glad she's at peace... I pray her family finds some peace.

    Ty for the support

    Much love ~M

  • tanya_djamila
    tanya_djamila Member Posts: 1,541

    Micmel you found peace in the midst of tragedy. You were a comfort for those in need. You’re amazing.

    Waves to all from long island NY keetmom

    Lynne NH Graannax Gracie lynnewood 50s girl Mae MJH Magda anyone I e forgotten

    Tanya

  • blueshine
    blueshine Member Posts: 247

    Good morning my dear friends!

    My precious grandson is still sleeping and I have time to say Hi! MicMel sorry that you had to go trough this tragedy. Even if I don't know the girl it hurts to see how a young life is lost, wasted.

    We are still in the crazy situation selling house and looking for houses. Moving is coming. It's good in a way, because I don't have time at all to worry about myself.

    I wish you a wanderful,sunny peaceful day! Enjoy it! It never will come back!

    Prayers and hugs to all! Elena.

  • Daniel86
    Daniel86 Member Posts: 207

    I have been reading y'all's updates in the last four pages. Lot to catch up on. LOL

    I am truly inspired by everyone's strength and will to grab life and enjoy it to the fullest, amidst all the crap that is thrown at you. We are still trying to find our new normal but looking at what y'all have going, I must say I am encouraged.

    Mae, where in Texas are y'all buying that amazing new cabin? Big Bend area? Hill Country? God I miss Texas. It seems yesterday we moved out of our apt but I guess it was destiny as Leslie was diagnosed a few months later and we would have not been able to afford treatments with my work insurance.

    Sending positive thoughts to everyone

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    Tanya~thanks honey. It was so hard to be at a 20 year olds funeral. Just didn't add up. Having the kids around was our way of being together. Loving her

    Blueshine~ hi darling it is a tragedy for sure such waste. Now they better get it together and put the person away forever.

    Daniel~ welcome back. You and your beautiful Leslie hold On tight together. Love is so powerful. I feel it through my DH everyday. your love for her is her strength and your precious child. I always love to see loving families. It's truly why we fight I believe l! Ive never been to Texas. But our travel correspondent Mae has been traveling around some! Good to see you again! Nothing but blessings to Leslie..... much love to all ~M~

  • illimae
    illimae Member Posts: 5,739

    Daniel, I’m in Houston but the cabin is in the Ft. Davis/Alpine/Marfa area. DH and I just love it out there. Heading back out there next week to do some chores 🙂

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    Mae~everyone loves your cabin. Yay cabin. I'm so excited for you. No job to worry about, Just you and your DH. So special!

    Waving hello to Mae~ Daniel, Leslie... Elle, Tanya, Blueshine, our beautiful Lynne's (Man and 50's), MJH, Gracie, Chelle , Nan, Holmes my sweet friend....Minnie..... I haven't seen Divine? Hope she's posting else where and she's just busy as a bee! Grannax, thinking of you and your daughter. Lynnwood...Katyk....runor.... Jaycee...robin say hi to Willy for me please! I slept all day long. I'm recovering from that long week of worrying and stressing over this poor beautiful girls death. It just will take some time. A long time. Bless her mother, Mary. Much love ~M~

  • runor
    runor Member Posts: 1,615

    Thinking of you Micmel, and all the ladies who reside on this thread. Hugs all around.

  • bella2013
    bella2013 Member Posts: 370

    Runor, beautiful...

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    hugs and always very nice to see you here Runor. I always look for your postings and such clever humor.

    Welcome to the thread Bella..... it’s nice to see you. Nothing like reading rumors postings. Always wonderful and humorous!! Nice to meet you!!

    ~M~

  • Lynne
    Lynne Member Posts: 368

    Hello everyone! Hope all is well!

    I had a ball with my friend on Tuesday. We left at 9am and got back at 6:45! We stopped to see our old state icon, The Old Man of the Mountain. He fell off the mountain about 10 years ago. They have a kind of memorial for him there. You could see him from the highway. There is still rock up there but the face is gone. We got lost for awhile going to our old workplace. We asked someone, and we were on the wrong side of the river. We found it, and it looked mostly like it did in 1977, where we lived and worked for July and August. Cabins were painted now, and there were two more. There was nobody there! We peeked in windows, and walked around. It brought back lots of good memories. Lots of laughs! It's now a 4H camp. On the way home, we missed the exit that would have made our trip 45 minutes shorter! I felt bad for my friend, who did all the driving, she still had to drive back home first to her parents (who are in the same city as me) then to her house in RI (another 2 hour drive). She just messaged me and said I forgot my jacket in the back of her car. She's coming back this weekend and will give it to me then. Here are a few pics she took on Tues. It was a beautiful day!

    imageThis is what the Old Man looks like now.

    imageThey have a neat line up of posts, by your height, and it puts the old man back on the mountain.

    imageThere were two cabins on top of the hill (the girls) and two on the bottom (the boys) 24 high schoolers.

    imageThere were also 5 adults. One head leader. The other 4 were in charge of 6 of us each while we worked.

    Lynne

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    Lynne~ amazing blue sky wow. Looks like the most perfect day possible. I am thrilled you had such fun with your friend. Those memories are so special. I love the greenery. It's amazing all you do, honestly, you put me To shame. I think you're pretty adventurous!!! Very awesome how much you seem to travel. I'm in awe.. welcome back....... Old man of the mountain. Is something I had never heard of. Thank you so very much for sharing. Glad you're safe!! Much love ~M~

  • MJHJAN1014
    MJHJAN1014 Member Posts: 622

    Lynne(Man) Oh, I know the Old Man of the Mountains so well! Spent so much time there with my family growing up! My sister's husband grew up in Holderness. I was bummed when his face fell off! I love those cabins! Stayed in similar places often as a kid! Must have been a wonderful summer back then! Love to you, Mary Jane

  • MJHJAN1014
    MJHJAN1014 Member Posts: 622

    P.S. I was bummed when the old man's face fell off; My brother in law still has his face!

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    is there is picture of what his face used to look like? I am interested!! It's so awesome you both know where this place is! Wow. Today ladies the DD moves out. I can't believe it but it's true. Today Is the day.... I realized that by my being out Monday in public is always bad for me. I remember after having one of the young ladies crying in my arms. She mentioned having just gotten over a sinus infection. This morning I wake up , my throat is sore and it's one side of the gland in my throat that is swollen. When I cough it hurts. I feel like something is brewing. Just from going out to public One time. Ugggghhhhhh!!!! Much love ~M~

  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    imageI am a spring baby!! Amazing cancer made me depressed!!

  • GracieM2007
    GracieM2007 Member Posts: 1,255

    I have the first of three cyber knife sessions on my brain today!!! Am a total mess!

    Micmel, I’m sure today is going to be such a mix of feelings for you! You are in my thoughts and prayers!

    Lynne, sounds like a winderful time! MJH, Micmel and Lynne, so cool you all have such memories in common!

    Mae, that’s a beautiful area, I have been down there once years and years ago

  • 50sgirl
    50sgirl Member Posts: 2,071

    Gracie, I misread your message, so I am now re-writing mine. I have never had the treatment, but I understand how upsetting it would be to face it. I do understand why it would have an emotional . Take a few deep breaths. You can do this. If it were me, I would close my eyes and think of something special and enjoyable during treatments. I would think about a warm sunny beach, my grandchildren, my children, a shady park, a mountain top. I know that will be hard to do, but I always find that I need to find some way to "escape". We will be there with you. You can do this. One day at a time. My prayers for you continue. Let us know how it goes. I am still sending you that virtual hug.

    Hugs and prayers from, Lynne


  • 50sgirl
    50sgirl Member Posts: 2,071

    Lynne, Your pictures brought back memories. I miss the Old Man. I always looked up at it when we rode through the notch. There was something comforting about seeing that face up there looking out over the world. I still look up there whenever we go by. I think that I secretly hope that his face will miraculously reappear some day. You have had some wonderful experiences lately - the Minis trip, the U2 concert, the visit to the camp and The Old Man park. I hope you visit to MO office goes well today. How do you like being an empty nester? My 13 year old grandson has been with us for the past few days. It is a joy to have him here, but an empty nest is not a bad thing.

    Micmel, I am also a spring baby, but the depression curse passed me by. I am lucky. I hope you are feeling better. Your house will be a lot quieter and cleaner very soon. Rest up and drink plenty of fluids to fight off whatever you might be coming down with.

    I will try to catch up with the posts and write more soon. In the meantime, I am thinking of and praying forall of you.

    Hugs and prayers from, Lynne


  • micmel
    micmel Member Posts: 10,057

    Gracie~ you are onmy mind And we are in your pocket! We have to have positive vibes here. Too much sadness lately and I am not liking it. I adore you my friend and will be waiting to see it all done,and you're being home and relaxing with Ativan! Love you

    They say things run in threes. Who these people “they" are i willnever know but, for some crazy reason it seems to be accurate. First it was our beautiful young woman from my town being murdered. Then Wednesday I found out that someone I went to school with was struck by a train and didn not survive. He was 48. Then I find out my niece, who is part of my estranged family, OD'd and was clinging to life by a thread. The second she was finally brought too, slap😦😦😦 back in jail. Violation of the probation. She should be in a secure rehab. The said the next time she does that. She won't survive. Her brain and heart are too damaged. She is 26 I believe. More waste.

    These three things suck! Am I the only one who sees things happen in threes or amI just crazy? Friday super Friday yay! Much love to all ~M~

    Gracie~ one day at a time. One test at a time. We have no choice. I am here sweet friend

  • Lynnwood1960
    Lynnwood1960 Member Posts: 1,107
    Gracie, our thoughts are with you as you undergo your first session. Hopefully after the first one is done, you will know what to expect and it won't be as stressful. Many ladies have had much success with cyber knife and I pray that you do too. Please let us know how everything went. Picture all of us as angels sitting on your shoulder during your treatment...a friend of mine told me this when I had my mastectomy and I really did visualize this and it helped with my nerves.
  • 50sgirl
    50sgirl Member Posts: 2,071

    Gracie, Imisread your message, so I am now re-writing mine. I have never had the treatment, but I understand how upsetting it would be to face it. I do understand why it would have an emotional . Take a few deep breaths. You can do this. If it were me, I would close my eyes and think of something special and enjoyable during treatments. I would think about a warm sunny beach, my grandchildren, my children, a shady park, a mountain top. I know that will be hard to do, but I always find that I need to find some way to "escape". We will be there with you. You can do this. One day at a time. My prayers for you continue. Let us know how it goes. I am still sending you that virtual hug.

    Hugs and prayers from, Lynne

  • Lynne
    Lynne Member Posts: 368

    Gracie-I pray your procedure goes off without a hitch.

    Micmel-Hurray! It's good your DD is leaving. I know you will miss her, but now you will have some peace.

    MJH and Lynne-I too have many memories of the Old Man. We went camping all the time as kids, and later with our own kids. Always waved as we went past.

    We found out yesterday that my mother-in-law was diagnosed with breast cancer. She's a very busy 85 yr old. My father-in-law is 86. He hasn't been able to drive since they came home from FL in May. His legs and back bother him. She's been doing all the driving for all his appointments. They live an hour from us and a half hour from the drs and hospital. She drives an hour to his chiropractor, once a week. She said she can not drive to her grandson's wedding in VT. I said that she has 4 kds and 13 grandkids who could drive them. It's in August. She is scheduled for a lumpectomy and sentinal node biopsy (what I had) in 2 1/2 weeks. Her tumor is 1 cm. Mine was 1.5 cm. She is not sure what she is going to do. I'm going to tell her about this website. Please say a prayer for her. Her name is Elaine.

    Oncology appointment this afternoon. Let's see if they draw the correct tumor marker this time! Wish me luck!

    Micmel-Here is a picture of the Old Man before he fell off the mountain.

    image

    Have a good Fri everyone!

    Lynne

  • 50sgirl
    50sgirl Member Posts: 2,071

    Lynne, Geez, I am sorry to hear about your mother-in-law's diagnosis. I have already added her to my prayers. I hope her surgery and treatment go smoothly. I am sitting here shaking my head. Cancer is everywhere. How is your DH handling the news? I hope your MO visit goes smoothly this afternoon and the lab does the right test this time. I see my MO on Monday.

    Hugs and prayers from, Lynne


  • GracieM2007
    GracieM2007 Member Posts: 1,255

    Micmel!! Oh gosh!!! Life is just throwing you curveball after curveball!!! I am so sorry for the loss of your friend and also will say prayers that your niece can kick her addictions and lead a normal life!!! Hugs!!! And will take you and others with me when I go in for this treatment

    Lynne, thank you so much for your prayers!!! Sending you big hugs!!!

    Lynwood, am going to try some visualization! You and Lynne have both given me good suggestions, and yes I do think it’s just this first one, being the unknown!!!


  • holmes13
    holmes13 Member Posts: 192

    Gracie you're in my prayers today. Hopefully once you know what to expect it won't be so stressful next time. How often do you have to have it done?

    micmel I am a firm believer that things happen in 3s. Just have never seen it that drastic before. Hopefully your niece will figure things out before it's too late.